Текст книги "Physical Distraction"

Автор книги: Tess Oliver

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Chapter 25

Tashlyn

I looked out across the sawmill yard to the river. Everyone was clocking out, but Jem remained out there, near the water, looking lonely and broken. Or maybe I was just hoping his feelings matched my own. I’d tromped around the office all day feeling dreary as if someone had tied weights to my feet.

  I blamed myself. I’d let Everly’s inherent mistrust of the Wolfe’s infect my opinion of Jem. He’d done nothing to deserve it. The opposite, in fact. Many times during the work day, I’d let my gaze drift out the window to watch him work. Everything about him was heartbreak to me. He’d come to my rescue more than once, and all the while, he was stealing my heart. I’d cried myself to sleep the night before and chided myself for so easily dismissing him at the diner. Even Everly seemed to regret the whole thing.

Hal pulled his keys out and put on his hat. “Don’t forget to turn out the lights, Tash. Looks like everyone’s clocked out except Jem. He’ll probably be up shortly.” He lowered his voice as if we weren’t the only two people in the office. “To tell you the truth, I think he sticks around just to make sure you’re all right. I’ll see you in the morning.”

“Have a good night, Hal.”

I walked over to the window. Jem was pulling some branches off the river. The final sunlight of the day glanced off the water’s surface, temporarily illuminating his face. It was a face I already knew in my dreams.

I didn’t dare let myself think that he’d come early and stayed late today to make sure I was safe. After my cold dismissal of him, I didn’t deserve it. Either way, I felt much safer knowing Jem was only a few hundred yards away.

I returned to my desk. I had about fifteen minutes of filing and a good hour before the bus. I spent a few minutes organizing the papers, wondering how I’d gotten anything at all done today. I pulled a few drawers out and reached toward the desk for the folders. I knocked them off, and the papers I’d just organized flew to the ground.

With an irritated huff, I got down behind the desk to collect the papers. As I straightened, I caught sight of the tall figure walking toward the office. Jem’s fists were at his sides, and there was a storm of emotion in his light brown eyes as he lumbered across the yard.

I stood up and walked in front of the desk. It wasn’t fear or mistrust I was feeling as I watched him stomp toward the office.

A cold rush of air swirled around the room as he yanked the door open and stepped inside. He stopped in the center of the floor and stared at me, his chest moving steadily with deep breaths.

His throat moved with a swallow before he spoke. “Every spot of dirt in this town has my footprint on it. There are two sides to this town. Half is redeemable, people like my great aunt, who are just trying to live their lives. The other side is closer to hell than anyone wants to admit and that half has slid so far into the darkness, there’s no way to pull out. I’m on that side, but I’m still holding onto the edge. Plenty of demons pulling on my ankles and making it hard to hang on but I’m trying. I’m fucking trying. I lay awake at night worried I can’t keep you safe and knowing I can’t lose you or I will fall right into that fucking hole. You’re the first light I’ve seen in a long time—”

I ran to him and threw my arms around his neck before he could finish. I pressed my mouth against his. “I’m so sorry,” I said between kisses. “I was scared and confused and—” His mouth devoured mine.

He took hold of my face and pressed his forehead against mine. “Don’t you ever leave me, baby. Never.”

I shook my head hard. “Never.” I kissed him again. “It’s been a long day, Jem. Take me home.”

Chapter 26

Jem

Tashlyn stretched and a soft sound came from her lips. She was sleeping soundly, but that didn’t stop me from wrapping my arms around her. And it definitely didn’t stop me from wanting her . . . again.

My hands trailed across her breasts as I pulled her back against me. She moaned in protest but pushed her naked ass against my raging erection and wiggled it. I’d spent an entire day thinking she was never going to talk to me again, that I was never going to have her in my arms again. It had been a long fucking day, and it had stunned the hell out of me. I’d never needed anyone until now, until Tashlyn.

I reached down between her legs to coax the cream from her pussy but as my fingers pushed between the folds, they slid into hot moisture. “Baby,” I whispered, “have you been thinking of me in your sleep?”

