Текст книги "Fade to Red"
Автор книги: Willow Aster
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This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales is coincidental.
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Photograph by Aaron Cota
Model: Jeanette Abell
Cover Design by Blade
Formatting by Jovana Shirley, Unforeseen Editing
Copyright © 2015 Willow Aster
All rights reserved.
ISBN: 1516979141
ISBN-13: 978-1516979141
Prologue
1: Arch
2: Exodus
3: Bend
4: Faint
5: Migrate
6: Dome
7: Flight
8: Dwindle
9: Half-Moon
10: Evacuate
11: Yield
12: Ebb
13: Passage
14: Submit
15: Vacate
16: Wane
17: Round
18: Departure
19: Yield
20: Shrivel
21: Downward Facing Dog
22: Retreat
23: Hunch
24: Extinguish
25: Withdrawal
26: Stoop
27: Passage
28: Disintegrate
29: Defer
30: Takeoff
31: Curvature
Epilogue
Acknowledgments
My first telescope was not much more than glorified binoculars, but I faked stargazing long enough that my parents finally bought the one I really wanted. Guilt could do that. And money. My parents would buy anything just to avoid seeing me. I didn’t care. It gave me more time to peek in his window.
With acres between our houses, I never had to worry that he would see me.
The second telescope really worked. I could see the smallest details in his room, right down to the red stain on his carpet from a spilled drink. He was only able to get half of the stain out of his carpet, and eventually, he put a bean bag over the spot.
I watched him come in after school, take his shirt off, and play his guitar for hours. He had a blue electric guitar and a dark brown acoustic that sat in the corner. A keyboard was on the other side of the room.
I saw the way he threw things in his garbage can from across the room, making 90% of the shots.
Sometimes his sister came in his room, and those days were especially lonely. Every now and then I could make out what they were saying, but it usually just reiterated how alone I really was.
I subtly followed him at school. He was popular and funny and so cute it made my stomach fall every time I thought of him.
He was perfect. And perfect for me. He just didn’t know it yet.
A few things happened in our sophomore year that changed everything.
We finally met. I made sure I brushed my hair until it was shiny that morning, put on my favorite blue shirt that matched my eyes, and scheduled an ‘accidental’ run-in with him after gym.
I played that conversation over and over in my mind for years.
“Oh, sorry,” he said, reaching down to pick up my book. “Here you go.” He stood back up and looked me over. “Hey, I’ve seen you around. How’s it going?”
I stared at him, speechless, until his smile grew. I cleared my throat. “Hi,” was all I was able to utter.
“Ah, we’ve got a shy one here,” he said kindly.
I knew I would love him forever.
“I’m Beckham.” He gave a wave and leaned closer to me. “You have killer eyes—they’re so blue. Colorful hair, too.” He nodded. “Bold. What would you call that?” He pointed to my hair.
“Thanks. Cotton candy,” I whispered and then giggled. I quickly stopped when he smiled.
We stood there staring at each other for a moment.
“Well, I’ll see ya,” he said and was off before I could catch my breath.
From then on, every time he saw me in the hall, he waved. I kicked myself every night for not saying more, not making more of an effort. I was working up my nerve to speak to him, practicing daily in the mirror. Trying my best to not stutter or blush or do anything other than make smart conversation.
And then it all went to hell.
A tour bus began to park in his yard. I knew his family was talented. They’d done music in L.A. for a long time. I started looking into it online and finally one night, on an entertainment blog, my digging paid off. The Woods family had gotten a recording deal and were going on a huge tour.
Before I knew it, his room was practically empty and everything changed. Once they left, they didn’t come back, or at least not to that house. Beckham Woods blew up and left me in the dust.
I failed all my classes that year, dropped out of school, and began to plot how I’d cross paths with Beckham again.
It was true lust the moment he saw her.
