Текст книги "The Raven Collection"

Автор книги: James Barclay

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Chapter 33

Jevin had confined his crew to the ship for the last three days and had paid two mages very well to travel with the Calaian Sun back to Balaia, whenever that day came. Like all elves Jevin wasn’t given to rushed action but the situation overtaking Ysundeneth was quite without precedent. For eight days he’d watched as first unease, then anxiety and finally panic had engulfed the city.

At the first signs of the plague being anything more than a localised infection, he had sent his crew out to hire the mages and to provision the ship. Water, cured meat, rice, grain, biscuit and root crops were the order, as well as apples and unripe grapefruit and lemons; anything that would keep longer than a few days.

Below deck, his cargo holds had already been converted to accommodate passengers. Conditions were cramped and public but neither Protectors nor Xeteskian mages had made any complaint. He wasn’t sure exactly how many mages Ilkar expected to make the trip. Over a hundred if he could get them, and Jevin had provisioned for that number.

But as he watched the disaster unfold in Ysundeneth and heard rumours of similar events in other cities, he wondered if Ilkar and The Raven would be back at all. It was unutterably depressing having to watch helplessly as the elves of Calaius’s largest port turned from calm private individuals into an angry mob in so short a time. Not altogether surprising, though.

The plague, and such it had to be, had gorged itself on the population, but at random. There were no patterns of contagion, just as there was no cure. It struck at eight members of a family and left a sole survivor with nothing but grief as a companion. No areas were immune, but in the middle of a street one house would be free, while in the next street it would be the opposite: one household annihilated, the rest untouched. The randomness inspired hope and hatred in equal measure but far more destructive to Ysundeneth society was the latter. Survivors in devastated areas had been persecuted as carriers of the plague, some beaten, some even killed for the crime of living.

But elsewhere those free of the disease pooled their eroding strength and demanded help from city authorities quite unable to provide it. Food had been looted and hoarded, rubbish had started to pile up in the streets. And so, latterly, had corpses. Businesses, inns and shops were closed and boarded up. Markets were empty.

Jevin, like all the skippers at the dockside, had moved to anchor offshore. It wasn’t just disease that concerned him; it was the mobs roaming the docks wanting out of the city by the quickest means possible. Already Ysundeneth was empty of every non-elf. They had been the first targets of suspicion but, being primarily merchants and seamen, they had simply hauled anchor and sailed back to Balaia, not that the Northern Continent was exactly stable. But a dozen ships had no cargo and therefore no financial means to sail.

And for elves to leave would be desperate, even futile. The plague was not contagious; it did not spread through the air or in food or water. It was something far deeper than that and it attacked elves at their core. There was no escape.

At a meeting on board the Calaian Sun, the remaining twelve skippers had agreed to monitor the situation and play the waiting game for as long as they could. Eventually, someone would have to sail north and beg for help. Jevin had said that he would go, but only when The Raven reappeared. Until then, the dozen ships would remain anchored in a defensive formation, protect themselves from attack by boat and magic and wait for the inevitable. For if one thing was certain, it was that one day, probably very soon, they themselves would begin to die.

Jevin stood with one of the mages at the port rail, gazing out at Ysundeneth on a perfect sunlit morning with the mist dispersing and the first clouds rolling across the mountains far to the south. From where he stood, the city was a tiny interloper in the mass of lush verdancy that was the rainforest. But his keen eyes could penetrate the quiet streets and see the catastrophe that had overcome it.

‘How many do you think have it now?’ he asked the mage.

Vituul was a young elf of average height, his dark blue eyes set in a classically angular face. His long black ponytail fell down the back of his light brown leather cloak. He had no family in the plague city and to be offered – with his equally poor friend, Eilaan – a good wage and a way out was a prayer answered. People were increasingly demanding that elven mages produce a miracle cure. The miracle wasn’t going to happen.

‘It’s almost impossible to say,’ he said. ‘The total is probably in the region of a third of the population, but as people start to die in large numbers so the actual number of live cases, if you’ll excuse the term, will decrease also.’

‘But there are a hundred thousand people there,’ breathed Jevin.

‘Not any more,’ said Vituul. ‘Thirty thousand are already dying.’

‘And no word on a cure,’ said Jevin.

It hit him then like it hadn’t before. He’d managed to ignore the ramifications of what was going on in front of his eyes but Vituul’s numbers scared him to the bone. If those numbers were right, in fifty days there’d be less than twelve thousand people left alive in Ysundeneth, and four thousand of them would be dying. And with that level of mortality possibly affecting the whole continent, Jevin wasn’t just witnessing a devastating plague, he was witnessing the death of the elven race. He shivered.

