Текст книги "Wanted"

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CHAPTER SIXTY THREE

J eff……

I watched as Gunner and Ellie pulled away for their honeymoon. I was so happy for them I could hardly stand it.  Ellie had looked so beautiful and so fucking happy. I shook my head at the idea of my baby sister getting married. I guess it was my turn next. The thought of Rebecca and the baby popped into my head. I fucking knew there was no way that kid was mine. I was not drunk that night and the condom was not broke. At least I swear it was not broke.

Jenny walked up to me with a huge smile on her face. I felt in my left pocket to make sure I still had the engagement ring. Ari felt it once in my pocket while we were dancing but I told her it was the box for Ellie’s ring.

“Hey Jeff, the cabin is completely ready for you and Ari. I kept it simple just like you asked.”

“Thanks Jenny. I’m not exactly like that over the top fucker best friend of mine.”

Jenny laughed and gave me a hug. “Thanks Jenny, for everything you did for me and for Gunner and Ellie. The wedding was beautiful.”

Jenny smiled and patted my arm. I watched her walk away as I saw Ari walking up to me with a wicked smile on her face.

“Hey you…...feeling a little lucky tonight?” She said as she reached up and bit my lower lip. I let a small moan escape and she smiled.

“I am indeed. I have a little surprise waiting for us back at the cabin.” I said as I pulled her closer to me. God she smelled so fucking good.

“Well then, I think now that the bride and groom have left, the best man and maid of honor can leave as well.”

“Best fucking thing I’ve heard all damn day baby.”

We turned to leave and was stopped dead in our tracks by Ari’s dad Mark. FUCK ME!

“I think we need to talk.”

Ari looked at her dad and gave him a confused look. He looked over at me and I swear if looks could kill I would have dropped right then.

“Um, dad is it something that can wait? I mean we’re both exhausted.”

“No Ari, I have been waiting to talk to you since yesterday. I didn’t want to ruin Ellie’s wedding but now that she and Gunner have left we have a serious problem.”

Holy fuck, what the hell was going on?

“Daddy you’re starting to scare me. What has happened?”

“My office received a restraining order against you yesterday from a Rebecca Moore.”

Holy fuck……I felt all the air leave my body in one second flat.

“Who the fuck is Rebecca Moore? I don’t know anyone by that name daddy I swear.”

Just then it must have hit her. She turned to look at me and I’m sure my face was pale as a ghost.

“Tell me that that is NOT the same Rebecca that you fucked!”

Holy shit! I cannot believe she just said that in front of her dad!

“Jesus Ari! Really?” I said as I looked over at her dad.

“Listen, Jeff, I don’t know what the hell is going on. Two weeks ago you were standing there asking for my daughter’s hand in marriage and telling me you planned on asking her to marry you the night of Ellie’s wedding. Then there is some nut case girl claiming that she fears her life from Arianna. What the hell is going on?”

I threw my hands in my hair and dragged them down over my face. What the fuck? He totally just told her I was planning on asking her to marry me tonight. This was NOT fucking happening.

“Wait! WHAT? You were going to ask me to marry you tonight? OH MY GOD!” Ari screamed as she jumped into my arms. Then she turned to her father.

“Why the hell would you just ruin that for me dad?”

“Do you want me to tell her Jeff?”

I shook my head no. I think I was going to throw up.

“Then start talking.”

Ari looked back and forth between both of us. She looked confused and I wanted nothing more than to just take her away from all of this.

“Jeff? What the hell is going on?”

I looked up at her dad and then back at Ari. Here goes nothing. I was not sure how she was going to react when I told her. FUCK I just wanted to find out if this was true or not before I even said anything to her. Spare her the hurt…...I had no choice now.

“I got a call the other night when we were at Brad’s parent’s lake house. It was from Rebecca; she just busted out and told me that she was pregnant and that the baby was mine.”

Ari stepped back away from me and threw her hand up to her mouth.

“Oh my god……you cheated on me……with HER!”

What???

