Текст книги "Love Me Back"

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Luckily his parents are out of the house doing errands in town so we sneak up to the bathroom and I pee on the stick.  We sit on the edge of his bed setting the timer on my phone.  I have three minutes to live in ignorance before my life changes.  I give it to Trent, he holds my hand while we wait in silence.  He hasn’t run yet of course we don’t know for sure anyway.

My alarm rings out from my phone and I slowly walk over to the stick on his nightstand.  “No, we aren’t doing it here.”  He grabs my hand pulling the stick off the counter and taking me out of the house.  We walk hand and hand to the old barn.  I hadn’t been here in years.  We climb the ladder up to the second floor.

“Alright, are you comfortable Maddy?”  He asks.

“Yes, are you ready?”  I ask him back.

He pulls the stick out of his hand and I close my eyes for a second before I look down.

“Two lines mean?”  Trent asks.

“I’m pregnant.”  I sigh.

Chapter 20 – Present Day

I have had enough heart to hearts today.  I don’t need a lecture from this woman who went from my mother to my enemy in a matter of months.

“Are you out for a run?”  Her eyes examining me up and down.

“I was but I ran into Jack, we just left Fifties Diner.”  I say trying to pull down my shirt and shorts as she appraises me.

“Walk with me will you?”  She motions the way I just came from.

“Um...”  I stutter trying to think of an excuse.

“Please Madeline.  We need to talk.”  Her voice becomes a little softer towards me.

“Ok.”  I turn around joining her.  She cut off her long blond hair into a shorter cut but it fits her, bringing out the blue eyes she shares with her boys.  Wearing a pair of Capri workout pants and t-shirt I assume she just came from the gym.  She has always been into her health and fitness.

“How is New York?”  She asks.  Seriously, she is going to have a casual conversation with me.

“It’s ok.”  I shrug.

“Have you found a decorating job yet?”  She looks over at me taking a drink of her water bottle.

“Not a permanent one yet, No.”  I confirm keeping my eyes forward.

“That’s a shame.”  She sounds genuine but I have no idea why I am here having this conversation with her.

“Well, it’s a hard business to get into, I knew it when I decided on it as a major.”  I shrug my shoulders.

“You’re talented, you will find something.  Maybe you should consider something outside of New York.”  She compliments me and I can’t help but glance over to her in surprise.  “Don’t look so surprised Maddy, I have always believed in you.”  She smiles a truly authentic grin to me.

“I guess we will see what the future holds.”

“Speaking of the future.  What exactly are your plans?” her voice is back to the cold indifferent one.

“Not sure what you mean?”  I say even though I know exactly what she is asking but I want to hear her ask it.

“Regarding my two sons, I want to know how you think you will rectify this situation.”  There is that cold as ice voice she has used in regards to me lately.

“I don’t really know.”  I softly say.

“Which one do you love?”  She asks as though it is as simple as that.

“I love them both.”  I admit.

“No you don’t.  I actually am starting to believe you don’t love either one since you are stringing them along like this.”  She stops at a park bench in the middle of our town square patting the seat next to her to join her.

“No, it’s not that.  It’s because I love them both that I don’t want to hurt either of them.”

“Huh.”  She looks over the grass in front of us.  There is a family with a young little girl.  The mom is relaxed on the park bench while the dad is following the little girl with brown curls walking a couple steps and then falling down.  They both laugh each time she falls.  “I thought that would be you and Trent.”  She motions her head.  All I can think is I can’t have this conversation.

“Sorry.”  I bite my lip in nervousness.  I am sorry I took that away from her but she will have other chances.

“You think I blame you.”  It is a statement not a question but I answer anyway.

“Don’t you?”

“God no Maddy.  I don’t blame you, it just makes me sad.”  Her eyes still focus on the young family in front of us.  “Do you think Trent is capable of that?”  Pointing to the family again.

“I thought at one time he was, not sure now.”  I honestly state.

“He has always been about himself.  On one hand I am so proud of his drive and success but the way he got there I’m not so sure of.  I’m not blind to my son’s faults Maddy.”  Her eyes finally drift from the family back to me.

“He’s a good man Mrs. Basso.”  I assure her.

“Yes he is.  They are so different, him and Gabe.”

I shake my head in agreement.

“Don’t get me wrong, I see why you have fallen for both, I am biased to them.”  A low laugh comes out, more nervous than happy.

