Текст книги "Incandescent "

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***

“Kadence, how the fuck did Nix score you?” Jesse asks later that night sitting on Nix’s back deck. I take a sip of my drink and shrug. More like how the hell did I score him.

I knew the boys were coming over for dinner, but after my day of fighting a horrendous hangover and our little rendezvous in the park today, I wanted to eat in and just be with each other.

“What about you, Brooks? How did you end up with Kelly?” I ask, taking the pressure off me.

“It was love at first sight.” He smiles back at me. You can see the man is smitten with his wife. Over the last few hours, I’ve come to learn Brooks is the oldest of the bunch. He was a prospect when Nix was still in high school. I wonder if the shit he’s lived under Red Knight influenced him in staying on when Nix stepped up. Last night, he introduced me to everyone in the club, from the main set of guys who help run the businesses, to the weekenders, the men who come in and hang out over the weekend. I really did have a good time. The club, the people, all made me feel welcome.

“Kelly and Addison used to be best friends,” he explains, and I don’t miss the past tense reference. It still rubs me the wrong way hearing her name. I know she’s Nix’s ex and Z’s mother, but ever since that afternoon in my classroom, I don’t know what it is, but something about her doesn’t sit right with me.

Nix and I have avoided talking about her. I feel like it’s one of those conversations I’ll never be ready for.

“She walked in one day with Addison and I fell in love,” he continues.

“Just like that?” I question, trying to hold back my disbelief. I am a strong believer that a person can’t fall in love in an instant. People fall in lust, often confusing it for love. That desire makes your heart beat faster, your palms sweat all the while leaving that overwhelming urge to want to be with them. All those things are important when finding the one, but until you fall in lust with those intense feelings, only then can love grow.

“Just like that,” he repeats. I nod my head, not about to get into it with him. The man believes he fell in love at first sight; who am I to tell him that it’s impossible.

Nix catches my eye from across the decking; he’s been in deep conversation with Beau for the last five minutes. Beau’s still holding onto his annoyance that I outmaneuvered him back at the clubhouse a couple of weeks ago. He’s barely said a few words to me, and I’m beginning to worry he might not like me.

“You lookin’ after my woman, Brooks?” Nix questions from across the table.

“You bet ya,” he calls back, tipping the neck of his beer his way.

“Keep her away from that asshole,” he jokes, pointing to Jesse. I laugh aloud and Jesse fakes a pout. The guy is a massive flirt, no wonder Nix doesn’t trust him. Hell, I don’t know how I feel about the traitor, ratting me out to Nix. I level my gaze at him, realizing I never called him on his play last week.

“What?’ he asks, seeing my frown.

“I just remembered I’m angry at you.”

“For what?”

“For ratting me out to Nix, that night at Liquid.” I don’t tell him I think of that night only for the unbelievable make-up sex and the night Nix made me feel beautiful.

“Oh, please, he already knew you were there. He had eyes on you all week.” He laughs and I immediately recognize what a fool I am. I honestly thought he would have just let me be for a week. Of course, Nix had his boys follow me. I turn, looking at him, and the man just shrugs. Shrugs.

“Babe, I’ve had a man on you every second you’ve been out of my sight,” he admits, looking smug.

“You what!” I come to stand. I can’t believe I never noticed. How did I never notice?

“It’s for your own protection, Kadence,” he explains without explaining.

“It’s a bit much,” I argue, sitting back down, feeling awkward in front of the guys. I can go head to head with Nix, but having an audience of all the boys is a bit too much for me.

“Your dipshit ex is still sniffing around. Until we find him and make it clear that you're off limits, you’ve got a tail,” he explains coming to pull a chair up at the table.

“I can take care of myself, Nix. Zane won't bother me again.”

"Kadence, he will. Trust me. It's best this way."

"But I’m sure the guys have better things to do, right?” I ask, looking at Jesse, trying to get Nix to see.

“Not me. I love it when you and Holly go shopping, especially in Victoria's Secret.” He bounces his brows at me.

“Jesse,” I gripe, listening to Sy and Nix growl. “Did you just growl like a dog?” I ask Sy, trying not to laugh remembering Holly’s reference to him barking. He narrows his eyes, his lips tightly sealed.

I look to Brooks, hoping I have an ally in him. “That coffee shop you go to in the morning is my favorite.” The bastard winks. Rolling my eyes, I turn to Sy; he looks at me as if the question is stupid. Of course, he hates it.

“He doesn’t count. The fucker is a cranky asshole,” Nix replies before I can use him as an example.

“Fine,” I huff out defeated, “Beau?” I ask, not hopeful with him still being pissed. Last night he didn’t warm up to me.

“I’ll let ya know next week, Kadence, when I’m on duty,” he smirks, and I finally give up.

