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Untangle Me
Chelle Bliss

There are so many people that have supported me on this journey and are worthy of praise and my thanks.

First, to my loving boyfriend, thank you for sacrificing some of our time together over the last few months for me to fulfill my dream. Thank you for showing me the love and passion that I had only been able to read about, but could write from personal experience because of you… you’re priceless and my Kayden.

I want to thank my amazing beta readers that have held my hand and pulled this emotional story out of my mind. My fantastic beta readers in no particular order – Deb Schultz, Mandee Migliaccio, Chris Letts, Krystyn Katsibubas, Melanie Lowery, Antionette Smith, Janet Breton, Angie Johnson, Tonya Mabe, Michelle Jeston, Nikki from Blissful Bookblog, Vicki Jones, Christina Omar, and Jacqueline Russell. I love all of you hard.

Thank you to my fabulous cover designer—Stephanie Mooney for the sexy image that captured so much attention… I love you and owe you the world.

I want to thank my wonderful editor—Brenda Wright for helping me last minute and being so supportive. I couldn’t have brought it to fruition without your help.

Thank you to the amazing ladies that organized my blog tours: Angie from Twinsie Talk Book Reviews and Ing from As The Pages Turn. Thank you to both of you for keeping me out of a padded cell and believing in me enough to offer your time and support by organizing an amazing tour for Untangle Me.

I could never have achieved the amount of attention I did without the help of the amazing bloggers. Thank you for showing me love and helping me spread the word about my debut novel. In no particular order: Blissful Bookblog, Twinsie Talk Book Reviews, Promiscuous Book Blog, Sassy Mum Book Blog, and all the incredible bloggers that signed up to help spread the word.

Thank you to Pepper Winters and Skye Callahan for helping me through the crazy journey that is writing. I enjoyed every moment I was able to join your writing sprints and the moral support. I adore you girls.

Thank you to Black Firefly for the beautiful headers and graphics contained inside this book. I love them and help give the book that polished edge.

I know I’ve missed someone, and if it was you, I’m so sorry. It doesn’t mean I don’t love you or you aren’t important in my world, it means my mind is overused and almost broken. I love you too and wouldn’t be where I am today without you

This book is dedicated to the

three most important people in my life.

To my parents for always being there

& loving me… Sorry for the crazy ride at times.

To B, the love of my life, for giving me the inspiration, the courage,

believing in me, and sacrificing our time together

to make my dream come true.

My heart hammered against my chest so strong, I thought it would explode. I clutched the steering wheel and concentrated on navigating through the streets of New Orleans.

“Stay right in a half mile, Interstate 610 west. Take exit one, West Napoleon Avenue and turn right. Your destination is one mile ahead on the right,” the GPS stated.

One mile?

Butterflies filled my stomach, sweat beaded on my face. I increased the air conditioning trying to cool myself off.

Get it together.

“Are you okay?” he asked.

“I’m just trying to figure out where I’m going. There are so many buildings.” I looked around trying to see an address amongst the numerous apartment complexes.

“I’ll guide you,” he said in a calming voice as I looked for him amongst the throng of cars.

“Do you see my car?”

“You just passed up my building. Do a U-turn and turn by the black gate.”

“Shit.” Sweat trickled down my temple.

I stopped the car in the middle turning lane, and wiped the sweat from my face. I studied my face in the rearview mirror. It was shiny, but otherwise looked unfazed by the long drive.

“I’m coming now.” I blotted my face with a napkin left on the passenger seat and applied powder to smooth my complexion. I sat for a moment and took a deep breathe.

Calm down, he’s just a guy. I gripped the wheel and turned back towards him, the man I had thought about constantly for weeks.

“I see you,” he said. I looked around quickly, trying to catch a glimpse of him. My eyes stopped dead when I spotted a gorgeous man sitting in a truck with the door open. He was smiling at me and my heart skipped a beat. I had seen him in pictures, but they didn’t do him justice.

