Текст книги "Desperate Chances "

Автор книги: A. Meredith Walters

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Maysie obviously hadn’t told everyone about her new bundle of joy. She shook her head. “It’s a little early in the day to be boozing it up, don’t you think?”

Vivian grabbed Maysie’s discarded drink and swallowed half of it. She gave us all a wobbly smile, the alcohol obviously already having an effect. She always had been a cheap date. “It’s 5:00 somewhere.”

I swirled the straw around my drink, dunking the cherry and watching it pop back up. I really wanted a taste. What would it hurt? Just one little drink didn’t mean I would have to have the whole thing. I wondered if it tasted as good as it smelled.

“Let me get that out of your way.” Mitch reached across the table and slid my temptation to the end of the table and replaced it with a glass of water.

“Oh. Uh, thanks,” I stammered, feeling ashamed for my slip up.

Mitch lifted his shoulders nonchalantly. He was used to riding to my rescue.

“So I want to hear more about this new job,” Mitch said to me.

“Thanks,” I replied instead of answering him.

He didn’t ask what for. We both knew what I was referring to. It wasn’t just him taking the drink away. It wasn’t just him taking an interest in my new job.

It was everything he had ever done for me.

Mitch knocked his leg against mine again and gave me a sweet, sweet smile. “I read your last article about the Japanese beetle problem in the state. I had no idea they were so destructive.”

I made a choking noise. “You read Southern Garden magazine?” I asked him incredulously.

Mitch ducked his head shyly. “I like the stories.”

“Yeah, and I bet you read Playboy for the articles too, buddy,” Cole mocked, wiggling his eyebrows and glancing at me.

I ignored Cole. It was the easiest thing to do. I grinned at Mitch though and his cheeks turned red. Was that because of me?

“I should have known you were a closet dendrophiliac,” I teased.

“What in the hell is a dendrophiliac?” Mitch scoffed, trying not to laugh.

I leaned forward and Mitch leaned forward too. “You get turned on by trees,” I whispered and he let out a loud laugh.

“You’re making that up!” he accused.

I widened my eyes innocently. “Nope. It’s totally a thing. Google it.”

“No, I believe you. But trust me, I don’t become aroused by bark,” he protested with amusement.

“Aroused by bark? What in the hell are you two talking about?” Vivian jumped in, knocking over her drink. Liquid sloshed across the table and ended up in my lap.

“Vivian! You suck!” I screeched, jumping to my feet. I looked down at my wet pants. “Great, now it looks like I peed myself!”

“Oh, yeah, it does. Sorry about that, Gracie,” Vivian apologized.

I climbed out of the booth, glaring at my roommate and her annoying boyfriend who was laughing his ass off.

I hurried to the bathroom and tried to dry myself the best I could. My phone rang mid-clean up.

“Hello?”

I shouldn’t have answered. I should have let it go to voicemail. But I didn’t. Because I had briefly forgotten how caller ID worked.

“Darling, there you are! I’ve been trying to call you all morning.” I balled up the paper towels and threw them in the trashcan with a little more force than was necessary.

“Hi, Mom,” I said through gritted teeth.

“Where have you been? What is the point of having a phone if you never answer it?” Mom snipped. Obviously she was spoiling for a fight and no matter how I tried to avoid it, she’d find some way to turn our conversation into one.

“I’m out to lunch with my friends. We’re celebrating. I got some good news this morning,” I said brightly. Maybe I was wrong and she’d be proud of me. Maybe, for once, she could see that I was capable of something more than being their poor, little drunk daughter.

“Oh. Why is that?” my mother asked. She wasn’t interested. I could tell. I bet she was fixing her hair or baking cookies. Something that, in her estimation, deserved more of her attention.

“My editor at Southern Gardens magazine called me this morning. She was extremely impressed with my latest article. She offered me a fulltime staff writing position.”

