Текст книги "The Weight of Rain"
Автор книги: Mariah Dietz
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The intensity marring his face slips away, replaced by a genuine smile that makes my own lips turn up higher, which only causes his to follow suit. King takes slow, deliberate steps toward me and then runs his hand from my shoulder down to my elbow. “Are you ready to get back in the saddle?”
I know he means the bike, yet the way his hand is lingering on my arm and the energy that’s apparent in his eyes make my heart jump nearly as high as my eyebrows.
King tilts his head back and releases a loud and throaty laugh, making my blush increase. He drops his chin forward, and a quiet rumble confirms he’s trying to hide his amusement. “I like where your mind goes, Crosby.” The shimmer of humor and lust makes King’s eyes resemble waxed and polished ebony wood, with strains of lighter and nearly black hues winding together into a beautiful maze. “Speaking of Saturday…” My favorite smile spreads across his face before I can even give him the sarcastic reaction he’s expecting, and he continues, “You told me the only thing you don’t care for is seafood. Is that really all?”
“That’s it.” I shrug. “I’m pretty easy.” My casual expression falls and my eyes squint with embarrassment. The heat that had just started to dissipate returns with a vengeance as King’s tongue wets his bottom lip, working to fight a smile he loses to.
“I’m going to stop talking and get back to work now.”
He nods a couple of times, still battling with his laughter, then presses a kiss to my mouth that makes me lean into him.
I CRANE my neck to the side, feeling a tightness that usually comes only after several hours of focus. It feels as though I’ve only been here moments, but looking over the amount of paint I’ve spread tonight, I know it’s been longer. My head snaps to the overhead clock on the wall nearby, and my eyes widen with disbelief. I intended to paint only until the paint on my palette was gone, but I felt inspired by an energy that was absent for so much of the year. I still feel nearly drunk off it when it returns in these strong doses. It’s past 10:00 p.m. The restaurant is going to close any minute. I’ve wasted our entire evening!
“I’m so sorry, King! I didn’t realize … I get in these … zones, and I just lose track of … well, everything sometimes…”
“Why are you apologizing? I get it. You need to get this done.” King’s shoulders lift and he stands from his seat. I don’t think he moved at all while he waited. We didn’t exchange words, only a few glances when my energy started to wane and I needed a new hit.
“I know, but we talked about spending tonight together.”
“We are together.”
“Yeah, but not in a way that we’re getting to know each other any better,” I argue.
“We’re communicating on a level we both understand best.”
“Silence?”
“I think I could lose myself watching you discover yourself.”
I think I’ve already lost myself, at least the part of me that knows how to be an artist, and that’s always been the side of myself I’m most familiar with, and the easiest for me to identify myself by.
“HEY. HAVE you seen Mercedes? I can’t find her anywhere.” Last night, King drove me home, where he hopped into the backseat, his hand encircling the feather bangle and pulling me back with him. The bench seat in the back made it much easier than the bucket seats up front to test the theory of making out in a car and whether it really fogs up the windows.
It did.
After leaving a dragged handprint on the back window as an ode to Jack and Rose, King walked me to the door of my apartment, my nerves growing. I questioned if I had remembered to shave that morning, what sheets were on my bed, how I would introduce King if Kenzie was home; if Kenzie wasn’t home, the first two questions became far more important.
I appreciated that he walked me to my front door. It reminded me a little bit of home because there, if you didn’t escort your date safely inside, you weren’t looked at as being hip and cool but as a lazy jackhole. Small-town life does have a few perks.
King didn’t give me the option of inviting him inside; instead, he pulled me against his chest, his back against the doorjamb, and kissed me until I forgot what I had been worrying about. My mind was made up when we parted; he was coming inside, even if my bed was made with old Minion printed sheets. But as soon as I unlocked the door and turned to face him, King smiled and told me to have a good night and asked to text him my schedule so he could come get me from class tomorrow.
A dozen oppositions were lining up in an orchestrated procession, beginning with those I hoped would be the most convincing to stay. I was ready to voice them, inhibitions aside, but he waved and picked up his speed.
King’s desk chair swivels toward my impartial greeting, a hesitant smile on his face where his eyes are shadowed by the bill of his hat. I think he knows how disoriented I still feel about our relationship and my employment. Seeing him, I want to kiss him just as badly as I did last night, yet there’s a trace of doubt with him having left that mixes with my unease of where we’re at.
