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Lie To Me
Sexual Misconduct
Volume Three
Bethany Bazile
Copyright © 2014 by Bethany Bazile
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This book is a work of fiction. Any references to historical events, real people, or real locales are used fictitiously. Other names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination, and any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
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About Lie To Me
It was all too much. There was no way I could keep piling up these lies without it all tumbling down.
I was desperate to keep her, even if it meant I had to lie to her. But when everything unravels, the only thing that can save us is the truth in our love.
Table of Contents
Prologue
Mother May I
Turnabout is Fair Play
The Walls Have Ears
Lie To Me
Make it Stop
We’re Done
Who Are You?
Your Mom for Mine
Atonement
Lunchmate
Houseguest
Drunken calls
Hangovers
Mended Bonds
Irreversible
Anything
More Sessions?
Epilogue
Part Three
Prologue
Avery
The house was unusually cold as I crept down the stairs. It was pitch dark, the glow of flashing blue-and-red lights outside the window illuminating my way. I paused at the stairway landing, my grip tightened on the handrail, and a chill spread, pebbling gooseflesh on my skin.
I stood there staring at the two silhouettes framed by the glass partition in the door for several minutes. I was stuck, frozen in place. My parents were three hours late, and police officers were knocking at my door. I was old enough to know something tragic happened, and the preemptive fear gripped me.
“Do you think they left her with someone?” The question was slightly muffled through the door.
“The nurse who worked with her mom said they didn’t have any family around here. The girl has to be home,” a second voice replied.
One of them banged on the door more aggressively and shouted, “Avery.”
My heart pounded as my bare feet slid across the wood floor. When I swung the door open, both officers looked at me with an expression I’d never forget. The look I spent the rest of my life eluding.
Pity.
I always thought my parents were all I needed in this world. My mom’s parents passed before I was born, and my dad’s parents passed away within years of each other before I turned five, but we were happy.
My parents were both only children, so that meant our small family had become miniscule. But it was all right because our love made it feel like we were a world full of loving people in one home.
But on this one rare night, I decided to stay home, curled up with a book and leftovers from the night before instead of joining my parents at the movie. Before they left, I joked about them needing time alone—a date where their thirteen-year-old daughter wasn’t sitting in the middle.
I spent the night in my room with calming rain pattering on the window and my favorite weathered novel as a companion. That night someone took them away from me. In a matter of hours, I was alone in the world and suddenly missed what I never thought I needed. Family. Anyone who could help me find my way out of the dark hole my life became.
I was angry and bitter, but all that stemmed from the loneliness I felt. I spent nights wishing I’d gone along with them. Then we could still be together. I changed that night, and I don’t know who that girl would’ve grown up to be if she still had her parents. It took a lot of years to become who I am now—to let go of the anger and hate. Especially the hate I felt for the driver who took them from me. For years, I thought that person had paid for the drunken accident with her life. Turned out, I was dead wrong.
Mother May I
Xander
I sped down the road toward my mother’s house. The night had stretched out as I watched Avery snuggled up against me in my bed. I hadn’t slept at all. I hadn’t even tried to.
In the last twenty-four hours, everything started to fit—pieces of a scattered puzzle coming together in my scrambled mind. How my mom knew Avery. Why she was so nervous when she saw us together. Why she’d never mentioned Avery to me in all the years she knew her.
Things came together in my head, but I still had questions—gaps in the scenario that needed filling. And my mother was the only person who could give me the answers I needed.
I pulled up to my childhood home, cut off the engine, and looked upon the large, updated white colonial. It was passed down for centuries and given the name Pierce Manor by my great-great-grandfather. Living in that house, I’d always felt protected, maybe even overprotected, and Ian hated me for it.
Even as children, our relationship had been strained. On the rare occasion when Ian would let me in, even the slightest bit, I was hopeful our relationship would change. But that never happened, and I gave up trying over a decade ago.
I couldn’t understand why my parents always felt like they needed to protect me from things. Ian thought they loved me more, but I always felt they thought I was weaker, and that shit never sat right with me.
At this point, I was tired of it all. I would always live with the consequences of what I’d done, but I wanted nothing more than to move on from it all and attempt to be happy.