“They are both good men.”  I confirm again about Trent adding Gabe to the list.

“Listen Maddy, I am going to cut to the chase, ok?”  She turns her body directly towards me crossing her legs.

“Ok.”  I gulp hard turning towards her.  This is where she tells me to leave her family alone.

“I love you Maddy.  You are the daughter I never had.  Ben and I would be happy to have you join our family but this has gone on too long.  Seeing my boys fighting and destroying their relationship is tearing me apart.  Do you know Trent is driving back and forth from Chicago because Gabe is at the house?  They haven’t talked to each other for over two years.  If one comes home for a holiday the other doesn’t.  I know I have been cold to you but I see you as the reason my family is in distress.”  Slow tears start to flow down her cheeks but she catches them automatically.

“I’m sorry, I know it has caused strife with them over the years.  I assumed after I left Trent they would rekindle their relationship.”  My stomach hurts after realizing how much I have torn the Basso family apart.

“Are you kidding?  It’s made it worse.”  She smirks like she knows something I don’t.

“I am not surprised you hate me after hearing what you just said I ripped your family apart.”

“I never hated you.  I was mad at you but someone recently told me to talk to you and help you understand where I am coming from.”

“Really?  Do you mind me asking who?”  I know this isn’t the time to talk about who is trying to get Mrs. Basso to become my ally again but I am eager to find out.

“Your mother.”  She smiles up at me.  “She has really turned over a new leaf Maddy, you should be proud of her.”

“She’s like a new woman.”  I roll my eyes.

“Give her a chance.  I know it’s hard.  I was there to witness how bad she hurt you first hand but she loves you.   Forgiveness might take time but don’t shut her out.”  She pats me on my knee.

“We’ll see.”  I exhale.  I have to remember this town loves to delve into peoples business, isn’t this the reason I left.

“In regards to my sons.  Do me a favor and choose?  I thought you had walked away from both of them but after this week I see my boys fighting over your attention more than ever before.  I honestly can’t take it any longer.  I want my family back.  I know it’s a hard decision, I raised good boys.”  She laughs.  “But if I ever want them back they need to know whatever you decide is final.  Once you ultimately choose the other will have no decision but to accept it.  I pray that over time whichever one gets hurt will heal and come back to their brother.”

“I understand Mrs. Basso.”  I shake my head up and down.

“Soon Maddy, please do it soon.  My family is on a tightrope and I am afraid it is going to snap soon and never be able to be repaired.”  Her blue eyes are dull with pain as she divulges her worst fears.

“I know, I promise.” I nod again slightly.

“Thank you.  See you tonight.”  She pats my knee leaving me on the bench.

I sit on that park bench for another fifteen minutes after Mrs. Basso walks away.  I now had two people in less than an hour tell me to make a decision already.   I stare at the family across the way.  The man bends over handing their little girl over to the mom kissing her on the lips before sliding next to her letting his arm fall behind her.  I am amazed at how at ease they are with each other.  Their love for each other is imminent.  I can’t help but smile at them appreciating their love for their family.

Would that have been Trent and I if things were different?  If I am honest with myself the answer is no.  After the taste of celebrity Trent has received the past couple years, I don’t think he is able to appreciate a simple life, where your success is your wife and family, where you want to come home at night.  Trent loves the spotlight, loves the clubs, the fancy restaurants and the nightlife of being a soccer celebrity.

Getting up letting the family finish enjoying their afternoon without prying eyes, I venture back to my house.  Relaying the conversations with Jack and Mrs. Basso, they are right I have to break one heart in order to let another come alive with mine.  I am not being fair leaving them both in the lurch.

Jack’s car is in the driveway of my mom’s house when I get there.  When I open the door I notice all the pictures are gone from the floor and I hear laughing in the kitchen.

Walking into the kitchen I find Ian unhappily chopping onions, my mom mixing some sort of salad, Mitch soaking the brats and Jack stocking the fridge with beverages.

“Hey Maddy, didn’t I leave you like an hour ago?”  Jack says shutting the fridge door handing me a water.

“Yeah, I ran into someone.”  My mom turns around giving me a knowing small smile then turning back around to her salad.

“Who may I ask?  One of the two suitors?”  Ian laughs.

“No, their mother.”  I respond opening my water bottle taking a sip.

“What did the ice queen want with the girl caught in the middle of her two precious boys?”  Ian wipes his eyes from cutting the onions.

