Текст книги "Faithful"

Автор книги: Kelly Elliott

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Oh god. It hurt, but it felt like heaven at the same time. Jesus…he’s filling every ounce of me.

“Holy hell, Ells…Jesus, you’re so warm. Yous feel so good. Move, baby…please move.”

I started moving up and down, in circles, all over him until I found that perfect spot. Oh god, yes…there it is. “Oh, Gunner…it feels so good. I don’t want to come yet.” I slowed down.

“Ells, I’ms not going to last much longer, baby,” Gunner panted.

I started to move faster. “Oh god…oh yes, Gunner! That feels so good.”

Before I knew it, I was calling out his name. He sat up and wrapped his arms around me as he moaned in pleasure.

We just sat there and held each other for a few minutes until my breathing got under control.

“Fuckin’ A, baby. Drunk or not, that was amazing!” I said with a giggle. “Gunner?” I tried to pull back from him, but he had his head on my chest, and all his weight was leaning up against me.

Oh. My. God. He’s fucking asleep? I reached behind me and pulled his arms off of me. I watched as he fell back and hit the pillow.

“Feels so damn good, baby.”

I just stared at him. “We’re done,” I said.

“Hmm…Ellie…yous feel so good, baby.”

I slowly got up and off of him. I kneeled down next to him. “Gunner! We. Are. Done. As in…we’re finished having sex.” I watched him roll over as he tried to reach for me.

“Oh yeah, baby…smex with yous amazing. God, I love you, Ells.”

I shook my head while my drunker-than-drunk husband was lying there, sleeping. My heart filled with so much love for him. I knew with every ounce of my being that he only loved Alex and me.

I’ll have to apologize tomorrow…but he still has to make up for this in the morning.

Jesus H. Christ. My hands were sweating, and I had to keep wiping them on my pants. I glanced over at Heather when I was stopped at a stoplight. She was looking out the window.

Is she just as nervous as I am? I mean, it’s not like we haven’t had sex before. Fuck. I don’t remember having sex with her.

“So which way should I go?”

“At the next light, you’ll want to turn right.” She looked at me and smiled. “Sorry, I guess I kind of forgot that in your mind, you’ve never been to our…I mean, my house before.” Her smile faded a bit.

“So, I was getting ready to move in?” I asked.

“Yeah…I mean, you pretty much made the decision. You were packing up your place. After your accident, your mom and I went to your apartment to get you some clothes. That was when I saw all those packed boxes. I think you were going to surprise me with moving in sooner,” she said with a wink.

As I turned right, we started driving through a neighborhood. It had mostly bungalow-type houses, and they were cute as fucking hell. When I came up to a stop sign, Heather pointed to the house on my left. It was across the street on the corner. The lights were on, so I was able to get a good look at it.

Red tin roof. Looks like a white clapboard house.

“Just go straight down the driveway, and the detached garage is behind the house.”

I pulled in and headed back to the garage. I saw a two-car garage, and the doors looked like barn doors. I put the truck in park and shut it off.

“You ready for the tour…again?” Heather asked with a laugh.

I turned and grabbed her hand. “Wait, you walk from here to your house…alone…in the dark?”

“Um, yeah. I guess if I get home after dark, I do. Why?”

“It’s dangerous!”

“What?”

“Heather, I’m not so sure I like the idea of you walking so far in the dark. Anyone could just pull up and grab you. Where the fuck was I when you bought this house?”

She sat there, stunned, as she stared at me. “Well, uh…we weren’t really together when I bought the house,” she said.

I turned back and looked at it. There was a huge deck in the backyard. Damn, we could have some fun parties on that thing. I looked over to my left, and there was a smaller deck with an outdoor table and grill. Ah hell yeah. This place fucking rocks. The lot is big, and if we put up a fence, I could get a dog.

I looked back at Heather. “Two decks?”

She smiled and nodded.

“Did we ever have any parties here?”

She started laughing. “Yep! We had a party here last fall, celebrating Ellie’s, Ari’s, and my birthday. It was a blast. You kept hounding me to put up a fence, so you could get a dog!” She laughed some more.

