Текст книги "It's Only Love"

Автор книги: Marie Force

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She breathed a sigh of relief when Landon came back inside, his face flushed from the cold and the confrontation. He nodded to Colton and then crossed to where Ella and Charley still stood together.

“He’s history,” Landon said bluntly.

“Did you tell him why?” Charley asked.

“Yeah, and I reminded him that my brother-in-law was killed over there, and no one in this family or the Guthrie family wants to hear his opinions or employ someone who’d say what he did to Gavin.”

“What did he say?” Ella asked.

“That we’re all a bunch of warmongers, yada yada. I didn’t listen. I told him to get lost and stay away from us and our property.”

“Thank you, Landon,” Ella said. “I know it’s a tough time of year to be down a worker.”

“We don’t need his kind on our payroll.”

“No, we don’t.” She gave her brother a kiss on the cheek. “I appreciate you handling that.”

“No problem.” He smiled, and she could see he’d already shaken off the unpleasantness with Ed. “Can I get back to my ladies now?”

“By all means,” Ella said.

“There may be hope for him,” Charley said as they watched him return to the women who’d waited patiently for him.

“Our baby brother is growing up,” Colton said.

“If you did, there’s hope for him, too,” Charley said, drawing a snort of laughter from Ella.

Colton bent at the waist and picked up Charley, swinging her in circles, making everyone around them laugh at the way she pounded on his back.

“Put me down, you immature idiot!”

Ella stood back to keep from getting knocked over by their foolishness.

Colton put Charley down right in front of Tyler Westcott.

Charley sputtered at Colton and pushed her hair back from her face, looking up to see Tyler standing there watching her, an amused expression on his handsome face. He really was adorable, Ella thought, wishing Charley would give the poor guy a chance.

“Hi, Charley,” he said, nodding to Ella and Colton.

“Tyler. What’re you doing here?”

“I brought my mom.” He nodded to Vivienne Westcott, who waved at them from across the crowded room. She worked in the bakery at the store. “She doesn’t like to drive at night.”

“Oh,” Charley said. “That’s nice of you.”

“Would you like to dance?” Tyler asked.

“I, um, well, ah . . .”

Ella nudged her sister to remind her that Vivienne was watching.

“Sure,” Charley mumbled, nudging Ella back.

“Great,” Tyler said, beaming. He was tall with really nice wavy dark hair and blue eyes that stood out even behind a set of black-framed glasses that made him look smart and sexy at the same time.

They walked away together, Charley turning to glare at her siblings over her shoulder. Had she been expecting them to bail her out?

“I like him,” Colton said.

“I like him, too,” Ella replied.

“If he likes her, I also feel sorry for him.”

“Stop it. She’s awesome, and when the right guy comes along, she’ll lose her claws.”

“We can only hope so. I’m going to find Lucy. Are you okay?”

“Sure.”

“I don’t blame Gavin for being upset to see that guy here.”

“I don’t either.” She did blame him, however, for leaving the way he had, but she’d take that up with him when she got the chance. If she got the chance. No, when . . . Definitely when.

CHAPTER 18

Hope is tomorrow’s veneer over

today’s disappointment.

—Evan Esar

Charley wished she could click her heels together three times and be anywhere but in Tyler’s arms on the dance floor of the Grange with her entire family looking on—or so it seemed to her.

She hadn’t wanted to dance with him, but what were her options with his mother watching so hopefully when he came over to her? Ugh. Vivienne was a nice lady and a great employee, and Charley would never want to offend her. Which was how she ended up dancing with Tyler to “Stay with Me,” of all things.

Shoot me now. Please.

“Are you ready for tomorrow?” Tyler asked.

For a second her brain froze before she realized he meant the group run. “I hope so.”

“Did you get to run at all this week?”

She shook her head. “We were too busy getting ready for tonight.”

“Were you sore after last weekend?”

“For a day or two.” In truth, she’d been hobbling around all week, not that she’d ever tell him that. It had been years since she’d done a distance run, and she’d been foolish to jump right in with six miles the first time out.

“You’re really going to need to run during the week, too, if you’re going to be ready by May.”

“I know that.” Charley didn’t mean for that to come out so sharply, but she hardly needed him telling her how to train. He always did this to her. He made her feel stupid and inadequate and . . . on edge. His presence put her on edge, and she didn’t like the edge. She didn’t like it one bit. She particularly didn’t care for dancing with him. She didn’t like that she could smell his cologne or that she could feel the well-toned muscles of his shoulder under her hand.

She didn’t want to know what Tyler Westcott smelled like or felt like under the pressed dress shirts he favored. He reminded her of her brother Hunter, which wasn’t a bad thing, per se. It just wasn’t her thing.

