Текст книги "The Gambler and other stories. Poor People. The Landlady"
Автор книги: Федор Достоевский
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to flash, and Katerina seemed to turn pale with dread and expectation. Then something like a smile came into the old man's face and Katerina began laughing softly: Sometimes tears came into her eyes; then the old man tenderly stroked her on the head like a child, and she embraced him more tightly than ever with her bare arm that gleamed like snow, and nestled even more lovingly to his bosom.
At times Ordynov still thought this was part of his dream; in fact, he was convinced of it; but the blood rushed to his head and the veins throbbed painfully in his temples. He let go of the nail, got off the bed, and staggering, feeling his way Uke a lunatic, without understanding the impulse that flamed up like fire in his blood, he went to the door and pushed violently; the rusty bolt flew open at once, and with a bang and a crash he suddenly found himself in the middle of the landlord's bedroom. He saw Katerina start and tremble, saw the old man's eyes flash angrily under his lowering brows, and his whole face contorted witii sudden fury. He saw the old man, still keeping close watch upon him, feel hurriedly with fumbling hand for a gun that hung upon the wall; then he saw the barrel of the gun flash, aimed straight at his breast with an uncertain hand that trembled with fury. . . . There was the sound of a shot, then a wild, almost unhuman, scream, and when the smoke parted, a terrible sight met Ordynov's eyes. Trembling all over, he bent over the old man. Murin was lying on the floor; he was writhing in convulsions, his face was contorted in agony, and there was foam upon his working lips. Ordjmov guessed that the unhappy man was in a severe epileptic fit. He flew, together with Katerina, to help him . . .
CHAPTER III
THE whole night was spent in a^tation. Next day Ordjmov went out early in the morning, in spite of his weakness and the fever that stiU hung about him. In the yard he met the porter again. This time the Tartar lifted his cap to him from a distance and looked at him with curiosity. Then, as though pulling himself together, he set to work with his broom, glancing askance at Ordjmov as the latter slowly approached him.
"WeU, did you hear nothing in the night?" asked Ordjmov.
"Yes, I heard."
"What sort of man is he? Who is he?"
"Self took lodgings, self should know; me stranger."
"Will you ever speak?" cried Ordynov, beside himself with an access of morbid irritability.
"What did me do? Your fault^^you frightened the tenants. Below lives the cof&n-maker, he deed, but heard it all, and his wife deaf, but she heard, and in the next yard, far away, they heard. I go to the overseer."
"I am going to him myself," answered Ordynov; and he went to the gate.
"As you will; self took the room. . . . Master, master, stay."
Ordynov looked round; the porter touched his hat from poUteness.
"WeU!"
"If you go, I go to the landlord."
"What?"
"Better move."
"You're stupid," said Ordynov, and was going on again.
"Master, master, stay." The porter touched his hat again and grinned. "Listen, master: be not wrathful; why persecute a poor man? It's a sin to persecute a poor man. It is not God's law—do you hear?"
"You listen, too: here, take that. Come, what is he?"
"What is he?"
"Yes."
"I'll tell you without money."
At this point the porter took up his broom, brandished it once or twice, then stopped and looked intently, with an air of importance, at Ordynov.
"You're a nice gentleman. If you don't wamt to live with a good man, do as you like; that's what I say."
Then the Tatar looked at him still more expressively, and fell to sweeping furiously again.
Making a show of having finished something at last, he went up to Ordynov mysteriously, and with a very expressive gesture pronounced—
"This is how it is."
"How—what?"
"No sense."
"What?"
"Has flown away. Yes! Has flown away!" he repeated in a still more mysterious tone. "He is ill. He used to have a
barge, a big one, and a second and a third, used to be on the Volga, and me from the Volga myself. He had a factory, too, but it was burnt down, and he is off his head."
"He is mad?"
