Текст книги "Animate Me"

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“Arnauld,” Ruiz warns. He must be able to tell that I’m about to snap.

“Is there anything else?” I ask, trying to neutralize my voice.

“Nope, that’s all. Right, Ruiz?”

“We’re done for now. Have your lawyer contact me directly so we can discuss how we’re going to proceed.”

When I go to stand my knees almost give out on me. I falter for a moment, but somewhere inside I find the strength to stand tall and gather myself. I turn towards the Monkey.

“I know I have what you want, but you’re fooling yourself if you think money and lawyers are going to make what’s mine, yours. You have underestimated me before, and I assure you, you haven’t seen anything yet.”

I don’t wait to see his reaction or hear his response. I’m done. I try to remember to breathe as I head out the door. I need to pass the threshold before it does an Alice in Wonderland and the doorway suddenly shrinks to a tiny size or turns sideways.

I’m so stunned that I just start walking down the hallway…so disoriented that I’m not even sure where the elevators are. I wish someone, any one of my friends, was nearby so that they could help me.

“Mr. Evans, you need to stop.” I turn to see Cathy, the HR woman that assisted me once with straightening out vacation days, rushing after me, a security guard only a step behind her.

“I need to get out of here,” I say out loud, not specifically to her but more to myself.

“Yes, yes, the guard will walk you out. But do you need to gather any personal items from your cubicle? We can make arrangements another time for you to do it, if that would be better.”

I think of my iPod, books and my figurines. I fear they’ll all disappear by Mojo’s mandate if I don’t take them now.

I turn towards her. “No, I want to get my stuff.” I’m right on the edge of my sanity, but I need to keep it together. Once I get the hell out of this building I can have my breakdown…but not now. I try to shift into autopilot, pushing all my devastation and panic behind a closed door in my mind.

“Okay, I’ll come downstairs with you. The guard will need to be there as well. When you’re done, he’ll escort you out.”

“Is that really necessary? I’m not going to do anything. I swear; I’ll just leave.”

“I’m sorry, Nathan. It’s policy,” she confirms pointing towards the elevators.

During the ride down I wonder where Brooke is and how I’m going to reach her. They said they were going to interrogate her. She’s probably in there right now hearing the horror of it all. I think I’ll go mad if I don’t get to talk to her soon and understand how she’s feeling. I couldn’t get a clear read on her at all in Arnold’s office. Was she upset and angry about B-Girl, or trying to pretend that it didn’t matter to deflect the situation from me? Why didn’t she even look at me after she heard the news?

As we approach the production area I see the team gathered in the hall near Nick’s office. They all turn and gawk at me and my entourage before quickly disbanding.

Andy heads back to his work area several steps behind us.

Once I’m inside my cube he peeks over the top of our shared wall. “Whoa dude, what’d you do anyway? Did they catch you doing on-line porn at work or something?”

He looks genuinely concerned, not just for me, but it appears for himself, too.

“No, it wasn’t on-line porn, Andy, and if you don’t mind, I’d rather not talk about it.”

“Sure,” he says, seeming to understand that I need my space. “But I’m sorry man, whatever it was. I’m going to miss having you around.”

I look up at him and his face is distressed. Who would have thought that the butterball’s a softy? He’s the last person I expected that from. “I’m sorry too, Andy,” I reply, realizing that I’m really sad to leave my team this way. They’d become like a second family to me.

I look sideways and realize that HR Cathy is standing outside my cube, and she’s pulled out a pad and pen. She sticks her head inside.

“Sorry, Nathan, but before you leave I have to write down what you take.”

“Really?” I say, irritated as all fuck. Now I’m a goddamned criminal. The guard hands me an empty box, and I slam it on my desk.

“Spiderman,” I call out tauntingly, waving it in the air for her before sticking the figurine inside the box. “iPod…Daffy Duck mouse pad…” I rattle off the titles of my reference books, and she gives me a suspicious look. “Hey, I brought them from home.”

“They’re his,” an angry voice responds, supporting me.

