Текст книги "Denial"

Автор книги: Lisa Renee Jones

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I blink, and once again I’m staring into pale blue eyes. “Kayden?”

His lips curve, and those eyes of his, which have a way of stealing right into the emptiness of my mind, light with satisfaction. “You remember me. Progress. The last two times that you woke up, you didn’t know my name.”

“What last two times?” I try to focus, to remember anything but him. “The MRI machine—”

“You had a panic attack inside it, and they had to sedate you.”

My brow furrows, and I flash back to the violin playing in my ears. “No. I was fine, just cold and sick to my stomach.”

“Until you weren’t fine anymore,” he says, running his hand over the dark shadow on his jaw that I don’t remember being there before. A bad feeling comes over me.

“How much time has passed?”

He glances at his watch again, and I’m relieved to remember it’s a Cartier, relieved by all things familiar. That is until he announces, “Thirty-six hours.”

Losing that much time is like a blow; my throat is suddenly so dry it’s sandpaper. “I need water.”

He stands and finds the pitcher, filling a cup for me. I try to sit, and he quickly abandons his efforts, gently shackling my arm, his touch electric, familiar in a way that no longer surprises me but still confuses me. “Let me lift the bed,” he offers, and I nod, allowing him to help me, the way I have so many times before, it seems, when really it hasn’t been that often at all.

The bed rises, and I settle against it while he reaches for the cup. He offers it to me, and this time when I accept it, and our hands and gazes collide, I don’t look away. I can’t look away. “Déjà vu,” I whisper, feeling the sensation clear to my soul.

“Yes,” he agrees. “Déjà vu.” While I could dismiss it as just that, I have this sense that there’s more to this moment than a simple repeat action.

I down the contents of the cup, drinking quickly before he can stop me, and when I’m done, he takes the cup from me. “More?”

“No, thank you.” I glance down, unnerved to realize my IV is gone. “It’s hard to comprehend that I woke up twice and don’t remember.”

“You not only woke up—the last time you were awake, you ate some soup and had a nurse help you shower.”

“Shower? Okay, I’m even more freaked out now. How can I not remember that? How bad is my head injury?”

“Your tests were all normal aside from the concussion, which is healing. Your back should be healing as well.”

I flex my shoulders and nod. “It feels better, and my head doesn’t hurt the way it did. But I’m not encouraged that I can’t remember the last two times I woke up.”

“It’s the drugs they gave you after you had the panic attack.”

“How do you know?”

“Because the second time you woke up and didn’t remember the first time, I was worried and asked.”

“Could my entire memory loss be the drugs?” I ask, hopefully.

His lips tighten. “No. Sorry. I asked the same as well.”

“Of course it’s not the drugs,” I say grimly. “That would be too easy a solution. At least I showered, I guess.”

“As did I,” he says. “I was afraid they’d kick me out if I didn’t.”

It’s then that I notice he’s now in a light blue T-shirt and faded jeans, which indicates, I assume, that he went home, changed, and made the decision to return here to me. “It’s been thirty-six hours since my test, and at least another eight before that, and you’re still here.”

“Yes. I’m still here.”

Reality hits me with gut-wrenching clarity. “No one came looking for me.”

He gives a grim shake of his head. “No.”

I inhale and then let the breath out, devastated by this news. Kayden is here out of obligation or some sense of responsibility. Whatever the case, he won’t admit it, and I’m not going to pathetically drive home the topic. I need out of this place, and so does he.

“Do you know when the doctor will be back around?” I ask.

“Not until tomorrow.”

“I can’t wait until tomorrow; I need to talk to him now,” I insist. “Please call him.” I realize I’ve grabbed his arm and I’m squeezing. “I’m sorry.” I jerk my hand back, and it’s trembling. I’m trembling. All over. “I just need them to fix me. They . . . they have to make me remember who I am.”

“The doctors keep saying that you will,” he assures me, reaching to the table beside the bed and presenting me with a leather book.

“What is that?”

“A journal. The staff psychologist left this for you. She wants you to write down your thoughts and dreams. Apparently there’s reason to believe it will help you regain your memories sooner.”

In disbelief, I ask, “That’s my medical treatment? A journal?” I take it from him, my brow furrowing with a memory that’s here and then gone, leaving me frustrated and ready to throw the darn thing. “How is this supposed to help me?”

“It’s one part of a treatment plan they intend to present to you on Monday.”

I set the journal on the bed, rejecting it along with the “treatment plan.” “They seem to believe that your brain is suppressing memories to protect you from some sort of trauma.”

