Текст книги "A Kiss For a Highlander"
Автор книги: Jane Godman
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Chapter Nine
Fraser wasn’t sure if Martha did sleep. She certainly gave all the appearance of slumber, lying motionless and quiet next to him in the cramped space of the hard bench. The mingled scents of the faint lavender perfume in her hair and her arousal were twin torments. His own body was alive with a longing so fierce it scared him. While he held her warm and quivering in his arms, his fingers probing the secrets of her body and his lips tasting the salty sweetness of her flesh, it was difficult to remember his vow to do her no harm. Because, really, what harm could there be in doing that which was natural? With a woman who wanted him as much as he wanted her?
“Fraser?” Martha’s chin was sharp where she rested it on his chest, and because of the way the candlelight fell, he felt, rather than saw, her eyes searching his face.
“Yes?” His voice was brusque.
“I’m warm but I can’t sleep.” Tentatively, she moved one hand up to the opening at the neck of his shirt. Her fingertips lightly stroked the curling hair on his chest. “I might not know much about these things, but I do know something should have happened for you too.” He sensed she was blushing fiercely under the concealing veil of darkness.
“That would not be right.”
Her hand moved down his body, hovering over the waistband of his breeches. “Didn’t we go just beyond ‘right’?” Her voice was low and husky. Temptingly so.
She didn’t know what she was doing to him. He should stop this now by making sure no part of her was touching any part of him. He should move right away from her to a safe distance. But such an action was an impossibility in the confined space. Instead, he turned on his side to face her, acknowledging the inevitability of the moment. It was there in the feel of her small, firm breasts against his chest, the smooth curve of her buttocks as he slid a hand under them to lift her, moulding her exactly to him. It was there in the tremor that ran through her as she answered by fitting her body to his. To hell with being honourable.
With a soft, welcoming sigh, Martha’s lips parted to accept the demands of his mouth. Then, to his delight, she met the thrust of his tongue with delicate strokes and brushes of her own. He groaned and framed her face with his hands, angling her head to gain the best possible access to the sweet softness of her mouth. Martha wound her arms around his neck in response, answering him measure for measure. He realised he was grinding his erection against her belly like an overeager youth and, embarrassed, tried to arch his pelvis away from her.
“Don’t stop,” she murmured, pressing against him. She was so delicate that the difference in their sizes should have alarmed him. He had the power to crush her beneath him if he lost control of this situation. Yet, despite her fragility, Martha was in charge. She was setting the pace now, and she wasn’t prepared to let him take this slowly or gently. With her lips and her tongue and her ragged, panting breath, she was letting him know exactly what was going to happen. Damned if she wasn’t reading his mind.
Instinctively, she nestled her body against his, moving her hips so that she could feel the length of his erection pressing into the soft flesh of her stomach. Martha’s hands moved to his waist, pulling his shirt from his breeches. Her palms were warm as they caressed the taut planes of his stomach muscles, sending darts of pleasure shooting through to his nerve endings. Cautiously, she eased one hand inside the waistband of his breeches. Warm fingers brushed the tip of his cock, then drew back to fumble with the buttons on his breeches.
“I can’t make love to you here, Martha,” he muttered in a desperate attempt to cling to the last shreds of his integrity. He groaned softly into her hair. “There’s no room to move.”
“We don’t have to. I just want to give you pleasure…as you did for me.” She leaned over him so that her hair curtained his face, and kissed him, driving all rational thought from his mind.
Reaching inside his loosened breeches, Martha wrapped her hand around his shaft. Unable to help himself, Fraser groaned long and deep into her mouth. She squeezed gently, then slid her hand down his length in a single exploratory stroke before releasing him. Fraser’s hips bucked in a combination of shock and pleasure.
“Please don’t stop.” The words came out on a hiss.
Taking encouragement from this request, she touched him again. Her fingers curled around his shaft and gently drew his cock out through the opening in his breeches. Less tentative now, she commenced stroking him. Fraser strained upward, seeking more. While she ran one hand down his shaft, then back, she used the other to explore his aroused flesh. First, she traced a finger lightly around the rim. Then, moving lower, she cupped his balls.
“I know you said we couldn’t make love here,” she said softly, as Fraser lay back, rendered helpless by her touch. “But I’d like to try.”
