Текст книги "Shaken, Not Stirred"
Автор книги: Sawyer Bennett
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I wince again and can feel the burn of Casey’s eyes on me. Yeah… my dad was very close friends with the governor. As a land, cattle, and oil baron, my dad had a lot of political friends.
Taking our suitcases in hand, I trudge up the front steps to the long porch that sprawls a hundred feet in each direction. “Give me a few minutes and I’ll meet you in dad’s office,” I say over my shoulder to Woolf. And then with a curt, “Come on, Goldie,” I decide to get her up to my room where I can confront the beast.
Casey is absolutely silent as I lead her inside. I imagine she’s at a loss for words as she takes in the immediate fact that there’s far more to the house than you can see from the front. Inside the foyer, there’s a balcony of polished timber logs that overlooks the interior of the house that falls away down the butte. Below us is the great room, which is furnished in dark leather, mahogany, and rustic art, with two massive fireplaces, one on each end. The east end of the room is a floor-to-ceiling glass wall that overlooks the valley where some of the horses are grazing and the Teton mountain range in the back, along with the lazy curl of the Snake River that borders it. I cringe when I hear Casey’s gasp. Ordinarily, I’d be proud of the fact she finds beauty in what she sees, but I’m afraid it only means she’s going to be more pissed at me that I was hiding all of this.
I lead her down a staircase into the great room but take an immediate left down a hall that leads into the wing that holds my old room. Mom had it redecorated when I left for the Marine Corps, removing the twin bunk beds and rodeo posters I’d tacked all over the walls, trading it in for rustic pine furnishings, dark burgundy walls, and masculine plaid fabrics. I think I’ve stayed in this room maybe twice since I got out of the Marines.
Casey follows me into the room, immediately walking to the windows that overlook the Tetons. I drop the suitcases, close the door behind me, and wait patiently for her to say something.
She doesn’t make me wait, turning slowly from the windows to face me. Her face is filled with confusion and distaste. “Why did you lie to me?”
I shrug my shoulders and offer, “I guess I was trying to avoid that look on your face right there.”
It’s not a good answer, I know that. It’s evasive and slightly condescending, but fuck… I’m a little off my game here what with just finding out my father died.
“And what look would that be?” she grits out.
“Judgment,” I say bluntly, completely on edge and poised defensively. “Don’t try to deny you’re not right now categorizing my family and me as entitled elite.”
“How could you possibly know what I’m thinking?” she counters heatedly.
“Because I know you, Goldie,” I say as I stalk up to her. “I know how you view men with money. I know what you think money does to people.”
“So you were just going to always keep this hidden from me?”
“No,” I say with a heavy gust of frustration. “I was going to tell you. I just wanted time first… to have you get to know me… away from all of this.”
“Because you didn’t trust me to accept you once I found out,” she supplies, and a bit of shame rushes through me that she’s struck so close to the real truth of what was driving me.
I turn away from her and stare out the window to the land that I love. God knows my lack of desire to be a part of this dynasty has absolutely nothing to do with all the beauty this ranch beholds. It always infuses me with peace and pride in equal measures.
She’s right. I guess, deep down… there was a part of me that didn’t trust her to accept.
“You know,” she says quietly. “I’m not quite sure how you can tell me you love me at the same time that you don’t trust me. And I thought I was the one that was clueless about love.”
That really robs the air from my lungs… the simple truth of that statement. It shames me and makes me defensive. Add on to the fact that I’m still reeling from my father’s death, not only because of the loss of a man I loved, but the way that this is going to change my course in life, I can’t help but lash out at her.
“Save the lectures on love, Casey,” I snap at her, directing my self-loathing her way. “You’re the last person I’d look to for a valid explanation as to what all this means.”
She gasps and her body jerks as if I slapped her. I might as well have because it was a completely shitty thing to say.
But I hold on to my anger, let my grief over the loss of my father, the loss of my independence, and possibly the loss of my love, overwhelm me.
Turning on my heel, I stomp out of the room and slam the door behind me.
Chapter 25
Casey
I wish I could be really mad at Tenn, but I can’t.
I get why he held back on me and I do think, given the right time, he would have told me all about his family. Unfortunately, death has a way of moving the timetables and Tenn got caught in a situation of nothing more than bad timing.