“I see you now, too. Be there in a second.” I hit the end button.

Yes, he’s beautiful, but you’re not a hag, he’ll like you. He’s told you a million times how beautiful you are. You can do this. Calm the fuck down.

I tapped the steering wheel with my index finger as the gate opened painfully slow. I stole a glimpse in his direction. He stood near an empty parking spot, waiting for me. I studied him as I drove towards the parking spot. His body was muscular and lean covered in a pair of white knee length shorts and a blue t-shirt. The only visible hair on his body at a distance was a goatee that framed his smile. As the space between us closed, I could see his sage eyes dancing in the sunlight.

His smile had been a mystery to me. He didn’t like to show his teeth because of a gap that was never fixed. It finally filled my vision and it mesmerized me. The display made my heart melt, his teeth were imperfectly beautiful.

He motioned to the open spot. I parked my car in a haphazard fashion and turned it off. My heart rate increased and I felt an ache in my chest. I clenched my hands into a ball and closed my eyes before reaching for the handle.

I slowly climbed out, leaving the door open, and stood in front of him.

“Hi,” he said in a longing voice as he reached for me. Before I could respond, he embraced me. His heart was pounding as rapid as mine, and our heartbeats were responding to one another.

Thank god I’m not the only one nervous.

I inhaled deep with my face buried in his neck. A sweet masculine scent filled my nostrils as I closed my eyes. His scent was like none I had smelled before. He was free of cologne and the scent was purely unique, him.

His body withdrew from mine, my eyes remained closed. Soft moist lips glided across mine. His kiss turned more demanding as he sucked my lip into his mouth. I moaned as a tingle moved down my spine. The passion was palpable. I opened my lips and his tongue swept inside, exploring, as the taste of mint saturated my tongue. He gripped the back of my neck, tilting my head up to give him deeper access. The kiss conveyed all the longing and passion we felt towards each other. My heartbeat slowed and my legs felt like jelly.

Have I ever been kissed like this? His lips pulled away from mine and I swayed a bit.

“Let’s go inside,” he said as he steadied my frame, “We’ll get your stuff later.”

He closed my door, snagged the keys from my grip, and locked the car. He reached for my hand and enclosed it in his before squeezing lightly. My fate was sealed.

I followed slightly behind him taking in my surrounds. The apartment complex was shaped in a U with an open courtyard filled with palm trees, foliage, and paths leading to the apartments. The units were stacked three high and lined with wooden porches connecting the doorways. Birds sang in the trees as the sun shone, casting shadows upon the ground.

He turned the handle, and I immediately froze. Three men sat in the cozy apartment, but clearly it was a male-only dwelling based on the interior. Sparse non-matching furniture filled the space. No decorations, only white blank walls. It was frat like in appearance. My belly began to dance, but I tried to walk confidently. One man was lying on the couch watching television, and two others were sitting at the dining room table using their laptops.

“Guys, this is Sophia. Sophia, these are the guys,” he said as we walked through the living room without stopping.

“Hey,” they said as three sets of eyes looked at me almost in unison. I felt their eyes peeling off my clothing piece by piece.

“Hey,” I said as Kayden pulled me down the hallway to avert their stares.

His bedroom was filled with modern black furniture, a flat screen television, and a couple simple decorations. His bed was covered in red and black bedding. It was simple, but matched unlike the living room.

I turned around to face him and his lips were upon mine in a flash. He guided me backwards until the back of my knees hit the bed.

How far will I let him go? Oh Jesus, How far was he willing to take me?

My heart began to race and my mind flooded with images of him naked. The only sound filling the room was our labored breaths and lips moving rapidly.

He laid me gently on the bed and crawled on top of me. Our hands moved across each other’s bodies quickly. The man could kiss, and it was intoxicating. We had spent so much time talking, teasing, the sexual tension was suffocating.