“Leaving me homeless and without a name?” I ask. “That’s a horrible way to protect myself. And I don’t even have memories to write in it.”

He shifts on the bed, his hand settling on my leg. It’s a strong hand, the hand of a man who knows what he wants and goes after it, while I know nothing at all. “Maybe if we talk, it’ll help.”

“That’s no different than writing in the journal. I can’t talk about what I don’t remember.”

“My memories might stir yours.”

I sigh. “Okay. But it would be so much easier if there was a pill for this kind of thing.”

His lips hint at a smile. “Most of us would agree with that at some point in our lives. Why don’t we talk about the night you were mugged?”

“That’s exactly why I’m here,” says an unfamiliar male voice.

My attention shifts to the doorway, where a man in his mid-thirties leans on the doorjamb, his suit and dark brown hair a bit rumpled and his tie slightly off center.

“What the hell are you doing here, Gallo?” Kayden demands, shoving off the bed to face him.

“My job,” the man states, striding toward us. While his features are too hard and the lines of his face too sharp to be called good-looking, there is something about him that refuses to be ignored, and he stands at the end of my bed, fixing me in a steely gray stare. “I’m Detective Gallo. I hear you were mugged, and I want to ask you a few questions.”

“You don’t handle muggings,” Kayden points out.

“I do when your name’s on the report,” the detective says shortly. It’s pretty clear these two don’t just know each other; they don’t like each other.

“Of course,” Kayden replies, sounding amused. “Because I’ve broken so many laws.”

The detective is not amused. “Just because you haven’t been caught doesn’t make you innocent.” He gives me a pointed look. “I’m guessing you aren’t Maggie.”

I blanch. “What? I . . . no. Or . . .” I look to Kayden for help. “What is he talking about?”

“He’s being a smart-ass,” Kayden states. “I registered you under that name and told them you were my sister.”

My brow furrows. “What? Why?”

The detective takes it upon himself to answer. “Because it gave him access to you.”

“Exactly,” Kayden confirms, offering no apology or explanation.

He doesn’t need to, and yet I want more. More what, though? I don’t know. Just . . . more.

“At least he put you up in the ritzy end of the hospital,” the detective points out, demanding the attention again, and making a big show of glancing around the room. And as obviously intended, I follow his lead, and for the first time since I’ve been lucid, I look at it, as well. Really look at it—and realize it’s larger than expected, with a sitting area to the left and a mini kitchen.

I look at Kayden in shock. “How much is this costing? I don’t even know if I have a bank account, let alone money to pay for this!”

“Don’t worry about money. I have this,” he says softly.

“You mean you’re paying my bills. Kayden, I can’t let you do that. I don’t know if I can pay you back.”

“Let him pay,” the detective interjects. “He’s got a boatload of cash. But I do have to say, his registering you under a fake name, on top of the upgraded security in this wing of the building, does make it damn hard for anyone looking for you to find you.”

“The staff know to direct any inquiries that might fit your description to me,” Kayden assures me, flicking the detective an irritated look. “Obviously—since you found her.”

“I found you, not her.” He looks at me again. “And I’d ask for your real name to connect a few dots, but I understand that you don’t remember it.”

“That’s right,” I confirm, resisting the urge to fidget, like I have something to hide, when I don’t. Do I?

“What do you remember?” he asks.

“Nothing before the moment I woke up here.”

He arches a brow. “Nothing?”

“Nothing.”

“Not even the actual attack?”

I shake my head.

“I see,” he says, stroking his clean-shaven jaw. “I was hoping the actual attack wasn’t a part of your memory loss.”

“I’m completely blank, Detective, and it’s really quite terrifying to think about being in that alleyway, passed out and alone. I’m thankful Kayden was there to get me help.”

“Right.” His hand leaves his face, and he grips the railing at the foot of the bed. “That was lucky.” His gaze lands on Kayden. “Not often a real hero comes along.”

“If you have something to say to me, Gallo,” Kayden says calmly, “then say it and let’s move on.”

The detective’s steely eyes fix on Kayden, and the hate radiating off him is so fierce. I’m clearly in the center of something very personal, and very bitter.

“Detective—” I say, intending to ask for the help he swears he’s here to give me.

“You and I need to chat for a few moments alone,” he says, his hard stare returning to me.

“Let’s cut to the chase, Gallo,” Kayden interjects. “You’re here to badger me by badgering her, and I’m not going to let that happen. Especially while she’s fragile.”

