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I look up to meet his eyes,

serious and determined and the rarest, most intense colors I’ve ever seen. I lean closer, our gaze unbroken, fire crackling and warming the air around us. He swallows and then he’s there, right before me. My heart slams into my ribs and my neck goes hot and I close my eyes just as our lips brush and my breath catches and …

And he pulls away.

SARAHOCKLER.COM

There’s a fine line between bitter and sweet.

ONCE UPON A TIME, Hudson knew exactly what her future looked like. Then a betrayal changed her life and knocked her dreams to the ground. Now she’s a girl who doesn’t believe in second chances … a girl who stays under the radar by baking cupcakes at her mom’s diner and obsessing over what might have been.

So when things start looking up and she has another shot at her dreams, Hudson is equal parts hopeful and terrified. Of course, this is also the moment a cute, sweet guy walks into her life … and starts serving up some seriously mixed signals. She’s got a lot on her plate, and for a girl who’s been burned before, risking it all is easier said than done.

It’s time for Hudson to ask herself what she really wants, and how much she’s willing to sacrifice to get it. Because in a place where opportunities are fleeting, she knows this chance may very well be her last….

Sarah Ockler is the bestselling author of Fixing Delilah and the critically acclaimed Twenty Boy Summer, a YALSA Teens’ Top Ten nominee and an Indie Next List pick. She is a champion cupcake eater, coffee drinker, night person, and bookworm. When she’s not writing or reading at home in Colorado, Sarah enjoys taking pictures, hugging trees, and road-tripping through the country with her husband, Alex. Visit her website at SARAHOCKLER.COM, and find her on Twitter and Facebook.

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Ockler, Sarah.

Bittersweet / by Sarah Ockler. – 1st Simon Pulse hardcover ed.

p. cm.

Summary: Hudson Avery gave up a promising competitive ice-skating career after her parents divorced when she was fourteen years old, and now spends her time baking cupcakes and helping out in her mother’s upstate New York diner, but when she gets a chance at a scholarship and starts coaching the boys’ hockey team, she realizes that she is not through with ice-skating after all.

ISBN 978-1-4424-3035-8

[1. Divorce—Fiction. 2. Ice skating—Fiction. 3. Diners (Restaurants)—Fiction.

4. Cupcakes—Fiction. 5. New York (State)—Fiction.] I. Title.

PZ7.O168Lan 2012

[Fic]—dc23

2011024193

ISBN 978-1-4424-3037-2 (eBook)

For Ted Malawer,

who always finds a way to let me

have my cupcakes and eat them, too.

Contents

Prologue: ’Twas the Month Before Cupcakes

Chapter One: Damsels in Distress

Chapter Two: Cupcakes of Destiny

Chapter Three: No One Wants to Kiss a Girl Who Smells Like Bacon, So I Might as Well Get Fat Cupcakes

Chapter Four: When Life Hands You Lemons, Stuff ’Em in Your Bra Cakes

Chapter Five: Opportunity Knocks You on Your Butt Cakes

Chapter Six: Kill Me, Kill Me Now Cupcakes

Chapter Seven: How to Appear Outwardly Cool While Totally Freaking Out on the Inside Cupcakes

Chapter Eight: The Good, the Bad, and the Cupcakes

Chapter Nine: Sticks and Stones May Break My Bones, but Falling Down Hurts Real Bad, Too, Cupcakes

Chapter Ten: Red-Hot Double Crush Cakes

Chapter Eleven: Shoulda-Coulda-Woulda Cakes

Chapter Twelve: Dirty Little Secrets

Chapter Thirteen: Bah Humbug and a Merry Who Cares to You, Too, Cupcakes

Chapter Fourteen: Cupcakes with Benefits

Chapter Fifteen: Desperate Times Call for Desperate Cupcakes

Chapter Sixteen: Lights, Camera, Cupcakes!

Chapter Seventeen: Chocolate Banana Snap Crackle Popcakes

Chapter Eighteen: Hester’s Scarlet Letters

Chapter Nineteen: Desolation Angels

Chapter Twenty: The Perfect Storms

Chapter Twenty-One: Woolly Mammoth Freeze-Outs

Chapter Twenty-Two: Bittersweets

Chapter Twenty-Three: Liar, Liar, Cakes on Fire

Chapter Twenty-Four: Friend of the Devil Cupcakes

Chapter Twenty-Five: Hudson Avery’s Last-Chance Triple/Triple Combo Cupcakes

Chapter Twenty-Six: Not-So-Impossible Orange Dreams

Chapter Twenty-Seven: Have Your Cupcakes and Eat Them, Toos

Acknowledgments

Prologue

’Twas the Month Before Cupcakes

Three years ago …

It was the biggest competition night of my life, but all I could think about was the cheetah bra.

