Текст книги "Wanted"
Автор книги: Kelly Elliott
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CHAPTER FIFTEEN
Ellie ……
I sat there on my bed devastated. How did this happen? What was Gunner going to think about me now after my mother called me a whore? Oh God I hope he didn’t believe a word she said. My hands started to shake again and I almost started to cry again. I could not lose him even though I knew we would never be more than friends but he truly did seem to care about me. I felt like I was in a box and everything was muffled. I could hear Ari and Jefferson talking. I looked over at them. What was Ari saying? Something about the cottage on her parents property. Gunner was standing next to me waiting. I was trying to find the strength to stand up.
Oh my God…we were going to have to walk by my mother again! What if she started calling me names again?
“Ellie, come on sweetheart let’s go. Jeff is going to walk out first and talk to your mom. Come on Ells its okay. Let’s go.” Gunner said as he helped me to my feet. Ari came up and gave me a hug. “I’ll see you back at my house okay sweets?”
I just smiled and nodded my head yes. I just wanted to be alone with Gunner. I had to make him understand I was not the things my mother said I was.
As we walked out of my room and down the hall I saw Jefferson standing over our mother. She was passed out on the sofa. Perfect. Why couldn’t her ass have been passed out 30 minutes ago? I’m not surprised……. this is just how my life goes. Another serving of shit served on a platter just for me. The Ellie special this week I guess.
Next thing I knew I was sitting in Gunner’s truck. He was standing outside talking to Jefferson. They both looked so pissed off. I was the cause of all of this or I should say me and my drunken mother were the cause. God I hated her more than anything right now. I never wanted to see her again. EVER!
Gunner opened the door and hopped in his truck. Once he had it started he turned on his iPod. I think he was trying to give me time to gather myself without there being an awkward silence. My god could he be any more perfect?
I had no idea where we were going. I was finally able to open my mouth to speak. “Um, can we go somewhere quiet to talk Gunner? Somewhere we can be alone if that is okay?”
I noticed Gunner tightening his grip on the steering wheel. “Of course we can Ellie. Is there anywhere you have in mind Sweetheart? We can go anywhere.”
Just then an idea popped into my head. “The canoes down at Zilker Park, I’ve always wanted to sit in one and just think….it seems so peaceful.” I said as I stared out the passenger side window. I was so afraid he just wanted to be rid of me.
“Ellie please look at me sweetheart.” Gunner asked as he used his hand to turn my face towards him.
“You’ve never been in a canoe?” Gunner asked with that drop dead smile of his. He made my heart hurt but for all the right reasons. Oh please take this pain away Gunner…..please…….
I let out a small laugh. “Nope….but I’ve always wanted to go. Pretty stupid huh?”
Gunner’s smile got even bigger. God it was contagious because next thing I knew I was smiling back at him.
“What? What is it?” I asked him wanting to know why he was looking at me all goofy like that.
“It’s just that I get to take you on another first today. I need to write down all the things you’ve never done before but want to do Ellie.” Gunner said as he took my hand in his. I decided I would not try to pull my hand away this time. I was going to just pretend we were together and this was a perfect first date. It was just Gunner and me…..together.
“Why do you need to know that?” I asked confused but very curious as to where he was going with this.
“Well, because I want to be the person who gives you all of your firsts. I want to experience them with you so I can see that beautiful smile of yours light up every time you do something new. I want to make all of your dreams come true.”
“Oh….”
WOW….I was not expecting that at all. Maybe Gunner was different and he might just be interested in more than what I was giving him credit for. Then again…….maybe he was just interested in a friendship like how Jefferson was with Ari. He would never want it to go past friendship.
The thought of Gunner and I never becoming closer than friends almost had me feeling sick again and ready to cry.
As Gunner pulled into the parking lot of Zilker Park my heart started to beat faster than ever. Was I more nervous about the canoe ride or about talking to him about my mother? It was clear he was not going to bring it up until I was ready to talk about it. I needed to do this. I HAD to do this.
“Gosh Gunner I never even asked if you had plans today. I’m so sorry. I feel like shit now just assuming you would be able to spend the day with me.” I said as I realized Gunner might have actually had things to do today.
Gunner let out a laugh that moved through my body and sent chills up and down my back. “Sweetheart I would much rather spend the day with you than run around and do errands. I just need to swing by James Avery to pick something up and that’s it. I’m yours for the whole day!”
