Текст книги "Truth in Watercolors"

Автор книги: Kimberly Rose

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I smacked my arm around on my nightstand with my eyes still closed.

“Who is it?” Capri’s sleepy and seriously sexy middle of the night voice rasped.

I caught my phone in my hand on the third ring and brought it to my face squinting into the blue light. “Unknown number,” I mumbled and connected the call. “Hello.”

“I’m looking for a Mr. Weston Monroe,” a much too perky for the middle of the night voice said. Thank God, she used my full name. I didn’t think Capri would be okay with a chick from the past calling me in the middle of the night.

“It’s me.” I rubbed my hand across my eyes.

“Sorry for calling so late, Mr. Monroe. My name is Claire Reynolds. I’m a nurse at San Diego Memorial Hospital.” I sat up, coming to life. “I have a Mr. Louis Blue here. He is unable to drive himself home and has listed you as an emergency contact number.”

“Wait, where are you calling from?” I asked swinging my legs out of the bed and hurrying out of the room. Capri was already back asleep. She slept like a champ, most likely because I stuck it in her like a champ.

“From San Diego Memorial, sir,” this nurse says.

“What happened? Is he okay?” I asked flipping on the kitchen light.

“I can’t say, sir, but he does need a ride home. He refused to call anyone to come and get him, so we found your name on his paperwork.”

“You can’t tell me what happened? Is he okay at least?” This was stupid. They could call me to come get him, but they couldn’t tell me what happened.

“I’m sorry, sir. He is ready to go home, though. I can tell you that much.”

“Okay, okay. I’ll be there soon,” I said hanging up. Shit, at least he could go home.

I tiptoed back into the room to grab a pair of jeans. “Is everything okay?” Capri’s sleepy voice spoke again making my dick flinch. Ignore the sexy voice.

“Blue’s in the hospital. I’ve gotta go pick him up,” I whispered pulling a clean shirt over my head.

“What?” She sat straight up, hair an adorable mess. “Is he okay? I’ll come with you,” she said swinging her head around and looking for her pants.

“No, no,” I whispered climbing back onto the bed and leaning over her. “He’s fine. They won’t tell me what happened, but he does get to go home, so he’s okay. I’ll go pick him up, find out what happened, and come home.” I kissed her forehead after she fell back onto the pillows.

“You sure? I can go with you, Wes.” She yawned.

“Go back to sleep, baby.” I kissed her on the lips. “I’ll be back soon.”

“Mmmkay,” she mumbled rolling over. “Call me if you need me. I’m there,” she mumbled.

“I know, baby.” I pulled the blanket up around her shoulders and gave her one more kiss on the neck before slipping out to find out what kinda bullshit Blue got himself into.

“You get your dick stuck in the vacuum again, Bluebell?” He sat up from his hospital bed.

“Got it stuck in your throat, kid,” he said swinging his skinny legs over the side of the bed coughing. Coughing. More damn coughing.

“You okay?” I asked walking to him and patting him on the back. That was what you did when someone coughed, right?

“Stop fuckin’ burpin’ me.” Blue reached back to swat my hand away.

“Mr. Blue?” Some way too buff doctor came in. Seriously. How was he a doctor? “You’re all set to leave. I wanted to go over a few things before you break out of here.” He looked at me and nodded. “Is it okay to speak in front of your friend?”

“Yeah, yeah.” Blue waved his hand at the doctor who sat in his rolly chair.

“Mr. Blue, this is quite serious.” The doctor opened his folder. “It looks as though you are in the early stages of emphysema.” What the?

“Yeah,” Blue said scratching his nuts. Fuckin’ Blue.

“How have you been managing your COPD?” The doctor scribbled in his folder.

“CO what?” I asked, “and dude, emphysema?”

The doctor looked at Blue, who nodded and huffed. “Mr. Blue has chronic bronchitis. It’s a result of his years of smoking, and now it seems the habit has permanently damaged the airways and air sacs of his lungs.”

Fuck. I reached up and gripped my hair in my fingers. “What does it all mean?” ‘Cause really it all sounded like scary jibberish.

“I’m dyin’,” Blue said. I think. I thought that was what he said. I wasn’t sure because my ears popped, and then my legs got wobbly, so I had to climb onto the bed Blue sat in.

“Jesus. You’re a pussy sometimes,” Blue grumbled next to me when a cup appeared in front of my face.

“Some water, sir,” the doctor said, and I took it from him dumping the cup on my face.