He had hoped to avoid the audition, altogether, but once he walked into the auditorium and saw her, he was transfixed. Tall, lean, with legs that seemed endless, and blonde hair piled on top of her head, other dancers surrounded her, but even the spotlight seemed captivated by only her. Every movement she made possessed the music. From one song to the next, he watched as she was completely enraptured by the rhythm. The girl could move.
“I don’t care who you pick—they all look good. But you have to keep that one.” Beckham tapped the choreographer’s notes on number four.
“Oh, that’s a given.” Anthony rolled his eyes. “She could make even you look like you know what you’re doing.”
“Watch it.” Beckham tweaked Anthony’s fedora so it fell over his eyes.
“Trying to do a job here,” Anthony said as dramatically as he could, which was extremely dramatic.
Beckham stood watching the dancers until Anthony raised his hand and told them to stop. He thanked them and called the next group auditioning. Beckham had seen enough; he usually avoided the whole scene until he knew who Anthony had chosen. Extra guards were stationed all over the theater, and each dancer had been instructed to only speak to Anthony if they had any hopes of being part of the tour. No autographs from Beckham would be given, no pictures, no exceptions. So far, only one girl had tried to get past a guard backstage and she had been escorted out.
Beckham walked to the back of the theater and went to the green room, still thinking about the girl. She made him want to forget the man he’d become. Just a year ago he would have made sure he got her into his bed. A girl who could move like that. Hell. The things he could do with her. He contemplated going back in the auditorium to see if Anthony would have her dance again, but didn’t even want to let himself get into that line of thinking.
They’d been in San Diego for two days, trying a different talent pool for this tour. He had holed up in the theater or on the bus during the day, avoiding the crowds that seemed to be multiplying at their hotel. This would be an intense tour, and if he had anything to say about it, the last he’d ever do again. As much as he loved singing for thousands every night to packed-out stadiums, after multiple world tours and dozens of shorter runs, he was ready for a break. A long break. A forever break. Not exactly the right way to be thinking before the stringent rehearsal schedule began in a couple of weeks.
Grabbing his sunglasses and ball cap, he walked back into the hall. A little boy who looked around 4 or 5 with curly brown hair had materialized in the short time he’d been in the room. Beckham wondered how he’d gotten through security, but he didn’t mind him being back there. He wasn’t bothering anyone. He was playing with a ball on the floor and didn’t look up until Beckham was standing right by him.
“Hey there. Whatcha playin’?”
“My mom says I can’t talk to strangers,” he lisped all his S’s, “but I know who you are, so I guess it’s okay.”
“Well, she’s right. Is she here?”
The little boy nodded and then a smile took over his face. And Beckham was finished, done for, smitten.
“Wanna play jacks?”
He showed Beckham the metal pieces he’d been squeezing in each hand. The ball went bouncing out of one hand and Beckham leaned down and caught it on its bounce up.
“Sure. I haven’t played with jacks since I was little—I never see kids play it anymore.”
“I do. All the time. Mom says I have a ’diction.” He caught the ball Beckham bounced his way.
“Hmm, well an addiction to jacks wouldn’t be the worst thing, I don’t suppose. So, I’m Beckham, and who are you?”
“I’m George.”
“Really? George? Like Curious George?”
He laughed. “No, I’m Harry.”
“Harry. Oh, okay. So which is it? George or Harry?”
“I’m Mavid!”
“Mavid? Is that even a name?”
“Nooooo, you’re crazy. Mavid’s not a name.”
“You’re starting to look like a Mavid, actually. I can see it now.”
That wiped the grin off his face. “I do not. Take that back.”
Beckham held both hands up. “Whoa, dude. Just playing the game here.”
The little boy laughed. “Just kiddin’. Whoa, dude, loosen up.” He looked at Beckham then and stood up. “And you can call me Leo.”
Leo, or whatever his name really was, looked so stinkin’ cute, Beckham couldn’t wipe the grin off his face. He could hang with this guy a few more minutes before getting some air. In fact, maybe he’d just skip going out.