I turn to see Joel standing in my doorway.

“Nathan?” he asks, his hands straight out, palms turned upwards. He looks like he’s in pain. “What happened, dude? I need you here. What the hell?”

“I know, Joel. This is so messed up.” I look down and shuffle my feet.

“What can I do? I’ll go upstairs and fight this bullshit, whatever it is.”

“There’s no fighting this,” I say. “I’m sorry. This is really, really bad. Believe me; I never would want to let you down like this.”

“Fuck,” he curses, looking down. “You were my best guy, Nathan. And besides that, I liked working with you.”

“Me too,” I agree, feeling worse by the second.

He turns and looks back at Cathy and steps closer. “Hey, I’ll give you a call later, and we’ll set up a time in the next day or so to go out for drinks. Okay?”

“Yeah, sure. Thanks man.”

He punches me lightly on the shoulder and then steps back. “Damn.”

“I know.” I nod sadly.

“Okay, later, Nathan.”

I try to refocus, quickly riffling through my drawers and shelves for anything I don’t want to leave behind including my black Darth Vader shaped coffee mug and joke-of-the-day flip calendar. I pull open the bottom drawer, and I feel a huge surge of relief to see it’s completely empty. They never would have let me carry those drawings out of the building now. Nick and Dani came through for me.

I stand back up, and realize that I’m finished here. This part of my life is over.

“I’m done,” I tell Cathy and she looks relieved there hasn’t been more of a scene. But just then Dani and Nick push their way past Cathy and the guard.

Nick gets to me first. He pulls me into a hug and leans into my ear, speaking in a low voice, “We’ve got you covered, Nathan. Where are you headed now?”

“I don’t know…” I answer, because I really don’t.

“We’ll meet you at your house in about an hour.” He quietly states.

As he pulls away, I see Dani looking at my box and crying.

“It’s okay, Dani,” I say, pulling her into a hug. “I’ll be okay.”

“It’s not okay,” she argues. “This is so fucking wrong.”

“Excuse me,” Cathy interrupts. “He was just leaving.”

Dani gets a fierce look on her face and squares her shoulders. “Hey…back off! Do you understand that this is an outrage? He doesn’t deserve this, and you should be ashamed to be a part of it.”

Cathy starts to respond and then seems to think better of it, taking a step back to talk to the security guard.

“Dani, believe me, I’m better off getting the hell out of here, after what went down. I’ll fill you in later, okay?”

She nods solemnly, wipes the new tears away, and gives me one more hug. “Later,” she whispers.

I grab my box and head out. As the guard and I walk towards the elevators, Genna and Kevin step forward. I’m not sure how much more of this I can take. I’m barely holding it together.

“I’m so sorry, Nathan,” Genna says softly. “We’re really going to miss you.”

“Me too,” I offer, giving her a weak smile. “Hopefully I’ll see you guys around.”

Finally in the elevator heading to the lobby, I look at the security guard. He’s new to Sketch Republic. I’ve only noticed him around for a couple of weeks. This must be a really shitty part of the job.

“You seem like a nice guy,” he comments during our descent. “This must suck.”

I realize that he’s too green to understand he shouldn’t be sympathetic to the fallen. “It does suck,” I admit. “I’ve never been fired before.”

He shakes his head. “Wow. And that was a good job I bet.”

I nod. “And you know what else? You’re right…I’m a really nice guy. I guess that didn’t get me far.”

“I guess not,” he agrees. He follows me into the parking garage, watches me load my box into my trunk and drive off.

I’m in a surreal haze coasting down the street when my missed call prompt goes off. I pull over, and look at the phone’s screen: Morgan. I shut off my car and hit send.

“Hey, Morgan, it’s me, Nathan.”

“Damn, are you alright?”

“No, not alright at all,” I say. “Do you know where Brooke is?”

“That’s why I called, to see if you knew what was happening with her. She came running in here a while ago, grabbed me and pulled me into her office. She was crazed.”

“Fuck,” I swear. “What happened?”

