Текст книги "Wanting You"

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9
Deke

Vann’s body trembled from my touch, her lips slowly parting as she inhaled. I took that as my cue. My fingers threaded through the back of her beautifully soft, long hair and gave a small tug.

Vann’s eyes opened wide as she gasped. I didn’t wait for her words. I needed to taste her. Plunging my lips onto hers, I coaxed them open, sliding my tongue in with ease. Her response was immediate, her tongue following mine, move for move.

Wrapping my arm around her waist, I pulled her close to me. Her beautiful breasts crushed against my chest. I needed to get her naked and under me. Now.

Vann’s arm wrapped around my neck, while the other hand thread through the back of my hair causing an immediate moan to escape my throat. Her hands kneaded my scalp, massaging as we continued to kiss.

Kissing was never like this for me. It was always a means to an end, but kissing Vann … I could do it forever. Shaking those thoughts, I focused on the incredibly hot woman pressed up against me.

Vann’s body went completely lax against mine, falling into me quickly. She pushed her body against mine, no doubt feeling my hard as a rock cock against her, but I fully controlled the kiss. I took her deeper inside my mouth as if I could crawl inside her and stay.

All thoughts of being pissed at her for leaving me dissipated into thin air. Nothing mattered, but this moment … with her. I wanted to envelop her. I wanted to show her that I learned quite a bit from my teenage years. Vann abruptly pulled away. “Deke. Stop.”

“Baby, you don’t want me to stop any more than I do.” Vann’s hands pushed against my chest, but I didn’t let her move an inch. She wasn’t getting away. Not this time.

“You need to. This can’t happen.”

“Why not? It’s happened before.”

“We were kids then.”

“And now I’m all grown up. I’ve learned quite a few things, and I can’t wait to show you.” My lips began moving again.

“I bet you have.” Vann groaned. “We can’t.”

“Yes. We can.” Pulling Vann’s beautiful lips to mine, I devoured her. The rigidity present a few seconds ago left in a flash. Vann’s soft lips battled mine. My hands began to explore her gorgeous body.

She was nowhere near the girl she was our first time. She was all woman with curves that were driving me crazy. Reaching under her shirt, I went straight to her tits. As I rubbed and groped, I lost it. I needed to see her. Ripping her shirt over hear head, I pulled her breasts out of her bra, but kept it latched causing them to be on display for me. Like a prize.

Lavishing each one, I sucked, nipped, and bit, reveling in the feel of her. Grabbing her around the waist, I pulled her over to my desk. Vann’s small gasp made me smile.

Swiping my arm across my desk, everything went flying in a heaping mess to the floor. Vann’s eyes widened as I smiled. Laying her across the desk, I kissed her deep and hard following with kisses along her jawline and neck. Her moans and mews are causing my dick actual pain—pain that needed to be relieved.

Kissing down her body, I paid special attention to her breasts then continued down to the button of her jeans. Vann’s hand clasped mine, and I couldn’t help but feel dread that she was going to make me stop. I didn’t know if I could.

Making eye contact with her, I asked, “You okay?”

“Yes,” she whispered, removing her hand.

Continuing my work, I slowly pulled her jeans and underwear down her legs. The beautiful sight of her blew me away... She was bare, pink, and perfect.

“I need to taste you, Vann.”

Vann

I groaned deep in my throat at his words.

Oh God, the things this man did with his mouth. He was no longer the boy I first had sex with who had no idea how to put on a condom. Deke knew the exact places to kiss me, sending shockwaves through my body. It was like the past five years vanished, and we were exactly where we needed to be.

Being laid out on his desk, I was a buffet ready for him to feast. I’d loved this man for years, and now he would finally be mine once again.

“Lift your knees and rest your feet on my desk. Spread wide for me.” Without even thinking, I did exactly as he said, opening myself up for him. Deke kissed a trail right down to my pussy and began his assault. And what a beautiful assault it was.

I couldn’t keep my body from moving. With every lick and nip Deke gave me, I wanted more and more. “Deke,” I whispered, my voice coming out soft and breathless.

“What’s wrong? Not enough?” He chuckled.

“No, it’s not enough,” I groaned. He was doing everything he could to drive me crazy, but not giving me the relief I desperately needed. Reaching down I gripped his hair, trying to maneuver him exactly where I needed him, but he was not cooperating.