She giggled. “Could be.” A sigh followed as I stroked her clit.

She pushed her bottom against me and my cock nudged her. “I want to feel all of you,” I groaned. “No barrier. Please, Tash. I’m always good about the condom, but with you, it’s different. I don’t want anything between us. I want to feel every hot inch of you.” As I spoke, I coaxed her closer to coming with just my fingers on her clit.

She answered by jutting her ass out even farther. She reached up and clutched the pillow as I pushed inside of her.

“Your pussy feels so fucking good. I knew it would be perfect . . . like you.” I moved with long, slow thrusts into her, penetrating as deep as I could go. The hand between her legs filled with slick moisture as it dripped from her pussy. She squeezed her thighs around my hand and braced herself against me as I jammed my cock inside her.

“Yes, Jem, please yes,” she cried against the pillow as her pussy clenched around my cock.

She was still trembling as I pulled out. She rolled onto her back and I pulled her beneath me. I leaned down over her and watched her face as I pushed back inside of her. I rocked slowly against her, wanting to stay there for the rest of the night sheathed deep between the folds of her pussy. “I don’t deserve this,” I said. “I don’t deserve you. But I can’t give you up. Not ever.”

She wrapped her arms around my neck and brought my face down close to hers. “Then don’t.”

I pushed deeper. I couldn’t seem to get enough of her. Then my body tensed and I reluctantly pulled free of her pussy. She wrapped her arms around me and kissed me as my hot seed spilled across her belly. I collapsed down next to her and pulled her into my arms.

She snuggled her face against me as I yanked the sheet up over us.

Pieces of the past had been coming into focus, and as I held her I knew for sure that this was not the first time Tashlyn and I had crossed paths. There was so much I still needed to figure out and so much I needed to tell her, but I didn’t know where to begin. Worst of all, I wasn’t completely sure how she’d react. This time she might very well walk away from me for good. One thing was for sure, I needed to find the person behind it all.

Chapter 27

Tashlyn

It felt good to strum my guitar. I hadn’t touched it. In fact, I could safely say that the last person to play it had been Dane Wolfe. Too much had happened. Never in a million years had I expected the emotional monsoon I’d experienced since my arrival in Blackthorn Ridge. I thought, at best, I’d find out a few details about my dad’s death and possibly bring some closure and some memories to the surface. I’d completely underestimated my adventure. Heck, adventure was far too small of a word for what I was going through. And in the midst of it all, I’d fallen hard for Jem.

Everly came out from her bedroom. “You play so well,” she said. “Guess that doesn’t surprise me with the way you sing.” She grabbed her sweatshirt off the back of the chair. “It’s getting cold at night. I’ll be late. Uncle Landon wasn’t feeling well, so I told him I’d close up tonight.” She pushed her arms through the sleeves, and a smile popped up on her face. “I had an ulterior motive too. Finn is coming in later for one of my chicken salad sandwiches. I will have that kiss before week’s end, Tash. I can feel it.”

I lifted my crossed fingers to assure her I was pulling for her.

“What are you going to do tonight?” she asked.

“Not much. I’ve got to drop a postcard in the mailbox, and since it’s Friday night, I think Jem is coming by later to pick me up.”

She walked over to where I was sitting. “I’m so relieved you two got back together. I could have kicked myself for pushing my nosy nose into your business. I think I was feeling a little jealous that Finn hadn’t kissed me that night. But, Tash, be careful when you walk to the mailbox. As my uncle always says—‘eyes in the back of your head, Ever, eyes in the back’.”

“I will just run to the mailbox and race right back home. You be careful too.”

I put down my guitar and walked to the bedroom to grab my coat and the postcard I’d written. I’d come close to telling Carly that I’d been in the truck with my dad. While it explained how I’d ended up miles from home, it didn’t explain how I’d survived a truck bursting into flames or my appearance at the ranger station several miles away. I decided I would send her more gritty details once I knew them and only if they wouldn’t freak her out too much. I was definitely leaving out the scary stuff.

