Текст книги "Then Came You"

Автор книги: Jill Shalvis

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Thirteen

Emily got home late. She parked in the driveway and got out, hesitating when she heard that odd sort of howling she’d heard several times now. Not a coyote, she thought.

A dog. And it sounded like it was in pain.

Unable to take it, she was going to have to check it out. It wasn’t quite dusk, but getting there, so she grabbed the flashlight she kept in her car and walked down the street about twenty yards toward the sound, moving faster when she heard it again.

Where was it? She walked a little farther, searching. The houses here were spread out, many of them small ranches with horses and other livestock in the back. She saw nothing odd.

Nor did she hear the cry again.

She kept walking. As the last of the sun sank over the horizon, she came to the last house on the block.

It was a ranch style like the others, with acreage behind it. All the lights were on and there were a handful of trucks in the driveway. As she stood there, the front door opened and a man appeared in the doorway.

She couldn’t make out his features, but lifted a hand and waved, anyway.

He was still for a beat and then returned the wave.

“Did you hear an injured animal?” she called out.

But the guy had already turned back inside the house, shutting the door.

Frustrated and tired, and no longer hearing anything, she turned back and walked home. It was Sara’s boxing night—she’d signed up for lessons at the gym and wouldn’t be back until late. So as she entered the house, she was immediately accosted by Q-Tip.

“Meow!”

“Let me guess,” Emily said, dropping her purse and crouching to pet the cat. “You’re hungry.”

Q-Tip bit her ankle.

Emily hissed out a breath and stood up. “I’m changing your name to Satan.” She headed toward the kitchen to feed them both.

“Meow,” Q-Tip said, and ran between Emily’s legs, nearly killing them both.

After feeding the cat, Emily studied the sad contents of the fridge in order to feed herself. Nothing called to her, so she grabbed her purse, and headed back outside.

A quick drive-through would have to do, which she wished she would’ve thought of before getting all the way home—

She stopped, startled by a sudden flash of light that came around the side of her house.

Flight or fight? Flight. Always flight.

Slightly closer to the house than her car, she ran back up the walk while fumbling with her keys at the same time. “Come on, come on,” she whispered on the porch, and finally got the key into the lock, shoving open the front door. Shutting it hard behind her, she hit the lock.

And then the dead bolt.

“Meow.”

“Shh.” Emily rush to the living room window. Still in the dark, she peered out.

Nothing.

“Meow.”

“I already fed you,” she whispered, staring out the window.

Q-Tip rubbed her face against the ankle she’d bitten only a few moments before. Happily fed, she was feeling friendly now. Emily appreciated that but she couldn’t concentrate on anything but the light. She could see it again, farther away, maybe twenty-five yards. But it was on the other side of her house now, like maybe whoever held the flashlight had seen her coming and retreated behind the house, and then come out on the other side.

Why?

Then she heard the distant rumble of a truck engine starting, and headlights appeared, crawling down the street toward her, and she sucked in a breath. When the truck pulled into her driveway, she held that breath and shoved her hand into her pocket, finding the familiar and comforting weight of her phone. Should she call the police? She didn’t recognize the truck, and was so frazzled she couldn’t have said if it was one she’d just seen in her neighbor’s driveway.

It idled in her driveway for the longest ten seconds of her life before slowly pulling back out and driving off.

And then nothing.

At her feet, Q-Tip pulled out the last trick in her arsenal. She began to purr, gazing up at Emily innocently.

In the still of the night, with the only sounds now the rumbly purring and Emily’s own escalated breathing, her cell phone rang, startling her into near cardiac arrest. She answered while still staring out the window into the dark night. “Hello,” she whispered.

“Hey,” Wyatt said. “About tomorrow’s schedule—I’m on surgery detail, so we’re going to start half an hour earlier—” He paused. “You okay? You’re breathing like you’ve been running.”

“Yeah, I’m okay. Gotta question for you, what do you know about the local police response time?”

“Where are you?” he immediately asked.