If anything, he was resisting my pulls. Damn. Deke slowly inserted a finger inside me as he continued to work on me with his mouth. Every thrust in and out sent me closer to the edge. If he would just move …

Deke pulled my clit into his mouth and began sucking … hard. My entire body went off like fireworks. One explosion right after the other sent me into convulsions right there on his desk. “Deke!”

Coming down from euphoria, I had to grip the desk to make sure I was really grounded. I felt Deke kiss the inside of my thigh as he moved above me. “That was hot.”

“It felt hot.”

Deke’s mouth slammed down on mine, crushing my lips into his. The desire that I thought was wrung out from that last orgasm was in full force again. My pussy clenched with each pounding movement of his lips. Tasting myself on his tongue only made me want him more.

I wanted to see him. Reaching down to the hem of his shirt, he stopped me. “No,” he said boldly.

“Why not?”

“Because I said no.” What the hell? I could be fully naked and laid out on his desk, but he wouldn’t take his damn shirt off.

A feeling in the pit of my stomach told me something wasn’t right, but in the moment, I just didn’t give a shit. Instead of his shirt, I reached down for his pants, unbuttoning them and sliding them down.

“Don’t worry, it’ll fit.” Deke’s voice came out as if he was reading my thoughts. His cock was nothing like I remembered. He was big—huge—and right now, it was as if I wrote about him in my books, hoping for my fantasies to come true.

“You sure about that?” I eyed him wearily.

“Yeah. It’ll feel good. I promise.” Smiling up at him, I watched as he fitted the condom over himself. It barely fit, and I couldn’t help but panic a bit.

Deke brushed his lips against mine. “It’s okay.” His kisses continued to be rough, and I loved every minute of it.

Feeling Deke’s cock at my entrance, I closed my eyes, enjoying every second. This was what I wanted for so long, and it was finally here. I needed this. I needed him. Pulling away from his mouth, my eyes captured his. I swear I saw something in his for a brief moment before he diverted his gaze.

Deke pushed fully inside of me and I couldn’t help but gasp. I had never felt so full before. It was as if he was pushing against my insides, hitting spots I didn’t know existed, but so happy he found them.

My hips began falling into sync with Deke’s thrusts, and he was right, I could take all of him. “Deke!”

“You like that?”

“God, yes.” Deke began pumping relentlessly inside me causing my body to coil, ready to spring at any second.

Closing my eyes, I relished in the feeling.

“Come Vann.” Looking up at him, he read my mind. “You can come. Come. Now.”

And I did, screaming his name throughout the small office. My body flew off into another world. The electricity coming out of it was burying me alive. I felt my body jump and move. I had no control over it. It was flying on pure instinct, my brain totally shutting off.

I felt Deke’s dick grow even thicker inside of me, which I didn’t think was possible. With a few more solid thrusts, he threw his head back, groaning, but I couldn’t make out what he was saying.

Coming back down to Earth, I looked up at Deke’s beautifully chiseled face. His blue eyes met mine, and for a moment, I couldn’t help the smile that spread across my face. “Thanks, I needed that.” Deke pulled out of me, disposing of the condom while pulling up his pants.

“Yeah, thanks,” I said, scrambling off the desk in search of my clothes, the air in the room changing and not for the better. What was once lust and passion was now something else that I couldn’t put my finger on. I just knew I needed to get dressed. Now.

With my back to Deke, I threw all my clothes on, just wanting to get it covered up, somehow feeling unbelievably exposed.

“That was great, Vann. Only a few more times and you’ll be worked out of my system.” Deke’s words cut right through me.

Ice flushed through my body, making it impossible for me to move. He wanted to work me out of his system? I stood there, mute, not able to find my voice, the shock seeming to have eaten it up.

“That was so much better than our first time, don’t ya think? You were so responsive, following all my directions. That was seriously hot. I can’t wait for round two.”

“Wait.” I turned, looking him square in the eye. “You want to work me out of your system?”

Deke’s stare was intense, but I didn’t shy away. I gave it back tenfold. “Yeah. That way we can both move on. We had so much that was unfinished; we need to finish and be done with it.”

Shaking my head, I said in disbelief, “You can’t be serious.”

