Текст книги "Physical Distraction"

A Sinful Suspense Novel

Tess Oliver

Physical Distraction

Copyright© 2015 by Tess Oliver

Cover Image by FuriousFotog

Cover Model: Tyler Halligan

This book is a work of fiction. The names, characters, places, and incidents are products of the writer’s imagination or have been used fictitiously and are not to be construed as real. Any resemblance to persons, living or dead, actual events, locale or organizations is entirely coincidental.

All Rights are Reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner whatsoever without written permission, except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles and reviews.

Table of Contents

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Chapter 22

Chapter 23

Chapter 24

Chapter 25

Chapter 26

Chapter 27

Chapter 28

Chapter 29

Chapter 30

Chapter 31

Chapter 32

Chapter 33

Chapter 34

Epilogue

Tess Oliver

Chapter 1

Tashlyn

It was the kind of scar that was so hard to look at, you couldn’t look away. It was the kind of scar that made you flinch because it was impossible to fathom the amount of pain that had come with it. It was the kind of scar that changed a person’s life. I had that kind of scar too. Only the pain that I’d endured had not been acute but rather a long, drawn-out stretch of hurt and confusion. And my scar was invisible to other people’s eyes, to other people’s pity. I was thankful for that.

The girl spun around with her grape slush held high in her right hand. The grim ridges of pink, puckered scars had erased the knuckles of her hand as they smeared along what had once been the smooth skin of her forearm and upper arm, disappearing beneath the sleeve of her t-shirt and reappearing again on her right thigh. I was no expert, but it seemed there was only one monster that could do such horrific damage to a human and that was fire.

The girl’s bright blue eyes smiled with confidence. “I highly recommend this,” she said pointing to the slush with the long fingers of her left hand, an unmarred version of the right. “It leaves your lips and teeth stained purple, but it’s totally worth it.” She spoke to me as if we were good friends rather than two strangers standing at a roadside burger stand. Something told me she spoke to everyone she met in the same neighborly tone. Even with one leg encased in the thick, unwieldy scar, she walked past me with a graceful stride.

“Thanks. I think I’ll take you up on your suggestion,” I called to her. “I don’t mind a little purple on my teeth.”

She looked back at me with a triumphant grin, obviously pleased with herself for having set another person on the right path toward the proper refreshment choice.

The bus driver honked his horn once to let us know that we had five minutes until departure.

I was at the end of my long trip, a journey that would more than likely prove to be a big, fat zero. I was chasing vapors, streams of memory that had evaporated into a mist that only occasionally solidified and rarely ever made any sense. But the missing chunk of my life, that piece of my history, the only dark spot in my existence, had left a hole in my heart and in my soul. My Aunt Carly had filled in most of the hollow with unconditional love and a wonderful childhood, abundant with books, art, music and laughter. But there was still a void to fill, questions to answer. Carly, with all her usual thoughtful understanding, had stood at the bus stop, hugging me good-bye through a hurricane of tears and sobs. She’d promised not to worry too much, and I’d promised to write her every day.

It had been hard leaving behind The Grog, an off-the-grid commune of artisans, craftsmen and self-proclaimed philosophers, people who, like my Aunt Carly, had found true happiness living off the land and worshipping nature and all the beauty that came with it. Carly had become my accidental guardian after my dad, my only other family member, died when his delivery truck veered off the road. I was seven and my life up to that horrible heartbreak had been perfectly wonderful.

For the last sixteen years, Aunt Carly had stepped into the emptiness that my dad left behind. But the brief space of time between his death and the bizarre day when I’d found myself alone and confused, wearing a forest ranger’s coat and sipping a chocolate milk in the middle of a ranger station, had been lost forever, gone, as if someone had reached into my skull and erased that section of memory just like the flames had erased the smiling girl’s knuckles.

