Текст книги "Sleepless"

Автор книги: Cyn Balog

Соавторы: Cyn Balog
сообщить о нарушении

Текущая страница: 8 (всего у книги 13 страниц)

CHAPTER 17

Julia

A car horn beeps in my driveway, right on time, but by then, I’ve been sitting in the hallway for a full twenty minutes, twiddling my thumbs anxiously. I almost called to cancel with Ebony about fifty times, but then I decided I was just being stupid. Everything that had happened to remind me of Griffin was only a coincidence. That is the most logical explanation, and a hell of a lot more believable than the idea that his ghost is haunting me. School is out. I should be happy. Instead, for the past two days, I’ve been walking around scared of my own shadow, when in two weeks I’ll be going to New York City. Growing up. This is no time to slink back into being the poor victim that everyone thinks I am.

I slide into the backseat, next to two other girls. Ebony is driving, and the girl in the front passenger seat, Gloria, is smoking a cigarette. When Ebony speeds away, the hair I spent an hour trying to get just right blows around like a tumbleweed, in a cloud of thick smoke. Perfect. As I’m smoothing it down, Ebony glances at me in the rearview mirror. “So we’ve all been talking about you. And we want to know. Give us the scoop.”

My first thought is Oh, God, they saw the kiss. The kiss that I’ve regretted since the second it happened. I didn’t even need a pinch in the ass for that. Luckily, since then, Bret has probably been too busy recovering from his hangover and preparing to walk the football field in his cap and gown to track me down. “Um, what?”

“Duh. The hot guy at lunch?”

Oh, him. I’d almost been able to forget him. Well, sort of. I still catch my breath when I remember those gorgeous dark eyes. But there is really nothing to tell. I convinced myself that he had the wrong Julia. “I have no idea who he is,” I say.

The girls sigh collectively. Clearly they were looking for some good dirt. The one next to me, Amber, laughs, and I can smell something fruity on her breath. Peach schnapps. I think they already started drinking, without me. She says, “I was hoping he was your long-lost brother or something, and you could fix me up.”

Ebony turns onto Main Street. “He was fine. I still think he was a stripper. He looked like he had a nice bod under that tux. What did he say to you?”

“Nothing really.”

“Oh, wow. Totally mysterious. Maybe it was a strip-o-gram. Too bad the bell rang before he got naked for us.”

I shrug, doubtful. The guy was hot, but stiff; he didn’t look like he was ready to peel off his tuxedo shirt. Besides, who on earth would send me a strip-o-gram? Griffin, maybe. No, not possible. It was a mistake. That’s all. He just had the wrong girl.

When we arrive at the party, I look up at the stately white colonial. All windows are lit, and I can see the outlines of people. It’s almost like the walls are pulsing in beat with the music coming from inside. Screams and shouts emanate from the brightly lit backyard. I hold my hands together, since they are about to drip sweat onto my denim skirt. Every party I’ve ever been to, I was cut off from the rest of the world. I had my two bookends, my two buffers, shielding me from the outside. Now I can’t stop quivering. It’s nerves, yes, but something more. Excitement. Before, my outlook was limited, but now anything can happen.

Amber wraps her arms around Gloria and the other girl and they stumble toward the front of the house. Yep, definitely drunk. I follow them like a tail, wishing I had the guts to join in. Ebony stuffs her keys into her wristlet and says, “Let’s get this party started.”

The second we get inside, my body is smashed up against the wall. It’s that crowded. I try to follow Ebony, but she’s so tiny that she squeezes between two football-player frames and disappears into the mass of bodies. Great. I’m not sure what gave me the impression when Ebony said we should go together that we’d actually stay together. All the people in the room, pressed together like they are, look foreign, like students from some other school. They still seem to be enjoying themselves; I can barely breathe. I begin to wonder if it’s possible for me to survive a party without Griffin and Bret. I push my way through, into the kitchen. It’s not much better here, but there’s an open door across the way, and I can feel the night breeze on my forehead. I push forward, being knocked here and there, until finally, I put my hand on the knob of the screen door and throw it open. Freedom.

Quickly, I step down, toward the massive in-ground pool, wishing I had someone, anyone, to save me, even …

“Hey, you.”

Even Bret.