"Nayl . . . Nay! . . ." the Tatar answered emphatically. "Not mad. He is a clever man. He knows everything; he has read many books, many, many; he has read everything, and tells others the truth. Some bring two roubles, three roubles, forty roubles, as much as you please; he looks in a book, sees and tells the whole truth. And the money's on the table at once—^nothing without money!"
At this point the Tatar positively laughed with glee, throwing himseU into Murin's interests with extreme zest.
"Why, does he tell fortunes, prophesy?"
"H'm! ..." muttered the porter, wagging his head quickly. "He tells the truth. He prays, prays a great deal. It's just that way, comes upon him."
Then the Tatar made his expressive gesture again.
At that moment someone called the porter from the other 37ard, and then a little, bent, grey-headed man in a sheepskin appeared. He walked, stumbling and looking at the ground, groaning and muttering to himself. He looked as though he were in his dotage.
"The master, the master!" the porter whispered in a fluster, with a hurried nod to Ordynov, and taking off his cap, he ran to meet the old man, whose face looked familiar to Ordynov; he had anjnvay met him somewhere just lately.
Reflecting, however, that there was nothing remarkable in that, he walked out of the yard. The porter struck him as an out-and-out rogue and an impudent fellow.
"The scoimdrel was practically bargaining with me!" he thought. "Goodness knows what it means!"
He had reached the street as he said this.
By degrees he began to be absorbed in other thoughts. The impression was unpleasant, the day was grey and cold; flakes of snow were flying. The young man felt overcome by a feverish shiver again; he felt, too, as though the earth were shaking under hmi. All at once an unpleasantly sweet, familiar voice wished him good-morning in a broken tenor.
"Yaroslav Ilyitch," said Ordynov.
Before him stood a short, sturdy, red-cheeked man, apparently about thirty, with oily grey eyes and a little smile, dressed ... as Yaroslav Ilyitch always was dressed. He was holding
out his hand to him in a very amicable way. Ordynov had made the acquaintance of Yaroslav Ilyitch just a year before in quite a casual way, almost in the street. They had so easily become acquainted, partly by chance and partly through Yaroslav Ilyitch's extraordinary propensity for picking up everywhere good-natured, well-bred people, and his preference for friends of good education whose talents and elegance of behaviour made them worthy at least of belonging to good society. Though Yaroslav Ilyitch had an extremely sweet tenor, yet even in conversation with his dearest friends there was something extraordinarily clear, powerful and dominating in the tone of his voice that would put up with no evasions; it was perhaps merely due to habit.
"How on earth . . . ?" exclaimed Yaroslav Iljdtch, with an expression of the most genuine, ecstatic pleasure.
"I cim living here."
"Have you Uved here long?" Yaroslav Ilyitch continued on an ascending note. "And I did not know it! Why, we are neighbours! I am in this quarter now. I came back from the Ryazan province a montii ago. I've caught you, my old and noble friend!" and Yaroslav Iljdtch laughed in a most good-natured way. "Sergeyev!" he cried impressively, "wait for me at Tarasov's, cind don't let them touch a sack without me. And stir up the Olsufyev porter; tell him to come to the ofi&ce at once. I shall be there in an hour. . . ."
Hurriedly giving someone this order, the refined Yaroslav Ilyitch took Ordynov's arm and led him to the nearest restaurant.
"I shall not be satisfied till we have had a couple of words alone after such a long separation. Well, what of your doings?" he pronoimced almost reverently, dropping his voice mysteriously. "Working at science, as ever?"
"Yes, as before," answered Ordynov, struck by a bright idea.
"Splendid, Vassily Mihalitch, splendid!" At this point Yaroslav Ilyitch pressed Ordynov's hand warmly. "You will be a credit to the community. God give you luck in your career. . . . Goodness! how glad I am I met you! How often I have thought of you, how often I have said: 'Where is he, our good, noble-hearted, witty Vassily Mihalitch?' "
They engaged a private room. Yaroslav Ilyitch ordered lunch, asked for vodka, and looked feelingly at Ordynov.