I pulled on my coat and lifted my hair out from under it. My fingers grazed the gold chain on my neck. I hadn’t seen the shark’s tooth again after that awful night in the mill, and I was all right with that. I still couldn’t remember how or when I’d lost it, but something told me, finding out would be dangerous.

I headed out the door. Daylight hours were getting shorter and it had already been close to dark when Jem had dropped me off after work. I always hated leaving him at the end of the work day. Even though he was out on the water and I was in the office, he was still close enough that I could catch glimpses of him or even quick words or touches when we were at the mill. Tonight, he’d decided to do some work on his car before coming back to pick me up.

I’d promised Everly that I’d vacuum and dust, so it worked out well. There hadn’t been any more incidents since the night at Rotten Apples, and I hoped that I’d seen the end of it. Maybe whoever was unhappy to see me in town had decided to just accept my presence.

I pulled up the collar of my jean jacket hoping to keep some of the icy breeze off my face. I glanced around. Every shadow, every tree, every squirrel was enough to send my heart racing ahead. Most people were already home from work, sitting at the dinner table or in front of the television. The few cars that were still out on the road provided some light and some assurance that I wasn’t completely alone. I reached the mailbox and dropped in the postcard.

Alice’s Bookland was just a few feet farther and around the corner. I decided to peek in her window and see if she was around. With all that had happened, I’d forgotten the missing newspaper. I hadn’t wanted to bring it up to Jem again. It had upset him plenty. And Jem had mentioned more than once that his dad was hardly getting out of bed anymore. If he did have anything to do with my dad’s death, it seemed Alcott Wolfe would be taking the secret with him to his grave.

There was one small light on in the back of the bookshop, but I didn’t see Alice inside. I pressed my face closer and looked around. The place was empty. As I leaned back, I caught my reflection in the wavy glass. I wasn’t alone.

“Pussycat,” the deep voice growled. I smelled stale smoke, beer and my own fear as I tried to dash away.

A callused hand grabbed my arm and my foot shot back and made contact with a knee or shin. Whatever I hit, it made him lose his grasp on my arm. I ran. The scream stuck in my dry throat as my feet flew along the uneven sidewalk. I couldn’t tell the difference between my pounding pulse and the man’s determined footfalls behind me. The few remaining cars had all but vanished, and with the exception of the man chasing me, I was alone.

Everly’s house came into view. I fidgeted with the key in my pocket. My hands were shaking. There was no way I could stop and get a key in the lock and get inside the house before the man grabbed me again.

I kept running, too scared to look back. Whoever it was, I could still hear them plodding behind me. I was faster. It was my only chance. The diner sign lit up the sky several blocks ahead. I used it as my focal point. If I could make it to Jem’s or the diner, I’d be safe.

Just as the plan solidified in my head, my foot hit a crack in the sidewalk. I flew several feet before landing and skidding painfully on my knees. The denim on my jeans ripped away along with the skin beneath. Tears clouded my eyes as I pushed to my feet. His hand wrapped around my arm before I could get my feet moving again. A car rounded the corner. Its headlights lit up the sidewalk, and the hand fell away.

I took off running again. My heart was pounding so loudly, I couldn’t hear anything but a thrumming pulse in my ears. My knees were numb, but I could feel warm blood trickling down my shins. I would have been crying hysterically, but I was struggling just to catch my breath.

Jem’s bike sat in the driveway, and a cry of relief erupted from my lips. I was no longer sure I was being chased, but I wasn’t about to slow down to find out. I raced up the driveway and as I pushed through the back gate, I slammed right into Jem.

I fell against him. He swept me up into his arms and without a word he carried me into his house. By the time we were inside, my gasping breaths had been replaced by sobs.

Jem lowered me onto the small sofa in his front room. He looked down at my legs. “Shit, Tash, I need to clean those knees.” He turned to walk away, but I grabbed his hand.