“Hi,” I say, relieved, thinking, So what? Being with Bret is definitely better than being completely alone. “Congratulations, Mr. High School Graduate.” I throw a hand onto his chest, not meaning to suggest anything, but he takes it and starts to massage it. He doesn’t speak. He’s just smiling dumbly, swaying to the music, eyes half closed. And that’s when I realize something. He’s not swaying to the music. He’s swaying as in ready to topple over. And his eyes are half closed, as in two steps away from dreamland. He’s falling-down drunk.

“Bret,” I say. “Let’s go sit down.”

“Oh, yeah yeah yeah,” he slurs, pulling me by the wrist. We pass plenty of open lawn chairs, but he keeps tugging me, nearly falling over the side of a miniature wooden bridge into the koi pond below, before leading me into a darkened cabana room. There are two couches, and when I realize they’re both occupied by couples doing things I probably shouldn’t be an audience to, I look away from them, embarrassed. He escorts me toward a mat that’s been set up on the ground, all cozy and covered with pillows. As if he was expecting to take me here. Reluctantly, I follow, then manage to set him down and stand over him. I don’t know what he’s thinking, probably a whole lot of nothing.

“You should just rest here,” I say. I make a move to leave, but then I realize I don’t have anywhere to go.

He reaches up from the pillows and yanks on my hand. “Stay.”

I sigh. “Fine,” I say, and kneel down next to him, trying not to get too close or too comfortable. But he has other plans. He moves in. I shift my body away from his.

“Julia.” He says my name so singsongy, so passionately, I have to laugh. It’s not possible to be that drunk and still be romantic. But he keeps trying. He strokes my face. “You are so gorgeous.”

I squirm away. “Stop, Bret. Just rest.”

“I don’t want to,” he says, his tone changing. Suddenly, he sounds annoyed. “Stop saying that.”

“You’re drunk.”

“I’m not so drunk that I don’t know what I want.” When I see his face in a sliver of light filtering through a cabana window, he looks really pissed, worse than I’ve ever seen him. Then he leans toward me again, going in for a kiss.

“We can’t,” I say, giving his chest a little shove back.

“Why not? Don’t you get it? Griffin and you … never would have worked. He was going away. I’ll be here. We can—”

“I’m going away,” I tell him. “I’m going to the city in two weeks, for the rest of the summer. For the Architectural Journal.”

His eyes narrow. “What? I thought you—”

“I know, but I got in. There was a cancellation.”

This is where any ordinary friend would be happy for me. Instead, Bret’s face sinks in misery. That smile—the permanently glued one—has peeled from his face. He looks around haggardly, like he’s trying to find something to throw, and then his eyes focus on me. “You can’t. You can’t,” he moans, his voice climbing an octave.

“I’m going to, Bret.”

“Fine! And I’ll be stuck here, in Loserville. Alone.”

He looks at his feet, and I sit there awkwardly. As a good friend, I should be offering him compassion. So I reach over and wrap my arm around him. And that’s when he turns and clamps his wet mouth on mine. This time, it feels exactly like it did in the dream, like a vacuum, sucking me dry. He grabs me by the shoulders and then pushes me back, pinning me against the mat. I’m so shocked that I’m caught breathless as he grinds his body against mine. I try to say something, to scream, but his mouth is on mine and he’s stealing all those words from me. The most I can manage is a muffled “Stop,” but it’s so powerless that it doesn’t have any effect.

At once, the pressure is lifted. I open my eyes, but my sight is blurred. “I believe she asked you to stop,” a voice, edged with authority, says.

An angel? Griffin?

My vision clears, but in the darkness, all I can make out is the outline of Bret, breathing hard. Someone is holding him by the arms. He struggles to release himself, then shakes himself loose from the hold he’s in, spilling his beer. It’s wet between my toes. The other figure pushes him toward the door of the cabana, away from me. I see Bret’s face, white like the moon, in the minimal light, but it’s blank of all understanding of what has just happened. Finally, he mutters, “Jules …,” but he can’t seem to get anything else out. He staggers away, head down, leaving me alone with this stranger.

His frame is smaller than Griffin’s, though he’s just as tall. He moves closer, extends a hand to me. The light streaming through the window casts an aura upon his back, yes, just like an angel. In the dark, all I can make out is that he’s wearing a suit jacket. He’s very well dressed—too well dressed for a high school graduation party.

I take his hand, and as he pulls me to my feet, he murmurs to me, “Julia, I have a message for you.”

CHAPTER 18

Eron

I lead Julia out of the cabana. I realize it’s the first time in sixteen years that I’ve ever touched her skin. It feels just as I imagined: warm, smooth. Her fingers are delicate and thin, like flower stems.