“She took this tote bag out of her closet, opened her locked file drawer and stuffed some files and two flash drives in the bag.”

“Did she say why?”

“That’s the thing. She was shaking and rambling about only having a minute before she had to get back. Something about her telling someone she was sick to her stomach and was going to throw up, so she could get away to take care of this.”

“Oh, Brooke,” I sigh.

“So she gives me her car keys and tells me to immediately go lock this bag in the trunk of her car. That I needed to be very casual so that no one notices what I’m up to…then come right back up and just do my job like nothing’s happened.”

“Do you know what was in the folders and on the flash drives?”

“I have no idea. I’d never seen them before. But another thing she did before she left was open up a cupboard and stack up every one of those Starbucks cups you did for her and then put them in the bag. I didn’t know she’d kept them. Did you?”

My heart thunders with hope at this simple, yet significant gesture. “Yeah, I knew.”

“And then this is the last thing she said to me before she tore out of here, ‘Morgan you have no idea what’s in these folders or on the drives…I never showed them to you or talked to you about it. Do you understand me?’ She was so intense that she totally freaked me out. And then just like that, she was gone.”

“Damn,” I groan. “So what did you do?”

“I got the bag in her car and came back up like she asked. And now I’m waiting for her to return from HR. What’s going on Nathan? I’m completely freaked out.”

“Arnold’s trying to destroy me, and he’s trying to use Brooke to make it happen.”

“She won’t stand for that,” Morgan states emphatically.

“I know, but he may not need her to do it. He seems to be doing pretty well on his own.”

“No,” she gasps. “It’s that bad?”

“That bad,” I confirm.

“Fuck. Fucking Arnauld. Mother fucking Arnauld.”

“Exactly.” I take a deep breath. “So Morgan, please do me a favor. I’m going to leave Brooke a message on her cell phone, but as soon as she comes back from HR have her call me. I desperately need to talk to her and they escorted me off the premises. Will you do that?”

“Of course…whatever I can do to help, Nathan.”

“Thank you.”

“Brooke will figure this out. She’s smart as hell and she loves you.”

“I hope you’re right,” I say softly. On the first and last counts, I think. For as much as I can’t stand it, I have to be realistic. After the bomb that was dropped on Brooke today, I can’t be so sure of her feelings for me anymore.

I sit in my car for a minute trying to calm myself down, before giving up and tapping her name on my screen. Her phone goes straight to voicemail. I clear my throat and begin to stutter.

“Brooke…it’s me…”

I pause, my mind racing to think of how to explain what’s in my heart.

“I’m so sick with worry right now…I’m panicked, and I desperately need to talk to you, hear your voice….I need you.”

My free hand grips the car door handle tight. “By the time you get this you will know about the camera in the conference room. Fuck it all…I don’t even know what to say about that. I’m just sick as hell that all those fuckers saw us like that. They can accuse me of whatever they want, all that matters to me is that you’re okay.”

I feel myself start to break down and my voice cracks with my next words. “I need to know that you still love me…”

I can feel my eyes fucking tearing up. I feel like such a loser.

“Knowing you still love me is the only way I’m gonna get through this.

“You do, don’t you?…you know…love me? Cause the way you acted in his office…well I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t worried.”

I take a deep ragged breath.

“I’m so sorry about B-Girl. I wish I’d told you that the character was you in the very beginning. But I was so afraid you’d think I was a creepy freak for worshiping you from afar so long. Was I wrong about that?”

My stomach flips over. I hope I was wrong. Was I?

“Anyway, I can’t undo all of this shit, and now I’ve messed up not just my life, but yours too. Damn…I can’t believe this is happening. Everything was so perfect last week and now it feels like the end of the world.

“I love you so much, and I’m here waiting for you.

“I need to see you. I need to hold you.

“Please, Brooke…

“Call me.”

Animate Me / Chapter Twenty-Six / Calling on Wonder Woman

“Kill my boss? Do I dare live out the American dream?” ~Homer Simpson^xxv

“No, fucking way!”