I had lost all will power with his kiss. His hands moved along my body, touching my breasts through my shirt and bra. I reached down, feeling his cock through his pants. He was large, very large—larger than any man that I had experience with.

Fuckin’ hell. My mind raced, worried how I would be able to handle a man of his size.

I whispered to him, “You’re going to kill me.”

He chuckled a slow, sweet laugh against my lips. I wanted to feel his skin on mine. He began to trail kisses down my neck causing my body to break out in goose bumps. He yanked my navy blue tank top down with my bra, exposing my breast. He grazed it with his finger and pleasure shot through my body. His mouth found my nipple, his appetite ravenous. I moaned from the tingle that flowed down my body to my core. His smooth hands slid up my thigh and into my shorts, pushing my panties aside. A solid bond formed between his lips and my nipple, pain mixed with pleasure when his finger entered me. I rubbed his head and scratched his arms, unsure of how to react.

His head dipped down, and my stomach sank.

Was I ready for this?

He didn’t attempt to unbutton my shorts as he kissed my stomach down to the top of my shorts. He moved the cloth sideways; his mouth engulfed me, and covering my delicate flesh. He licked and sucked like a starved man, and I freely offered myself up as a meal. Pure ecstasy. He stopped abruptly and moved back up my body, kissing me on my lips, deep and passionate.

“We need to go, Sophia.” His body moved away from mine. “Are you ready to hit the town?” he asked me with a hint of mischief in his eyes.

“What?”

I’m so confused. One minute he was licking me in the most forbidden places, the passion was almost suffocating, and now he wanted to leave?

My head was spinning and I shook it to try and clear my thoughts.

“We have to get out of here. If we don’t, I won’t be able to stop myself. Let’s go downtown and enjoy the French Quarter.” He climbed off the bed and watched me intently.

He’s right, don’t argue. “Okay,” I said as I rearranged my clothing and pulled my underwear back into place.

He reached for my hand and helped me off the bed, sliding my palm down the cloth to smooth the wrinkles.

My thoughts were racing, but I was at a loss for words as we walked out of the bedroom. I kept my eyes towards the ground unable to look at his roommates, but I couldn’t stop a smile from dancing across my lips.

Kayden opened the front door for me, before grabbing his keys. He was half way out the door when we heard, “Damn, who knew he fucked like a teenage boy?”

Kayden closed the door; stopping, he placed his hand over his face. “I’m sorry, Sophia. They’re so fucking immature.”

“It’s okay, Kayden. I know how boys can be, let’s just go.”

“Come on, beautiful,” he said kissing my cheek. “I can’t wait to show you the beauty of New Orleans in person.”

Do I Know You?

Six Weeks Before…

“Hello...,” he said. “Earth to Sophia.”

I jumped as fingers snapped in my face. “Oh, sorry Bob,” I said, blinking a couple times.

“Where did you go off to?” Bob asked.

“Nowhere, something just caught my eye on the other side of the restaurant.” I’ve always been a terrible liar; thank God Bob is too self-absorbed to figure it out.

I wanted to leave work behind at the end of the day, but Bob couldn’t talk about anything else. He asked me out six months ago after school one day. I figured what the hell, why not? He was attractive, a couple years younger, had a stable job, and seemed reliable.

“As I was saying before you zoned out, this kid in my class today.” I stared at him but couldn’t comprehend a word he spoke, I didn’t want to either.

Bob and I had a casual relationship, going out once a week for dinner and drinks. Lately, the evenings ended at his place consisting of lack-luster sex. Bob is the type of man that ‘makes love’ in the only position he’s comfortable… missionary. I moaned when it seemed right and faked my orgasms when I had enough. Sex with Bob just didn’t have that extra something that put me over the edge, but then again, no one ever did.

Bob laughed across the table, “Can you believe he said that?”

If people could be a color, Bob would be navy blue. He didn’t have the edginess to be black or the sparkle for white, but the blandness that only navy blue could describe.