Glad to regain control, he shifted into a sitting position with his back against the wall, lifting Martha so that she straddled him. Her hair fell about both their faces. “Are you quite sure, lass?” he asked and she nodded vigorously.
Fraser pulled her nightgown up to her waist, holding her buttocks steady so that his cock could probe her entrance. Martha’s hands tightened on his shoulders at the sensation of him probing her. Lifting his hips, he pushed himself upward and met resistance. Martha gasped.
“Will I stop?” Fraser asked.
“No.” It sounded like her teeth were gritted.
With one hard thrust, he drove into her. Martha cried out and dug sharp nails into his shoulder. Once he was fully engulfed in her tight warmth, it took every ounce of Fraser’s self-control to remain still. He needed to allow her body to stretch and grow, to become accustomed to the feel of him iron-hard and throbbing inside her.
“I’m sorry,” he said, with his lips against her neck. “I didn’t want to hurt you.”
“I asked you to, remember?” she whispered, turning her head so that she could kiss him again. “Please, Fraser…I want you to move now.”
Ever so gently, he began to rock, holding her tight against him. “Ah, Martha,” he murmured. “Ye feel so damn good.”
Her tight muscles held him in a delicious grip. Following his lead, she matched his movements, grinding her pelvis in time with his while holding every inch of him deep within her. Fraser increased the pace, lifting her body so that he could thrust up into her. Tugging her nightgown higher, his lips sought her nipple, and a tiny sob tore out of her as his mouth closed around it. Just as Fraser felt his own control slipping, Martha began to writhe wildly above him, arching her back and calling his name. As the first explosion of pleasure hit him, Fraser lifted Martha so that his seed pulsed hot and hard over his own stomach instead of into her.
Gasping for breath, he drew her into his arms, kissing her long and deep until the quivering in both their bodies had stilled. For a long time after the kiss had ended, Martha was silent. Worryingly so. Fraser couldn’t see her face.
“Are you sorry, lass?”
“No. Are you?”
He laughed. “’Tis a foolish question to ask of a man, Martha.”
“Oh. I know nothing of these things.” It was a stark reminder of why he should have shown more restraint. However great the temptation, he should have resisted it. Even as those guilty thoughts crowded in on him, the memory of thrusting deep inside her that first time made his body tingle with renewed lust. Martha nestled back into his arms, a hint of mischief in her next words. “Do you think those priests of bygone days are all turning in their graves at the use to which we have just put their hiding place?”
When Tom Drury arrived the next morning and released them from the priest hole, Martha could see the look of sympathy on his face as she stammered out a garbled explanation. She was well aware that her blushes, coupled with the way she was unable to look at Fraser, spoke volumes about her embarrassment. Smoothing down her hair and nightdress in a flustered manner, she recovered her shawl and wrapped it thankfully around herself.
Fraser, on the other hand, seemed unperturbed and inclined to view the whole incident with amusement. He had reached a hand down into the hidden space and helped Martha out before setting off to the kitchen in search of food.
“I know it’s a difficult situation,” Tom said to Martha. “It must have been horribly trying for you to be confined in such a small space with a man you dislike so cordially. At least you can console yourself with the thought that he will soon be gone.”
“Yes.” Martha glanced toward the kitchen, where Fraser’s voice could be heard upraised in an old Scots ballad. “He will, won’t he?”
Later that day, word came of a Jacobite victory in the foulest of winter weather and worst imaginable conditions. This had taken place in a ferocious clash at Falkirk, north of Edinburgh. Fraser was elated, explaining that this would raise the spirits of the highlanders, not only because a defeat of the English was long overdue. Falkirk was symbolic as the place in which William Wallace had been defeated centuries earlier in a battle during which the Scots army had effectively been wiped out by the English.
Harry, his eyes alight with excitement, descended on the old dower house and spent an hour discussing the details of the battle with Fraser. For Martha the talk of charges and tactics and columns washed over and around her like a foreign tongue. She was too busy fighting her own constant battle, one which she waged lately with the voice inside her head which kept prompting her to throw herself into Fraser’s arms and demand he take her immediately up to his bed. With hindsight, she knew it was a battle she was destined to lose.