“At home. I—” She heard the ding-ding-ding of a vehicle door opening, and blinked. “What are you doing?”

“Heading your way,” he said.

“No, don’t. I’m fine.” She moved into the kitchen, with Q-Tip following right on her heels. Emily passed by her bowl and Q-Tip stared at her balefully. “I’m just wondering,” Emily said into the phone. “Being out here in the boondocks and all, how 911 works.”

“The same as in L.A.,” he said. “Fast and accurately. Emily, what’s going on?”

It was his no-fucking-around voice, the one that both animals and people never failed to respond to. It would have taken a stronger woman than she to disobey his unsaid command to Speak, now. “When I went out to my car,” she said, “I saw a glimpse of a beam of light, like from a flashlight, on the side of the house. Except there’s nothing back there. I mean, our yard isn’t fenced in, so really, I guess it could be anyone out for a walk, but—”

“But who walks after dark in someone else’s yard,” he finished. “You inside with the door locked?”

“Yes. I ran in here, and when I looked out the window, the light had switched to the other side of the house. Only I didn’t pass anyone, so they had to have changed directions to come out the other way. I can’t think of why a casual walker would do that. It’s probably nothing . . .”

“Doesn’t feel like nothing,” he said.

“No. And then there was a truck. It pulled into our driveway, sat for a minute, and left.”

“Doesn’t sound like someone just out for an evening stroll.”

“No. But they’re gone.” She pressed her forehead to the window. “I’m fine now.”

“So you don’t want company.”

The house was dark and warm. Sara was gone for the night. If Wyatt came over, it wouldn’t be to guard her body. It would be to worship her body, and no one did that better than him. Even the thought made her weak. “No,” she said. “I don’t need company.”

Q-Tip, who’d given up on getting more food and was back to staring at Emily, seemed to smirk.

Emily rolled her eyes at the cat.

“Need and want are two different things,” Wyatt said.

“In this case, there’s neither,” she said.

“Liar. Double check your locks, Emily.”

“I will,” she promised, and disconnected. And then she did just that, checked the locks and shut all the shades while she was at it.

And then she turned on every light in the place.

Next up was a very hot, very long shower, and when she got out she put on her Mickey Mouse pj’s. She’d lost her appetite, so dinner was off the table.

“Meow.”

She scooped Q-Tip up and gave her a nuzzle, which the cat allowed for exactly five seconds before demanding to be set back down.

The knock on the front door nearly had Emily’s heart leaping right out of her ribcage. Q-Tip hissed and took off, disappearing down the hall just as a text came through.

It’s me.

Wyatt. Oh God. Her heart knocked against her ribs again, for a very different reason now.

Let me in.

She stared down at herself, winced, and then thumbed her response: You sound like the Big Bad Wolf.

His response was immediate: Yes. Let me in and I’ll show you what pretty eyes and teeth I have.

She laughed in spite of herself and opened the front door. Wyatt’s arms were up, braced on the threshold above, eyes dark and serious. “Are we going to be stupid?” she whispered.

“Define stupid.”

“Anything that involves either one of us exposing our favorite body parts.” Or their hearts . . .

“I’m going to want to hear about your favorite body part,” he said. “In great detail.”

She felt herself flush. “I’m wearing my birth control pj’s.” Which was a relief. They’d keep her from doing anything stupid.

He took in her Mickey Mouse pj’s, and exaggeratedly waggled a brow.

She laughed. “You can’t possibly find this look attractive.”

His expression said he found everything she wore attractive, and especially everything she didn’t wear, and little tendrils of heat slid through her belly.

And lower.

Wyatt followed her inside, turning to shut, lock, and bolt the door. Then he moved to her living room window, nudging aside the shades to look out into the night. “Is this where you saw the truck pull into your driveway?”

“Yes.”

“He see you watching him?”

“I don’t know,” she said. “I had the lights off.”

Wyatt stayed like that for another moment then turned to her. “Nothing since?”

“Nothing.”

“Where’s your sister?”

“Boxing lessons,” she said.

“With AJ?”

“Yes. How did you know that?”

