Текст книги "Then Came You"

Автор книги: Jill Shalvis

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Twenty-five

Emily staggered into the kitchen shortly before dawn. Wyatt had left a few moments before, leaning over her for a lengthy kiss good-bye that would’ve turned into something else entirely if they hadn’t been out of condoms.

Sara was on the kitchen counter eating ice cream out of the container for breakfast, which was so unlike her, Emily stopped short. “What are you doing?”

“Rayna e-mailed me,” she said. “She said she missed me, the bitch.”

“Did you respond that you miss her, too?”

“No.”

“Do it.”

Sara sagged. “I can’t. I’m the one that broke up with her.”

“Which still makes no sense,” Emily said.

“Because she’s a ten, okay? And I told you, tens don’t date fives.”

Emily stared at her.

“She’s a model,” Sara said. “An L.A. runway model.” She spread her arms wide. “And I’m a short, chunky construction worker.”

“You’re gorgeous,” Emily said fiercely. “E-mail her back.”

Sara dug for more ice cream. At her feet, on the floor, Woodrow was staring at Sara like the sun rose and set on her shoulders. Emily got why when Sara snagged another scoop and offered it to the puppy.

The wood spoon was quickly licked clean.

“Don’t do that,” Emily said.

“She’s no fun is she,” Sara said to Woodrow. “She doesn’t get that having a broken heart requires a million calories to even begin to heal.”

“You think you’re the only one who’s ever had a broken heart?”

“Of the two of us?” Sara asked. “Yeah.”

“Hey,” Emily said. “What about the Johns, remember them?”

“John Number One was a selfish prick and didn’t deserve your heart. And John Number Two never had your heart. How could he? After John Number One and Becky, and then Mom, you never trusted anyone with your heart again.”

Emily opened her mouth, and then shut it again. “Fine,” she eventually said. “I’ve been stingy with my heart until now, sue me.”

“Until now?” Sara pointed at her with the wooden spoon. “Does that mean what I think it means?”

“No. It means nothing.” Not about to explain that Wyatt was interested in her body but not much more than that– especially when it had been all her idea in the beginning. Emily snatched the container of ice cream and the spoon and started to dig in. Then she looked down at the spoon that Woodrow had licked. She loved him but she didn’t want to eat after him. Tossing it into the sink, she reached for another from the drawer.

“Admit it,” Sara said. “You’re falling for Dr. Sexy.”

Emily choked on her first bite. “Would you stop calling him that?”

“You do realize you’re making roots,” Sara said. “Making friends. Getting pets.” She paused. “Bidding on hot bachelors.”

“I only bid to make sure the charity gets a lot of money,” Emily said. “Someone’s gonna outbid me.”

“How, when you keep checking it every day and upping your bid?”

Good point. She changed the subject. “And any day now, someone is going to claim Woodrow.”

Sara hopped off the counter. “Good to know you’re still the Denial Queen. I’m going to work. Maybe tonight we can have a discussion rooted in reality.”

“Like what?”

“Like the fact that you’re happy here.” Sara gave her a long look, and then walked out of the kitchen.

“Yeah, well, I’ll admit that when you admit you’re a ten and a stubborn idiot!”

Sara slammed out the front door without admitting any such thing.

That night, Lilah, Kate, and Holly included Emily in the Girls’ Night outing to the guys’ flag football game. It was Bones vs. Firsts—the town’s doctors, dentists, vets, and anyone in the medical field against Sunshine’s first responders like cops, firefighters, and medics.

The Bones were down a member since Dell was on day two of being up north. Emily watched the rough game through worried eyes, sucking in a breath when Wyatt got taken down by a guy who had at least thirty pounds on him.

They rolled viciously around for a moment, and then Wyatt came up, still holding the ball triumphantly.

His opponent pushed to his feet, and Emily blinked in surprise.

It was Evan, the cop who made the amazing chocolate chip cookies.

The two men stared at each other for a long beat before going back to their own lines. Evan shot Emily a smile on his way.