“Will you have dinner with me tomorrow night?” he asked in a low, soft tone for her ears only.

“What? No, I will not have dinner with you.”

He laughed. “Tell me how you really feel.”

“I just did. I have before. Why can’t you take no for an answer?”

“Because I don’t believe you mean it.”

She drew back from him, looking up, trying to gauge whether he was for real. Apparently, he was. “How can I convince you?”

“By saying no another two dozen times, at the very least.”

“Are you some sort of masochist?”

“I must be if I want to go out with you.”

The song, blessedly, came to an end, but he didn’t let go of her.

“Um, the song is over.”

“So?”

“So let go. Stop being a creep.”

He smiled down at her.

That arrogant little smirk made her want to smack him. She couldn’t stand how he always looked at her as if he knew her better than she knew herself. When she’d joined the running club, she’d nearly quit when she discovered he was a member, too. Now she was wishing she had quit—so she wouldn’t have to see him every week for six months and so she could sleep in tomorrow.

Running a marathon had been a stupid idea after all. If putting up with Tyler’s knowing smirk every week for the next six months was part of the deal, she might have to reconsider her new life goal.

Long after the song ended, long after he should’ve let go, he finally released her but managed to snag her hand before she could get away. “I’m not giving up on you, Charlotte. And P.S., I don’t buy all your abrasive bullshit. Underneath all that bluster, there’s an interesting woman lurking. I’d like to get to know that woman.”

He released her hand and walked away, leaving her standing in the middle of the crowded dance floor, her mouth hanging open in shock.

What. The. Hell.

*   *   *

Gavin felt like a dick for leaving the way he had. The image of Ella’s astonished expression as he turned away from her on the dance floor refused to leave his mind. He shouldn’t have left like that, as if he couldn’t control himself for a couple of hours to support her when she’d been so damned supportive of him.

“You’re a fucking loser,” he said as he drove home through the darkness that had descended over Butler and its outskirts. With no moon to guide the way, the roads were darker than usual tonight.

He’d never told her that Ed had been the guy he’d fought with, so how was she supposed to know? It had been a shock to see him sitting among the Abbotts’ employees like he belonged there after what he’d said about the war. Surely they wouldn’t want a guy like that in their midst. Would they?

“Shit,” he muttered to the darkness. Every time he took a step forward something smacked him backward. Every goddamned time.

This was exactly why he’d told Ella he was a bad bet. He never knew when the shit would rear its ugly head to set him back.

He approached the one-lane covered bridge and slowed to a crawl as he drove across the bridge, slamming on the brakes when he saw something big and black blocking his way. Flipping on the high beams, he saw Fred the moose standing across the road and groaned. At least he hadn’t run into Fred the way Cameron had.

Gavin laid on the horn, trying to get Fred to move along, to no avail. He remained stubbornly still. Gavin opened the window. “Fred, come on, give me a break, will you?”

“Moo.”

“Seriously? Can this day get any more fucked up?” He sat there for twenty minutes, but Fred never budged. When it became clear that Fred wasn’t going to move, Gavin put the truck in reverse, backed up over the one-lane bridge, turned around and headed back into town. He’d have to take the long way home.

As he drove through the quiet town, he began to wonder if Fred hadn’t actually done him a favor, for he was now driving toward Ella’s house rather than away.

For the first time in an hour, Gavin had reason to smile. “Freaking Fred. He’s better at this shit than I am.”

A glance at the clock on the dash indicated it was after ten. He probably had an hour or more to kill before Ella would be home, which gave him just enough time to run a quick errand. He had some groveling to do, and he needed all the reinforcements he could get.

*   *   *

Thirty minutes after the DJ played the last song of the evening and everyone had left, Ella was almost finished stacking chairs and breaking down tables. Colton and Hunter were sweeping the floor and her sisters were in the kitchen with her mother, Cameron, Lucy and Megan wrapping up leftover food. They’d sent Hannah home to bed, and Lucas and Landon had left with the young women from the store.

“Another great time,” Lincoln said when he stacked the last of the chairs on top of the cart that held them. “Well done, honey.”

“Thanks, Dad.”

“What were they saying about the new product line?”

“Everyone’s abuzz over it,” she said with a smile. “That joke isn’t going to get old for a while.”

“I suppose I deserve that.”

“It’s what you get for being so progressive.”

“I couldn’t help but notice that Gavin left somewhat abruptly, and there was some sort of scuffle between Landon and Ed Sheehan.”

Ella nodded, not surprised that her dad had tuned into the drama. “Ed was the one who told Gavin we wasted our time in Iraq, which led to the bar fight last summer.”

Lincoln’s face tightened with outrage. “I hope Landon fired him.”

“He did.”

“Good. People have a right to their opinions about war and politics and religion, but to say that to someone who lost their brother . . .”

