Текст книги "Love Me Back"

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Chapter 19 – Spring Break Senior Year

Once I started back at school, time went by slow.  Mackenna, Bryan and Colt always made sure I wasn’t alone.  If Gabe wasn’t calling he was emailing me even Skyped me a couple times to make sure I was holding up.  It took me about a month after my dad died to start going out and enjoying myself a little more.  My life to that point had consisted of work and school.  As much as I loved my friends concern I desperately wanted to be alone.

When spring break came around they were planning this big trip up north for stating it is our last time.  I reluctantly agreed thinking I could go on long walks or read a book relaxing.  I love my friends but I am still confused and it still bothers me that Trent never came to my dad’s funeral.  Gabe is in constant contact with me, still begging me to come down to Florida after graduation.  I need to make decisions and I desperately miss my dad.  He would be the person I could talk to about this.  Kenna wants to be there for me but she is biased towards Gabe.  She hates Trent but that doesn’t change my feelings for him.

I came home from class early to hear Mackenna and Bryan yelling at each other.  This is unusual for them.  They only argue about one thing or should I say one person.  My heart sinks into my stomach, what is he going to do to my life now.

“He is not going with us.”  Kenna spats at Bryan.

“What was I supposed to say?  He is one of my best friends.”  Bryan comes back sitting at the table with his head in his hands.

“Was Bryan.  He WAS one of your best friends.  He WAS one of mine too but what he did to her was unforgivable.  How could you forgive him after that?  You saw how much it killed her when he didn’t come.”  Mackenna is talking about me but where is Trent going with us.  Wait…Oh Shit!

“She didn’t seem so upset in Gabe’s lap.”  Bryan says.

“Bryan Jacob Edwards.  She had to find comfort and he was the one there not your jackass friend.”  She shouts back at him.

“Come on Kenna.  You know she has feelings for Gabe.”

“Maybe…but that doesn’t excuse Trent’s actions.”  She sits next to him putting her hand on her forehead in exhaustion.

“I know that but it’s hard for him too.  You have to see his side of all this.”

“NO.  He has no side.  He made his choices.  I don’t give a shit if he is trying to backtrack now.  He cannot come with us.”

“Kenna, we need another person to share the cost.  The cabin is costing a fortune, we need as many people as it can sleep.”  Bryan has a point.  I am fortunate to have my dad’s life insurance money and Kenna never has to worry but Colt, Bryan and the others are using money they should be saving.  It is cost effective to have as many people as possible.

“Why does he want to come?  All of a sudden, he wants to hang out with us.  Why Bryan?”  Kenna is still fuming.

“I don’t know.  He called, asked if we had plans.  I told him and he asked if he could tag along with us.”

“You’re telling her.”  Kenna points at Bryan.

“No point, I heard it all.”  I finally open the screen door revealing myself.

“Maddy.”  Kenna sighs.

“It’s ok Kenna, Bryan is right we need as many people as possible.  It’s a big enough group, I will just keep my distance.”  I say walking to the stairwell.

“Are you sure Maddy?”  Bryan asks.  His eyes are warm with concern for me.

“Yeah, it’s fine.”  I reply walking upstairs to the comfort of my bedroom.  I am willing to deal with this but I have to tell Gabe and I am not so sure he will be.

Gabe and I aren’t dating but I wasn’t going to leave out the fact that Trent is coming and have him find out later.  When I went home for Christmas, I stayed at Jack’s never seeing Trent.  Gabe came over a couple nights but I never asked if Trent was home and he never divulged the information.  Since I didn’t know how fast word would travel I decided to call Gabe right away.

“Hey, it’s me.”  I say.

“Hey you.  How are you doing?  Getting excited about your trip?”  He asks.  I hear him shuffling papers behind him.

“I guess, are you busy?”

“Never for you Madgirl.  You sound…not like yourself.  Something wrong?”  His voice etches with concern.

“Um… I don’t know how you are going to take this?”  I hesitate knowing he can hear it reflecting in my voice.

