Текст книги "Chain Reaction"
Автор книги: Zoë Archer
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Chapter Eleven
Nils stared up the length of the gun, fury vibrating through him. He’d been thinking of this moment ever since he learned Marek was the one behind the disruptor’s creation. Now, here he and Celene were, face to face with the traitor.
Marek kept his weapon pointed at them, but Nils and Celene did not lower their blasters. They stepped in a chamber crammed full of equipment, walls covered in monitors and control panels, spare components littering the ground. The room smelled of stale body and electricity. Empty ration plates stacked in the corner, food drying into crusts. Clearly Marek seldom left this chamber, despite the size of the compound.
As they entered, both Nils and Celene caught sight of the PRAXIS officer escaping through a small hatch at the back of the chamber. Nils took a step forward, intent on pursuit, but Marek’s shotgun held him back.
In the middle of the chamber stood a tower of circuitry and blinking lights. Judging by its configuration, the tower had to be the disruptor. It seemed like a harmless collection of electronics, yet it was the most powerful weapon he’d had ever beheld, capable of crippling the 8 thWing.
“Delightful,” Marek sneered. “Stainless Jur has come to pay a visit.”
“She’s come to kick your ass,” Celene answered.
“Calder,” Marek said, his gaze flicking over him. “Didn’t expect to see you outside of your Engineering cave. But I suppose if anyone would have found a way to track me, it would be NerdWorks’ golden boy.” His mouth curled into an ugly approximation of a smile. “Doesn’t matter. Neither of you will be leaving this planet alive, and then PRAXIS will chew up and shit out the 8 thWing.”
“You piece of lunc,” Celene spat.
Marek shrugged, though he looked far from relaxed. A film of sweat coated his waxen face, and he clutched the plasma shotgun tightly. “The 8 thWing pension can’t buy me a single-chamber dwelling in the Makell System, let alone a spread like this.”
“Except you keep yourself prisoner in this shithole,” Nils snarled.
Marek barked out a laugh. “Language, Lieutenant Calder. Spending time with this Black Wraith hotshot has ruined your pristine vocabulary. Besides,” he added, his eyes burning and manic, “I like this shithole. The devices I build here appreciate what I do for them. Unlike the 8 thWing.”
“That is why you built the disruptor? That’s why you’d throw the 8 thWing into PRAXIS’s jaws? Because you felt unappreciated?” Celene scoffed. “Calling you pathetic would be a compliment.”
Rage tightened Marek’s features as he stepped closer, shortening the distance between them. “There are two of you. One of me. You could rush me at the same time. But I’ll turn one of you into subatomic particles before the other can get a shot out. So…who will it be? Who will cross over into the Starfields of Eternal Bliss? Or,” he added, almost cheerful, “you could lay down your blasters and put your hands up. Surrender.”
Nils glanced back and forth between the shotgun’s barrel and Celene. The weapon could blast a hole in her that no medical tech could fix. Slowly, he set his blaster on the ground and put his hands up.
“What the hells are you doing?”
“Just do it,” he growled back. His eyes sent her a message. Please trust me.
She scowled at him, then, with a curse, did the same, laying down her weapon and raising her hands.
Marek’s brows raised. “How unexpected. I would have thought that perhaps Calder might take the path of least resistance, but not Stainless Jur.” He clicked his tongue. “Seems your reputation is hardly worth the digi-ink.” Marek smirked at her. “I heard you were almost sold for ninety thousand creds. Hopefully, your value hasn’t depreciated.”
Instinct impelled Nils, forcing him to move with what felt like supercharged speed. He quickly twisted to the right, striking the muzzle of the Marek’s weapon away from his body with his forearm. He made sure that he knocked the gun away from Celene. Stepping forward at the same time, he grabbed the upper handguard of the shotgun with one hand, and its stock with his other hand.
Stunned, Marek didn’t have time to get off a single blast. His reactions came too slowly as Nils tugged on the shotgun with one hand and pulled with the other, stepping closer. Thrown off balance, Marek swayed. Nils slammed the muzzle of the weapon into the side of Marek’s head, and he toppled.
In an instant, Nils had his boot pressed in the center of Marek’s chest, the muzzle of the shotgun pointed directly in the traitor’s face. He glanced over and saw that Celene had a blaster in each hand, both of them aimed at Marek.
“You have a value of exactly nothing,” Nils snarled.
“And this device is only scrap.” She turned her blasters on the disruptor. Plasma fire flared. Moments later, all that remained was a smoldering heap of twisted metal. Even the most skilled engineer would find nothing of use, and consign the lot of it to the recycling mechanism.