So, I’m only mildly annoyed at him and even that’s waning because my sympathy for him and what he’s going through is starting to take precedence.
Do I forgive him for his omission?
Absolutely.
Do I question the validity of what he feels for me now?
Absolutely.
It’s a very confusing time for me, but when it boils down to it, there are things that are far more important than my feelings at the moment. I still have a man that I care about deeply who is hurting and needs my support. I mean to give it to him, and we’ll figure the rest out later. This is an adequate, short-term solution for me, because let’s face it… I’m probably just as confused as he is.
Without another thought, I hurry to the door and throw it open, intent on trying to catch up to Tenn, as I’m sure I won’t be able to find my way back to the front door without a GPS locator. It’s disorienting at first when I slam into the brick wall of his chest as he stands just on the other side of the door with both of his arms raised and stretched out to hold onto the casing. I bounce backward slightly, which is good, because it gives me room to look upward to gaze at him.
Even though his lips are flattened out, I see a small flame of amusement in his eyes. I decide to take advantage of it. “What are you doing lurking outside my room?” I say indignantly.
“It’s my room, Goldie.”
“Since you left, I decided to claim it,” I counter with my chin lifted.
“That so?” his voice rumbles and his lips journey upward.
“Yeah, well… now that I know you’re all rich and powerful, I figured I should take advantage of it, you know?”
“Not funny,” Tenn grits out, his lips flattening once more.
I give a coy smile and step in toward him, laying my hands just below his breastbone. “Okay, that was bad humor, I admit. But I am trying to find the humor in this.”
Tenn’s gaze bores into me, his eyes hard and unyielding. I think maybe he’s really pissed over my attempt to lighten the mood, so I’m not overly surprised when he takes my hand and starts dragging me down the hall without another word.
I don’t think to pull away or be leery, because even though he’s moving at a quick pace, his hand is, as always, gentle on me. He navigates me back through the monstrosity of a house, that I have to admit is the most spectacular thing I’ve ever seen. When he gets to the great room, which is extremely great by the way, Woolf comes walking through.
He gives me a quick smile and then looks to Tenn, who quickly shakes his head. “Not now,” he growls. “I’ll be back in a little bit.”
“But we need to discuss—” Woolf protests.
“Later,” Tenn says, and then we’re pushing through the front door. Tenn’s long legs eat up the porch steps, causing me to trot down them. He takes a left and heads over to the massive garage I had noticed when we pulled up, which is constructed of the same timber as the house. Tenn pulls me through a side door, hits a button on a panel that houses multiple buttons, and one of the garage doors lifts slowly.
“Get on,” he says as he mounts a dark green four-wheeler.
I scramble on after him, scoot close, and wrap my arms around his lean waist. Then we are off and roaring out of the garage.
Tenn operates the ATV with the same surety as he does his motorcycle and the horse I’ve seen him ride. Always in control. Always confident.
He drives us past the house, down another dirt lane, and through a heavily wooded area of a variety of trees I don’t recognize except for pine. Then he bursts out into an open field where I can see a large river up in the distance. He heads that way and in moments, we are its banks with water so crystal clear, I can see all the way to the large rocks scattered across the bottom.
Tenn gets off the ATV and easily lifts me from my seat. He sets me down on the rocky shore and takes my hand, walking me to the water’s edge. The Teton Mountains sit back several miles opposite of us with a flat valley in between. I turn my back to look at the way we came, and sure enough, I see the butte in the distance with the Jennings house sitting on top, except this time, I can appreciate how massive it is. It’s three stories that run down the side of the massive hill, and I can easily distinguish the center of the structure which I know holds the great room, as well as two distinct wings that branch off to each side.
Shaking my head with bemusement, I turn back to Tenn to find him watching me with deflated eyes. “I’m sorry, Casey. I should have been up front with you. I was always waiting for the ‘right time’ but truth be told, it was the right time every time I thought about it.”
“What’s the real reason you didn’t tell me?” I ask him with my head tilted to the side.
He ignores my question and instead sweeps his arm out to indicate the panoramic scene before me. “This was my favorite place in the world. I come out here every time I visit my parents. Spent a good part of my time growing up here fishing this river for cutthroat trout or hunting elk on the other side of the valley. It’s the most beautiful place I’ve ever seen, and I didn’t think it could ever be topped.”