"I have read a great deal since I saw you," he began in a
timid and somewhat insinuating voice. "I have read all Pushkin . . ."
Ord3mov looked at him absent-mindedly.
"A marvellous understanding of human passion. But first of all, let me express my gratitude. You have done so much for me by nobly instilling into me a right way of thinking."
"Upon my word . . ."
"No, let me speak; I always like to pay honour where honour is due, and I am proud that this feeling at least has found expression."
"Really, you are unfair to yourself, and I, indeed ..."
"No, I am quite fair," Yaroslav Ilyitch replied, with extraordinary warmth. "What am I in comparison with you?"
"Good Heavens!"
"Yes. . . ."
Then followed silence.
"Following your advice, I have dropped many low acquaintances and have, to some extent, softened the coarseness of my manners," Yaroslav Ilyitch began again in a somewhat timie and insinuating voice. "In the time when I am free from my duties I sit for the most part at home; in the evenings I read some improving book and ... I have only one desire, Vassily Mihalitch: to be of some Uttle use to the fatherland. ..."
"I have always thought you a very high-minded man, Yaroslav Ilyitch."
"You always bring balm to my spirit . . . you generous young man. ..."
Yaroslav Ilyitch pressed Ordynov's hand warmly.
"You are drinking nothing?" he said, his enthusiasm subsiding a little.
"I can't; I'm ill."
"111? Yes, are you really? How long—^in what way—did you come to be ill? If you like I'll speak . . . What doctor is treating you? If you like I'll speak to our parish doctor. I'll run round to him myself. He's a very skilful man!"
Yaroslav Ilyitch was already picking up his hat.
"Thank you very much. I don't go in for being doctored. I don't like doctors."
"You don't say so? One can't go on like that. But he's a very clever man," Yaroslav Ilyitch went on imploringly. "The other day—do allow me to tell you this, dear Vassily Mihalitch —^the odier day a poor carpenter came. 'Here,' said he, 'I hurt my hand with a tool; cure it for me. . . .' Semyon Pafnut-
yitch, seeing that the poor fellow was in danger of gangrene, set to work to cut off the wounded hand; he did this in my presence, but it was done in such a gener . . . that is, in such a superb way, that I confess if it had not been for compassion for suffering humanity, it would have been a pleasure to look on, simply from curiosity. But where and how did you fall ill?"
"In moving from my lodging . . . I've only just got up."
"But you are still very unwell and you ought not to be out. So you cire not living where you were before? But what induced you to move?"
"My landlady was leaving Petersburg."
"Domna Savishna? Really? ... A thoroughly estimable, good-hearted woman! Do you know? I had almost a son's respect for her. That life, so near its end, had something of the serene dignity of our forefathers, and looking at her, one seemed to see the incarnation of our hoaiy-headed, stately old traditions ... I mean of that. . . something in it so poeticall" Yaroslav Ilyitch concluded, completely overcome with shyness and blushing to his ears.
"Yes, she was a nice woman."
"But allow me to ask you where you are settled now."
"Not far from here, in Koshmarov's Buildings."
"I know him. A grand old man! I am, I may say, almost a real friend of his. A fine old veteran!"
Yaroslav Ilyitch's Ups almost quivered with enthusiasm. He asked for another glass of vodka and a pipe.
"Have you taken a flat?"
"No, a furnished room in a flat."
"Who is your landlord? Perhaps I know him, too."
"Murin, an artisan; a tall old man . . ."
"Murin, Murin; yes, in the back court, over the coffin-maker's, allow me to ask?"
"Yes, yes, in the back court."
"H'm! are you comfortable there?"
"Yes; I've only just moved in."
"H'm! ... I only meant to say, h'm! . . . have you noticed nothing special?"
"Really . . ."
"That is ... I am sure you will be all right there if you are satisfied with your quarters. ... I did not mean that; I am ready to warn you . . . but, knowing your character . . . How did that old artisan strike you?"