‘How can there be a cure?’ Vituul looked at him matter of factly.

‘No one is going to be alive long enough to do the research. And there’s no spell that can even slow its course. We don’t even have a lead yet.’

‘What can we do then?’ Jevin felt helpless. ‘There must be something. ’

Vituul smiled but there was no humour in his face. ‘Wait for it to pass.’

‘And if it doesn’t?’

‘Pray that Yniss forgives whatever sin we’ve committed, because the way it looks now, we’re all going to die, sooner rather than later.’

Jevin leant on the rail. He should be doing something. Every elf should. To his knowledge no one had survived having the plague so far, but then not many were in the final stages yet. Just one survivor could give them some hope. But what could he do? This wasn’t a question of tending the sick or supplying the herbologists with raw materials. There was no battle to be won. Not yet. Elf catches plague; elf dies.

Jevin’s own family lived deep in the rainforest and he preferred not to think about them. It kept his hopes alive.

‘So why have none of the crews gone down yet?’ asked Jevin. ‘Odd, don’t you think? Surely that’s a lead?’

‘It’s a point, I suppose. No stranger catches it. No travelling elf catches it. Yet.’

‘Surely it means something?’

‘We are still Tual’s creatures. Perhaps the curse of being away from the forest also carries a blessing. Perhaps your sin isn’t as great as ours.’

Jevin had been looking for something less theological. But this mage, at least, had no answers.

‘You see what I’m getting at?’

‘There is no biological reason why any particular elf catches the plague,’ said Vituul with a shrug. ‘It must be something else. I don’t believe you, I or any of the crew have greater immunity than the poor souls on shore.’

Jevin was considering his reply when his eye was caught by movement on the dockside. There was activity on the approach roads to the east and the odd shout echoed out across the water. The tone was of surprise, even astonishment, but not fear. People were congregating on the dock. Not a mob. Not the hundreds, even thousands, they’d seen a couple of days ago, but a slowly growing crowd.

It continued to grow over the course of most of the morning. Jevin thought at first that it was city folk gathering for a demonstration, but every time he looked up from his duties there were more of them. Just standing there like they were waiting for a ship to dock. Then Jevin realised what he was looking at. These weren’t Ysundeneth elves; the city folk’s clothes were so much brighter than the greens and browns he could see.

Around midday he rejoined Vituul, who had barely left the rail all morning. Despite his life taking him from the land of his birth and his Gods, Jevin prided himself on having enough of the Calaian elf in him still to understand his people. But not this. Left and right, the rails of other ships were crowded with crew and it seemed a quiet had descended across the city and the sea.

‘They are who I think they are, aren’t they?’ he asked.

Vituul nodded. ‘TaiGethen,’ he said, pointing vaguely, but his voice was edged with excitement. ‘Al-Arynaar. And ClawBound. I see the panthers. I see them.’

It was something most elves had never expected to see in the forest, let alone on the dockside at Ysundeneth.

‘What are they doing?’ Jevin implored anyone who might hear and answer him.

These people never, but never, came out of the rainforest. Never stepped on the worked stone of the streets. They thought them evil. Necessary but evil. A sin Yniss allowed because civilisation had to flourish. To them a city was an alien landscape. An imbalance in the harmony of the forest, its air, magic and denizens. Yet here they were, gathered and waiting, and quite suddenly, the disaster that faced the elves became so much more real.

‘What do they want?’ This time the question was directed at Vituul alone.

‘Whatever it is, it isn’t good.’

‘We should launch a boat,’ said Jevin. ‘Ask them.’

But answers came far more quickly than that. Up in the crow’s-nest, the lookout shouted and pointed east. Two dots were flying in from the forest, low and erratic. They swept over the docks, stopped momentarily and spiralled into the sky again, before moving out to sea and the ships moored there.

Jevin followed them, half knowing who it was, seeing them change direction twice before heading straight for the Calaian Sun. One of them dipped very low, called out, rose and then fell into the water a hundred yards from the ship. The other didn’t pause but flew over the deck, landed and collapsed in a flurry of limbs. When Jevin reached him, Ilkar had managed to turn onto his back and was gasping in air.

‘Ilkar?’

‘Jevin,’ Ilkar gasped. ‘Better . . . better get a boat over the side. Don’t think Denser can float for too long.’

The order was given. ‘Where have you come from?’

