Текст книги "Reclaiming the Sand"

Автор книги: A. Meredith Walters

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Because sometimes the silence said more than words.

-Ellie-

I knew the moment we got close to the ocean. The landscape completely changed. I had lived my entire life surrounded my mountains and hills. It’s all I ever knew.

So the brush and windswept trees and flat, endless expanse was like an alien planet. Seagulls swooped and soared above the trees and the sun seemed brighter.

I rolled down my window so I could smell the salt in the air.

“Roll up the window!” Flynn said, sounding irritated.

“I just wanted to smell the sea air, Flynn. It’s not a big deal,” I murmured, rolling the window up.

“It’s too loud. I don’t like the noise,” he replied, relaxing again now that the sounds of traffic were drowned out by his music.

“Sorry,” I said, trying to hide how irked I was.

Flynn drove through populated urban areas as he headed toward Sandbridge Beach. I was fascinated by everything I saw.

Slowly the sights and sounds of the city gave way to sand dunes and quaint beach shops. We followed the road and I could see the ocean outside my window. I had only ever seen that perfect blue on television. Now I was seeing it with my own eyes!

“Look, Flynn!” I gasped, hardly able to believe what I was seeing.

Flynn didn’t look; he was entirely focused on his driving. He was consulting the paper he had written his directions on and starting to look anxious.

“This isn’t right. I should have been able to turn right back there. But there was no road.” I recognized the panic on his face and I knew he was minutes from a meltdown.

“Let me drive, Flynn. I’ll get us there,” I said softly. Flynn shook his head.

“I’m driving. I have to do it. But there should have been a road back there. There wasn’t a road. The directions said there would be a road. See, I wrote it there,” he pointed to the paper he had propped up on his dashboard so he could see it.

I had tried to convince him before we left to use the GPS on his phone. I had explained it would make it easier to find our hotel once we got to Sandbridge. Flynn had adamantly refused, saying he’d write it down. I knew he felt better when he wrote things down. But I had worried something like this would happen.

“Can I have your phone?” I asked, careful to keep my voice calm.

“There wasn’t a road back there! There was supposed to be a road,” Flynn was saying again.

I knew he was dangerously closed to losing it. I reached over and picked up his phone from the center consol. I found the navigation app and plugged in the hotel’s address. The directions popped up a few seconds later.

“Look, Flynn, you can turn right at the next light. It’s okay,” I said, trying to reason with him. I showed him his phone.

“No, it said turn back there,” Flynn said again. He had slowed down to fifteen miles an hour and there was a line of cars behind us. Someone laid on the horn and Flynn gripped the wheel so tightly I thought he’d snap it in half.

I needed to get him to pull over so I could drive us. But how was I going to do that and not push him further into his meltdown?

“Flynn, listen to me. I think you need to pull over. I can drive us. You can relax and let me take over. Please. For me,” I said. I made sure not to touch him. I knew that would be disastrous.

“Flynn, please,” I said again. Suddenly Flynn jerked the steering wheel hard to the left, the wheels crunching over seashells and sand on the shoulder of the road. He threw the car into park and pushed open his door, jumping out and almost into oncoming traffic.

People were laying on their horns. Several were yelling out their windows at Flynn who was now pacing in front of the car, rubbing his hands.

I didn’t get out of the car right away. I stayed where I was and watched him. Every time someone honked their horn, he covered his ears.

Eventually his pacing became less intense and his hands stopped wringing. I got out and went around to the driver’s side and got in. I didn’t say anything to him. He would come when he was ready.

I pulled up the address on Flynn’s phone and sat it on the dashboard. Murphy was whining again in the back seat. And I waited.

We were sat there for another fifteen minutes before Flynn got in the passenger side. He wouldn’t look at me. He kept his head down. He put on his seatbelt and positioned his body so he was angled away from me.

“The hotel is fifteen minutes away,” I said, putting on the blinker and pulling back out into traffic.

Flynn didn’t say anything. I knew he was embarrassed. He was always shy after his meltdowns. But I tried really hard to act as though nothing had happened. The last thing I wanted was to make him feel worse about something he couldn’t control.

My empathy for Flynn was surprising in so many ways. I had been told my entire life by therapists and social workers that I possessed an inability to empathize. I was missing the crucial part needed to identify with others. I had been labeled. Defined. Explained and diagnosed. And every single one of them had been wrong.

Because I understood Flynn. I connected with him. I wanted him to feel as good as he made me feel.