While some people traveled across country to meet up with long lost relatives or to fill their picture albums with amazing memories, I’d packed my khaki duffle with my thrift store clothes, my blank postcards and Aunt Carly’s homemade molasses muffins and hopped on a bus in search of some independence and that missing chunk of time. I wasn’t delusional. I knew I’d probably never find what I was looking for, and that was all right. I wasn’t worried about failing. In fact, I was far more worried about succeeding. Something deep inside, some instinctual form of self-preservation, had blacked out those memories. Uncovering them terrified me.

I ordered my very purple, very frosty drink and took it from the woman behind the counter. The first sip did not disappoint. Artificial colors and artificial flavors had been strictly prohibited in The Grog. I’d always found it slightly humorous and more than a little hypocritical that drug induced highs from mushrooms and opium were tolerated, but maple syrup from a plastic bottle was taboo.

I swirled my straw around in my cup and took another refreshing, completely artificial tasting sip. It momentarily carried me back to my kid years with my dad, back when I drank Kool-aid for dinner and prepared neon orange macaroni and cheese from a box.

The bus was filling up. I hurried across the parking lot with my slush. We’d stopped in an area where, much like my last home, the trees far outnumbered the people. As the deciduous maples and oaks faded away, tall evergreens stood in their place. According to the map I’d drawn on the postcard I’d written to Carly, we were just fifty miles from my destination, Blackthorn Ridge. I’d decided to start at the beginning, at the first moment when my dad and my life had taken a completely wrong turn.

I climbed on board. The girl with the grape slush was already patting the empty seat next to her. She held up her drink. “This is the row where the people with purple teeth sit.”

I readily joined her. I’d had to endure more than one annoying seat neighbor on my eighteen hour bus journey, including a man who’d smelled strongly of an aftershave that burned my eyes. For two hours, I got to hear how much money he made and how fancy his car and house were. I pretended to be impressed and had to hold back questioning why he was on the bus instead of in his ultra-expensive car. Yet, he was still better than the woman who kept blowing her nose. At one point, I was sure her red face would explode from it.

I sat down.

“I’m Everly, by the way. So?” She motioned to the drink in my hand. “Was I right or was I right?”

“I bow to your slush expertise.” I reached across to shake her hand. “My name is Tashlyn, but friends call me Tash.”

She stuck out her scarred hand, and I shook it. It felt smaller and harder, almost like plastic in my grasp. I let her hand go, and she sat back with a sigh. “I knew you wouldn’t shrink away. I could tell you were cool from the start. It’s really rotten of me, but I sometimes use this as a test.” She held up her hand. “Some people pull back in horror. Some just pull their lips real tight and take my hand, not wanting to hurt my feelings.” She rolled her eyes. “As if. I mean, I went through my junior high years with this warped skin, and, as I’m sure you know, junior high is the place where bullying and uninhibited cruelty reign supreme. Am I right?” She took a long sip of slush as she looked at me. “Although, you look like one of those lucky girls who basically came out of the womb ready for your modeling portfolio. I’ll bet you’ve never had an ugly day in your life.”

I laughed. “I assure you that is definitely not the case.”

She waved off my statement. “You’re just saying that. Jeez, just look at you. You’ve got that whole blonde-haired, blue-eyed perfection thing happening. Love your little crocheted top, by the way. You look like you just came out of the sixties.” She sat forward and nearly upended her drink. “Who was that curvy blonde with the long bangs and long black lashes? Oh my gosh, she was a big ole deal back in the sixties.” She snapped her fingers, but the scars absorbed the sound. “Bridget Bardot, that’s who you look like. But without the heavy eyeliner and teased hair.”

I smiled. “She was white blonde but mine is more, to use the less poetic term, dirty blonde. I think it’s just the shirt.” I felt my cheeks warm, something that happened easily. “And the boobs, I guess. The people I lived with were sort of left back in a flower child time warp. Don’t get me wrong, I love them all, but whenever I step out into the twenty-first century, I feel really awkward. I don’t even have a cell phone.” I pulled my empty, stamped postcards out of my backpack. “I have to write letters to my aunt to tell her about my trip because she doesn’t have a phone and the internet connection out at The Grog is sketchy, at best.” I chuckled. “We even bake our own bread.”

“The Grog?”