“AJ’s got the only gym in town,” he said. “He’s a good friend.”

Emily frowned. “I hope she doesn’t hurt him. She doesn’t know her own strength.”

Wyatt laughed. “AJ’s ex-navy, tough as hell. No one gets the drop on AJ.” He moved to the kitchen and looked out that window as well. “I walked the perimeter of your house and didn’t see anything,” he said. “Your closest neighbor isn’t all that close, and that house is dark and locked up tighter than a drum.”

“It wasn’t a little while ago. There were trucks in the driveway.”

“Nothing there now.” He turned and looked at her. “You still scared?”

“Unnerved, maybe,” she said. “Not scared.” Not with Wyatt standing there, strong and watching her back.

He studied her a beat, then crooked his finger at her in the universal “come here” gesture. She didn’t even hesitate and when she got close, he tugged her into him. She burrowed deep, sighing as his arms tightened on her. Cheek to his chest, absorbing the comforting steady beat of his heart, she said, “I’m being silly, it was probably just someone who was lost.”

“It’s not silly to feel threatened,” he said, his voice rumbling against her ear. “You’re holding your breath. Breathe, Em.”

She let out a long, shuddery breath and a low, embarrassed laugh when her stomach grumbled. “Sorry.”

“You eat?”

“Not yet.”

He pulled back, grabbed her hand, and headed to the kitchen. “Dinner, then. I’m starving.”

“There’s not a lot of food in the house right now. I was actually going out to get some when I got spooked. I’ve got take-out menus to the places in town that deliver.”

“That’s a whopping total of two.” He shook his head. “Trust me,” he said, heading to her fridge. “I can make a meal out of anything.”

“Really?”

“Yeah,” he said. “Lived all over the world, remember? I was a professional latchkey kid. My sisters and I learned early on to make do with whatever was out there. And trust me, there was a lot of out there stuff. You know what I missed most about the States?”

Fascinated by the way his shirt stretched taut across the broad width of his shoulders as he bent low to survey the contents of the fridge drawers, not to mention how the material delineated the flex and pull of his back muscles, she took a moment to answer. “What did you miss most?”

Still crouched low, he craned his neck and flashed her a grin. “Big Macs.”

She laughed. “Yeah?”

“Yeah. I told my mom once that I was going to run away. I was going to catch a train, plane, boat, whatever it took to come back here, and get a Big Mac.”

“What did she say?”

“She said that as I was a scrawny, white boy all of eight years old, I wouldn’t like the jobs I’d qualify for in order to be able to buy a plane ticket.”

“She did not tell that to an eight-year-old!”

“She did,” he said. “She never believed in sugarcoating the bad in the world.” He pulled cheese and apples from the fridge and set them on the counter. “And I already knew the world was a rough place. Being scrawny and white had some serious downsides in Uganda and parts of South America. I learned to be tough early on.”

“You got in fights?”

He laughed a little. “More like I got beat up a lot.”

“Oh, Wyatt,” she murmured. “No.”

He shrugged. “It wasn’t a surprise. I was almost always the wrong color, and then there was Darcy and her big mouth—which got us in a lot of trouble.”

“I hope you don’t mind,” she said. “But I don’t like your parents very much.”

“It wasn’t all bad.” He’d been helping himself to the pantry, opening cupboards, perusing the shelves. He added peanut butter to his growing pile, and then tortillas. “I learned how to fight dirty, and to run real fast. Oh, and if all else failed, I was a pretty damn smooth talker when I needed to be.”

This was true. She had firsthand experience at what a smooth talker he was. In bed, she’d do just about anything he asked, and all because he had a way of asking . . . She shook that off and looked at him.

His grin went wicked. “I don’t know what you were just thinking about,” he said. “But keep thinking it.”

She rolled her eyes.

He found a pan and put it on the stove top. In five minutes he’d made two grilled quesadillas, cut up the apples, and spread peanut butter on them. “Not fancy,” he said. “But high in protein, anyway.”

Q-Tip magically reappeared when the food was ready. “Meow.”