“GOD NO ARI! I swear to you I have not been with anyone but you since Thanksgiving. I swear to God!”

“Then how the fuck is she pregnant with your baby Jeff?”

I ran my hands through my hair again.

“She told me she was seven months pregnant. I ran into her at Rebels, the weekend before Thanksgiving and we…...we um…...” I looked up at Mark and he was glaring at me. Fuck….

“You fucked her Jeff? How many other girls are going to start showing up saying you got them knocked up! You promised me that you used protection! You PROMISED!” Ari screamed so loud it caused me to jump.

“I did Ari! I did use a condom baby. She’s claiming it broke but I was not drunk when it happened and I would swear on my life the condom did not break. Ari I swear on my life!”

Ari stepped back away from me, no……no God please no.

“Why didn’t you tell me you got a call from her? You must have gotten the call right before we came over. Why didn’t you say anything?” Ari shouted at me.

“Ari I was going to tell you I swear to God but I wanted to talk to Rebecca in person. To see if she was even telling me the truth because I didn’t want to hurt you unless…...unless…...”

“What Jeff. Unless it was true…...well now I know. I think we need to step back and take a break.”

Fuck no……no way I was going to let her walk away from me again! Goddamn it I was going to fight for her with everything I had.

“NO! Ari this does not change the way I feel about you baby. I love you Ari. I want to marry you; I want to have kids with you I want….”

Ari started crying and shaking her head. She put up her hand to get me to stop talking.

“Do you know I was just talking to Ellie about this just the other day. I was telling her how excited I was to know that one day…...one day..…” Her voice was breaking. Mother fucker…...I fucking hated Rebecca Moore with everything I had right now.

“One day, I would be able to tell you we were expecting a baby. I wanted to see your face; I wanted to be the one to see your fucking face when you were told you were going to have a baby! Would you want a boy or a girl? Would you even care? I just wanted to be the one to tell you that.”

“Baby I do want to have kids with you……more than you will ever know!” I walked to her and reached out for her.

“DON’T TOUCH ME! I will NEVER be the person who had your first child because you got some fucking whore knocked up. SHE gets to be the one who has your first child Jeff…....NOT me!”

I looked over at Ari’s father who was standing there looking torn. He looked at me with almost pleading eyes. What the fuck was I suppose to do!

“Ari I swear to you I’m going to find out if this baby is mine. I really don’t think it’s my baby, I will get it taken care of I promise you.”

“Well it looks like you’re going to have to wait a few months to find that out now aren’t you! Until then I don’t want to see or talk to you.”

“What?!”

“Now Arianna don’t do something based on your emotions right now sweetheart. Let Jeff talk to this girl before you do anything rash.”

I could not believe Mark was on my side. If that was my daughter I would tell the fucker to leave and never come back.

Ari turned to her father and glared at him. He took a few steps back and turned to walk away a little.

She turned back to look at me. I could not lose her again. I won’t lose her again!

I dropped to my knees in front of her. “Ari please, don’t do this to me. Please don’t leave me again……I beg of you!” I felt the tears running down my face and I didn’t give two shits. I was pretty damn sure we now had an audience.

Ari was crying as she looked down at me.

“I love you Jeff, more than anything but I can’t handle this right now. I need time……I need to be alone and away from you while you work this out. I’m not leaving you……I just…...I just need to be away from you.”

“Ari…...please tonight was supposed to change everything. Please.”

“I’m going back to the cabin. Please do not come there. I’m going to ride home with Amanda and Brad tomorrow. Please just…...just……just leave me alone for awhile Jeff. If you love you will just leave me alone.”

She turned and walked away from me. I fell over and buried my head in my hands and just lost it.

I felt someone trying to get me to stand up. I heard Brad and Josh telling me to stand up. I could barely stand. Once I got up I saw Ari getting into the jeep and driving off to the deer cabin.

Mother fucker…...not again……she was leaving me……again.

CHAPTER SIXTY FOUR

A ri……

Jeff dropped to his knees in front of me and started to cry.

“Ari please, don’t do this to me. Please don’t leave me again….I beg of you!”