“It’s obscene.”

“On that we agree, my dear.” He put his arms around her. “You’ve gotten involved with a complicated man. A good man. A man I respect. I ache for what he’s lost, but I love you far too much to watch you be hurt by that good, complicated man. I just hope you’re being careful to protect your heart.”

Ella laughed even as she blinked back tears. “I’m not being careful at all. I’m crazy in love with him, and I have been for longer than I can remember.” She wiped away the tears that spilled down her cheeks. The emotional reaction irritated and embarrassed her.

Her dad smiled down at her, his love shining through the way it always did. “You’re our practical child, the one who always thinks before she acts, who plans everything with meticulous attention to detail. Those qualities make you exceptionally reliable and good at what you do for a living, but they aren’t necessarily the skills you need in this situation with Gavin.” He pressed his lips to her forehead.

Comforted by his love and words of wisdom, Ella said, “What skills do I need?”

“Besides patience and fortitude?”

Ella laughed again. “Yes, other than that.”

“I don’t know, honey, but I do know that you’re more than up to whatever challenge he presents. If anyone can lead that boy out of the darkness and back into the light, you can.”

Touched and bolstered by his confidence in her, Ella looked up at him. “You really think so?”

“I know so. Just don’t let him be less than what you deserve. You hear me?”

Ella nodded. “I won’t.”

“Good.” He hugged her again. “Now go on home and get some sleep. I’ll lock up here. You did great tonight, but then you always do.”

“Love you, Dad.”

“Love you, too.”

On the short ride home, Ella thought about what her dad had said about the complicated man she’d fallen in love with. It helped to know he respected Gavin and liked him. That made it easier to tolerate the hurdles they were sure to encounter.

She wanted so badly to go to him, to seek him out. But she couldn’t do that. She’d done that too many times already. Ella had no doubt at all that he cared deeply for her, as deeply as he’d ever cared for any woman. However, she couldn’t keep this relationship going on her own. He had to meet her halfway.

Though it pained her greatly, she drove to her home rather than his. She would drown her sorrows with Ben and Jerry and get back to work on the blanket she was knitting for her new niece or nephew. It wasn’t like she didn’t have a life separate from him.

Ella trudged up the stairs, mentally and physically exhausted from the week at work and the emotional ups and downs of her time with Gavin. She made a beeline for the freezer, where her pint of Cherry Garcia sitting next to his pint of Cake Batter made her miss him fiercely.

She pulled the lid off her pint and dug a spoon into the creamy goodness. Taking the ice cream with her, she went into her bedroom, kicked off the heels she’d worn to work and changed into flannel pajama pants, a long-sleeve T-shirt and her favorite moccasin slippers. Tonight was all about comfort anywhere she could find it.

Settled on the sofa with her ice cream and a down comforter over her lap, Ella pulled out her knitting bag and got to work on the blanket, determined to focus on the project rather than wondering where Gavin was, what he was doing and whether he regretted taking off the way he had earlier.

Anger and frustration fueled her work as the multicolored yarn came together in rich pattern of pinks, blues and yellows. She couldn’t wait for the baby to arrive, to have someone new to love, to watch him or her grow up and be part of his or her life from the first day. Though she’d hoped to be a mother many times over by now, being an aunt would have to do, and she planned to be the best aunt ever to Max’s baby as well as Hannah’s.

A sob escaped from Ella’s tightly clenched jaw. She dropped a stitch and tossed aside the blanket in aggravation. It was a bad night when Ben and Jerry were unable to work their usual magic and when she started dropping stitches. That hadn’t happened since she was first learning. Her grandma Sarah, who’d said she was a knitting prodigy, would be appalled, a thought that had Ella actively sobbing.

A soft knock on the door startled her out of the pity party. She swiped at the tears that refused to stop coming, even when she tried to mop them up with the comforter.

A second knock brought her to her feet. “Who is it?”

“Me.”

She contained the powerful urge to run to the door, to throw it open, to jump into his arms. “What do you want?”

“I want to talk to you.”

“I’m not really in the mood to talk. It’s been a long day.”

“Ella, please open the door. Give me the chance to apologize. Please?”

Sighing, she went to the door, leaned her head against it for a long moment before she turned the knob. The first thing she saw and smelled were roses—lots of roses in every imaginable color—pink, red, white, yellow, coral.

“I didn’t know what color represented ‘I’m sorry for being a dick’ so I got one of each color hoping the right one is in there somewhere. And oh fuck, you’ve been crying. God, Ella, I’m so sorry.”

“I’m not crying because of you. It’s because I dropped a stitch, and I never drop stitches, even when I was angry-knitting that sweater for you.”