I used my key to get into the house. I called out to my mother but got no answer as I walked through the foyer, down the hall, and into the large kitchen. It still had the same rustic feel from when my grandparents used to live here, only with a modern flare.
The French doors leading to the back of the house were pushed open, so I walked through them and found my mother on the patio, facing her garden. She sat at a small wrought iron table that was set against the back of the house. I quietly took the seat across from her, leaned my elbows on the table, folded my hands, and gazed at her through narrowed eyes.
She frowned, her smile fading, eyebrows furrowing as she tried to interpret my body language. “Good morning, Xander,” she said cautiously.
I nodded but remained mute.
She tilted her head as she stared at me. Then her frown deepened. “Have you eaten anything yet?”
I shook my head, and she began to gather her tea cup and newspaper as she rose. “Mother…” I glanced up at her, but she continued to fuss with the items on the table. Then she scurried inside to make me a breakfast I never asked for.
She’d obviously read my expression correctly and was attempting to avoid the conversation we really needed to have. She’d held back for weeks. No… years. This thing with Avery’s parents was no secret to her, and I needed her to answer some questions and figure out how tangled up we were in this web of deception.
I followed her into the kitchen, watching her pull things out of the refrigerator. “Mother?”
She ignored me so I walked up behind her and grasped her wrist as she reached for another item.
“Stop, Mom.” I spun her around and pushed the refrigerator door shut. “May I ask you a question?” She looked me in the eye but didn’t respond. I met her steady gaze. “May I?”
Her shoulders sagged as she resigned to face what needed to be put out in the open. She nodded. Reluctantly.
“Were you ever going to tell me about Avery’s parents? Were you ever going to tell me I…” It was hard to even say it out loud because it became so real once the words left my mouth.
She shook her head vigorously. “I didn’t want you to find out. I didn’t want either of you to find out.”
I snorted. “So Avery’s parents were never friends of yours?” I knew, but I wanted to hear it.
She shook her head again, this time slowly. “How’d you find out? Your father had everything sealed.”
Not tight enough.
“Marcus.” My one-word answer was enough explanation for her. We both knew Marcus was very resourceful and had connections as strong as my dad’s. She nodded. “Are you going to tell me how you became part of Avery’s life?”
She sighed, then took a seat at the table, waiting for me to join her. Once I sat, she pulled my hands into hers and held them. “After that night, I kept thinking about the people in that car and who they left behind. How their lives would be changed by the tragedy.”
I tried to pull my hand back, but she held on tight. She wasn’t the only one who was haunted by thoughts of the family that had been destroyed by me. At least she’d been strong enough to actually find out more about them.
“I found out they had a little girl, and when I was told she was going into foster care… I just wanted to make sure she’d be okay. So I visited her, made up the family friend thing as an excuse to check up on her every now and then.”
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
She frowned. “You were destroyed by the whole thing. I couldn’t put that kind of guilt on your back. You wouldn’t even come home anymore. How was I supposed to tell you that you’d left a little girl orphaned?”
“You don’t think I deserved that guilt?” I shook my head and yanked my hand away. “I deserved more than that. I should’ve taken responsibility for the whole thing.”
“No, it was an accident.” She squeezed my hand, trying to get me to look her in the eyes,but I couldn’t. “You were angry and hurt. You weren’t thinking clearly, Xander.”
“You and Dad kept telling yourself it was an accident so you didn’t have to deal with how fucked up I am.” I stood, ran a hand through my hair,and looked down at her.“I never meant for anyone to die, but it wasn’t an accident because I was irresponsible. I was high, I was drunk, and I was angry.” I mashed a finger against my chest with each of those facts.
I pressed my palms against the table and leaned in so she could look into my eyes and see who I really was. Not just what she wanted to see, but what she tried to conceal so others wouldn’t see. “It was a toxic mix that sent me spiraling, and everyone paid for my mistake but me.”
“No, Xander.” She stood and cupped my face. “Don’t you see you’ve paid? No matter how much your name would’ve been dragged through the mud or how much time you would’ve spent in jail, it would never be as damaging as the pain you carry in here.” She tapped her finger over my heart.
“It’s been twelve years and you still carry around that hurt. You can’t sleep, you’ve tried to erase it through drinking and women—and yes, I know about the women.” She raised an eyebrow because obviously my dad or Ian had told her about the string of women who passed through my life.