I’d found it a few hours earlier, tucked into a pile of folded laundry on the end of my bed. It was just there, two perfect C-cups trimmed in black, nestled between my jeans with the butterfly on the pocket and the faded Buffalo Sabres hoodie I’d swiped from Dad.

Mom was in her bedroom ironing, decked out in her yellow robe and those hard-bottomed slippers that are supposed to be good for your back. I dangled the bra off my finger, because Mom + cheetah = eww, and dropped it on her dresser.

“It was mixed in with my stuff,” I said when she looked up. I flopped on her bed, tossing a pillow in the air and catching it. Toss. Catch. Toss. Catch. “Are we leaving soon?” Toss. Catch.

“It’s not … yours?” She stood in front of the dresser then, looking down at the bra with her fingers spread out on either side of it like she was scanning the day’s headlines.

“Ma.” I met her eyes in the mirror, motioning toward my barely noticeable A-cups. No way it could’ve been mine; as resident bra-buyer of the family, she ought to know my size. I laughed and grabbed the pillow again, but the look that flashed across her face stopped me cold. It was like the aftermath of an ice storm, black and treacherous, yet eerily calm.

I swallowed hard.

After all the late-night arguments, the separate bedrooms, the unspoken glares, things between my parents had just gone from pretty bad to unfixably worse.

“Mom?” I said quietly, still clutching the pillow. “Are you—”

“Almost ready, Hudson. Go down and tell your …” She almost choked on the word, clearing her throat as she opened the top drawer and swept in the bra like crumbs from the breakfast table. “Your father… ask him to start the car.”

“But whose—”

“It’s an hour and a half drive to Rochester and we still need to take Max to the sitter’s.” She bumped the drawer closed with her hip, turning toward me with a pinched grin as the mirror shook behind her. “Big night tonight, baby. Let’s get moving!”

After we dropped off my little brother, Mom gave me the front seat next to Dad. He quizzed me on my routine, and as I verbally walked through each step, guilt jabbed me in the chest. He’s the one who supported my ice-skating, who told Mom they had to find a way to make it work, even if it meant selling Hurley’s, the old diner she’d owned since before they were married. He’d said if I made it to nationals later that year, we’d probably have to move anyway—find a bigger city with better access to private ice time. Interview special coaches and home tutors. Look for sponsorships. Whatever it took, Dad was ready and willing, my cheerleader, my number one sideline support system. Still, there was something off between us that night—something uncomfortable I’d never felt before I discovered the bra. Mom hadn’t said anything else about it, and from the backseat en route to Rochester’s Luby Arena, she stared silently out her window as the highway exits passed.

“You okay?” Kara Shipley asked later, squeezing my hand. My best friend and I were practically twins, and together in the prep area at Luby, we looked the part. Two fourteen-year-olds from Watonka, New York. Slick, strawberry blond buns pinned and sprayed into place. Red-and-gray warm-up jackets with our local club logo—a bison, for Buffalo Bisonettes—embroidered like a badge near the top right shoulder. On our skating dresses underneath, we each wore a silver rabbit pin—our personal good luck charms for every event.

I nodded. “Just … nerves.” I wanted to tell her about what I’d found, what I suspected, but when I thought of my mother, stopping her ironing to inspect the offending item and then whisking it into the dark of the dresser drawer, my insides burned.

Kara gave me another squeeze. “Don’t worry, Hud. You’ll rock this place tonight. Just ignore the cameras and breathe.” With her free hand she rubbed my back, her palm soft and warm through the nylon dress. I’d almost forgotten about the cameras. Tonight’s Empire Games was just a recreational competition, but the sponsor had invited the media to spotlight me since I was the favorite for next month’s North Atlantic regionals—the gateway to everything I’d ever trained for. Tonight would be my big public debut—I’d show off my signature moves on live TV, turn more than a few heads, and fire a warning shot to my upcoming regional competition.

Ladies and gentlemen, Hudson Avery! Remember this night, and you’ll be able to tell your kids that you knew her when!

“Hudson?” Kara frowned in the mirror, her hand still warm on my back. I took a deep breath as instructed and flashed her a tight smile—the same kind Mom had given me in her bedroom earlier. The same one she’d given my dad as she shuffled me to the front seat and arranged herself in the back. The same one she was probably giving him then, all the way up in the stands.