“Let’s see.  Hit me with it.”  Gabe’s voice relaxes.

“Ok, I’m just going to spit it out.”  I admit.

“Maddy…” Gabe’s stern voice trying to reassure me it will be ok but I know it won’t.

“Trent is coming with us to the cabin.”  I say it so fast I don’t think he will hear it but the silence on the other end indicates he did.  “He called Bryan and asked.  The other guys need all the people they can get to keep the cost down.  I didn’t want them to say no just because of me.”  I start rambling.

“Maddy, stop talking.”  Gabe’s voice now gravely.  “So this is Edwards doing?”  Anger is coming now.

“He is the one who agreed but it’s fine.  There is a big group, I can keep my distance from him.”  I am begging with him to be ok with this.

“You might be able to but Trent can’t believe me.  Maddy, I think this is a very bad idea.  I am half tempted to call Edwards myself to talk about this.”  Gabe is turning into some kind of fatherly voice now and I don’t like it.

“Listen Gabe, I know the situation isn’t ideal but its fine.  I will be fine.”

“I’m sure you will be.”  He sneers.

“What does that mean?”  I bite back at him.

“When it comes to Trent you are always ok with him being there.  It just sucks he doesn’t feel the same.”

“Gabe…why are you saying this?”  I say.

“God Maddy, seriously?  You honestly don’t see this as a bad idea?”

“No.”  I shake my head but he can’t see that through the phone.

“You know what, whatever.  Go ahead and go.  Have a great time.”

“Gabe, don’t be like this.”  I beg.

“Maddy, we aren’t a couple.  I have no say whether you go or not.”  He is back to being angry.

“I want you to be ok with this.”

“Sorry Maddy, I’m not.”  He is curt and short.

“Please Gabe.”  I plead one last time.

“Listen, I have to go see a house, I am going to be late.  Have fun at the cabin.  Give my brother my best.”  The phone goes dead. He hangs up on me without saying good-bye.  That isn’t like Gabe.

I wait for him to text me he is sorry but a week later I am still waiting for it.  He hasn’t called me, emailed me or Skype me.  I don’t know what to do, I miss him but think I should let him cool off a bit so I let him have his space.

A week later we are all in my Jeep on the way to the cabin.  There is a caravan of five cars including Trent/Gabe’s truck.  He has brought a few friends which helps tremendously with the cost.

“So Maddy funny thing happened the other day.”  Bryan says putting his head between me and Kenna in the front.

“Yeah?”  I turn down the music a little.

“Gabe called me.”  He smiles.

“Really?”  I act like I wouldn’t know why.

“He chewed me out for letting Trent come to the cabin.  He must have screamed at me for ten minutes.”  He says.  “Do you have any idea why he would call me?

“I told him it was you that said he could come.”  I admit smiling at Kenna.

“That’s what I thought.  I wish you three could get your shit together.”  He says leaning back down in his seat next to Colt.  I turn the radio knob up again.

I keep my distance the first night even though Trent is following me around asking to talk.  I have refused him enough times my hand starts automatically going up when he comes around.  Colt tries to run interference but he is trying to get with this girl named Kristi and he seems torn so I tell him I can handle Trent Basso.

“I know you can Maddy but I hate what that asshole did to you.  If I had my way he wouldn’t be up here with us.”  Colt puts his arm around me.

“You will be happy when you have money left for the semester.”  I say.  I have to keep justifying why he is here.  It is for the others not for me, right?

He shrugs going over to sit next to Kristi.  Of course he is replaced with Trent by my side again.

“Do you need any help?”  He asks.

“No, I don’t.  Just go and have fun.”  I shoo him with my hand.

“I want to talk to you.”  He begs.

“I don’t.”

“Come on Maddy” he puts his hand on my arm.

“Listen Trent, I didn’t want you here.  You are here to keep the cost down.  If your plan is to keep hounding me all week, I will leave.”  I tear my arm away from him.