“Don’t leave me yet, please, Jem.”

He sat down and I crawled onto his lap and pressed my face against him.

He rubbed my back with his hand. I clutched at his shirt, never wanting to let him go.

“Tell me what happened, baby. Did you run all the way here?”

I pulled in a few more shuddering breaths and swallowed back the dryness in my throat. My entire body trembled. “I was being chased. He was there again. I was looking in Alice’s window, and I saw him in the reflection. His face was blurred in the wavy glass, but he was there. And he called me pussycat, just like in the mill. Just like in the bathroom at Rotten Apples. I kicked him, and he let go. I ran.” Tears flowed again and I pressed my face against his shirt. “I just ran straight here.”

“There wasn’t anyone behind you when you came through the gate. They must have taken off. Did he hurt you?”

I looked down at my legs. My jeans were ripped at the knees and blood stained the fabric. “I was running so fast, I tripped. He grabbed me again, but a car came around the corner. I guess it scared him off.”

“Did you see him well enough to describe him?”

“I don’t know.” I closed my eyes and leaned my cheek against him. “I can’t think straight yet.”

Jem kissed my forehead. “I’m sorry, Tash. I promised I wouldn’t let anything happen to you, but I wasn’t there.” He hugged me tighter.

“You can’t be with me a hundred percent of the time. I don’t understand what he wants from me. I’m not a threat to anyone. I’m just here looking for a little piece of my past.”

“It’s that piece of your past that is a threat. There’s something I need to ask you. I’ve just been waiting for the right time, but I need to get this out. It might drudge up the accident and some other painful stuff, but I think if we don’t get to the bottom of this, you won’t ever be safe. Only first, I need to take care of those knees. Slide off your jeans and I’ll get something to clean those scrapes.”

I moved off his lap, and he got up.

“Can’t believe I’m asking this because it tastes like paint thinner, but do you have some of that whiskey? Every cell in my body is vibrating. I need something to take the edge off.”

Jem returned with the whiskey. I took a few sips and shimmied carefully out of my jeans. “I haven’t had scrapes like these since my infamous summer of scabs.” Just being with Jem had taken away some of the horror of the night. I felt so incredibly safe with him.

“You had a summer of scabs? That doesn’t sound like fun.”

“It involved a lot of roller skating and a particularly gnarly crack in the sidewalk.”

He leaned down and gently poured some antiseptic on the scrapes.

I winced as the stinging liquid covered the broken skin. I took another sip of whiskey. “Shit, I wouldn’t have made a good soldier on the battlefield. Those guys used shots of whiskey to endure a leg being cut off. I’m just getting some scrapes cleaned.”

Jem looked up at me. “Pretty sure you’re not sipping whiskey because of these knees, Woodstock. When you reached the gate, you were as white as snow.”

He covered the scrapes with bandages and sat across from me on the table.

My fingers were still trembling as I took hold of his hand. “I don’t know if I’ve ever been that scared in my life and then I saw you and—” My voice broke. “Everything was better the second I landed in your arms.”

He leaned over and kissed me. My eyes were feeling heavy from the whiskey. I rested my head back and closed them. In a few seconds, I’d floated into that weird state of twilight sleep filled with images of the day that made it seem you were still awake. My body tensed and I was trapped, my legs were pinned and a pair of eyes peered down at me. The eyes glowed at me from the bookstore window, and I heard his voice again. I jolted awake.

Jem was covering me with a blanket from the bed. “You all right?”

He gazed at me with intense brown eyes, only they were set in the face of a young boy, a younger Jem. ‘You all right’. The words had sparked a distant memory.

He sat on the couch next to me. “Tash? What’s wrong?”

I reached up and touched his face, a face I knew so well. “This will sound strange, Jem. But just now, the way you looked down at me and the question you asked—it feels as if we’ve met before, back when we were kids.”

He took a deep breath. Then he lifted his face to me. “That’s because we met once—sixteen years ago.”