“I’m dead serious. You came all the way back here, and you can’t tell me that it’s not been on your mind.”

Hurt and anger surged through me, but I found I liked the anger better. Who in the hell did he think he was?

“You asshole! What the fuck is your deal? First, you never tell a woman you want to ‘work her out of your system’ by fucking her, at least not this woman. Second, what makes you think for a minute that I will go along with this idiotic, second-grade scheme? Huh?” I began edging closer to him, but what I once felt was attraction had evaporated, and all I wanted to do was kick his fucking ass. “You’re out of your fucking mind!”

Deke laughed. “You’re so hot when you’re mad.”

“Fuck you. You can shove this ‘plan’ of yours up your ass because it’s not happening. You want to work me out of your system? I’ll help you with that. I’m out of here.”

Reaching for the door handle, Deke’s voice boomed, “Wait!” My body immediately halted as if Deke’s command demanded my obedience. “You’re not going anywhere.”

I swung around to face him. “The hell I’m not. You don’t own me, and you will never have me.”

“I just did.” Deke smirked.

“It’ll be the last time. Didn’t you say you needed closure? There it was. One last fuck before we part ways … how Romeo and Juliet of us. Too bad you’re not dying at the end of this story.”

“I don’t know why you’re so bent out of shape. I don’t usually fuck women more than once, and I’m offering you that. You should be grateful.”

“Grateful? Are you fucking kidding me?”

“No.”

He so did not get it. What in the hell happened to him? “Deke, I wouldn’t fuck you again if you were the last man on the planet. Go find someone else to be your ‘toy,’ ‘cause it’s not me.” Deke grabbed my arm as I flinched away.

“You don’t touch me…ever again.”

“Oh. I’ll touch you and you’ll beg for it.”

“Now you’re in dreamland.”

Deke leaned in close to my ear, “I’m not dreaming. It will happen.” His words sending shivers down my spine, but I refused to let them show. “Come on, we can both get off, have some fun, and move on. You know it’s the best scenario.” Deke actually sounded like he meant what he said.

What the hell was he thinking? How dare he think I would go along with a plan like this. No woman would agree to this … would they?

Deke knew how to kiss, but he’d probably kissed many women throughout the years. The thought made my heart ache. If he would have just called and talked to me, then we wouldn’t be in this position right now.

But, I wouldn’t do this to myself. I deserved better.

Grabbing the door handle, I wretched my arm away and pulled the door open with as much force as I could muster and headed straight back to the bar. The crowd was still in full force, but I ignored every single one of them. I didn’t want to see any of them, not to mention I probably looked like I’d just been fucked. I needed a drink.

Pushing my way up to the bar, I called Ace over and ordered tequila. Lots and lots of tequila. I began shooting, not giving two shits what any of these people thought.

“Hey babe. Need a partner?”

Turning, Z was standing behind me. “Go away,” I barked at him.

“Come on, cuz. What’s the deal? Why you drinking all by yourself?”

“Get. Lost,” I bit off, turning around to do another shot. I motioned to Ace, handing him a fifty. “Keep ‘em coming.”

Z pushed his way in next to me, and shit if that didn’t piss me off. “Come on, Vann. You’ve had enough.”

“I’m a big girl. I can handle it.” Bringing the glass to my lips, the cool liquid burned on its way down my throat. Every shot made Deke disappear just a little bit more.

“What happened with you and Deke?”

“Nothing,” I growled, taking another shot.

“Doesn’t look like nothing.”

Turning, I glared at him. “What the hell does that mean?”

“Whoa … pull it in, tiger.” Z’s hands went up as if in surrender, and I wanted to punch him, too, just for being a man. Turning back to the bar, I waved at Ace, who poured me another shot, which I quickly downed. The ‘forget about Deke juice’ was losing its flair. I needed more.

“What the hell happened to you?” Kinsley yelled at my side, making me cringe.

“Nothing.”

“To hell with nothing. What. Did. You. Do?” Kinsley bit out as if she was mad. She had no right.

“I didn’t do anything I didn’t want to do.”

“Did you screw him in the office?” I ignored Kinsley, motioning to Ace again. Kinsley would know. Nothing got past her, but fuck it, I didn’t have to justify anything to anyone. If I wanted to fuck Deke on top of his desk, I’d do it. And fuck if Z had a problem with it.