“You got any whiskey sours?”
Hearing that come out of his mouth, especially with the lisp of all lisps, was too much. Beckham’s laugh echoed through the corridor.
“Where have you heard about whiskey sours?”
“I heard my mom saying that’s her favorite drink. Joey says it’s a girly drink. Mom also likes marragritas sometimes.”
“Marragritas … oh yeah, I like those too.”
“You know my mom?”
“I don’t think so.”
“Well, she knows you.” He mimed the words of Beckham’s song that was still coming from the auditorium and knew every word. “My mom listens to you all the time.”
“Ahh, that’s nice of her. Maybe I can meet your parents. Where are they, anyway?”
They were just coming to the side doors of the auditorium. “Getting work done. I’m supposed to stay right here and not move an inch. I went and came right back though.” He said it like Beckham might tell on him.
“Hey, I think they’d understand you getting a drink. No worries.”
The door opened and a cute blonde came out. She gave a startled look to Beckham and then to Leo, and back to Beckham.
“Sorry I was gone that long, Leo.” She shuffled nervously behind Leo.
Beckham smiled, trying to make her more comfortable. She didn’t crack a smile; in fact, her eyes just grew larger as she stared at him. The kid’s mom seemed a little uptight. Not exactly what he was expecting with such a cool kid.
“It’s okay,” Leo lifted his thumb toward Beckham, “he kept me company.”
Just then Jodi, one of Anthony’s assistants, stuck her head out and said, “Beck—Anthony’s wondering if you can take a look at a small group he’s put together, since you’re still here…” She smiled, knowing he was trying to escape.
“Ohhhkay,” he dragged it out, “I guess I can do that.” He looked back at Leo and the girl. “You’re welcome to come into the auditorium...”
“Oh, that’s okay. We’re good here,” she responded quickly.
Leo shrugged and with a smile he walked to Beckham and held out his hand. Beckham gave him a firm handshake. “Thanks for playin’.”
“Well, thank you, Mavid … I mean, Leo.” This got a laugh out of the little boy. “It sure was great to meet you.” Beckham walked to the doors and gave Leo another wave before going inside. What a fun kid, he thought. Manners, too.
When he entered the auditorium, the tension in the air was thick. The room had cleared out, with nine still on the stage.
Anthony motioned him over. “I think I’m ready to call it but wanted to see if you agree with the three that I want to cut.”
“K, man. Let’s do it.”
Anthony turned on the music and for the first song, they all did the routine Anthony had shown them. On the second song, they each had about twenty seconds to freestyle.
Anthony and Beckham talked it out and were in agreement with every dancer. There were three that just didn’t have the same deep groove that the rest did. And six who were so tight, you could feel every pulse of the song. And then, the girl, she was the one all eyes would gravitate toward. She just had it.
“I’m thinking that girl for the solos, mirroring you,” Anthony said. He turned on a slower song and yelled, “Roxie Taylor, show me what you can do on this one.”
Beckham nodded, unable to take his eyes off her.
Sensuality oozed out of her when she moved. More than being sexy, it was the emotion she provoked with her movements. She became every word of the song. It was impossible to not be mesmerized watching her. Graceful, but funky. Fluid and strong, even in the more intense moments of the song.
Beckham forced his mouth closed when the song ended. Roxie stood up straight then, and for the first time, looked self-conscious.
“Excellent! Okay, everyone, I think we’ve seen what we need to see. We’ll discuss things and get back to you within a few days. If you don’t hear from us, thanks for trying out … maybe we’ll see you again in the future.”
Beckham cringed. This was why he didn’t like to be here for this part. He didn’t want to feel bad for the ones who were let go.
“Just a reminder, for those of you who are selected—we will begin two months of rehearsals in L.A. in a month from now. We expect you to be ready to work hard. No distractions. Also—make sure you’re able to survive being on a crowded tour bus with people you don’t know … for long, exhausting months at a time. You think you want this now, but imagine if you don’t like someone, the close space, the exhaustion, the wear and tear on your body. Be sure about this before we call to tell you you’re selected. Otherwise, your future career as a backup dancer is already over.”