Dazed as he was, with blood running in a bright stream down his face, Marek managed to rattle out a laugh. “Underestimation is a dangerous game, Calder. I underestimated you, but you’ve fallen victim to the same peril.”
“The hells are you talking about?” Nils pressed the muzzle of the shotgun into Marek’s throat.
Marek choked out another laugh. “The plans have been already been uploaded to PRAXIS. Within a solar week, there won’t be any more 8 thWing.”
Celene cursed, but he was thoughtful. “No,” he said after a moment. “I know you, Marek. You wouldn’t risk broadcasting the plans, possibly giving away your position to other interested parties. That’s why you had PRAXIS come here directly.”
The traitor’s face paled, but he continued glare defiantly.
“Which means the plans are physical. It was an actual handoff.” She glanced at Nils. “We can still stop PRAXIS.”
“Beautifully deduced,” Marek sneered. “But it doesn’t matter. You’re too late. If my timing is accurate, I believe the PRAXIS officer will be taking off…” The compound shook with the sound of the clipper’s thrusters. “…Now.”
Both Celene and Nils cursed. She glanced down at Marek. “You hold him. I’ll go after PRAXIS.”
“How will you do that? Flap your arms?” Marek snorted. “My assumption is that you stowed your ship somewhere distant. And you can’t fly my ship. I installed similar technology to the Black Wraith. The only one who can fly my ship is me.”
Nils dug the shotgun muzzle harder into Marek’s throat, causing the traitor to gag. “Then get up and start flying.”
But hatred burned like a fever in Marek’s eyes, even when his life was threatened. “I’m dead anyway. If I were you, I wouldn’t trust me not to send the ship crashing into the planet’s surface.”
He suddenly remembered something. “I have the remote for the holographic projector in my pack,” he said to Celene. “Use it to buy some time. But you’ll have to do it from outside. These walls are likely lined with ferrium, which will disrupt the remote’s signal.”
She found the remote, then hurried to the door. Before she left, she sent Nils one last look, laden with meaning. Then she slipped out the doorway, and he heard the echo of her boots ringing as she ran down the corridor.
Another wet laugh tumbled from Marek, drawing Nils’s attention back.
“My, Calder, you are simply brimming with surprises today. Going on an actual mission, some rather competent hand-to-hand combat and now fucking Stainless Jur? I’ve often wondered what it would be like to fuck a legend. Tell me, is her pussy as cold as eisium? Or is she hot as triple fission? Burn your cock right off. But it’s worth it, correct?”
He was being baited, yet he couldn’t shut off the primitive part of him that boiled in rage. No one should talk about Celene like that.
He hauled Marek up and slammed his fist into Marek’s face. The traitor grunted, blood squirting from his nose. Marek stumbled backward against a cluttered workbench. He found a small device buried in a heap of components, and pressed a button. Shrill noise filled the chamber, digging into Nils’s head, racking him with excruciating pain.
Marek seemed unaffected by the sound. With surprising agility for one so bulky, the traitor scrambled toward the hatch in the in chamber’s farthest wall. Nils fired the shotgun, blasting into equipment, his aim erratic from the pain. The hatch slid open, and Marek disappeared through it.
Nils used the butt of the shotgun to crush the device Marek had triggered. The shrill sound abruptly stopped. Straightening, he took off in pursuit. He had to capture the traitor, and prayed that Celene could stop PRAXIS in time. Failure meant disaster.
Celene sped through the maze of corridors, cursing Marek’s decision to structure this building like a labyrinth. But her sense of direction kept her on the right path, and she soon found herself outside. The two robot sentries appeared to have destroyed each other.
Looking up, she saw the PRAXIS clipper rising higher. Within moments it would reach enough altitude to hit full speed and flee with the disruptor plans.
Absolutely cannot happen.
She hit the remote for the holographic projector. She hoped it worked.
She gaped as what appeared to be two Black Wraith ships broke through the cloud cover. They didn’t look like projections at all. Her vision was excellent. Yet even she couldn’t tell the difference between the real PRAXIS ship and the unreal Wraiths. Nils had also explained that the projections carried enough energy signature to confuse most ships’ sensors—for a short amount of time. But even a few minutes would be enough.
The Wraiths headed straight for the PRAXIS clipper. Thinking that it was being pursued, the clipper broke into evasive maneuvers. The Wraiths kept herding the clipper closer to the planet’s surface, preventing the enemy ship from breaking toward open space.