And that was completely contradictory to everything I had been told to believe about myself.

I turned up The Cure and allowed the music to soothe him in a way my words never could.

Despite Flynn’s humiliation, I could tell he was starting to perk up. He looked out the window at the ocean and I saw his smile.

“You’re going too fast. The speed limit is twenty-five,” Flynn told me, pointing to the speed limit sign as we passed it.

I looked down at the speedometer and saw that I was only going five miles over, but I slowed down anyway, much to the annoyance of the people behind me. Well, they’d have to just get over it.

“Don’t follow too closely to the car in front of you. Keep at least two car lengths between you,” Flynn frowned, pointing to the vehicle in front of us. I was tempted to smack his pointing finger away.

It was like traveling with a talking driver’s manual.

“Actually, that’s just on the highway, Flynn,” I countered. I had passed the written exam the first time. He wasn’t the only one who knew his road facts.

Flynn made a noise that sounded suspiciously like a snort. I glanced over at him and his mouth was curved upwards into a smirk. I don’t think I had ever seen Flynn smirk before. It made me grin.

“You’re right. That’s on the highway,” he agreed.

“Wow, I knew something Flynn didn’t. We need to mark this day on the calendar,” I teased.

Flynn frowned. “Why should we mark it on the calendar? That’s stupid.”

It was my turn to snort. “It’s a figure of speech, Flynn. We won’t really be writing it on the calendar,” I explained.

“Oh. Well that’s a dumb figure of speech and it makes no sense,” Flynn replied.

“Whatever.” I rolled my eyes.

Soon we were pulling up in front of an older but nicely maintained hotel. It looked as though it were well past its prime but was trying like hell to hold on to its relevance. But it was right on the beach; I could see the ocean line from the parking lot. I liked it instantly. We were lucky to get such a good deal because it was off peak and the tourist season was dwindling down. So I wouldn’t complain about the dated awnings and the garish paint job.

I parked the car and looked over at Flynn who was absently scratching Murphy’s head and staring out the window toward the open ocean. The beach was mostly empty. Only a few people on boogie boards were braving the most likely cold October water.

“Let’s go check in,” I said enthusiastically. Flynn’s mood was still off but he seemed to be coming around.

Flynn didn’t move right away. He continued to rub Murphy rhythmically. The dog was loving it, not picking up on his owner’s odd temperament.

“Flynn? Are you ready?” I asked.

Flynn nodded and climbed out of the car, slipping Murphy’s leash over his head. The three of us walked into the small lobby and approached the front desk.

It was quaint and clean. The reception area was decorated with your stereotypical seashells and jars of colored sand. A large fishing net covered in starfish and sand dollars hung on the wall.

“Hello, welcome to Sandbridge Inn! Can I get your name?” the elderly woman with a very impressive blue rinse and whose name tag read Paula, asked, giving Flynn and me a bright and friendly smile.

I looked at Flynn but he didn’t answer her. He was chewing on his bottom lip again and he was wrapping Murphy’s leash around his hand over and over again.

“Uh, Hendrick,” I said, smiling to cover for Flynn’s rudeness.

He was looking around the lobby and he didn’t look happy. He looked upset.

Paula with the blue rinse tapped away at the computer until she found our reservation. “Just two nights right?” she asked.

I nodded, glancing at Flynn again. He was still completely disengaged.

I sighed; I couldn’t help it. I had wanted this to be perfect. But it seemed I overestimated Flynn’s ability to handle this.

It made me completely rethink my earlier frustration about his refusal to move away with me. Looking at him now, anxious and unhappy, I knew that perhaps I was thinking too much about what was best for me and not thinking nearly enough about what was best for Flynn. Being unselfish kind of sucked.

“Here you are. You’re booked for the King Suite with the extra $50 pet deposit.” She leaned over the counter to look at Murphy, who was being surprisingly well behaved.

“My, he’s a big boy, isn’t he?” Paula asked, her eyes widening as she took in Murphy’s massive girth.

“Yeah, but he’s a gentle giant,” I assured her. I remembered how nervous the other volunteers at the shelter had been when Murphy had arrived. He was huge. And his size alone made people nervous. But that was before it become clear his size was the only intimidating thing about him.

“Can I give him a treat?” the woman asked and I nodded.

She came around the desk, holding out the small bone for Murphy to take.

“Don’t give him that!” Flynn barked, stopping her. Paula startled and instantly backed away.