Sliding a hand around the side of my neck, he grips me gently. He lowers his face just a tad, his eyes boring into me. “I didn’t think it could ever be topped until I met you, and then you became the most beautiful place in the world to me. Whether I’m looking in your eyes, or you’re holding me in your arms, that is now my favorite place in the world to be. So why didn’t I tell you the truth? Because I was afraid you might not be able to look past my family’s wealth and remember the real me that you came to know. I got sidetracked by the beauty of you, both inside and out, but I didn’t give your fortitude and common sense enough credit to do right by me.”
I get a little dizzy, and I’m not sure if it’s the power of his words or the fact I’ve been holding my breath, but I let it out in a rush. “Now that may be the most honest thing you’ve ever said to me.”
“I do love you, Casey,” he says earnestly. “Don’t ever doubt that, regardless of some of the idiotic things I may do.”
My heart thumps in pleasure over his words… over the intensity and the honesty… the utter conviction. And despite the fact he withheld from me, I understand that fear can be a powerful deterrent. I understand it better than most, and just as Tenn was patient with me… allowing me the time and space to move past my fears, I’m going to extend the same courtesy to him.
Bringing my arms up to wrap around his neck, I step up and lift myself up on tiptoes to give him a kiss. He has to bend to oblige me, but he does so with no hesitation. Just a brief meeting of our lips, enough of a touch to convey to him that I understand everything.
“We’re good, Tenn,” I tell him softly.
It’s then that I notice that the anxiety hasn’t been alleviated. I can see the strain around his eyes and feel the tension in his shoulders. I release my hold and step back from him, angling my head in patient curiosity.
Releasing a tiny breath of unease, Tenn lets go his hold on my neck and takes my hand. He leads me several paces away from the ATV over to a large rock that rests on the bank and protrudes outward into the swift-moving river where the water froths around the edge. He motions me forward and I take a seat on the edge, balancing myself with my legs stretched out and feet planted on the pebbled bank.
Tenn’s eyes are worried when he says, “I’m not sure we are good, Casey.”
My heart lurches, not from the words themselves, but with the despondency with which he uttered them. “What do you mean?”
Shoving his hands in his pockets, Tenn cuts a quick gaze out toward the mountain range, seemingly trying to draw some peace from the lovely scenery. “I need to tell you everything about my family.”
Absolute dread starts welling inside of me, causing my chest to constrict and my lungs to deflate. The tone of his voice… the ominous vibe I’m getting… it’s starting to scare the shit out of me.
“I’m sure you have some idea about the Jennings’ wealth based on what you’ve seen so far,” he says… his words coming out a bit choppy and unsure. “But what you may not see… the amount of land we own, cattle and oil, the political connections… the way I hid this from you… we’re a bit more than just rich.”
“What does that mean?” I ask hesitantly.
“It means my dad sat next to Zuckerberg on the Forbes list this past year. It means our business holdings are so vast they impact the economy. It means we not only have political connections but political obligations.”
“It sounds overwhelming.”
“It is,” Tenn says with a sigh, taking a seat next to me on the rock. He reaches out and takes my hand in his, resting it on his thigh. Lifting his gaze toward his family home, he says, “It means that it’s now my obligation. Even though it’s the last thing in the world that I want, it’s a responsibility that I just can’t turn my back on.”
My head snaps toward him, and my eyes widen with immediate understanding. “It means you’re not relocating to the Outer Banks.”
His eyes are tired, his voice fatigued. “Maybe. It depends on what Woolf wants to do, but I never wanted this life. I’m the first Jennings who has wanted to break free of the dynasty.”
“And why is that?”
“I have a trust fund,” he says offhandedly, but I’ve realized that sometimes Tenn needs to get to the answer to my question in a more roundabout way. “Got control of it when I was twenty-five. Every Jennings progeny has one and the money in it is insane. It’s enough that I would never have to work another day in my life and could probably support a third-world country at the same time.”
“Oh,” I breathe out, finally starting to get a true understanding of what’s going on. Tenn probably has more money than all the men I’ve ever dated combined.
“I’ve only touched the money twice,” he says, and it’s such a shock to hear him say that, I literally gasp. “Once when I got out of the Marine Corps… I pulled some cash out to buy a house for Bri, Zoey, and me. The second time was to take out money to put as a down payment on the garage in Nags Head. Both times, I struggled and fought with myself whether or not to use the money.”
