Текст книги "Ashen Winter"

Автор книги: Mike Mullin

сообщить о нарушении

Текущая страница: 5 (всего у книги 26 страниц)

Chapter 11

When Darla woke, we packed Bikezilla, said goodbye to Dr. McCarthy, and headed for my uncle’s farm. We’d only been gone two days, but even so, the farm looked different. Rebecca and Uncle Paul were out front nailing boards over a window. Most of the ground-floor windows were already boarded over.

As we made the turn into the driveway, Max came out the front door, leading a string of four goats by a rope. I grinned and waved, thrilled to see him up and about. He waved back before continuing to the barn.

“Didn’t expect to see you back so soon,” Uncle Paul called as we pulled up.

“Didn’t expect to be back,” Darla said.

“Had to do a U-turn at Stockton,” I said as I hugged him.

“Come into the kitchen,” Uncle Paul said. “We’ve got fresh cornbread.”

We sat around the kitchen table for a while catching up. Darla went out to Bikezilla and got our maps. She put the Iowa and Illinois maps on the table next to each other, and I traced a line from Warren to Maquoketa with my finger.

“So the biggest trick will be crossing the Mississippi River?” I said. “Looks like there are bridges in Dubuque or Savanna.”

“It won’t be a big deal,” Darla said. “That river that flows through the park behind the farm is frozen solid. We can ride Bikezilla across the Mississippi anywhere.”

Uncle Paul was shaking his head. “No way. That’s Apple River. It freezes almost every year, but the Mississippi never freezes over in Iowa.”

“It’s never been below freezing for nine straight months either,” Darla retorted.

“We could cross at the lock near Bellevue, like last year. It wasn’t too hard to climb down onto the barge stuck in the lock and back up the other side.” It hadn’t been fun—I don’t like heights—but I figured I could do it again.

“I’m telling you, it’s not an issue. Look at these lakes.” Darla pointed at a spot on the Mississippi just north of my finger. “I’ll bet there’s a bunch of boat ramps there—we can ride right down onto the lakes and across the river, which will be frozen over—and into Iowa.”

“Falling through the ice on a river is no joke.” Uncle Paul sounded concerned. “You can get swept downstream under the ice—”

“The Mississippi is frozen so solid you could drive a semi on it.” Darla said mildly. “I’d bet my farm on it.”

“We’re not talking about betting farms—we’re talking about betting your life—and Alex’s. This isn’t—”

“My farm was my life,” Darla said.

“Guys, take it easy,” I said. “We can go to the lock to cross.”

“That’s where you found the barge full of wheat last year?” Uncle Paul asked. “Stuck in the lock?”

“Yeah,” I said.

“We could sure use some wheat,” Uncle Paul said. “We’ve got to get some greenhouses going with something other than kale. A northern strain of wheat could work.”

“I thought you couldn’t plant just any old seeds,” I said. “Didn’t you tell me that’s why we can’t plant any of the corn we’ve been digging out of the ash and snow?”

“Corn hybridizes easily,” Darla said. “Everything I planted at my farm was a sterile hybrid, kind of like mules are. Wheat’s self-pollinating, so it’s really hard to hybridize. Well, you can but—”

“Um,” I had to interrupt Darla before she really got going. She’d babble on and on about hybro-pollinizing stuff until I got even more confused. “So what’s all that mean?”

“Corn won’t grow from seeds we dig up here. But if we get wheat kernels off that barge, they’ll probably sprout.”

“Yep,” Uncle Paul said. “I was hoping you could stop at the barge and pick up some wheat. It could make a big difference—we’re going to run out of stored corn, and we need some kind of grain.”

“That a-hole at the FEMA camp near Galena, Captain Jameson, said Black Lake had a contract to guard the barges,” Darla said. “Either the wheat’s all gone by now, or those barges will be crawling with idiots in camouflage. They’re not just going to let us ride up and help ourselves, you know.”

“The lock is pretty much on the way, though,” I said.