“Flynn. It’s fine. It’s just a treat,” I reasoned, trying to give the now flustered receptionist a comforting smile.

“No, he doesn’t eat until six. Then he has his treats an hour after that. Not before he has his dinner. You know that, Ellie!” Flynn’s voice rose and I recognized the tightening of his shoulders and the rigidity of his jaw.

Great, another meltdown.

“You’re right, Flynn. No treats,” I said calmly, though Murphy had started whining because he could smell the bone.

“No treats, Ellie! He has them after his dinner, not before,” he repeated and I nodded my head.

“After dinner. Not before,” I said quickly, knowing how this looked to Blue Rinse Paula. She hadn’t said anything as she watched us warily. So much for a good first impression.

Flynn thankfully calmed down and started scratching Murphy’s head again. The pair of them settled.

Paula’s smile was now a little brittle as she handed me the key to our room. “Take the elevator and get off at the fourth floor. Take a left and follow the hallway to the end. Your room is number 410. There’s a continental breakfast served every day at seven, though you can’t take your dog into the dining room.” She had abandoned all pretenses of politeness and now seemed ready for us to get to our room and out of her blue rinsey hair.

I looked over at Flynn who was staring holes into the floor. “Room 410, Flynn. It’s at the end of the hallway on the fourth floor,” I said. He nodded.

“Room 410. End of the hallway on the fourth floor,” he repeated. Paula was looking at Flynn, her face pinched and judgmental as I had seen so many times before.

I grabbed the key from her hand a little more aggressively than I meant to. “Stop looking at him. He doesn’t like it,” I hissed under my breath, low enough so Flynn couldn’t hear me, but loud enough that she got my message loud and clear.

She straightened her spine and puffed her chest indignantly. We weren’t going to be given the favorite guests award, that’s for sure.

She practically shoved the paperwork into my hand and I narrowed my eyes in warning. Without another word, I turned back to Flynn and put my hand on his arm. He didn’t jerk away, leaned into me instead.

“Come on,” I said softly, taking Murphy’s lead from him. He lifted up our bags and followed me to the elevator. I could feel the tension radiating off him but I hoped once were settled in our room he would be okay. This wasn’t the best start to our mini-vacation.

Once the doors closed and we were moving upwards, it became clear that Flynn and elevators did not mix. He pressed himself into the corner and took deep, shaky breaths. He looked ready to have a panic attack. We weren’t thirty minutes into our vacation and I was already exhausted and wondering if we shouldn’t head back to home.

Then the doors opened and Flynn rushed passed me into the hallway. Murphy tried to pull me after him, thinking it was a game. Flynn found our room quickly and I handed him the key. Once we were inside, I stood there, gaping in shock.

The room was huge! A king sized bed dominated a good portion of the room. But there was also a small seating area with a coffee table and television. A desk was pushed against the wall with a floor lamp beside it. There was a coffee maker and a microwave and a small refrigerator tucked into the wardrobe.

But it was the view that held me captive. The entire far wall consisted of sliding glass doors that led out to a small balcony overlooking the rolling ocean. The sun was sitting low in the sky, cutting a path of color along the water.

Murphy trotted inside and jumped up on the bed, making himself right at home. Flynn closed the door behind him and looked around.

“It’s clean. That’s good,” he said, clutching his hands together. He was nervous. I was awestruck.

I walked toward the glass doors, feeling the pull of the sand below us. I pressed my hand against the glass.

“It’s beautiful!” I breathed.

Flynn didn’t respond, not that I expected him to. I couldn’t believe I was here and it was all thanks to the man behind me, whose nerves radiated off him like the waves crashing along the shore.

I turned to face him and found that he hadn’t moved any farther into the room. I bit down on my resentful irritation. Why couldn’t he be normal just this once? I thought hatefully before I could stop myself.

And then I felt guilty for thinking that at all. I wouldn’t be there if it weren’t for Flynn. He was doing this for me. For him. For the both of us. It wasn’t fair to be annoyed by things he couldn’t control.

But it didn’t stop me from wishing like a selfish brat that he’d suck it up, just this once.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. It’s not his fault. I reminded myself over and over again. He did this for you.

I opened my eyes and crossed the room back to Flynn. I picked up our suitcases and put them on the bed. “Let’s unpack and put things in their places. You can make sure you’re comfortable before we decide what to do next,” I suggested.