“Okay, Anthony, enough,” Beckham muttered.
With a clap and a complete change of tone, Anthony said, “All right, folks! We’ll see some of you in a month!” He turned to Beckham and raised an eyebrow. “What?” he challenged.
“No one will want to do it after that little speech.”
Anthony waved his hand, openly scoffing Beckham. “Please. Everyone dreams of touring with you. And dancers are all about torturing themselves. Trust me, my little speech just made them want this all the more.”
Beckham smirked. “Whatever you say.”
He turned around to leave and saw his manager, Nate, walking toward him. It had to be important for him to show up during tryouts.
They did their usual half-shake, half-hug greeting.
“What’s going on, man? You’ve got my attention, showing up here,” Beckham said.
“I want to throw something by you, an opportunity … something we need to act on quickly.”
Beckham frowned and nodded. “Of course. Lay it on me.”
Nate tilted his head to the side, motioning for Beckham to follow. They walked through the doors and into the back halls of the auditorium. To his disappointment, Leo was long gone. He wished he’d thought to invite his family to the San Diego show. It would be the end of the tour before they were back through, but still, it would have been fun to see the little guy again.
Beckham took the lead when they got toward the green room and offered Nate a bottled water once they stepped inside.
Nate took it and launched right into what was on his mind.
“I think you’ve met Donny Carter before, right? Made his career when he signed J. Eliot. I think he might have wanted to manage your family way back when.”
“Name sounds familiar,” Beckham said.
“Well, he just found out he has cancer and is retiring. It’s bad, really bad.” Nate shook his head. “Such a shame. Anyway, he called to see if I’d take over his client.”
Beckham nodded and waited, confused about what that had to do with him.
“His client is Ian Sterling.” Nate leaned back and smiled a slow grin.
Beckham perked up. Ian Sterling was someone he had long admired. He was a true artist—with the pipes, songwriting, and unparalleled guitar skills to back it up. Beckham had seen him play before Ian became well-known, in a little bar in San Francisco, and it had inspired him during a time when he was pretty numb. Earlier this year Ian had taken the Grammy home for Best Album of the Year, and Beckham thought no one deserved it more.
“Bad news for Ian is that Donny completely botched Ian’s tour. I mean really—he screwed up. I don’t know why he didn’t call sooner, but he’s obviously had a lot on his mind.” Nate lifted his eyebrows and let out a deep breath. “He feels awful about it. Ian has been top-notch about the whole thing, but bottom line is, the guy is now free for the next year, when he was supposed to have a huge tour of his own all lined up.”
Beckham and Nate stared at each other, both their minds racing with the possibilities.
“What are we waiting for?” Beckham asked. “Let’s make him an offer he can’t refuse.”
Roxie redid her messy bun and then cursed under her breath when the ponytail holder snapped and left her hair hanging in her face. It reached her waist and was so heavy she usually kept it pulled back when she danced. Already sweating from the audition, she wished for the zillionth time that she’d cut it off at the beginning of summer. Her sister, Chloe, had talked her out of it, saying she looked like a giraffe when her hair was short. Roxie had subtly given her the finger, since the one time she’d ever had her hair short, she’d gotten knocked up, and Chloe had teased her mercilessly then too. Also, Leo was in the room at the time and nothing got past him. She’d made the mistake of saying shit in front of him weeks before and he was still giving her grief over that one. The last thing she needed was for him to give the bird to everyone at Northridge Baptist Pre-K, not to mention getting all curious about his dad. He seemed to be fine, for now, without one. Her brother, Joey, had been amazing with Leo, so had her dad. No need to complicate things with another man.