My heart stopped. I reached over and pulled her to me. I took her mouth with mine. Oh god, she tastes just like honey. So damn sweet. I want her so much. I need her so much. I slowly pulled way and smiled.

“Wow! What was that for?” She smiled and looked into my eyes.

“Can I still move in?”

The look she gave me sent a chill up and down my spine. The lust in her eyes was beyond anything I had ever seen before.

“Yes,” she whispered. “Josh?”

“Yeah, princess?”

“Will you please take me inside and make love to me?”

My heart slammed in my chest. Motherfucker. I never moved so fast in my life. I was out of my truck and on the passenger side so quickly that I thought I even surprised her. After opening her door, I helped her down, took her in my arms, and kissed her again. The low soft moan that came from her lips ran through my whole body.

She pulled away, grabbed my hand, and started walking us toward the deck with the table and grill. After she got out her keys, she was trying to unlock the door, but her hands were shaking, so she could hardly get the key in.

Holy hell. She’s just as nervous as I am. How about that?

When I put my hand over hers, she stopped moving. I turned her around and backed her up against the door while I took the keys out of her hand. I put the key in, and just as I was about to unlock it, I leaned down and started kissing her. She threw her arms around my neck and kissed me back with so much passion that I thought I would explode.

I pushed open the door and slowly walked her backward into the house. I kicked the door shut with my foot, and we kept walking until we hit the kitchen island. I picked her up and set her on the island. All the while, we never once broke our kiss.

Heaven…I’m in heaven. I pulled my lips away and rested my forehead against hers. “I’ve waited so long for you.”

“I’ve always been yours. I’ll always be yours.”

“For infinity?”

She let out a giggle. “Yes…for infinity.”

It was pitch dark in the kitchen.

“The lights?” She pointed behind me, next to the door.

Once I turned them on, I saw the size of the kitchen.

“Holy hell, this kitchen is huge, and that island—”

Just then, an image of us on the island flashed into my head.

“Have we…” I started to ask, pointing at the island.

She smiled and nodded as her cheeks flushed.

Fuck me, that is such a turn-on. “How long ago?” I asked.

“What?”

“How long ago was it when we made love on this?” I winked at her. I just wanted to see her blush again.

“Oh…um…” She closed her eyes and smiled.

She must be picturing it.

“Heather?”

She snapped open her eyes, and there it went. Her cheeks flushed, and my dick got rock-hard.

“Late November maybe.” She looked down and away.

I placed my finger on her chin and pulled her face back toward me. I could see her chest quickly moving up and down.

“Breathe, princess.”

“Oh god, Josh. I’ve missed you so much, and I have no idea why I’m so nervous and scared, but this…this…”

“Feels like our first time?”

“Yes!”

“Well, for me, it kind of is!” I said with a wink.

She started laughing. “Yeah, I guess it is. I kind of have the advantage. I know what you like me to do!”

I need to be inside her…right now. “Condoms?”

Her smile faded for a second, and she looked like she wanted to say something, but she stopped herself. Then, the smile spread across her face, even bigger than before.

“No, babe, we don’t need one.”

My heart started pounding stronger. She must be on the pill? Sex with no condom! Shit, this just keeps getting better. I pulled her closer to me. “Wrap your legs around me, princess.”

“Your ribs, Josh,” she whispered.

“They’re fine.”

“Do you want a tour of the house?” she asked with a smile.

I threw my head back and laughed. “No…the only thing I want is for you to tell me where the bedroom is.” I looked into her eyes.

She smiled, and my heart fell to my stomach. Shit…I don’t want to fuck this up.

I slowly let her slide down my body, making sure she felt how much I wanted her. She raised her eyebrows and let out a giggle.

My god, she’s breathtaking.

Heather grabbed my hands and led me through the kitchen, dining room, and out to the living room. I looked around, trying to see if anything, anything at all, would spark a memory.

Nothing.

“The master bedroom is upstairs.” She turned to me with the sweetest smile I’d ever seen.