‘Shorth Estuary. Flew all night.’ He struggled to a sitting position. ‘Explanations later.’

He stopped to gasp in more air. His hair was plastered to his skull and his face was drawn and exhausted.

‘Xeteskians have desecrated Aryndeneth. They’ve destroyed the harmony. But we can stop them. Tell all the ships. They’ve got to take the elves to Balaia. A stranger is holding part of Yniss’s statue. And we’ve got to get it back before the plague takes us all.’

‘And me?’

‘You’re coming with us. Got some friends to pick up at the Shorth.’

Jevin nodded. Answers were before him and his desire to help was satisfied.

‘Bosun!’ he called. ‘Signal the ships. I need to see the skippers and it has to be now.’ Turning back to Ilkar, he grasped the elf’s shoulder. ‘Let’s get your wet colleague on board safely, then you can both tell me over a goblet of wine just exactly what is going on.’

The trio of Xeteskian vessels was under full sail, moving well across a swell of six to eight feet. The wind was strong and constant beneath thin rolling cloud and the acres of canvas billowed dirty grey.

Captain Yron sat beneath the mainmast of the lead vessel on some netted crates, turning the fragment of the statue’s thumb over and over. No one had dared come near him all morning. He must have looked a frightening sight with his hands and face covered in balms and bandages, but it wasn’t that which kept them away.

Throughout the night he had prowled the deck, unable to sleep despite his fatigue. Healing spells had been cast on him as he moved and the bandages were only there because Erys had made him stop for long enough. After the eighth or tenth man had congratulated him on the success of the mission he had exploded with vehemence enough to wake the slumbering on all three half-empty ships. It needed saying. As if any bounty could justify this loss, let alone the pathetic collection of parchments and texts Erys had brought out.

One hundred and fifty men had journeyed into the Calaian rainforest, wreathed in mirror illusions of enormous complexity to obscure their progress from TaiGethen and ClawBound. And until they had reached the forward camp, it had worked. Now only two of those one hundred and fifty were alive to tell the tale and a further forty had perished in the defence of the estuary.

Success? He had failed. Xetesk could go hang. The Circle Seven would greet his return with broad smiles and grasping hands. He had no doubt Erys’s assessment of the importance of the documents he had retrieved was accurate.

No. It was Ben-Foran. Ben, who had trusted him so completely and believed in him utterly. And Ben who lay dead because right at the last, he, Yron, had believed they were safe and had failed to take into account how fast a panther could run.

Yron had never had a son, a family. He had never married. He was the classic soldier, too engrossed in his career to realise the swift passage of years. But in Ben he had seen a way to release the regret and frustration he felt. To take the boy and make him the man Yron knew he could be. To give himself something of which he could be truly proud.

But he had failed. And the boy who could have rivalled the Lysternan, Darrick, as Balaia’s most talented soldier . . . all that potential would remain tragically unfulfilled. The only thing that could possibly give meaning to his death was the stolen writings. Otherwise it would all have been a waste. And Yron hated waste.

The netting shifted to his right and he looked across. Erys had sat down next to him. He sat in silence, the only companion Yron would tolerate, the only one who could possibly understand. And he waited for Yron to speak, if he wished. After a time that was exactly what Yron wished.

‘It’s not over, Erys. Not by a long way.’

‘The guilt will pass,’ said Erys.

Yron shook his head. ‘That’s not what I meant and no, I don’t think it will. Not completely.’

‘Oh.’ Erys was silent for a moment. ‘Don’t worry about The Raven, Captain,’ he said, getting it at the second attempt. ‘We’ll be safe inside Xetesk before they’ve even set sail. Where’s their ship? Ysundeneth at best.’

‘How old are you, Erys?’

‘Twenty-five, sir.’

Yron chuckled. ‘Thought so. Still at the young-and-talking-bollocks-at-every-turn stage, then.’

‘Eh?’

‘Don’t look hurt, boy; we’ve all been through it.’ Yron turned to face the young mage. ‘Thing is, when The Raven got going you were only ten. I know you’ll have heard a few stories but, locked away in the college like you were, you missed the reality.’

‘So explain it to me then, Captain.’

Yron paused and looked at the mage to make sure he wasn’t being made fun of.

‘First thing you should have asked yourself is, why in God’s name are they here? And, more unbelievable, why did they show up at the Shorth Estuary fighting for the elves? I mean, you’re sitting there saying, “Oh look, it’s The Raven but we’ve escaped them”. You’ve got to think harder than that.’

‘I’ll concede it was a big coincidence, but the point remains that we got away, so it doesn’t matter.’