“Oh. Well that’s nice, sweetheart,” she remarked dismissively. “I spoke with Dr. Chase yesterday and he can see you tomorrow morning. I think it would be good for you to see someone else since that quack you’ve been going to dropped your therapy to once a week.”

It was as though I had never spoken. My momentous news not even a blip on her radar.

I had a fulltime job. My editor had thought the work I did worthy of a promotion. What about that screamed you need more shrinking? Though I was sure she hadn’t really heard any of it. She had her reason for calling and that was all she focused on.

“Mom, I’m not going to see anyone else. And I don’t think it’s appropriate for you to discuss me with a professional without my consent. I’m an adult after all,” I told her sharply, pissed and hurt by her attitude.

“I am your mother. Of course it’s appropriate! I only want what’s best for you! Considering that you almost died because of your issues, clearly you need my input. And I know that you’ve lost weight, so it’s obvious you’re still struggling!”

“How would you know if I’ve lost weight? Do you have a camera in my bathroom?” I demanded. I couldn’t listen to this. Not now. Not when I should be feeling good about myself.

“Grace Cook, don’t you dare speak to me that way! I don’t know what’s happened to my wonderful, little girl, but she’s become a surly adult that I don’t think I like very much. This is why you need to move back home. You’re not yourself.”

Your wonderful, little girl is trying to grow a backbone, I thought angrily but I didn’t say it. The conversation was already heated enough.

“I’ll pick you up in the morning around eight and we can go to the appointment together. Then we can go shopping for some new clothes,” my mother suggested, bulldozing over my thoughts and feelings as she always did.

“I’m not seeing a new therapist, Mom. You’ll just need to cancel that appointment,” I said firmly.

“Grace, I went to a lot of trouble—”

“I’ll try and get more time with Dr. Wainsbrook,” I conceded. I’d say just about anything to make her drop the subject.

“I’m not sure I like him. He doesn’t seem to take your problems very seriously,” Mom went on.

Sometimes I got the sense that she didn’t want me to get better. That my mother wanted me to be sick. That by fussing over me, it gave her life some sense of purpose.

My good mood had completely disintegrated.

My mother’s greatest talent was in knocking the wind from my sails. She could make it an Olympic sport.

“Well, you need to do something. I’m having a designer in this week to repaint your room and to replace your old furniture. I want you to come by to see it this week.”

“Mom—” I sighed.

“I’ll make a casserole. Something with a lot of calories,” she continued as though I hadn’t spoken.

“Okay. Fine. Whatever,” I muttered, staring at my reflection in the mirror.

The woman looking back at me had seemed so hopeful this morning. Now she just seemed…deflated.

“Since you won’t be going to the therapist, I’ll call you tomorrow to schedule a time for you to come by this week. Love you.”

“Love you, too,” I said quietly.

I hung up and shoved my phone into my pocket. I looked down at the wet spot on my pants that hadn’t really dried. Looking like I pissed myself was clearly the least of my problems.

I left the bathroom and headed back into the restaurant. Mitch was standing at the bar talking to Dina and he glanced my way as I walked by.

“It’s not too bad,” he commented, indicated my jeans.

I shrugged. “Whatever. It’ll dry,” I answered dully.

Mitch frowned, his eyes narrowing. “What’s wrong?”

I laughed. It was brittle and hard. “Not a damn thing.” Dina went to tend to some other customers, leaving us alone at the end of the bar.

“I know you, Gracie. And I can tell when something’s gotten to you. You can tell me,” he prodded.

There was something about his face that made it easy to confide in him. It had always been that way. And in that moment it was comforting to fall back on how things used to be. When I could tell him anything and I knew that he’d listen.

So against my better judgment I opened myself. Even with all the shit between us I wanted to confide in him the way I had once been able to. I needed my friend.

I needed Mitch.

And his girlfriend, his hurt feelings, or one night-stand didn’t matter.

“It’s my mother,” I said. “She has an amazing ability of making me feel like total shit.”

Mitch was more than aware of my rocky relationship with my parents. He knew about my ongoing feelings of failure and their unrealistic expectations.