Wyatt smiled and crouched low to meet her, scratching her beneath her chin.

“Careful,” Emily said. “She usually bites after about five seconds—”

Q-Tip rubbed her face on Wyatt’s thigh and began to purr.

“Cats like me,” he said.

Yeah, and dogs. And women . . .

They sat at the table, Wyatt with his long legs spread out, nearly touching hers. “Eating peanut butter always reminds me of my mom,” she said into the comfortable silence.

He licked peanut butter from his thumb. The sucking sound made her nipples go hard. “She like peanut butter?”

“She loved the stuff. We’d watch reruns of Friends and eat right out of the jar with wooden spoons.”

“Was she sick for a long time?” he asked.

“Unfortunately. She got an MS diagnosis when I was ten. She didn’t pass away until right before I left for vet school. She fought the good fight.”

“How does your dad do without her?”

“He pretends to be fine, but I think he’s struggling. It’ll be better when I’m back in L.A. and can do more than just send money.”

“You send him money?”

She shrugged. How had they gotten here? “Sometimes.”

“And your sister,” he said. “You helping support her, too?”

“She just got a job at a local construction company,” she said. “So she’ll be pulling her own weight now.”

Hopefully . . .

“So you’re the mom, the sister, the provider, everything,” he said, nodding. “Explains a lot.”

“What does that mean?” she asked.

He leaned in and gently tugged on a strand of her hair. “Don’t get all defensive.”

“Too late.”

He smiled, like she was amusing him. “It means,” he said patiently, “that I get now why you’re a little . . .”

She narrowed her eyes. “What?”

“Anal.”

“I am not . . . anal.”

He picked up her cell phone from the table. Swiped his thumb across the screen and hit calendar.

“Hey,” she said.

He turned the screen so she could see, not that she needed to. The Plan—really just the calendar date with two entries:

– 341 days left in Sunshine

– Check your bid on Wyatt

He arched a brow at her. “Bid on me?”

“Lilah’s doing that auction.”

“You bid on me?”

“Well, yes,” she said. “But only because I felt bad for you. Dell had way more bids.”

He laughed. At her, of course. Dammit. “I forgot about that thing.” He pulled out his own phone, and after a minute of wild thumbing, he set it on the table, looking smug.

“What?” she asked.

“I bid on you, too.”

Oh good Lord. “You shouldn’t have. I was outbid on you by Cassandra, and I don’t intend to put in another.” She snatched up her phone, and rising to her feet, she shoved it in a drawer. “And so I like to be organized, so what?” When she turned back, she nearly plowed into him.

He stroked a finger over her temple, down to her jaw, then back to her chin to hold her gaze in his. “Sometimes the best things are unplanned,” he said quietly.

Her gaze dropped to his mouth. It was a really great mouth, and the problem was that now she knew exactly what he could do with it.

He paused then closed his eyes a moment. Finally he took their dishes to the sink. When he’d rinsed them and slid them into the dishwasher, he turned to her. “It’s late.”

“I know.”

He came toward her, took her hand, and led her down the hallway. The first bedroom had posters of half-naked women on the walls.

“Sara’s room,” she said.

He tugged her to the last bedroom without comment, pulled back her covers and turned to her expectantly.

She climbed into bed, and then gaped when he started out of the room. “Wait– You’re . . . going?”

“To the couch,” he said.

“But . . . why?”

“I’m not leaving you alone if you’re still scared.”

This left her torn. She wasn’t still scared. In fact, she was convinced she’d completely overreacted. But if she told him so, he’d leave. “What if I said I wasn’t sure what I was?”

He came back to the bed and looked down at her from fathomless, dark eyes. “I’d help you decide.”

Liking the sound of that, she opened the covers and scooted over.

Gaze still on hers, he bent and swooped up the cat at his feet and gently set her outside the bedroom and shut the door.

“Meow!” sounded from the hallway.

“One female at a time,” Wyatt told her, and kicked off his battered sneakers.

Emily’s pulse kicked.