"He seems to be quite an invalid."
"Yes, he's a great sufferer. . . . But have you noticed nothing? Have you talked to him?"
"Very little; he is so morose and unsociable."
"H'm! . . ." Yaroslav Ilyitch mused. "He's an unfortunate man," he said dreamily.
;is he?"
"Yes, unfortunate, and at the same time an incredibly strange and interesting person. However, if he does not worry you . . . Excuse my dwelling upon such a subject, but I was curious . . ."
"And you have really roused my curiosity, too. ... I should ■very much hke to know what sort of a man he is. Besides, I am living with him. . . ."
"You know, they say the man was once very rich. He traded, as most likely you have heard. But through various unfortunate circumstances he was reduced to poverty; many of his barges were wrecked in a storm and lost, together with their cargo. His factory, which was, I believe, in the charge of a near and dear relation, was equally unlucky and was burnt down, and the relation himself perished in the flames. It must be admitted it was a terrible loss! Then, so they say, Murin sank into tearful despondency; they began to be afraid he would lose his reason, and, indeed, in a quarrel with another merchant, also an owner of barges plying on the Volga, he suddenly showed himself in such a strange an unexpected light that the whole incident could only be accounted for on the supposition that he was quite mad, which I am prepared to believe. I have heard in detail of some of his queer ways; there suddenly happened at last a very strange, so to say momentous, circumstance which can only be attributed to the malign influence of wrathful destiny."
"What was it?" asked Ordynov.
"They say that in a fit of madness he made an attempt on the life of a young merchant, of whom he had before been very fond. He was so upset when he recovered from the attack that he was on the point of taking his own life; so at least they say. I don't know what happened after that, but it is known that he was several years doing penance. . . . But what is the matter with you, Vassily Mihalitch? Am I fatiguing you with my artless tale?"
"Oh no, for goodness' sake . . . You say that he has been doing penance; but he is not alone."
"I don't know. I am told he was alone. Anyway, no one else was mixed up in that affair. However, I have not heard what followed; I only know ..."
"Well?"
"I only know—that is, I had nothing special in my mind to add ... I only want to say, if you find anything strange or out of the ordinary in him, all that is merely the result of the misfortunes that have descended upon him one after the other. . . ."
"Yes, he is so devout, so sanctimonious."
"I don't think so, Vassily Mihalitch; he has suffered so much; I believe he is quite sincere."
"But now, of course, he is not mad; he is all right."
"Oh, yes, yes; I can answer for that, I am ready to take my oath on it; he is in full possession of all his faculties. He is only, as you have justly observed, extremely strange and devout. He is a very sensible man, in fact. He speaks smartly, boldly and very subtly. The traces of his stormy life in the past are still visible on his face. He's a curious man, and very well read."
"He seems to be always reading religious books."
"Yes, he is a mystic."
"What?"
"A mystic. But I tell you that as a secret. I will tell you, as a secret, too, that a very careful watch was kept on him for a time. The man had a great influence on people who used to go to him."
"What sort of influence?"
"But you'll never believe it; you see, in those days he did not live in this building; Alexandr Ignatyevitch, a respectable citizen, a man of standing, held in universal esteem, went to see him with a lieutenant out of curiosity. They arrive and are received, and the strange man begins by looking into their faces. He usually looks into people's faces if he consents to be of use to them; if not, he sends people away, and even very uncivilly, I'm told. He asks them, 'What do you want, gentlemen?' 'Well,' answers Alexandr Ignatyevitch, 'your gift can tell you that, without our sa3dng.' 'Come with me into the next room,' he sa)^; then he signified which of them it was who needed his services. Alexandr Ignatyevitch did not say what happened to him afterwards, but he came out from him as white as a sheet. The same thing happened to a well-known lady of high rank: she, too, came out from seeing him as white
as a sheet, bathed in tears and overcome with his predictions and his sayings."