She had to act now, while PRAXIS was distracted. She activated the homing signal for the Phantom, and set it to autopilot. Somewhere, deep in the jungle, the small ship came to life, and would be heading for her location. Hopefully, it would arrive in time.
An engine’s distant thrum caught her attention. She exhaled in relief when she caught sight of the Phantom on the horizon. Flying at top speed, it could cover a whole day’s trek in a matter of seconds. The ship circled the compound once, then descended onto the landing pad. She ran for the Phantom.
Once inside, she flung herself into the cockpit. Feeling the controls in her hands brought a sense of calm. Hand-to-hand combat presented little difficulty, but here was where she belonged. It wasn’t her Wraith, but if it had wings, she felt at home. She took off at once.
And just in time. The PRAXIS ship fired on one of the projected Wraiths. The hit went straight through the image. Which meant that the deception had been detected. Thinking there was no real threat, the clipper spun away, heading toward deeper space.
“Aren’t you going to ask me to dance?” She pushed the Phantom into pursuit, right on PRAXIS’s tail. As she rocketed up, she caught sight of two small figures emerging onto the compound’s perimeter wall. A chill ran through her when she realized that they must be Nils and Marek. The traitor had gotten free somehow, and now Nils tailed him. They came together, struggling. Her fear ratcheted higher to see that they were on the part of the compound that rose above the churning ocean. If the fall didn’t kill them, the seething water or vicious creatures that lived within it surely would.
An awful decision. Did she bring the Phantom around to help Nils? Or continue her pursuit of PRAXIS?
Gods take her to the Ten Hells. She had a duty to perform. If PRAXIS escaped with the plans for the disruptor, then thousands, possibly millions of lives could be lost.
“I’m sorry, Nils,” she whispered, keeping the Phantom in its ascent. Her eyes burned, but she ignored them, and the pain that had nothing to do with the injuries she had sustained. She had been wounded before, yet no plasma blast could ever hurt as much as leaving him behind.
Nils pursued Marek through a series of narrow metal tunnels. He had to bend over nearly double to fit in them, making speed difficult, but Marek wasn’t being careful. The traitor charged through the tunnels loudly, the sound of his boots loud and easy to follow. Holding the shotgun, Nils kept up his chase.
The tunnels snaked around, until Nils found himself spat out onto the perimeter wall. The bright daylight momentarily blinded him after the darkness of the tunnels. Marek had deactivated the plasma wire, and he now sped away from Nils, though his gait remained unsteady after the beating Nils had dispensed.
Nils sped after him. He forced himself not to look to his right. The compound was situated atop a high cliff that plunged into the sea. If he were to lose his balance, he’d fall of hundreds of meters. And if he did manage to survive that tumble, jagged rocks speared up from the sea, canceling out any possibility of a water landing. Heights didn’t bother him, but these heights proved to be the exception.
Stay focused on Marek. Bring that bastard down.
Sound overhead momentarily distracted him. Celene’s Phantom hunted the PRAXIS clipper.
Nils had the advantage of longer legs and no head injuries, and he shot at Marek as he ran. The traitor managed to dodge the plasma fire. He bent low and pulled something from a notch in the wall. Nils ducked as blasts raced past him. Marek must have stashed weapons around the compound. This was his emergency escape route.
Nils shot once more, and Marek staggered. Taking advantage of the stumble, Nils shortened the distance between them. But as he drew nearer, Marek fired again, hitting him in the hand. Nils’s grip loosened, and the shotgun fell from his hold. Without watching, he knew that the shotgun plummeted toward the water. It would look miniscule as it plunged down into the churning sea.
The scent of singed flesh rose up. He sucked in a breath, pain radiating up into his arm and through his body.
Yet he wasn’t entirely without weapons. His hand might be injured, but he could still form a fist, and his brain worked perfectly.
He edged closer, then launched himself at Marek. They both went rolling across the top of the wall. Using his elbow, Nils rammed into Marek’s wrist, again and again, until the blaster Marek carried fell from his hand.
Fear, anger and pain seemed to turn Marek from a stocky, pallid engineer into a maddened beast. He lashed out at Nils as they grappled, his thickset body filled with unnatural strength. Somehow, Marek dug his fingers into Nils’s shoulder. Nils’s arm suddenly went numb, and he couldn’t move it. Marek seized his advantage, and pined Nils down, pressing his forearm into Nils’s throat. Though Nils struggled, rage energized Marek, making it almost impossible to dislodge him. The world grew gray at the edges.