Uncle Paul fixed a stare on Darla. “Bringing back even a few pounds of wheat kernels would be a godsend if you can manage it. Might make the difference between surviving and starving if the winter weather doesn’t break. I wouldn’t ask if it weren’t worth the risk.”

“We’ll take a look.” I glanced at Darla. “Okay?”

Her lips tightened, but she didn’t say anything, which I took as enthusiastic agreement. Right. So we spent some time mapping out a path to the lock that avoided Stockton and the FEMA camp near Galena.

“When do you plan to leave?” Uncle Paul asked.

“Tomorrow morning,” I said.

“You sure you’re up to it?” Darla took hold of my wrist. “Maybe we should wait and make sure your infection is under control.”

“An infected wound is no joke,” Uncle Paul said. “Kill you if you don’t take care of it.”

“No.” I pulled my wrist free. “I want to get moving.”

“How are you planning to break your parents out of the camp, anyway?”

I shrugged. “I don’t know. But I don’t want to wait.”

“Be nice to have a bolt cutter and hacksaw for the camp fence,” Darla said.

“Take them out of my shop,” Uncle Paul replied. “I’ll try to buy replacements in Warren.”

We spent the rest of the day helping to fortify the house. Uncle Paul, Aunt Caroline, and Anna worked on boarding up windows. Max slept most of the day—his head was healing okay, but the wound had left him weak. Darla, Rebecca, and I built and installed pairs of brackets on the inside of all three exterior doors. Then we cut heavy logs to fit into the brackets, barring the doors from the inside.

It felt a little futile to me. Ed had started out as a normal guy, a bookkeeper. Would we all wind up like him; slowly forgetting our humanity in the daily struggle to survive? And when the world filled with people like Ed—bandits, murderers, rapists, arsonists—what good would a few bars on the doors do?

Chapter 12

By bedtime I was exhausted and sore. Everyone else started to bed down on the living room floor, but Darla grabbed my hand and pulled me toward the stairs. “It’s freezing up there,” I complained.

“I’ll make sure you’re warm enough,” Darla whispered, grinning at me.

My resistance evaporated. I’m sure Uncle Paul and Aunt Caroline noticed us leaving, but they didn’t say anything. Before we’d started all sleeping in the same room for warmth in April, Darla and I had shared the guest room. At first my aunt and uncle had balked, but when they discovered we were sneaking out of our separate rooms every night anyway, they relented.

We got extra blankets and comforters out of the linen closet and heaped them on Max’s old bed. I took off my boots, coat, and coveralls. Even with three layers of shirts still on, I was freezing. I turned down the oil lamp to its lowest setting, and we dove under the covers, pulling them up over our heads.

Darla pushed her back up against me, spooning for warmth. I wrapped my right arm over her and cupped my hand over her left breast. She moved my hand down to her stomach and held it there—which sort of sucked—but holding hands was nice.

“I don’t know how to say this right.” Darla hesitated. “But you do realize that your parents might already be dead?”

I swallowed hard on the first reply that occurred to me: She was probably right.

She went on, “If they are dead, we’re taking a big risk going into Iowa looking for them. We could get killed or trapped in another FEMA camp for nothing.”

“Yeah.” I fell silent for a moment. “But I’ve gotta know for sure.”

“We might not be able to find out.”

“What, you don’t want to go? You volunteered—I didn’t ask you. It’s not like I’m dragging you.”

“That’s not it. You’re not going anywhere without me, doof.”

I squeezed my arm around her, hugging her tighter.

“All I was trying to say, trying to do, was to keep your expectations real. We might find them, sure. But they might be dead, or we might never even find out where they are or what happened to them.”

“Never finding out what happened to them—that might suck worse than finding out they’re dead.”

“Yeah, it might.” Darla let go of my hand and started stroking my arm, which seemed strange at first but was somehow comforting.

We lay together in silence. Talking about my parents hadn’t been particularly arousing, but now, with her hair brushing my face, her hands on my arms, and her body stretched out against mine, pressing into, well, everything, I started to get uncomfortably cramped. So I began softly nibbling on her neck.