“Son of a bitch,” Blue grumbled next to me, and I felt his wrinkly ass cold hand squeeze mine.

“Mr. Blue, how have you been managing your COPD until this point?” The doctor continued to speak to Blue.

“Nothin’,” Blue said.

“What should he be doing?” I pushed myself up and looked at the doctor.

“The first thing he should do to slow down the progression of the disease is quit smoking.” That got a grumble from Blue next to me. I pushed past him and stood next to where he still sat on the bed. “He also should be using bronchodilators to help relax his airways and improve his breathing. Tonight, his O2 levels were at eighty-six percent, which is not good and the reason why he was having shortness of breath.”

“Bluebell, you couldn’t breathe? You should have had them call me,” I said to him, but he just shrugged. Stubborn old ass.

“I’d also like for you to start pulmonary rehab to help you get the most out of the part of your lungs that isn’t damaged yet, and start you on oxygen, especially when you are more active and find yourself out of breath more quickly.” The doctor jibber jabbed away, and I did my best to type in the nonsense he was spewing into my phone.

The doctor handed Blue a packet of papers. “Here is all the information you will need as well as your prescriptions. Please take care of yourself, Mr. Blue.” The doctor stood and shook Blue’s hand before shaking mine.

“Okay, Bluebell,” I said scrolling through my notes, “Let’s get to the pharmacy and get your medication then we can call that rehab place in the morning.”

“Forget it, son,” Blue said standing up right into a coughing fit.

I waited for him to settle down. “Blue, he said we can slow it down, so let’s do it.” I put my phone in my pocket and reached out to help him walk, but he slapped my hand away and flipped me off.

“Son, I don’t have medical insurance. This stuff is more than a guy like me can afford. Just take me home.” He shuffled past me. Fuck. We didn’t have medical. None of us at the shop did.

“Well, we can buy some then,” I said, following him.

“It ain’t that easy. Especially when an old shit like me is already dyin’.”

“Stop saying that!” I shouted, stopping Blue in the hallway. Shit, my ears were popping again. Fuck, the bed was too far away. I squatted down to the ground.

Blue’s hand squeezed my shoulder. “Come on, son. Take me home.”

I wasn’t surprised that C was awake when I got home. The entire drive back to Blue’s, I thought about what I could do to help him and how we could get him going on his treatments. It all came down to one thing. Money. He needed the money, and we could get him feeling better and keep him as healthy as possible longer.

Now that I was home, and Capri was here waiting for me, I just wanted to fall.

“Hey.” She put her book away, stood from the couch, and pulled off her sexy glasses. I couldn’t get to her fast enough. I hung my keys in their place on the wall and hurried toward her.

She immediately stood on her toes and hugged me, wrapped those tiny arms not quite all the way around my waist, and hugged me. I sagged into her. She knew that I needed this. “How is he?” she whispered into my chest.

I pulled away and tugged on her hand so she would follow me back to the couch. I sunk into it and leaned my head back. “He has emphysema,” I said, still not totally keyed into what that all meant, but by her sharp inhale, she had a good idea.

“What? Did he just find out?” she asked, and I nodded.

“Yeah, but I guess he’s been sick for a while with something like it. All from his smoking and he still won’t quit. Stubborn jackass.”

“Oh, my gosh.” I felt her shift closer to me. “So what does it mean? What happens now?”

“There’s a lot of medicines he can take, and things he can do to help his lungs and to keep him from getting worse faster, but it all costs a lot of money, and he doesn’t have any insurance, so he hasn’t been doing any of it.”

“What the crap?” Capri shouted, and I smiled. “He needs to take his medicine. What is he thinking? Give me your phone.” She held out her hand. “I’m calling him right now.” I laughed and looked over at her with her angry face on. She cared about him.

“He’s sleeping now, baby,” I sat up and grabbed that hand, pulling her into my lap. She wiggled herself comfortable and leaned my head onto her shoulder. That’s better. “You can call him first thing in the morning and sass the shit out of him, okay?”

She nodded and then sighed. “So what can we do?” she asked, and I shook my head against her.

“I’ll figure something out,” I told her already knowing what I was going to do. I didn’t want to think about it anymore tonight. Right now, all I wanted was to hold my girl while I was still the man she deserved to be in the arms of.

I knew Blue’s choice to smoke brought on his illness, but it didn’t make me any less mad that a great guy like him was sick. He was so cool and kind. It wasn’t fair. Life didn’t play nice.