“Fucking NerdWorks golden boy,” snarled Marek. Spittle gathered in the corners of his mouth, and his eyes bulged. “Kissing the 8 thWing’s ass. Being their little tame geelcat. I’m not dancing at their command. Everything is for me. Only me.”
Nils bucked, throwing his knee into Marek’s back. Momentarily caught off guard, Marek’s hold on Nils’s neck lessened. Regaining the use of his arm, Nils shoved Marek back, then lodged his boot against the traitor’s chest. Taking hold of Marek’s arms, Nils threw him overhead.
Nils rolled to his feet and up in time to see Marek go sprawling on the top of the wall. Momentum carried the heavier man, and he tumbled toward the edge. His fingers scrabbled to hold on, barely managing to catch himself. But he was too heavy, and while his fingers held, his body slid off. Marek dangled above the churning sea, legs flailing, mouth contorted in a scream.
Calmly, he walked over to where Marek hung. He stared down at the traitor, watching as if from a great distance while Marek sweated and yelled, only a slip away from falling to his death.
“Help me!” Marek shouted.
“Why?” Nils asked evenly. He made sure to keep enough distance so that Marek could not grab his legs.
“Because…” Marek struggled to think as his fingers began to slip. He whimpered. “Because you’re 8 thWing!”
“Precisely. And because I am 8 thWing, I’m going to enjoy watching you fall.”
“No! Help!” Marek’s grip loosened. And the traitor fell.
The fall wasn’t a straight one, and Marek went bouncing against the side of the cliff several times with enough force to knock free debris. They went tumbling down with him, and both the traitor and the rubble smashed onto the sharp rocks at the base of the cliff. What remained of Marek then tumbled into the sea.
Sudden dizziness swirled through Nils’s head. He took a step back from the edge. And then another. Drew air deep into his lungs. He had done it. Watched as Marek fell to his death.
He had done it for the 8 thWing, for himself and for Celene. She’d never find herself helpless again.
He stared down at his hands as if seeing them for the first time, realizing that he had finally become a soldier.
Hoping for a glimpse of her, he turned his gaze toward the sky.
Celene sped after the PRAXIS clipper, holding fast to its tail as they both shot out of the planet’s atmosphere. The clipper’s rear guns went into action, and she wove from side to side, dodging the gunfire. She fired back, but the enemy pilot was skilled and eluded her shots.
She made sure not to get on the enemy’s outside, allowing him to turn. PRAXIS clippers could get a lot of speed, and the faster they went, the sharper their turns could be. She couldn’t allow the clipper to turn and get behind her, making her the target rather than the hunter.
Problem was, the Phantom didn’t have the speed and maneuverability of a clipper. She clenched her teeth in frustration, wanting her Wraith but knowing she wasn’t going to get it.
With a sharp turn, the clipper sped around her, until it was on her tail. Exactly where she didn’t want it to be.
“Son of a vihond,” she spat.
It didn’t matter how good she was at the controls. She was fettered by the mechanical limitations of her ship. She skittered from side to side, trying to keep the enemy from targeting directly. If the clipper locked onto her, she was finished.
But combat piloting wasn’t always about the capabilities of one’s ship. Half of the battle was fought in the mind. She needed to be smarter, not faster. Once, when she had been bored during a long leave, she had read a text on a digitablet about ancient fighting techniques using long metal weapons called swords. Opponents weren’t always evenly matched, so it was up to the weaker opponent to outthink her adversary.
Insight came to her at once, and she smiled grimly as she set her plan into motion. “Let’s see if you’re as stupid as you are ugly,” she muttered.
She feinted to the right, a classic twist and roll straight from any pilot’s basic training. Such a maneuver would leave her completely open, an easy target to be taken down with a single countermaneuver and blast from the clipper’s plasma cannons.
And, like a greedy bastard, the PRAXIS clipper took the bait. It sped after her.
Only she didn’t actually perform the twist and roll. She pulled back on the throttle, going into a lateral hold.
The clipper roared past her. Directly into her targeting system.
She opened fire.
The PRAXIS ship blew apart in a cascade of debris and energy. And with it went the plans for the disruptor. Now reduced to atoms and lost to the infinite reaches of space.
Yet she didn’t allow herself a moment to savor her victory. She brought the Phantom around and sped back toward the planet. Back to Nils.
If he was still alive, she hoped he could forgive her. And if he wasn’t alive, she would never forgive herself.