“He’s cute,” Lilah said.

Wyatt strode by the stands, slowing to give Emily a long, steady look that had her blushing.

“He’s cuter,” Lilah said.

The next play involved both Evan and Wyatt rolling around on the ground again.

Kate looked at Emily. “There seems to be some tension there that has ‘about a woman’ all over it.”

Emily bit her lower lip.

“Spill,” Holly said.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“Right,” Lilah said dryly. “That’s why the both of them keep looking over at you, flexing their muscles.”

“Honey, I’m all for a woman exploring her options,” Holly said, “but you can’t have two alphas sniffing around sharing air space like that.”

“We have alphas sharing air space at the center all day long,” Emily pointed out.

“But they don’t want the same woman.”

Emily sank down in her seat a little bit. “Evan brought me cookies. And wants to date me.”

“What does Wyatt want?”

She knew what she wanted Wyatt to want, and that was for him to indicate that maybe he’d want her to stay, something she’d never have entertained in the beginning, but now . . . now she couldn’t stop thinking about. But he’d not said a single word about a future with her, not once. She thought about the night before, when he’d taken her into her bedroom and given her so many orgasms she’d been boneless for hours afterward, making it perfectly clear what he did want from her.

Lilah took in her facial expression and burst into laughter, and Emily covered her face with her hands. “Oh my God. This is so out of my comfort zone.”

“What, being sought after by extremely hot guys? Stop and smell the roses, babe, and take in the moment.”

“Or,” Kate said quietly, watching Emily’s face, “you could pick one.”

“Picking isn’t the problem,” Emily said, gaze on Wyatt. “Wyatt and I aren’t a real thing.”

He threw a hard, fast pass to Adam, who caught it in the end zone.

Game. Over.

The Bones team tackled Wyatt to the ground, pounding his back, victorious. After a few moments of this, the guys all headed off the field, eyes on their real prize.

The women in the stands.

Adam claimed Holly, who looked all too happy to be claimed. Same for Brady and Lilah. And Grif and Kate.

Wyatt strode past the kissing couples and came straight to Emily.

She nearly swallowed her tongue. “What are you—”

Yanking her in, he kissed her long and hard.

In front of everyone.

She pulled back and had to shake her head to put some sense back into it. “What was that?”

“A victory kiss,” he said.

She wasn’t one to bank her future happiness on a man, ever, but damn. She’d hoped for more.

But hoping was for dreamers, and she was a planner. To the bone. They’d outlined what their relationship was, she and Wyatt, way back in the beginning. Hell, she’d reiterated it to him many times, too many to count.

Which meant that this wasn’t his fault at all.

Nope, this was all on her.

Twenty-six

Wyatt jackknifed up from a dead sleep to the sound of Zoe’s scream. A spider, he thought, but it was worse than a spider.

He fumbled for his glasses and went running. He found her in the basement fighting a burst pipe. Wading into the mess, he turned off the water to the house, but that wasn’t going to solve any problems. “This is bigger than me,” he said. “I’ll call a plumber from work.”

“But in the meantime, we don’t have water.”

He looked down. They were in two inches of it. “We have plenty.”

“Not funny, Wyatt. I have a flight in a few hours.”

“And I’ve got surgeries. I’ll call a plumber,” he repeated.

“But—”

“Zoe,” he said. “We both love this big ol’ piece of shit, but we can’t keep duct taping it together.”

“Duct tape fixes everything,” she said.

“Not this time. We need a major renovation, or we need to sell.”

She gasped. “Mom put you up to this?”

“No,” he said. “Look, I love the memories in this place as much as you. But—”

“But you’re leaving us.”

“You know I’m going to build a house,” he said gently. “You know I want my own place, where there’s no lingerie hanging in the bathroom—well, unless it belongs to the woman I’m sleeping with. I want to live where there’s no need to tiptoe around for a whole week every month because we ran out of Midol.”

“Hey.”