‘And that’s what I mean by missing the reality. It always matters what The Raven are doing. Everywhere they’ve gone and everything they’ve done in the last decade has changed things. Not always world-shaping but significant. Always significant. And they aren’t used to failing.’

‘Didn’t stop the Nightchild dying though, did they?’ Erys was still plainly sceptical.

‘Yes, but she died; she wasn’t killed by Dordovans. There’s a difference.’

Erys shrugged. ‘If you say so, Captain.’

‘You’re young, Erys. And you think old warriors like The Raven can’t hurt you. But you’re wrong. Ask the people who faced them yesterday. They are awesome. And they aren’t on our side. Mark my words, boy, it will worry the Circle Seven. When you report to Dystran, he will want to know what they were doing on Calaius. Because they sure as hell weren’t taking a holiday. You got an answer to that?’

Erys shook his head. ‘None of us have. But then none of us should lose sleep over it either. I’m not going to be barring my bedroom window.’

Yron sighed and pushed himself off the crates, feeling a growing sense of irritation. He’d thought more of Erys but he was just as blind as the rest.

‘So leave your window open. But I for one am worried because Denser knows me and The Raven are after us. And I want to know why he said what he said. And before you smirk, think on this. The Raven don’t fight for money any more; they don’t need to. They fight only when they believe they have to. And they never give up until they’ve completed their task. Never. It tells me that what we’ve started is bigger than Dystran would have us believe. If I’m going to be a target, I want to find out why and I strongly advise you to do the same.’

‘You’re scared of them, aren’t you?’ said Erys, apparently surprised by his own statement.

‘Bloody right I am. But I’m also worried about the elves. We don’t know why The Raven went to Calaius but they’ve ended up allies with the elves. Think about it, Erys. The Circle Seven will. Don’t make yourself look a fool in front of them. Not after what you’ve achieved here.’

Erys nodded but said nothing, his expression thoughtful. Yron walked away towards the bow of the ship, his anxiety growing now he had given it voice. He looked over the rail down into the frothing bow wave. Thirty yards off the beam, dolphins tracked their progress, sleek bodies sliding effortlessly through the waves.

He understood Erys’s scepticism. The Raven were after all only a tiny band. But, as had been remarked upon countless times and even noted by students of warfare, The Raven alone or as part of something larger made things happen the way they wanted them to. Erys hadn’t seen them in action but Yron had. And he knew what would happen if he ever faced them, sword in hand. He’d die.

Chapter 34

By the time The Raven left the Shorth Estuary and put to sea they were three full days behind the Xeteskians. The Calaian Sun would make up some of that time but, with the best will in the world, they would reach Balaia at least a day and a half adrift.

However, the enforced inactivity was not without its benefits and The Raven had time to rest, heal, train and talk. But any thoughts that the elves travelling with them would thaw in their attitude were consigned quickly to the desert of dreams.

True, they sparred with the Al-Arynaar on deck, but their opponents were reluctant and there only because Rebraal had told them to be. But the six ClawBound pairs and ten TaiGethen cells who had come tentatively aboard with the thirty-eight fully fit Al-Arynaar were not so much aloof as invisible. They exercised at night, ate in their bunks and refused The Raven’s offers of discussions on tactics. Hirad was minded to let them stew and was insulted at their lack of gratitude. The Unknown, however, was more circumspect and ensured Rebraal was present early one morning when The Raven spoke about the days to come, knowing he would report back.

‘We’ve got to do this right,’ said The Unknown. ‘From mooring to travelling, to negotiating, to—’

‘Negotiating?’ said Hirad, as if he’d just popped rotten fruit in his mouth.

‘Yes, Hirad, negotiating,’ repeated The Unknown. ‘You may be happy taking on the considerable might of Xetesk but I’m certainly not.’

The Raven and Rebraal were in the Captain’s room, sitting round a table covered with plates and goblets. A steaming jug of herb tea rested against the raised lip by Denser’s right hand. Aeb was in a room forward, bathing his face and talking to his brothers in the Soul Tank.

‘So, your plan is for us to walk up to the gates of Xetesk and ask for the thumb back.’

‘In a nutshell, yes,’ said The Unknown. ‘You have an alternative?’

‘Not necessarily, Unknown,’ said Hirad, ‘but I think you’re being misty-eyed about Xetesk’s motives for wanting all the stuff they stole. It’s hardly going to be so they can enhance their relations with the elven nation, is it? They are at war and they want all the advantages they can get.’