"Strange. But now does he still do the same?" , "It's strictly prohibited. There have been marvellous instances. A young comet, the hope and joy of a distinguished family, mocked at him. 'What are you laughing at?' said the old man, angered. 'In three days' time you will be like this 1' and he crossed his arms over his bosom to signify a corpse."
"Well?"
"I don't venture to believe it, but they say his prediction came true. He has a gift, Vassily Mihalitch. . . . You are pleased to smUe at my guileless story. I know that you are greatly ahead of me in culture; but I believe in him; he's not a charlatan. Pushkin himself mentions a similar case in his works."
"H'ml I don't want to contradict you. I think you said he's not living alone?"
"I don't know ... I believe his daughter is with him."
"Daughter?"
"Yes, or perhaps his wife; I know there is some woman with him. I have had a passing glimpse of her, but I did not notice."
"H'm! Strange ..."
The young man fell to musing, Yaroslav Ilyitch to tender contemplation of him. He was touched both at seeing an old friend and at having satisfactorily told him something very interesting. He sat sucking his pipe with his eyes fixed on Vassily Mihalitch; but suddenly he jumped up in a fluster.
"A whole hour has f)assed and I forgot the time! Dear Vassily Mihalitch, once more I thank the lucky chance that brought us together, but it is time for me to be off. Will you allow me to visit you in your learned retreat?"
"Please do, I shall be delighted. I will come and see you, too, when I have a chance."
"That's almost too pleasant to believe. You gratify me, you gratify me unutterably 1 You would not believe how you have delighted me!"
They went out of the restaurant. Sergeyev was already flying to meet them and to report in a hurried sentence that Vilyam Emelyanovitch was pleased to be driving out. A pair of spirited roans in a smart light gig did, in fact, come into sight. The trace horse was particularly fine. Yaroslav Ilyitch pressed his best friend's hand as though in a vice, touched his
hat and set off to meet the flying gig. On the way he turned round once or twice to nod farewells to Ordynov.
Ordynov felt so tired, so exhausted in every limb, that he could scarcely move his legs. He managed somehow to crawl home. At the gate he was met again by the porter, who had been dihgently watching his parting from Yaroslav Ilyitch, and beckoning him from a distance. But the young man passed him by. At the door of his flat he ran full tilt against a little grey-headed figure coming out from Murin's room, looking on the ground.
"Lord forgive my transgressions!" whispered the figure, skipping on one side with the springiness of a cork.
"Did I hurt you?"
"No, I humbly thank you for your civility. . . . Oh, Lord, Lord!"
The meek little man, groaning and moaning and muttering something edifying to himself, went cautiously down the stairs. This was the "master" of the house, of whom the porter stood in such awe. Only then Ordynov remembered that he had seen him for the first time, here at Murin's, when he was moving into the lodging.
He felt unhinged and shaken; he knew that his imaginatiffli and impressionabilify were strained to the utmost pitch, and resolved not to trust himself. By degrees he sank into a sort of apathy. A heavy oppressive feeling weighed upon his chest. His heart ached as though it were sore all over, and his whole soul was full of dumb, comfortless tears.
He fell again upon the bed which she had made him, and began Ustening again. He heard two breathings: one the heavy broken breathing of a sick man, the other soft but uneven, as though also stirred by emotion, as though that heart was beating with the same yearning, with the same passion. At times he heard the rustle of her dress the faint stir of her soft light steps, and even that faint stir of her feet echoed with a vague but agonisingly sweet pang in his heart. At last he seemed to distinguish sobs, rebelUous sighs, and at last, praying again. He knew that she was kneeling before the ikon, wringing her hands in a frenzy of despair! . . . Who was she? For whom was she praying? By what desperate passion was her heart torn? Why did it ache and grieve and pour itself out in such hot and hopeless tears?