“I’m not fragile,” I insist.

“I can assure you,” the detective replies, ignoring me, “this is about her, not you.”

“If ‘her’ is me,” I say, certain this one-on-one is going to happen, “I’ll talk with you alone.” I glance at Kayden. “I get that there are two agendas here. I can handle it. I just need to solve the mystery of who I am.”

The detective’s approving gaze falls on me. “At least two of us are on the same page.”

Kayden’s lips thin, but he accepts my answer. “I’ll be right outside the door if you need me.”

I give him a nod, and he meets the detective’s stare, the two of them exchanging what I’m pretty sure are some heated silent words, before he strides out of the room.

Detective Gallo claims the stool Kayden favors and scoots closer to me. “It really was lucky that he just happened to be at the right place, at the right time, to rescue you.” His tone says he doesn’t think it was a matter of luck at all. “And talk about dedication to a stranger. Forty-eight hours later, he’s not only still here, he’s paying your bills.”

Already he’s attacking Kayden, but I’m not foolish enough not to find out why. “What are you getting at?”

“That maybe, just maybe, he knew you before he found you.” He holds up a finger. “And maybe, just maybe, he wasn’t in the right place at the right time by chance.”

My mind flickers with an image of Kayden’s hand on my back, and I can almost feel the familiar sensation of his touch spread from my shoulders down my spine. “He says I didn’t know him.”

“Do you believe him?”

“You know I have no memory.”

“You have instincts.”

“Which could suck, for all I know.”

He rests his arms on the railing, the position eating away much of the space between us. “I’m trying to help you—you know that, right?”

“You are here for him, not me.”

“I’m here because of him, but for you.”

“I don’t know what that means,” I say, “and I honestly don’t care. I have to find out who I am, before I’m discharged and on the street.”

“You won’t end up on the streets. There are programs—”

“So that’s the help you’re giving me?” I interrupt. “You’ll stick me in some government program and I’ll cease to exist before I landed in this hospital room?”

His lips tighten and he leans back, crossing his arms over his chest. “I ran a general check on all missing persons reports, including anyone traveling from outside the country.”

“And?” I ask, holding my breath, almost as afraid to hear the answer as I am desperate for it.

“At this point there are no active reports that match your description locally.”

“What about internationally?”

“Or for anyone traveling by way of a passport,” he adds.

I’m shell-shocked, trying to figure out what this means for me.

“However,” he adds, “there tends to be a slight delay in reports filed for a missing person who lives or travels alone.”

“Alone.” The word carves a hole in my soul, taunting me with the idea that no one’s looking for me because no one cares about me. “No,” I say, rejecting that idea. “I might not know who I am, but I know I wouldn’t live here without learning the language, which means that I’m visiting. And I wouldn’t visit a foreign country alone.”

“And as you said, your instincts might suck.”

Infuriated at his lack of help, I say, “I don’t need instincts to know that I can’t wait for a missing persons report that might not come, to deal with my situation.”

“And you don’t have to. If you are indeed an American citizen—”

“I am. I know I am.”

“Well then,” he says, “you’d be traveling with a passport, and there will be fingerprints on file.”

A ray of hope replaces my anger. “You mean we can cross-check my records?”

“Exactly. I’ll pick up a fingerprint kit, and we’ll run them through the database. If we get a hit, then we’ll know your name, home country, and even your parents’ names.”

“Why wouldn’t we get a match?”

“There are any number of reasons,” he says, “but let’s cross that bridge if we come to it.”

“No. No, I want to know the reasons.”

“It’s really—”

“I want to know.”

He sighs. “You could have crossed the border illegally.”

“Why would I do that?”

“There’s a black market for American women in the sex trade. Normally they’re drugged, and you have no marks on your arms. But—”

“Enough,” I say, not needing anything else to freak me out. “I get the point: there are reasons. What happens next?”

“I’ll bring in a fingerprint kit.” He glances at his watch. “It’s nearly five now, and visiting hours end at eight. So most likely I’ll have to bring it tomorrow. In the meantime, I’d like to get a photo that I can show around the neighborhood where we found you. Maybe someone knows you.”

A photo—good God, I don’t even know what I look like! “I . . . Yes. Okay.”

He pulls out his phone. “I’ll take a few now, if that works for you?”

“Of course.” I’ve barely issued the approval before he snaps a few shots and is inspecting them.

“Looks good,” he says. “Do you want to approve it?”