It was probably just as well, therefore, that Fraser suggested he and Harry should take their rods down to the lake which lay half a mile to the west of Mr. Delacourt’s farm boundary. The removal of Fraser from her vicinity would considerably reduce the possibility of Martha indulging any unseemly and embarrassing displays of wanton lust. She watched from the kitchen window as his broad-shouldered frame disappeared from view and tried to convince herself that she was glad of this distance from his presence. She needed time to think.
And she did think. She thought about how he sometimes kissed her with long, slow, erotic movements of his tongue and sometimes with quick urgent thrusts. She remembered the different sensations provoked by his lips softly suckling her nipple then his teeth sharply nipping. Her body thrummed at the recollection of his fingers probing just inside her and the very different feeling of his cock stretching and filling her.
“Oh, dear Lord,” she murmured, pressing the cool back of her hand to her burning cheek. “Will I ever be able to think of anything else again?”
But she had to stop these thoughts and plant her feet firmly back on the ground. She wasn’t Rosie, lost in some foolish, girlish dream of love. No, she had very deliberately allowed… She paused. What had she allowed, exactly? Fraser had not seduced her. Seduction implied an inequality that had not been part of their interaction. Martha might be less experienced, but she had not been less wanting. There was that thrill of remembrance once more. She had made a choice. It might be the maddest, most dangerous, most improper choice imaginable, but it was her choice nonetheless. And, having chosen, she would do it all again. And again. That awareness prompted a sudden, restless longing to see Fraser. He could be gone tomorrow. The thought made her heart clench with hurt.
Glad of something to do to stop her thoughts returning to her depraved behaviour of the night before, she snatched up a basket, filled it with several picnic items and set off in the direction of the lake to find the two fishermen. The day, although cold, showed signs of weak sunlight, and once she had left Delacourt Grange, Martha walked along a pleasant, green, hedgerow-lined lane that wound its way down pastured hill slopes. It was as she was about to cross a stile into the field that led to the lake that a voice hailed her. She turned her head, and her heart sank when she saw Sir Clive Sheridan striding toward her.
“Give you good noontide, Miss Wantage,” he said, in the slightly dismissive tone he generally used to her. Martha had long since got the message. She was unimportant to him if Rosie was not present. “You are a long way from home on a chilly day.” His sharp eyes dropped to her basket.
“Good afternoon, sir. It seems we are both keen to take advantage of a dry day despite the ice that lingers in the air.”
“Yes, indeed. I called in at the Crown to see what news I could glean of the rebellion. You will have heard, no doubt, of the news from Falkirk? A dark day indeed, but I believe we may trust Cumberland to rally his troops and teach these Jacobite dogs to know their place. There was a young guards captain name of Overton in the taproom.”
Martha hoped she managed to disguise the start of surprise she gave at the name by pretending to turn it into a shiver of cold. “I believe there are redcoats stationed nearby still,” she observed.
“They seek a dangerous fugitive.” Sir Clive puffed up with his own importance at the news. “Overton himself told me that a fine lord, friend to the prince himself, no less, was left for dead by a young redcoat on Swarkestone Bridge. The captain said he cannot have left the area so badly wounded he was. ’Tis a certainty he is either dead in a ditch from his wounds, or holed up nearby with rebel sympathisers. I’d not want to be in their shoes should he be found.”
“No indeed,” Martha answered him mechanically. Over his shoulder, she had caught a glimpse of two figures emerging from the bushes, carrying their fishing rods and reels. “Would you mind, sir, if we walked along the lane as we talk? I am feeling rather chilled by this wind as I stand here.”
Courteously, he offered her his arm and they walked along together. As she listened with half an ear to his discourse, Martha was able to see Fraser and Harry cross the lane behind them and make their way back in the direction of the old dower house. She felt her breathing gradually return to normal.
“Old Mr. Cartwright, who lives in Swarkestone village, had a strange tale to tell.” Sir Clive’s penetrating voice bored into her consciousness. “His horse, which he thought had been stolen from the blacksmith’s during the Jacobite invasion, strolled back into its stable a full two weeks later. Not that I’d give you tuppence for the old bag of bones myself. Are you on your way to distribute food to Mr. Delacourt’s tenants? I will happily accompany you all the way…”
It had been a difficult day. Shaking off Sir Clive had been no easy task, and when Martha had attempted to remonstrate with Fraser for putting himself in danger by going on a fishing expedition, he had been unconcerned.