“Allie might be my favorite person,” he says, looking at my shoes and distracting my nerves.
“She’s lucky to have one person still in her corner.” I jut my hip out slightly, and without thought, I’m striking a pose that I’ve been practicing each Friday in model practice. For the first time I feel sexy, in control of my body, confident even.
King’s eyes don’t miss my posture. He scoots his chair back and stands. “When we’re done, we’re going to meet Mercedes and Summer.”
“Where?” My question should be when we’re done with what?
His eyes follow his hand as it rests on my protruding hip, and then slowly climb to my face. The longing in his eyes makes me want to pump my fist into the air. I’ve never seen King so distracted and at such a loss. “You have a little drool. Right here,” I tease, pointing to the corner of his mouth.
Unexpectedly, he turns and gently bites my accusing finger. It’s shocking, sexual, erotic even—all things that are King. His dark eyes hold mine, making the act far more sensual than it would be if I tried to describe it to Charleigh or Allie later.
“King! You in here, man?”
I pull my hand back reflexively and move back several steps away as the office door is pushed open farther.
“You coming to ride?” Parker asks, oblivious to what was happening.
“No, I was just going to finish up some stuff and then take Lo to meet up with Mercedes.” King’s tone is so casual it’s as though he’s completely unaffected, while I’m still seeing the prospect of my clothes flying across the room every time I blink.
“Oh cool. Are you going through the video edits again?” Parker asks, taking a few more steps into the office.
King’s eyes move to me and stay there while Parker pulls up a chair. “Sorry, man, I didn’t realize how late it is already. We’re supposed to meet them now. I’ll show you the trailer later.”
“Oh, no problem. I have to get those jerseys back. Do you want me to take Lo?”
He shakes his head. “Nope,” King pops the last syllable and turns his neck from side to side, his ears nearly touching each shoulder.
The three of us stand in place, a curiosity spreading from each of us, creating more confusion to grow. Then King digs for his keys and nods to the hall, and we awkwardly traipse out of the room.
“Alright, well you guys have a good time,” Parker says, veering toward the shop.
“This is going to be really weird, isn’t it?”
“What?” King asks, opening the passenger door of his truck for me.
“Us.”
“What? You think it’s going to be weird to tell Parker that we’re dating?”
“More like telling anyone.” King closes my door and makes his way into the driver’s seat before he looks at me with an expression that makes me a little nervous, because unlike so many that I can read with a simple glance, I don’t know what it means.
“Lo, I already know what they all think.”
“I just don’t want you to feel obligated to tell anyone. We can keep work and our private time separately,” I continue.
“Parker was just trying to root around and see if what he’s heard is true. No way he hasn’t already heard the news. I told you, Lo, I don’t play bullshit games.” He turns to regard me as we travel down the driveway. “Are you bothered by others knowing?”
“No!” The word bursts from my mouth as I shake my head. “No, it’s nothing like that. I just … I work for your brother.”
“You’re acting like you’re the help and that somehow puts you below us.”
“Not below you, just an HR liability. My dad never hired women because he said it would be a distraction to everyone else, and I always hated that.”
“Welcome to Oregon, babe. Here, if someone treats you different because you’re a woman, you get to sue the fuck out of them.” King’s voice is a jumble of frustration and contrition.
“I wouldn’t sue you guys…” My eyes close for a moment with the ugly place this conversation has gone.
“They’re excited.” King shifts uneasily in his seat before looking over to me. “Everyone likes you, Lo. They know you aren’t in this for status, or to get with Kash, or anything else.”
“Get with Kash?” King’s eyes round on me and his brows are raised. I never even considered that people would attempt to use him to get to Kash when in my eyes, King is the main prize. I hope Summer kicked their asses.
“So how do we interact at the house?” This question seems far more important than King’s casual shrug and quiet laugh warrants.
“You can’t jump me in the kitchen or in the living room, but maybe the shop, depending on what everyone else is doing. The office is a pretty safe bet too.”
“King!”
His laugh grows louder while his grip on the steering wheel relaxes. “You can greet me however you’re comfortable. Just know that my returned greeting is going to involve kissing you, and possibly an ass grab.”
My cheeks lift into a smirk, appreciating he wants to kiss me when I’ve been wanting to kiss him every day that I’ve been working at the Knight residence and have seen him. Yet I know already that my ten-year-old counterpart and near sister is going to heckle the shit out of me.