He offers me the phone and I hold up a hand again. “No,” I say quickly, irrationally panicked at the idea of seeing myself, especially when seeing myself, finding me, is exactly what I’m after. “I really don’t want to know how I must look right now.”

“Far better than you might think,” he says, a hint of warmth in his tone as he slips his phone back in his jacket and stands, his hands settling on the railing as he stares down at me. “There’s a reason he told them you’re his sister.”

“What do you mean? You said he did that to be able to be in my room with me.”

“A decision he made the moment he brought you to the hospital. That doesn’t add up to being a stranger to me.”

“Why can’t he simply be a good guy helping someone in need?”

“Because this is Kayden Wilkens we’re talking about, and Kayden Wilkens doesn’t do anything, including you, without an agenda.” He’s looking at the doorway now.

My gaze follows his, my lips parting with the impact of finding Kayden standing there. If Detective Gallo demands attention, Kayden just plain claims it. He is power, control, beauty, and, right now, anger. The air crackles with its intensity, and when his piercing blue eyes shift from Gallo to me, I have a sense of a wolf who doesn’t bother with sheep’s clothing, with his sights set on me.

And I’m certain that it’s not protectiveness or obligation I see in his face. This time, it’s one hundred percent possession.

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Iam his.

That is the unapologetic message in Kayden’s gaze I know he intends for both myself and Gallo to see. And I do. I see it. I understand it and I feel it in every part of me. Possession. Demand. Control. He wants it all, but I do not know why. Nor do I know why I am not afraid of him or these things. I only know that Kayden Wilkens is one hell of a man, and that it’s become necessary to my survival to admit that the woman in me is drawn to him, deeply, completely. To the point that I’m not even close to objective where he’s concerned, vulnerable in ways that could be dangerous if his intentions toward me are not as honorable as he claims. And the truth is, my strong sense of my familiarity with Kayden both supports the detective’s claims that he might be more to me than he admits and drives my need to believe he is honest, the true light in the tunnel of darkness I cannot escape.

“Take my number in case you need it,” Detective Gallo orders, bringing my attention back to him.

I face him to find him extending a card to me. I accept it, murmuring an appropriate “Thank you,” but I am not pleased with the glint of satisfaction in his eyes that tells me he knew Kayden was at the door when he issued that crass warning. That also tells me I am indeed a token in a game he’s playing with Kayden, rather than someone he is truly here to help, making me question his motives for being here at all.

He glances at his watch. “I’m going to gamble on making it back here tonight with the fingerprint kit.”

“I thought it would be tomorrow,” I say.

“He can’t wait to see me again,” Kayden says, claiming his self-assigned place by my side.

The two men tune me out then, facing each other, both placing their hands on the railing. Their gazes collide in an explosion of silent hatred. Gallo spits something at Kayden in Italian, and I don’t have to understand the language to know it’s downright foul. Kayden, who radiates absolute control, does not reward him with an equal reply but rather with a rumble of deep, masculine laughter that is as musical as it is hard. Gallo’s teeth clench and he says something I am certain is even fouler than his prior remark, and most likely far from professional, as his job dictates he should be. Kayden smirks and offers a clipped reply that earns him Gallo’s glare and a motion to the door that is nothing short of an order. Gallo heads toward the door, assuming Kayden will follow. Kayden glances at me, giving me a wink before casually sauntering after Gallo, apparently pleased with the reaction he’s evoked from the other man.

And then both men are gone. The shift in the air is immediate, leaving me huffing out a breath I didn’t know I was holding, hating how I am helplessly at the mercy of two men I barely know, one of whom has seduced me since the moment I woke up and called him beautiful. All because I can’t remember who I am.

I glance down at my hands where they rest on the bedcover, and at least they are familiar. They are me—but this bed is not, and neither is my letting these men use me as the rope in a game of tug-of-war. It is a relief to know this about myself. To know I am strong, and a person of action, not inaction. A person who gets up and looks in that mirror. Yes. I have to face myself, and maybe, just maybe, if I see me, I’ll fully know me, and Kayden’s motives, innocent or not, will be revealed along with my past.

The idea spurs me into action, and I throw off the blanket and lower the railing. Shoving the skimpy gown down my legs the best I can, I rotate to let my feet dangle off the edge of the bed, grimacing at the buzz in my head, a weakness that forces me to pause to let it pass. The instant it eases, I scoot farther to the edge of the mattress, trying to make the step to the floor as small as possible.

“What the hell are you doing?”