“She just wanted to talk to me.”  I shrug my shoulders insinuating it was nothing more.   “Is the Bar-B-Que here tonight?”  Changing the subject.

“Yeah, our house is full of wedding stuff so I asked mom if we could have it here.”  Jack exclaims.  Another new trend, mom never entertained well at least not more than men she brought home from the bar.

“Well, I am going up to shower.”  I turn on my heels.

“Hey Maddy” Jack catches up to me in the hallway.

“What’s up?’  I ask.

“Tonight, Trent and Gabe will both be here.  I don’t want any trouble, Lindsey is so stressed out with the wedding and the next two days are only going to be worse.  Do you think you could stay away from both of them?  Just while all the guests are here.”  Jack looks so worried I can’t say no.

“Of course Jack.  I will make sure nothing happens.”

“Thanks.”  He squeezes my arm and goes back into the kitchen.

The party is in full swing by the time I make it downstairs.  All the bridesmaids are fawning over Lindsey in the living room drinking their fruity margaritas.  I smile as I walk by them, that’s the way it should be.  Lindsey should be the center of attention for the next three days.

The kitchen holds mine and the other moms making all the side dishes gossiping about people around town.   My mom gives me a smile while Mrs. Basso gives me a little squeeze on my hand as I make my way through to the back porch.

Guys are spread across the backyard playing corn hole, drinking while Mitch and Mr. Basso man the grill.  Trent is over by Bryan and Ian taping the keg.  Mackenna is at a table talking with some other girlfriends rubbing her belly.  I don’t see Gabe anywhere.  I should have called him or text him at some point today but I don’t have the nerve after he walked away from this morning.  I am trying to give him a chance to cool down.

I turn around to go back into the house, hoping I missed him somewhere when he walks out to the porch.  I am surprised to find he isn’t alone.  Caroline’s arm is enlaced in his arm and they are laughing about something.  When he finally notices I am standing there he looks me up and down.  “Oh, hey Madgirl.” Continuing to walk by me listening to something Caroline is saying.  My eyes automatically follow them as I am frozen in place.  He sits down at a table and she takes the seat next to him scooting her chair as close as it can get.  He looks back up to me in the same spot he left me making sure I noticed and then turns towards Caroline again putting his arm around her chair.

That ass is trying to make me jealous and damn it, it’s working.  I want to walk over there and tear Caroline from that chair.  She is in my spot that is my man’s arm draped across her chair.  Those are my smiles and laughs coming from him.  Oh shit, I am in so much trouble.

Caroline’s cackle could be heard across the yard so I quickly went inside to the kitchen.  I can’t take it anymore.  Seeing Gabe with someone else is tearing me apart.

The older women are mingled around the table laughing and smiling at each other.  It is nice to see my mom has friends and enjoying her time.   Mrs. Basso was right, she has changed and it is time I gave her a chance.

“How are you sweetheart?”  My mom comes up to me putting her arm around my waist.

“Ok mom” I lean into her letting her comfort me.

“You sure?  You don’t look ok.”  She remarks.  There are those motherly instincts she denied for all those years.  She’s good at it.

“Really I’m fine.  Go enjoy yourself.”  I nudge her towards her friends again.

She follows my instructions and I hope all this alcohol around the house isn’t tempting her but as I look at the table the women are surrounding it filled with ice teas and lemonades.  No alcohol.  My heart swells a little thinking how great friends can be.

After that I realize I need Mackenna.  So, I brave the outside again trying not to look at Gabe and Caroline but when I open the door my eyes deceive me veering there first.  Gabe is already staring at me so I roll my eyes showing my annoyance.  I feel his eyes on me while I walk to Mackenna.

“Hey girl.  Take a load off.”  Kenna scoots a chair out for me.

“Thanks, how are you feeling?”  Trying to talk about anything but my problems.

“Oh we are not wasting time talking about how big my stomach is or how Bryan is about to throw me off a ledge from my hormone induced meltdowns.  You tell me what that is all about?”  She looks over at Gabe and Caroline.

At this point she might as well be sitting in his lap.  “I guess he decided he liked her” I say trying like hell to sound indifferent.

“Maddy, you know what I mean.”  She leans forward so the other girls don’t hear her. “Why are you letting that happen?”

“He’s not mine Kenna.  He can do what he wants.”

“Obviously he isn’t doing what he wants.”  She nods her head to him again.