“Nix,” I plead, hoping I can at least get him to ease up a little. Shopping? Come on.

“It’s for your own protection. It's that or lock you down.” My body freezes for a second at the thought of lockdown. Yuck. No way.

“Didn’t think so,” he adds, seeing my disdain for lockdown. “As soon as we find the asshole, we’ll ease up. Until then enjoy your entourage.” He smiles his smug-ass smile.

What a nightmare.

***

“Do you believe in love at first sight?” I ask later that night, not even realizing how that could sound until it’s out of my mouth. After thinking over what Brooks told me earlier in the night, I wanted to know what Nix thought.

“I think anything is possible,” Nix responds behind me, reaching around to cup my breasts under the bath water.

“Well, that settles that then,” I reply. My smartass tone not lost on him.

“Watch it, Kadence.” He pinches my nipple in warning.

“Well?” I push, wanting to know.

“What do you want me to say? I don’t think I’ve ever loved anyone but my mom, dad and Z,” he admits.

“Didn’t you love Addison?” I ask, and cringe as soon as the question leaves my mouth.

“I thought I did. I tried hard to, but I soon learnt it’s not meant to be hard. You either love them or don’t. There ain't no learnin'.” I nod, agreeing with that statement.

“But you asked her to marry you. You must have had feelings for her.”

“Didn’t ask her. We just did it when we found out she was pregnant with Z. Lookin’ back, I know that wasn’t the right thing to do, but I wanted somethin’ better for my son. I wanted him to have a mom and dad.”

I nod, understanding his reasons. I can see where he was coming from, but I don't agree.

“What about you?” he questions, throwing it back at me.

“No, I don’t believe in love at first sight.”

“Are you sure, Kadence? I was there when you first met me.” He laughs, and I elbow him in the stomach.

“Ha ha. No, I think people fall in love with the idea of it, but lust is what you fall into, and love can only grow from that,” I answer honestly. Do I think I can fall in love with Nix? Yes, but right now what we have isn’t love, because honestly, can someone love another after a short time? For me, this feeling was like the beginning of an intense journey. A spark ignites with every kiss and every touch, his words fueling the flame further. I can see myself catching fire, burning incandescently for him.

“Are you in lust with me, Kadence?” he teases, pinching my nipple again.

“I’m in something with you,” I retort. Oh, God, did I just admit to that?

“Did you love your asshole ex?” he asks, ignoring my slip, bringing the washer over my stomach.

“I did. I gave everything to him, but even then it wasn’t enough,” I confess, feeling like a fool, and I hate myself for it. I loved him more than anything. I was the idiot who loved someone more than they loved me.

“As much as I don’t wanna talk about that fucker while I’m layin’ naked in the bath with you, I just have to say, I’m glad it wasn’t enough. ‘Cause if it had been, you’d never have given me a chance.” He kisses my temple.

“So what you’re saying, Nix, is that you’re glad I’m not good enough?” I laugh, teasing him.

“Kadence, if you only ever give me what you’ve given me so far, it will be more than enough.” I lean back and twist my head to look up at him.

“Are you sure, Nix? You strike me as the type as all or nothing.”

“Oh, baby, I am, but I’m also the type to know when he’s got a good thing, and you, Kadence, are a good thing.” He leans down, our lips finding each other.

I want to relish in the feeling of now, of in this moment, knowing it’s something I’ll want to remember. That pivotal point when you know the man you're giving your body to just took a little of your heart.

Lust my ass, my heart sings.

Chapter Twenty-Two

Nix

I stir at the smell of cooked bacon coming up from the kitchen. I don’t even need to open my eyes to know she isn’t in bed. Looking over at the clock, I see it’s half past nine. I groan in frustration that once again I haven’t woken up with Kadence naked in my bed; she keeps disappearing on me. Rolling out of bed, I grab my boxers and make my way downstairs. I need to have a word with my woman telling her a few house rules. Number one rule: no leaving the goddamn bed before I wake up.

She’s standing at the stove, my T-shirt hanging low on her thighs, her bare feet looking fucking amazing in my kitchen. What is it about her feet in my house? Walking up behind her, I push the loose strand off her neck and plant a kiss on her soft vanilla skin.

“Mornin’.”

“Good morning.” She turns around to face me. Her smile nearly knocks me on my ass.

“Fuck, you’re beautiful,” I tell her, and I’ve never spoken more truth before. A slight pink blush floats across her cheeks as she shakes her head in disagreement. The woman just doesn’t see what I see. It’s been two months since I walked into her classroom, and she looks more and more beautiful to me every time I see her.

“Gotta tell ya, babe, as much as I like seeing you barefoot in my kitchen, I’d much prefer to have your naked body layin’ next to me when I open my eyes for the day.”