“I want to live somewhere without roommates, aka sisters who are pains in my ass who remember and enjoy bringing up how when I was ten I used to save my gum on the bedpost for the next day.”

She smiled. “I’d forgotten about that.”

“You would’ve remembered the next time Emily came over.”

She laughed. “Yeah. Maybe.”

He squeezed her hand. “And when I go, I want to know that you’re safe, and not drowning in the money pit.”

“What if I promise to stop bossing you around?”

“You’ll never stop bossing me around,” he said. “And that’s okay. I still love you. I just don’t want to live with you. Are we going to be okay?”

“No.” She sighed. “Yes. And the truth is, I don’t want to live with you, either. Or Darcy– Oh, God,” she said, clutching at his shirt. “Don’t you fucking me leave me alone with Darcy!”

He laughed, and she kicked water on him, and he put his hand over her face and shoved.

Yeah, they were going to be okay.

“Who’s going to tell Darcy?” Zoe asked, squeezing water out of her hair.

“Tell me what?” Darcy had appeared at the top of the stairs.

“Wyatt’s leaving us,” Zoe said.

“Good,” Darcy said. “You finally told him we were tired of having him as a roommate then.”

Wyatt slid Zoe a look.

She winced.

“You’re tired of living with me?” he asked in disbelief. “What do I do?”

“Besides leaving the lid up, drinking out of the milk container, thinking that doing your dishes means getting them into the sink, and parking in the good spot every single night? You’re a fun sucker,” Darcy said.

“Darcy,” Zoe said reproachfully.

“Gently,” Darcy said, and smacked herself in the forehead. “You said to tell him gently that we don’t want to live with him anymore. Sorry.”

Wyatt looked at Zoe in disbelief.

“You’re cramping our love lives,” she said on a sigh.

“I’m cramping your love life?” he asked. “You don’t have a love life.”

“Because the last time I brought a date home, you told him he was an idiot.”

“Because he used the wrong remote on the TV and unprogrammed everything,” Wyatt said. “It took me three days to undo the mess. And that was a year ago.”

“They were trying to watch porn and you came home on them,” Darcy said. “The poor guy got nervous because you’re about a foot taller than him and he was one of those skinny dudes who disappears when he turns sideways. Jeez, you’re so oblivious.”

Wyatt rubbed the heels of his hands over his eyes but he still couldn’t undo the image of Zoe and that scrawny dude watching porn together. “You’ve done it,” he finally said to Darcy. “You’ve driven me to drink. I need a beer. No, I need whiskey and it’s five thirty in the morning.”

“And I realize I don’t have a love life right now,” Darcy went on as if he hadn’t spoken. “But someday I might. Because, unlike you, I’m ready to take a risk.”

“You’re a walking risk,” Zoe told her.

“I risk,” Wyatt said.

“Name one,” Darcy said.

“Yesterday. In surgery. I—”

“Not at work,” Darcy said. “With your heart.”

He stared at her. At the both of them. Not liking where this was going.

Darcy softened. “You never have, Wyatt,” she said. “You hide behind your let-it-happen attitude, because it’s safe. If you don’t ask someone to be yours and they don’t pick you, well then nothing lost, right?”

“Wrong,” he said. He’d risked with Caitlin, and she’d left. Excuse the fuck out of him for not jumping into it again with Emily.

Except . . . he had. Maybe he hadn’t put it to words, but he’d let her in. Inside him.

A tactical error on his part, one he was hoping he didn’t pay for.

His phone buzzed, and he looked down at the screen. Dell was back and needed him at work a few minutes early. Saved by the bell. “Gotta go.”

“Wyatt,” Zoe said softly when he started up the basement steps. “Darcy didn’t mean to hurt your feelings—”

“Yes, I did,” Darcy said. “Take a damn risk,” she told him. “Try it, you might like it.”

He risked plenty. Hell, he risked daily. And her name was Emily.

Risk personified.

Twenty minutes later, he strode into Belle Haven and headed to Dell’s office.