He began to recall her words. All that she had said to him was still ringing in his ears like-music, and his heart lovingly
responded with a vague heavy throb at every recollection, every word of hers as he devoutly repeated it. . . . For an ^ instant a thought flashed through his mind that he had dreamed all this. But at the same moment his whole being ached in swooning anguish as the impression of her hot breath, her words, her kiss rose vividly agedn in his imagination. He closed his eyes and sank into obUvion. A clock struck somewhere; it was getting late; twilight was falling. —
It suddenly seemed to him ttiat she was bending over him again, that she was looking into his eyes with her exquisitely clear eyes, wet with sparkling tears of serene, happy joy, soft and bright as the infinite turquoise vault of heaven at hot midday. Her face beamed with such triumphant peace; her smile was warm with such solemnity of infinite bliss; she leaned with such sympathy, with such childlike impulsiveness on his shoulder that a moan of joy broke from his exhausted bosom. She tried to tell him something, caressingly she confided something to him. Again it was as though heartrending music smote upon his hearing. Greedily he drank in the air, warm, electrified by her near breathing. In anguish he stretched out his arms, sighed, opened his eyes. . . . She stood before him, bending down to his face, all pale as from fesir, all in tears, all quivering with emotion. She was saying something to him, entreating him with half-bare arms, clasping and wringing her hands; hie folded her in his arms, she quivered on his bosom . . .
PART II CHAPTER I
WHAT is it? What is the matter with you?" said Ordynov, waking up completely, still pressing her in his strong, warm embrace. "What is the matter with you, Katerina? What is it, my love?"
She sobbed softly with downcast eyes, hiding her flushed face on his breast. For a long while she could not speak and kept trembling as though in terror.
"I don't know, I don't know," she said at last, in a hardly audible voice, gasping for breath, and scarcely able to articulate. "I don't know how I came here . . ." She clasped
him even more tightly, with even more intensity, and in a violent irrepressible rush of feeling, kissed his Moulder, his hands, his chest; at last, as though in despair, she hid her face in her hands, fell on her knees, and buried her head in his knees. When Ordynov, in inexpressible anguish, lifted her up impatiently and made her sit down beside him, her whole face glowed with a full flush of shame, her weeping eyes sought forgiveness, and the smile that, in spite of herself, played on her lip could scarcely subdue the violence of her new feeling. Now she seemed again frightened, mistrustfully she pushed away his hand, and, with drooping head, answered his hurried questions in a fearful whisper.
"Perhaps you have had a terrible dream?" said Ordynov. "Perhaps you have seen some vision . . . Yes? Perhaps he has frightened you. ... He is delirious and unconscious. Perhaps he has said something that was not for you to hear? Did you hear something? Yes?"
"No, I have not been asleep," answered Katerina, stifling her emotion with an effort. "Sleep did not come to me, he has been silent all the while and only once he called me. I went up, called his name, spoke to him; I was frightened; he did not wake and did not hear me. He is terribly sick; the Lord succour him! Then misery came upon my heart, bitter misery! I prayed and prayed and then this came upon me."
"Hush, Katerina, hush, my life, hushl You were frightened yesterday. ..."
"No, I was not frightened yesterday! . . ." "Has it ever been like this with you at other times?" "Yes." And again she trembled all over and huddled up to him like a child. "You see," she said, repressing her sobs, "it was not for nothing that I have come to you, it was not for nothing that I could not bear to stay alone," she repeated, gratefully pressing his hands. "Enough, enough shedding tears over other people's sorrows! Save them for a dark day when you are lonely and cast down and there is no one with you! . . . Listen, have you ever had a love?" "No. ... I never knew a love before you. . . ." "Before me? . . . You call me your love?" She suddenly looked at him as though surprised, would have said something, but then was silent and looked down. By degrees her whole face suddenly flushed again a glowing crimson; her eyes shone more brightly through the forgotten tears still warm on her eyelashes, and it could be seen that
some question was hovering on her lips. With bashful shyness she looked at him once or twice and then looked down again.