“Don’t ask me how they came up with that name. But, it fits the place.”

“Uh oh.” She reached forward and took hold of the empty gold link on my necklace. Holding a tiny object in fingers that were thick with scars took some effort but she managed. “I hate to tell you this, but whatever charm you had on this necklace has broken off.”

“No, it’s been lost for awhile.” I started to explain to her but stopped. “It’s kind of complicated.” She accepted that explanation. I’d been wearing the chain forever, and the empty link meant something. It was part of that lost time. I’d kept the necklace hoping it would help jar my memory. I couldn’t remember what had been there, but I knew it had had some significance.

The bus driver clamped shut the doors. The motor rumbled, vibrating the windows and the floor beneath our feet. The rest of the travelers settled into their conversations or naps or whatever suited them.

Everly rested back with a thoughtful expression. “I can see you growing up in a place like that.” She swirled her hand in a circle in front of me. “You’ve got that whole inner peace thing going on—at least on the outside. Which, of course, sounds like a total contradiction. But I can tell inside you’re a whole, big gobbly mess.”

I looked down at the intricately crocheted pattern on my shirt. It had been made by a woman named Lacy, who spent most of her day feeding the birds in her garden and crocheting clothes for the people in The Grog. It was my favorite shirt. “You are extremely perceptive, Everly.”

She placed her hand on my arm. The scars somehow felt softer, more like skin this time, as if now that I was getting to know how special Everly was, the scars were fading. “Call me Ever, since we’re friends and all.”

I nodded.

She sat back against the seat. “I would totally love that lifestyle. I could see living like a beatnik or bohemian or whatever, but I do need my technology. Not that I use my phone much except to call my mom and to find out my work schedule. God, that sounds so pathetic now that I’m saying it out loud.” She grew quiet and glanced out the window for a second. “Some of my friends”—she paused—“well, it was too hard for them to get used to my new look.” She shrugged as if it didn’t matter but it was obvious she’d suffered. “Ironically enough, I got the scars trying to save my best friend from a fire. She’d been really upset about something and I’d gone to see her. She died and I lived. My uncle pulled me from her burning mobile home. It was one of those weird things. He was in his house three miles away, and he was sure he heard me screaming. Guess it was like one of those superhuman moments when the mom lifts the car off her kid. He glanced out the window, saw smoke and raced to the mobile home. He managed to get me out, but some of the flames followed.” The last few drops rumbled in her cup as she sucked hard on the straw. There was never any self-pity in her tone. “So, where are you headed?”

“I’m heading toward a town called Blackthorn Ridge.”

“Get out of here,” she said excitedly. “That’s my hometown. I was visiting my mom back in the last town. She lives in a group home for recovering alcoholics.” She covered her mouth and laughed. Then dropped her hand. “Holy crap, can I lay out any more of my dirty laundry? You must think I’m a real basket case.”

“Nope, and it takes one to know one. I’m at the top of the basket case heap. I would lay out my dirty laundry, only I can’t find it.”

She spun sideways on her seat and leaned against the side panel of the bus. “O.K. now you have my complete and undivided attention. Tell me what the heck that means and why the heck you are heading to Blackthorn Ridge, the most uninviting, unimaginative and any other adjective that starts with un town in the western hemisphere. We’ve got at least an hour, so don’t rush. I want every gritty detail.”

I’d grown tired of the slush, and it was now just an icy, wet perch for my fingers. I stuck it in the cup holder. “That’s the problem. I don’t have any details, gritty or not. And, I’ll be getting off the bus at a place called Trumble’s Bridge.”

She had dimples that deepened when she twisted her mouth in question. “Why the heck would you get off there? It’s like the dirty, ugly stepsister of Blackthorn. And trust me, Blackthorn is no Cinderella.”

I laughed. She was already one of the most interesting people I’d ever met, and I’d been living in a colony of freethinking, artsy people, who were, to say the least, colorful. “I’m planning to walk to Blackthorn Ridge. There’s a place along the road called—”

“Phantom Curve,” she finished for me. Her blue eyes blinked in sympathy as she astutely figured out why I wanted to walk the road. “You lost someone. You lost someone at Phantom Curve.”