“I’m finally catching up on the business side of things after all the running around,” Dell said. “I don’t see a reason not to make the intern switch if Emily’s on board with it and wants it. You?”

Wyatt felt his gut drop. “What?”

“They’re both on board. Emily e-mailed me about it days ago.”

“When?”

“Right before I left.”

Before her and Sara’s Nancy Drew exploits. Before they’d made love all night long.

And she’d not said a word.

Dell’s gaze remained even, steady. “I was surprised,” he admitted. “I thought there for a while that you and she—”

“No.” Apparently not. “No,” Wyatt said again, trying to believe it, all while reeling.

Dell nodded. “I was going to go make the west ranching rounds. Three stops, Brady’s flying. You want to switch and take it?”

Wyatt nodded, appreciating the out today, but he couldn’t stop thinking days ago. Emily had e-mailed Dell days ago . . .

And not said one word to him.

Emily shadowed Dell for the day. He’d told her the switch had been approved and there were no hard feelings but it needed to happen ASAP for continuity sake.

He didn’t say one word about Wyatt.

And neither did she.

Halfway through the day she received an e-mail from Lilah stating that Sara had won Wyatt in the charity auction. Sara was now the proud owner of a day of shadowing one sexy Dr. Wyatt Stone.

Emily couldn’t believe her little cheat bid using someone else’s name had worked. If she was a good person, she’d gift the shadow day with Wyatt to one of the other women who’d wanted him, but she totally wasn’t that good of a person because she was keeping him.

At least on paper.

The day didn’t end at the usual six o’clock because that night was Belle Haven’s monthly immunization clinic. Emily had volunteered to work it, and then found herself surprised when the entire staff showed up to do the same, including significant others—minus Brady and Wyatt, who weren’t back yet.

The atmosphere was more like a party than a work night. Lilah brought animals who needed adopting, and held an impromptu adoption clinic. Jade was giving out free pet visit coupons, and Adam was there teaching one of his dog training courses—which Darcy took—borrowing Woodrow to do so, who learned all sorts of things, including how to sit on command.

There was food, too, everyone had brought something, and the fun and laughter was plentiful. Anyone, even a perfect stranger, could’ve felt the love the place exuded. But it wasn’t the place. It was the people. And their longtime connections to each other. Sunshine was like that, one of those places where history collided with the present, and it worked in a way Emily had never imagined it would.

Wyatt and Brady got back and when they walked through the door, Wyatt’s gaze immediately zeroed in on her. Her chest got tight, like there wasn’t enough room for her heart behind her ribcage. A montage of memories played in her head like a movie: running into Wyatt again at the hind quarters of a sheep in labor, climbing into his lap in his truck and fogging up the windows, saving that horse and getting a bruised butt in the process . . .

She would miss it here in Sunshine, she really would. She’d miss everyone so much, but Wyatt most of all, more than she’d ever missed anything or anyone.

You don’t have to go, a voice whispered in her head. Except if she stayed for a man who’d never given her a single inkling that he wanted more than to be boinked, she’d never forgive herself.

Why hadn’t he given her an inkling, dammit? It was time, past time, to ask. She actually started toward him to do just that, and a woman walked in the door.

She was a petite, auburn-haired beauty, with a sweet smile and deep green eyes that unerringly landed on Wyatt. She approached him with enough familiarity that Emily knew instantly who she was, even before she leapt into Wyatt’s arms and kissed him full on the mouth.

Everything came to a skidding halt inside Emily, including her heart. No, wait. There it was, kicking hard against her ribs as she moved.

Fast.

She couldn’t say what she was feeling exactly, but when she blinked again, she was out the back door, heading toward the horse pens. Reno and Kiki nickered a welcome. Blue was quiet but she did stick her head over the fence, looking for goodies.

Emily patted her. The view was nothing but inky blackness right now, the only light coming from a blanket of an infinity of stars.

It was a gorgeous night.