Darla closed her eyes and sighed. I moved up to kiss her ear.

She laughed and pulled her head away. “You know that tickles.”

“Yeah, but you’re so cute when you giggle.”

“I do not giggle. Never have, never will.”

“Whatever.” I bent back toward her neck, but Darla fended me off with a hand.

“You’ve got to quit giving away kale seeds like a pedophile with lollipops.”

“Huh?” I said. “Where’d that come from?”

“We need them to buy information—maybe to buy your parents’ freedom.”

“I know, but I’ve still got seventeen packets.”

“We didn’t need to give that bandit anything.”

“I didn’t exactly give him the seeds—I traded. For information. And look, if we repay brutality with more brutality, how does it end? We do something just a little bit worse every day, and soon enough we’re just like him.”

“We’ll never be like him.”

“Maybe not, but we need to cooperate, to rebuild. Someone’s got to start. And why’d you bring it up now?”

“We could buy other stuff with those seeds, too, you know,” she said in a husky voice.

“Other stuff?” I asked.

“Like more condoms, maybe.”

“Oh,” I said. “Good idea.”

Darla spun in my arms. Her knee dug into my thigh as she turned, but I was so aware of, um, other parts of her that I barely noticed. She tipped up her head and kissed me.

When the kiss ended, I said, “I think generosity makes you horny.”

“What do you mean?”

“Well, last year after we helped Katie and her mom, you pretty much attacked me. And today we helped Ed—saved his life even though we didn’t really want to.”

“No, it’s stupidity that makes me horny.”

“That’s good then. I’m plenty stupid.”

“Yes.” Darla kissed me again. When she came up for air, she said, “You sure are.”

I smiled and started undressing her. I usually thought the worst part of the winter was the frostbite or risk of starvation. At that moment, the endless layers of clothes seemed worse.

“So . . . no condoms,” Darla said. “What do you want to do?”

“I’ll show you.”

Darla giggled and finished undressing me.

Chapter 13

Later, Darla lay on top of me, her head resting on my shoulder. Despite the cold, our skin was slick with sweat. I stroked her back slowly, feeling tired and more relaxed than I had since the bandits attacked. “I’ve got something for you,” I said.

“What?” Darla murmured.

I pushed a corner of the covers aside and started groping for my pants.

“Quit letting the cold air in,” Darla said.

I found what I was looking for in the pocket of my jeans. I pulled my hand into the tunnel of light the oil lamp cast into our cocoon and opened my palm, showing it to Darla. My face felt hot despite the cold air. I searched Darla’s eyes—trying to see any sign that she liked my gift.

“It’s . . . where’d you get it?” she asked.

“Belinda gave me the gold chain. I tried to buy it from her, but she said she had extras. I swiped the nut from Uncle Paul’s toolbox. You like it?”

“I love it.”

My face grew hotter yet, but now it was a happy warmth. Darla took the chain from me and clasped it around her neck. The nut slid down the chain until it lay on the sheet between us.

“Why’d you choose a 15/16ths? Nobody uses those.”

“That’s what I found. And anyway, I’ve always thought you were a sixteenth short of a full nut.”

Darla groaned and slugged my shoulder, but she was smiling. “What do you want to do now?”

“Um, get some sleep?” I capped the lamp and pulled the covers back over our heads.

“No, I mean after.”

“After what?”

“After we find your parents—or find out what happened to them.”

“Maybe things will change if we find them. Get better.”

“I don’t know . . .” Darla said.

“I guess we’ll come back here. Keep helping my uncle. As a family, we’ve got a shot at surviving the winter.”

“Your uncle’s okay, so don’t take this the wrong way, but you’re my family now.”

I wasn’t sure how to respond. I felt like I’d just shouldered a heavy backpack. Carrying that load was scary, but it felt good, too. Important. “The winter could last a decade.”

“I’m not scared.” Darla was whispering, but her voice sounded determined.

“I am,” I said. “But if we have to die in an endless winter, I’m glad we’re together. . . . I love you, you know.”

“I love you, too. And if we don’t have to die?”