She’s still trembling, babbling, trying to smooth down her hair. When we’re in the moonlight, she drops my hand, seeming self-conscious. “Bret’s a good friend of mine,” she explains. “He’s just drunk. I am sure he didn’t realize what he was doing.”

I shake my head. My fists are still clenched. As Mr. Anderson slinks away, I see my stepfather’s cruel face on his body. Mr. Colburn was right. “You do not know what he was thinking.”

She squints at me. “And you do?”

“I—” I begin. “No, I just—” I hold my tongue when I realize I appear more mentally unstable than Bret Anderson.

“But thank you,” she says. “You’re that guy from school yesterday. You have a message for me?”

“Yes,” I say. I’m fairly certain Mr. Colburn is with his charges, holding up his end of the promise. There is no chance he would have let his best friend take such liberties with his girlfriend without interfering himself had he been watching. So now is the time for me to hold to my promise. “You … you need to be careful. To stay away from people like that.”

“Like I said, he’s my friend.” She wraps her arms around herself and lets out a short laugh. “Was that a message from my mom?”

“No, actually …” I stop before I can get out the words. My mouth knows what to say—It’s a message from Griffin Colburn—but my head won’t let me say it. She’s still trembling. I think back to last night, when we were luring her to sleep and she quivered in the same way. Clearly she is in no state to hear this news. Not now. “It’s not exactly a message. It’s more of an observation. Er … you need to be careful.” I feel my face growing hot; this is all too familiar ground that I’m treading on. I sound like a fool, like I always have with women.

“Bret wouldn’t have hurt me,” she repeats.

“He would have,” I mutter, thinking of Mama. She said the same thing about my stepfather. He may not always act good, but he’s a good man.

“How do you know? Who are you, anyway? Why is it any business of yours?”

I forget that though I’ve known her since she was an infant, I’m still a stranger to her. This is frightfully awkward. “It’s obvious you need some looking after, if you consider that young man to be a friend.”

She sighs and scans the yard. “It was a mistake coming here. I’ve got to go.”

“Allow me to escort you home,” I offer.

She gives me a sour look. “You could be a serial killer for all I know. I can take care of myself.”

“Oh?” I say, pointing a thumb toward the cabana.

“At least I know Bret.” She studies me. Curse that Harmon for not having suitable attire for me; it puts me at quite the disadvantage. “Are you from the museum or something?”

“No. I’m not from around here.”

“Obviously.” We both turn toward a commotion as someone dives into the pool across the yard, splashing several young ladies, who shriek and scream. Julia turns back to me, her face forlorn, and takes a step backward, toward the gate. “Really, thanks. But no thanks. I’m tired. I’d better be going home.”

I’m not human enough yet to have lost my sense of her needs. She’s so riled up by adrenaline that she’s nowhere near sleep. Still, I don’t think she would be happy if I told her that. “Sleep is very important,” I agree.

She lets out another short laugh. “Are you sure you’re not conspiring with my mom?”

“I do not understand what you are suggesting.”

She mutters, “Sometimes I think she’s not from this planet, either,” and turns away from me. She unlocks the latch on the gate, pushes it open, and slips beyond.

It’s impossible simply to turn away, to forget someone whose life I have valued more than my own for sixteen years. Since I am the one who didn’t believe Mr. Colburn when he said she was in danger, the least I can do is make sure his beloved is returned safely to her bedroom. So I follow at a distance as she hurries down the street, her hands in the pockets of her jacket.

Several blocks pass. I tread softly in the grass, and she never turns to look back at me, so at first I think that she doesn’t know I’m there. Then, in a streetlight, she stops. She doesn’t turn around, just shouts out at the night sky, “Could you please leave me alone?”

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to bother you,” I say, walking toward her.

She whirls around, her face blank.

“I want to make sure you return safely home,” I explain. “Where I am from, a gentleman never lets a lady walk alone at night.”

She raises an eyebrow. “Gentleman?”

I catch my breath. Is that an obscure word these days? “Ye-es.”

“Well, I’m almost home,” she says. I know it’s a lie, as I could find her house in a blizzard. Sandmen have a strong tie to the homes of their charges; I feel comfort and security, as from a familiar blanket, whenever I’m near one. I don’t feel it at all now, and I doubt it is because I’m becoming more human, because I felt it strongly only last night.

I can’t very well tell her that, so I say, “I see,” and let her continue. I follow, as before.