He reached over his head and pulled off his sweatshirt.

And then his T-shirt, which said: To Save Time, Let’s Assume I Am Never Wrong.

She laughed, and then held her breath, hoping his cargo pants were next because, though she loved how he filled them out, she loved, even more, how he looked without them.

But he slid onto the bed with his pants still on.

“You forgot something,” she said.

He pulled her into him and tucked her face into the crook of his neck. “I’m giving you a chance to make sure.”

“You can’t do that with your pants off?”

“Not around you. You’ll act first, think later.”

She laughed and gave him a shove, but didn’t budge him. After a beat, he rolled to his back so that she was sprawled over the top of him. His hands immediately slid to her ass.

“Tell me the truth,” he said, his voice rumbling through his chest and through hers. “You really still scared, or did you just hope to lure me into sleeping with you?”

She bit her lower lip.

He looked into her eyes and laughed softly. “Emily.”

“I can’t help it! We have all this stupid, ridiculous chemistry! And have you seen yourself?” She lifted her weight off him with her arms and glanced down at his bare, beautiful, chiseled torso. “You’re a little bit hard to ignore, Wyatt.”

With a groan, he closed his eyes but—she couldn’t help but notice—he kept his hands on her ass. “You shouldn’t tell me this stuff, Emily.”

“Why not?”

“I’ll take advantage.”

She paused for a long beat then nipped his chin as she pulled off his glasses. “I wouldn’t mind,” she said.

He swore low and rough, sounding deliciously strained. It was a thrill, as was the erection he had pressed between her legs. “Would it help if I told you I totally lied about being scared?” she whispered, and kissed one corner of his mouth.

His hands tightened on her. Squeezed. “From the get-go?”

“No,” she said. “Just from the time you showed up at my door and made me forget my troubles.”

He was still for a beat, and then he rolled again, pinning her beneath him, his hands stretching her arms above her head. His muscled thigh spread her legs, holding her open so that he could rest between them.

“Ding, ding, was that the right answer?” she whispered hopefully. Breathlessly.

He was laughing when he let go of her long enough to divest himself of his pants, produce a condom—thank God someone was thinking clearly!—and set it on the nightstand. “Just in case,” he said.

“I love just in case,” she said.

He laughed again, and kissed her.

She reached for the condom, and in the next moment he slid into her, and suddenly neither of them were laughing . . .

Fourteen

The next day Emily staggered home after twelve straight hours of being on her feet. A really rewarding twelve hours though, and she felt good about the animals she’d seen and treated, and in two cases, saved.

“Meow!”

She scooped up Q-Tip, gave her the allowed five second cuddle, and set her down before getting bit. She dropped her bag, kicked off her shoes at the front door, and followed her nose, which was twitching at the amazing scent coming from the kitchen.

Sara was there, still dressed in her construction gear, which today consisted of a man’s large T-shirt with the sleeves cut off, a black sports bra beneath, and a pair of guy’s cargo shorts. Oh, and steel-toed shit-kickers.

“I could kiss you,” Emily told her.

“Because I cleaned the place?”

“Because you’re cooking dinner.”

“Would you feel less like kissing me if I said I used your debit card to buy the groceries?” Sara asked. “Because my entire paycheck went to college debt.”

Emily sighed. She was tired of always being broke, but it was a way of life. She sniffed and nearly moaned as she headed toward the stove, shedding her scarf and sweater on the table. “I’m torn between feeling really guilty, and incredibly grateful.”

“Why the guilt? Because you’re a total slob who had shit all over this house, including two weeks of laundry that I finally did for you? Laundry that included a pair of torn panties stuffed into your jeans back pocket?”

Emily went still. “That’s old news.”

“And the whisker burn on your throat? Or the sound of a man walking down the hallway this morning, swearing when he tripped over Q-Tip somewhere around the crack of dawn?”

Emily grabbed the scarf and put it back around her neck, ears burning. Not such old news. . . “Let’s talk about you. Why are you becoming Miss Sara Homemaker all of a sudden, cooking and doing laundry?”

