Текст книги "The Line Between"

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“You’ve checked on me,” I said, looking away. “You can leave now, before Stella comes looking for you.”

I switched my bedside lamp off, and curled back under the covers, not caring that he was still there or sitting in the dark.

I wanted us to go back to the way things were.

I wanted my Reid back.

If only I weren’t too stubborn to tell him.

Chapter 2

Jade

Cabo

The hotel we were staying in was gorgeous, and swarming with college students on their Spring Break vacation. Our plane had landed a few hours ago, and we’d been checked in before deciding to roam around. The building itself looked incredible, and the resort boasted a stunning view of the horizon with crystal blue swimming pools, a private beach, and luxury suites. I’d opted for a two-bedroom suite, and was happy to find out that my friend Grady was sharing with me.

“I’m going down to the bar,” said Grady. “You want to join me?”

His sandy blond hair was perfectly styled to the side, and he was wearing jean shorts cut off at the knee, and a white polo shirt with a light blue sweater draped over his shoulders. He was gorgeous – and very gay.

“That’s okay,” I replied. “I’m going to take a walk on the beach. I’ll catch up with you later.”

“You sure?”

“Yeah. I want to put my feet in the water before nightfall.”

“Okay, my tootsie roll,” – he kissed my forehead – “See you at dinner?”

I smiled. “I’ll be there.”

He left, and as soon as the door clicked shut, I dropped onto the plush queen-sized bed and felt my body finally start to relax. I’d been tossing and turning all night after my talk with Reid, and hadn’t been able to let go of my restlessness until we’d arrived at our resort. I might’ve not been looking forward to spending my week with couples – gag – but I had to admit it felt nice to get away.

** ** ** ** **

“Where were you this afternoon?” Asked Kennedy. “When I went to your room earlier no one answered.” She was seated next to me at our round dinner table with Dane on her other side.

I sipped my water, and angled my body so that I could talk to her while I had the chance. Dane was deep in conversation with Reid, so I had a few minutes before he demanded Kennedy’s attention away from everyone else.

“I went to the beach, and then took a nap. I think something we ate on the plane made me sick.”

I’d been feeling nauseas all afternoon, and only felt slightly better after sleeping for an hour before we came to dinner. I must’ve looked like I was sulking for some reason, but I couldn’t be bothered with idle conversation. I had no idea what was going on with me. Maybe it was because all these couples surrounded me, or maybe it was seeing Reid with Stella. They were seated next to Dane, and from my peripheral I could make out that Stella was scowling at the side of Reid’s head while he was talking to Dane. Bitch hated being ignored – I knew that much – and made it clear to everyone that she preferred having Reid’s attention all to herself. I’d never been able to picture him with someone like her, although I suspected that had more to with being unable to picture him with anyone who wasn’t me.

“Did you take something for it?”

Kennedy brought me back from my mindless musings, and I patted her leg in reassurance. “Don’t worry about me. I’m sure whatever it is will pass by morning.”

The chair on my other side shifted, and I looked up to see Grady holding three very colorful cocktails. He took a seat, and passed one to Kennedy, before handing the second to me, and taking the third to himself.

“What are we drinking?” I asked, eyeing the multitude of colors swirling around in the tall, curvy glass.

Grady grinned, his eyes bright with mischief. “I had these made for us – that barman is so hot by the way – and have aptly named it the ‘Cabo Cock’.”

“How appropriate,” I snickered. Kennedy coughed, and wiped her mouth. “Considering the only two people at this table who aren’t getting any cock are you and me.”

“Oh baby girl, I got the barman’s digits,” he winked. “Looks like you’re the only one getting any at this table.”

“Speaking of,” intercepted Kennedy. “Where are Ash and Chase?”

She gave me a look that said her interruption was for my benefit, and I was silently grateful. I didn’t need a reminder that I was here as a ‘singular’.

“Ugh,” groaned Grady. “Probably upstairs fucking like horny little rabbits.”

My eyes bugged out and Kennedy spluttered, “What?!?!”