She dug in her bag for another ponytail holder and just as she rounded the corner, she found one and piled her hair back on top of her head. Ah, it helped immediately. She needed to get out of there before she saw anyone up close and personal.
“Over here, Mom!” Leo was hidden away, sitting exactly where she’d left him. It didn’t look like he’d moved an inch.
“Hey, bud. Thanks for being so patient. Where’s Aunt Chloe?”
“Bathroom,” he pointed at the door next to him, “right in there.”
“You should have gone with her.”
“Gross, Mom.”
“You know I don’t like you being by yourself—you-” She laughed in mid-sentence. “Don’t you give me the stink eye. Come on, let’s get out of here. You ready for some ice cream?” She leaned over and kissed him on the forehead and helped him put everything in his backpack.
“Can I have three scoops this time?”
“Uh, wow, really? Are you gonna be a hyper mess if I say yes?”
“No?” He looked at her, unsure of what to say.
Roxie laughed and messed up his hair. “You know what? Yes. I can’t believe how long you waited on me. You deserve at least three scoops.”
Leo’s eyes lit up. “Cotton candy, strawberry, and blueberry cheesecake.”
Roxie crinkled up her nose. “Can your belly survive that?”
“It certainly can.”
“Are you absolutely certain, with all certainty, that it certainly can?”
Leo raised his eyebrows. “I’m certain,” he said.
Chloe walked out of the restroom and her eyes widened when she saw Roxie. “I didn’t leave him long, just a few minutes. I told him to yell or bite if anyone came near him.”
Roxie rolled her eyes. “He should have gone in there with you. Someone could have snatched him up. Look how cute he is.”
It was Chloe’s turn to groan at Roxie. She was a little over the top sometimes. “Come on, Rox, there are guards at every door. No one would be able to take him.”
As they pushed the theater doors, an unseasonably hot wind attacked them. They walked to the car and Roxie started it before Leo and Chloe got in, cranking the air conditioner to full blast. The ice cream shop was just around the corner and when they walked in, Leo started humming. The kid lived for ice cream.
When they had their heaping cones, they sat down and started eating it as fast as they could before it melted.
“Did you see him?” Chloe whispered to Roxie when Leo got up to throw away his napkin.
“No, I made it a point to not look for him, actually,” Roxie whispered back. “I didn’t want to screw up my audition, you know?”
Chloe nodded. Her eyes searched Roxie’s, but she didn’t say anything for a long time. When they were on their way back out the door to head home, she spoke again.
“What are you gonna do if they call, Roxie?”
Roxie sighed. It was a waste of time to even think about that. They wouldn’t be calling, and if by some crazy stroke of luck they did, she hadn’t figured out yet how she could actually do it.
“I’m not gonna get the job, Chloe.” She shook her head. “You know I have the worst luck ever…” her voice trailed off quietly.
Roxie got on the highway and crept slowly in the rush-hour traffic. She looked in the rearview mirror at Leo, who was holding the good fight of staying awake, just barely.
“You were there a long time. They must have liked something they saw. Rox, you’re an incredible dancer,” she said quietly. “I think you need to think about what will happen if they call you back.” Chloe poked Roxie in the arm for emphasis.
“There’s no way I can do it!” She softened her tone when she saw the concern in Chloe’s eyes. “I don’t know why I went—I think I just needed to see if I still have what it takes.” She adjusted the air and sighed. “If they do call back, which they won’t, I’ll know to pursue opening the studio. That’s what I’ve always wanted to do anyway. It would make today worth the stress, don’t you think? And Mom and Dad might finally get behind the idea if they hear I was good enough to tour with Beckham Woods.”
“You don’t need to teach yet. Save that for later. People need to be seeing you out there, dancing the way only you know how,” Chloe argued.
“I found out today how long the tour really is, Chloe.” She swallowed hard, needing to have a good cry. “They’re going pretty much non-stop for almost a year, not to mention the months of rehearsals in L.A. I’m sure there are breaks here and there, but … a year. ”
Chloe groaned and stared out her window for a long time. Both of them had one person on their minds: Leo. When they turned onto their street, she looked at Roxie again.