Flynn nodded and joined me by the bed. The next hour was spent taking out clothes and hanging them in the wardrobe. Then he placed his toiletries in the bathroom exactly how they were positioned on his sink at home. He and I looked in all the nooks and crannies until he knew the room inside and out.

I saw that he was starting to calm down. He had stopped rubbing his hands, though he continued to gnaw on his bottom lip.

I found Murphy’s bowls and filled them with food and water. He scarfed it down quickly and then resumed his nap on the bed.

“Do you want to go to the beach?” I asked, hoping he’d say yes, though deep down knowing better.

Flynn sat down tentatively on the bed. “I don’t know,” he said, turning his attention to the glass doors. I was dying to go for a walk on the sand. To get my toes wet in the waves. But I couldn’t rush him.

“How about we open the doors and walk out on the balcony first. See how you feel about it after that,” I prompted.

Flynn stared out the window for a while longer then nodded. “Okay,” he agreed, though he still sounded nervous.

I opened the sliding doors and waited for Flynn before stepping outside. There was a strong breeze coming off the ocean and I felt the salt sticking to my skin. I licked my lips, tasting it on my mouth.

“It’s cold,” Flynn said.

“Do you want a sweater?” I asked him. He shook his head.

“No, I’m okay.” He crossed his arms over his chest and looked at the picture before us.

“What do you think? Is it as horrible as last time?” I asked.

Flynn shrugged his shoulders. “It smells just as bad. Like fish. It’s gross. And I don’t like how sticky my skin feels. I need to wash my hands,” he held his palms out like they were bothering him.

I took one of them in mine and squeezed. “I think they feel just fine,” I told him.

Flynn smiled but was still looking out at the ocean.

“It’s pretty,” he said quietly.

“It is,” I nodded.

“I like being here with you. It makes me happy. Does it make you happy?” he asked, sounding worried.

I turned him by his shoulders so that he was facing me. I lightly grasped his chin between my fingers and pulled his face so that he was finally looking at me. I rubbed my thumb along his lower lip.

“I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my entire life. Thank you, Flynn, for bringing me here with you,” I said sincerely.

Flynn’s shy smile caused my heart to twist in my chest. This strange emotion surging forth inside me that I knew without a doubt was love, made tears sting my eyes.

We stood that way for a while; our hands clasped together, the breeze from the ocean swirling around us. I laid my head against his chest and felt the thud of his heart beneath my ear, lulling me with its steady comfort.

Flynn’s hands pulled away from mine and then came up to press into my back as he held me. He so rarely put his arms around me that I soaked up the moment.

“I love you, Flynn,” I told him, not expecting or even needing a response. And it didn’t hurt when I didn’t get one. I knew he loved me. His actions had always told me what I needed to hear.

“I have something for you,” he said after a few minutes. I looked up at him to find his green eyes dancing.

“You do?” I asked.

He walked into the room and I followed, closing the doors behind me.

Flynn dug into his bag and wrapped his hands around something small, concealing it with his fingers.

He held his arm out, his hand closed in a fist around the mystery object.

“Give me your hand,” Flynn said with a touch of his customary impatience.

I did as I was told and he placed something in my palm.

I looked down to find a miniature sand castle. I held it up to the light so I could see it better. It actually seemed to be made of sand. It glinted and sparkled as I moved it.

“This is amazing,” I enthused.

Flynn hung his head, not looking at me, but I could tell my appreciation of his artwork made him happy.

“It’s so you can remember coming to the beach. All of those other sculptures were of places you’ve never been. You’ve been here now. You should have a sculpture of a place you’ve actually seen,” he said, a hint of joy in his voice.

I curled my fingers around the tiny sand castle and held it over my heart. “Thank you, Flynn,” I said, my voice cracking and breaking.

Flynn didn’t say anything more, but his soft smile remained on his face.

-Ellie-

We decided to get dinner at the hotel. I didn’t think Flynn would be up to going someplace different. Not when he was just finally settling into his new environment. Even though I was dying to eat at one of the little seafood shacks that dotted the beach, I knew concessions would have to be made.

We left Murphy sleeping in the room and went down to the small bar. Flynn ordered a steak and I got clam chowder with a side of fries. The place was empty, and it was good for Flynn that we were the only customers.

The bartender tried to make polite conversation but soon realized Flynn wasn’t up for chitchat. After Flynn reminded him that he should be working and not talking to people that are trying to eat, the bartender left us to our dinner.

“He was just being nice, Flynn,” I said softly after the bartender left, his cheeks flushed in obvious embarrassment.