I laughed shaking my head. “That’s too funny,” I said pretending to pay attention.

“Do you want to come over tonight, Sophia?” He said smiling with raised eyebrows.

Fuck, fuck, fuck. “I’m kind of tired, Bob, mind if I just go home tonight?”

“Another night then,” he replied.

I sighed as I pulled in my driveway; I wanted to crawl out of my skin, break the good girl mold that I’d allowed others to cage me in. I lived another life in my books, one filled with excitement and passion. My book boyfriends dominated me, fucking me so hard that my orgasms knocked me out.

I crawled in bed curling up with my flavor of the week; tonight I’d have my hair pulled and ass smacked by an alpha male with a heart. A buzzing sound pulled me from the daydream, ruining my moment.

Kayden Michaels wanted to be my friend on Facebook. The name didn’t sound familiar, but I clicked on his profile anyways. He grew up close to my hometown and we had a few mutual friends, but his face wasn’t one I remembered. I tapped message from his profile.

Me: Do I know you?

Clicking on his photo, I studied his face. He had warm green eyes, a shaven head, a sinful grin framed by a goatee, and dimples… fucking hell, he’s got dimples. His facial hair was a mix of brown and gold, but the rest of him was smooth. He looked like the quintessential bad boy, a type I steered clear of my entire life, but visited nightly in my fantasies. As I stared at my screen, a message popped up, blocking his face.

Kayden: Not yet.

I stared at the screen, tapping my finger against my lip, my finger hovering over the decline button before his message stopped me.

Kayden: I saw your post to Freddie, we went to school together and I knew your brother.

Freddie is a life-long family friend, my brother’s best friend throughout childhood. Freddie went on vacations with my family, attended holidays, and still visits my grandparents to this day.

Me: Freddie’s such a nice guy; I’ve known him for as long as I can remember.

Kayden: I don’t remember you hanging out with us back in the day.

Butterflies filled my stomach as I thought about my brother’s friends. I had a crush on most of them during my awkward teenage years, but they treated me like a little sister. I wanted to tag along and be included, but I was looked at as more of a nuisance.

Me: I’m younger than my brother and didn’t really hang out with them.

Kayden: Probably for the best… at least for you, not for me.

I smiled at his small flirtation; those guys had flirting down pat. Girls dropped their panties for a wink or a smile. They lived in a world filled with color, while my world’s been saturated in somber tones.

Me: It was best for me at the time. Thanks for the request, maybe we’ll talk again sometime.

Kayden: Hey, wait. Where ya going?

I tapped my finger against the phone thinking of a response. Shit. I couldn’t think of anything witty, my mind going blank.

Me: Well, I found out how I knew you, figured we’re done.

Kayden: I’m not. I heard your brother got in some trouble a couple years back?

I sighed reading his words. My brother led a different life, never taking the easy road. He lived the rebellious life filled with adventure and danger; I read books, attended college, and fucked only three guys in my life. Trouble sounded more like he’d been slapped on the hand for touching something off limits; my brother spent two years in prison on a conspiracy charge… we’re polar opposites.

Me: Yeah, he’s doing fine now, though. Were you mixed up in that world?

Kayden: Hell no, I wrestled with the guys in school, but never hung out with them much after high school.

Me: Smart boy.

Kayden: Boy? It’s been a long time since someone called me that, little girl.

I smirked blinking slowly at his reply, his words made my insides warm.

Me: LOL. Tell me about Kayden ‘the man’.

Kayden: Anything you want. I’ll give you the short version of my life story. I live in New Orleans, install cable, I’m thirty-six, work hard, play harder, and I’m blissfully single.

Me: I’m a school librarian, live in Florida, divorced, I’m thirty-two and I’m navy blue.

I blushed hitting the send button. My message was cryptic and I knew that only I would understand. He played hard, while I stayed home on a Friday to go to bed with my book boyfriends.

Kayden: What the hell does that mean?