As the announcer called our names, we glided onto the ice like a long red-and-gray snake. I found my parents in their seats and waved. Mom had the video camera trained on the rink, but she was turned away, looking at the side doors where the event officials had gathered. There were directors from all the regional rinks, and most of the girls had private coaches, too; mine was there with the others, chatting up the CEO of Empire Icehouse, Western New York’s largest pro shop. He was an honorary judge.

I looked back at the stands as Dad gave me a small wave. His leg was bouncing up and down like he’d had too much coffee. My parents were sitting right next to each other, shoulders almost touching, but for all the miles between them, they might as well have been in different arenas.

After the parade of skaters, we settled into our reserved seats. Alternating with girls from eight other local clubs, we slid out one at a time to perform our programs—first round. Just as my club predicted, I owned it.

Hours later, seven of us remained in the final round to compete for the big prize: five thousand dollars cash, plus new equipment and upgrades for the entire club—an invaluable sponsorship courtesy of Empire Icehouse.

I was the only one left from the Buffalo club. The last shot. The sure thing.

As the opening chords of my music floated onto the ice, I felt the cameras zoom in on my face, and I forced a smile. My skating friends and coaches were counting on me. I was counting on me. The whole city was counting on me, its lone Bisonette, twirling like a ballerina in the spotlight.

By this time next year, I’d be famous, and everyone would know where I’d come from.

I skated over the smooth, white rink and sped up for the first jump. Nailed it. Slid into a long, leaning glide, sailing across the ice on one skate and picking up speed for my double axel. Nailed that one, too. After months of intense workouts with my coach and choreographer, I’d learned my program impossibly well—memorized it until it was absolutely error-proof. Maybe that’s why, as my feet glided across the ice like poured water, my thoughts had the space to stretch and wander. With four minutes to spare, my mind walked home, straight into the muffled arguments that had splintered our family like cracks in the ice—We can’t afford this. She needs to stay in school. I’m not selling the diner. What about Max? We can’t just move. It found Dad in the family room on the couch. It took notice of his late nights at the office and Mom’s at Hurley’s. It cataloged all the uncorrelated evidence, all the way up to tonight. Mom knew that bra wasn’t mine the second she found it in the laundry, but she’d folded it and put it in my room anyway, as if burying it between my girlishly straight jeans and baggy sweatshirt would change the inevitable truth.

I leaned in for my next combination, and suddenly I could see into our future—it was all there, right before me. Dad would leave. Mom would get stuck with me and Max, who was only five and wouldn’t understand. We’d probably have to move anyway—downsize, sacrifice, change. All because of … what? Who? My father, who’d given me my first pair of ice skates when I was just four years old? My father, who’d worked hard to pay for the lessons, the equipment, the private coach, the entry fees? My father, who’d never missed a practice or competition, always cheering from the sidelines, encouraging but never overbearing, loving but never smothering?

Something kicked me then, right in the chest. I fought to breathe, to keep the sting from my eyes, the shake from my limbs. I looked at my parents sitting in the stands, my father like he’d rather be anywhere but next to the woman he married. I looked at him not looking at me, not looking at her, and for the first time in the history of my competitions, I didn’t want to win. I didn’t want the money or the Icehouse gear for the club or the TV interviews they’d lined up for me. I didn’t want to go to regionals in Lake Placid or sectionals after that. I didn’t want any more lessons or competitions or all the big, impossible dreams that came with them. If the ice beneath my feet was the reason for the cracks in my parents’ marriage, I didn’t want any of it.

I watched them, wanting against the odds the simple gestures that meant things were okay—Dad’s arm around my mother, her hand comfortably on his knee. Instead, Dad was still, alone. Mom had suddenly moved several rows in front of him, the camera glued to her face.

Instead of my impressive triple flip/triple toe loop combo, I did a single axel. Then I skipped my camel spin and just kept skating, curving into figure eights as if it were a beginner’s lesson. I sensed the confusion from my home team and the coaches who’d seen me nail this stuff a hundred times in training, but I ignored it, pushed it down my legs, out through my skates, deep beneath the ice. When it was time for my grand finale, I did a halfhearted lutz, barely making a full rotation above the rink. On the other end of my jump, I crossed my skates and landed in a score-killing wobble.

The arena was silent.

As the next girl skated out to start her program, I slipped into the girls’ bathroom, waiting for my mother to rush in after me.

She didn’t come.