He had been there when I had fallen apart after fights and cruel words.

He had seen, firsthand, the unhealthy dynamic that existed between my family and me.

“What did she say?” he asked, sitting down on a stool and inclining his head to the empty one beside him.

I hesitated only a moment before hopping up beside him, propping my chin with my hand. “I tried to tell her about my promotion. She only wanted to talk about how I needed to see a new therapist. One that clearly thinks I’m crazier than my current one does.”

Mitch’s mouth pressed into a thin line. “You’re not crazy, Gracie,” he said severely.

“Tell that to my mother,” I murmured, rubbing my temple.

I felt his hands on my elbow and I looked up at him. I ignited under the intensity of his gaze. “When I met you all those years ago you were the most confident person I had ever met. You were a little nutty, but it was the good kind of nutty.”

I snorted. Was that a compliment? I couldn’t really tell. Mitch went on. “You liked to have a good time and everyone knew it. You owned who you were, with no apologies.”

I ducked my head at his description of the person that I used to be. I wasn’t necessarily proud of that girl. She had been a bit of an idiot. A selfish idiot. Mitch Abrams should know that better than anybody.

He lifted my chin, his fingers firm on my skin. Our eyes met and I couldn’t look away.

“I feel like somewhere along the way, you lost some of that girl and that makes me incredibly sad. Because, Gracie Cook, you’re smart. You’re capable. You’re fucking incredible and you don’t even realize it.” He was breathing heavily, clearly worked up by his admission and my eyes began to burn.

“So are you, Mitch,” I said, my voice barely above a whisper.

Mitch’s lips quirked upward into a tiny smile. “I bet you say that to all the guys,” he teased half-heartedly. Then he sobered and became serious again. “Don’t let your mother dictate the opinion you have of yourself. Because if she can’t see all the things that I do, then she’s the crazy one.”

I swallowed thickly and had to look away before I started to cry. He stripped me to the bone so effortlessly.

“Thanks.” I gave him a watery smile without meeting his eyes.

“You’re going to have to find that place where it’s okay to stand up to her. Because you deserve better than that, G. You always have,” he finished, dropping the folded napkin onto the bar and getting to his feet rather abruptly. “I should get going. I only came in because I saw Jordan’s car in the parking lot.”

“Oh. Okay. You can stay you know.” I hesitated before continuing. “It’d be nice if you did.”

Mitch’s face was unreadable if not a little conflicted. He shifted on his feet as though not sure what he should do.

“But if you have things to do, it’s fine—”

“No, I can stay.” One heartbeat. Two heartbeats. Three… “I’d like to,” he said softly.

“Awesome.” I grinned. It was a real one. I forgot about my mother. About my embarrassingly wet crotch. About all the weirdness that typically lurked between us.

Because he looked at me in a way I hadn’t seen in a long time.

Like I was a girl who mattered.

To him.

“Cole just got here. We’re just waiting on you, buddy,” Jordan said over the phone. I pulled into the gas station and cut the engine.

“I just have to pick up Sophie. I’ll be there in twenty. Tell him to keep his shirt on,” I muttered.

“This is Cole we’re talking about here. His shirt’s already off,” Jordan sighed and I chuckled.

“Tell him if he messes with my saved settings on my game, I’ll kick his ass,” I said.

“Then hurry up. Maysie’s making potato skins. I’m not saving you any if you take much longer.”

“Yes, sir,” I replied. I hung up the phone and got out of my car. A short beep caught my attention.

Gracie waved at me from the other side of the pumps.

Stomach clenching. Check.

Heart thumping. Check.

Get a grip, Mitch!

We both climbed out of our respective cars. I unscrewed the gas cap. I felt like I was going in slow motion. I dropped the cap onto the ground and had to crouch down to get it. When I stood back up, I smacked my head on the side of the car. I was flustered.

“You okay?”

I could feel her standing behind me, but I didn’t want to look at her. It was a bad idea. Looking at Gracie Cook only brought about death, destruction, and uncomfortable hard-ons.