A few blocks later, she whirls around again. I see a small light in her hand; it’s her portable telephone. “I have my cell. Nine-one-one is being dialed as we speak.”

“Nine-one-one?” I wonder aloud. Is that a new way of referring to the telephone?

She sticks out her chin. “I am calling the police,” she answers, her face saying, Perhaps you’ve heard of them?

I hold up my hands. “Oh, no. Please. No need. I’m simply returning to my home as well.”

“Where do you live?”

“Hart Avenue,” I say. It’s not necessarily the truth but it’s not a lie, either. And though I’ve been there only once, I am nearly sure that Hart is in this direction.

“Oh.” She continues on, silent, this time faster. She’s quite athletic and jogging at a steady pace, so I find it difficult to keep up. My muscles ache; they haven’t been tested in such a way in a hundred years. Ten minutes pass. I huff like a locomotive, wondering if I will survive the next few blocks to her home. Then, just when I’m certain she’ll run into her house and shut the door without another word to me, oblivious to my panting and dying on her front lawn, she calls back, “What’s with the strange clothes?”

I smile through my labored breath, pleased to be making progress. “Where I’m from, you’d be the one dressed strangely.”

Thank goodness, she slows a bit. “And what planet is that, again?”

“Er. Canada.”

“Canada?” she asks, her brow wrinkling. “Are you here visiting someone?”

“No, I have … relocated here,” I say. “If you can suggest a place of employment, I’m looking for work.”

“What kind of work can you do?”

“My previous job was at a textile mill. I was a picker.”

“A picker? What’s that?” she calls back. Then, without waiting for a response, she says, “You can work in the mall. They’re always hiring.”

“The … mall?”

She stops, turns toward me. “Don’t they have malls in Canada?”

I hope she can’t see how breathless and weak I am from this distance. I shake my head.

She shrugs. “Interesting.” Then she turns back again, and I resume my chase. Finally, at the walk beside her house, she points, as if I don’t have every last shingle and blade of grass outside it memorized. “This is me.”

I nod, and just in time, because when she turns back to me, I feel a twinge. Looking down, I can barely see my hands. My body was twitching and aching so much from the exertion that I didn’t realize I was already beginning to fade. Luckily, it’s too dark for her to notice anything, or else I’m sure her screams would have woken half the neighborhood by now. “Good night, Julia,” I say quickly. “Sleep well.”

She gives me a quick nod and hurries inside. A few minutes later, light floods her bedroom window. I wait a few moments, until I’ve completely faded, then scale the tree. Mr. Colburn is there, at his post, chewing on his lip, watching her. He sees me coming up and offers a hand to hoist me to a nearby branch. “And?” he asks.

I nod. “You were right. About that friend of yours.”

“What?” His voice is ragged. “Did he hurt her?”

“No. But he might have, had I gotten there a moment later.” He’s standing up, getting ready to climb down the tree. “Where are you going?”

“To his house. I’m going to put him to sleep. Forever.”

I grab him by the sleeve of his tuxedo jacket. “You’ll do no such thing. You will surely go to the Last Place.”

“But see? I told you he was no good for her. So you let her know? About me?”

“No,” I say. He whips his head around and focuses on me, jaw tightening. I can tell he doesn’t know how to deal with disappointment; he’s used to getting his way. “I delivered the message. But she has already been through quite an ordeal. I didn’t see how telling her of you would improve things.”

“You don’t get it. It will,” he says. “She needs to know I’m there for her.”

Despite his being correct about Mr. Anderson, it’s still obvious that this is more about helping himself and less about helping Julia. She doesn’t need to know of his existence as much as he wants her to. “You actually believe that her knowing you’re there will make her feel safer?”

“Yeah. You don’t?”

“Well, certainly,” I say, my voice dripping with sarcasm. “She’ll probably check herself into an insane asylum because she’s hearing the voice of her dead boyfriend. I suppose she’ll be very safe there.”

He threads a small twig from the tree through his fist, pulling off all the leaves. “You don’t know her like I do.”

That is true, I think. I know her much better. “Mr. Colburn, things between you and Julia will never be the same again, even if you could let her know you’re watching her. I am sure you are not so selfish as to put your own vanity ahead of the happiness of others.”

He’s silent.

“Let her live her life.”

For a moment I think that perhaps my words are penetrating that thick skull of his. Then he says, “Bret has it coming to him.”