Grady covered his mouth, and muttered “Oops” behind his hand.

“I thought you guys knew,” he said, looking between Kennedy and me.

“NO!” I replied. “When did that happen?”

“Started up a few weeks ago.” Grady looked up, and his mouth tipped into a wicked smile. “And speak of the two little devils now.”

Kennedy and I swiveled our heads just as Chase and Ashley were walking towards our table. She was in front of him, but judging from their flushed faces, and disheveled appearances they were in fact upstairs…

“Sorry I’m late,” said Ashley. “I overslept after my afternoon siesta.”

“Sure you did,” replied Grady, which earned him a slap on his arm from Chase as he took a seat next to his brother. “Ouch, you asshole. What was that for?”

Chase glared at Grady, and there was some kind of silent conversation going on between the two of them. Ashley took the only open seat opposite me – between Chase and Stella – and started fiddling with her napkin. I wasn’t surprised that something had been going on between the two of them. After Chase had sorted his hormones out, and gotten over what he thought he felt for Kennedy, he’d started hanging out with us a lot more, and watching a few interactions between him and my Ashley, I predicted it was just a matter of time before they decided to put all that sexual tension to good use.

What I didn’t understand was why they kept it a secret.

With our table complete, everyone in our group slipped into conversation, like they always did when we were all together. The only person who looked bored and uninterested was Stella. Then again, she always looked like she’d eaten shit for breakfast – her face had a permanent scowl, unless she was hanging all over Reid. Then she just looked like a desperate hooker.

“Keep staring at Reid and the hobbit will hack you into pieces in your sleep tonight,” muttered Kennedy.

My brows dipped into a frown. “I wasn’t staring.”

“You kinda were,” said Grady.

Jesus. Was I that obvious? I hadn’t even realized I’d been staring until Kennedy and Grady had pointed out. Luckily Stella was too busy whispering something into Reid’s ear to notice, so I was safe from her incessant need to kill me. For now.

We ordered dinner, and I hadn’t realized how hungry I was until I started eating. The food was incredible, and even after having sushi for a light starter I still put a good dent in my main course. It wasn’t until dessert that I started to feel like I’d eaten too much. I sat back in my chair, and rubbed my hands over my flat stomach.

“I think we should all go for a swim,” said Kennedy. “It’s still early enough.”

“Anything to see you in a bikini, Kitten,” replied Dane. He leaned down and kissed that spot below her ear, causing her to giggle. It was both sweet and sickening to watch, really. She was so happy, and I couldn’t think of anyone more deserving, but I found myself feeling a little envious too.

Despite what people thought, I wasn’t a hussy. I’d only ever slept with three guys, one of which was Reid. I hadn’t been with anyone else since him, and I worried that it would take me months, or even years to have the courage to date.

“I could use a cool down,” I said, pushing my plate away. “This heat is going to drive me up the wall.”

I was sweating, and it was one of the most unattractive things to have happen, but the hot sticky air clung to my skin and a swim actually sounded perfect. I could find a corner to sit in, away from my horny, over-affectionate friends that had a hard time being decent in public.

And I can avoid seeing Reid and Stella.

“Well what the fuck are we waiting for you skinny bitches, let’s get going.”

I laughed at Grady’s unfiltered comment. He had an uncanny ability to say the crudest thing in the funniest way, and let’s face it, some things don’t seem as offensive coming from a gay guy.

He took my hand, and helped me from my chair.

“C’mon, sweet cheeks, let’s go before these freaks start giving the other guests a fucking sex show.”

He dragged me away from our table, and I almost tripped going up the stairs.

“Dios mio, Grady, what’s the damn hurry?”

The elevator doors opened just as we reached them, and he pulled us inside before our friends could catch up.

“The hurry,” he said, banging on our floor button, “is that you need to look shit hot so that Reid will come to his fucking senses and ditch that hobbit. Bitch has been trying to kill you with her squint eyes all night, and I had to stop myself from flying across that table to slap her to Siberia.”