“I used to think I’d finish high school, go to college.”

“That’s not gonna be an option,” Darla said. “Things will never be like that again. If you’re old enough to go to high school, then you’re old enough to work.”

“I thought I’d finish high school and go to college because my parents did. It wasn’t something we discussed much—it was just assumed.”

“You would’ve done great. You’re a helluva smart guy.”

“Am not,” I protested.

“With no common sense whatsoever,” Darla added. “Besides, I wasn’t asking about that. I was asking about us.”

“I don’t know,” I said. Darla tried to pull away from me, but I held her close. “My uncle said we might grow apart, and I know he was right—”

“We won’t—”

“That’s not what I mean. He was right that most relationships don’t last long—my friends hardly ever dated anyone more than a month. The only other girlfriend I had, Selene, lasted two months. I’ve never had a girlfriend as long as you.”

“Me, either. A boyfriend, I mean.”

“And I think I love you more now than I did the first time I said it.”

“Me, too.”

We were quiet for a moment. I knew what I wanted to say, but it was bound to come out all wrong. Or hopelessly corny. Eventually, I gave up thinking about it. “If we’re all going to die anyway, I want to die with you. And if we live, I want to live with you.”

“Like, get married?”

I hadn’t really thought about it that way. But wasn’t that what I’d just said? That I wanted to live with Darla? Forever? The idea of it was thrilling. And terrifying. “I don’t know. I’m only sixteen.”

“It’s hard to make plans.” Darla wrapped one arm around her shoulder, hugging herself. “I mean, who knows if we have a future, if we’ll survive that long.”

“We will.” I peeled her hand away from her shoulder and held it. “I mean, if there’s no future, what’s the point of trying? We’ll find my parents. Things will get better.”

“I used to love to daydream about growing up. About what my kids might look like,” Darla said wistfully. “I always thought I’d have a farm. A big red barn, fields of corn and soybeans, maybe a few head of milk cows. Five or six kids running around.”

“Five or six?”

“Yeah, being an only child sucked. So I always wanted to have lots of kids. Now . . . I don’t know.”

“Before, I never really thought about kids much,” Well, to be honest, I’d thought about the process of making them a lot. But not the result. “Now I don’t want any. Not unless things get a lot better.”

“I’ve wanted a big family since I was a little girl.”

“Well, if things do get better,” I said, “you’re going to need someone to take care of all those kids while you work on the farm. And to, um, help make all those kids.”

“You don’t get out of farmwork that easy, buster,” Darla said. “You can watch the kids some days, but some days you’re going to have to drive the tractor. You don’t do your fair share, and I’ll make those kids with a turkey baster, see if I don’t.”

“Do I even want to know how that works?”

“Duh, you—”

“No, I really don’t want to know. It’s just that the problem with me driving a tractor is, well . . .”

“You have no clue how to, right?”

“Yeah.”

“I always imagined marrying someone who loved farming, not some city slicker.”

I shrugged. “Well, you can’t always get everything you want.”

“If I can’t have everything I want,” Darla said, “then you can’t, either.”

“Huh?”

“Well, like getting married and having kids—we can do all that someday. But you remember what you said you wanted when we started this whole conversation?”

“Um, no.”

“Good, ’cause you can’t have it.” Darla poked me hard in the shoulder with one finger. “You said you wanted to sleep!” She pushed herself up on her arms and kissed me. I decided sleep could wait—at least for a while.

Chapter 14

Early the next morning we set to work repacking Bikezilla. By the time we were ready to go, everyone else was up. So we had to say goodbye for the second time in three days. Coming back to the farm had its disadvantages, though when I thought about the night before, I decided the benefits outweighed them. Not just the making out, either, although that was fun. After our talk the night before, I felt closer than ever to Darla. Closer than I’d ever felt to anyone.

We finished our goodbyes and set out, staying on the route we’d mapped out with Uncle Paul. I’d fully expected to spend the day dodging bandits or FEMA patrols out to catch us and stick us in a camp. They got paid by the government according to the number of refugees they housed, so they were always looking to put stray people in their camps. Thankfully though, the roads were deserted.