Dani looks like she’s going to kill somebody, well, Mojo to be precise.

“Can he do that?” Nick asks, looking sick to his stomach.

“I’m not sure. If I fight it—even if he doesn’t win the lawsuit—it sounds like he’s going to drag me through court for a long time. I think he’ll keep it going until he breaks me financially and emotionally.”

They both stare at me with horror etched across their faces.

“But in some ways he’s already broken me. If you could’ve seen Brooke’s face…”

“Fuck,” whispers Nick, shaking his head.

“And the asshole is like, ‘Brooke I’m so sorry for what this sniveling loser has done to you…’ like he’s going to comfort her from my freaky exploitation and abuse.”

“Mother fucker,” Dani gasps. “You’ve got to fight this Nathan!”

“I will,” I say with determination. “What choice do I have? If he wins and steals B-Girl I don’t think I’ll survive it.”

“What’s Brooke say about it?” Nick asks concerned.

“I haven’t been able to talk to her yet. They must still be talking to her.”

“Talking? You mean breaking her down,” throws in Dani.

“And I’ve called her several times but her phone’s still off. Morgan’s on alert to call me as soon as she’s out of there. I just need a chance to explain everything to her.” My head falls. “I need her.”

“I know, man…I know,” Nick says. “She loves you. No matter how bad it looks right now, she’ll come around.”

“I hope you’re right,” I say, trying not to crumble inside. “I know Mojo is going to keep messing with her, and that kills me.”

“The mother fucker needs a message,” Dani announces cryptically.

Nick lights up. “What we talked about earlier?”

“Yes, yes. Let’s go see my brother after we leave here. This will be right up his alley.”

“You’re a genius,” Nick says with admiration. “The army is building as we speak. It will be epic.”

“I know,” she acknowledges. “And together we will rock this thing.”

“What are you talking about?” I ask warily. “What are you going to do?”

“Nothing you need to know,” Dani informs me.

“You guys…seriously, I don’t want you getting into trouble on my account.”

“It’s not just you, Nathan; although of course your situation has inspired us. This is for all the artists and creative people that get fucked over by the suits. This is for all of us.”

“Okay, just be careful,” I implore. “I can’t take anymore guilt right now. If you lost your jobs too, I don’t think I could handle it.”

“We are super-sleuths, we are ninjas,” she hisses. “By tomorrow…”

“Honey, realistically we’re thinking the day-after-tomorrow…”

“By the day after tomorrow,” she continues, “Mojo will see his future with the very people that make his worthless ass look good, and believe me, Nathan, it won’t be bright.”

After Nick and Dani leave I call my Dad and give him the bad news. As if it wasn’t horrible enough to tell him about Arnold stealing B-Girl, my humiliation is complete in having to describe Brooke and my conference room antics. He asks about Brooke, and I explain that I haven’t talked to her yet, that I’m not sure how she feels about me after the big reveal. With a heavy heart I finally tell him about her lack of response when I called out to her before she left the meeting.

I’m grateful he doesn’t lecture me, just remains quiet as I try to rationalize my reckless stupidity. When I’m done, he offers to call Walter on my behalf. I can sense how worried he is about me when not even a single calculation or deduction is worked into his quiet words.

Only moments after we hang up, my phone rings. I answer it so quickly I don’t even check my screen for who it is.

I hear the cries first and my heart clenches. My fingers tighten over my cell phone.

“Brooke?” I gasp.

“No…Mor…gan,” she stutters.

“Are you alright, Morgan? What’s happened?” I ask worry flooding through me. Our tough friend has cracked. This is bad.

She takes a deep ragged breath. “Everything’s fucked, isn’t it Nathan?” she asks.

“Yes,” I admit solemnly.

“Brooke’s gone,” she offers. “She left and I have a feeling she isn’t coming back.” She starts to cry again, and I feel sick with worry for her and for me.

“Where are you?” I ask. “Do you need me to come get you?” I have to get to Brooke, but I need to take care of Morgan too.