Chapter 28

Jem

Tashlyn was pale as she sat up on the couch. She trembled once and pulled the blanket tighter around her. She’d had a rough night and even though I had a lot to tell her, there were still so many parts missing. I needed her to tell me what she knew first. I wanted it to come back to her naturally and when she was ready to absorb it. I wasn’t completely sure tonight was the right time.

I put my arm around her shoulder, and she melted against me. “Tell me, Jem. Tell me what happened. When did we meet?”

“There’s a historical landmark down below Phantom Curve.”

“Yes, I saw the marker when I traveled down there.”

“Right. It’s a wooden shelter that some fur trappers built there a few hundred years ago. It kept them safe when the weather got brutal.”

I could feel her body tensing beneath my arm, and she tugged the blanket shut tighter.

“I’ve been inside of it,” she said weakly. “It was dark and terrifying and . . . cold. I remember it was really cold.” She grew quiet and sat forward, out from under my arm. She stared out the front window of my house. The light was on in my dad’s bedroom, but the house was quiet.

Then she turned to face me. Her cheeks were pale white, and her eyes were glassy. “You let me out. There was a big hatch door and it lifted. I was sure whatever monster had trapped me inside was coming back to kill me. Then there was this face.” She touched my cheek. “You asked if I was all right. You lent me your hand, and I pulled myself out. Then you told me to run. ‘Run away from this place’. And I did. Just like tonight, as fast as my feet could carry me. But who put me inside the shelter?”

I shook my head. “To tell you the truth, all these years I thought my brother had done it for fun. He did some crazy shit when he was young. But it wasn’t him. That’s why I need you to remember anything you can about this ‘pussycat’ man. I think he knows how you ended up in the shelter.” I swallowed to relieve the bitterness in my throat. “No doubt Everly has told you about the missing girls.”

She nodded. Then it seemed to dawn on her why I’d brought it up. “I was going to be one of them.”

“I think so.”

She crawled back into my lap, and I wrapped my arms around her.

“You saved my life back then.” She cuddled against me. “You seem to be really good at that.”

“So far I’ve kept a good record, and I want to keep it that way. I know you want to push what happened tonight out of your mind, but I need you to think. Is there anything you can tell me that would help?”

She was quiet in my arms for a long time, and I thought she’d drifted back to sleep. But then moisture dampened my shirt. She was crying.

“Tash? What is it? Did you remember something?”

“His eyes, the ones I saw in the window, I’d seen them before.” Her body shook with a sob. “He was staring at me through the cracked windshield of my dad’s truck. I’d been sleeping in the compartment behind the seats when I felt as if I was falling. I must have still been limp with sleep when the truck rolled. That must have been why I wasn’t hurt.” She sniffled a few times and buried her face into my shirt.

“Anything else? What color were his eyes?”

She shook her head but didn’t pull her face from my shirt. It was as if she was hiding from something, a terrible memory, it seemed.

“What was he doing outside your dad’s truck?”

A long shuddering breath came and more tears followed. “He was hitting my dad in the head with a rock. There was no fire. My dad had survived the accident, but that man killed him.”

She shrank down in my arms. I’d released her from the trappers’ shelter, not even understanding the danger she was in. All the grim truths about this town would soon be on full display. For all these years, the ugly shit had been buried, until now, until Tashlyn walked into town. And that was why someone was trying to kill her.

“God, I’m so sorry, baby. I knew this town had a lot of closet skeletons. I just didn’t know how many. You don’t need to think about it anymore tonight.”

She buried herself tighter against me as if she couldn’t get close enough. “The way he says ‘pussycat’.” Her words were muffled against my chest. “Cat always sounds funny. Like he has an accent. It sounds long and flat. Like a—”

“Like a splat.” I finished for her.

She lifted her face to look at me. Her nose was pink from crying. “Yes.”

I nodded and wrapped my arms tighter. It was Draven. Fucking Draven. But there was no way he’d been controlling my dad all these years. There was more to it, and I knew just who to ask.