Early that afternoon, we turned off South River Road onto the access road that led to Mississippi Lock and Dam #12. We biked up onto a railroad embankment, and Darla slammed on the brakes, bringing Bikezilla to a sliding stop.

Across the road ahead, I saw the chain-link gate we’d climbed over during our trip last year. But behind it there was something new: a guard shack about eight feet square with light pouring from its windows. Black Lake’s eagle logo was stenciled next to a window on the shack’s side.

Darla whipped Bikezilla into a turn, and we took off again. We’d gone about a mile when Darla finally quit pedaling and craned her neck to peer behind us. I looked, too—the road was deserted.

“You think they saw us?” Darla asked.

“I dunno. Let’s go check.”

“Let’s not and say we did. Just go around and avoid the lock.”

“I want to know if they saw us—if they’re going to be looking for us. And we promised Uncle Paul we’d try to get some wheat.” I got off the bike.

“You promised, not me.”

“Right.” I got the bolt cutter off the load bed.

Darla scowled but helped me hide Bikezilla on the other side of the berm. We trudged back to the shack, taking cover behind the berms and railroad embankment. When we got close, Darla stopped to cover me with the shotgun, and I dropped to my hands and knees. I crawled up to the fence. If anyone came out of the shack, they’d see me for sure. But if they were just casually glancing out the windows, the corner of the shack would block me from their view. With the bolt cutters, I opened a hole in the fence just big enough to slither through on my belly. The snow rasped against my coveralls as I crawled to the building and hid beneath one of its windows.

Slowly I lifted my head to peek over the windowsill. Inside, two guys in camo sat at a small table playing cards. They’d slung their assault rifles over the backs of their chairs. Three piles of wheat kernels lay between them. I felt a stab of envy—the seeds they were pushing back and forth so casually across the table were worth a fortune. If we could grow them in the greenhouses, we could have real bread again instead of corn bread and corn pone.

A bottle of Grey Goose vodka sat on the table between them, about half empty. The guards were wholly absorbed in their game—not even glancing out the windows. I crawled back to Darla.

“Two guards,” I whispered. “Playing cards. They’re betting with piles of wheat. Might be drunk—we could take them easy.”

“Let’s see what’s going on at the lock. Maybe we can get some wheat out of one of the barges without fighting.”

“And we can make sure the river is frozen while we’re there.”

“It is.”

We walked toward the river, keeping the snow berm between us and the road. It was exhausting to push through the deep snow, so I wasn’t paying much attention to where we were going. We’d walked about fifteen minutes when I stepped out into thin air. I grabbed at Darla’s hand, trying to regain my balance, but all I accomplished was pulling her with me over the drop-off in front of us.

We tumbled and slid down a steep slope. I lost hold of Darla somewhere along the way and slammed into a horizontal surface at the bottom, sliding a few feet before coming to rest. My shoulder and side hurt, but otherwise I thought I was okay.

“Darla?” I whispered.

“Yeah, over here.”

I turned over and crawled toward her. The surface was hard and slick under my gloves—ice. “You all right?”

“Yeah, I think so.”

We’d fallen down a steep embankment onto ice. I didn’t think we were on the Mississippi itself—maybe one of the pools or inlets that I’d seen on the map, reaching out from the river’s banks like pudgy fingers.

“Try to climb back up?” I asked.

“No, let’s follow the embankment down here. We’ll be invisible to anyone up on the road.”

Darla took my hand and led the way, walking on the ice. After a few hundred feet the bank started to meander. Tree limbs jutted from it beside and above us. For a while we moved through some kind of narrow frozen channel—in a few places it was tight enough that I could almost touch the trees on either side. I heard a faint roar of falling water growing steadily louder as we walked.

The channel we were following opened up suddenly, and I saw a small pool of open water, beyond which stretched the wide expanse of the frozen Mississippi. On the far side, trapped by the ice and the steel jaws of the lock, was the barge we’d visited the year before. Dozens of soldiers swarmed all over it.