Her hand swept across my face. “And now you’re in love with Avery… and this may take that away from you. So don’t tell me you haven’t paid.” She blinked, an unsettling look crossing her soft features. “Does she know?”
I shook my head. “I don’t know how to tell her.”
She dropped her hands away from my face and sat back down in a heavy heap. “I can’t tell you what to do. I’m guilty of lying to her too, and… she’s such a special girl—I mean woman—but to me she’ll always be that little redheaded, strong-spirited girl who pretended she wasn’t broken by what happened.”
I sat down and squeezed her hand. “Thank you for being there for her, Mom. For trying to fix the mess I made.”
“We all made a mess out of things, and maybe it’s time we fixed it. If you decide to come clean to her, I’ll be there for you no matter what happens.” She leaned in closer and smiled sadly. “I see the way she looks at you. She loves you, Xander. You have to believe it’s going to be enough to get you two through this.”
I nodded because the words sounded great in theory, but I still couldn’t see this ending happily if the truth came out.
Turnabout is Fair Play
Avery
My hands were behind my back, my legs spread, Xander’s right hand over my mouth and his other in between my legs. I was sitting on his lap, my back to his chest, his hard cock nestled in the ridge of my ass. Occasionally, he’d bite my neck as his heavy breaths caressed my ear.
This was supposed to be a session. Our sessions had gotten more emotional over the weeks, but before he’d pour out his emotions, he needed to drain the physical need that always clawed at us.
I whimpered against his hand.
“Shut up or Angela will hear you. Do you want that?” His tone was blunt, his voice raspy at my ear.
I shook my head, but how was I supposed to keep quiet when his fingers were driving into me, slithering along my clit, then gliding back into my wet pussy. The man was sinfully amazing. He was fully clothed but had managed to get me to strip down to my garters and heels, on the verge of begging him to fuck me.
He’d spread my legs as far as I could possibly get them. He was taunting me. Ever since the day I’d sucked him off in my office and made him lose control, he’d waited for this moment. He had a leash on me. It wasn’t your typical kind either. His leash came in the form of magic fingers and a glorious cock that compelled me to follow his orders to a tee. His finger manipulations became faster, pushing against my sweet spot, then rubbing against my clit. It was just enough pleasure to keep me on the edge, and he’d kept me there for almost half an hour.
If he wasn’t careful, my next appointment would walk in and he’d still be working me with his phenomenal digits. “Pleeease…” I gasped through the hand he held over my mouth.
“Do you understand how this works?” His voice was unreasonably calm while I was riding in limbo, tasting little morsels of pleasure, but not allowed to indulge on the feast I was promised. I nodded. Anything to get him to release my orgasm from his ruthless grasp.
“My pussy. I decide when you come,” he informed me.
“Your dick is mine—I should… get to decide.” He withdrew his fingers and smacked my pussy for my comeback answer.
Holy fuck!
The sting buzzed against my clit. I swear I almost came from that tap. One more and I was sure to go over. Maybe I can goad him into repeating it.
“That’s not how it works. I decide when we both come,” he growled.
“When do I get to decide?” I countered.
He plunged two fingers deep into my pussy and I quivered. “When I tell you to ride my dick and make me come. Now…you have sixty seconds to come, and don’t disappoint me.”
I was expecting him to aggressively fuck me with his finger, but he didn’t. He just pushed them deep into me and curled them over and over against my G-spot, forcefully tugging my climax from me. His thumb slid against my clit and he released his hold of my mouth and used his other hand to pinch my nipple.
“Xander… Xander…” My voice screeched loudly as I begged.
“Don’t you fucking scream or you’ll be indicted on sexual misconduct charges before you manage to get dressed. Is that what you want?”
I pushed my head back against his shoulder, my neck strained as I shook my head.
“Do you want dear old Angela to hear you come apart in my hands?” He leaned in and sucked on my neck, overwhelming me until I became defeated by a storm of sensations.
I bit down on my lip, twisted my hips, and rode his hand to a release that ran up my spine and caused me to spasm from the pleasure. I broke skin on my lip and tasted blood in my mouth as I tried to writhe away from Xander. The intensity was too much, but still he continued to tamper with my pussy, causing aftershocks that made me want to shout out.