He looked at me and gave me a wink. Yep…my knees just felt weak as I tried to walk down to where they rented out the canoes. Oh shit….with how my stomach was feeling why the hell did I pick this? It just popped into my head….canoes. Jesus….watch me hurl right onto him. Good going Ellie…..picking a damn canoe ride. ARGH!
As Gunner was renting the canoe and getting our life jackets my mind kept thinking to what he said a few minutes ago. He needed to stop by James Avery? I wonder who he was buying jewelry for. He said he didn’t have a girlfriend. Maybe it was his mother’s birthday coming up or his grandmothers. It was driving me crazy! Why was it driving me crazy? It really was none of my business but it was still driving me insane wondering who the hell he would be buying jewelry for.
Just then I felt his hands on my shoulder and he leaned down and whispered in my ear. “Are you ready to go on your first canoe ride Ells?”
Yep….I knew it the moment I leaned back and felt his strong chest against my back I was so fucked. I didn’t even care how this might look to him. The feel of his hot breath on my face and the touch of his hands on my body….I needed to lean against him before my knees gave out. He turned me around and lifted my face up towards his. He smiled, leaned down and kissed……….
My forehead?! What the hell?! SHIT! Why didn’t he kiss me? I wanted him to kiss me so badly and earlier he tried to kiss me but I stopped him. What changed?
Maybe it was what my mother said. Now I really felt sick as he was walking me over and helping me climb into the canoe.
Holy fuck don’t let me puke dear Lord…..just please don’t let me puke.
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
GUNNER …….
German Shepards, Labs, Poodles, Rottweilers, German Short Haired Pointers……..good God I was trying to name off every breed of dog I knew. The moment she leaned into me and I felt her body up against mine my dick instantly came to attention. I had to turn her around to face me before she felt me jabbing her in the back with my hard on.
I swear to God my dick was so hard and there was not much more room in my pants to accommodate my growing problem. As Ellie was getting settled I tried my best to adjust myself while thinking of other dogs. SHIT I wanted to kiss her so fucking bad. It was getting harder and harder to resist her.
After I got in and sat down the look on her face made my hard on go down in a matter of seconds.
“Ellie…what is it? Are you feeling sick? Do you not want to do this?”Her face was turning green right before my eyes. Maybe there was a reason she never went out on a canoe before.
“I’m okay…just give me a few minutes here to get use to this. Just….go slow, really really slow. AND don’t rock the boat!” Ellie practically shouted at me. I had to laugh at her, she was so damn cute!
After about ten minutes of slowly rowing out we finally make it onto Town Lake. I could see Ellie start to relax as she sat back and lifted her face to the sun. Damn she looked so beautiful. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket but decided to let it go to voicemail. I had sent Jeff a quick text to let him know where we were right before I rented the canoe.
Another few minutes passed before Ellie started to talk. She never moved her head and just continued to keep her eyes closed as she soaked in the warm June Texas sun.
“Please just let me get this all out before you try to interrupt me or anything okay?” Ellie said with a slight crack in her voice.
“Okay.”
“First, I just wanted to say thank you again for everything you’ve done for me the last two days. I know we just met but I feel……well I feel like I can really count on you. Thank you so much for being such a good friend.” Ellie said as she finally looked at me.
Ouch…there went that friends comment again. Could she really not see how much I wanted to be more than friends? Fuck…what more did I need to do?
KISS HER ……..
She started to sit up straighter and I could see her starting to tense up again. She was looking everywhere but at me. I stopped rowing and just let the canoe drift in the current. I wanted to study her. I wanted to remember this moment for the rest of my life. The way her beautiful blue eyes stood out and the way her light brown hair was starting to fall down from her pony tail and blow in the wind. The way she smiled at me. Her smile…..I loved the way her smile made me feel. I wanted to wake up every fucking morning to that smile. I wanted to prove to her that her mother was wrong so damn wrong.
Ellie was nothing like her mother. She was smart, innocent, caring, beautiful……. all the things her mother never could be. I was going to kiss her before this day was over. Yep, fuck the dogs. I was going to prove to Ellie I wanted to be more than just her goddamn friend.
“Gunner, about what my mother said. Well….um….I just wanted to let you know that everything she said was a lie. I mean….I’m not that way…I’m not a whore. I barely even ever kissed Ryan let alone slept with him. I know you probably already figured that out by the way Ryan left me and all. It was just really important for me to let you know what she was saying was not true. Honestly, I’m not a hundred percent sure why I needed you to know this….I just…..did. I just needed you to know.” Ellie finished and now she was looking right at me.