My heart was beating harder and faster with each step I took. Once we got upstairs, I looked around. “Jesus H. Christ. The whole upstairs is the master?”

“Yep! The couple who had it before me remodeled the whole house. Wait until you see the master bath. There are two bedrooms downstairs, too. One is a guest room right now, and the other is an office, but I’m going to change it to a baaa…um…well, someday it will be something different.” She stopped talking and turned away.

She was going to say baby’s room. I wonder if we talked about having a baby soon. Holy shit. I tried so hard to not freak out. “So…can I see this master bathroom?”

She smiled that beautiful smile and nodded.

The moment we walked in, I noticed the cabinets. I closed my eyes as I pictured taking a blindfold off of Heather.

“Did I make these cabinets?” I asked.

She spun around and looked at me. “Yes! Oh my god! Do you remember making them, Josh?”

I had to laugh at how excited she got every time I seemed to remember something. “I remember taking a blindfold off of you…and we were standing in this bathroom.” I looked around. Fuck, I do good work!

She put her hands on my chest and started pushing me out the door. “I have to go pee,” she said with a wink.

“Again? My god, girl. It’s all that water you were drinking tonight!” I pulled her to me and kissed her before she closed the door.

I headed toward the bed and took a good look around. She had her iPod sitting on her iHome, so I reached down and hit play. Tim McGraw’s “One of Those Nights” started playing. I’d heard this song this morning, and it had made me think of Heather. I smiled to myself, thinking how perfect this song was.

I walked over to the dresser and saw a picture of us fishing somewhere. Heather was holding a giant-ass bass, and she had the biggest smile on her face. I took off my boots and then pulled my T-shirt out of my pants. I opened a drawer, and it was filled with my clothes. I smiled as I took out my favorite T-shirt from high school.

Why can’t I remember? I just want to remember what it was like to be with her.

“I love that T-shirt,” Heather said from behind me.

I turned around and sucked in a breath of air. My eyes traveled up and down her body. With a wicked smile on her face, she was leaning up against the doorjamb, wearing only a pink lace bra and matching panties.

Holy shit…I can’t even think straight. “Heather…I, um…I can’t even fucking think straight while looking at you in just your, um…your…um…” I just kept staring at her. She’s perfect. There isn’t a single thing I would change about her.

She let out a laugh as she started to walk toward me. By the time she reached me, George Strait’s “Give It All We Got Tonight” started playing. She placed her hands on my chest and looked up at me. She slowly moved her hand down. She took the T-shirt I was holding out of my hand, and she tossed it to the floor.

“I, um…that was my favorite shirt in high school,” I whispered as I placed my hands on her hips. Oh god…her skin is so soft. I’m not gonna last five minutes.

She licked her lips. “I know.” She slowly started to lift my T-shirt up.

I reached down and helped her get it off. The way she was looking at my body was like she’d never seen it before. I couldn’t be any more turned-on if I wanted to be.

“Dance with me?” she asked.

I pulled her closer to me as she placed her head against my chest. She fits so perfectly in my arms.

“I’m so scared, Josh,” she whispered.

What? Why in the world is she scared?

She pulled away and looked into my eyes. The tears rolling down her face about gutted me.

“Oh, baby…please don’t be scared. I promise…it’s going to be perfect.”

I wiped away her tears as she gave me a weak smile. For a brief moment, it almost seemed like she wasn’t scared of making love with me. She seemed to be scared of something else, something she was holding back from me.

I walked her toward the bed as she started to unbutton my jeans. I leaned down and took her lips with mine. The sweet, soft moan she let out rolled through my body with such a warm feeling. I reached behind her and used my hand to unclasp her bra. I slowly slipped it off her, and then I just stared at her beautiful skin.

So fucking beautiful. I love this girl. I feel it one hundred percent in my heart. I love her more than anything.

I looked into her beautiful blue eyes and smiled as she smiled back at me. I kissed her so softly. When I pulled away, I noticed her biting her lower lip. I reached up with my thumb and pulled it out of her teeth as I shook my head.