I was especially worried about Wes with all of this. His whole life he’d been bounced around from family to family, friends to friends, house to house. I think he finally found a home with Blue. Now he found out that the one person who’d stuck by him and fought with him and for him was slowly getting sicker day by day. He had to be terrified.

“Is Wes here yet?” Kensie whispered to me while her class danced on a tiny stage in the gym. Tonight was the reopening of the youth center, and although Wes and I originally planned to come together, I didn’t question him when he said he’d be late because he wanted to go see Blue. Whatever he needed to do to make sure Blue was okay and to help himself be okay, I supported him in.

“Not yet,” I whispered doing a quick sweep of the crowd filled mostly by community members and kids who used the center.

“All right, girls!” Kensie shouted to the stage when the dance ended. The crowd clapped and dispersed to the tables set up at the back of the room with refreshments. I made my way out to the waiting room at the front entrance smiling and saying hello to strangers along the way still scanning the room for Wes.

Then I found him, looking entirely larger than life sitting on a small chair in a darkened corner of the waiting room. Alone. He held his head in his hands with his elbows propped on his knees. He was still and silent while the gym just feet behind us roared with life and laughter.

“Wes,” I said quietly so I wouldn’t spook him, but I moved toward him quickly. I wanted nothing more than to comfort him. His head moved up unhurriedly, but when his eyes caught up and saw me, he jumped from the chair to his feet.

“Hey.” His heavy exhale was obvious behind the pep in his voice. His arm reached out to me, and he caught my hand in his.

“How long have you been here?” I asked looking at him from under his lowered lashes.

“Just got here,” he said with a gentle shake of his head.

“You doing okay?” I lightly squeezed his hand.

His eyes lifted to mine. The anguish painted across them startled my heart.

Then he blinked and smirked. “Save some for me, baby.” His eyes flicked to my hand over my chest gripping fingers into my skin. “I want a handful later.” Then he kissed me on the cheek and strutted past me. Not good.

Overall, the reopening was a success. Shortly after Wes showed up, August presented the mural in front of the crowd drawing far more attention to myself than I would have liked.

I’d barely spoken to Wes since we came back into the gym. He occupied himself by bouncing around the room, bringing smiles and laughter to the people who were here. His cheerful facade didn’t fool me. He was hurting.

I watched him when he approached an older couple. Instead of shaking hands, he gave each one a hug, and his energetic dispositions settled. Then I saw Ridge approach the trio. He saw me from across the room and waved his hand in the air. “Miss Capri!” he shouted, earning himself a pathway of stares and knock in the head from Wes. I laughed and made my way over.

“Miss Capri. These are my foster parents,” Ridge said practically bouncing on his toes. “And as of Monday, they’ll be my real parents,” he beamed.

“Seriously?” I asked, and he nodded eagerly.

“Well, we’ve always considered ourselves his parents.” His mom leaned in to give me a hug. “But it will be legal on Monday.”

“That’s amazing news. Congratulations and good luck.” I scrunched my nose up.

“Oh, c’mon.” Ridge laughed. “I’m not that bad.”

“I don’t know. Do they know about your toe fetish? Or how about your lactose intolerance? That shit gets messy from time to time right, man?” Wes socked Ridge in the shoulder.

“Takes one to know one right, Ridge?” I winked at him earning a heartfelt chuckle from Wes.

“You may have met your match.” Ridge’s dad laughed sticking out his hand to me. “I’m Dan.”

“Nice to meet you.” I smiled, but more for the man standing next to me who seemed to be honestly enjoying himself for the first time all night.

“She’s pretty special,” Wes said, causing my heart to flutter. “Don’t know what she’s doing with a loser like me,” he added, breaking my heart’s wings. “She’ll realize soon enough that she can do better.”

“I’ve been saying that for twenty years.” Dan laughed missing the enormity of Wes’ words. Then again, he probably didn’t see the way his eyes cringed when he spit them out or how they were clouded over now.

“Don’t say that,” I whispered to him, but he ignored me looking over my head.

“I’m gonna go find August,” he said to Ridge’s family, “I’ll catch you guys on your way out.” He touched the tip of my elbow with his hand on his way past me.

“We were so lucky to have met him.” Ridge’s mom smiled watching him greet my brother. “He’s helped Ridge so much with the things we try to understand, but just never will.”

“You do great, Ma.” Ridge leaned in kissing her on the cheek.