Flynn wasn’t concerned in the least for the bartenders hurt feelings. “I’m hungry. I want to eat. I don’t want to talk to someone I don’t know.” He reached out to take a handful of my fries and looked at my face.

“You don’t like it when I do that, do you?” he asked, his hand, filled with fries, hovering over my plate.

“Not really. You have your own food,” I pointed out. Flynn opened his fist and dropped my fries back onto my plate.

“Sorry,” he mumbled and returned to his steak.

“It’s okay,” I said and then took a few of my fries and put them on his plate.

“But I thought you didn’t want me to eat them?” he asked, confused, but picking one up and putting it in his mouth.

“It’s okay if I give them to you, Flynn. Just don’t take them without asking,” I explained.

He liked that explanation and he ended up eating all of my fries anyway.

After we finished our dinner and Flynn had paid a still very put out bartender, we wandered into the lobby.

Flynn seemed ready to head back to the room for the night. But I hated to waste the evening. I couldn’t go back up into the room without sticking my toes into the sand. I needed to feel it for myself. It was time to do a little pushing.

“Flynn, I’d really like to go out to the beach,” I said, bracing myself for his refusal.

Flynn was quiet, his hands shoved into his khakis. “Okay,” he said after a beat.

“Okay?” I asked, hardly able to believe how easy that had been.

His eyes met mine briefly before they skittered away again. “Yes. Let’s go to the beach. I know you want to see it. I want to make you happy.” I couldn’t stop my grin from spreading across my face. It stretched my cheeks so much it hurt.

“Let’s go get Murphy, we can walk him at the same time,” I said, sounding like a little kid.

We took the stairs instead of the elevator and hurried to our room to get the dog. I grabbed my coat and reminded Flynn to get a sweater knowing it would be cold and then we were heading back downstairs.

I could barely contain my excitement as we crossed the street to the stairs that led down onto the beach. I sat down on the bench and quickly removed my shoes and socks.

“Are you going to take your shoes off?” I asked Flynn.

He hesitated and I reached out to take his hand. “It’ll be okay,” I coaxed and he bent down and untied his shoes and slipped them off his feet. His toes curled and he made a face as his bare feet made contact with the sand covered pavement.

But he didn’t say anything, and I figured so far so good.

“Are you ready?” I asked, holding my hand out for him. Murphy had already taken off down the steps and was running circles in the sand. Flynn watched his dog for a few minutes before putting his hand in mine.

We walked down the steps and the second my feet hit the sand I giggled. Ellie McCallum actually freaking giggled!

I set my shoes down by the steps and walked forward a few feet, digging my toes in the still warm sand.

“Oh my god! This is unbelievable!” I gasped, bending down and burrowing my hands in the sand by my toes.

I realized quickly that Flynn was being extremely quiet behind me. I turned around and found him only a foot from the bottom stair. His feet were in the sand but he was definitely agitated.

“Flynn?”

“Just, leave me alone. Please,” he said, shaking his head furiously. I opened my mouth to say something else but decided to give him his space. I didn’t move any closer but I didn’t move away either. I sank down and sat down on the beach, watching Murphy burrow his nose in the sand and kick it up behind him as he raced to the shoreline.

I don’t know how long I sat there, waiting for Flynn to compose himself. It could have been minutes. It could have been hours. The light was slowly bleeding from the sky and the air was getting chillier, making me glad I remembered to bring my jacket.

I felt Flynn beside me before I saw him. I looked up to find him gazing down at me, frowning.

“You want to walk down to the water?” I asked, praying that he’d say yes. I wanted to experience this with him so badly. I didn’t want to pressure him but god; I wanted to have this one perfect moment with him.

Flynn wiggled his toes. “I hate it. It’s getting stuck between my toes. It’s rough and itchy and I want to wash it off,” Flynn said, stringing his words together in a rush of panic.

“Well, let’s go down to the ocean and wash them off,” I suggested. Maybe I was being selfish for pushing this, but I couldn’t help it. I needed him to do this with me.

“Okay,” he said, giving me exactly what I wanted.

I jumped to my feet and thought about taking his hand but figured that wouldn’t go over too well right now. We walked in slow, measured steps to the lapping water. The closer we got, the louder it became. Flynn covered his ears with his hands.

“It’s too loud,” he yelled, though he didn’t need to. I could hear him just fine.