Jolting at the sound of Kayden’s voice, I stretch my legs down to the ground to make my escape, only to have my head spin and my body sway. Gasping, I start to tumble forward, saved as Kayden catches me, dragging me forward, my body landing flat against his larger, harder one.

“What are you doing?” I demand, feeling the thunder of his heart beneath my palm where it now rests on the solid wall of his chest. Or maybe it’s my heart pounding so hard that it feels like his.

“Keeping you from ending up inside another MRI machine. What were you thinking?”

“That I need to go to the bathroom,” I say, his touch humming through my body just as the detective’s warnings hum in my mind. “I’m fine now.” I try to twist away from him but he holds on to me, and I shove against him. “You can let go of me, Kayden.”

“That’s not going to happen,” he promises, his voice low, as seductive as everything else about this man is, and when I look at him, that wolf is back in his eyes as he adds, “In case I didn’t make that point already.”

“You have, and I’m not sure how I feel about that.” I try to push away again, yelping as he scoops me up and starts walking.

“I can walk,” I insist, appalled that my bare backside is hanging out of the gown, and pressed to his forearms. “Put me down, Kayden. Put me down.”

He complies in front of the bathroom door, and when I would escape, his arms cage me as he opens the door. I try to turn, but his hands come down on my shoulders, and he begins walking me inside the bathroom. The instant the mirror looms in front of me, adrenaline surges through me, giving me the extra fierceness I need to twist around to face him, only to cause a collision of our bodies.

Stunned, I freeze, my hands on his chest, my legs intimately aligned with his, and when our eyes meet, the look in his is unbridled passion, as possessive as it is hot. I’m scorched in every place he touches, and every place I suddenly want him to touch. Desperate to maintain what objectivity I have left with this man, which I’ve already determined is not much, I shove back from him, hitting the sink, catching myself on the cold surface.

He doesn’t move. He just stands before me, power and sex wafting off him like a seductive drug that if tried once would surely become a dangerous addiction. A second passes. Then two. On three, the tension between us is palpable and I can take it no more. “I can’t use the bathroom when you’re here. You’re hovering like you think I’m going to escape through some secret passageway.”

He arches a brow. “Escape? Is that what you want? To escape?”

Not from you, I think, but good sense prevails and I instead reply with, “Should I?”

And as if he’s read my mind, he says, “Not from me,” and just like that, he’s backed out of the room and shut the door, leaving me stunned and staring at the spot he’s left empty. What did that mean? Not from him? From who, then? Was he being literal? Surely he wasn’t. The longer I try to figure out the answer, the more the silence around me grows, and so does my awareness of what I’m avoiding. The mirror. I’m avoiding the mirror.

“Turn around,” I whisper, but just thinking about doing it stirs a flutter in my belly that’s darn near painful, and I know then that the doctor was right. I’m suppressing my memories. I’m afraid of what is in my own mind, and it’s a terrifying realization. What could be so bad that I’d rather leave myself behind than face it?

Inhaling against the pressure building in my chest, aware that I have to get past my fear, I mentally prepare myself to just get it over with. Another deep breath and I whirl around to face myself, but chicken out, clutching the sink and letting my head drop forward, my hair draping my face. Brown hair. A deep mahogany brown that falls to my breasts, and yet I hadn’t even noticed the color until now. I pant out a few more breaths and force myself to lift my chin, bringing my image into view.

And then I wait for the eruption that doesn’t happen. And I wait some more. Still nothing, and I begin analyzing myself like I’m some sort of a lab specimen. My face is heart-shaped, my eyes a deep green. My skin ivory. There’s a smattering of freckles on my nose I’m not overly fond of, but none of this helps me. I’m completely disconnected from the image in the mirror.

Frustrated, I curl my fingers into my palms where they rest on the sink, squeezing my eyes shut and promising myself that when I open them, my reaction will be different. Instead, my mind rewards me with one single memory, and I find myself standing inside what looks like an apartment, laughing with a pretty brunette. And there is no disconnect from her. Just seeing her softens a hard spot inside of me, easing the tension along my spine. She’s a friend. Someone I love. I slip deeper into the memory, and the images play like a silent movie. I watch in wonder, reveling in every second. She begins to fade, and I try to pull her back but fail, only to realize that I don’t know her name any more than I know mine.

Frustrated again, I open my eyes and stare at myself, feeling as if I know the woman in that memory far more than I know the one in the mirror. “Who are you?”