Way to go, make him think you’re absolutely crazy, Sophia. I needed to stop talking before I really embarrassed myself.

Me: Nothing, just an inside joke. Hey, I’m tired; maybe we can talk again soon.

Kayden: We will., I have to be up early for work anyways. Sweet dreams beautiful.

My cheeks warmed with his words—beautiful. I’ve been called beautiful before, but usually not by a man I’d classify as out of my league.

Me: Night.

What the fuck did I do? A sexy man was flirting with me and I ran away like a scared school girl. Sighing, I opened my book and began reading the words on the page; I pictured his sparkling green eyes looking into mine and his luscious lips on my skin.

I haven’t been able to get Kayden out of my mind all night, and it had bled over into my morning. I wanted to message him since the moment I woke up, but I didn’t have the nerve. I spent the morning reading his profile page, almost cyber-stalking him. I wanted to know everything about him, but I had to start with our connection, Freddie.

Me: Hey Freddie. Question for you—Do you know Kayden Michaels?

Freddie: Yeah, we went to school together. Why?

I bit my nail trying to think of how to answer this without it getting back to my brother?

Me: He sent me a friend request. I wanted to know if he’s an asshole?

Freddie: Nah kid, he’s a good guy. Did you talk to him?

Me: Not really, just wanted to make sure it’s okay to accept his friend request.

Freddie: Yeah, it’s cool. If he gives you any shit, you tell me.

Me: Always Freddie. Thanks!

Freddie had given him the stamp of approval; I just needed to get the courage to send him a message.

Kayden: Morning Sophia. Sleep well?

Oh. My. Fucking. God. Did he know I was stalking him? Did Freddie say something to him? Concentrate on breathing… inhale and exhale, slowly.

Me: Hey, yeah… I slept well and you?

Hey, yeah? I should just crawl into a hole now or bang my head against the bedroom wall. Why not just lead with: Hell yes, I thought about banging your brains out before I drifted off to sleep.

Kayden: Slept like a baby. What did you mean last night about being navy blue? You intrigued me with that statement.

I twirled my hair thinking of a way to explain navy blue. Fuck it… just tell him.

Me: I don’t know how to explain it. Is navy blue an exciting color?

I rolled my eyes at my stupidity. Shit. I fidgeted waiting for his response.

Kayden: Umm, not really.

Me: Well, it’s the color of my life.

Heat crept across my cheeks.

Kayden: Impossible.

Me: Entirely true.

Kayden: Come on, you’re Mike’s sister and you’re hot as hell. No way that you’re boring.

My belly flipped with ‘hot as hell’. I loved him flirting with me; it made my body all tingly and warm.

Me: I’m nothing like my brother, Kayden. I learned what not to do by watching him.

Kayden—even his name wasn’t bland.

Kayden: I never thought you were, you just share DNA. That doesn’t make you navy blue. Tell me more about yourself. Are you seeing anyone?

I bit my lip. How much should I tell him? I’ll never meet him; why not throw it all on the table? Just enjoy the flirtation and his color.

Me: I’m seeing someone casually. A teacher from work and he’s a nice guy.

Kayden: That’s the kiss of death.

Me: What is?

Kayden: He’s a nice guy is code for he sucks.

I snickered, covering my mouth, at the spot on interpretation of Bob.

Me: He doesn’t suck; Bob can be boring at times. It’s not easy to find someone to fit my perfect mold.

Kayden: I thought I found ‘the one’ twice in my life… I’ve abandoned the possibility and stopped dating all together.

I frowned at the second half of his statement. Why are all the hot guys unavailable? It leaves the single ladies my age to drown a sea of boredom.

Me: I can’t give up on filling the mold, not yet at least.

Kayden: Why did you end up divorced? If I can ask, I don’t want to offend you.

I sighed. How to explain what happened with us. It’s complicated and fucked up.

Me: So many things went wrong. I met him right after high school and we married years later. The relationship lacked in so many ways, but I ignored them, waiting for it to change.