“Wow, you are a mind reader.”

“Nope. I wish I were, but you aren’t the first person to make the journey. There are at least ten makeshift memorials running along that curve in the road. The state has sent experts in to find out what it is on that piece of highway that sends so many drivers over the edge, but they can’t figure out the problem. They decided that if the night is black enough and the moon is at the right angle and the oncoming traffic just happens to have headlights at the right level, it creates a few seconds of blindness for the driver coming from the opposite direction.” She rolled her eyes. “Isn’t that ridiculous? I mean, I’m surprised they didn’t add in that the stars have to be twinkling at just the right brightness while a solar flare erupts on the Sun.” She took a sad, long breath. “Who did you lose?”

“My dad. And, in a way, a little piece of myself.”

Chapter 2

Jem

Sometimes it was easy to get lost in my own world when I was out on the water sorting logs. With the lumber mill and its sharp metal roofs, conveyor belts and whirring hiss of machinery behind me and an endless view of forest in front of me, it was easy to transport myself right out of reality, to a different place and a different life that wasn’t so damn bleak.

A breeze had been kicking up all afternoon, causing the massive layer of logs to bunch up against the shore and the cement brow. I lifted my pole and hopped across to free a log that had jammed itself against the river bottom. My shoes had spikes but my own innate sense of balance was my best safety equipment. ‘Wolfe’s as sure-footed as a goddamn mountain goat’ was what Hal Stevens, the owner of the sawmill, liked to say. Finn Harris, my partner on the pond, was less steady. Most days, Finn ran the pond boat, the small boat used to sort logs and push debris to the conveyor where it eventually rolled into the mill chipper. The work was most efficient when one of us was on the logs and one was in the boat.

“Jem!” Someone yelled from the deck where the waggoner was lifting a bundle of logs off the truck to be dropped over the log brow. I steadied my feet and looked back over my shoulder. Walt Pickman, the scaler, was waving at me. He cupped his hands together to make a megaphone. “Jem, it’s Dane.”

I slipped back and righted the log before tipping back past the point of no return. “Is he hurt?” I yelled back.

Walt shook his head. “You should come.”

“What the fuck is he up to now?” I muttered as I turned to find the best log path back to shore. My half-brother, Dane, was two years older than me, but I’d been his damn babysitter my entire life. Someone had to keep an eye on him. His mom had died of suicide when Dane was just a baby, and our dad was about as useless as a windshield wiper in a blizzard. Dane was an unlit fuse just waiting for a book of matches. And since I’d gotten back to Blackthorn Ridge, after a long stint on the road, ambling through life and trying to stay out of trouble, I’d become my brother’s personal fire extinguisher.

I reached the shore. The steel spikes on my boots stabbed the muddy bank as I trudged up toward drier land. Walt didn’t wait for me to catch up. He turned back up the embankment and headed toward the mill. It was the last fifteen minute break of the work day and most of the men were gathered in front of the massive stack of hardwood logs, ones that skipped the pond because they were too heavy to float, waiting to be moved into the mill for stripping. Two barker operators had been out sick for the week, leaving the mill shorthanded. Work was behind, and the logs were piling up, making the stack unusually high, a good fifteen feet off the ground.

I shaded my eyes with my hand and glanced up to the top of the stack of raw logs. “Shit.” Dane was walking along the top log on his hands. The guy was fearless, reckless and had the strength and agility of a goddamn trapeze artist. He also had the common sense of a chocolate chip cookie. Dad had blamed it on Dane’s mom. Apparently she’d decided that crack was far better at easing her morning sickness than the vitamins the clinic had given her.

Roberts, the ratchet setter, grinned from ear to ear when he saw me. “Hey, Bronc, I’ve got twenty seconds, and I think I’m going to win the pot.” My job on the pond, riding logs, had earned me the nickname Bronc. I figured it was better than monkey, another common nickname for the pond workers. From the ratchet setter’s enthusiastic tone, I gathered that this bet was not whether Dane could travel the logs on his hands but how fast he could manage it.