‘I understand that but I can’t believe they knew what they’d be unleashing by taking the thumb. Surely they’ll just hand it straight back. Even if they do want to dominate Balaia, there’s no reason to exterminate the elven race.’

‘But look what they did to get it,’ said Ilkar. ‘We have to ask the question, could they have known? And so was the theft deliberate?’

They all looked at Rebraal. Ilkar repeated the question in elvish and waited for the reply, his brother not yet confident enough to always express his thoughts in Balaian.

‘He says it was impossible for a stranger to know the effects of desecrating the statue. Most elves don’t, and that includes me. But then he’d also have said the same about the location of the temple. He and all the servants of Yniss think it a deliberate act designed to harm the elven race; they are just finding it hard to believe anyone would do such a thing to them.’

‘We gathered that,’ said Darrick. ‘But that means Xetesk actually intends to destroy the elven nation, or at least deal it a catastrophic blow. I’m not sure I believe that.’

‘I’d like not to,’ said Denser. ‘I really would. And Xetesk may not have known the effect the theft of the statue fragment would have. But I’m afraid that things are rather falling into place.’ His voice was leaden and low. Hirad stared at him, feeling for his sense of betrayal.

‘Would you care to expand on that?’ asked Ilkar quietly.

‘Whatever Xetesk wants to learn from the writings and the artefact won’t be for anyone’s benefit other than Xetesk. They’ll be looking to gain an advantage over the elves, some knowledge of their inherent magical ability and make-up. Something like that.

‘They’re on Herendeneth too. I know we had to bring them there to have any chance of learning enough to release the Protectors and repatriate the Kaan but they have shown their true colours now. What we wanted was a by-product. What they want is access to their dimensional magic again. Don’t forget, Dystran is a specialist in inter-dimensional theory.

‘And, if all we hear is true, then Xetesk do want to rule magic on Balaia. Let’s face it, they haven’t offered any help to Julatsa, have they?’

Denser stopped for a moment, his frown deepening and his shoulders slumping even more.

‘What I’m trying to say is that although they might not know what they’ve caused by their theft, I don’t think Dystran will stand in the way of a plague wiping out the elves, should he discover that’s what the theft has caused. After all, no elves, no Julatsa.’

Hirad saw Ilkar’s jaw drop as he took it all in.

‘And dimensional magics will make them almost unstoppable,’ said Erienne.

‘Particularly if they continue to neglect to free the Protectors,’ added The Unknown.

‘Still want to get the thumb by asking for it?’ asked Hirad.

The Unknown shook his head. ‘I really hadn’t seen all these possibilities. Even if Denser’s wrong, we can’t afford to take the risk. No, this changes everything.’

‘You really think Xetesk would willingly preside over racial genocide? ’ asked Ilkar.

‘Not Xetesk,’ said Denser. ‘Dystran. He’s thirsty for power and wants to see Xetesk the dominant magical force, perhaps even the only magical force, no matter what he says to the contrary. And he won’t even have to see or acknowledge the destruction his actions have caused. All he has to do is not listen to the truth. Something he finds very easy, believe me.’

The door to the Captain’s room opened and Aeb walked in. Behind his mask his eyes sought Denser and The Unknown. He walked round the table to sit between them. Denser poured him a mug of tea.

‘Thank you.’ He sipped.

‘What’s up?’ asked Hirad, seeing the tension in the Protector’s shoulders.

‘I am uneasy,’ admitted Aeb. ‘I need guidance.’

He looked square at Denser, who nodded. ‘I understand you may have conflict in the Soul Tank. But remember you have done nothing bar protect me as you are directed and The Unknown Warrior as you desire. And while I remain your Given I will ensure you have all the latitude available to you.’

‘I am humbled,’ said Aeb.

‘Don’t be,’ said Denser. ‘We understand you, The Raven that is. We know something of the bond you share and the pain that you suffer every day.’

Aeb inclined his head and took another sip.

‘My brothers know I travel with you. Soon they will know we fought Xeteskian forces on Calaius. They will not reveal what they don’t have to, but at any time a mage might ask the question of my part in The Raven’s actions.’

‘Your unease is clear,’ said Denser. ‘We will have to keep you from direct conflict with Xeteskian forces on Balaia. But remember they cannot invoke punishment through the DemonChain unless the Act of Giving is rescinded from me. You are safe at the moment. We’ll talk later.’