Oh Jesus Mary and Joseph………fucking hell! My heart was breaking in two. I loved him so much but I was so fucking pissed right now. I wanted nothing more than to get down on my knees and comfort him. But I couldn’t, I just couldn’t. He took something away from me tonight. Something I was never ever going to get back. The chance to give him his first child, the thought made me start to cry.

“I love you Jeff, more than anything but I can’t handle this right now. I need time…...I need to be alone and away from you while you work this out. I’m not leaving you…...I just…...I just need to be away from you.”

“Ari…...please tonight was supposed to change everything. Please.” Oh god Jeff please stop begging me please!

“I’m going back to the cabin. Please do not come there. I’m going to ride home with Amanda and Brad tomorrow. Please just…...just……just leave me alone for awhile Jeff. If you love you will just leave me alone.”

I turned and walked away from him…...again. This time it was so much fucking harder. I knew he never meant for this to happen. It was both of our faults. Well no not really. It was that dickwads fault for not being able to tell me he loved me and then going on a three month man whore mission.

I can’t believe he was going to ask me to marry him tonight. Why didn’t my dad just wait to tell me about the fucking restraining order? WHY?!

Oh that bitch was smart to get that fucking thing. I so wanted to go right that minute and……and……well I can’t say what I wanted to do cause the stupid bitch was pregnant!

That stupid mother fucking son of a bitch stupid ass wipe dumb mother……Oh god……

I cried the whole way to the deer cabin. I almost hit two mother fucking deer on the way. Stupid animals, oh god I didn’t mean that! What the hell is wrong with me?

I wish Ellie was here. Oh god how I wish I could call her. I pulled up and saw a few small lights on. I was so tired all of a sudden. All I wanted to do was get into bed and sleep. I sat in the jeep and thought about the first time Jeff and I made love.

It was the night of Brad and Amanda’s wedding. They got married at the Driskill hotel and Jeff had booked a room there that night and I didn’t know it. The way he couldn’t tear his eyes off of me during the whole wedding ceremony should have been my first clue. Of course the slutty dresses Amanda had us all in that showed nothing but our cleavage to the max helped with his lust that night. Talk about not being able to breathe all night in that damn dress.

The room had been perfect. Simple but filled with LED candles and rose petals spread all over the bed. It was on the historical side of the hotel and had a balcony looking down onto Sixth Street. There were massage oils and lotions and chocolate covered strawberries. Oh god……it was magical. It was magical because Jeff was so sweet and gentle. After talking to Ellie I was not so nervous about my first time. She said it had hurt but after awhile it felt wonderful. She was not fucking kidding.

It was amazing.

I sighed as I got out of the jeep. Amanda and Heather would probably be coming to get their stuff. I’m sure once they heard what happened they would want to check in on me. I just really wanted to get out of this dress and these boots and just sleep. I opened up the door and almost fell over.

Oh no! NO! NO! NO! NOOOOOO! The whole room was covered with Stargazer Lilies. I mean the whole room was filled with them. There were bouquets of them in flower vases with blue bonnets mixed in. There were bouquets that had the stems wrapped in a light pink satin. Oh my god. One bouquet was so big……it was sitting in an old bucket with other wild flower bouquets. The smell in the room was unbelievable.

It was…...perfect.

It would have been perfect. I was so mad at my father for ruining this for me. OH GOD JEFF! He must have spent a fortune on all of these flowers.

I started to slide down the door and cry. I put my head down on my knees and just sobbed. I slammed my head back into the door and just screamed as loud as I could.

“MOTHER FUCKER!” I ruined everything because I couldn’t just let him explain. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

I sat there and cried so hard I felt like I could not breathe. Oh my god Jeff…...Oh god…...why did I walk away and tell him not to come here. If I had only known.….ARGH! I’m so stupid!

“Oh god why?? Why did this have to happen? WHY!” I screamed out. Then I heard a small knock on the door.

That must be Amanda and Heather. I slowly got up and opened the door.