She climbed up on the fence and sat, and took her first breath since she’d seen Caitlin’s mouth on Wyatt’s. “Damn,” she said, and scrubbed at her wet cheeks. Suddenly she could put a name to her emotions.

Red hot jealousy.

Envy.

Sadness.

Regret.

And perhaps the worst of all, loneliness.

Her phone buzzed an incoming text. Before she could reach for it, another text came in. And then another. And another.

First up was Lilah. Honey, come back.

Next was Jade. Girl, you left too early.

She didn’t know what that meant, but read the next text, from Holly. You okay?

Kate texted, too. Get your cute ass back in here, you missed the good stuff.

Emily stared down at her phone as one last text came in from . . . Oh, God. Wyatt.

She squinted as she accessed it, because everyone knew that squinting while reading something potentially devastating made it easier.

Where are you?

She swiped her nose on her sleeve and typed: Gone.

It was silly and childish, but she figured she was past due.

Liar, came his next text. Your car’s still here.

She hit Reply. I’m busy with a patient.

His own reply was so immediate she had no idea how he managed to thumb the words in so fast. Another lie. You’re not going to be able to walk back inside with that nose, Pinocchio.

She choked out a soggy laugh and stared at the phone, having no idea what to reply. I just need to be alone for a few.

“No, you don’t.”

She jerked around, dropping her phone, staring at the tall, dark shadow coming around the barn. “Oh my God. You scared me.”

He picked up her phone and held it out, and when she hopped down from the fence and tried to take it from him, his other hand shot out and grabbed hers, pulling her in. “Ditto,” he said.

“Give me my phone back.”

“Why did you run off?”

“I didn’t. I told you, I had a patient.”

“Yeah?” he asked, making a show of looking around. “Who?”

From behind her, Blue stuck her head over the fence and gave her a shove in the back that pushed her into Wyatt’s chest.

Wyatt held on, but she stepped back and pointed to the damn nosy horse. “Blue. She’s . . . not feeling good.”

As she said this, Blue took advantage of how accessible she was and began to search her pockets for goodies, snorting her displeasure to find her goodie-less. She couldn’t concentrate on that because there was an odd tension coming from Wyatt, which she didn’t understand.

She was the injured party here.

Wasn’t she?

He was hands on hips, staring at her. “So you expect me to believe that you came out here because Blue needed you, and not because Caitlin showed up.”

Hearing the name of the woman he’d once loved, maybe still loved, fall so easily from his lips was like a sharp knife in the gut. “Caitlin showed up?” she asked with false casualness.

He narrowed his gaze on her and didn’t answer.

Feeling defensive, and for good reason, as she was truly a crappy liar, she went hands on hips, too. “Why are you out here looking for me anyway? You were very busy a few minutes ago.”

“So you did see her.”

Fine. The jig was up. “Hard not to, since she was attached to your lips.”

“Shit.” Wyatt stared down at his boots for a long moment. Hard to tell if he was fighting the urge to strangle her or walk away. Then he met her gaze again. “I wasn’t expecting her.”

“As you don’t expect much, this doesn’t surprise me.”

Wyatt shoved a hand through his hair, a very unusual “tell” from a man who was usually so comfortable in his own skin in every single situation that came along that she’d never really seen him so much as slightly rattled before. “I’m guessing she wants to start up again,” she said.

He nodded, and it happened again, that stab right through her heart. “She missed you,” she guessed.

“Yes.”

“Not surprising,” she managed, sounding oddly normal for a woman who could no longer feel her bones. “Seeing as when she broke up with you, it wasn’t because she didn’t love you anymore, but because she was going off to live a dream of hers and help people.”

He said nothing to this.

“Why is she here?” Emily asked. “I thought she was in Africa or somewhere.”

This got her a small lip twitch. “Haiti. And she accepted a fellowship at a hospital in Coeur d’Alene, working with a group of surgeons she admires.”

Coeur d’Alene. Less than an hour away. “So . . . I guess congratulations.”