Of course I looked at her. I was a weak, weak man.

“You hit your head pretty hard. Any dizziness? Nausea?” she joked.

“I think I’ll live,” I snorted, patting the lump that had already formed.

She went back to her car on the other side of the pump.

It had been a few days since I had ended up at Barton’s with the entire gang to celebrate Gracie’s new job. I had had no intention of staying, knowing it would be awkward. But after our talk about her mom, Gracie and I seemed to enter into a level of comfort we hadn’t felt in a long time. So I had ended up staying for another hour.

We talked about her job. We laughed with our friends. For a brief time it was simple. Uncomplicated. I had forgotten what that was like.

Then Sophie had called and I had to leave.

And I didn’t want to.

I would have stayed all afternoon, sitting across from Gracie, remembering what it was like to be her friend.

Her friend.

Wasn’t that what got us into this weird place to begin with?

But I realized that I had been a jerk to throw away her friendship because of my pride. I had lost something important in my haste to put distance between me and my broken heart.

I had lost the Gracie that I enjoyed being around.

“We keep bumping into each other, it seems,” she laughed. The wind was strong and her blonde hair blew into her eyes. She made a face and pulled the strands free of her mouth.

“The fun of living in a small town,” I said. I noticed that she was dressed in tailored black slacks and a cream silk blouse that molded to her breasts. The neck dipped into a modest V. It didn’t reveal anything really. Just the slight hint of cleavage. It certainly wasn’t anything most men would have fixated on. But it was Gracie. And I was Mitch. I couldn’t help myself from staring at the smooth skin of her chest.

She lifted her hair and draped it over her shoulder, revealing the long, graceful curve of her neck.

She tasted like strawberries and sweat. My tongue glided up the column of her throat and I wanted to devour her.

All of her.

She moaned deep and low in the back of her throat. I lifted her leg and hitched it over my hip. She was just the right angle to go deep. I slid inside of her again. Even though I had just come, I was already hard for her again. She was wet, so fucking wet. There was no resistance as I thrust into her.

“Mitch,” she whispered, her voice raw, her eyes heavy lidded. I covered her mouth with mine as I buried myself to the hilt inside of her perfect, wet warmth.

She repeated my name over and over as I began to move my hips. She rose up to meet each push. It was a litany. A prayer. We came together.

Together.

Always together.

“Hello. Earth to Mitch,” Gracie called out, wiggling her fingers in front of my face.

Damn. I had a hard-on. This was the problem with looking at her. Blue balls and mortification.

“Sorry, my mind’s somewhere else.” I blinked a few times and tried to think of dead kittens and naked grandmas. Anything to get rid of the straining bulge in my pants.

I finished pumping my gas just as Gracie was grabbing her purse from her car. We walked into the station together. I held the door open and she gave me a pretty smile.

“Always the knight,” she grinned.

“Always,” I grinned back.

We got in line to pay for our gas and without thinking I grabbed a pack of Twizzlers and a Baby Ruth. After I paid, I handed her the chocolate bar, not thinking it would elicit the reaction that it did.

It was just a bar of chocolate after all.

Gracie’s bottom lip quivered. For just a moment I thought she was going to cry. Crap. What had I done?

She took a deep, shuddering breath and quickly unwrapped the Baby Ruth, taking a big bite. “I haven’t had one of these in…well, a long time,” she said, after swallowing.

“I know how much you love them,” I shrugged. It shouldn’t be a big deal. Me getting her a candy bar. But looking in her eyes, I knew that it was.

Simple gestures between us could never be easy. Not now.

For years, every time that I went into a store I made sure to buy Gracie her favorite candy bar. I had done it because I knew they brought a smile to her face. And that was my favorite pasttime. Making Gracie Cook happy.

And I couldn’t ignore how good it made me feel to see that smile on her face now. Because of something I had done for her.

We walked outside and paused just beside the door. “So, what’s with the getup? You look nice.” I gave the compliment easily. Because it was true.