“It’s about time,” Z’s voice boomed.

My head whipped around, catching him a bit off guard. “About time for what?”

“For you two to hook up.”

“Yeah … I’m so happy that it happened.” The sarcasm spewed from me while I rolled my eyes.

“Was he that shitty?” Damn Kinsley always cutting to the chase.

Staring at her, I said, “No. It was actually great until he opened his mouth at the end. Now. I’m done with him.”

“You are not done with me,” Deke said from behind me.

Blowing out a deep breath, I faced him head on. “I’m so done with you. I don’t want to see you again. You’re a pompous ass.”

“You want it.”

“I don’t want anything from you.” We stood there toe-to-toe, and I was not backing down.

“Not what you said a few minutes ago.” I wanted to slap that smug look right off his face.

“Maybe we should get out of here.” Kinsley’s arm rested on my shoulder. I didn’t move despite knowing that she was right, but my feet not allowing my body to move.

“So you are thinking about the deal.” Deke smirked.

“Hell no I’m not.”

“Okay, I think the show’s over.” Kinsley squeezed my shoulder. “Let’s get you home.”

“I’m not going anywhere. I came here for fun and I’m damn well gonna have it. Ace! I need another.” Turning my back to Deke, I sat back at the bar staring as Ace poured yet another.

“How many have you had?”

“Kins, don’t worry about it.”

“Vann, your slurring your words.”

“I am not.” I did notice a slight slur but it wasn’t enough for me to forget.

“Yeah. I think you should call it a night.”

“Kins. I’m not leaving yet.” Slamming back another drink, I completely ignored Deke. I scanned the crowd looking for the hottest guy I could find. Over in the corner stood a very handsome man, broad shoulders, muscles protruding underneath the tight navy Henley shirt he had on. The hint of a tattoo coming out of his sleeve made him even hotter.

His face was nice with a slight scruff across his chin. His baseball hat turned backwards hid his hair, but I thought I could see a hint of brown poking out. As he made eye contact with me showing interest, I smiled at him.

“I’ve got somewhere to be.” I said getting up out of the chair.

“Where are you going?” Deke’s voice boomed.

“None of your damn business.” Fuck him, like I had to explain myself to him.

“My dick in you less than ten minutes ago says it’s my business.” I felt his anger coming off of him in waves, but dismissed it.

“I’m sure your dick will find a new home very soon.” I smiled sweetly.

“Wait” Kinsley’s concern made me stop and turn to her.

“What Kins?”

“Where are you going?” Her question coming off a bit guarded.

“See that hunk of a man over there?” Pointing the direction of the man across the bar.

“Yeah.”

“I’m going to him.” I smiled.

“You really think that’s a good idea?”

Where the hell did the real Kinsley go? Normally she would be all for this. “Yep, better than the one I had a while ago.”

Grabbing my arm, Kinsley’s words were almost a plea. “Please don’t. You’ve had a lot to drink. It won’t end well.”

“It’ll be fine. I’m a big girl. Just ask Deke.” I pointed to Deke and strode away from them all. I needed some air.

10
Deke

What the hell was she playing? Watching her walk over to Marc, I wanted to punch him already, and she hadn’t even made it to him yet. Vann was mine; she’d been mine from the beginning. I’d be damned if she even tried to get with anyone else.

She got away from me once, and I let her go. I had to. It was too much dealing with my parents, Jaxson, and Vann at the same time. I figured if Vann wanted to leave with her mom, then fine. I’d forget she even existed. But deep in my soul, it had always been her and would forever be her.

I wished she didn’t have this hold on me. I wished I could have let it go by now, but seeing her, being with her again, made every single feeling I’d ever had for her rush back. Even if I could never give her everything she needed, I needed her.

“Wait!” Kinsley’s voice stopped me.

“What?” I clipped off.

“You sure you want to go after her? Or should you just let her go?” Her hand on her hip and the curtness in her tone suggested she was not very happy with me.

I smiled. “She’s mine, Kinsley. She’s been mine since we were kids.”

“Then why were you a dick to her?” Kinsley huffed, crossing her arms over her chest. Normally, I wouldn’t mind taking a look, but she didn’t appeal to me.