We kept walking until we reached where the water met the sand. Flynn hadn’t dropped his hands and Murphy was running circles around us in his excitement. I wanted to get closer but I knew this was as far as Flynn would be willing to go.

A wave broke on the shore and water surged toward us, washing our feet. Flynn made a face but didn’t retreat.

“It’s cold,” he said.

I nodded. He was right. The ocean was really cold. But it was awesome.

“I’m going to walk closer. You can stay here. You’ll still be able to see me,” I promised.

Flynn clung to my hand. “Don’t go far. Promise,” he demanded.

“I promise,” lifting his hand and kissing the back softly.

I jogged to the water. I rolled up my jeans and waded in up to my shins. Murphy was barking at me from beside Flynn who looked ready to run away.

I knew I should go back to him. But I couldn’t make myself. Not yet. A large wave crashed and I squealed as the water rushed forward, soaking the bottom of my pants.

I was laughing hysterically by the time I pulled myself away from the ocean and returned to Flynn’s side.

“You’re laughing,” he observed, watching my face.

“I am. That was fun,” I said, unrolling my pants.

“You’re happy,” he replied, his own smile reaching up to touch his eyes.

“Yep. And so are you,” I said, pointing to his grinning face.

He laughed, an awkward sound.

“I am. You make me happy,” he said. He reached out and cupped his hand behind my neck, shocking the hell out of me.

He yanked me forward with enough force to make me stumble. I laughed again.

“What are you doing, Flynn?” I asked him; my heart thudded almost painfully in my chest. I had never seen this side of Flynn. He had never tried to take control of our physical interactions. That had always been left up to me.

But he was taking control now.

And it was hot.

He didn’t give me a chance to say anything else. He smashed his mouth to mine with a bruising clash of teeth. I pulled back slightly. “A little softer, Flynn. I don’t want either of us breaking a tooth.”

Not surprisingly, he didn’t pick up on my teasing, but he listened to my suggestion. His lips were gentle when they returned to mine and he kissed me with a passion that made my toes curl.

The wind picked up and swept my hair in our face and Flynn batted it away but he never stopped kissing me. His hand continued to hold my face while the other came up to wrap around me.

This was real. This was perfect.

This was absolutely right.

Flynn pulled away abruptly, his mouth tender and swollen. “I want to walk on the beach. Will you come with me?” he asked and my mind was still trying to play catch up from being overrun by my raging hormones.

“Uh, sure,” I said, blinking in confusion.

Flynn held my hand in his and called for Murphy, who was chewing on a piece of driftwood.

After the unexpected display of affection, I wasn’t sure what to say. I ran my fingers along my lips. They still tingled from being pressed to his. I noticed that Flynn’s face was flushed and I could tell he was worked up. But I also knew that we had once again hit his invisible wall.

We were only able to physically connect so much. But something told me he was trying to push himself for more. And that both thrilled and frightened me.

We had been walking for twenty minutes when Flynn stopped suddenly.

“What do you think those are for?” he asked, pointing to large boat with what looked like a crane on the end just off shore. It rumbled loudly as it scooped sand and deposited it closer to the break line.

I watched the machinery at work for a while and then realized what it was doing.

“I think it’s reclaiming the beach,” I told him.

“It’s loud, can we walk a bit longer?” Flynn asked, covering his ears. I nodded and whistled for Murphy again as we quickly moved away from the boat.

Once it was quieter, Flynn lowered his hands again.

“It was making the beach bigger,” he stated.

“Yeah, it seemed that way. You know how the beach erodes away after a while and those must put the sand back,”

Flynn nodded. “The sea takes it away, until there’s nothing left. And the boat puts it back.”

“Yeah, I guess so,” I agreed. Flynn stopped walking and suddenly sat down on the sand. I joined him, followed by Murphy who tried to wiggle his way between us, resting his head on Flynn’s lap.

Flynn placed his hand on Murphy’s large head and stared off into the distance at the machinery still dredging up the sand.

“It’s important to put it back. If they don’t, the beach will disappear,” Flynn said, still watching the sand being reclaimed.

“You’re right,” I said softly, my words floating out on the wind.

We sat huddled together in the cooling air, watching as the boat returned the beach to where it belonged.

I sat there, the waves crashing in their soothing symphony and realized I was like the sea eating away at the beach. I had taken and destroyed heedlessly. I had grabbed Flynn’s sand and carried it away, not caring about the consequences.

And in the process I had washed away and lost myself.

But Flynn had scooped me up and put me back where I belonged. He gave me my beach back.