Nathan Franks, one of the bull chain operators, was standing in the center of the men with a bundle of cash in one hand and a watch in the other. The guy was an asshole, and he was an expert at getting Dane to pull stupid stunts for a betting pool.

My fists curled against my sides. I knew if I started a fight with Nathan, I’d be the one out on my ass. Nathan had followed behind several generations of respected sawmill workers. I, on the other hand, was the son of Alcott Wolfe, a man whose reputation preceded him like a dark, ugly cloud. Dane and I had the same dark clouds following close at our heels, and no matter what I did to shake them off, the fucking things just stayed there, clinging to me and casting me into the same shadowy light as my dad.

Dane was halfway across the log. The cheering had shrunk to a low murmur as everyone waited for him to make it to the end. He’d taken his shirt and gloves off, and his tattoos twisted and stretched as the muscles in his arms tensed and tightened. His face was beat red, but I knew Dane. This acrobatic feat might have been impossible for most men, but Dane wasn’t most men. Walking a good twenty feet on his hands on a wobbling round surface with more wobbling round surfaces beneath was like walking across the street for Dane.

I looked back at the office. Hal stepped out to see what had everyone’s undivided attention. He looked at my brother and then at me. He wasn’t happy. He crossed his thick arms, resting them on his beer belly, another sure sign that he wasn’t pleased.

Dane reached a section of the pile that had been carelessly stacked. As his hand reached forward, one of the lower logs broke free. A collective breath was held, but Dane was completely unfazed. The rogue log bounced when it hit the bottom and rolled to a stop.

I walked up next to Nathan. He peered sideways and flinched when he saw it was me. I didn’t need to say a word.

“Hey, Dane brought it up,” Nathan said quickly. “I just organized the—”

I lifted my hand to shut him up.

Dane reached the end, and with a little too much enthusiasm, yanked his feet to the lower level of logs. As Dane’s feet pushed off, the log rolled away. A thunderous roar of logs tumbling against each other followed. My brother tried to climb up the pile but wasn’t making any progress, reminding me of a cartoon character running in place.

I shot through the onlookers. A stampede of errant logs rolled toward me. I hopped up on the first one and leapt to the next. I wasn’t making any progress either. It was like running on the world’s most dangerous treadmill. The whole fucking thing would have been comical if my brother wasn’t about to get sucked into the middle of the collapsing pile. “Dane, jump to the side!” I yelled over the clamor. “Get the fuck out of there.”

He gained enough traction to push off, and I followed, rolling well out of the way of the avalanche. Dane grunted as he landed hard on his side on the solid deck. He hopped to his feet with a laugh. I had no scientific proof, but I was pretty damn sure that my brother’s tolerance for pain was beyond even the threshold of the hot coal walkers and sword swallowers in the circus sideshow.

“What was the time, Franks?” he called over the chaos he’d created. Most of the logs had stopped rolling but they would all need to be stacked again. Not a good thing.

Right on cue, Hal yelled from the front stoop of his office. “Wolfe, get in here!”

I looked over at Dane, who finally had enough sense to realize that this little trick wasn’t the smartest move of the day, which was saying a lot about a guy who’d decided to shave his dry face with a dull razor while eating his cereal. Multitasking was what he’d called it, a big word for Dane.

“Just stand there and nod to agree with everything he says,” I advised my brother as he pulled on his shirt. He headed toward the office.

“Not you,” Hal called. “The other Wolfe.”

“Shit.” I shot Nathan an angry glare and crossed the yard. Dane grinned and patted me on the shoulder as we passed each other. I flicked his hand away and walked to the office.

Hal plunked his big, doughy frame into his desk chair. It squeaked and rolled back a few inches. “Shut the door, Wolfe.”

I closed the door. The steel spikes on my shoes clicked on the cement floor as I walked to his desk. His office always smelled like the mints he’d been sucking on to help him give up cigarettes. The lingering smoke in the air indicated that the mints weren’t working. He had a couple chairs, but they were both filled with file folders. The entire office was a carnival of paperwork, receipts and order forms. One good gust of wind through the front window could wipe out an entire year of business.