“Why didn’t you send me your schedule?” King’s question doesn’t fit with my line of thoughts that are considering Mercedes’ reactions, causing my eyebrows to draw down with confusion. “You were going to text your schedule to me so I could come get you.”
“I don’t want a chauffeur.”
“Think of all the time you would save.” Low blow. Time is a constant shortage. “See, you would be able to spend more time on your portfolio and whatever else you want.”
“This is going to sound kind of crazy, but I sort of like the bus.” King sends me a silent look that says bullshit. “I like to see all the people. I need that inspiration when I start hitting lulls.”
“At least a third of the people that ride that bus talk to themselves.”
“It’s better than them trying to talk to me.”
He sends me another look of disbelief that’s colored with the slight hue of acceptance, or possibly defeat. It’s tough to tell which it is because he’s focused on parking.
King flips five pennies throughout the mostly empty parking lot and then speeds up to keep pace with me. His fingers lace with mine as we approach the doors. It feels good to hold someone’s hand. Growing up, I held hands with all of my friends. It was an acceptable show of love and friendship, like we were so giddy and happy to be together, we needed to be fused by our fingers. With age, holding hands somehow changes in definition. It’s no longer something you do with any friend. The acceptable list shrinks, which translates the action to hold a deeper sentiment. You hold hands only with people you’re sexually attracted to, like it’s a claim or a promise. I wish it were acceptable to hold hands with friends again, because while I feel a thousand tiny transmitters of emotion and lust being lit by holding King’s hand, it also brings me back to running through fields and pastures, giggling until I can’t breathe, sticky popsicles melting down my fingers. I’m mentally noting that I’m going to hold Mercedes’ hand tomorrow, knowing how likely it is that she never holds hands with anyone, when we step inside.
“What is this place?” I ask, looking up at the extensive sign as we enter the large space with the air conditioning running on high, regardless of the cool temperatures outside.
“Somewhere you can overcome your fear of being airborne,” King replies as my eyes dance over the large room filled with trampolines. “Come on, we need to get some socks.”
“Welcome to Fly High. Have you guys been here before?” A man who’s several inches shorter than me greets us.
“We’re virgins … at least for doing it here we are.”
Rolling my eyes to him, I drop my chin with annoyance. It only serves to make him laugh.
“Alright, well, you’ll both need to fill out these liability forms, then.” He gestures toward two monitors.
“Oh good, signing my death waiver is helping already.” My tone is dry, filled with a half-truth.
King chuckles and shakes his head as I sign my safety away. “You’re going to love this place.”
We climb the stairs and discover a vast area covered with trampoline panels, bridged by padded sections that extend to walls stretched with even more of the buoyant material. There are large foam pits to the side, a basketball court, a climbing wall, and more areas that I can’t see from where we’re standing.
“Ready?”
I look over to King with wide eyes. I can’t remember the last time I jumped on a trampoline, and feel the adrenaline rush of an eight-year-old me that was stirred awake in the parking lot, become fully awake. His lips pull up into that uneven smile that inspires me late at night, and he nods forward before stepping onto one of the rectangular trampolines. He bounces slowly without his feet ever leaving the surface. The energy in me rises as I step onto the one beside his and bend my knees, rolling my weight to my toes. My feet push off and I gain several inches of air beneath me. I land and push off a bit harder, feeling my heart race. I push further until I’m weightless, fearless, utterly lost in joy. I bounce to another rectangle of the mesh and bounce in a pattern only my feet seem to recognize. It leads me to a large mat that makes my body shift as I land on the solid surface, similar to the feeling one gets after riding a horse for several hours.
It leads me to the massive pit of foam where I stand, fixated. The thought is instant. I go from wondering to doing and within seconds, I’m crashing into a mess of soft foam that sinks below me. I’m laughing, pumped with energy and the desire to do it again as I lie weightless for a few long seconds.
King hits the foam less than a foot from me. His smile radiates to his eyes, and before either of us seems to question or realize what I am doing, I’m clumsily moving, shifting and climbing through the short separation and kissing King.
We spend the entire afternoon and most of the evening jumping, climbing walls, daring to cross bands extended mid-air that promise a cushioned fall of foam, and allowing our competitive spirits to spark through the relay race section. I think I surprised both of us when I beat him the first round. He didn’t make the mistake of taking it easy on me again. I may like fashion and sit with nearly weightless tools for my favorite pastime, but growing up like I did, I can still manage to be a force to be reckoned with.