“You’ve got to eat, Nix.”

“I was gonna eat you,” I confess, leaning in and brushing my lips against hers. She rolls her eyes and smacks my chest, a move she seems to have perfected, and it seems I’ve grown to like it, a lot.

“Don’t be vulgar,” she responds, and it’s my turn to roll my eyes.

“How many times do I have to prove to you that you love my dirty mouth?” Leaning down I kiss the softness of her lips, I can’t seem to get enough of her mouth. “And you love my dirty mouth on that pretty pussy of yours,” I tell her and kiss her again, stopping her from arguing with me. “Come back to bed,” I plead. She melts into me, but the smell of burning bacon brings her back.

“Shit,” she shrieks, turning around, trying to save our breakfast. See, eating her would be much easier.

“What’s your plans for today?” I ask, walking over to the coffee pot, frustrated that I’m not getting her back to bed.

“I don’t know. At some stage I’m going to have to go home. I have to work tomorrow.” I’m happy she doesn’t fob me off, wanting to rush home. The last two months have been fucking amazing, but we’ve been going at a slow pace. I want more. I want her in my club, by my side. No more hiding. I understand we need to tread lightly with school, but my patience is wearing thin.

“We’re havin’ a club BBQ this afternoon, a family affair. I want you there,” I tell her, watching her closely for a freak-out. She looks up at me, not showing any tells to what she is thinking, so I continue. “Z’s gonna be there. It's my four days startin’ today. You okay with that?” I push, hoping she doesn't argue and we can just go about our day. We have a date in bed, my mouth buried in her pussy.

“Do you think that’s a good idea?” she challenges, turning away to break an egg into the pan.

“Why not? You know what I want, Kadence. I’m not in the habit of fuckin’ around. If you’re with me, then you’re with me. I’m not sneaking around at night anymore. I want you in my club, around my people. I’m done hidin’ us from Z.” I lay it out it for her. I’m thirty-seven years old. Three years ago, no way would I be saying this, but Kadence is different, and I’m a man who knows what he wants, and by God, I want this woman. This perfectly scarred woman, who pushes my buttons and argues over every damn thing, I wouldn't want her any other way.

“You with me on this? I ask her again, watching her break a second egg.

“Can I bring Holly?” she asks, still avoiding my question.

“Jesus Christ, Kadence,” I growl, walking up to her, and turning her around to face me. “Tell me you’re with me on this.”

“Do you think this is moving too fast, Nix?”

“Fuck no! You know me, Kadence. I don’t mess around. I had you in my bed after one date. I like to move fast,” I claim. She knows this and, besides, two fucking months is not fast. She’s fucking lucky I’ve waited this long.

“And what happens when you’ve had your fill? Don’t you think Z will be confused?” She turns back around to remove the eggs off the heat, saving them from burning like the bacon. What the fuck? Is this what she thinks I’m doing, just getting my fill?

“Jesus, woman, don’t you get it? How can someone so beautiful and smart as you, be so clueless? Every time we’re together, I feel it more. Stop fightin’ it and start embracin’ it. You know this shit deep down and I know I’m never gettin’ my fill of you, ever.” I pull her to me, away from the stove, and then turn her and walk her back to the counter. “If you don’t tell me you’re with me, I'll take you right here and now until you agree.”

“You can’t just fuck me into submission, Nix.” My hands come to her waist turning her around to face the counter. I don’t even respond to her statement. I will fuck her into a yes.

“Keep your hands on the bench and don’t move them,” I demand, my voice taking on the deeper menacing tone she seems to like. Ripping her lace panties down her legs I watch as she nods her head, her legs slightly spreading, letting me know she wants this.

I move my hands under the hem of her shirt, sliding them higher to cup her breasts. Her nipples pebble under my fingers, her arousal my main mission.

“Tell me you like it when I fuck you into submission, Kadence,” I demand, squeezing her pert nipples hard between my thumb and finger. She nods in agreement, but I want words. Dragging my hand down her body, I run it along her raised scar and feel her tense under my touch. I ignore it, not giving her a chance to freak out. She’ll soon realize that when I tell her I find every inch of her beautiful, I mean it. I drag my finger along her wetness between her legs, asking the question again, “Gonna need words. Tell me you love it, Kadence.”

“I love it, Nix.” My name's delivered breathlessly, just how I like it. My dick jumps at the sound.

“Good girl, now you want my cock or my mouth?” My fingers find their way into her, pumping her slowly.

“Cock,” she pants as my fingers work her harder, pumping my frustration at every obstacle she puts up for me.

“You comin’ to the BBQ today, Kadence?” I ask her, using my free hand to pull my boxers down my legs. My erection springs free, throbbing and waiting to slide into her heat. Wrapping my fist around it, I give it a few tugs, relieving the tension building in me. She’s panting, meeting each of my finger thrusts.