A lump formed in my throat thinking about my past failure. I thought I’d be with him forever; we’d have a family and grow old together.

Kayden: Lacked how?

Me: I felt more like a roommate and his housekeeper. Totally passionless… there was no romance. We talked about having kids, but it would’ve been a miracle.

Kayden: Is he gay?

I spit my coffee out, drenching the kitchen table.

Me: No, he’s married with kids now. We weren’t right for each and I had to walk away.

Kayden: You’re beautiful. All that long brown hair, big beautiful brown eyes, and smokin’ hot body are delicious. How can a man not want to make love to you?

He said I was beautiful again. I never thought of myself as ugly, but more ordinary. I always wanted blue eyes or something more unique. My hair is straight and one length and never held a curl no matter how hard I tried and grazed my waist. I’m taller than most women and slender with a pouch on my stomach. I felt plain at times, but I knew my eyes were my best feature. They were large with long eyelashes and I loved using different colors of makeup to help them stand out more.

Kayden: A relationship is nothing without passion, you made the right choice. It’s not always easy, but it’s best to keep your sanity.

I tapped my foot, unable to keep still. I didn’t want the conversation to be about me.

Me: You’ve given up on dating entirely?

Kayden: Yes, strictly physical relationship now.

Me: So you have sex with strangers? Are you that guy—the type that sleeps with a girl, never to be heard from again?

Kayden: Fuck no, not anymore at least. I’m upfront with each of them.

Does that mean he’s sleeping with more than one?

Me: Them?

Kayden: I’m not banging my way through the female population of New Orleans. I turn to in my time of need.

My body tingled thinking about Kayden needing sex. A porno clip played in my mind and he was the star.

Kayden: I’m not a dick about it.

I blinked, being pulled out of my sex haze.

Me: You sound kind of like a caveman to me.

Kayden: I don’t take what’s not freely offered. They know I’ll never be their boyfriend, they take it for what it is, a night of pleasure... mind numbing pleasure, the type that makes your toes curl, takes your breath away, and leaves you wanting more.

Fuck me. Every part of my body ignited. I’ve never had that… ever. I wanted it more than anything in the world. The bland vanilla sex in my real life lacked the passion and want of the carnal pleasure I had with my book boyfriends. He said they, as in more than one, fucking hell.

Me: OMG. You’re a man whore.

Kayden: Ouch, Sophia. That’s a bit harsh isn’t it?

Me: I thought it was more funny than harsh. I meant it the nicest way.

I didn’t blame Kayden. I’m sure he’d been upfront with them; some didn’t mind being used in that way, hell, maybe they were using him. I’ve never been a user or let myself be used. Maybe that was my problem, why my life is navy blue. I was drawn in by him, a man my exact opposite. I felt safe and comfortable talking to him. He’s hundreds of miles away, not looking for a girlfriend, and added color to my dreary world.

Kayden and I had been talking for a week now. The hour a day online conversations turned into all day banter. We worked and messaged each other every moment we could, usually falling asleep in the middle of the conversation. I wanted to know everything about his man. He shared his days with me, the tiniest detail I clung to. I still thought the man whore title fit him perfectly, but he was more complex. He’s passionate and romantic, but his heart’s been destroyed and I needed to know why.

Me: Can I ask you something? If you don’t want to answer I understand.

Kayden: Shoot.

Me: What happened in your relationships to make you swear them off forever?

I hit send and grimaced as I read my question. I didn’t want to offend him or scare him off. The last week I’ve had more fun talking to him than any other person in my life. Today was navy blue day, and offending Kayden would make the day a total loss.

Kayden: It’s not an easy answer. I’ve been divorced for a long time and I finally fell in love again four years ago. We were like oil and water and it ended in disaster. She’s a crazy bitch and I swore off relationships forever.