“He’s great at that,” I said. “Being there for anyone and everyone.” It was letting others be there for him that he couldn’t seem to do. He could avoid me all he wanted; I’d still be here when he realized he needed me.

The last time I was here, I panicked. This time, I was anxious in a different way. Stepping into the gallery had my heartbeat pumping for possibility instead of insecurity. I had to admit it was a nice change, and one that told me I was ready to be here and ready for this opportunity.

With a little time to spare, I took a couple of minutes to walk through some of the exhibits. I stopped at one particular piece that immediately grabbed my attention. It was a mermaid, but instead of a clear painting, it was done so that it looked as though she was just under the surface of the water. Her form was visible, but her features were blurred and skewed below the ripples.

The title below the painting was “Trapped.” I disagreed. Though she hovered there below the water line, she looked as though she was about to burst free. Instead of seeing a woman imprisoned, I saw a woman swimming from the depths to the surface. She was breathtaking.

“Can I help you?” a guy around my age said looking every bit of a hipster peeked from around the small partition wall separating the artwork from the office.

“I’m here for a meeting with Bia at eleven thirty,” I said feeling my folder bend in my grip and turned around to meet him.

“Rad. I’ll let her know you’re here.” He disappeared just as quickly as he’d shown up.

“Thanks.” I smiled standing off to the side of the tiny waiting room at the gallery as he floated down the hall.

I woke up this morning and saw the missed call from the gallery curator, Bia. I’d sent them an inquiry just three days ago about possibly putting some of my stuff on display. I was shocked to hear back so soon, or at all.

I pulled out my phone, quickly pretending to turn it off, not like anyone was in the room with me to see. I guess I was pretending for myself because really I was checking to see if Wes had texted.

He and August went out after the reopening last night for a beer together, and I foolishly waited for him to text me, falling asleep on my parents’ couch at some point. I awoke in the middle of the night without a word from Wes and texted to see how he was with no answer. Then, I spent the rest of the night and early morning trying to sleep through the pit in my stomach.

“Capri?” hipster dude said, coming back in the room. “Go on in. It’s the room that’s not the loo.” He smiled sitting back down at his desk.

“Thank you,” I said making my way to the room that was not the loo. The door was open, but I knocked before going in.

“Come on in,” a voice chimed. I peeked around the door first, and my body followed. “Capri.” Bia smiled, tying a knot in the scarf around her hair. She came around her desk to shake my hand.

“Nice to meet you.” I shook her hand then awkwardly stuck out my folder. “My samples,” I said just as awkwardly and sat down.

“Great. Let me take a quick look at these.” She sat down with my sample portfolio. Time slowed as she flipped open the folder. The bend of the paper exaggerated, and the dust blew into glitter in the sunlight.

“Interesting,” Bia mumbled holding my painting of a droplet of water. Interesting? That could be good I think, or bad, really bad.

“Mmm hmmm,” she mumbled to herself, picking up the black and white feather of a bird, and I squirmed in the seat. I chose a few of my pieces that I’d done over the years, but none of them were from the portfolio hidden in my closet. These were what I thought best represented my monotone style, focusing on single elements of a larger image.

“Now this one,” she said again holding up a painting. It was a painting of piece of splintered wood on an old fence post. Maybe I should have thought these through a little more. Maybe I shouldn’t have brought them in at all. I was much too inexperienced with his sort of thing, this sort of ‘people looking at my art’ thing. I’d tried to remind myself on the way here that it was no big deal. Dozens of people saw the mural last night, and I handled that okay. This though, this was different. It was mine and mine alone, and it was a chance at what I’d always dreamed of doing. This was me freaking the fuck out.

I wiped my wet palms on the chair then thought twice about it wondering if the chair itself was art. The cushion was a lovely chevron pattern.

“Well,” Bia spoke when I was two seconds away from running out of the door, “these are brilliant.”

“What?” I put my sweaty palms back on the chair.

“Brilliant,” she said smiling, and I checked the corners of it for any hints of trickery.

“Brilliant good?” I asked.

“Brilliant, brilliant,” she said smiling wider.

“Okay, cool.” I laughed nervously.

She leaned forward on her desk, propping her chin on her beaded wrists. “You are very talented. Your style is unique and you have an impeccable eye for detail. You bring out the beauty in objects that would otherwise be overlooked. You make them meaningful, and give them life. I like it.”

“Thank you,” I said not knowing what else to say. My head was swirling with disbelief so rapidly that no other thoughts or words would form.