He pulled his fingers out of me, and I slumped against him. He slipped an arm around my waist, kissed my neck, and said, “You’re so fucking amazing.”
“Do all our sessions have to start this way?” I asked.
“If you want me to talk, you have to give me some incentive.” He bit my neck, causing another shiver to tighten my muscles.
“I’m really beginning to enjoy all this sexual misconduct.” I turned around and straddled him, rubbing his erection through his pants.
He pulled my hand away and shook his head. “Keep your hands to yourself.”
I pouted. “Come on, you want to. I can feel how much you want it.” I tried to grab him again, but he held both my hands behind my back.
“Do you remember a few weeks ago when you forced me to come down your throat? Right here in this office.”
I nodded as I tried to hold back my smile. It had been so much fun making him lose control.
“Do you also remember how you wouldn’t let me touch you afterward? I really wanted to fuck you until you made those sweet sounds that make my dick harder.”
I stared at him because I was pretty sure where this was going.
“Well, turnabout is fair play.”
I scowled at him. “Your dick’s going to suffer if you don’t let me give you some relief.”
“But you want to make me come more than I want to come, so get off my lap, Dr. Shaw. We have a session to commence.”
I stood up and grumbled, “I hate you.” I turned and started to pull my clothes on, then yelped when he bit me on the ass. I threw him a dirty look over my shoulder.
“What did you say?” He cocked an eyebrow at me with a huge grin on his face.
“I said I hate that you’re keeping my favorite toy from me.” I bent down and kissed him before walking toward my desk. “But you’re right. I’m going to have to start reserving three hours for your appointment if we keep this up.”
I returned to my chair with my notepad and glasses. Xander watched me as I slipped them on. I smiled at him. He knew I had a weakness for his dimples and I knew he had a kink for my glasses and garters. I watched him make an adjustment at the front of his pants as I settled into my chair.
“Where did we leave off last week?”
“Guilt,” we said in unison.
“You’re harboring way too much guilt, Xander. And the person you want forgiveness from can’t give it to you. You have to learn to forgive yourself.”
“It’s a lot easier said than done.” He slumped into his chair, massaging his forehead with his fingers as though a headache were building. As soon as Xander stepped into my office for a session, his demeanor changed. Talking to me about his past sickened him, but he refused to seek help elsewhere.
“Can I ask you a question?”
He stared at me as if to continue but didn’t respond.
“What happened after the accident? How come this isn’t all over the newspaper somewhere?”
He stiffened and broke eye contact. He covered his mouth with a fisted hand, and the silence stretched on for quite a while. “My dad made sure no one ever knew I was the driver.” He turned back to me, then said, “And I let him, so how could I not feel guilty?”
“Do you wish you would’ve taken responsibility?”
He snorted. “Every. Single. Day.”
“I know this is going to be a long road for you, but I feel like you’re regressing. All the progress you made before we went to California evaporated when we came back.” Something changed with Xander after his meeting with Marcus in California. But after almost a week, he wasn’t letting me in on that front.
“I’m not regressing. I’ve just been facing the fact that I impacted a lot of lives.”
“Continuing to blame yourself will not bring her back.” And it wouldn’t help the insomnia that had become increasingly worse in the past week.
“But you’re biased. You want to believe I’m blameless so you can keep fucking me.”
What?
“So you think I can’t separate my personal feelings from my profession?” I put my notepad down and glared at him.
“I think—no—I know you didn’t want this thing between us, but you can’t control it, so you need to make it okay for yourself to be with me.”
“I want to make it okay for you! I want you to see that people make mistakes—huge ones—but that doesn’t make you a bad person.” I stood and walked across the room.
“And what if that mistake ruined lives? Cost someone their life?”
“Xander, listen…” I sat on the coffee table, facing him. “You don’t have to explain to me how much at fault you were in this accident.” He gave me a look when I said accident. “You have to figure out a way to forgive yourself. Covering this up was a shitty thing to do, but it’s too late now. What is it going to take for you to realize you’ve already atoned for your sins? Twelve years of remorse for something you never intended.”
He rubbed a hand over his face. “When everything gets taken away from me. Turnabout is fair play in any situation, Avery, and I feel like it’ll be coming my way soon.”
And I felt like he was always waiting for the other shoe to drop. It was hard for him to embrace happiness, and that was something I fully understood.