He leaned against the doorframe, a small smile occupying his exquisitely handsome face. “Angry knitting. Is that a thing?”

“It is when you’re involved.” She turned away from him and returned to her post on the sofa, tugging the comforter over her lap. “Come in and shut the door before Mrs. Abernathy comes up here to see what’s going on.”

He closed the door and went to the kitchen. “Where do you keep vases?”

“Under the sink.”

While he saw to putting the flowers in water, she scooped up another mouthful of ice cream, needing all the fortification she could get to deal with him. The roses had been a nice touch. She had to give him that. And they probably hadn’t been easy to find this time of night in their remote corner of Vermont.

He joined her on the couch, curling one leg under him so he could face her. “I’m sorry I left the way I did. I shouldn’t have done that, and about two seconds after I did it, I regretted it.”

Ella repeatedly dug her spoon into the pint, refusing to look at him or to acknowledge his sincere apology. That was when she realized she was well and truly angry with him for the first time. In the past, she’d been frustrated and despondent. Now she was just pissed.

“Ella.”

She continued to take out her anger on the ice cream. Poor Cherry Garcia. Then Gavin was taking the pint from her and putting it on the table. With his fingers on her chin, he compelled her to look at him. “I’m sorry I left.”

“Why did you?”

He looked away for a second before bringing his gaze back to her. “I saw that guy, and I saw red. I was afraid I’d make a scene if I stayed, that I’d embarrass you and your family by getting into it with him again.”

“So you embarrassed me by walking away from me while we were dancing, leaving me there alone with everyone looking at me?”

Wincing, he said, “Not my finest moment. I’m so sorry, Ella. I just had to get out of there before I did something stupid.”

She turned her face away from him, forcing him to remove his hand, and then gathered the comforter in closer, fortifying herself against the powerful attraction she felt for him, even when she was angry. “Landon fired him.”

“What?”

“Landon fired Ed. He doesn’t work for us anymore.”

“Simple as that?”

“Yes, Gavin, as simple as that. None of us like what he said to you, and we don’t want someone like that working for our company.”

“Wow,” he said, sagging into the back of the sofa. “That’s pretty awesome.”

“It took about five minutes after you left to get rid of him. If maybe you’d given me the chance to address it, I could’ve saved you the trouble of leaving.”

“It didn’t occur to me that you all would do that.”

“Why did it not occur to you, Gavin? Caleb was an Abbott as much as he was a Guthrie. Didn’t you think we’d be as outraged as you were by what Ed said? This fight is not yours alone. It belongs to everyone who loved Caleb and everyone who lost someone in Iraq. We are as offended by him as you are.”

“I . . .” He blinked several times in rapid succession. “Thank you.” He took a deep breath, seeming to fight with his emotions. “For being outraged, for getting rid of him, for letting me in here tonight when I hardly deserve to be here. For everything, Ella.”

“You don’t have to thank me for doing the right thing.”

He reached for her hand and brought it to his lips, running them back and forth over her knuckles. “Yes, I really do. Even though Hannah and my parents have been on this journey with me from the beginning, I’ve felt alone with it for so long. To know I’m not anymore is . . . Well, it’s amazing. You’re amazing.”

As always, his touch rendered her powerless to resist him. “You’re not alone anymore. Unless you want to be.”

“I don’t want to be. I want you. I want us. I want it all.”

“You have no idea what you do to me when you say those things.”

“What do I do? Tell me. I want to know.”

“You make me feel hopeful and giddy and excited and . . .”

He leaned in closer, so close his lips were only a few inches from hers. “And what?”

“You know.”

“Tell me anyway.”

Ella’s body heated from the inside, making all her most important parts tingle with awareness of him. “Turned on.”

“Yeah?”

She nodded.

He tugged on the comforter and tossed it aside. “Have I ever told you how hot you are in flannel?”

Ella laughed, her heart beating in rapid time as he looked at her in a way that left no room for interpretation as to what he wanted from her. “Sure I am.”

“You’re the hottest babe in flannel I’ve ever laid eyes on.”

“You should get out more.”

“I’ve gotten out plenty. I know what I’m talking about.” He ran his hands over her legs, exploring every part of her that was covered in the flannel he liked so much. “And you were smoking hot in that skirt and those heels tonight. When I walked into the Grange and saw you on that stage, I almost started to drool.”

“You had me with the roses. Just so you know.”

His hands landed on her ass and tugged her toward him, arranging them so he was above her, between her legs, looking down at her. “So the drool wasn’t necessary?”

“It was a nice touch but not critical to your recovery.”

“I love you, Ella.”

She gasped, feeling as if she’d been punched in the gut by three little words that packed a huge wallop. “You . . . you . . .”

“Love you.” He kissed her, softly, sweetly, devastatingly.