“I want to do that.” I noticed her whole body tremble. “Lie down, princess,” I whispered against her lips.

The moment he told me to lie down, my heart dropped into my stomach. Oh god…I want him so badly. How is he making me feel like this is our first time all over again? I started to move back onto the bed as I watched him take off his pants. My heart was slamming in my chest. I was lying down just as “Storm” by Lifehouse started to play. I closed my eyes and fought back the tears. Breathe…oh god. Breathe.

I opened my eyes and saw Josh standing there, looking at me. Oh. My. God. He has tears in his eyes.

“I want to lose myself in you…and I pray to God I also find myself in you, princess.”

He slowly moved onto the bed and over me. He captured my mouth with his and kissed me like I’d never been kissed before. I wasn’t even aware that he was taking off my panties until I felt his hands lift me up. My body shivered under his touch.

“I love you, Josh. I love you so much. Please…please,” was all I could manage to get out.

Josh leaned his forehead on mine. He took in a deep breath and then slowly let it out. “I’ll love you until the day I take my last breath.” He took his hand and placed it on the side of my face before moving it down my neck, to my chest, and then lower to my stomach. He stopped right on my stomach and smiled.

I sucked in a breath of air. Does he know? Impossible…he couldn’t know.

“Maybe someday, we can fill this whole house with kids,” he said with a smile.

I felt a tear rolling down my face. He moved his hand lower, and the moment I felt him touch my clit, I bucked up my hips. Then, I felt his fingers inside me, and I almost came. God, I need him in me so bad.

“Heather…fuck, you’re so wet, princess.” He started to move his hand in a way that drove me to the edge in no time.

“Yes,” was all I could get off my lips.

“Tell me what you want, Heather.”

Oh. My. God. I can’t stop it. “Oh god, Josh. I want you…I need you so badly. I need you.”

“I love you, baby.” He took my nipple into his mouth.

It hit me so hard and fast that I couldn’t help but yell out in pleasure. “Oh, Josh! Oh…oh god…please don’t stop.”

Before I even had a chance to come down from the incredible orgasm I’d just had, I felt him slowly entering my body.

Oh my…he feels so good.

“Good god…Heather, you feel like heaven.” Josh started to move so slowly. “You feel so damn good.”

I pushed my hips toward him. I need him to go faster, harder. “Josh…go faster! Please move.”

He let out a laugh as he pulled back and looked at me. “Okay, princess, but this is, like, my first time with you. I just want to savor every second.”

I pulled his face to mine and kissed him like I’d never kissed him. He smiled against my lips.

“I love you,” he said.

I smiled. “I love you more.”

“I love you more times infinity,” he said with a wink.

He made such sweet, slow love to me that I almost wanted to cry. I pushed my hips up and grabbed him by the ass. I need more. I forced him over and got on top. The moment I sank all the way down onto him, I threw my head back and moaned. Holy hell, this feels so damn good. I’ve missed him so much. I started to give him a taste of his own medicine as I slowly, oh-so slowly moved up and down and then around.

When Josh let out a moan, I smiled, knowing I was making him feel so good.

He grabbed on to my hips and tried to get me to move faster, but I stopped moving altogether. His eyes flew open, and he smiled that damn smile of his. The dimple on the side of his cheek melted my heart in an instant.

“Baby, I really need you to move.”

I moved slightly and smiled.

“I’m gonna flip your ass over and take you from behind unless you move,” he said with a smile.

I raised my eyebrows. From just him mentioning it, I almost felt like I could come again.

He sat up and took me in his arms as I started to move.

Oh. My. God. This feels so good. “Oh god, I’m going to come again, Josh.”

I threw my head back as we both cried out in pleasure.

The next thing I knew, I was lying across his chest, listening to him trying to catch his breath. I smiled to myself as I thought about how wonderful it was to be with him again.

He’s mine again. He will always be mine.

When I rolled off of him, he took me in his arms, and I felt myself going to sleep, falling into a dream.