I stared at her not really knowing what to say. I didn’t know why I suggested fucking her out of my system. I just wanted to be with her, and it was all I knew. “I shouldn’t have done that. I’ll talk to her.”

“Yeah. You better.”

Not wanting to hear any more from her, I stalked behind Vann. Marc smiled as she walked toward him. Grabbing Vann from behind, I pulled her to my chest, talking in her ear. “You’re not going over there with him.”

Vann began tugging, trying to escape my arms. I saw Marc approach out of the corner of my eye and glared at him. Fucker better turn around and keep going. I turned Vann in my arms ignoring the murderous glare she gave me. I crushed her lips to mine reveling in the taste of her. Vann did not participate in the kiss at first, so it was like I was kissing a mannequin, but pulling her closer, I swept my tongue across her bottom lip and felt her body unwind.

Vann began kissing me back, giving me everything she had. Her arms wrapped around my neck and I pulled her as tightly to me as I could. I could taste the tequila on her tongue, and it was better with Vann’s taste mixed in. She could be her own brand.

Vann pulled away panting softly. “I can’t do this.” Wiggling out of my arms, she ran to Kinsley, leaving me standing there like an idiot. I charged after her, but when I got to them, Kinsley held up her arm stopping me. To my surprise I stopped, maybe from her boldness.

“That’s enough, Deke. She’s done. I’m taking her home.” Kinsley tucked Vann under her arm so I couldn’t see her face.

“I just want to talk to her.”

“Not tonight. She’s had too much to drink, and she’s done.” Kinsley started walking her toward the door.

My anger rose. “I don’t need you to tell me I can’t talk to her.”

Kinsley’s face grew furious. “The hell you don’t. You’re the asshole who wanted to use her as a fuck buddy, so if I were you, I’d figure out how to fix that first. Vann is not that way. You should know that better than anyone.” Kinsley and Sawyer guided Vann out of the bar, and I watched as they swung through the doors.

“Guess you fucked up that one,” Z said, his hand clamping down on my shoulder.

“Fuck off.”

“What did you say to her?”

“None of your business,” I growled, taking off toward my office.

Z laughed, calling out, “Good luck getting yourself out of that one.”

Plopping down on my chair, I looked at the mess all over the floor. There were papers, pens, and everything else. My mind raced as I remembered Vann spread out for me to feast on my desk. She was the sweetest woman I’d ever tasted.

My God, the way she moved with me was amazing. I felt each time she spasmed and watching her come was amazing. The way her face flushed and body convulsed. I wanted, no needed, more of her.

Damnit.

“Where the hell have you been?” My mom yelled as I walked in the door.

“I was at Vann’s.” I’d pulled myself together before coming into the house knowing my mom would be pissed I left the house.

“All you do is hang out with that girl.”

“Don’t need to worry about that anymore, Ma. She left.”

“Isn’t it amazing how people leave you? Sometimes I wonder what’s wrong with you that everyone has to leave, and I have to suffer for it.”

I’d gotten used to my mom’s ramblings about my brother’s death being my fault. She’d told me many times that it should have been me and not him. At this point, I’d agree with her. I knew better than to respond to her, as that’d only make it worse.

“First, you kill Jaxson, and now Vann left you. Must be your karma. It’s a bitch, isn’t it? All this is your fault. If you wouldn’t have let him swim that day, he would still be here and everything wouldn’t be falling apart!”

Turning to go to my room, I needed to get away from my mom. Lately, the words she spat at me had been getting worse and worse. I wasn’t sure how much more I could handle.

Shutting my door, I fell face first onto my bed. Reaching in, I grabbed the key strapped around my neck. As I rubbed it, the tears free fell from my eyes, and I wished I could disappear forever.

Reaching underneath my shirt, I grabbed the key and pulled it out. For some reason, I didn’t want Vann to see it, which was why I wouldn’t let her take off my shirt. I’d held this key for so long it’d become part of me. I wondered, though, if she would even remember it. She left it behind … just like me. I thought we would pair well together.

Vann

My head hurt—pounding and throbbing pain surged through it. Rolling over in my bed, I pulled the blankets over my head. The light made it unbearable. I must have forgotten to close the blinds before bed. Last night’s events came rushing back like a tidal wave. All the drinking, dancing, Deke getting pissed, fucking Deke on his desk …

“Rise and shine, sunshine!” Groaning at Kinsley’s voice, I wished she would disappear.