“You keep telling yourself that but I am pretty sure things will change by week end.”  He whispers in my ear making goose bumps travel my body.

No, No, No.  Don’t fall for his tricks Maddy.

By day three I can’t take it anymore.  Every time I walk out of the room, he follows to get me alone.  I am trying so hard but I feel myself losing my willpower.  Gabe was right, he won’t keep his distance.  I should have listened to him.  Maybe I should leave.  Everyone has been drinking but I have refrained not wanting to lose my control.  Then Kenna decides it is a girl’s night and the boys go into town to some bar for the night and the girls stay in playing drinking games.  I forgot how much fun this trip was supposed to be.

When the boys get home it is late and I am plastered along with the rest of the girls.  So, when Trent comes sitting next to me putting his arm around my shoulders I don’t protest.  Kenna is staring holes through me and Colt looks sympathetic to what is happening.  He probably sees it before I do.  I relax into his body snuggling next to him.   It feels natural, I can’t stop myself from resting my hand on his leg.

“How much did it take for you to stop fighting this?”  He whispers in my ear.

“What the hell?”  I stand up fast yelling at him and the room gets quiet.

“Let’s go somewhere Maddy.”  He tries to grab my hand but I pull it back.

“If you want to talk, let’s talk right here.”  I am furious.  I don’t know if I am mad at what he said or if it is because he is right.  I can’t fight this between us.

“No, let’s go somewhere more private.”  He rubs his thumb up my arm insinuating we wouldn’t be talking.

“Jesus Trent, you are such an asshole.  How can you come up here?  Act like nothing happened; act like you didn’t screw me every which way.  You should have been there.  My fucking father died Trent.  If anyone knows about my family, it’s you.  How much my dad meant to me.”  I am screaming at him but it doesn’t seem to faze him.

“You go girl.”  Kenna says behind me.

“KENNA.”  Bryan yells back telling her to stay out of it.

“From what I hear you were well taken care of.  By no one else but MY BROTHER.”  Trent stands up looking down at me.

“He was there, you weren’t.  Surprise Surprise Trent not there when I need him but who is always there for you, Me Trent.”  I point a finger at myself.

“You keep playing fucking games Maddy.  Who is it this week Gabe or me?”

“Give me a break, you broke up with me Trent.  Leave Gabe out of this.”

“Why should I leave Gabe out?  You have probably fucked us both.  So, Maddy which brother fucks better?”  I hear the room gasp before me.  I smack him across the face and run out of the room.

“Maddy.”  Mackenna screams.

“I got this Kenna.”  Trent says.

“You better make this right before I kick your ass Basso.”  Mackenna screams back.

I run out by the lake sitting next to the water.  I contemplate drowning myself, which would be a cure for this heartache.

“I’m sorry Maddy, I shouldn’t have said that.”  Trent comes up behind me.  “You just get me so angry.”

“Why do I make you angry Trent?”  I don’t look back.

“The whole thing with Gabe, it pissed me off.  It still does.”

“I never slept with Gabe.”  I say, hearing him come a little closer.

“I know but…you‘re mine Maddy.  I figured we will always be together.”

“You seem to only want me when it’s convenient for you.”  I still can’t look at him so I focus on the moon lighting the lake.

“I am a shit.  I should have come home for you when your dad died but it pissed me off that Gabe is the one that called me to tell me.  You didn’t call me and he was there so I figured you made your choice.”

“I didn’t call anyone.  It was a coincidence he was there.  Yes he comforted me.  He got me back up on my feet.”

“Yeah, I heard.”  He is throwing rocks into the water.

“From who?”  I ask.

“My mom, she told me you stayed the week and Gabe stayed with you.  She chewed me out for not coming home too.”  He makes a rock skip three times.

“Good, because it was shitty Trent.”   My eyes finally meet his and the moon is making his blue eyes sparkle more than normal.  “You have to let me go.”

“I can’t Maddy.”  He says placing his hand on my face wiping a tear from my eyes.