My muscles are tired, and soreness teases my calves and hamstrings, but I can’t stop smiling. I want to come back and do this again tomorrow and the next day and the day after that. Immersing myself into a world where there is no portfolio competition or modeling practice, I don’t have to fret over my roommate’s sexual activities, or what I’m going to do in a few months when I graduate.
I look over to King as we make our way out to the parking lot; Mercedes and Summer are ahead of us. Sensing my glance, he turns and bestows that radiant smile I have drawn so many times that I now know every single curve and crinkle, and with it comes the feeling that perhaps I don’t need to be bouncing on trampolines for hours to feel this euphoria. Maybe I just need this: King, Mercedes, Kash, and even Summer.
ART HAS always been my main point of both stress relief and stress enhancer. I love sitting down in my private bubble and getting so far lost in my work that the world seems to pass by without even a whisper or trace. However, showing my work to someone and now creating this portfolio to mail off to be viewed and judged to see if I possess the necessary talents to do this internship is keeping me awake at night, requiring additional hours of drawing that I’m starting to feel more prominently in my wrists and hands, and I’m pretty sure the beginnings of an ulcer. Still, it pales in comparison to my long walk down the Knight driveway as I prepare myself to meet King and Kash’s parents and sister. King sprung it on me last night, trying to act nonchalant as he mentioned he was going to be cooking prime rib and to bring my appetite. I smiled, the thoughts of a stay-at-home date brewing in my imagination, and then abruptly blown away with, “they’ll probably arrive before you, but if you want me to come get you”—insert pointed look—“you’d be here first.” I was nervous, expecting him to announce one of the people from Switzerland, or the infamous Spencer, I’ve yet to meet, prompting me to ask who.
“My parents and sister.” He said it so casually, as if this was just a single step forward rather than leaps and bounds. Sure, in Montana I knew the parents of my previous boyfriends, often times their siblings, aunts, uncles, cousins, and entire life story. But that’s because I lived in a really small town and grew up with most of them.
My shock must have been evident on my face because King quickly explained they were coming for a birthday dinner for Kash—another fact I was surprised to learn.
It’s cold today, the wind whipping rather than blowing through my hair and the surrounding trees, making the walk seem even longer.
I’m halfway down the driveway when I try to call Charleigh and reach her voicemail. I don’t leave a message because I’m seeking a hit of confidence, one that a later returned call will not be able to soothe. I call Allie and sigh with relief when she answers on the third ring, her greeting sounding almost confused.
“I need your help.”
“What’s going on?”
“I’m going to meet King’s family. His entire family.”
“Don’t you already know them all? I mean, you work for his brother.”
Frowning, I lower my head and keep walking against turbulent weather. Clearly she doesn’t understand. “Yeah, but tonight I’m meeting the elusive sister and parental units.”
“You need a drink. Did you stop and take a shot?”
I shake my head, fighting a smile. The gravel crunches beneath my steps, and the wind howls even louder. I might have to take King up on a ride back to the bus station today. My carefully selected outfit that’s intended to show I’m mature and sophisticated, and not a gold-digger, but ready to play because that’s my role, consists of dark denim skinny jeans that feel far too thin to be real denim, and a lightweight purple sweater with an open stitch that requires the use of a jacket.
“No, I didn’t think smelling like alcohol would help my case,” I say with a laugh.
Allie laughs, and I hear the slight rustling that had been present in the background stop. “You’re going to do fine, Lo. Just be you.”
“I’m an artist,” I cry. “They’re going to look at me the same way my parents did when I announced I was going to art school.”
“Lo, Kash is an artist too! Deep breaths!”
“Yes, but Kash is a successful artist.” That word makes all the difference. Anyone can say they’re an artist, but until you’re either published or have works in multiple museums, people say the word artist in a demeaning tone, often accompanied by an eye roll.
“I know. Stop going down that path though. It’s not going to help. Hold your head high, and know you’re just as good as anyone else, artist or otherwise. Our titles and jobs don’t define us.”
I heave a deep sigh. “You’re right.”
“Of course I’m right. And just remember, King chose you, Lo. It doesn’t matter what the rest of his family thinks. It matters what he thinks. Plus, you’ve already got Kash and Mercedes on your side. This will be a cakewalk.”