On my way to the bonfire, Ari reached out and grabbed my arm.

“Maybe you and I should take a walk, Heather.”

“Why? It’s getting cold, and I just want to sit by the fire.”

Ari looked back over at the fire. When I followed her eyes, I saw Josh and Victoria hugging. My stomach turned, and I wanted to throw up.

Then, it happened. He dropped to one knee and held out a ring box. Victoria’s hand flew up to her mouth as she let out a small scream.

My eyes moved from her to Josh. When he glanced over at me, I wanted to scream, No!

But I couldn’t move.

“Heather? Heather! Baby, please wake up!”

“No! No, you can’t marry her! You love me! No!” I sat up with sweat pouring off of me. Oh my god! I had the dream again. It was the same stupid dream I’d been having for the last few weeks. Shit! I placed my hand on my chest. I can’t breathe.

“Baby, take a deep breath.” Josh wrapped his arms around me.

Oh, thank you, God. He’s with me.

“Jesus, Heather, you scared the shit out of me. What in the hell were you dreaming about?” Josh asked as he ran his hand through my hair.

I shook my head. “Nothing. Just a nightmare that I’m hoping I never have again.” I looked up and smiled at him.

“Shit, I hope not.”

I felt his hand move up and down my side. I started to get that familiar ache between my legs. I would have to ask Ari if this was just a part of being pregnant or if it was just because I’d missed Josh so much. Either way, I wanted him again. I glanced up at the clock and saw it was six in the morning. When I looked back at him, he smiled and tapped my nose with his finger.

“Want to go take a shower?” I asked, scrunching up my nose.

He laughed. “Again?”

I nodded and smiled. “It’s such a big shower, and I don’t want to be in there all alone.”

“Shit, Heather. I never knew my equipment could perform so much. I’m really happy about it and all, but baby, this’ll be the fourth time. I don’t want you to be sore.”

I pushed him onto his back and crawled on top of him. I rubbed against him until I felt him growing hard. I bent over and kissed one nipple and then the other before I jumped off of him.

“Okay. Well, you know where I’ll be if you change your mind,” I said over my shoulder as I winked at him and made my way into the shower.

After we made love in the shower, we got dressed, and then I finally gave Josh a tour of the house. I made us breakfast, and we ate it on the back deck. We talked about Josh wanting a dog, and I answered a million questions he had about us.

It was a perfect morning. It almost felt like things were back to normal. Josh went back upstairs to get ready to leave since he was heading to his apartment today to grab a few things and finish packing to move in with me.

I smiled, thinking about when he’d asked if he could still move in. I really need to tell him about the baby. I’m so scared he’s going to think I’m trying to trap him.

“Hey, you look like you’re a million miles away.”

I stood up and walked over to him. I just need to tell him. “Um…Josh, I kind of want to talk to you about something.”

“Sure, princess. Anything you want to talk about, I’m all ears,” he said with a smile.

Just as I was about to start, my cell phone rang. I glanced down and saw it was Amanda. Shit! She was on her way to see Brad, and I was sure she was upset.

I looked back up at Josh and frowned. “Amanda is going to see Brad today, so I better get it.” I let out a sigh.

Josh grabbed his truck keys and then gave me a quick kiss on the lips.

“Hey, Amanda. Hold on real quick,” I answered. I looked Josh in the eyes. “I love you. Please be careful driving.” I kissed him again.

“I’ll be back soon. I don’t think it will take me long. Are you staying here?”

“I have to run a few errands, but I won’t be gone long. I’ll be waiting for you,” I said with a wink.

The smile that spread across his face caused my knees to go weak.

He slowly backed away and turned to leave. “Be naked!” He walked down the steps and out to his truck.

I giggled as I watched him walk away. Damn, that boy has a nice ass.

“Hey, Amanda. I’m so sorry. Josh was just leaving to head back into Austin.” I sat down.

“Did you tell him about the baby?”

“Uh…no, not yet.”

“Oh Jesus, Heather. You can’t keep putting it off. Look at the situation I’m in now because I didn’t tell Brad the moment I found out I was pregnant.”