Chapter Twelve
Celene’s grip tightened on the controls as she neared the planet. She entered the planetary atmosphere and approached the coast where the compound was situated. Details came into focus as she flew lower—the individual treetops, the peaks of waves pounding against the shore. And there, the compound, with its walled perimeter. Her gaze moved quickly along the top of the wall, scanning for signs of Nils. Nothing.
Her heart contracted sharply. She’d suffered losses of comrades in the past, seen some of her squad mates die right off her own wing, and mourned. The memories and absences never truly dissipated, remaining a low, constant ache. Yet it was a tolerable ache, more readily borne by the fact that this was war, and war meant death and loss.
But if Nils had fallen… She knew she would survive. As a husk, empty of everything inside.
She brought the Phantom around and lowered down to the landing pad. As the ship touched the ground, she saw a figure running toward her.
Her throat closed, and her pulse stuttered. The figure wore an 8 thWing uniform, and sped toward her with a long-legged stride. Nils.
Fumbling with the buckle of her safety belt, she struggled to rise. The moment the buckle came undone, she slammed from the cockpit and out of the ship.
Nils collided with her. She barely had time to notice how bruised and dirty he was, the fatigue sharpening his features. All she saw was his face, the long lines of his body, and then they were embracing. Her arms wrapped around him, and he held her just as tightly, cradling her head with one hand, stroking the length of her body with the other as if to confirm that she was real.
One of them shook. Or maybe they both did. She didn’t know. She did know that relief poured through her so hot and furious she felt almost ill with it.
Eventually they managed to separate. Only a few inches. Grime streaked Nils’s face and she gently rubbed at it, then decided to leave it be. He looked like a fighter, the furthest thing from a NerdWorks recluse who never left the safety of Engineering, and emotion tore through her.
For a moment, they simply stared at one another, until the savage tenderness in his gaze made her look away. In the heat of battle, she had turned her back on him, and it felt like an open wound.
“Marek?” she asked.
He shook his head. “There isn’t going to be a court-martial.”
“Was it good and painful?”
A dark pleasure lit his eyes. “Extremely.”
8 thWing regulations demanded the lengthy justice process, but for once, she was happy to subvert it. If his disruptor had made it into PRAXIS’s hands, Marek would have wiped out the 8 thWing in a slow, ugly death. She wanted him to suffer. That might go against principles, yet she didn’t care. Let Marek hurt, then rot. He deserved it, and worse.
“PRAXIS?” Nils asked. “The disruptor plans?”
“Cosmic dust.”
A grin spread across his mouth. “Never expected anything less.” His gaze heated, and he lowered his head for a kiss.
Much as she wanted that kiss, she pulled away. He stared at her with a puzzled frown as she paced away to the edge of the landing pad. Strange, she’d once faced seven PRAXIS ships without a molecule of real fear, but what she had to tell Nils made her heart pound and her mouth go dry.
She stared out at the debris-strewn compound, parts from the sentries and bots lying in smoking heaps. Desolation washed over the compound, the sound of the waves a dull roar, and heavy, tropic air listlessly stirring the dust.
She drew a breath. She had to say this now. No turning away.
“I left you,” she said on a rasp. “When PRAXIS was getting away, and I flew after in pursuit. I left you.”
“Of course you left,” he answered, clearly puzzled. “You had to go after them and destroy the plans. The only rational action.”
She spun to face him. “But I saw you, as I was flying away. You and Marek, on the wall, fighting. And I kept going. I left you.” The throb in her injured arm faded beneath the raw ache of her confession. “I’m sorry, Nils.”
He stared at her for too long. Then, “I don’t accept your apology.”
She ought to have suspected this, but it didn’t stop the hurt. “I understand.”
To her surprise, he didn’t back away. Instead, he stepped closer, threading his hands behind her neck. Securing her, giving her support.
“I don’t accept your apology,” he said hotly, “because there’s nothing that requires it.”
“But I abandoned you—”
His fingers tightened, as did the line of his mouth. “Celene, this is war. Each of us has a duty to carry out, and if we let personal feelings hinder us from performing that duty, we don’t deserve to wear these uniforms. I’m not angry. Not disappointed. You fulfilled your responsibility, just as I fulfilled mine.” A crease appeared between his brows. “This kind of regret doesn’t seem like you.”
“It’s just that…” She struggled to speak. “This is new for me—caring for someone the way I care about you. Leaving you behind as you fought for your life…it tore me apart.”
His gaze flared, yet he said levelly, “But you did what you had to.”
She nodded, her neck stiff with the effort.
“Then there’s nothing to regret. I’m proud of you, Celene.”