“I’m glad I called you. This helps.”
“I’m glad you called too.”
“Are you working on one of my dresses?” I hope she doesn’t feel I’m asking out of guilt. I genuinely am interested in what she’s doing and worry that she’s been too focused on work.
“I’m working on the dress that is going to make me go down in fashion world history. You better practice your smile. It’s going to be seen everywhere when they see this dress.”
“Whitening strips, got it.”
Allie laughs, and behind the swishing of the pine branches, I hear the rustle of fabric once again. “You’re going to do great, Lo. If you need anything, call or text me. I’ll be home all night.”
“Thanks, Al.”
“I want to know how it goes. Stop by when you get home!”
I laugh my agreement and hang up. Taking a deep breath of the Oregon rain that is hanging on every surface like a coat of lace, my lungs quiver, still not fully convinced.
The lack of additional cars in the driveway fills me with relief and confusion. Did they decide to go to dinner? Are they late? Maybe they’re like my mom and don’t know how to honor a commitment.
Like every other time over the past six months, I use my key and head inside. Postponing this meeting would be ideal. I don’t feel ready to meet the rest of King’s family, yet it oddly fills me with a sense of disappointment and an even larger dose of irritation. Why wouldn’t they have called to let me know? Is he embarrassed to have them meet me? Did Kash decide it was a bad idea? Questions are swimming through my mind, triggering emotions to fire off left and right, softening the sounds of voices until I’m met with their source. King, Summer, Kash, and Kenzie are standing in the kitchen, their stiff postures reflecting that none of them are comfortable. I stand in the doorway, staring at them as a group, and then slowly each of them individually. Their hair, though varying shades, all has the same chestnut undertones, their skin sharing a dose of additional pigment that reveals their bloodline is from further south on the equator, and while they all look drastically different, there’s a striking resemblance that slaps me across the face. How could I of all people have missed this? I study people’s faces! I have been taught to see similarities, to recognize the minor resemblance they all share. I’ve drawn each of them!
I can’t hear their words as they all turn to look at me, my eyes settling on Kenzie, who is projecting a silent scream of shock.
“But, you have different last names,” I sputter, shaking my head as I take a step back.
“Lo.” My name is barely a whisper. Kenzie is just as surprised by my presence, which confuses me that much more since she’s who got me this job. “I didn’t realize … I’ve been meaning to tell you … Lo…” Her face tinges with embarrassment. I’ve never seen it before. With all of the mornings she’s faced me after having a visitor, she’s never looked even slightly uncomfortable.
“You didn’t realize I was referring to your brother when I asked about him ten thousand times?” My heart is beating erratically, but my voice is surprisingly calm, holding on to a thread of hope that I am clenching with both fists.
Her eyes shift under the weight of my stare. “I was just trying to help him. He loves Isabelle. He was starting to realize that, and then he met you and forgot. I needed him to understand why you two would never work.” She takes a few steps closer to me, her shoulders raised with conviction. “You’re from small town nowhere, and you don’t know anything about the BMX world or our family. Isabelle grew up with us. They’re meant to be together.”
My mouth feels tight, like the muscles are yearning to form an objection or scream, but my breath doesn’t seem to climb any higher than my chest. I stare at her, imploring my words to return.
“I hated you when I found out you guys slept together. I hated you even more when he asked about you. I thought for sure that when you started working here, you’d both understand that things could never work between you. I never in my wildest dreams imagined you two would start dating. Never. I thought you would get tired of how stubborn and rigid he gets, and I thought you’re carefree ignorance would drive him insane. Now you’re just going to break each other’s hearts because you’re going to Italy in a few months, and King is finally starting to talk about racing, and those worlds—they don’t coexist.”
“What?” King’s words barely register as I think of all the times Charleigh, Allie, and I discussed him. Discussed him with her. Just last week Allie and I were talking about him while Kenzie was in the apartment.
Kenzie’s gaze remains on mine as I absently catch King shaking his head and the fact that he’s muttering something. “Isabelle’s my best friend. They were supposed to realize how perfect they were together at that party. He wasn’t supposed to have feelings for someone else!”
“Are you out of your goddamned mind, Kenzie?” King’s been speaking, working to divert attention and intervene, but these words are the first to succeed because they are so loud it makes my heart stall for a second with surprise. “You told me she wasn’t interested in me! That she liked another guy!”