My heart broke for Amanda. “What time are you going to see him?”

“I don’t think I can do it. I’ve pretty much gone through half this pregnancy without him here. What if he can’t give up the drugs? And, of course, there’s also the fact that he made out with that bitch.”

“Oh, Amanda, please go. I know you’re angry, but you’ll always second-guess yourself if you don’t go. I know he hurt you, but I also know he is hurting so, so much. Ellie said Brad cries every time he talks to Gunner, and Brad always says how much he hates himself for what he has done to you.”

Amanda was silent for a good two minutes. I heard her softly crying.

“I just love him so much…and I hate him so much, too, Heather. I gave up all my dreams for him. I went to work for his fucking mother even though I hate her, and I did it for him. I’ve changed myself, so I could fit into their stupid high-society life…all because I loved him so much. In return, he just pushed me away when he should have been pulling me in closer, so I could help him. How do I move past this?”

I took a deep breath in and let it out. Everything she’d said was so true. She’d had dreams of moving and living near the ocean, so she could work as a marine biologist. She’d talked about it since we were freshmen in high school. She’d given it all up to work as the office manager for Brad’s mom.

“I don’t know, sweets. All I know is…if you love him and he loves you, then you’ll find a way to make it through this. I think Brad was just as unhappy as you were, but he was too afraid to stand up to his parents. That was where the drug use came into play. I think he just wanted to find an easy way out…a way to forget.”

“Yeah…well, I wish I had a way to forget the last six months of my life,” she said.

“I know, sweets. I know you do.”

“Heather?”

“Yeah?”

“You need to tell Josh about the baby. I know you’re hoping he’ll get his memory back, but if you keep waiting…you’re going to be four months pregnant like I was. Then, you’ll have to figure out a way to tell him and also explain why you waited so long to tell him.”

“I know. I almost told him right before you called.”

Amanda took a deep breath in and let it out. “I just pulled up to the rehab center. I wish y’all were here. Oh god! What if his parents are here?”

I let out a laugh. “Amanda, you said you were just meeting with the counselor and Brad. Baby, take a deep breath and decide right now. Are you going to forgive him and stand by his side to help him through this drug problem? Or are you going to hold on to your anger, raise your child as a single mother, and walk away from the love of your life?”

“Okay…well, right now, I’m going with option two—anger and single mother. That pretty much sums up how I’m feeling toward him. When I see him, I might change my mind, but I seriously think I’m just gonna want to junk punch him.”

“Good luck, sweets. I love you,” I said.

“Thank you, babe. I’ll call you after I leave. Plus, I want to know what last night was like.”

I laughed. “Bye, sweets. Talk to you later.” I set my phone down on the table, and then I closed my eyes as I thought about the last few days.

The image of our baby on the monitor as the nurse had congratulated me popped into my head.

My eyes flew open. “Oh god. Why didn’t I just tell him the moment I found out?” I said out loud.

I picked up my phone and looked at the time. I jumped up and ran into the house, heading upstairs to change out of my pajamas. I wasn’t going to waste another moment. I would just go to Josh’s apartment and tell him.

I grabbed his T-shirt off the floor and slipped it over my head before I pulled on a pair of jean shorts. I smiled as I thought about telling him. The way he’d put his hand on my stomach last night as he mentioned kids warmed my heart.

Oh shit. He said “someday,” meaning…not right now. What if he freaks out about it? He was just getting used to the idea of us, and now, I’m going to throw a baby into it.

I shook my head and cleared my thoughts. Amanda’s right. I need to do this.

I ran downstairs and skidded to a stop. Fuck! My car is at Josh’s parents’ house.

Neither of us had given a second thought about leaving my car behind when we headed to the dance hall yesterday. I glanced over and saw my dad’s car keys hanging up next to the back door. Although I had kept my dad’s Lexus, I would only drive it every now and then. Smiling, I walked up and grabbed the keys.

“Okay, Daddy, let’s go tell Josh he’s gonna be a father.”