Sara pointed a wooden spatula at her. “Don’t make me hurt you. Grab a plate.”

“You didn’t have to do this,” Emily said, taking out two plates and silverware. “I take it you haven’t heard from Rayna.”

Sara sighed. “I wouldn’t know.”

“Huh?”

“I sort of blocked her phone number so she can’t call or text me.”

Emily stared at her. “Why?”

“Self-preservation,” Sara said. “Do you have any idea what it’s like to fall completely in love with someone, and then have them accidentally squash you like a grape? She seriously has no clue why I broke up with her.”

“And why did you break up with her?”

Sara went mum.

Emily sighed. They’d been doing this for a month now.

“Look,” Sara finally said, “it doesn’t matter why. What matters is that she was okay with me breaking up with her. So okay with it that she wanted to remain friends.”

“But that’s nice, isn’t it?” Emily asked. She took in Sara’s glare. “Okay, so not nice?”

“The f-word? Are you kidding me? I gave her the best two years of my life.” Sara picked up the pan, and with a jerk of her wrist, flipped a crepe and then slammed the pan back down on the stove. “Whatever. It’s done. I’m over her.”

“Clearly. Maybe if you told me why you broke up with her—”

“Bring it up again and no crepes for you.” Sara expertly deposited the crepe onto a plate and poured more batter into the pan. “So back to the torn panties and the man in our house.”

“I’m pleading the fifth,” Emily said.

“So I suppose you don’t want to discuss the whisker burn on your throat then, either.”

Emily tightened her scarf. “Don’t make me block your texts and calls.”

Sara’s sharp gaze landed on her. “That bad?”

More like that good. . . “Um . . .”

Sara studied her for a heartbeat, and then smiled. “You’ve extended the one-night stand. Nice.”

Emily plopped to a chair, set her elbows on the table, and dropped her forehead into her hands. “No. Not nice.”

“You still dig him.”

“No. Maybe.” She sighed. “I don’t want to dig him or his sexy self. But I keep losing my clothes when I’m with him. I was even wearing my Mickey Mouse pj’s and he liked them.”

Sara laughed. “You know, maybe these slut moments of yours are your body’s way of saying you need to loosen up.”

“Well, I can’t get much looser!”

Sara’s smile faded. “That’s not true. You’re still wound pretty tight.”

“Yes, because I’m trying to adapt to this latest side trip from my plan,” Emily said.

“Oh, for God’s sake. How many times do I have to tell you? Screw the plan, Emily. Life can’t be lived off a damn plan, babe.”

“Yes, it can,” Emily protested. “You have to dream it to live it, babe, and I have the dream all figured out.”

“Right,” Sara deadpanned. “L.A. Taking care of Dad. Some version of the John . . . There are so many stupid things wrong with your plan, I don’t know where to start.”

“Name one thing wrong with it,” Emily said.

“Going back to Los Angeles to try to reconnect with a guy who doesn’t even care what you’ve been up to? I mean, it’d be one thing if he’d called, e-mailed . . . texted.”

It was uncomfortably close to what Wyatt had voiced to her. “I can kill my own spiders.”

“Huh?” Sara asked.

“Never mind!”

“Listen, Em. Working at some fancy vet clinic isn’t the right dream for you.”

“Oh, but hiding out in Idaho and pretending all is well while hammering nails is?” Emily asked.

Sara stared at her, then turned off the stove and walked out of the kitchen.

Emily turned and looked over at Q-Tip, sitting on one of the kitchen chairs like she owned it.

Q-Tip gave her a long, slow, you-are-an-idiot blink with her yellow eyes. Emily sighed. Thunked her head on the table a few times—which didn’t help much—and got up, following Sara into their small living room. “I’m sorry. That was out of line.”

“Not really, since it’s the truth.” Sara had plopped onto the couch, feet up on the coffee table, her boots still on.

Emily bit her tongue over that, moved to the end of the couch, lifted Sara’s feet and dropped them to the floor. Then she sat, too.