“You’re ridiculous,” I laughed. “Reid seems to be into her, so why should I care?”

He looked at me incredulously, and when the elevator doors chimed, he pulled me to our room. “Reid has been seduced by her hobbit vagina, and he needs to see that the person he belongs with is actually a hot, stubborn Spanish babe. Now tell me you brought a sexy as fuck bikini, or else I’ll send you down there in your birthday suit.”

I sighed. “I don’t want to cause drama, Grady. I’d rather just avoid them altogether. In fact, I think it would be a good idea if I stayed right here.”

He rested his hands on my bare shoulders and shook me. “What is going on with you right now my tootsie roll? Where’s the feisty Jade that never backed down from a challenge? Where’s the girl who was ready to spit fire at anyone who even thought of crossing her?”

I’d been wondering the same thing for quite some time. I was waiting for the moment where I snapped out of my funk, and returned to normal.

But that was pre having-sex-with-my-best-friend-turned-friend-turned-stranger. Grady couldn’t possibly understand what had transpired between Reid and me but I loved him for wanting to coax Feisty Jade out of hiding. Maybe I needed him to kick my butt.

“You’re going to have to help me find her,” I said quietly.

Grady’s face broke out into a gentle smile, and he cupped my cheek. “For you my sexy amigo, I will cut a bitch if it means we get the old Jade back.” He spun me around, and shoved me towards my luggage. “Now go change.”

With a tap on the butt, I walked towards my luggage, and took out the several bikinis’ I’d brought on the trip.

Grady was right. I’d been in hiding, and it had to change. Grady didn’t need to know that I had no desire to get Reid’s attention while we were here, but if going along with our stupid plan would somehow bring a semblance of my old self back I’d try anything.

Chapter 3

Jade

The Pool

I strolled down to the pool, and within fifteen minutes Grady had abandoned our plan, for the cute bartender who’d made our cocktails earlier. Secretly I was relieved. His idea to get Reid’s attention felt a little juvenile at best and I knew I would regret starting a game I couldn’t finish. So I slipped my sandals off, adjusted my leopard print monokini and stepped into to temperate water, away from the other students who’d had the same idea to take a late night dip.

I waded through the water, trailing my fingers through the ripples, until I reached the deep end where the water slipped over the edge. The view was magnificent, peaceful, still. A sharp contrast to everything I’d been feeling in the last few weeks. I soaked it up, pushing away the subdued thoughts occupying my mind.

A burst of shrill laughter infiltrated the quiet, and I spun my head around. I wished I hadn’t.

Reid had just stepped into the water on the other side, and he lifted his arms to help Stella into the water. She smiled at him, her eyes turning up at the sides, and leaned down to kiss him. I should’ve looked away, but I was a glutton for punishment and just continued to stare. Her eyes lifted, and I swore her mouth tilted into a smirk while her lips moved against Reid’s. She was taunting me, dangling Reid in front of me like a damn bone.

I had to hand it to her though. She knew what she was doing, and if her aim was to hurt me, it was working.

Bitch.

I looked away, and rested my arms on the side of the pool. I wasn’t sure I was going to last an entire week, but wouldn’t leaving mean that Stella had won?

Not really, I realized.

She’d already won.

She had Reid.

The water moved next to me, and I looked to the side just as Kennedy stopped next to me. Her blonde hair was piled up on top of her head and her dark purple bikini matched the dyed tips.

“You look lost in thought,” she commented. “Anything you want to talk about?”

“Not really,” I replied. “Not much worth talking about I’m afraid.”

More laughter came from behind us, and I knew it was Stella without having to turn around. Kennedy looked over her shoulder, and let out an annoyed groan. “Can she be any more of an exhibitionist? God, she’s such an attention whore.”

I didn’t say anything. I didn’t want to turn in their direction and see Stella having fun with Reid.

God, I was so pathetic. I was starting to piss myself off with the whole ‘woe is me’ routine. It had to stop.

Sadly, I could only think of one way to do that.