She flushed a little and that made my chest tighten. “It was my first day as a fulltime writer at the magazine,” she announced with pride.

“Oh, wow, that’s awesome, G! How did it go?” I asked her.

I had called her G.

Sometimes it just slipped out.

That level of familiarity.

I couldn’t help it. It was still there no matter how hard I had tried to pretend it wasn’t.

“It was pretty cool. It’s an amazing opportunity. One I never really thought I’d have, so I’m beyond grateful for it,” she said, shoving her hands down into her coat pockets. It was cold. Too cold to be standing outside shootin’ shit but neither of us seemed in a rush to go anywhere.

“Well, you’ve worked hard for it. I’m really proud of you, Gracie. You’ve come a long way,” I said.

“Sometimes I think about what happened before, when I almost died, and I can hardly believe I’m still standing here.” A piece of her hair got stuck in her earring and before I knew what I was doing, I reached out and tugged it free.

My fingers fell to the side of her neck and lingered there. Cold skin to fevered flesh. I could smell her. She still smelled like strawberries. I hadn’t been able to stomach the scent for almost a year after…

I dropped my hand, realizing I was still touching her.

“You’re too tough to let anything stop you. I always knew it. I’m just glad you’re finally figuring it out as well.” My voice shook, damn it. But I meant it. Every word.

“Thanks, Mitch. That means a lot.” And I could tell it did. Gracie had never been able to lie to me.

Except when you let her into your room and you thought you had a future together. She lied to you then. She made you think that by giving you her body, she was giving you here heart. She made you actually think that you had a chance.

“I’d better get going,” I said, jerking my thumb in the direction of my car.

“Yeah, me too. I’ve got to hit the grocery store before going home. Fingers crossed I don’t walk in to find Cole walking around naked in the kitchen, again.” Gracie made a face.

“Well, you can always use Chunky Monkey.” I hadn’t meant to say it. But I did. It was out there now.

Why did I keep doing this? Reminding the both of us of who we used to be to each other?

Because being back in Bakersville made everything different. We both felt it.

She gave me a small smile but didn’t respond to my offer. It was probably for the best. It had been a moment of weakness. I had a lot of those around her.

“You’re still driving that thing? It hasn’t blown up yet?” I asked her, indicating the ten-year-old Honda she had always driven.

“Not all of us can afford brand new Jeeps.” She motioned to my vehicle, one of the few splurges I had allowed myself with the advance money from the label.

“You need to get those tires changed. You’ll cause an accident,” I couldn’t help lecturing. I noted how bald they were. She shouldn’t be driving that thing. It was a death trap with bad weather in the forecast.

I couldn’t stand the thought of something happening to her…

“You should let me drive you home.”

Gracie laughed, shaking her head. “You’ve always been such a worry wart, Mitch. I’m fine. But I promise to get my tires sorted ASAP,” she promised even though it didn’t make me feel better. “I appreciate you looking out for me. It’s nice,” she paused. “I’d forgotten how much.”

Warmth flooded through me. My heart thudded painfully in my chest.

I had to go. I couldn’t stand there with her when I was supposed to be somewhere else. With someone else…

Sophie…

“Yeah, well make sure you do. I’ll be giving you grief if you don’t,” I threatened with a smirk.

“I’m counting on it,” she countered.

“I’m sure you are.” My voice sounded husky.

Were we flirting?

What the hell?

“Are you coming to our show next weekend? It’d be great to see you there,” I said suddenly. It was like word vomit. It came out of nowhere. With no warning. And it spewed all over the place.

“I wouldn’t miss it,” she said, her fingers gripping her car door, her eyes burning into mine.

Why was I having such a hard time breathing?

Breathe, damn it! Before you pass out!

“Oh. Okay. Well. Um. That’s good. I’ve—uh—I’ve got to go,” I said in a rush, getting into my car and slamming the door shut. She waved at me and I waved back, putting the car into reverse and getting the hell out of there.