“Yes! God, yes, Nix. Just fuck me.”

“Good girl.” I place my lips to her shoulder, trailing kisses along the sensitive skin. “Now you know what I told you about that pretty mouth and what the word fuck coming out of it does to me.” I remove my fingers, trailing them along her smooth skin back up to her nipples while lining up my neglected cock to the heat of her pussy. I’m so glad she agreed to let me take her bare. The feeling of her snugness is like no other.

“You ready?” I ask her, my hands shaking in anticipation. She pushes back, her tightness gripping my hard length.

“Fuckin’ impatient little thing, aren't you?”

“Quit fucking talking and fuck me, Nix,” she grumbles

Jesus, her dirty mouth is the biggest turn on.

“Oh, Kadence,” I grunt out with each hard thrust. “I’m gonna fuck your greedy pussy all right,” I say, bringing my hands to her hips, my fingers digging in, ready to show her just how hard I can fuck her.

***

Pulling up to my old house that Addison and I once shared, I always get a sense of dread that I’m about to walk into one of her setups. Normally, it’s either her forgetting she’s still in her nightgown or asking me to fix something around the house, trying to get me to spend time with her. I have no clue why she pines over me when we haven’t been with each other in years. That ship sailed a long time ago.

Z races out, his backpack slung over his shoulder. Opening the back door, he throws his bag in and then slams it shut.

“Bye, sweetie,” Addison calls out from the front door. He ignores her, climbing up into the front seat.

“Hey, bud, how you doin?” I ask, looking over at him.

“Hey, Dad,” he smiles, looking like he’s excited to be coming with me today.

Pulling out, I notice Addison still standing there in her nightgown at one pm. “Your mom sleep in today?” I ask, pulling out of the driveway without acknowledging her.

“Yeah,” he mumbles, looking down at his iPod. After a few minutes of driving in silence, I decide I’m gonna come right out and tell him about Kadence.

“So, bud, I wanted to talk about something that’s important. You think you’re up for that?” I ask.

“Sure,” he says, looking up from the game he's playing

“Well, I guess there’s no other way to say it other than, I’ve been seein' someone,” I say, waiting for a response. I’m not sure what sort of response, but I’m expecting something.

“So you’re not getting back with Mom?” he asks a little too excitedly. Okay, not what I was expecting.

“No, bud, why would you think that?” I ask, wondering what shit Addison has fed him.

“Mom said you guys were getting back together.” He looks at me confused.

“Shit, Z, I’m sorry, bud, but we’re not,” I tell him truthfully. Fucking Addison is spinning her shit again.

“Good,” he states.

“Good? You okay with that?” It’s now my turn to look confused; the kid is confusing me now.

“Yeah, Dad, I’m okay with it.” A smile breaks out over his face.

“Okay, so if you're cool with that, I hope you’re cool with who it is then,” I say, testing the waters.

“Do I know her?”

“Yeah, bud, you do. Miss Turner and I have been seeing each other for a little while now,” I let him know, watching him closely.

“Cool.” His excited voice bounces off the windshield.

“You okay with that too?”

“Hell yeah, that’s wicked, Dad.” He smiles over at me.

Well shit, there you go.

“She’s coming to the BBQ today. I want you on your best behavior, okay, bud?” I ask, knowing he’ll be good; he always is when he’s at the clubhouse.

“What do I call her?” he asks, already thinking ahead.

“Let's just start off as Miss Turner, and we’ll let her lead us as to how we’re gonna handle it. How’s that sound?”

“Sounds good, Dad,” he beams up at me. “Is she gonna be my new mom?” His enthusiasm is flowing out.

“Jesus, Z, calm down,” I laugh. “You already got a mom to start with, and Kadence and I are a long way off from that. Let's just see how it goes, yeah?”

“Okay, Dad,” he sulks. The fella is getting way ahead of himself. I hope he calms a little and doesn’t scare her off. It was hard enough getting Kadence to the clubhouse today. I’d hate to think what she’d do if she heard Z start talking about that.

“Dad?”

“Yeah, bud?”

“I really like Miss Turner. She's funny and pretty.” I smile over at him, agreeing with him. “And when you are ready, can she be my mom?” The question throws me a little, not the part about me being ready, ‘cause I can see myself getting there. It's the prickly feeling I’m getting that he wants a new mom.

Pulling up to the clubhouse, I file it away for when we have some one-on-one time. Something is not sitting right with me.

“Let’s just get through the BBQ today, and then we’ll talk. Okay, Z?”

“Okay, Dad.” He nods and opens his door excited for our afternoon. I’m prepared for this; ready for Kadence to be more a part of my life, a part of club life. I just hope today doesn’t push us back.