“Hudson Avery.” At the end of the event, I sat numb in the kiss-and-cry room and listened for my abysmal scores, thinking about all the things that would end that night. The Empire Games. My parents’ marriage. The skating career I no longer wanted. And the only shot my fellow Bisonettes had at those much-needed rink and equipment upgrades. I beat them all out in the first round only to choke when it really counted. Mostly, they were too shocked and disappointed to ask, too confused to assume my on-ice meltdown was anything other than an unforgivably bad case of nerves. I left without speaking to my coach or saying good-bye to the girls. I ignored the pinch in my stomach when I saw Kara’s face, her eyes glassy and red, her mouth opened in an unspoken question: What happened out there?

In the car on the way home, Dad gave my knee a light squeeze and told me things would work out. That I just needed to look forward, to focus on the upcoming regionals—the stuff that really counted. Tonight was just a little setback, he said; I’d nail it next time for sure.

I met Mom’s gaze in the side mirror, tired and sad with nothing to say, and I knew what Dad didn’t: There wasn’t going to be a next time. Not for him and Mom. Not for me and skating. Not for any of us.

Chapter One

Damsels in Distress

Dark chocolate cupcakes with red peppermint mascarpone icing, edged with chocolate and crushed candy canes

In three years of baking for Hurley’s Homestyle Diner in Watonka, New York, I’ve never met a problem a proper cupcake couldn’t fix. And while I haven’t quite perfected the recipe to fix my father, I’m totally on the verge.

“Taste this.” I pass a warm cupcake across the prep counter to Dani and lick a gob of cherry-vanilla icing from my thumb. “I think it’s the one.”

My best friend sighs. “That’s what you said about the blueberry lemon batch. And the white mocha ones. Have you seen this thing walkin’ around behind me? It’s the Great Cupcake Booty of Watonka.” She turns and shakes it, a few corkscrew curls springing loose from the pile on her head.

“Last one. I promise.”

“Nice breakfast. You’re lucky I … mmmph … oh my God!” Her copper-brown eyes widen as she wolfs down a big bite.

“I used half the sugar this time and buttercream instead of cream cheese. Doesn’t compete with the cherry as much.”

“Whatever you did, it’s delish.” She wipes her hands on an apron and goes back to prepping for our open, topping off small glass pitchers of maple syrup. I love baking at the diner on Saturday mornings, especially when Dani’s on first shift. There’s something peaceful about it—just the two of us here in the stainless steel kitchen, radio on low, the hiss-pop-hiss of the big coffeemakers keeping us company while the winter sky goes from black to lavender to a cool, downy gray.

I rinse the mixing bowls and set them back on the counter, rummaging through my stash for the next batch: eggs, butter, raw cane sugar, cocoa powder, heavy cream, espresso, shaved dark chocolate, a handful of this, a sliver of that, no measuring required. Every cupcake starts out a blank canvas, ingredients unattached to any shared destiny until I turn on the mixer. Now Dani stands on her toes to see into the bowl and together we watch it swirl, streaks of white and pale yellow and black, electric beaters whirring everything into a perfect brown velvet.

“You really are an artist, Cupcake Queen.” Dani smiles, hefting the tray of syrups onto her shoulder and pushing through the double doors into the dining room.

Cupcake Queen. I owe the newspaper for that one. “Teen’s Talent Turns Struggling Diner into Local Hot Spot: Cupcake Queen Wows Watonka with Zany Creations,” by Jack Marshall, staff reporter. The article’s preserved in a crooked glass frame on the wall behind the register, right next to an autographed black-and-white photo of Ani DiFranco and three one-dollar bills from Mom’s first sale as the new owner. You can see it clearly if you’re sitting at the front counter in the seat on the far left—the one with the torn leatherette that pokes the back of your thighs—if you lean over and squint. I don’t need to squint, though. I’ve read it so many times I can recite it backward. Creations zany with Watonka wows queen cupcake: spot hot local into diner struggling turns talent teen’s.

I never set out to wow Watonka with zany creations or join the royal court of confectioners. When I first started inventing my cupcakes, it was just something to keep me and Bug—that’s what I call Max—from going nuts after Dad moved to Nevada. Whenever we’d start to miss him, I’d lure Bug into the kitchen, and together we’d dig through the pantry for stuff to bake into funny little desserts with made-up names and frosting faces. We’d bring the best ones to the diner for Mom to share with the waitresses and Trick, her cook. Soon the regulars at the counter were sampling them, wanting to know when they’d be on the menu, when they could order a few dozen for their next bridge club party. Somewhere between my first batch of custom Bug-in-the-Mud Cakes and now, somewhere between leaving competitive skating and looking for a place to hide out, somewhere between Dad’s departure and Mom finding the strength to get out of bed again, baking cupcakes became a part of me—both a saving grace and a real, moneymaking job.