He is inching closer to me and I’m not stopping him.  I see it in his eyes he wants to kiss me but it can’t happen.  “You have to Trent.  I can’t live like this anymore.”

“You are mine…always.”  His lips crush into mine and the warmth spreads through my body.  His hand moves from my cheek to my neck pulling me closer keeping me firmly against his lips.  He licks my bottom lip asking me for permission to open and I happily oblige.  His tongue meets mine and they dance together like old times.  Trent has become a better kisser in the years but I don’t want to think how, not now.

He pushes me to the ground resting on top of me, resembling our first kiss.  His hands roam my body finding my breasts, he squeezes them and I moan in pleasure.

“God, I’ve missed you.”  He whispers, his mouth moving from my lips to my neck to my ear.  “Please Maddy, I need you.”

“Yes” comes out of my mouth before I realize.  I need to feel him too.  I want him inside of me.

“Let’s go” he gets up grabbing my hand pulling me towards the boat house.

We get in, walking upstairs there isn’t a bed but Trent finds a blanket sprawling it on the floor leading me down following me.  His mouth covers mine again but more urgent and demanding this time.  I feel his hands go up my shirt pulling down my bra to release my breast making my eyes close in pleasure.

“Please Trent, I need you inside of me.”  I plead with him.

“You will have me soon but I need to explore your body more.  I’ve missed it.”  He pushes up my shirt lifting it over my head and then releases my bra with one hand pulling the straps down my arms freeing my breasts for his viewing.  “So fucking perfect Maddy.”  He bends down taking my breast in his mouth licking my nipple making it peak while massaging the other one with his thumb over my nipple.

“God Trent.”  I moan arching my back to give him better access.

His hand runs down my side placing his finger along the waistline of my jeans.   “You make it hard to go slow.”  His mouth makes his way back to my neck, jaw and finally my lips.  He undoes my pants pulling my zipper down and I gasp from the pleasure that is building.  I need a release and he is making me beg for it.

“Trent” I groan.

“I know baby.  Soon.”  He puts his finger on the outside of my underwear.  “So wet.”  Pushing my silk panties to the side he rubs his finger up and down getting me wetter.

I can’t take it anymore.  I roll him over on his back pulling off his shirt, unbuttoning his pants, pulling them down along with his boxer briefs.  Trent grabs my breasts kneading them together with both his hands as I shed my jeans and panties straddling him.  I slowly let him go inside of me trying to control myself not to go too fast.  His hands come down to my hips motioning me and pulling me closer to him and pushing me back on him.  It feels so good and then he puts his thumb on my clit rubbing it gently in a circular motion and it undoes me.

“Trent, harder.  I need you harder.”  I say.  He suddenly turns me over getting between my legs spreading them wide and he slams into me over and over again.  I hear the wetness and I can’t stand it anymore, I can’t hold back.  “OHHHHHHH  TRENT.”  I cum feeling him pulsate into me two times before he releases my legs and falls on top of me.

I hug his naked body to me and he props up on his elbows.  “You’re so beautiful.”  He kisses me again this time slow and easy.  Eventually our bodies succumb to sleep.

“Oh shit.”  I whisper to myself when I wake up the next morning.  I know I am naked before I even get up.  “Shit, shit, shit” I look over at Trent lying naked under the blanket I just escaped from.   Kneeling around for my clothes I scramble to get them on to get out of this boathouse.  When I stand up I have to sit back down.  The room is spinning and I think I am going to be sick.

“Ahh...come on, I’m not that bad.”  Trent’s voice startles and I jump.

“Trent, we shouldn’t…” he puts his finger to my lips.

“Don’t even say it Maddy.  What happened last night was a long time coming.”  He moves his finger kissing me and I thought I might actually throw up in his throat.

“I don’t think so, it was a mistake Trent.”  I push him back onto the blanket.

“You can’t deny this Maddy.  We have been meant to be together since we were little.  You are my soul mate.”  Trent says moving closer again.