Leaning closer to the mirror, as if that might actually help me in some way, my eyes catch on a red strand of hair near my nape, and then another, and another, all hidden in the under-layer. Shifting my attention, I examine my eyebrows, and sure enough, I locate several strands of red. Heart racing, and I’m not sure why, I grab my gown, and tug it upward and confirm that I’m either shaved or waxed, but whatever the case, it hides the proof of my coloring. Hiding. The word plays in my mind, echoed by another. Running.

I drop the gown and lean on the sink, staring at my image again, and I am now officially freaked out. I am running. I know it in some deep part of me. The question is—from whom or what?

“Oh God,” I whisper, thinking of the fingerprints. What if I’m in trouble? What if I broke the law and I’m giving the proof to a man who can arrest me? I don’t feel like a criminal, but how does one feel when one breaks the law? I just . . . don’t know.

Or maybe it’s not the law that’s my problem. Maybe it’s a person I’m trying to escape. What if it’s Kayden? What if that is why he’s familiar?

A knock echoes on the door and I jump, whirling around to face it.

“You okay in there?”

At the sound of Kayden’s voice, the detective’s words play in my head. Kayden Wilkens doesn’t do anything, including you, without an agenda. And I remind myself that I don’t know Kayden, so I don’t know if I can trust him. The same applies to the detective, which leaves me with a devastating conclusion. I can’t lean on anyone but myself until I retrieve my memories—which means I can’t stay here. I have to leave, now, tonight, and do it with no money or help. And go where? Think. Think. Think. And then it hits me. Italy is rich with religious culture. I’ll go to a church. Surely one of them will have a place for me to stay and hide.

Abruptly, the door opens, and I gasp as Kayden steps into the room, his big body claiming the small space, his presence sucking all the air from my lungs.

“What are you doing in here?” I demand.

He shocks me by kicking the door shut. “Opening your eyes.”

With dread in my belly, I grab the sink behind me, holding on for the blow that I sense is coming. “What are you talking about, Kayden?”

“It’s time for you to remember.” He closes the small space between us, crowding me, the spicy, warm scent of him with hints of vanilla teasing my nostrils and stirring a flicker of a memory I can’t place.

“I was right,” I accuse, my chin tilting upward to challenge him. “We aren’t strangers, are we?”

“Do I feel like a stranger?”

“I feel like a stranger. Why wouldn’t you?”

“What does your instinct tell you?” he asks, playing the same card Gallo had earlier.

And again, I say, “I don’t trust my instincts.”

“And yet you refuse your memories and leave yourself with nothing else to go on, vulnerable to lies I’m not telling you.”

Vulnerable. He uses the word like he knows what I’m feeling. Like he knows me. “How do I know that? How do I know anything you tell me is true?”

“Exactly,” he agrees. “That’s my point. It’s time to come out of the shadows and remember who you are.”

“You think I don’t want to? I can’t just flip a switch and make my mind work. And neither can you.”

“Maybe not, but I’m not leaving you in those shadows, either.” He reaches for me, and I gasp as he twists me around to face the mirror, his hips leveraging my backside from behind.

“What are you doing?” I demand, grabbing the sink while he grabs a hunk of my hair and holds it up to display the red.

“What does this tell us about you?”

“Lots of people dye their hair,” I say, afraid of where this is going, of what I’m about to find out.

“You not only colored your hair,” he says, “you did it quickly and badly.” He turns me around again, pressing my backside to the sink, his hands settling on my hips, scorching me through the thin material. “You were running when I found you, and you almost got caught.”

“You can’t know that,” I say, my fingers curling on the hard wall of his chest where they’ve landed. “I don’t know that.”

“Those men chasing you in that alley weren’t two-bit thieves. They were skilled, experienced criminals, and they were after you.”

“You saw them?”

“Yes. I saw them. And I intervened or you wouldn’t be here right now. What I didn’t know, when I called emergency and gave them my damn name, was who those men were. Not until I found this.” He digs out a package of matches. “Do they look familiar?”

“No,” I say, my voice cracking. “Nothing looks familiar but you.”

“Because you don’t want to remember anything before me and you have to.”

“I want to remember.”

“Mezonnett,” he says, reading the writing on the matchbook flap, and then grabbing my palm to press it inside my hand, curling my fingers, and his, around it. “It’s a restaurant owned by a man named Niccolo. A very rich, very arrogant man who also happens to be the biggest mobster in Italy.”

“Mobster?” I whisper, my fears of criminal connections realized, and then rejected. “No. No, this isn’t right. I can’t be involved with a mobster.”