I sucked in a breath of air as I saw the only man I would ever love standing there. He came for me. He didn’t walk away this time.

He came for me……….

Epilogue

A year and half later

Ellie…….

The late afternoon sun felt so good on my face. It was a beautiful December day. There was just enough of a cool breeze coming off the Llano River to make me wish I had grabbed a light sweater. The peacefulness of being out here was so nice and it finally felt like things were starting to settle in. The house was finally done and we were all moved in. I absolutely loved the way it turned out and I loved it even more knowing Gunner designed it from top to bottom.

He worked so hard the last year on that house while also trying to learn everything about running the ranch. Garrett was so wonderful; he never pushed Gunner into it too fast. He knew how important the house was to Gunner and me. Thank god it was finished now and at just the right time.

The firm that Gunner interned for in college, and still did some part time work for, loved the house so much they asked if they could feature it on their website. I was so proud of him. I had to smile thinking about when they called and asked to come out and take pictures of the finished house. He was so proud.

It was a two story ranch style house with a full wraparound porch on the first floor. The kitchen was amazing with tons of cabinet and counter space. Double ovens and a huge six burner range. The breakfast nook was nothing but windows. Hell the whole house was nothing but windows. Gunner insisted it be that way. He wanted to make it seem like when you were standing in the house you felt like you were outside.

We built the house right near our Oak tree that was now in our massive back yard. Gunner had put up a four board black plank fence all around the house and the Oak tree. The front and back yard probably totaled an acre of land. He said he wanted to make sure his kids had a manure free yard to play in someday.

We had a small but functional formal dining room. There was a huge living room for Gunner and Jeff to watch the football games and to entertain. The main living area was all an open floor plan so that if you were in the kitchen you could see into the living room and breakfast nook. The master bedroom was down stairs and 4 bedrooms were upstairs. There was a huge game room also upstairs that was built over the three car garage. Gunner insisted we needed it. Someday when we had kids he wanted their toys up there and nowhere near his big screen TV.

I had to smile at how much of a kid that man was when it came to boys toys. Tractors or TV’s, it didn’t matter. He was the only person I knew who had to open the box of something he just bought to start playing with it. Even the new camera we bought yesterday. He made me drive so he could take it out and start seeing how it worked.

Just then I heard his truck. My stomach started doing flip flops. Just the thought of seeing him still had me all giddy after a year and a half of marriage.

I thought about last night and how wonderful it had been. Gunner making such sweet, slow passionate love to me was my favorite thing in the world. I smiled thinking about all the sweet things he whispered in my ear.

I felt his hands wrap around me. He picked me up and spun me around slowly. Then he kissed me…….good god he kissed me with so much passion my knees almost buckled. He kept a strong but gentle grip onto me.

He leaned in and whispered against my ear.

“Shit sweetheart……you look so fucking sexy walking along this river……I want to make love to you right now Ells. I think we better baby……. I might die right now if I cannot feel myself inside your warm body.

I threw my head back and laughed at him. I turned around to look at him and gasped. He looked amazing. He was taking off his boots. His gray shirt showed off his muscular chest and arms. I smiled at the sight of my husband. He was so damn sexy. He picked up a stick and gave it a toss and Gus took off after it. Crazy dog had been at my side all damn day.

He looked at me and smiled as I smiled back at him. Hmmm……I wonder if we could have sex here?

Why did it feel like I was having a déjà vu?

OH MY GOD…...my dream. This was the dream I had that first night I spent with Gunner after the whole Ryan thing! Oh my god……I was trying to remember that fucking dream! Something happened in it that caused me to wake up so upset.

What was it?!

Gunner walked away from me. He left me…..

Oh GOD…..I couldn’t get any air. I bent over and put my hands on my knees. I needed air.

Gunner looked at me and jumped up and ran over to me.

“ELLIE…..sweetheart what’s wrong? Ellie what is it baby? Talk to me Ellie you’re scaring me.”

I looked up at him. I couldn’t talk…...touch me…...touch me Gunner I need you! I tried to talk but I couldn’t.