“Why?” I blurt out. “It’s yours… why would it bother you?”
“I didn’t really need it. I made good money as a mechanic and was able to pay my bills… support Zoey. I lived simply… modestly. But mostly I didn’t use it because I don’t want to manage this empire,” he says with quiet determination. “While I love this ranch, and I very much loved working it, I don’t want to be responsible for it. It’s not my dream. And because it’s not my dream… because I’m not willing to commit the effort to take my place at the head of the table, I shouldn’t really be entitled to any of it. I don’t feel I earned it.”
“What was your dream then?” I ask with interest. Because it seems odd to me that someone wouldn’t want to aspire to this type of life.
Tenn shrugs his shoulder. “I didn’t have a clear-cut idea at first. I just knew that I wanted to make my own way. I wanted to do something I loved, and I wanted a comfortable life. That was the general idea. After meeting you… it’s become a little more specific.”
My head spins, trying to fathom the implications of everything I’m learning. Most glaringly is that despite the immeasurable amount of money available to Tenn, he doesn’t really want or need it. It’s also obvious to me that Tenn may be the most incorruptible person that I’ve ever met. I also have a sneaking suspicion that despite all that, he’s not going to shirk his responsibility.
“What are you going to do?” I ask while attempting to keep my voice light and curious, when I really want to vomit over the fact that a future with Tenn may not be possible.
“I need to talk to Woolf. Both of us will equally inherit the estate and while, as the oldest son, it would traditionally fall to me to take over, I’ve always been clear with my dad that I didn’t want it. I’ve pushed at Woolf to step into that role while my dad was still alive, so he could learn everything and be ready to take the helm, but up until now, Woolf has been happy just playing at being a ranch hand and partying his way through life. I’m not sure he has the maturity to do this.”
“So it will probably need your attention,” I add on. “At least until you can be sure Woolf could handle this.”
“Even if he were ready to grow up and take it all on, I’m not sure he could do it alone. Actually, I’m not sure of anything at this point.”
I’m silent for a moment, digesting his words. Taking in the sadness associated with his revelations and the immense pressure that he seems to be under at this point, not to mention dealing with the grief over losing his father. It’s more than one man’s shoulders should have to bear, and I hope that Woolf can help share these burdens with his brother. The selfish part of me… the one that realizes that Tenn may have to lead his life in Wyoming, wants Woolf to more than step up. That woman wants Woolf to free his brother from the obligation and release him to the life he wants to lead.
So that he can be with me.
I actually want to voice this to Tenn… to let him know my feelings on the matter. Not to pressure him, but so he can be assured that I want to build a life with him. So he knows that he has something waiting on the other side if he’s able to walk away. I don’t want him to have doubts about me, because he has enough weighing on him already.
I should just tell him I love him. I should do it so it makes him feel better. So that I reciprocate what he’s so willingly given me, so that he feels the same warm flood of comfort that comes with such a simple little phrase.
But I can’t.
If I did it right in this moment, it would seem contrived. It would seem convenient.
It would not seem genuine.
And I want to be genuine with Tenn. I want him to know that I am the person that will always greet him with total transparency with my feelings.
I want him to know that I will be his constant… his anchor.
But before I can give that to him, I have to make sure that I’m strong enough and committed enough to offer that up. And that is something I’m still not quite sure of at this point.
Chapter 26
Tenn
I lead Whiskey out of the barn and look up to the bright Wyoming sky. For the funeral yesterday, it was overcast and dreary. Perfect weather by which to shed tears as we lowered my father into the ground next to my mom. Casey stood silently by my side, her arm wrapped around my waist and gently rubbing me in comfort, while Zoey stood next to me with my own arm wrapped tight around her. I didn’t bother trying to stay composed because I’ve never been one to quiet my emotions. Whether I’m angry or happy, sad or pensive, I’m the type that wears my emotions on my sleeve. Didn’t bother me in the least to have to wipe the grief away from my face as I said my final goodbyes. Touched me deeply that Casey was wiping away tears of grief too, not for my father, because she didn’t know him at all.
They were all for me.
Because I was suffering.