“Time to get up, Vann, you’ve slept the whole day away.” Sawyer’s voice of reason rang through.

“What time is it?” I choked out.

“Four.”

“God …” I needed more sleep.

“Here, I brought coffee.” Sawyer handed me the steaming cup as I sat up in bed.

I pulled the covers off, blinked repeatedly, and grabbed the mug. “Thanks Saw.”

“All right, spill it,” Kinsley said, jumping on my bed next to me.

“Damnit,” I growled, almost spilling my coffee.

“You’re fine. Spill.”

Sawyer crawled up next to me and lay down, while Kinsley laid on the edge of the bed. “Look girls. I had a moment of weakness. I got caught up in the moment and screwed Deke.”

“Obviously. But what happened? And how was he?” I stared at Kinsley not wanting to answer, but did anyway.

“The sex was amazing. It’s what happened after that tore me up.” Blowing out a deep breath and taking a sip of my coffee, I continued, “He said he wanted to keep fucking to work me out of his system, just like you’d overheard at the bar. I blew up.”

“You sure were drinking tequila like water.”

“Kins, I know you tried to stop me. Thanks.”

“It is what it is. We got ya home safe, that’s all that matters, but we gotta talk about this.” Kinsley’s voice took on a deep level of concern.

“What?” I asked, thinking it was about Deke.

“You kinda drank a lot last night … like your mom does.” She whispered the last part, but it didn’t stop the shock that roared through my body.

“What? You think I’m an alcoholic like my mother?” I argued, staring at Kinsley and trying desperately to make heads or tails out of what she was saying.

“No. I’m not saying that. It’s just … you need to be careful so you don’t end up that way.” Sawyer’s calm voice was soothing.

“I’m not an alcoholic,” I said adamantly.

“We don’t think you are. We just want you to be careful.” Sawyer grabbed my arm and gently rubbed it. I knew they meant well.

“So, how big of an ass did I look like?” I must have been a huge one to garner all this talk.

“Well, I only saw from a distance as I couldn’t help but dance with that hot ass cowboy.” Sawyer’s big smile cut across her face. “Anyway, from where I saw, it just looked like you two were talking. You stomped off, and then Deke grabbed you and kissed you. And let me tell you, that was a hot kiss.”

“I actually don’t remember much after the kiss,” I said.

“You pretty much broke after that,” Kinsley said, rolling on her back.

“What do you mean broke?” I asked.

“Crying … a lot of crying.”

“In front of everyone?” I gasped, embarrassed.

“No, I shielded your face. No one saw anything. The real waterworks didn’t start until we got home,” Kinsley added.

Breathing out a sigh, I said, “Well, at least I didn’t make an ass of myself crying over a guy.”

“I knew it was coming soon, the way you were pounding the drinks.” I stared at Kinsley as I took a sip of my coffee.

“So, what are you going to do?” Sawyer asked.

“Didn’t you ask me that same question back when I first got here?” I smirked.

“Sure did. Now it’s a bit different.”

“I can’t believe I slept with him.” I grabbed my head with the hand not holding the mug. “I mean, I do believe it … but I was thinking it was more than sex. But obviously not to him. I’m just not built like that.”

“We know. I told him as much.”

“What did you say to him, Kinsley?” I asked with a touch of anger in my voice.

“I just told him that he fucked up, and you are not the type of girl to be anyone’s fuck buddy. I also told him that he should have already known that.” Kinsley threw her arm over her eyes. “I also tried to stop him from coming after you and Marc. He proceeded to tell me that you were his, and then left without another word to me.”

“I’m not his. I will not be his the way he wants.” I could hear the touch of venom in my tone.

“We know. The way he went about his was fucked up.”

“No shit. I don’t know what I’m gonna do. This was not what I had in mind when I came back here.” I tried biting back the tears that were attempting to escape.

Kinsley put her hand on my leg. “You knew it wouldn’t be all roses and butterflies with him.”

“I know, Kins. I just didn’t expect this …”

I could tell Sawyer was done with this conversation. “Come on. Get your ass up and let’s get something to eat.”

* * *

That night, thoughts of Deke kept me from any semblance of a good night’s sleep.