He stalked past her to the fence. Leaning on it, he stroked Blue’s face, shoving the horse back when she tried to frisk him. “Knock it off,” he said, and she knew he was talking to her, not the horse. She stiffened and stared at his broad shoulders. “Excuse me?”

“You think she dumped me.”

“Didn’t she?”

“And in thinking that, do you really then also think I’d go back to the woman who walked away from me?”

She opened her mouth, and then shut it again as she stared at his back. She didn’t know what she thought. He was so deceptively chill most of the time that she’d forgotten one important thing. He was strong, tough, and actually, pretty damn alpha.

He turned to face her, his eyes glittering with a dark emotion that she realized was temper, however rare. “I broke things off with her, Emily. I’m the one who sent her away, the one who said we were over. I knew she wanted to take the job, and I knew I didn’t want a long distance relationship. I also knew that she wasn’t ever going to be the right woman for me, regardless of my feelings for her at the time.” A muscle jumped in his jaw as he stared at her. “And yeah, I had feelings for her. I loved her.”

“Past tense,” Emily whispered, feeling the teeniest flicker of hope deep inside.

“Past tense,” he agreed. “I’ll always care for her, about her, but she’s not the one.” He never took his eyes from hers, which made it all the harder to hear when he said, “I thought maybe I’d met the one for me, but I was wrong.”

The tentative hope shriveled, replaced by dread. “What does that mean?”

“You got something you want to tell me?” he asked, voice even, face blank, like he was asking about the weather.

“Uh . . .” Her heart started to pound. “Yeah.”

He leaned against the fence, all ears and bad ’tude.

“I won you in the auction by cheating.”

He blinked. “You . . . what? How did you—” He shook his head. “Jesus, never mind. The internship, Emily. I’m talking about the internship. You’re leaving. When the hell were you going to tell me?”

“Oh.” Dread turned to fear. “That’s not as easy to explain as the auction thing.”

“Yes, it is,” he said. “It’s a sentence. Hell, Emily, it’s two words: I’m. Leaving.”

She shouldn’t have been surprised at how angry he sounded, but she was. Still, she was more surprised at her own anger. “You know how much I wanted that internship,” she reminded him. “It’s in L.A., near home for me. It’ll lead into a job that pays a lot more money than anywhere else. I’ve planned for that job, I—”

“Christ, are we back to your plan? Seriously?”

“Yes, and dammit, you know why. You know I don’t want to be like my dad, barely getting by. Not getting by. I want money in the bank, Wyatt, a house I can pay for. I want to be okay, for once I want that. I need that. It’s not so different from your dream, you know. You gave up a relationship to stay here and build your home.”

“And us?” he asked with his characteristic bluntness. “Did we not factor at all?”

“I wasn’t sure there was an us.”

His eyes merely darkened, his mouth going more grim.

“It was a difficult decision,” she said softly.

“Doesn’t sound like it was difficult at all.”

“I told myself I couldn’t pin my future on a crush,” she said, and paused, waiting for a response. A bread crumb. Anything.

But got nothing.

“We both know this started out as just a fun thing,” she said as calmly as she could. Not easy when she was so close to tears that she didn’t dare blink. “Not a forever thing. How am I supposed to throw away everything I thought I wanted on a fun thing?”

“So you’re what, going back to a job in a fancy zip code?” he asked. “And then what, Emily? You find your John? Is that the dream? Really?”

“I have to take care of my dad,” she said. “Before he ends up in a cardboard box with eighteen dogs.”

“Your dad’s fine. Your dad’s happy. Happier than you.”

The barb hit hard. So hard she actually staggered back a step and put a hand to her chest, which didn’t assuage the ache. “Why should I stay?” she asked. “Give me one reason.”

He stared at her, a muscle ticking in his jaw as her heart shriveled a little bit inside.

“I hope this is what will make you happy, Emily,” he finally said quietly. “You deserve to be happy.”

And then he was gone, vanished into the dark night.