Gunner ran back over and threw his boots back on. He picked me up and started walking to his truck. I buried my face into him……oh god it felt so good to be in his arms and his smell just flooded my nose. I took a deep breath in and then another one. Thank god it was passing. This has not happened since the day we got married.

Gunner pulled down his tail gate and set me on it. Gus was now jumping up at me and Gunner yelled for him to get down.

“Baby is something wrong? Are you in pain?”

I started to laugh at his panicked face. He looked so confused.

“I’m okay Gunner. I’m sorry baby; I didn’t mean to scare you. It’s just I couldn’t get any air in and it was just like the day of our wedding. I just needed you to touch me for me to calm down.”

Gunner visible relaxed. He jumped up and sat next to me on the tail gate.

“Fuck Ellie, I thought something was wrong with you or the baby!”

I smiled at him and put my hands on my very big and round nine month pregnant belly. Right then I felt the baby kick. I grabbed Gunner’s hand and placed it on my belly.

“WHOA! That was a big kick from little bear.”

I just smiled and rolled my eyes at him. Gunner had been calling the baby little bear ever since we argued over buying a bear or a moose for the crib. I wanted the moose and he wanted the bear. I ended up getting my way but ever since then he called the baby little bear. I secretly loved it but rolled my eyes every time he said it.

“Yep, she has been moving around a lot today.”

“Oh today it's a she huh? Yesterday it was a he……what will your flavor be tomorrow?”

I hit him in the shoulder. We decided not to find out the sex of the baby. I was counting down until little bear joined us. The baby room was finished and just waiting. Gunner worked so hard on it. Josh made the baby crib and it was breathtaking. His custom furniture business in Austin was a huge success so for him to make such a large and beautiful piece of furniture for little bear meant so much to both Gunner and me.

Gunner placed his hand on my stomach and little bear did a roll and gave a good kick. Gunner leaned down and started to sing to the baby. His voice was beautiful and the baby must have loved it as well because every time he sung to little bear she would go crazy.

Gus started to bark. I let out a laugh as Gunner looked down at Gus.

“What is he barking on about?”

“I’m not sure. He has been by my side all day today. I actually got up and sneaked away from him earlier when he was asleep just to walk around the house without him under my feet!”

Gunner threw his head back and laughed.

OUCH! That one hurt!

“Holy shit! That one was a strong kick!” Gunner said with a laugh. “Little bear just might be a boy…...that felt like a pretty hard kick.”

“I don’t know……could also be a girl…....soccer player maybe?”

“Hmmm, that’s true.”

“I don’t really care if it’s a boy or girl……I just want her to be healthy and have my nose.”

Gunner laughed and reached over and pulled my mouth to his.

This man’s kisses were my weakness. I let out a small moan as I felt the baby move. She sure was active.

“Gunner, do you remember that first night I stayed at y’all’s house, the night we watched Cars?”

“KA-CHOW! You bet I do!”

I let out a giggle. “Do you remember when I woke up from a bad dream?”

“Yeah, I do remember that. You were calling out my name.”

“Well, that dream…...I remembered it just a little bit ago. In the dream I was walking along a river and you walked up to me. You kissed me but then you dropped my hand and you walked away from me. You were leaving me. I think I just freaked out a little bit. You know, all those old insecurities creeping back.”

Gunner jumped off the truck of the bed and grabbed my face and kissed the shit out of me. Holy hell….

“Mrs. Mathews I love you more than life itself and I will NEVER leave you. Now let me take you home so I can make love to you.”

I smiled at him……. this man has made all of my dreams come true. I loved him so much.

What? What the hell?

“Mr. Mathews, um……I would love for you to take me home and make love to me but……”

Gunner looked at me confused and shook his head.

“BUT? There are no buts Mrs. Mathews. Come on let me help you down sweetheart….…I want to give you at least three orgasms this time.”

“I don’t think we are going to be able to do that Drew.”

Gunner stopped dead in his tracks.

“Why?”

I smiled at him……..

“My water just broke.”