“Oh Trent, I think I am just an easy lay for you.”  I get up walking down the steps.

Making my way back to the cabin I pray like hell Mackenna isn’t up yet.  When I sneak back into my room I am happy to see the other girls are still sleeping.  I grab my pajamas going into the bathroom.  When I open the door she is standing there waiting for me.

“What the hell did you do last night?”  Mackenna narrows her eyes to me.

“Nothing.”  I go to walk past her but she puts her hand on my chest.

“Maddy, you never slept in your bed and I know Trent didn’t sleep in his, I already checked so no lying.”

“Let it go Kenna.”  Bryan comes out of their room.

“Stay out of this Bryan.”  She spats her eyes never leaving mine.

“It doesn’t pertain to you” Trent comes up behind me.

“It doesn’t pertain to me?”  Mackenna repeats Trent’s comment in a question and

Trent shakes his head in agreement.

“And who Trent Basso has to pick up the pieces when you find something or someone else you prefer.”  She passes me going directly to Trent.

“Kenna.”  Bryan warns but she ignores him putting her hand up to silence him.

“And who do you think she cries too late in the night after you don’t call or show up.”  Her finger is pointing into his chest.  “And who do you think reassures her she is a beautiful girl who deserves better than the scum of you.”  She pushes him with her finger and he stumbles back a little.

“I’ve changed.  I love her Kenna.  I promise I will never leave her again. You will never have to pick up the pieces to put her back together.”  He looks over at me sympathetically.

“Trent, you’re an asshole and you will always be an asshole.  If you didn’t screw with my friends feelings I would still love you like a brother but a guy can only have so many chances.  You have run out of them in my book but I can’t speak for her.”  She turns to me.  “Maddy, if you take him back and he breaks your heart again, I will of course be here for you.  I am your best friend and I would never leave you especially in a time of need but please think hard about getting back together with him.”  She is asking me to not get back with him.  She turns around storming back to her room.

“This is all your fault Bryan Edwards.”  She pushes past him.

“Thanks guys, what a great vacation so far.  My girl is up half the night too worried about what you are doing stopping me from getting laid.  I hope you enjoyed yourselves last night because I sure as hell didn’t.”  He spins around following Mackenna.

“Now, can I have a good morning kiss?”  Trent comes up pinning up against the wall with his hands on either side of my head.

“No.”  I duck under him arm walking to my room.

I go to my suitcase grabbing my running gear.  I try not to disturb the other girls coming in and out of the room so I sneak out to change in the bathroom again.  Running has been my release since my dad died.  At first I had to start small only doing one mile but over time I have gotten to five miles a day.  The more on my mind the longer I run.  I might hit my record today.

The cabin is so quiet I tiptoe through the living room where two guys are sprawled out on the couches.  Once I hit the porch the cool Wisconsin morning breeze hits my face.  I look out noticing the sun is coming up starting to burn the dew off the grass.  I start to make my way to the park building where I remember seeing a map of trails I could follow.

I decide on the Whitetail Trail, which means I have to follow the blue triangle signs.  The clear air up here feels good coming in and out of my lungs.  It makes the running that much more enjoyable.  Everything goes through my mind.  How can Trent think he could just come up assuming we would get back together?  Because I always gave in to him, look what I did last night.  I can never face Gabe again.  God, he was right to tell me he didn’t think it was a good idea.  I doubt he will want me to move to Florida once he finds out.  Whatever has been going on between us will be over now.

Trent is another story.  He seems genuine but doesn’t he always until he breaks me in two again.  How do I give him another chance, another time to crack my heart a little more than the last time, another time to have him use me? No, I will not do it to myself again.  Whatever happened last night was it, over, finished.  Trent Basso has to get out of my life if I am ever going to survive.