And yet today, the sky is a bright blue a little deeper than aquamarine and makes me think of Casey’s eyes. Thick, fluffy clouds hang in place but in no way block the sun so that the snow on top of the Tetons sparkles like gemstones have been scattered all around. It’s in the mid-seventies, and the smell of horse and hay smells damn good in my nose. It’s why I want to get a quick ride in before Casey wakes up.
The last few days have been difficult for sure. Zoey arrived with Brianna the day after Casey and I got here. My little girl is devastated and when she wasn’t clinging to me, she was actually clinging to Casey. I know Brianna isn’t close to her daughter the way I am, and that’s pretty much due to the fact that Brianna loves herself far more than she could ever love anyone else. But I also know that she does love Zoey in her capacity as a mother, and so I also know it was difficult for her to see Zoey gravitating toward my woman. This threatened Bri on two points… because she feels proprietary toward her daughter as well as me, and Casey had both of our attention.
And it was only a matter of time before Brianna’s claws came out and she started a verbal attack on Casey. Woolf and I had been in Dad’s office a few hours before the funeral was to start, looking through some of his ledgers, and we came out to hear Brianna’s shrill voice say, “You don’t belong here. This is a family gathering.”
We both grimaced at each other and headed toward the great room to stop Hurricane Brianna before she could really get going.
There is no doubt in my mind that Casey could have wiped the floor with Brianna. There’s no doubt in my mind that Casey has a sharper tongue than Brianna could ever imagine. And there was also no doubt in my mind that Casey would do nothing to escalate the situation, so as we walked into the room, Woolf and I watched as she just turned and walked away, heading toward the hall that would lead to my room.
It was then I noticed Kip sitting on one of the leather couches, looking completely dismayed and frustrated with Brianna. Why the guy puts up with that shit is beyond me, but hell… I can’t judge. I put up with it for years.
Brianna turned toward Kip and sneered. “I can’t believe that woman is trying to ingratiate herself into our family. She’s probably after Tenn’s money.”
Yeah… fury rose and my hands fisted. But before I could even open my mouth to say anything, Woolf stormed past me and stalked right up to Brianna. To my utter shock, he got up in her face, causing her to take two surprised steps back where her legs caught the edge of the couch and she fell down into a sitting position on the cushions.
Woolf’s face was red and his eyes were glowing, yet his words were calm. He stared at Brianna but addressed Kip with his words. “Get your woman and get her out of this house. And don’t ever let her come back here.”
Kip jumped up with a grateful look on his face, but Brianna wasn’t having any of it. “You can’t kick me out of this home. It’s Tenn’s too, and we share a daughter together.”
Woolf merely sneered at Brianna and with a harsh laugh, he said, “This is Tenn and Zoey’s home, but it is not yours. You lost that right when my brother divorced your vicious ass. And just so we’re clear… this is my home too. Casey is my guest as well as Tenn’s and because you can’t keep your mouth shut, you just lost any further right to be a guest in this house.”
Brianna started to lay into Woolf but luckily, Kip grabbed her by the arm and dragged her out quickly. Fortuitously, Zoey had not been around to witness that. Even luckier, Brianna was amazingly subdued at the funeral and kept her lips zipped.
Once Bri and Kip were gone from the house, I turned and looked at Woolf in amazement. It was the first time I caught a glimpse of the man he had actually become and for the first time since Dad died, I started to believe that Woolf might actually have something inside of him that could be strong enough to be a leader.
Woolf merely shrugged his shoulders and gave me a wry smile. “What can I say? I see the way you look at your woman. She’s already part of this family.”
I suppressed the insane urge that overcame me to hug my brother, instead giving him a grateful nod and headed off to find Casey to make sure she was all right.
And, of course, she was. She had amazing compassion, even for Brianna, and merely said she understood it was a difficult time for everyone.
It takes me no time at all to get Whiskey saddled. He’s a calm, five-year-old gelding quarter horse that’s a gorgeous, pale buckskin with black stockings, tail, and mane.
“Hey stud,” I hear softly, turning to see Casey walking up toward me.
And what a fucking vision she is. I had brought her into Jackson day before yesterday and couldn’t resist buying her a pair of cowboy boots and a feminine, cream-colored Stetson. She’s wearing them both paired with a beautiful summer dress with little blue flowers all over it that flares wide and comes down to just above her knees. The cowgirl look is complete with two, long golden braids draped over her breasts.
“You’re up early,” I comment as my eyes drag down her again.