My heart ached for him, for swearing off love forever. How bad was it? It must have been bad to make him swear off women forever. I’d only chatted with Kayden a week. I shouldn’t be as sad or concerned for him as I felt. I couldn’t rationalize my feelings with reality.

Me: Twice and you’re out?

Kayden: My ex-girlfriend, Lisa (not my ex-wife), ripped my heart out. I don’t think I could survive going through it again.

Me: Heartache can make you feel that way. You’re too young to give up on it, though. And really, you can’t stop love—sometimes it just happens.

Kayden: Not if I have my way. I’m not looking for love and I stay away from any situation where it’s even a possibility.

I furrowed my brows and pouted. Why was I bothered by his answer? Did I think he’d change his mind and that I’d be ‘the one’?

Me: I’m sorry. You’ve just picked the wrong ones. You shouldn’t give up on love, just your taste in women.

Kayden: Maybe, but for now it’s easier for me. I work seven days a week and keep myself busy. I’m happier than I’ve been in years, Sophia.

Me: I don’t believe it, but you can keep lying to yourself, Kayden.

Kayden: Tell me about your past relationships or your current one?

I bit my lower lip, thinking of a way to describe where it had all gone wrong.

Me: They’ve all been passionless, an endless sea of navy blue.

Kayden: Can I ask you a couple questions? It only seems fair.

Palm meet forehead. He’s always answered my questions, how could I say no? I swallowed hard trying to figure a way out of it, but nothing came to me.

Me: Go ahead—fair’s fair.

Kayden: Did they hold you every night and kiss you each day?

I didn’t want to admit to the mediocrity in my love life, but I didn’t have anything to lose either.

Me: No, they didn’t hold me and the kisses were short, sweet, and chaste.

Kayden: There’s problem number one. Do you like to be held?

Me: Yes, but guys just don’t seem into it.

Kayden: Maybe the guys you’ve been with. I fucking love it, one thing I miss not being in a relationship. Okay, so what about kissing? Why only short little kisses? I mean that’s how you kiss a friend.

I tapped my thumbs against my phone thinking of how to answer this.

Me: I love to kiss, just haven’t found someone that brings me to my knees with a kiss. It’s always too sloppy or too neat. I don’t even try to kiss anymore, why be disappointed?

Kayden: Ahhh… Maybe you’re the problem. Maybe you’re a bad kisser.

Me: WTF. No, I’m a damn good kisser, or at least I remember I used to be.

Kayden: I don’t know about that, has to be some reason behind it. I could tell you… if you’re good or not.

I stared at the screen with my mouth open and gulping like a fish out of water. The thought of kissing Kayden sent tingles throughout my body. Do. Not. Geek. Out. My fingers shook as I typed my reply.

Me: Oh, you’re the authority?

Kayden: I’ve never had any complaints and I’m just offering to help you out.

Me: You’re so full of shit.

Kayden: The offer stands, Sophia. When you want me to give you my honest opinion all you have to do it call me. My number is…

I quickly added his number to my contacts, not wanting to take any chance of losing it. He didn’t ask for mine, but if he would’ve asked, I would’ve given it to him.

Consumed. It’s the only word that accurately describes my thoughts over the last three weeks. Kayden has consumed my every thought, my dreams, and my fantasies. I haven’t spent as much time with Bob since I started chatting with Kayden. My conversations, although I’ve never heard his voice, were far more interesting than anything Bob had ever said.

Kayden: I want to hear your voice, Sophia. Can we talk instead? It’s just hard for me type right now.

My heart pounded at the thought. We’d never spoken on the phone. My voice was more like a teenage girl and I hated the sound of it. I wouldn’t be able to hide my shock or laughter if we talked on the phone. I gnawed on my nail thinking about it. Did I want to talk to him? God, it would be such a letdown if his voice was like a squeak toy or he sounded like Kermit the Frog. I swallowed hard and knew I had to talk to him; I needed to talk to him.

Kayden: You still there?

Me: Yeah, sorry I got distracted there for a minute.