“No, I need to stay here and watch the fort for Brooke just in case. They just came and took her computer.”

“Fuck.” This is really happening.

“What did you mean, Morgan…when you said she’s gone?”

“She gave me her phone and said she was going to disappear for a while. She told me that she considered me a cherished friend. And that she was going to miss me.” She starts crying again.

Why would she give Morgan her phone before she even called me back? Did she even get my message?

“Disappear? What did she mean, ‘disappear’?”

“I’m not sure. I’ve never seen her like that. She was crying. She looked awful and scared… like she was about to walk through fire.”

“Brooke…” I whisper.

“There was something about them being able to track her with her phone.”

Oh my, God. My Brooke’s scared, really scared. I have to get to her. But in the same moment I realize that without her phone, I have no way to reach her, to find her. She’s lost to me too. “Did she tell you where she’s going?” I ask.

“No, she said I couldn’t know, but that she would contact me on my cell phone as soon as she could.”

It’s not like Brooke to be paranoid. This is freaking me out. “Do you have any idea, where she would go?”

“Not really…” Morgan sniffs, then continues, “…because from the sound of it, she won’t go somewhere obvious like her friend, Jenn’s. It sounds like she doesn’t want to be found.”

It also doesn’t sound like she’s coming to me and that realization kills me. She knows I’d do anything for her, but I’m not the one she wants right now.

Still on the phone, I stand up and grab my car keys. I’m halfway to my car before I realize that I didn’t even close my front door. I force myself to sit on my front step, realizing that I have to calm down and focus. I can’t drive in this state or I’ll be unsafe to others. I take a deep breath.

“Okay, Morgan, let me think for a minute. Let’s go back a few steps. How long was she in HR?”

“Well, over an hour,” she says calming down once she hears I’m trying to stay calm.

“And then?”

“She came back here white as a ghost and really agitated. She told me to get that head lawyer from legal, Ruiz on the phone. Then she went in her office and closed the door.”

“Okay, so she talked to the lawyer…” I prompt.

“And then after a few minutes I see her extension’s light on my phone go off. So I wait a bit, and when she doesn’t come out I knock on the door. She doesn’t answer, so I crack the door to peek in.”

“And?” I ask anxiously.

“Damn, Nathan, she was curled over her desk with her face down, sobbing…just sobbing. Oh, God. It was awful. So I let myself in, closing the door behind me. I went to her, but I wasn’t sure what to say, what to do…so I just offered her a bunch of Kleenex.”

“Did she say anything?”

“She just kept chanting, ‘it’s my fault…because of me…he’s ruined.’”

“Ruined?” I feel like I just got punched in the stomach. I know she’s talking about me.

“I’m so sorry, Nathan. What did they do to you?”

“Arnold’s stolen my comic book and taken ownership.”

“Fuck…no! I knew it was something really bad. I knew he’d get revenge somehow for Brooke falling in love with you.”

“Yes, I knew he would too. I just never dreamed it would be this.”

“Well, that would explain what she said next. She told me to tell you that she was going to do everything she could to stop it. That she couldn’t face you again until she fixed this somehow.”

“Did she say how she was going to fix it?”

“No, I couldn’t even tell if she had a plan, or if she was just rambling in despair.”

“Did she say anything else?”

There’s a long pause.

“What, Morgan?”

“Shit, Nathan, I don’t want to tell you this…”

“I need to know everything. Please.”

“Then she told me that she knew all along she wasn’t good enough for you, and this just proves it. You’d be so much better off without her fucking up your life.”

“What?”

What?

I’m almost angry at her…furious. How can she say that after everything we’ve shared together? I need her right now more than ever.

“Maybe she was just being dramatic, Nathan. She was so distraught.”

“I’m going to go to her house, and see if she’s there. She would have to go get stuff if she’s leaving for a while.”