Cut the few ties I had left keeping me tethered to Reid.

I had to put our lifetime of memories we’d made into a box, and keep them there, at least until it didn’t hurt so much anymore.

“Just ignore them,” I finally said. “She’s not worth it.”

“Are you okay being here, Jade? I mean, with having to see them together?”

“I’m trying to be,” I replied honestly. “I can’t blame him for moving on when I pushed him away.”

Kennedy sighed, and rested her chin on her palm as she looked at me. “I understand why you pushed him away, but what I don’t get is why you allow that bitch to get to you, or why Reid allows her to dictate whether or not the two of you can be friends. I thought he was better than that.”

“She’s threatened by me,” I said quietly. “I don’t blame her. Wouldn’t you be threatened by someone who was in love with Dane?”

“That’s different,” she argued. “Stella is threatened by you because you mean a lot to Reid, and she knows that.”

“Even so,” I sighed. “I fucked up any chance I had with Reid, and now he’s moved on.”

Kennedy huffed. “Moved on my ass. He’s trying to cover up what he feels about you by wasting his time with that…thing. He’ll wake up eventually, but until then you shouldn’t allow Stella’s petty attempts to rile you up, get to you. Beat her at her own game by not playing.”

I was about to respond when Kennedy was pulled underwater. She sputtered, and spun around to slap Dane, but he dodged her hand, and pulled her against him.

“Hey Kitten,” he laughed.

“Dane, you ass, I was talking to Jade!” She tried to sound annoyed, but one smile from him and she turned to putty in his hands.

“Mind if I steal my girl for a while?” He asked, looking down at me. Dane Winters was tall, and had a body many girls had fawned over, but he was very much enamored with my best friend, which made him tolerable. Sometimes. When he wasn’t being a dick.

“Sure,” I said. “I was about to head up anyway. I’m beat.”

Kennedy pouted. “Ah really? You can hang out with us if you want? I swear Dane will behave.”

Dane chuckled, and nipped at Kennedy’s throat. “I can’t promise that, sweetheart.”

I couldn’t help but smile at them. They’d had so much to get through, and I knew they loved each other.

“It’s fine, I’ll just go up, take a shower and climb into bed.”

“See you in the morning?” Asked Kennedy. She squeezed my hand below the water, telling me she was here if I needed her.

“Of course.”

I moved back towards the pool steps, and let out a breath when I saw Reid and Stella had disappeared.

Thank God.

At least I could leave without having to see them groping each other.

I stepped into my sandals, and wrapped my towel around my body. I rounded the corner, and should have been paying better attention because my foot caught on something, and I fell onto the hard marble floor. My hands stung from the impact, and I swallowed the need to cry out by biting my lip.

“Ouch,” I muttered. I turned my head, and saw Stella glaring down at me.

“You’d better watch your step, Jade. You could get yourself seriously hurt.”

I frowned. The hobbit had fucking tripped me.

“What is your problem?” I asked, standing up and dusting my hands off on my towel. I was quite a bit taller than Stella, so I ended up looking down at her.

“You’re my problem,” she snapped, completely undeterred by our height difference. “You keep staring at Reid, and it’s time you stopped. He doesn’t want you Jade, and you need to get over it. I saw you, at dinner, while we were in the pool. It’s pathetic.”

It was pathetic, but I wasn’t about to tell her that.

“He’s my friend,” I replied lamely.

Where the fuck was feisty Jade when I needed her?

“I made it clear that it was either you or me, and he chose me, so just do us all a favor and stay the fuck away from him. He made it obvious he doesn’t want anything to do with you, so why haven’t you caught the hint yet?”

Her words hit their mark, but they also stirred something else inside me.

Anger.

My need to protect myself.

The old Jade.

I stepped closer to Stella, sure to encroach on her personal space. “You don’t know a thing about my friendship with Reid. If he wanted me out of his life for good he would have told me himself.”

Stella’s mouth twisted and her smile turned sinister. “You poor, stupid girl. Reid feels too sorry for you to say anything, but I don’t. So here’s the deal, stay away from him, and we won’t have any problems, got it?”