My mind keeps floating to Gabe and how upset he is with me about letting Trent come up here.  I can’t move to Florida even if he wants me to.  It wouldn’t be fair to him.  I love him.  Maybe more than I love Trent but I still love Trent and I can’t do that to him.  I cannot hurt him and eventually I would.  Trent will always be a factor between us.  He is safer in Florida away from me.  I am sure he will find some hot blonde to marry and have cute little blonde haired blue-eyed babies.

A mile left of my run and I slow down to absorb the scenery.  The tall trees are just starting to get their leaves after a long hard Wisconsin winter.  Some trees had fallen not making it through but small animals would find shelter around them, isn’t that what nature is all about.

I am just about to exit the trails back to the main road to our cabin when I hear footsteps behind me.  I don’t have to turn around to know who it is.  Rolling my eyes “Trent for the love of god can you leave me alone?”

“I don’t know who Trent is but seeing you in those shorts I know why he won’t leave you alone.”  A deep voice I don’t recognize speaks.  I can tell he is a couple steps behind me and I don’t want to waste time turning around.  I don’t know if I can outrun him but I have to give it a shot.   Once I hit the main road I run as fast I can towards the cabin and when I get to the front of the house I run right into Trent.

“Whoa baby, what is it?”  He holds me tight.

“There was…” I can’t breathe between the running and crying.  “A man” I take a deep breath “he was chasing me”

“Stay here.”  He sits me on the porch walking a ways down the road.  A couple minutes later he comes back shaking his head indicating he couldn’t find the guy.  “What did he look like?  I didn’t see anyone.  Let’s go call the park ranger.”  He motions me inside.

“I never turned around, I just ran.”  I say staying put on the rocking chair on the porch.  I can hear the laughing in the kitchen but I am not up for being around everyone.

“I wish you could describe him but you did the right thing with running.”  He comes to my side putting his arm around my shoulders pulling me close to him.

“I thought it was you so I made some comment about leaving me alone and then the guy said something about my shorts and I didn’t know what to do.”  I curl my legs into my body pressing my knees to Trent.

“It’s ok, I have you now.  No one is going to hurt you.”  He holds me close trying to stop me from shaking.  “Please don’t go out running by yourself.”

“You don’t have to worry about that anymore.”

After that incident Trent and I stay close all week.  I still have no desire to get back together and we don’t sleep together again but I do laugh at his jokes, sit next to him on the couch with his arm around me.  I even let him kiss me goodnight a few times.  It all makes me more confused.  Is Trent really ready to have a relationship?  I am just not ready to answer that question yet.

Sunday afternoon everyone is packing up and I know I have to say goodbye to Trent.  Kenna has gotten used to him being there although she gives him many dirty looks she never verbally attacks him again.

Trent walks over to my Jeep wrapping his arms around me from behind.  “I’m going to miss you.”  He whispers in my ear while nipping at my neck with his mouth.

I turn around to get out of his arms.  “Let’s see how you do when we aren’t around each other.”  I say.  “Trent, I can’t get back together with you yet.”

“I thought we were on our way.”  He says looking confused.

“You have always been good when we were around each other, it’s the distance thing you need help with.  Let’s see where this takes us ok.  We can decide if we want to do this at graduation.”

“Are you kidding me Maddy?”

“No these are my rules.  If you want me Trent you are going to have to prove yourself before I get involved again.”  I say leaning against my truck.

“Alright” he shakes his head smiling.  “I’ll prove it but Maddy.”  He leans in close to me.  “You better be ready to be swept off those beautiful feet.”  He kisses my neck and disappears back to his truck.

“Ready Maddy?”  Colt comes up throwing his bag in the back.

“Yeah…” I touch my neck.  “Yeah, let’s get out of here.”

We have two months until graduation, long enough for Trent to prove if he really wants to be a part of my life.   I am keeping to my word this time.  The problem is Gabe, I don’t know what to tell him but know I have to before he finds out from someone else.  He hasn’t talked to me since he hung up so I am not sure it is even his business anymore.

When I get back to our house at school, I go up to my room to call Gabe.  My fingers hover over his name but I can’t press the call button.  Then my phone starts vibrating in my hand showing Gabe’s picture and my heart drops.  I can’t do this to him.