Staff reporter Jack Marshall didn’t ask about any of that stuff, though.

My gaze drifts out the window to the snow falling beneath the lights in the back lot. It’s so gray and nondescript outside that I could be anywhere, anytime, and for a second the blankness is so complete that I lose track of the hour and forget where I am. Everything is flip-flopped, like the opposite of déjà vu.

“Hudson?” Dani’s voice over the whir of the mixer brings me back. Saturday morning. Twenty-ninth of November. Cupcake day.

“Sorry. I kinda spaced.”

“Yeah, I kinda noticed.” She pulls up a tall metal stool and sits next to me at the prep counter. “So, are we gonna talk about your dad’s e-mail, or—”

“Not.” I recited parts of his latest missive over the phone last night, but here in the Hurley’s kitchen, separated from the rest of the world by the double doors and a blanket of new snow on the roof, I’m not in the mood.

“It is pretty jackass of him, if you ask me … even though you’re not.” She picks up a batter-covered spoon and licks off all the chocolate. “Like you really want to hear about your father’s romantic escapades with—”

“Yeah, exactly, thanks.” I lift the bowl and scrape the batter into silicone cups, filling each one three-quarters precisely. “I’m so done with his soul-mate-of-the-month crap.”

“Did he call her his soul mate?” she asks.

“Who moves to Vegas and falls in love with a female Elvis impersonator? Hello, walking cliché.”

I know I should ask him to squash the oversharing, but honestly? Hearing about his special lady friends is better than the alternative. First few months in Vegas? Total radio silence. Now? Let the e-mails flow. Sometimes I wonder if it’s the women in his life pushing him to be a better father. “Your children need to be part of your life. Reach out to them.” Ick. Like I really want Dad to “reach out” over our respective love lives. And by respective, I mean serial (his) and nonexistent (mine).

“Maybe she’s all right,” Dani says. “You don’t—”

“Anyone who goes by Shelvis is clearly not all right.”

“I thought it was Sherylynn or something.”

“Sherylanne. Shelvis is her stage name. She’s on tour this month,” I say, making air quotes around “tour.” “So instead of visiting us, Dad’s using his vacation time to follow her all over the southwest.” That’s the part I didn’t recite last night. I kept hoping it was a joke.

Dani crinkles her nose. “Gross.”

“Seriously gross. It’s the fourth Shelvis-related e-mail this week.”

“Any pictures?” she asks. He sent pictures of the last one—Honey or Candy or something like that—and Dani and I spent the entire weekend on Photoshop, giving her a handlebar mustache and snakes for hair.

I slide the baking cups into the oven and wipe my hands on a dish towel. “I think we can use our imaginations.”

“What about video? Now that I’d pay to see.” Dani clears her throat and breaks into a frightening version of “Love Me Tender.”

See, some people politely encourage their tone-deaf friends to sing. Some people even convince them to go on live television and audition for national competitions. But me? I am not that friend. Especially since Dani’s parents are, like, jazz virtuosos—mom sings, dad plays trumpet. You’d think she’d pick up on the fact that her voice lacks that certain something … called … being in tune.

“I thought we already established that your parents’ genes totally skipped you,” I say.

“They didn’t skip me. Mom says I’m just underdeveloped. I’m pretty sure Whitney Houston was the same way before she vocally matured.”

“Gotcha. Have another cupcake, Whit.” I slide the plate of experiments across the counter and load my spent bowls into the giant dishwasher.

I’ve got enough cupcakes in the oven, so I stick the remaining experiments in the front bakery case and help Dani with her sidework: wiping the menus, rolling silverware into napkins, and setting out metal trays of cut veggies for Trick. In an effort to feel slightly less guilty about our sugar-sweet breakfast, we take five at the prep counter and dine on some fruit salad. Dani recites saucy passages from a novel with a half-naked pirate on the cover as I watch the snow swirl outside, and the entire restaurant fills with the warm, chocolaty scent of fresh-baked cupcakes.

“The calm before the storm,” Dani says, closing her book and glancing up at the clock. “Another hour, this place will be a hot mess.”

“Don’t act like you don’t love it. You’re a front-of-the-house whore and you know it.”