“Rox … I’m ready for you to start living for you again. I hoped this was the start of that.”
“And it is. I’ve known for a while that I can’t keep living like I have been. Coming to the tryouts and making it to the last round … it helped more than I can say. It was worth it for me, just to get that far, because now I know I have to get back to what I love—but I have to do it the right way. Doing whatever I want had to end when I got knocked up,” Roxie whispered under her breath, but Chloe heard every word.
“Moms have lives too!” Chloe cried.
Leo piped up out of his stupor. “Moms have lives too! Moms have—how many lives you think you got, Mama?”
Chloe grinned. “See? They do!”
“Shall I make a bumper sticker with that on it, Chlo-bo?” Roxie snapped back and got out of the car, giving her door a good slam.
“Oh, cut the shit already!” Chloe yelled back and then clamped her hand over her mouth, cringing when Leo hopped out of the car.
Leo’s eyes got wide. “Aunt Chloe said shit. I thought we couldn’t say shit.”
Of course he could say that perfectly.
“We can’t, Leo. Aunt Chloe just let it slip on accident.” Roxie’s eyes narrowed on Chloe.
“It sounded like she could say it. Why we can’t say shit?” Leo looked between his mom and aunt, confused.
“Just stop already,” Roxie said.
“I’m sorry, Leo. I’ve gotta watch my mouth,” Chloe said and mouthed ’sorry’ to Roxie, but her shit-eating grin wasn’t convincing.
The next morning at ten, Roxie was just finishing up on a loan at work when her cell phone rang. She checked to see the time of her next appointment and picked up the phone.
“BB Credit Union, this is Roxie. How can I help you?”
“I … must have the wrong number. Wait, did you say this was Roxie?”
“Oh sorry, habit … yes, this is Roxie.” Roxie tucked her cell under her ear and rolled her eyes at herself. Of course, her work phone started ringing then, just to nail the point home that she was an idiot.
“This is Anthony Douglas, Beckham Woods’ choreographer. How’s it goin’?”
“Uh, I’m good. How about you?”
“Great. Listen, you really impressed us with your audition yesterday.”
Anthony sounded so sincere, Roxie had to sit up a little straighter in her rolling chair.
“Thank you.”
“I was seeing here that you’ve been dancing practically your whole life, but on your resume, I’m not seeing a lot to show for that. However, I would have never known by the way you dance. Were you just being modest? Do you teach in a studio or something like that?”
“I’ve taken a lot of classes and dance every chance I get, but no, I don’t teach anywhere. I have a boring 9 to 5 job.” Roxie laughed awkwardly.
“Well, that would normally scare me off, but I’ve never seen someone catch on so quickly to my routine OR someone who seemed so completely comfortable on stage. You’ve got quite a gift, girl.”
Anthony sounded like a friend she’d like to keep. Too bad he was going to hate her soon.
“Thank you so much.” She bit her lip hard to see if this was really happening. Ouch. It was.
“Beckham specifically asked that you be invited on his tour. He saw you yesterday and you knock-”
“What? He was there? I … didn’t see him.”
“Oh yeah, he was there. We couldn’t take our eyes off you, hon. He thinks you’re perfect for this and so do I. In fact, I’m already envisioning featuring you with Beckham on a few of his slower tunes. He’s 6’2” … you’re 5’9”, 5’10”? Perfect proportionally to work next to him.”
She knew that.
“The thing is-” she started.
“I’d like to fly you out by October 12th, so you’re ready to begin rehearsal the next morning. We’ll be in L.A. until December 20th and then off for about a week and a half before Christmas and just before the New Year. We’ll start back up with a final week of rehearsals on the 2nd and our first performance will be the 5th. I can fax over the schedule, if you’d like … or email, whichever you’d prefer.” He finally stopped to take a breath and Roxie put her head in her hands. “Make sure you’re conditioned between now and then. Even if you’re dancing a lot now, it’ll be a grueling schedule. Do you have any questions for me?” he asked.