“Keep your heid, crabbit one,” he had said. “What’s for ye’ll no go by ye.”
Martha was tired. And the very large, very beautiful reason why she had not had any sleep the night before was not helping her mood by smiling down at her and being very Scottish in response to her fears. She felt her lips purse and her eyes narrow.
“If by that you mean ‘what is meant to be will be’, I have never heard a sillier utterance.” She slammed down the book she had been holding. “It is one thing to deal with danger as it comes, but it is quite another to actually court it, which is what you seem to enjoy doing.”
He had regarded her in surprise. Then, as he made a movement toward her with his hands held out, she had whirled away angrily and stomped upstairs to allow her temper the luxury of a few minutes’ indulgence alone. If the redcoats took him it would be quite his own fault. If the redcoats took him! Dear God, the very thought of it was unbearable.
She crept back down the stairs some minutes later and set about preparing the evening meal. She was aware of Fraser casting one or two confused glances in her direction, but she kept her head down. Heaven forbid that he should see her expression and know her thoughts.
When evening fell and they occupied their usual fireside seats, Martha decided that the best way to quell the desperate restlessness that threatened to overwhelm her sanity would be to darn sheets. Even the ones that didn’t need darning. She had just arranged her sewing basket next to her chair when Fraser, who had been slumped in his chair, gazing moodily into the fire with his hands thrust deep into his pockets, rose abruptly to his feet. Martha looked up in surprise, thinking he must be intending to go out. Perhaps to see Jack and discuss Sir Clive’s revelations. Before she could speak, however, he had come to stand over her.
“To hell with this.” He reached down and clamped his hands either side of her waist, lifting her from her seat. Sheets, darning and sewing basket tumbled across the floor in disarray. He carried her to his own chair, sitting back down and holding her in his lap. Martha was stunned into silence at the unexpectedness of his actions. He was so virile and commanding—all the things that had made her afraid of men. In reality, she knew now that what she had been afraid of was life. Yet with Fraser, she was fiercely attracted to the very masculinity that had scared her for so long. She breathed deeply to halt the quivering of her body. Her heart beat wildly when he raised his fingers and loosened the pins that held her hair, tugging it free so that it tumbled about her shoulders. One big hand gripped the back of her neck and drew her face down to his. When their lips met, she spread her palms wide over the broad muscles of his shoulders, exulting in the knowledge that his big, strong, masculine body was hers to touch as she chose.
With a low murmur of satisfaction, he deepened the kiss. His tongue stroked the inside of her mouth. She tingled with desire…every part of her actually tingled. How had she reached the age of twenty-six without knowing it was possible to feel so alive?
Martha’s skirt fanned out over Fraser’s lap, and she moved so that she could kneel with her legs positioned either side of his solid thighs, the way she had done in the priest hole. She wanted to feel even closer to him. He held her there, rubbing the thick length of his erection against her, and the intimate contact made her shudder with shock and anticipation. His tongue was seducing her. Thoughts of the wanton nature of her behaviour crowded in on her, and she welcomed them. She wanted to be all the things she had been brought up to consider wrong. She wanted to be a hoyden. She needed to be the prim English maiden who was about to take this rough Scotsman into her bed and into her body.
Martha broke the kiss, pressing her forehead to his as her breath came in quick, short, shallow pants. Fraser, in comparison, seemed relaxed and in control. How could he stay so calm when her every breath was ragged with longing and excitement, constricting her lungs so tightly that she could scarcely breathe?
“Will we go upstairs now, lass?” His voice shook slightly and she realised he was not in control at all. He was just better at hiding it than she was. She nodded, and he rose to his feet, holding her in his arms. Martha relaxed in his hold, tucking her head into his shoulder. He carried her up the stairs and into his room, only setting her down on her feet once he had closed the door behind him.
“Ye’re quite sure about this, lass? Last night was in heat. I’ll understand if ye tell me it was just once. I’ll no ask again.” His mouth was only a fraction of an inch away as he asked the question, and she rose on the tips of her toes, pressing her lips to his in answer. The kiss was soft and tender. She actually began to smile against his lips.