Dani wiggles her eyebrows. “You should try it. I could teach you all the tricks.”

“I’ll stick to baking. It relaxes me.” I pull my cupcakes out of the oven and arrange them on wire cooling racks. “How sad is it that the crack of dawn in the Hurley’s kitchen is the only time I can get any peace and—”

“Morning, girls!” Mom rushes in through the back door with my little brother and a blast of cold air. “I just heard the weather report—we’re expecting a storm later.”

“Snowed in at the diner! Yes!” Bug pumps his fist, voice muffled by a thick red scarf. His tortoiseshell glasses are all fogged up, so I can’t see his eyes.

I kiss the top of his fuzzy blond head and tug off his backpack and jacket. “Winter in Watonka, Mom. Not a big mystery.”

“No, just a busy night ahead, and we’re already short-staffed.” Mom pulls off her hat, her gray-blond hair crackling with static. “Marianne’s out of town till tomorrow, Nat’s studying for finals, and I’m not sure Carly’s ready for more than two tables at a time.” Her trademark sigh is laced through every word, and I sag when it lands on my shoulders. That blue-and-white sign with the picture of the fork and knife on the I-190, just before the Watonka exit? Well, that’s us—first fork and knife off the highway. Bad weather hits, and all the just-passing-through folks in the world end up in our dining room. There goes my Saturday night.

“Nothing we can’t handle,” Dani says. “We’ll just—”

“Mom, can I inspect the mail?” Bug asks. He fingers the envelopes sticking out of Mom’s overstuffed purse. “I brought my lab gear.”

“Sure, baby. Use my office.” She hands over her purse and hangs their coats in the staff closet as Bug skips into the windowless room at the back of the kitchen. “Where’s the omelet setup?”

“Already done.” Dani hops up from the counter and shows mom the veggies, right where we always put them.

“Ma, chill. We’re fine,” I say. “It’s not even time to open.”

Dani and I follow her to the dining room. In flawless, unbroken succession, she pours herself a coffee, starts a fresh pot, checks all the sugar dispensers, and gives the counter an unnecessary wipe-down with a wet paper towel.

You can take the waitress out of the diner … but then she comes back and buys the joint.

“Know what you need?” I ask.

“A winning lotto ticket and a vacation? Preferably someplace tropical, no kids allowed?” She sits on a maroon leatherette stool next to Dani, rests her elbows on the counter, and sips her coffee.

“We’re fresh out of lotto tickets.” I take one of my experimental cupcakes from the case and put it on a pink-trimmed plate. “New recipe. As the owner, you’re obligated to try it.”

“They’re amazing,” Dani says. “She’s on a roll lately.”

“Don’t have to convince me, darlin’.” Mom smiles and carves out a piece with a fork. After the first bite, she loses the cutlery and dives in with her fingers, just the way you’re supposed to.

“They’re called Cherry Bombs,” I tell her after she inhales the last of it.

“Baby, you’re some kinda genius. Love them. And you.” She pecks my cheek and drops her dishes in the bus bin underneath the counter.

“I have a bunch more cooling,” I say, untying my apron. “I’ll be back later to frost.”

“You’re going on break? But the snow, and—”

“Ma, I’ve been in the kitchen all morning. I’m just going for a walk. I’ll be back before the rush, then I can help wherever you guys need me. Okay?” I grab the bus bin with her dishes and bump open the kitchen doors with my hip.

“Okay,” she calls after me. “Say bye to Bug first. Mrs. Ferris is picking him up in an hour.”

“Hudson!” Bug flashes a gap-toothed grin from behind his makeshift crime lab in Mom’s office, a pair of sandwich bags zipped over both hands. In one, he’s holding a white envelope; in the other, a half-eaten candy cane with a cotton ball rubber-banded to the end of it.

To my early morning eyes, it appears he’s dusting our mail for fingerprints, but you can’t always tell with Bug.

I set my backpack on the floor and plop down in the chair across from him. “Looking for evidence?”

“Nope.” He slides the glasses up his nose with the back of his wrist and rubs the envelope with the candy cane. “Anthrax. I’m at a critical juncture.”

Critical juncture? Sure. What eight-year-old isn’t?

“Find anything interesting?” I ask.

“No powdery residue. But definitely suspicious. Smell.” He slides a makeup catalog from beneath a microscope made out of a plate, a toilet paper roll, and an intricate arrangement of pipe cleaners. “Any ideas?”

I take a scientific whiff. “Gardenia. Looks like those Mary Kay terrorists are at it again.”