Sara sighed and set her head on Emily’s shoulder. “I’m hiding out rather than face my stupid heart. Happy now? And you’ve been charging forward ever since—”

Emily shut her eyes. “Don’t.”

“—Mom died,” Sara finished.

Emily felt the stab of pain behind her left breast. It was a familiar pain by now. At first, after the funeral, she’d actually thought she was having a heart attack. In a very scary round of tests at the ER, she’d learned that anxiety could present like that.

Humiliating. Especially since Emily had refused to believe it at first. She wasn’t an anxious person. She was a person who missed her mom like she’d miss a damn limb. That was all. It was pure grief, and that it could manifest itself so powerfully, in such a physical way had left her feeling weak and even more unhappy.

So she’d read some books and learned that making definite plans was one good way to cope.

So that’s what she’d done.

She’d made some damn plans. “There’s nothing wrong with charging forward with your life,” she said.

“But it’s like you’re on a mission to live your life perfectly, without regrets,” Sara said. “But Emily, regrets are a damn way of life.”

“I know that. I’m living with that.”

“What regrets do you have?” Sara asked.

Laying her head back against the couch, she stared up at the ceiling. They had some cobwebs up there. Hopefully no spiders.

“Em?”

“I regret that Mom died so young.”

“I know,” Sara said. “We all regret that. But she gave us a lifetime of love. Remember what she always told us? Follow your heart, cuz a heart’s never wrong.”

Emily smiled, but it slowly faded. “I just meant that I hate she died without having anything to show for her life.”

“Nothing to show for her life?” Sara asked incredulously. “She loved her life.”

“We were poor, Sara. Dirt poor. Our apartment—”

“Was her home, and we were her life. She didn’t care about anything else. And I’m sorry, but you disrespect her memory by suggesting otherwise.”

Emily got that, she really did, but Sara hadn’t been around. Only Emily had known how much Mom had suffered in the end. “She could have had more. Dad—”

“Taught us to love ourselves and every other living creature. Sure, he’s a damn tree hugger, and he’d save a rattlesnake if it crossed his path, but hey, snakes are people, too.”

Emily choked out a laugh. “Face it, he could have provided better if he wanted to, Sara. He chose to spend most of his time at the shelters.”

“Yeah, well, he does have a real savior complex.” Sara slid her a look. “Like someone else I know.”

“Not me,” Emily said just as Q-Tip leapt into her lap for a rare nuzzle.

Sara laughed. “The apple never falls far from the tree.”

“Not true,” Emily argued. “Dad would save a damn ant crossing his path on the sidewalk.”

“Hello,” Sara said. “Have you met you? You had an ant collection when you were young and named each and every one of them. And Sassy. Remember Sassy? She was the bird you found on our back porch, the one who’d fallen out of a tree. You fed it baby food and made her a new nest on the ground until she could fly again. And how about Stinky, the baby skunk you rescued? You laid down the law, threatened to sleep outside in the grass alongside of him if Dad didn’t let you keep him.”

Emily stared at her. “That was different.”

“How?”

She squirmed a little. “Well, for one thing, I was a kid. I never did anything to the detriment of my family.”

“If that’s how you’re remembering things,” Sara said, “I don’t think we grew up in the same house.”

Emily blew out a breath.

“We always had a roof over our head. And food.”

Barely . . . But she knew Sara couldn’t ever really understand because she’d already been at college when the MS kicked in, leaving their mom unable to care for herself. Most people took for granted being able to do for themselves, but that had been cruelly wrestled away from the woman who’d always prided herself on her independence. The simple act of getting bathed, dressed, doing her hair, feeding her, everything, had fallen to others.

Emily’s dad had been drowning in his own grief knowing he was going to lose his wife, and as he had all his life when things got tough, he’d worked. Twenty-four seven. Whatever it took to keep him from having to face the truth. “You weren’t there when it got bad, you were in Chicago getting your PhD in philosophy,” Emily said.

“I know.” Sara sighed. “I’d call and Mom just kept saying she was fine, that I didn’t have to come home.”