“Did that baby suck your vision out of you?  He is clearly enjoying Caroline’s company.”  I wave my hand in front of her face.

“Are you sure there isn’t something wrong with your vision.  He hasn’t stopped staring at you since you walked out here.”  She leans back drinking her lemonade shaking her head at me.

“Hey gorgeous.”  Bryan comes up kissing Kenna on the neck.  “Hey Maddy.”  He winks at me.

“Hey Bryan.”  I say.

Before I notice what is happening Trent takes the seat next to me while Ian, Bryan and Mackenna go off to play corn hole.  The table slowly fills with the boyfriends of the girlfriends already sitting there.

My body goes rigid, this is what Jack doesn’t want.  I need to get myself out of this situation.  I see Trent starting to grab my hand so I shoot up from my seat surprising him.  “I told Lindsey I would help her with something.”  I dash towards the door.  Trent looks confused while Gabe is laughing to himself.  Running into my house I sit in the living room by myself away from everyone else.  I need to hide out for the rest of the evening and I finally find my escape in the family room.

All the older men and Jack’s generation started a euchre tournament.  If I join, it will keep me away from the drama for the night making Jack happy.  The boys don’t seem to mind me joining in but I am partnered with Mitch which doesn’t make me happy.  I don’t know him very well and since euchre is about reading your partner I am afraid we are in trouble before we start.  Jack smiles at me knowing exactly why I wanted to play and I see the thankfulness in his eyes knowing there wouldn’t be any drama tonight.

Three hours later it is down to me and Mitch versus Doug and Mr. Basso.  Surprisingly Mitch and I make a good pair and from the way he plays euchre I trust him with my mother.  My dad always said you could tell a lot about someone’s character from the way they play cards.   Mitch is honest and considerate with a little trash talking, telling me he is a good guy with a great sense of humor.

The last two rounds, the older women come down watching their loved ones play cards.  My mom’s eyes light up when she sees Mitch was partnered with me.  For the first time in a long time her happiness makes me happy.  Trent, Bryan and Kenna come in too.  Kenna is complaining about the mosquitos.  I never see Gabe and my mind keeps wondering what part of Gabe’s body Caroline’s hands are on.

It ends up Mr. Basso and Doug win the tournament but Mitch gives me a huge hug complimenting my playing after the game is over.   He doesn’t seem upset we didn’t win, even laughing when Doug puts up an L on his forehead with his finger at him calling him a loser.  A man that can handle defeat with grace is another good sign.

The party is dwindling down after the tournament and Ian is anxious to get going.  I go up to my room to change into dance club appropriate clothes when Ian follows me up.

“Please don’t kill me.”  He puts is hands together like he is praying.

“What did you do Ian?”  I ask already annoyed.

“I was talking about how you and I were going and some people have decided to join us.”   He winces biting his lip acting innocent.

“What people Ian?” I grab my short pink skirt.

“Just a couple people outside,” he tries to wave it off.

“Ian, more specific?”  Grabbing my white sheer shirt and camisole for underneath.

“A couple of Jack’s friends, a couple of bridesmaids and maybe Trent.”

“In other words Gabe, Caroline and Trent?”  I clarify his vague response.

“Maybe.” His high-pitched voice confirms I am right.

“Ian…I have diverted from them all night.  I can’t see Gabe and Caroline dancing with her hands all over him and Trent…I’m not ready to deal with that.   Well, at least Kenna can help me with interference.”

“Um…Bryan and Mackenna left.  She wasn’t feeling good.”  Ian scrunches his shoulders up to his face indicating he is sorry for having to relay the news.

“You owe me so big.  You better find some gay guy to take Trent off my hands.”  I joke.

“I would be happy to oblige.”  He laughs.

On top of everything Gabe is going to drive us since he has the most room.  I am surprised Trent seems ok with this since Mrs. Basso said they weren’t on talking terms.  He must be assuming this is his time since Caroline is happy to take my spot.  The uncomfortableness continues when Gabe opens up Caroline’s door and Trent opens up the back one for me.  I have to sit bitch between Trent and Ian making my line of vision into Gabe’s rearview mirror which is terrifying and comforting all at the same time.

The club is packed with a line out the door.  For once in all the times going out with Trent it isn’t him that gets us in but Gabe.  Gabe knows the doorman, I guess a college acquaintance that recognized him when we were walking back to the line.  He even scores us VIP passes to the upstairs bar and lounge.  Of course Ian isn’t having any of that.  He is here to meet some guys and dance so he deserts us five minutes after we enter.