I shook my head, and started to turn. “No, we don’t ‘got it’. I don’t take orders, least of all from Reid’s latest bed fly. So if I were you, I’d turn the fuck around and pretend this conversation never happened.”

I started walking away, but a sharp tug of my hair had me stumbling backwards.

“You bitch!” Shrieked Stella. I fell to the ground, hitting my elbow on the ground, and lifted my arm just in time to deflect Stella’s fist. My head hit the floor so hard my vision blurred but at least there was no way Psycho Hobbit was going to bruise my face.

“Get off me!” I yelled, deflecting another punch.

“He’s mine!” Stella’s shrill voice echoed around us. “He doesn’t want you!” She spat. She’d somehow managed to straddle me, and I struggled to keep her from clawing at me. “He said all you were is a fuck, and that it meant nothing to him. Get it yet? He doesn’t fucking want you!”

She was lying. She had to have been. Reid would have never said anything of the kind.

Before I could tell her as much, she was lifted off my body, and Kennedy was at my side. “Oh my God, are you okay?”

“Let go of me!” Stella fought Dane’s grasp. She elbowed him in the face, but he didn’t let go of her.

“I don’t think so,” he grunted.

Kennedy helped me up, and I rubbed the back of my head.

“What did she do to you?” Asked Kennedy, her eyes looking me over. “Did she hurt you?”

“She deserved it!” Snapped Stella. “Let go of me, or I’ll scream!”

“I’m going to get Reid,” said Kennedy.

“Do you think he’ll believe any of you over me?” Stella laughed, sounding like a maniac. “She attacked me, I was just defending myself. I came around the corner, and – ”

“And what?” Kennedy asked angrily. “We found you on top of her, swinging like the crazy bitch that you are!”

Dane dropped Stella onto her feet, and stepped away from her. “Reid is going to hear about this,” she said, walking away briskly. She disappeared around the corner, and all I could do was stare after her.

What.

The.

Fuck.

“You okay?” Asked Dane, his brows furrowed.

“Fine,” I replied. “She just…”

I shook my head, and winced when a slow, steady throb reverberated through my skull.

“You need to find Reid,” Kennedy told Dane. “I’ll take jade upstairs, and make sure she’s okay.”

I grabbed onto Dane’s arm, and stopped him. “No, don’t. Just drop it. I’m fine.”

“She was hitting you,” cried Kennedy. “We have to tell Reid!”

“You’re probably too late,” I replied. “She’s probably already spinning him some fucked up version of what happened. I just want to go to bed.”

Dane and Kennedy both looked at me with concern, and as much as I appreciated it, I wanted to be left alone.

“I’m okay, really. I’ll just see you guys in the morning.”

Kennedy pursed her lips, ready to argue, but Dane spoke up. “If you’re sure…”

I nodded, and started walking towards the elevator. “I’ll see you in the morning, okay?”

They let me go, and as soon as I was in the safety of the elevator I let the tears fall. What the hell had just happened?

The doors were about to close, but they opened up again, and my head lifted.

“Jade?”

Reid was standing on the other side of the open doors, his face marred with a glower.

“Reid.”

“You want to explain why you hit my girlfriend?”

A sick laugh escaped my mouth, the sound ripping through me like a blade. Sure enough, Stella had presumably told him what had happened, only in her version she was the victim.

“Is that what she said?”

“No, I saw her face.”

It was my turn to glower – only it wasn’t so much in anger as it was confusion.

“Her face?”

Reid threw his hands up in the air. “Yeah, her busted lip and swollen cheek. Why would you do that?”

“I didn’t,” I replied, leaning against the elevator wall.

“Oh, so ran into the fuckin’ wall and did it to herself?”

Probably, I thought.

She’d proven there were no limits to her crazy.

“I can’t believe you,” he said when I didn’t respond. “Why, Jade?”