Hal pushed aside a messy pile as if that one small move was going to make his desk look suddenly organized. Three coffee cups, each with an inch of dried brown residue in the bottom, lined the front of his computer keyboard. “I’ve got a new girl coming in tomorrow to spiff this place up and do a little organization,” he mumbled, almost as if he was just reminding himself of it.

He leaned back. His gray eyes peered up from his round, ruddy face as he crossed his nine and half fingers across his belly. Half a finger had gotten in a tangle with a conveyor belt, a laughable irony for a man who’d worked ten years with a saw blade cutting logs down to size. It was sort of like a cowboy breaking colts his whole life and then screwing up his knee on a golf course.

“You wanted to see me, Hal?”

He released a long sigh. “You do good work, Jem. God knows, I was taking a chance hiring on you and Dane. Everyone kept warning me that I was inviting trouble letting the Wolfe brothers work for me. I ignored them, and I ignored the fact that you’ve been to prison—”

“Juvenile hall,” I corrected him.

“Hmm,” he said with a brow lift. “Anyhow, your brother just cost me two hours labor with that little stunt he pulled, and as you know, this isn’t the first time it’s happened.”

I squinted down at him. “You called me in here to complain about Dane.”

“Well, it’s just easier to communicate—”

A short, dry laugh left my mouth before I could stop it. “You’re scared of him.”

His face reddened as he tripped and somersaulted over his tongue looking for a response.

“You figured you’d just relay the reprimand through me. You tell my brother to his face. None of this management by proxy bullshit.”

He attempted to stand up authoritatively, but his big belly made that move less than impressive. “I’m not afraid of Dane, but you’d better rein that boy in or you’ll both be out of a job.” A thin line of spittle rolled from the side of his mouth, a sure sign that he was pissed as hell. “And let him know I’m docking him for the money it will take to restack those logs.”

“Tell him yourself. You’re the boss.” I smacked the door open with the palm of my hand and walked out.

The workers had all gone back to their respective duties, but plenty of glances were being tossed my direction. Dane was back inside the mill pulling cut boards from the conveyor belt. It was a job that took more strength than wits, a perfect task for Dane.

He yanked out an earplug. “Did you get in trouble, bro?” The thunderous noise inside made it nearly impossible to hear him.

I shook my head and walked on. I slid past the conveyor belt, and again, everyone’s eyes followed me as I walked through the building. The pungent smell of fresh cut wood clung to the tiny particles of sawdust floating in the air. The late afternoon sun barely reached the building windows, and sharply contrasted shadows fell across the machinery.

I reached the opposite side where Nathan was setting hardwood logs on the log table for the short transfer to the log cradle. He hadn’t seen me walk through, but as he turned around, he blanched white and his lips pulled tight.

“Told you the idiot came up with the plan all by himself.” Just like Hal, nervous spit sprayed from his mouth as he spoke.

I ignored his plea and walked straight toward him. I grabbed his shirt and slapped his back hard against the steel side of the platform. A grunt of pain shot from his mouth. He made a pathetic try at knocking my hand from his shirt. The attempt seemed to hurt him more than me as he shook out his fingers.

“Fuck, Wolfe, this wasn’t my fault.”

“This doesn’t happen again, do you fucking hear me?”

“Right, fine. Shit, Wolfe, not my fault your brother is a fool.”

I leaned in closer, and he pushed his head back against the ramp trying to put distance between us. “Considering I could just put my fist through your face right now and end your miserable existence, I’d say you’re either braver than I gave you credit for or you’re even stupider than I figured. I’m leaning toward stupid.”

His mouth pulled into a grim line. “It won’t happen again.”

“Damn right.” I released him and straightened out the crease I’d put in his flannel shirt. I turned around. The other workers quickly returned their attention to their tasks. I could feel Nathan’s eyes shooting invisible bullets at my back as I walked away. But that was nothing new for me.