“I was trying to help you.”
“Help me?” King bellows.
“She drives you crazy!” Kenzie continues. “You’ve said so yourself.”
“Kenzie.” It takes me several seconds to process Kash’s voice but an instant to realize he’s touching me. He has wrapped a hand around my shoulder with a firmness I know is meant to be comforting, but right now, it produces the opposite effect.
“I can’t believe you.” My words are too quiet to sound like a threat. I shake my head and take a deep breath to fight my emotions from breaking through.
“Lo, I’m sorry. I didn’t know how to tell you after you started dating. I knew you guys would eventually—”
“Kenzie, just shut up!” King yells. His face has turned hard, his eyes a darker shade of brown, and while I expect his fingers to be pinching the bridge of his nose like they do when he’s upset, they’re fisted at his sides. My eyes get distracted by the movement of his T-shirt, exposing his breaths, which are coming in quick heaves. Everything about him portrays anger.
My body feels too large, my arms and legs too long as I order them to move.
“Lo, wait.” Kenzie’s face is haunted. I don’t doubt for a second that she’s regretting what she’s done. The tears streaming down her cheeks express more than just the guilt for the deception.
“I can’t believe you. I can’t believe you had the audacity to lie to my face countless times. Then you decided to hate me and treat me like a goddamned leper. You’re the most selfish person I’ve ever met. You need to get out of your own head and look the hell around.” Shaking my head, my thoughts sift through curses I want to scream at Kenzie, but I know that would make me no better than her. “Why in the hell did you encourage me to get this job? You basically gifted it to me on a silver platter.”
“Because he wanted to find you. I was afraid he wouldn’t stop. Don’t you understand? Isabelle’s my best friend. He needed to get over you.” Kenzie’s eyeliner and mascara run with her last few words.
“It’s none of your business, Kenzie. You don’t get to be like Mom and control this shit!” Kash objects.
“Kash, it’s Isabelle.”
“I know that, Kenz. I know you’re not trying to hurt people, but—”
“Get out Kenzie,” King orders. “Your entire life you’ve blamed Mom for meddling in your business, begged Kash and me to help get her off your back. She never pulled a stunt this sick and twisted. Never. You want to know why you hate her? It’s because you’re just like her.”
The fact that I’ve never met their mom or heard any of them mention her in detail doesn’t matter. I can sense the harshness of his message in the way Kenzie’s narrow shoulders fall, and her eyes are glassy with tears. It causes my emotions to somersault with the need to stand up for her, while the urge to condemn her is still actively present in my thoughts. “I need to go.”
“Lo, we need to talk.” King crosses the distance between us with intentions clear in his eyes. His hand swallows the golden bangle along with my wrist. “Kash…” He doesn’t say more. I don’t know if it’s because they’re both already aware of what’s going to transpire next, or if he’s simply passing the baton to him, done with his turn in the relay.
Emotions are running rampant, shooting out accusations and questions before King has the office door closed.
“Why didn’t you tell me? Why didn’t you ask me?” The questions burst through my lips, nearly as angry as the ones I had directed toward Kenzie.
“Because I thought you were dating someone else! I thought you were just like so many others that didn’t give a shit about me, only my name.”
“I’ve never cared about your name!”
“I know!” King’s words are still too loud, like he can’t manage to get his own emotions in check.
“That’s why you thought Charleigh was a guy.”
“Of course that’s why I thought she was!” He dips his head, closing his eyes.
“Do you love Isabelle?”
King’s head snaps level again, his eyes bright. “No!” We focus on one another, a silent conversation passing between us that consists of his plea for me to trust him, an insult for my insinuation to a question he’s already answered, along with an apology that I’m having to ask again.
“Never. Kenzie’s right, I did grow up with Isabelle. She’s like a sister to me. There was never a time I even considered liking her as anything more.”
“This is really…”
“I know.”
“What if she’s right?” I don’t bother specifying which part she may be right about. Every one of them would be awful, and I hate considering any of them.
“We can’t think about it like that. What if she’s wrong? If you go into something already thinking you’re going to fail, what’s the purpose of doing anything in life? You wouldn’t be going to school to have an art major. I wouldn’t be considering stepping into competition. We’d still be thinking the world is flat, fearing we’d fall off the edge if we got too far out. But I’m not going to let that fear ruin my chance at having one of the best things happen to me.”