But I looked in the rearview mirror.

I could see her standing there. Watching me leave.

Fuck.

“Let’s go,” Sophie said once I arrived to pick her up. She had run out the door as soon as I pulled into the driveway. I didn’t even have the chance to get out of the car.

I had only been to her house twice before and never for long. I had never met her Dad, who also lived there. I never really pushed it because it hadn’t mattered. Sophie came and saw me on the road or when I was home. She worked around my schedule. What suited me. It was convenient.

But as the two of us drove to Garrett’s, I found it strange that I didn’t really know a whole lot about the woman I had dated for a year.

I knew basic fact. Bits and pieces.

I knew that she worked at her dad’s garage, which is why she was able to get so much time off to see me. I knew that she had two older sisters who she didn’t really get along with. Her mom had left when she was in high school and that’s when she moved to Bakersville.

I knew that she was a nice person. She was sweet and shy and unobtrusive. She went along for the ride without ever questioning where we were headed. She was simple. Easy.

But I never saw her vulnerability. Her tears. I never looked into her eyes and saw the parts of her that she kept hidden from everyone else.

We were shallow. Barely touching the surface.

She had tried to help me heal my heart. But had it really worked?

I wasn’t so sure.

I didn’t think Sophie had ever really given me anything of substance that I could move on to.

And I felt like shit for thinking that.

“I’ve missed you. I haven’t really seen you since we’ve been back,” Sophie said once we arrived at Garrett’s. We walked up to the porch, close but not touching. I didn’t feel the need to reach out and take her hand. I was okay keeping my distance. There was something seriously wrong with that.

“Yeah, it’s been a little nuts,” I excused. Lies. All lies. I could have seen her. But the truth was I hadn’t thought about it.

Being back in Bakersville always messed with my head. But this time more so than ever before.

And I had bought Gracie a fucking Baby Ruth and told her that I wanted her to come to the show.

I was ridiculous.

“Do you think I could stay over tonight? It’s been a while,” she murmured, pulling on my belt buckle, her eyes coy and meant to be seductive.

“Uh, well, I’m pretty tired—” I started to say.

Was I really giving her the “I’m tired” speech? Why don’t I just tell her I have to wash my hair?

Sophie pouted, her hands sliding up the front of my shirt and connecting with bare skin. Her nails scrapped along my abdomen and I felt…nothing.

Not a dick twinge. Not a belly flip. Nada. Nothin’.

“I think you’ll feel better when I have my mouth wrapped around your—”

“Get your ass in here! We’ve been waiting for almost a fucking hour!” Cole yelled, throwing open the door.

Sophie let out an exasperated breath and pulled her hands out from under my shirt.

“It’s Tits McGee! Wow, I was starting to think you were history,” Cole remarked and I should have gotten pissed at his disrespect towards my girlfriend.

But I didn’t say anything. Sophie glared when I didn’t tell Cole to shut up and stomped into the house.

“Why did you bring the wet mop, dude? I thought you’d be done with her by now,” Cole asked, not even trying to lower his voice.

“Seriously, give me a break,” I said tiredly. Cole shrugged and went into the living room and I headed to the kitchen.

Maysie was at the counter, Jordan standing behind her, his hands on her hips. He was whispering something in her ear and I could see that she was blushing.

I wanted that. I wanted happiness…

“Hey guys,” I said and they looked back at me.

“Hey man, glad you’re here. Maysie’.” Jordan said, slapping my hand and then resumed kissing the back of his fiancée’s neck. I had to look away.

I didn’t know where Sophie went.

“They should be ready in a few minutes. Did I see Sophie come in with you?” Maysie asked, looking around for her.

I glanced into the living room and saw Vivian and Cole cuddled up on the couch while he played a video game, but there was no Sophie. She must have gone up to my room instead of hanging out with everyone.

“Yeah, I guess she went upstairs,” I said apologetically.

“Oh, does she not want anything to eat?” Maysie asked, frowning.