“Hello.”  I say as though I don’t know it was him.

“Please tell me what I just heard is not true.”  His voice dripping with anger.

“Gabe, let me explain.” I say not sure what to tell him.

“No need Maddy.  If you want to chance yourself with him again I am not going to talk you out of it.”  His anger subsides.  I can’t believe he is saying this.  I didn’t think the conversation was going to go this way.

“Gabe…”

“But do not come to me when he breaks your heart.  Not if Maddy but when because he will.  You know where I stand with you and I refuse to do this anymore.”  He snaps.

“Let’s remember Gabe, you are the one who walked away from me.  You are the one who couldn’t break your promise to Trent.”

“I thought what we had was more but I guess I was wrong.  I actually believed you would pick me over him.  How ridiculous was I?  Have a great time with my brother for however long he lasts.”  He spat and then he hangs up on me again.  I can’t believe this man, he keeps hanging up on me.  Ugh.

I lay down on my bed.  I feel them coming those damn tears again.  I think I have cried more in the last year then my whole life.  It kills me the way Gabe talked to me but it hurt more the way he feels about me now.  I am nothing to him, some stupid girl following some guy who will break her heart.  I knock on my door finally brings me back.

“Come in” I say sitting up on my bed quickly wiping my tears.

“It has been a total of four hours, he has already broken your heart?”  Kenna comes in the room sitting on my bed.

“It’s not Trent, its Gabe.  He found out about me and Trent, I just got off the phone with him.”

“Did you honestly think he would be cool with this?”  She says it nice enough but I hear the condescending nature in her voice.

“No, I just wasn’t prepared for how I feel knowing he hates me.”

“Oh Maddy.  I don’t know what to say.”  She wraps her arms around me giving me a hug.

We both know there is nothing she can say that will make the situation better so I let her hold me and comfort me.

The two months go by fast.   Trent stuck to his word calling me every day and even coming up two of the weekends.  I still am not committed to making our relationship work yet but he is making great strides.  Gabe never called me again and I didn’t have the nerve to call him.  I miss talking to him but I know I can’t have both in my life.

Graduation is here and we are all getting ready in our cap and gowns when Trent walks into our house.   I had attended his graduation last weekend.  We are going back to Belcrest for two weeks and then I am moving to New York with Ian and Trent is going there too, to play for Soccer National League.  They signed him at the end of his season at Thrayer University.  Mackenna and Bryan are staying in Belcrest, Bryan has gotten a financing job across the border in Illinois but it would be close enough for them to stay in our hometown.  Why they want to stay there I have no idea.  What Kenna doesn’t know is Bryan is asking her to marry him tonight after our party.

“Let’s get going graduates.  Party time is over.”  Trent walks in looking so hot in his blue suit.  It looked like it was tailored to fit his lean body perfectly showing off his v-shape torso.  His hair is gelled back making it look wavy.

“Party time is tonight.”  Colt yells over to him fixing his cap.

Trent walks over to me, grabbing my gown from my hands.  “Let me.”  He holds it open while I put my arms in it covering up my navy and white dress.  “You look beautiful…as always.”  He kisses my cheek.

Graduation goes off without a hitch.  We have a party to celebrate with our friends.  Trent spends the night…in my bed.  Nothing happens but it feels good waking up in his arms.

I don’t know if it is the alcohol or nerves from waking up with Trent but I have to rush to the bathroom.  I throw up so much I don’t have anything left in me.  My body is sweating and cold.  This is the worst hangover I have ever experienced.

Two days later at the Basso’s I still don’t feel any better.  I can’t eat anything and I am throwing up every morning.  I lay in bed most of the day moving only to the couch.  Trent is worried getting me tea and crackers.  I think we both know but are refusing to admit it.  We would rather ignore it than find out.  Ignorance is bliss for us but after day three I know we have to do it.  I tell Trent we need to go buy a test and all he does is nod in agreement.