She shrugs her shoulders as she steps up to me, taking a hand and running it down my ribs, where her fingers tuck into the edge of my belt. “Going for a ride?”
“Yeah,” I tell her as I tighten the cinch. “Want to come with me?”
I can tell the idea interests her, but her eyes look at the horse warily. “I’m not so good around beasts that big. Present company excluded, of course.”
I snort, and she shoots me a wicked smile.
“You can ride with me,” I tell her. “You’ll be completely safe.”
She accepts that as truth and tentatively reaches out to stroke Whiskey on the neck. “Do I need to go get changed?”
“Nah,” I tell her, more for my benefit than hers. I’m very much looking forward to that skirt hiked up a bit and miles of glorious, bare leg draped over the horse. “I’ll put a blanket under you though. I don’t want anything rubbing the insides of your thighs raw but the beard on my face.”
“Dirty man,” she says with a low, sexy laugh.
It’s not easy mounting two people into a western saddle. Ordinarily, I’d plunk her on the back behind the saddle, but I know she won’t feel as secure and I don’t want her scared. So I use a mounting block to haul her up onto my lap, positioning an extra saddle blanket underneath her legs. As expected, her dress does indeed ride up but it’s so loose that it only comes to mid-thigh, which is fortuitous because there are tons of other ranch hands milling about and I don’t want them ogling my woman.
With an arm around her waist and the other holding the reins loosely, I let Whiskey walk slowly away from the barn and direct him over to one of the riding trails. With thousands and thousands of acres available, we have dozens of places we can go, but I decide to head toward a small lake we have on the property about two miles away. It’s private and secluded and this is the first time I’ve had a chance to be alone with Casey other than when we have fallen asleep at night in each other’s arms.
We ride in silence as Casey’s head roves back and forth to take in the scenery. She starts out sitting stiff but eventually the gentle rocking of Whiskey’s slow gait gets her to relax and she starts melting back into me. Her ass on my lap isn’t exactly helping me to relax though as she rubs against my half-hard cock.
“Are you nervous about the meeting tomorrow?” Casey asks out of the blue.
“Little bit,” I tell her honestly.
And I am, because tomorrow we meet with Dad’s attorneys and financial advisors to begin discussions on what will be needed from Woolf and I to help manage the Jennings’ estate. The formal reading of the will won’t be for another few weeks but we all know he’s left everything to his sons. Dad was always transparent about that because he wanted to impress upon us our duty to our heritage. And already, the attorneys have been making it clear that Woolf and I have a shit ton of stuff that needs handled immediately. Very important decisions need to be made, most importantly, my dad’s position as CEO needs filled. The attorneys look at me directly every time they mention this, and it makes my stomach cramp with dread. Every minute that passes, I can feel the proverbial noose start to tighten.
“You know,” Casey says hesitantly. “It might not be so bad… you staying here. I mean… this place is so beautiful. You have such history and Tenn… honestly… you on a horse riding the open range in tight jeans is way hotter than you on a motorcycle I’m sorry to say.”
I chuckle and squeeze my hold around her waist. “Nice thought, Goldie, but if I stay, I wouldn’t be riding the range. I’d be in a business suit attending meetings, entertaining political big wigs, and schmoozing business associates. I’d probably have to shave my fucking goatee so I’d look presentable.”
“Oh,” she says softly and after a moment of reflection, she says, “But still… maybe this is what you’re supposed to do with your life.”
Her words slice into me, because while I don’t have a fucking clue as to what I’m really supposed to do, I had always sort of thought Casey would be my voice of reason. She’d be the one that would keep reminding me to follow my real dreams, which of course, include her.
I’m not sure what to say to her because I can see she’s speaking to me from a place deep within her heart that is trying to help me figure out what is best. She’s forcing me to look at all angles.
“Tenn?” she whispers, one of her hands releasing the death grip she has on the pommel to come up and drape over my arm that’s around her waist.
“Yeah, baby?”
“I love you,” she says.
She says it firmly, without a shred of doubt in her voice. She says it as if it’s a truth she’s known all along.
She fucking owns those words.
My entire body freezes, and I pull on the reins to bring Whiskey to a halt. I lean to the side and then forward a bit to get a look at her face. She turns so her eyes can meet mine, and I’m thunderstruck over the intensity of feeling she’s emanating in her gaze.