“Don’t thank me just yet. I have a local hotel manager looking for some new art for a few additional bungalows, and I think these might be just what he’s looking for.” She picked up a pencil and made a note on my folder. “Can I keep these?” She looked up at me.

“Yeah, um, yes,” I said. “Did you say hotel? I’m sorry; I’m having a hard time absorbing this.” I tucked a piece of hair behind my ear that had come loose from my bun.

“I did.” She laughed and set her pencil down. “Sometimes we serve as a place to simply display work, and other times, it gets purchased. If the manager approves, he will most likely purchase these and commission you for a few more if that’s something you would be interested in.”

“Yes!” I shouted leaping forward in the chair. Bia jumped back into hers. “Sorry, gosh, sorry, um yes. That would be amazing.” I smiled squeezing my hands together.

“Good then.” She smiled closing the folder. “I’ll get in touch with Nate and let you know. Until then, get some more things ready. We’d love to have you feature some of your work in the gallery, as well.”

“Yes, ma’am.” I stood quickly.

“Bia, dear.” She smiled rising from her chair. “I’ll be in touch.”

“Okay, Bia, yes, thank you.” I picked up my bag and skittered down the hallway.

“Have a nice day,” Hipster called as I flew past him toward the street.

I fumbled my hand around in my purse squinting into the sunshine. Once I found it, I immediately dialed Wes. I couldn’t wait to tell him.

“Wes, it’s me again,” I mumble sighed into the phone. I’d called and texted Wes a few times since I’d gotten home from the gallery without one word in response. “I wanted to come by and see you, so if that’s okay.” I started to talk into the message, “You know what, no. I’m coming over. Right now. See you in a few.” I hung up and grabbed my purse off the floor of my room. I’d had enough. I understood the hurt, the confusion, the panic, but I would never understand the disrespect toward me nor would I tolerate it.

Fifteen minutes later, I was knocking on his door with again, no answer. Maybe he wasn’t home? I lifted my hand to knock one last time when the door blew open. “Oh, hey Capri,” he said leaving the door open and walking back into the apartment. I didn’t follow him immediately, though. I was more concerned with how perfectly put together he was.

I guess I expected him to look like he’d been wallowing all day; unshaven, sweats, eyes that darkened in the corners causing them to droop. He was none of those things. He was dressed in a tee shirt and jeans like usual, his hair styled as usual, and a trail of clean musk followed him like normal. In fact, “Are you going somewhere?” I asked noticing he had his shoes on.

“Yeah,” he said putting the remote into the holder on the couch and placing the pillows in the corners.

“Okay,” I said taking one step into the apartment. Just one. More than that seemed unwelcome. “Do you want me to come, too?” I asked as he busied himself closing the blinds.

“Up to you,” he said with a shrug. “I’ve just got some errands to run.”

His indifference stung. “Well, I can just go if that’s easier for you.” I winced at the surrender in my voice.

“Whatever you want, Capri,” he said walking past me into the kitchen not even looking at me. Why wouldn’t he look at me?

“I want to know what’s going on,” I said hearing him closing and opening drawers.

“I’ve just been busy, Capri, trying to get things sorted.” The sound of my full name from his mouth was starting to dig into me. I stood in the apartment, still only one step in when he came out and grabbed his keys off the hook directly next to me. The blast of his scent momentarily filled an emptiness in my gut.

I watched him, my head following his movements—reaching over me, picking up the keys with one finger, pulling his hand back, and stuffing them into his pocket. He didn’t look at me.

He stood by the door holding it open for me but busied himself looking around the apartment as if he were checking to make sure things were in their place. Look at me.

“Look at me,” I said evenly, not taking my eyes off his.

His eyes looked up in a pause then darted to mine quickly, latching on for a brief and transcendent moment when my entire world’s meaning was defined within one blink. Then they were gone and back on the ceiling. “You ready?” he asked with despondent words.

I forced my legs to take the single step back out of the apartment, and then turned my back on him and faced the hallway. I felt the movement of air as the keys came out of his pocket and he locked the door. Then it stilled. I held my breath not wanting to disturb the way the particles had frozen around us.

They blasted back to life when he came around to stand in front of me. I immediately looked up to his eyes that were staring over me. His hands gripped onto my shoulders and his lips pressed firmly against my forehead. I let out an audible breath with the sudden contact and my heart constricted in my chest grabbing onto it. Then he pulled away just as swiftly and walked away without a backward glance.