How could she even think for one minute I would ever believe her mother? My heart was breaking all over again. I was so fucking confused. One minute she is calling me a good friend and the next she is telling me how important it is that I know she does not sleep around.
“Ellie sweetheart believe me when I tell you this. I NEVER believed anything that came out of your mother’s mouth. I’m so sorry she hurt you and that you had to endure all that verbal abuse from her over the years. Please don’t ever let what she said to you ever stand in your way. You are a strong, beautiful, and very smart young woman. Don’t ever forget that Ellie…..never forget that.” I said as I reached over and took her left hand in mine. I lifted it up and placed her hand to my lips and pressed a soft kiss on the back of her hand. She gave me the sweetest smile in return. I let her hand go to start rowing again.
Ellie threw her head back and started soaking in the sun again. I would never get tired of watching her. I could watch her eat, sleep, laugh, smile….god you name it. I had this incredible urge to spend every spare minute with her. This was the perfect first…….day, not date, day. The perfect first day of many more to come.
As I rowed the canoe up to the shore, the guy who rented us the canoe held out his hand to help Ellie out. The way he looked at her just made my skin boil. Did he really think I could not see what the fuck he was doing?
Bastard!
Ellie laughed at something he said and I had to fight the urge to pound his face into the ground. I walked up and took her hand out from his hand. I thanked him and lead Ellie away from this dickhead. I turned back around once to see him watching us walk away. Fuck wad douche bag go flirt with another guy’s girl.
Shit….I needed to remember that Ellie was not mine….but I was going to change that and very soon.
We walked for a little bit along the trail as Ellie told me all about her plans for college. She was going to study business but was not one hundred percent sure that was going to be her major. After about fifteen minutes of talking about college, a young couple walked by with a baby and I watched Ellie smile at them as they walked by. I thought about earlier when I pictured her on the ranch with our little girl and a puppy. The idea made me smile and filled me with a warm sensation. I wanted a life with her. I wanted to wake up every day and look over at her sleeping by my side. I wanted her.
Ellie was staring out at the water and I decided I had waited long enough. I walked around to where I was standing in front of her. She looked up at me and just gave me that beautiful smile I had come to love and need so quickly.
“Ellie sweetheart I really need to do something I’ve wanted to do since I first laid eyes on you yesterday.”
I took my hands and cupped her soft beautiful face. I leaned down and barely brushed my lips against her lips. Holy fuck…they were softer than I had imagined them. I kept my lips just inches from her lips and waited just a few seconds to see if she would pull away. When she didn’t, I took that as a sign it was okay to kiss her. I leaned back in and made the kiss deeper this time. I kissed her with all the passion and emotion that I had built up inside me from the moment I first saw her. She let out a small moan which vibrated through my whole body and instantly my dick started to get hard. God what this girl could do to me was crazy insane.
I slowly slipped my tongue into her mouth and Ellie lifted further up on her toes and wrapped her arms around my neck. Holy fucking shit….I’ve died and gone to heaven. Pure heaven……… I slowly started to lift her off the ground as I wrapped my arms around her. I knew my erection was pressing into her body but I didn’t give two shits. All I cared about was showing her how much I wanted her. She needed to know she was wanted.
If I died today I would die a happy man. I’d never in my life experienced such a kiss before. I was overwhelmed by the sensation and my whole body was on fire from her touch.
I slowly started to slide her body back down along my body until her feet touched the ground. We both pulled away from each other only when we finally ran out of breath. I was completely breathless. Ellie’s chest was moving up down at a rapid pace. I stared into her eyes and she stared back into mine. I would remember this moment for the rest of my life.
I wasn’t sure what she was going to say or do but the moment the smile spread across her face…..I wanted to jump up and down and do a few fist pumps. YES!
My sweet beautiful Ellie. I would never give up on her……ever………
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
Ellie …….
The moment Gunner’s hand came up to my face I thought I was going to faint. His touch was so much better than any dream or fantasy could ever be. But his kiss……
Oh. My. God! His kiss was my undoing. I had never felt so much emotion in just a single kiss. I wrapped my arms around his necked and prayed to God he would never let me go. When he picked me up I thought I was going to explode. I could not help the small moan that escaped from my mouth. I wanted to stay in this moment for the rest of my life.
Then I felt his erection. I could no longer doubt that this boy did indeed want me. Shit…I was going to owe Ari that purse. I had felt Ryan’s erection plenty of times but it never had this kind of an effect on me. The throbbing ache in-between my legs was driving me crazy. I needed relief and was not sure how to get it.