"No, it is not for me to be your first love," she said. "No, no," she said, shaking her head thoughtfully, while the smile stole gently again over her face. "No," she said, at last, laughing; "it's not for me, my own, to be your love."
At that point she glanced at him, but there was suddenly such sadness reflected in her face, such hopeless sorrow suddenly overshadowed all her features, such despair all at once surged up from within, from her heart, that Ordynov was overwhelmed by an unaccountable, painful feehng of compassion for her mj^sterious grief and looked at her with indescribable distress.
"Listen to what I say to you," she said in a voice that wrung his heart, pressing his hands in hers, struggling to stifle her sobs. "Heed me well, Hsten, my joy! You caJm your heart and do not love me as you love me now. It will be better for you, your heart will be lighter and gladder, and you will guard yourself from a fell foe and wiU win a sister fond. I wiU come and see you as you please, fondle you and take no shame upon myself for making friends with you. I was with you for two days when you lay in that cruel sickness! Get to know your sister! It is not for nothing that we have sworn to be brother and sister, it is not for nothing that I prayed and wept to the Holy Mother for you! You won't get another sister! You may go all round the world, you may get to know the whole earth and not find another love like mine, if it is love your heart wants. I wiU love you warmly, I will always love you as I do now, and I wiU love you because your soul is pure and clean cind can be seen through; because when first I glanced at you, at once I knew you were the guest of my house, the longed-for guest, and it was not for nothing that you wanted to come to us; I love you because when you look at me your eyes are full of love and speak for your heart, and when they say an3Hliing, at once I know of aU that is within you and long to give my life for your love, my freedom, because it is sweet to be even a slave to the man whose heart I have found. . . . But my life is not mine but another's . . . and my freedom is bound! Take me for a sister and be a brother to me and take me to your heart when misery, when cruel weakness falls upon me; only do so that I have no shame to come to you and sit through the long night with you as now.
Do you hear me? Is your heart opened to me? Do you understand what I have been saying to you? ..."
She tried to say something more, glanced at him, laid her hand on his shoulder and at last sank helpless on his bosom. Her voice died away in convulsive, passionate sobbing, her bosom heaved, and her face flushed Uke an evening sunset.
"My life," whispered Ord}mov; everything was dark before his eyes and he could hardly breathe. "My joy," he said, not knowing what he was saying, not understanding himself, trembling lest a breath should break the spell, should destroy everything that was happening, which he took rather for a vision than reality: so misty was everything around him! "1 don't know, I don't understand you, I don't remember what you have just said to me, my mind is darkened, my heart aches, my queen!"
At this point his voice broke with emotion. She clung more tightly, more warmly, more fervently to him. He got up, no longer able to le^train himself; shattered, exhausted by ecstasy, he fell on his Ifffees. Convulsive sobs broke agonisingly from his breSst at la^, and the voice that came straight from his heart quivered like a harp-string, from the fulness of unfathomable ecstasy and bliss.
"Who are you, who are you, my own? Where do you come from, my darling?" he said, trying to stifle his sobs. "From what heaven did you fly into my sphere? It's like a dream about me, I cannot believe in you. Don't check me, let me speak, let me tell you all, all! I have long wanted to speak . . . Who are you, who are you, my joy? How did you find my heart? Tell me; have you long been my sister? . . . Tell me everything about yourself, where you have been till now. Tell me what the place was called where you lived; what did you love there at first? what rejoiced you? what grieved you? .... Was the air warm? was the sky clear? . . . Who were dear to you? who loved you before me? to whom did your soul yearn first? . . . Had you a mother? did she pet you as a child, or did you look round upon life as sohtary as I did? Tell me, were you always like this? What were your dreams? what were your visions of the future? what was fulfilled and what was unfulfilled with you?—^tell me everything. ... For whom did your maiden heart yearn first, and for what did you give it? Tell me, what must I give you for it? what must I give you for yourself? . . . Tell me, my darling, my light, my sister; tell me, how am I to win your heart? . . ."