I see the gears in his head turning, and I don’t like it one bit. “Mr. Colburn, if you hope to become one of us, there is nothing you can do.”

“You said Sandmen protect their charges. But you’re going to let him get away with what he did? You know he’ll do it again. Julia’s too nice. Too naive.”

“It’s not that,” I say, but even as the words come out, I know he is right. Even as I argued with her, she was protecting Mr. Anderson, calling him her friend. She has no idea what she’s up against. “If you put him to sleep forever, you will ruin my chance at becoming human, and your chance of assuming your powers,” I say softly.

“But,” he says, “if you were the one who put him to sleep …”

I meet his eyes in the darkness. “What makes you think I’d risk—”

“Because you’ve done it before,” he says, grinning triumphantly.

I swallow. “What … what do you …”

“Chimere covered for you, right?” He shrugs. “Too bad she isn’t the best at keeping secrets.”

I clench my fists. Cursed Chimere!

“I didn’t know you had it in you, old man. You could have gone to the Last Place for years, if Chimere had told the elders. But she didn’t. You’re her pet, right? Still … I think the elders would be very interested if I told them, don’t you? You’d both end up in the Last Place. Right?”

I think about the last human whose life I ended, all those years ago. I suffered, yes, but even now I’d do it again, and again, if I had the choice. And looking at Mr. Colburn, his face red with rage, I know that he isn’t bluffing. I know that if he had the opportunity, he would damn both me and Chimere to the Last Place to protect Julia. I know he’d go there himself if he had to.

Perhaps we have more in common than I thought.

I whisper, “Yes. I will take care of it.”

Julia was seven when she was kidnapped by a horrible monster and made to spend three days in a dark, dirty trailer. I’m not sure how or why this creature selected her; all I know is that one morning, she and her mother left the house on a shopping trip, and that afternoon, her mother returned, alone and frantic. And when I sought out Julia to perform my duties, I found her whimpering in fear, curled into a ball on the floor of the vehicle, not three miles from her home. The man didn’t hurt her, other than scraping one gash in her cheek for every day he kept her. I saw his dreams. I know that he planned to do much worse to her, to hurt her in unspeakable ways. Ways I didn’t think possible.

I spent two days watching over her, keeping her safe. Keeping her asleep so she wouldn’t be afraid. So that every remaining night she spent on this earth wouldn’t be filled with nightmares.

But I knew how it would end if I did nothing.

After Mama, I simply could not stand by and let those despicable things happen to Julia. Not when I had the power to stop them.

I knew I had to take care of him.

And so I know, all too well, what Mr. Colburn must be feeling. Mr. Anderson sleeps as I stare over him, readying myself to perform the seduction. Readying myself to end his life. My hands shake. I spent my entire trip here hoping that the second time, it would be easier. But, no. I turn away, feeling my heart hammering in my chest. No.

The monster in the trailer dreamt of hurting Julia. I saw the knives. I could see his memories of other girls he’d hurt, and I could sense that he was proud of that. I look around Mr. Anderson’s room, hoping to find something, anything, to convince me that this boy is a monster as well. But there is nothing … just running trophies, pictures of performers, piles of classic novels and books on rocketry and science … It all seems so typical and benign. That is when I notice something on the bulletin board behind his desk. Pictures of Julia, all of them smiling down at me. There are some pictures of Mr. Colburn as well, but for the most part, they are Julia. In one, it’s just Julia and Mr. Anderson … and someone has drawn a heart around it.

I turn to him. Julia was right. You wouldn’t have hurt her. You’re in love with her.

My body quivers. What was I thinking? Mr. Colburn clearly has no idea what he is asking. Ending a life is not something to take lightly. This is a boy, not even a man. He can redeem himself. I had no hope of using my powers as Sleepbringer to save Julia from that madman in the trailer; she was trapped. Luring that man to death was my only choice.

But Bret Anderson is not the same threat to Julia. And if he does try to hurt her … in a few days, I will be human. I can devote my life to ensuring her safety.

That will be my unfinished business.

I take the sand from my pocket and spread more than the normal share over him. As it settles, I whisper in his ear, “If you ever see Julia again, you will apologize profusely. And you will never, ever lay another finger on her. Understood?”

He tosses his head and mumbles a yes.

The girl with the white-blond hair fumes at me. “What was that all about?” She runs to him, puts her hand over his forehead. “He’s going to sleep all day now.”

I nod and step to the window. “Exactly.”