“I don’t know. I’ll go see,” I told her, annoyed that Sophie, once again, had separated herself from my friends.

I headed up the stairs to my bedroom. I found Sophie watching TV on my bed.

“What are you doing up here?” I asked irritated.

“I want to spend some time with just you,” she commented. She patted the bed beside her, but I didn’t move.

“Maysie’s making food. It would be nice if you came down and hung out for a while,” I said sharply.

“Why? So I can feel like an outsider all night? No thank you,” she snapped, turning off the television.

I rubbed at my temple. “You’re not an outsider, Sophie. We’ve been together for long enough now that you’re as much a part of the group as anyone.”

Lies.

And Sophie knew it.

“Am I?” she demanded, her voice relaying her skepticism.

She got to her feet and walked across the room. She wrapped her arms around my waist and lifted up on her tiptoes so she could kiss me. Her lips were dry and warm. And when she parted them for my tongue I tasted the mint of her gum. But I wanted to taste strawberries.

Why was I thinking about strawberries?

Sophie tried to deepen the kiss, but I gently pulled away. “Come on. Let’s go downstairs.”

I wish I could ignore the hurt in her eyes.

Or the guilt I felt for putting it there.

I was drunk.

Actually, I had moved past drunk about three drunks ago.

Whatever.

“Fucking hell!” I threw the remote control on the floor and knocked back the rest of my beer.

“You betcha! I’m the king and you know it!” Cole slurred, pumping his fist triumphantly. Asshole.

Vivian was curled into his side, fast asleep. Jordan and Maysie had left two hours ago. And Sophie had gone up to my room in a snit when I told her I wanted to hang out for a while longer. She had spent the entire evening texting so I wasn’t in a rush to follow her up there.

“Man, I’m horny, we need to go,” Cole announced, shaking Vivian awake.

“What the hell?” she groaned, sitting up and rubbing her eyes.

“I want to go home and fuck,” Cole growled, kissing her roughly.

“Uh, I’m still here,” I called out when he started to put his hand down Vivian’s pants.

“Come on, Cole. Let’s go back to my place. Gracie’s asleep by now,” Vivian murmured against his mouth, pushing on his shoulders so she could get up.

Vivian stumbled to her feet, not because she had been drinking, she was stone cold sober, but because Cole was still trying to unbutton her pants.

“See ya later, Mitch,” she said, smacking her boyfriend’s hands away. “Stop it, Cole! Not until we get home!”

Cole muttered something unintelligible as he wobbled on his feet. “I’m gonna eat some pussy tonight!” he sang at the top of his lungs and I threw the remote at him.

“Shut up, man. I don’t need to hear about it.”

Cole threw it back and gave me a sloppy smile. “You could go eat some pussy too. Don’t you have Tits up there in your bed?”

Yeah, I didn’t think Tits, I mean Sophie’s, pussy was on the menu tonight.

“Come on, baby,” Vivian cooed, supporting Cole as they walked to the front door. “Bye, Mitch!” she shouted.

The door slammed behind them and I was left alone. Garrett was in Boston until Monday so it was just me and Soph in the house. That should have been the cue for rabid monkey sex on every available surface.

If we were like normal couples we wouldn’t have been able to keep our hands off each other.

But we weren’t a normal couple apparently.

I tried to watch some TV, but I couldn’t get into anything. I was hoping for some Fresh Prince of Bel Air re-runs but I was out of luck. I thought about watching some porn so I could at least rub one out, but that sounded depressing.

I drank another beer but that just made me feel like I was going to puke.

I grabbed Garrett’s guitar and plugged it in. Maybe playing music would help me get rid of this restless energy.

I strummed a few songs, but couldn’t find my groove.

The notes all fell flat.

So I sat, staring at the wall, thinking shit that I shouldn’t be thinking, trying to sober up.

I thought about the band. I thought about what the hell I was going to do once that train derailed.

I thought about the woman asleep in my bed that I really wished wasn’t there.