“Last night was in heat, Fraser…and that heat is still in me. If anything, it burns more fiercely now. ”
Fraser’s arms slid around her waist, bringing her back into the comfort of his embrace. His tongue traced the fullness of her lips before parting the seam. His lips were persuasive, his mouth firm, his tongue seductive. Moving his hands lower to cup her buttocks, he lifted her intimately against him so that she could feel again how urgently he wanted her.
The kiss instantly burgeoned into something more compelling and exploratory, bending Martha to its will. She clung to Fraser because she knew from experience that her legs would no longer hold her. Taking his time, he peeled away the layers of her clothing and carried her, naked and wanting, to his bed.
She turned on her side, watching him as he undressed. His skin was bronzed by the light of the fire, his chest sculpted to perfection, and the rest of him… Her throat constricted. He was so big. How had she taken him into her body? Even as the thought occurred to her, she reached out to touch him, desire overcoming her fear. His eyes dropped down to her hand when the tips of her fingers brushed his abdomen. Her heart twisted into a knot and seemed to lodge in her throat. Her hand paused on its downward journey, and she lay back again. Fraser joined her on the bed.
“I thought it last night. You are so small and I’m, well…” He glanced down and she followed the direction of his eyes.
“I noticed. Then and now.” Her mind went back to the night she had seen his nakedness as he lay at the foot of the cellar stairs. Even in its flaccid state, the size of his cock had imprinted itself on her memory. Now it was gloriously rampant and erect. Perhaps it was just as well she hadn’t seen him last night. If she had, she might have convinced herself that her body would not be able to accommodate anything so large.
“Don’t worry, lass. I will always make sure you are ready for me.”
She didn’t know what that meant, but she trusted him. He came to her, and Martha gasped as he parted her legs and bent his head between them. His lips brushed her intimately in a kiss as gentle as a sigh. There was nothing gentle, however, about the fiery-hot pain that stabbed at her core in response. His tongue was slow and lazy, sweeping over her in long strokes, pausing to flick her quivering bud until she was squirming wildly and clawing at the sheets, before resuming its leisurely exploration of the folds of her sex. He licked just inside her vagina, then drove his tongue deep inside her in a hard, stabbing movement. Before Martha had time to gasp out his name, he was doing it all over again. Within minutes a wild climax was crashing through Martha’s body. Her back arched off the mattress, and she cried out, clinging to Fraser’s shoulders and shaking all over.
Fraser kissed her breasts, transferring her own juices from his mouth to her flesh as he moved over her. He pushed her thighs wider with his hips as he positioned himself at her entrance. The return of his lips to hers brought her own essence to her on his breath and tongue, and she was amazed at the erotic thrill of it. He lifted her knees apart and pushed them back almost to her shoulders. Finding her open and slippery, he groaned as he shifted his hips and pressed his tip into her. She knew instinctively that he was trying to hold back, but she was so wet that he drove his whole shaft straight in. Long and hard and deep and wonderful.
She sensed him straining to go with more care than the passionate firestorm between them demanded. As her body bucked beneath him, he began thrusting in and out of her with such force that she cried out from both pleasure and exquisite torture. His cock slammed deep, and he fucked her hard so that their bodies bounced against the mattress, the springs squeaking, the headboard knocking. He picked up the pace even further, and Martha wrapped her legs around his waist, clenching her muscles in time with his thrusts to draw him as deep as she could. Whatever he could give her, she wanted more. His stubble rasped her soft flesh, his breath came in hot gasps and the muscles in his back tensed under her fingers. As he rammed himself wildly in and out of her, the exquisite friction heated her insides to the point where she felt she must be melting around him.
Fraser reached beneath her to grip her buttocks and lifted her so that he could open her further. A tormented groan escaped her. His thrusts became frantic in response, pushing them both further and harder, and she cried out incoherently, trying to tell him it was too much, but still not enough. His lips silenced her cries. He led her, drove her, guided her to ecstasy and claimed her, carrying her to that warm, delicious state in which every cell in her body sizzled and her internal muscles spasmed around him before finally relaxing in submission.
Fraser cried out with his own release, pulling out of her and dropping heavily onto her, kissing her forehead. Martha tried to speak, to catch her breath, but she couldn’t. When he had recovered his own breath, he moved his weight to her side.
“Stay here with me tonight,” he whispered, drawing her close against the comforting warmth of his body.