The four of us go upstairs sitting in a round booth holding two different conversations.  Caroline seems to want Gabe all to herself placing her back to Trent and I.  Trent is trying to hold a conversation with me but I just stare at the dance floor occasionally glancing at Gabe from the corner of my eye.  The waitress comes over and I immediately order tequila shots.  Gabe declines but Trent and Caroline join in.

Two rounds later and I am ready to dance.  Since Caroline is begging Gabe I grab Trent leading him to the dance floor.  We snake our way through the crowd of men dancing with men and some women dancing with women but we are the only man and woman except for Gabe and Caroline who I notice are right behind us.

Trent wraps his arms around me tight placing his hands on my hips guiding them to the rhythm.  I place my hands on his shoulders exaggeratingly shaking my body with his.  Looking over Trent’s shoulder Caroline has her ass in Gabe’s crotch circling it while bending down touching the ground.  Gabe is holding her hips firm to his body.  The image actually makes vomit rise in my throat.  Gabe’s eyes are holding mine watching me as I lean closer to Trent resting my head on his shoulder allowing Trent to move us to the beat of the music.  I see Gabe’s clear blue eyes go cold and his body tenses for a second before he brings Caroline up wrapping his arms around her waist resting his hands just under her shirt at her waist line.

Not being able to watch anymore, I pull Trent over to the bar for another round of shots.  I grab two to his one.  The alcohol starts running through my body.  I feel loose and carefree.  It seems so long since I had this feeling of no worries.  We hit the dance floor again and surprise Caroline is still grinding on Gabe’s crotch.  Does she not have any other moves?  The dancing competition that Caroline and Trent are not privy too continues.  Gabe and I are trying to make the other jealous by who can hold their dance partners closer.

The final straw is when Caroline moves her body up Gabe’s kissing his neck finding her way to his earlobe and sucking it.  He leans into her and I think he is going to kiss her.  I can’t handle it any longer.

“I have to go to the bathroom.”  I whisper in Trent’s ear.

“I will go with you.”  He whispers back but I shake my head telling him I will be right back.

I know Trent will follow me anyway so I walk through the crowd until he can’t see me and I sneak through the front door.  I need some fresh air and I don’t want to deal with him right now.

I am leaning against the side of the building tears streaming down my cheeks.  I can’t tell you if it is the alcohol or just the long day but I am mentally drained.  I can’t stand to see Caroline all over Gabe.  It is driving me insane.  I need to go home, I can’t stay here anymore.  Gabe doesn’t want me, he is moving on to her and can’t really blame him for it.  I have strung him along for six years consistently picking his brother over him.  I have to let him go, maybe even both of them.

“What the hell are you doing out here Maddy?”  Trent walks out of the club finding me.

“I just needed some air, sorry.”  I quickly wipe the tears from my face hoping my mascara hasn’t run.

“Do you want to talk about that?”  He points to inside of the club.

“No” I say sitting down on the cement sidewalk.

“Do it anyway.”  He demands.

“What do you want me to say?”  I ask.

“Oh good you found her.”  Gabe is standing a couple feet away. “I’ll see you inside.”

“Gabe.”  I plea and he stops and I see his back rise and fall from his breath.

“What Maddy?”  He responds with his back turned still.

“I need to talk to you.”  I say and Trent gives me a sideway glance.  “I’m sorry Trent, I need a minute with Gabe.”  I put my hand on his knee begging him to give us some time alone.

“No.”  Trent says staying firm in his spot.

“What?”  I ask astonished.

“I said no.” he deadpans

“Trent, don’t be an asshole just give us a minute.”  Gabe turns around walking towards me.

“No, Maddy I can’t wait any longer.  I want your answer now.”  Trent crosses his arms over his chest widening his stance waiting for my answer.

I close my eyes biting my lower lip while I throw my head to the brick wall in exhaustion.  I can’t make this decision with five shots of tequila in my system.   “Please Trent, just give me a day.”  I beg.

“I can’t Maddy. You need to choose right now.  I’m not waiting any longer.”  He looks over at Gabe and then back to me.  “Gabe or me?”

Gabe doesn’t stop him and he seems to be just as anxious as Trent waiting for my answer.

“Well Maddy, who is it?”  Trent repeats himself.