“Hurry then,” she warns. “I’m sure she won’t be there long. She’s been gone for at least an hour now. I couldn’t get away to call with all the computer stuff going on. And before that, Arnauld stormed over here and yelled, then interrogated me because I was supposed to call his office the moment she returned from HR”

“The fucker yelled at you?”

“Yeah, evidently he wasn’t done with her yet. And you know what? I don’t care if he fires me. Dealing with him just then was the last thing she needed.”

I feel a powerful surge of gratitude towards Morgan. “You did the right thing. Thanks for always looking out for Brooke,” I say reassuringly.

“Of course.”

“Okay, I better go. I’ll check in with you later.”

“All right. Hey, Nathan?”

“Yes?”

“I’m so sorry. I’m sorry for all of us.”

• • •

I put all my focus into driving since my mind and spirit are shot. I keep my cool until I get all the way around Lake Hollywood only to find that they have the road closed due to a movie location shoot. The location cop informs me that unless I can wait about forty-five minutes, the only thing I can do is retrace my steps and then come up from the front, through Hollywood. That alone will take almost thirty minutes or more because of traffic. And that’s when I lose my cool.

I turn my car around like an Indie 500 driver and gun it on the windy road around the lake. By the time I hit Barham Blvd. heading towards Hollywood, I’m completely amped up.

She can’t just fucking leave me when I need her most. She told me she loved me. She told me it was forever. It was one thing when I thought she was mad at me about B-Girl, but this is something else.

I’m mad at this weak Brooke who slinks away from me when things get rough. I want my strong Brooke, who will stand by me in battle. We could fight this together.

As soon as I pull up to her place I can tell she’s already gone. I let myself in the gate, then futilely ring the doorbell over and over and peer in the front windows. There’s no sign of her.

I’ve never felt more defeated. I sit on her doorstep with my head in my hands trying to figure out what to do next. “Don’t do this to me, Brooke,” I whisper. “Please don’t do this to me.”

I’m almost back to my house when my cell phone rings.

“Where are you?” Curtis asks, forgoing formalities.

“Driving home.”

“Come to Billie’s store. Dad called and told me what’s going on. We need to talk.”

“I don’t think I can, Curtis. I’m a wreck.”

“Brooke was here not long ago. Billie tore into her.”

“I’ll be right there.”

When I finally arrive at the Outer Limits, Billie has a worried expression as they approach me. Curtis nods an abbreviated greeting.

“Curtis says Brooke was here,” I say directly to Billie. “What happened?”

Billie stops right in front of me and rests her fists on her hips defensively. Her expression morphs from concern, to stormy, to fierce.

“I told her to get the fuck out of my store.”

I groan and pull my hands over my face.

“Why, Billie?”

“Curtis had just called me with the lowdown, how she didn’t come to your defense in the meeting…and then she showed up here. She was trying to buy a complete set of your comics and it pissed me off. What if she’s taking them to that asshole Arnauld guy?”

“I assure you. He already has a set.”

“And then she started to cry like a baby, and babble that it isn’t what I think. Plus, some bullshit that she wants to help you. “So I asked why she wasn’t with you when you needed her most. Didn’t she understand what it meant to be loved like that? Enough that you would create a character in her name and show her all the love in the world? I mean what the hell?”

“Oh, Billie,” I say defeated.

“She blubbered about not being good for you, that you would be better off without her.”

I shake my head in despair.

“So I told her that if she was that big of a wimp, that in my opinion, she’s right…but that you would never see it that way. If she abandons you, it’ll kill you.”

“What did she say to that?”

“She just cried harder. What an emo.”

“Billie!”

“So I told her to take the books and that I didn’t want her money. I just want her to do the right thing by you.”

I look at Billie. She’s right, and she’s wrong about Brooke. Either way I’m fucked.

“What? If she’s going to abandon you when you need her most, then I’m done with her. I’m sorry Nathan, but it’s wrong.”

“It’s not what you think Billie. She also told her assistant that she’s going to try to help me. Even if Brooke is mad about B-Girl, I need to believe she still cares about me. I swear, she wouldn’t just let Arnold take me down without trying to do something. Can’t you see that?”