“See, the thing is, I have…” The words seemed to lodge in her throat. She coughed and then a lunatic took over her brain. “Can you email the schedule and all the details?”
“Absolutely. I’ll do that right now. Anything else?”
“No, not that I can think of,” she lied.
“I’ll email the contract and terms of the salary along with the schedule.”
“S-sounds good,” she stuttered.
She hung up the phone and looked around at her co-workers, answering phones and working with customers, and thought about how her whole life could change. Two minutes later, she opened up her email. The first page she saw took all the air right out of her body.
Actually it was just one line: $1,000 per show for 120 shows, $500 per rehearsal, and a $100 per diem each day on the tour.
She tapped the numbers quickly into her calculator and put her fist against her mouth to stay quiet when the amount came up: $184,500.
Everything blurred and all the sound in the credit union was swallowed up. Roxie was worthless the rest of the day. Her mind had already landed on the figure that was more than she could even wrap her mind around. Really, even if it had been half of that, she would have been heavily swayed. With a little boy to raise and no winning lottery ticket, she couldn’t imagine any single mom passing up that money.
Ian looked at his two girls snuggled up on the plush rug in the living room, sound asleep. Their little one was the perfect mini replica of her mama. They both took his breath away. As always, when he looked at Sparrow and their daughter, Journey, his heart picked up and lit into a cadence he’d based many songs on—his muses, both of them.
His fingers latched onto his hair and he pulled until he realized what he was doing. Sparrow told him all the time that his hair would fall out if he kept it up. He didn’t want to be old and bald for his gorgeous wife. If his hair was going—which, truthfully, it didn’t seem to be in any danger of quite yet—he wanted it to be from Sparrow yanking on it when he was deep inside her.
He ran his hand across his face instead, trying to quell the anxiety that had been in his chest since he’d spoken to Donny. He’d known deep down something wasn’t right; Donny had been avoiding meeting him in person for the last three months. Ian had attributed it to both their schedules, but when he pressed again to meet and talk about the tour, Donny finally came clean. Donny had stage IV cancer.
Ian spent the first week after hearing the news devastated about Donny. They’d only worked together a couple of years, but had gotten close in that amount of time. Donny had been really good to him.
What Ian hadn’t known until today, was that Donny only came partially clean. The tour was off. Donny admitted that he’d hoped he could still work it out, but now knew that wasn’t realistic. Everything Ian thought was already set in stone, wasn’t. Donny had fired the tour manager months ago and tried to do it all on his own. ‘One last gift to Ian’ that hadn’t worked out. At all.
He couldn’t be upset with Donny—it was minuscule compared to his friend being so sick—but it did mean he’d have to figure out what to do next. The lease on their house was up the same date as the ‘tour’ was scheduled to start. He’d also worked on a surprise for Sparrow that he hadn’t planned on showing her until a few days before they went on the road, but now he was regretting the whole thing.
Sparrow’s eyes opened and shifted to his. She stayed completely still, so she wouldn’t wake up Journey.
“You okay?” she mouthed. “Donny?”
He nodded and swallowed hard. “I saw him,” he whispered. He shook his head and bit the inside of his cheek, looking away.
Sparrow carefully moved Journey’s arm and leg off of her and stood up. She looked at the mantle, making sure the monitor was on. She walked toward him and took his hand, leading him to their bedroom.
Ian pushed the door behind him but didn’t close it all the way. They’d be able to hear the little one crawling when she woke up. She was nearly seven months, but Journey had inherited her mom’s long legs and her—as Sparrow put it—‘complete lack of gracefulness’. Sparrow couldn’t help it if occasionally her feet got ahead of her. And even if nothing stood in her way, Journey seemed able to make a racket when she went mobile.