Gunner slowly started to slide me down his body. Holy fuck….I just wanted to crawl inside his body and never leave. My god he was HUGE from what I could tell. I mean…I don’t have much experience but from what I could feel…..he was definitely not on the small side. My stomach was doing flips. I was going to have to tell Ari about this and get her thoughts on the matter.
We pulled away from the kiss at the same time. I could hardly catch my breath. My chest must have been heaving up and down because he looked down at it and quickly looked into my eyes. We stood there and looked into each other’s eyes for what seemed like forever. I never ever wanted to forget this moment. I needed to lock it away so that I could pull it out anytime I needed it.
I was scared to death to say anything. That had been one of the most amazing moments of my life. I have felt more alive with Gunner in the last 24 hours than I had my whole life. The way he made me feel with that kiss was beyond anything I had ever felt before. He made me feel……..wanted.
The warm sensation that was still traveling through my body caused me to smile. I needed him to know how he had just made me feel. As soon as I smiled up at him, he smiled that damn crooked smile back at me. I never in my life felt the desire I was feeling right now. If we had been alone somewhere I might not have been able to stop, I would have wanted more of him. I KNOW I would not have been able to stop. I felt the blush creep up into my cheeks for the thoughts I was having. Gunner reached up and ran the back of his hand down the side of my face.
“I love to see you blush Ellie. You’re the most beautiful thing I have ever laid eyes on.” Gunner said with such a soft sweet voice.
Oh wow! Ohhh……I mean…..wow……….Okay…….Breathe Ellie….that was the most beautiful thing anyone has ever said to me.
I let out a small laugh and looked down. “Um, thank you Gunner. That is the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me.”
He put his finger under my chin and lifted my face up towards him. “Well that is a damn shame because I’ve wanted to tell you that all day.” He reached down and kissed me softly one more time then said against my lips…..
”Shall we head over to Ari’s house now? I’m sure Jeff is waiting for you.”
Wait…Jefferson was at Ari’s house?
“Jefferson is at Ari’s house? Well that should be interesting the two of them together….alone. They will kill each other!” I said with a laugh as Gunner laughed along with me and grabbed my hand. We started to walk back to his truck and I thought about what he had said earlier to the valet guy about me being his girl. My stomach was filled with butterflies and I couldn’t help but smile. Could Gunner really be interested in me that way? Or was this attraction just because I was something that was always “Off limits” to him before?
Was I some kind of challenge for him?
No, I really didn’t think so but….I was going to keep my guard up that was for sure. I would not allow myself to be hurt again. I’d been hurt enough to last me a life time.
I literally felt like I was walking on cloud nine all the way back to the truck. I kept looking up at Gunner who was walking with the cutest damn smile on his face. I wonder if our kiss had affected him as much as it had me. Gunner held my door open and helped me up in to the truck.
He picked up my right hand. It was not nearly as swollen as it had been. He gently brought it up to his mouth and kissed it. I smiled at him and wondered what type of a family he came from. His mother sure did raise this boy right! I loved that he had kissed my body three different times in the last few minutes. I loved how his lips felt against my skin. I would forever long for his kisses now.
“How does your hand feel sweetheart? Do you need to take a pain pill?” Gunner asked has he pushed a piece of hair behind my ear. Kisses and Gunner playing with my hair……..
Oh yes, a girl could get very use to this if she let he guard down which I was NOT going to do.
“I had forgotten all about it until just now!”
Gunner just smiled at me. “Good Ellie sweetheart. I want to take away all your pain. I’m sorry I reminded you about it. We’ll stop at the store and pick up a few waters on our way.” I smiled at him as he shut the door and walked around his truck.
God, with what just happened between Gunner and me and Jefferson alone with Ari…..my mother was a million miles away and I was happy. I was so happy for the first time in a very long time.
Gunner started his truck and Ne-Yo’s “Let Me Love You” started from his iPod. Gunner looked over at me and gave me that panty melting smile.
“What a perfect song.” He said as he reached over and took my hand. Gunner gave my hand a squeeze as he pulled out of the parking lot.
Here I thought just thirty seconds ago was the happiest I had ever been….now I was really floating on cloud nine! I could not tear my eyes away from him, he was singing along to the song and my heart just dropped into my stomach. This guy was too good to be true. If I was not careful I might start falling in love with him…….or maybe it was too late…………………