“I’m only looking at what’s right in front of me. And you should too.”

Her words haunt me the entire drive home and with each passing hour it gets worse.

Brooke could have reached me by now. I don’t care if it was by a damn payphone or telegram. If she knows me at all she’d know how desperately I’d need some reassurance about now.

Even if she can’t handle the fact that I’d obsessed about her so long and hid B-Girl from her, she owes it to me to at least talk about it. A stream of anguished thoughts loops in my head, playing over and over and over until I think I’m going mad. I make a calculated decision to surrender to alcohol to numb my tortured, hopeless thoughts.

• • •

It’s a long dark night with my silent cell phone clutched in one hand, an iceless, amber filled glass in the other as I wander aimlessly through my haunted house. I’m a ghost, my deep sighs painful echoes, as I fear the loss of the life I’d always wanted.

I see Brooke everywhere…her shimmering mirages taunt me. But every time I reach for her, my shaky fingers grasp nothing but air.

The next morning, the bright light in the bathroom scorches my eyes. I stand with a slight wobble before I adjust and approach the sink.

What day is it anyway? Ah yes, Tuesday…the day after the worst day in my life.

I glare at my reflection. Good thing Brooke isn’t seeing me now. This would pretty much seal the deal.

“Hey Nathan, did you know that Jack Daniels is not a good substitute for Brooke?” I ask myself aloud.

“No?” I answer.

My reflection in the mirror is blurry. It’s probably not a good sign that I’m talking to myself.

“But last night I sure thought the Jack Daniels was worth a try.”

In the mirror I watch my hands lift in a gesture like I’m explaining my reasoning. I then scowl and shake my head disapprovingly.

“Back to the drawing board, Nathan.”

I lean over the sink and splash water across my swollen face and puffy eyes.

I thought only crazy people talked to themselves. So now I’m a crazy fucker.

Morning is a cold, hard bitch.

With considerable inner conflict, I answer the phone call from my Dad. Apparently my zombie-like responses to his questions discourage him.

“Nathan. Pull it together. Have you eaten anything, or did you just imbibe last night?”

“Do you really want to know?” I ask, disheartened.

“Ah, Son. I’m coming over there. But first there’s good news. Walter just called, and they aren’t pursuing the conference room issue. Seems that yesterday Brooke convinced them it was consensual, that she encouraged the aggressive behavior. She also told them that she absolutely wanted to copulate with you while bent over the conference room table.”

“Dad. Stop. I really don’t want to hear it.” I can’t even feel relieved.

“Well, I am extremely reassured that this predatory Lothario issue has been put to rest. But have I taught you nothing, Son, about risk aversion? Next time, take a moment to factor the hazards of exposure, versus the fleeting, yet euphoric moment of physical release. Practicality will win out every time.”

“Yes, I’m an idiot. Noted,” I slur, slightly. “Are we done?”

“Are you still drunk?”

“Maybe.”

“Take a shower, and get dressed. I’m on my way over.”

Minutes after we hang up I hear bells ringing again. The mother fucking noise needs to stop. I realize in my stupor that it’s my phone and I finally answer it.

“Nathan?”

“Yes, Walter?”

“I need you to go through all of your art, and look for any examples of how you could have been developing these characters before your time at Sketch Republic.”

“But I didn’t develop them until I was at Sketch Republic.”

“I don’t think you’re understanding me Nathan. Do you want to win or not?”

As I hang up I feel a jolt of reality. Do I want to win? Is he fucking kidding? I have to win. Despite my pathetic state of despair, I haven’t lost sight of the fact that Brooke and B-Girl are everything to me. I sink into the living room chair and imagine my life without my two best girls, and my throat starts to tighten until I feel like I can’t breath. My eyes scan across the cases of collectibles, and note that each figurine and action figure is stoically posed and still as if waiting for their command for our upcoming battle. Are they worried about me? Do they miss Brooke too? I have to imagine they do…who wouldn’t?