I stared at him, and wondered when we had fallen so far from where we’d been. I was looking at a complete stranger, and yet everything about him was still so familiar. He was all I knew for so long, and now he looked…disappointed. In me.

Oh, the irony.

I was disappointed in myself too.

For allowing myself to become so disconnected from who I was and for allowing his psycho Hobbit girlfriend to goad me. I wasn’t this girl.

I straightened from my position against the wall, and stuck my chin out.

“You need to ask Dane and Kennedy what they saw, because you won’t believe anything I have to say. Stella attacked me, Reid, and she made it pretty damn obvious you want nothing to do with me anymore.”

I wanted to tell him the rest, how she said I was nothing more than a fuck to him, but saying it out loud would only drive the knife in deeper, and I wasn’t sure I was willing to bleed any more than I already had.

Not for Reid, and not for the remnants of our friendship.

I was done.

“Jade – ”

“No,” I intercepted. “The fact that you believed her, after knowing me all my life, says it all. We’re done here, Reid.”

“No, we’re not,” he snapped. “Tell me what happened!”

“She already told you. What’s the point of repeating it if you won’t believe me?”

He roughly pulled his fingers through his hair, and expelled an exasperated breath. “She said – ”

“Doesn’t matter. We’re done Reid, for good. I’m done. Now let me go.”

He looked at me one last time, his eyes filled with everything he wanted to say but couldn’t. My lip trembled, and the tears fell as I looked away. I felt him move away from me, and when the doors shut, with him on the outside, I felt the tear, the loss, the end.

GRADY HELD MY HAIR back as I spewed the contents of my stomach into the toilet bowl. My body heaved, and my muscles cramped with the exertion. There was nothing left, but my body kept heaving. It was physically painful, and I had tears running down my cheeks as a result. After the showdown with Stella, and the conversation with Reid that had followed, I’d come back to our room, and taken a hot shower before climbing into bed. Two hours later, I was running for the bathroom, ready to hurl my insides out.

And I sure as hell did.

“I think we need to get a doctor up here,” said Grady. He was rubbing my back while I shook, and continued to be sick, despite having nothing left to bring up.

I wiped my mouth, and gladly took the wet washcloth he handed me. “No, but I think I need to leave.”

I didn’t want to be there any longer, and it had nothing to do with spending the last hour praying to the porcelain Gods.

“You sure?” He asked, crouching down in front of me. “We can always wait it out, and see how you feel tomorrow morning. It might just be something you ate.”

I leaned my head against the cold tiled wall behind me. “Get me my phone please?”

He left, and returned minutes later, handing me my phone. There was only one person I knew to call at times like this. One person who would always come to my rescue.

I pressed my phone to my ear, and waited while it rang.

“Hi, darling.” My mother’s thick Spanish accent greeted my ears, and I’d never been so happy to hear her voice.

“Mama,” I greeted, my throat scratchy, and my voice hoarse.

“Jade, what’s wrong?” She asked, sounding alarmed.

“I need to come home,” I said, my voice thickening with emotion.

“Is everything okay?”

I shook my head, and then remembered she couldn’t see me.

“No,” I replied, “Do you think Papa can send the jet? I need to come home, please.”

“Of course. I’ll call him right now. Will you be okay to get to the airport?”

“I’ll catch a cab.” I groaned when my stomach cramped, and tried to breathe through the pain.

“Okay darling, you be careful, and we will see you soon.”

“Thanks mama.”

I pulled the phone away and clicked end.

“There’s no fucking way you’re going to airport alone,” said Grady. “Get your stuff packed while I call a cab.”

I gave him a weak smile. “I love you, you know that right?”

He patted my knee, returning my smile with a gentle one of his own.

“Of course, my tootsie roll.”

I hadn’t told him what had happened with Stella, but he was too astute not to know that I’d been feeling unlike myself because of Reid. He was just kind enough not to bring it up right then.

“You’re going to be fine,” he said softly, helping me from the floor. “You’ll see.”

I agreed with him. I was going to be fine. I just needed some time to get there.