‘All right,’ said The Unknown. ‘The central point to it all is this. We cannot risk Dystran finding out just how important the thumb is to the elves because if he is intent on damaging them, he’ll simply keep it. Rebraal, you’ve got to impress that on your people. If they must fight, let it be for the writings. That means we have to get the piece back by some other means, the best bet being to capture this Yron that Denser recognised and hope he has the information that can help us.

‘Bear in mind that once Yron reaches Balaia, or maybe before, he will be able to tell Xetesk that we are involved in some way and that will make us targets. Aeb is right to be concerned for himself and we will all have to tread very carefully. I suggest that we land near Blackthorne because at least we’ll get a friendly reception there. I’d expect to know by then where Yron made landfall, although I believe we can assume he is heading for Xetesk via Arlen.

‘The TaiGethen will help us by their actions whether they want to or not. Again, remember we’re all on the same side here. Hirad, that means don’t antagonise them, whatever the provocation. Anyone with any ideas, we’ll talk again at dinner. We know what we’re after, we know what the man we want to catch looks like and we know where he’s going. That at least is good news. I—Erienne, are you all right?’

Hirad looked to Erienne, as did they all, and it was clear that she wasn’t. Her face was sheet-white and she was rocking in her seat. Denser hastened to her side.

‘What is it, love?’ he said, as she half collapsed into his arms.

‘I feel awful,’ she mumbled.

‘Your head?’

She nodded. ‘Sorry to spoil the meeting.’

‘Don’t think about it,’ said The Unknown. ‘Denser, you know what to do.’ The Xeteskian nodded and helped Erienne from the room. ‘Look, I think we’ve done all we can here. Hirad, can you contact Sha-Kaan? I’m anxious for news. My family could become hostages in all this and I want to know if the Al-Drechar are still strong enough. Darrick, I want to ask you a few questions. Ren, Thraun, Aeb, hang on here. When we’re done we need to go out on deck and work on our moves to get Ren into the line to fight. All right?’

Hirad nodded and stood up, catching Thraun’s eye. He smiled. ‘How much of that did you get, I wonder?’ he asked.

‘All,’ said Thraun. ‘Erienne has too much pain.’

It was a comment that took Hirad by surprise. ‘What do you mean?’

‘She must open to those she hates. It is hard.’

Hirad frowned. ‘I don’t—’

‘It’s to do with the One,’ explained The Unknown. ‘I think she’s going to have to let the Al-Drechar help her now, and so does our quiet but very perceptive shapechanger.’

Thraun growled in his throat at the term, his eyes flashing brief anger. There was much of the wolf still left inside him.

‘Sorry, Thraun, but it’s what you are,’ said The Unknown. ‘I meant no offence.’

Thraun shook his head. ‘I am Raven.’

‘You got that right,’ said Hirad.

It was the most Thraun had said at any one time, and as Hirad left the Captain’s room to go to his cabin he felt hope that the lost man wasn’t too far from home.

Erienne lay down on the small cot with her head pounding like never before. It had come on so suddenly, though she’d been feeling rather elsewhere all day. She’d found it hard to concentrate, almost as if she’d drunk too much and was viewing events from a distance. And when, quite without warning, the pain had hit her like repeated and heavy blows to the back of her head, she’d struggled to remain conscious, too confused even to ask for help.

‘This can’t go on, love,’ said Denser gently, his face near hers, hand stroking her thudding head, a cloth held to her nose, which had begun to bleed.

‘But what if it’s them causing the pain to make me need them?’ she asked, fighting to think straight and glad of the gloom in the curtained cabin. She had her eyes closed and had managed to relax sufficiently to stop feeling nauseous.

‘How else will you find out?’ asked Denser. ‘But you can’t live with this pain. It was bad enough before.’

‘I know,’ said Erienne. ‘But—’

‘It’s not like admitting defeat,’ said Denser. ‘Don’t you think you’ve made your point?’

Erienne sighed. She knew he was right. But she hadn’t won; rather just not lost by not acknowledging what she carried for so long. She’d repressed it so easily when all she could think of was her grief over Lyanna. But now that had eased slightly, now her mind was more open and her mood that bit more positive, it was as if the One was trying to assert itself.

‘Will you stay with me? Help me?’ she asked, opening her eyes and clutching his arm.

‘Where else would I be but by your side?’

She felt a rush of love that swamped the pain for a moment. ‘All right. If you think I should.’

‘I do,’ he said, still stroking her hair. ‘But you must think so too.’

She nodded. It had to be now. The pain smashed around her head and she knew there was only one source of help. She closed her eyes again and spoke to them with her mind, hoping it would be enough.