The strength of his words felt like the notes of a Ellalian bell, chiming low and melodious, lifting her higher. “And I’m proud of you, Nils.”
“Good,” he rumbled, “because now I’m going to kiss you until we knock this planet out of orbit.”
They came together, mouths hungry, hands gripped tight. The kiss awakened every nerve within her, transforming the fury and terror of the fight into consuming desire, creating a chain reaction of need. Her body tightened, and she soaked in the feel of him against her, hard with muscle, alive, purposeful. He met her with his own strength. It felt as though they could generate enough power to realign whole solar systems.
She reluctantly took her lips from his. “Until we reach home base, the mission remains ongoing.”
“Meaning,” he said with disappointment, “we don’t get to see where this kiss leads.”
“Need to make a sweep of all the buildings.” She glanced around at the wreckage. “Marek might have stashed more copies of the disruptor plans.”
“Or other weapons. But first, let’s tend your wounds.”
After Nils saw to her injuries, she said, “Now let’s clean this place out like we’re defleaing a vihond.”
Weariness weighted her body, but she forced herself to go through the entire compound. She and Nils moved from building to building, sifting through debris, piles of equipment and months of accumulated detritus. Nils cursed long and creatively when he uncovered a cache of experimental weaponry—the functionality of which she could only guess at, but, knowing Marek, they would’ve been brutal. Fortunately, they found no more assembled disruptors, nor plans, but everything suspect they gathered into a heap in the central of the compound.
“I would almost suggest taking these weapons back to base for further study,” Nils murmured, staring down at them, “but that means a slim chance that they might be put into use.”
So, he concocted an accelerant from materials found in Marek’s workshop, and the lot of it was turned to smoldering remains.
“The smoke reminds me of the old-fashioned purification ceremonies they still perform on my homeworld every Solstice.” She stared at the column of smoke as it rose into the sky. “Wonder if Marek’s greed and malice are being scattered amongst the clouds, never to be seen or experienced again.”
“I wish that were true.” Nils’s arm came up to wrap around her shoulder, and she knew he felt the same weight she did, the fight with PRAXIS that seemed endless. What would life in peacetime be like? She’d been born into war, and it might continue long after her. But the alternative was worse—a galaxy completely enslaved to a massive corporate monster. The fight had to continue, for as long as it took.
She turned away from the smoking debris. “We ought to raze the compound, as well.”
“Keep PRAXIS from finding anything when they come back.”
“And they will when their emissary fails to return with the disruptor.”
“Let’s leave them nothing but ashes,” Nils said.
Together, she and Nils set up charges all over the compound. The sun began to set by the time they returned to the Phantom, long shadows streaking the dusty ground. They buckled in, and she engaged the thrusters for liftoff. As soon as they were high enough, Nils triggered the charges. Vibrations shook the ascending Phantom as detonations tore through the compound, large fireballs decimating the heavy perimeter walls and leveling the structures.
“It’s kind of pretty.” She watched the riot of color below as the explosion encountered more flammable material.
He chuckled. “Trust you to find an explosion aesthetically pleasing.”
They broke the atmosphere, the planet disappearing behind them. Not an ounce of regret touched her when the planet finally disappeared from their sensors.
“Time to head home,” she said.
But she didn’t know what awaited her at home. Would she be Stainless Jur or Celene? A fling Nils could boast about? Or did he want more?
Could she truly allow herself that kind of vulnerability? She prided herself on her courage, but in so many ways, the heart was more fragile than the body. A body could be destroyed only once, but one’s heart could be torn apart again and again.
It’d be easy to fall back into her old role again. To take up the armor of Stainless Jur, surrounding herself with other Black Wraith pilots who never truly knew her, and be content with the sterile admiration from the rest of the 8 thWing. Nothing touched her. Nothing hurt her.
Or she could take the chance with Nils. And possibly have her heart cut open with all of 8 thWing watching.
Nervousness danced in Nils’s stomach as the 8 thWing home base came into view. For the past solar weeks, he and Celene had been essentially alone. The flight back had been an exercise in delayed gratification—they’d kissed, and touched, but that was all. The stretches of space between Marek’s former hideout and home base were too dangerous to trust to autopilot, so Nils and Celene had stolen moments here and there, yet never made love.
They hadn’t talked about what would happen when they got back to base.
Anxiety and sexual frustration roiled through him. What was she going to do once they returned to their normal lives, their normal roles? She was Stainless Jur, one of the Black Wraith Squad’s best, if not the best. He was the pride of NerdWorks. The two didn’t intermingle, let alone become lovers.
