Текст книги "Rough Trade "

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I Am Not David

Dan Boyle

I loosen my tank top so it’s not tucked in too tight. I walk toward the back bar.

Marcus is flirting with the bartender. His eyes dart often to the bar back farther back bar back like me once skinny but pumping up. Bill sees me. Raises his beer to acknowledge me. Part of the jocks again. Walk up to them. Confident.

“Hey Dave!” bill looking good lost weight confident so outgoing wish i could be what is he never can understand funny but cant type him while i’m typical bottom “You here alone? Come on! I’ll buy you a beer. Me and Marcus were just telling Bob back here about that whole scene with Vince. You think I did the right thing, going up to him? It’s just it was so obvious that he was trying to psych us out.”

Marcus turns.

“But you know, man, that’s what you got to do. It’s part of the game psyching out the other team. And you do what’s you got to do to win the game. I got no grudgin’ against Vince. He do what he got to do.”

Marcus talks seriously like and then his expression changes so quickly and his cheeks turn rosy and rise as he lets out a big laugh and slaps me in jest, then holds onto my shoulder, his hand squeezing it.

“But you, Bill. Such the diplomat! But whatever. It seemed to work. That’s all I know.”

I laugh. A small laugh wish i could laugh like marcus such a big laugh full of life they think i’m dull want to be bigger than life like marcus and bill

Marcus’s laugh wears down and he looks at me with his rosy smile and penetrating dark brown eyes, then scans down at my bare shoulders, his hand squeezing my muscle.

“Mmm, boy, David, you’ve been working out. I remember you when you was just a little guy. Remember, Bill?”

called me david i’m dave not a faggot like richards and michaels and davids always use their full names i’m a jock

“Mmmm.” Bill lifts his mouth from the foam, picks up the other plastic cup full of beer, and hands it to me. “Yeah, I remember. Ah, to be young again and be able to bulk up so quickly without getting fat.”

“Uh, Marcus, why’d you call me David? I’m not a David.”

sounds so stupid what i said like i have a complex they think me immature marcus widening his eyes in dismay but i’m not david

“I’m sorry…Dave.” He rolls his eyes back and drinks his drink.

“It’s just, my mom and dad call me that, and I never really liked it.”

Marcus rolls his eyes back at me with such intensity.

“Such a sensitive boy we got here? Bill, were you so sensitive when you was young?”

“I’m twenty-eight already. I’m not that young.” thinking me a boy i’m a guy a jock but a pussyboy but they think i’m a boy but should think i’m a man fucking boys myself they think theyre men and i’m not but i’ll show them on the field actions speak louder than words and my actions is i lie down and have a real man get on top and stick his cock deep in me

“I was never sensitive. Life’s too short to take seriously. So I’m just all for having fun. Sensitivity just gets in the way of all that.”

Marcus purses his lips like he always does, his rosy cheeks rising again as he stares at me.

“So, you been hanging out with Jerry a lot? I sees you dressing like him on the field, all sexy like. Looked good. Pretty soon you’ll be on the cover of Muscle and Fitness, as long as the straight boys don’t damage you on the field.”

I smile my little smile i’m sure i’m turning red so i drink my beer and turn my head to see who’s here and see that bill is already doing the same and i look away from marcus and over toward the pool table and tall dark and handsome looking my way! In a black tank, that dark black chest hair exposed on the top. Those eyes! Staring me down, undressing me. Pushing me down to suck his cock till I gag!

“I think that guy over there likes you, Dave.”

bills voice reassuring oh could it be the top man i dreamed of but oh so sore still

“Who? That guy?” I look away from him, turning my eyes to Bill. He looks at me with a smile.

“Yeah, that big guy. Hey, he’s sexy.”

fuck me like a pussyboy his slave boy such a man sees me as the bottom that i am i’m going to fuck you and then we’re going to shave your whole body and then i’m going to pierce your navel and give you a ring branding you as my slave and then i will pick out a special tattoo that shows the world you’re a pussyboy and then you’ll stay up all night with your mouth wrapped around my huge dick and when i wake up i’ll turn you over and fuck you until youre nothing more than one big pussy nellie queen

“No. I don’t think he’s really my type.” throw them off the trail

“Let me see.” Marcus slides between us with his glistening black skin and takes a sip through his straw as if being nonchalant. “My oh my, he be too much for you to handle. Mmm-hmm. Where do you find creatures like that?”

“You think he’s sexy?” asking lets me rethink if he’s my type then they don’t think i see him as top man to fuck me over and over and mom now you be safe down there okay there’s a lot of crazy people in l.a.

“Sexy? Child, if I got him back to my nest we’d be sweatin’ crazy.”

“He’s real sexy,” Bill affirms with a sly lowering of his brows. “Not the cute type of sexy but the real man type of sexy. But he’s a bit older than you. Looks like his mid-thirties. You like that?”

“Oh, I don’t really have a type” but a dirty sexy top man wanting to fuck me all night i like that type. Shoot! He’s walking down the stairs toward the door!

“Oh well. The night is young!” Bill smiles at me reassuringly. He heaves a breath and looks over at Marcus. “When you thinking about moving on to Axis?”

“I’m ready. There’s no good pieces here. You wanna come, Dave?”

not givin up yet that real man might still be here fuck if he left but want to look longer just in case

“I might meet you guys there in a little while. I thought I’d just check it out here a while longer.”

“Man, there’s nothin’ here ’xcept Bob the bartender and the cute little bar back, and they’re off-limits.”

Bill swallows the rest of his beer and gives me a hug and then Marcus gives me a hug and they leave and I’m left here alone with my beer and i start looking toward the back bathroom thinking maybe he just went back there or maybe he left seeing me with marcus and bill and he sees them leave without me and he decides then to come back in knowing now i’m alone and he looks me over with his dark eyes and says he wants to fuck me all night long and not the type that mom and dad has hoped for and dad now theres that angie a pretty gal and dutch reformed as well she seems to really have taken a liking to you and i could be just like my brother with a pretty housewife and two sons and a ranch and respect from his community just like dad and mom but they were the football stars learned from god family and team and dad didnt care i made second team all league shortstop because baseballs a sissy sport anyway but i am a sissy and where is that real top man who wants to fuck me all night long

“Hey.”

Someone talking to me. I turn around. The man! Looking at me with undressing eyes. Short black hair and stubble. Kirk Douglas chin. A real man how i’m shaking the beer laps over the cup and spills on my knuckles he thinks i’m a sissy i am a sissy

“Hi!” I look away. Drink my beer. Shaking. Knowing his eyes still on me.

“I see your two friends left. You not going with them?”

I look up but scared look down drink my beer just what i thought psychic magic

“I might join them later. I actually just bumped into them here.” oh god he knows i’m alone looking for some dick a dick like his want to look down probably big and throbbing out of his jeans ready to open up and jam it into my throat

“So you just came out by yourself. Me, too.”

He’s forcing me to look at him but i will be lost up into those eyes he’ll know what i want i’ll succumb become his total bottom pussyboy

I look up. I’m melting into his eyes. He smiles on one side. Ohhh. Then he takes a step up. I look down. It’s bulging. He looks down. It’s bulging. He puts his hand on my shoulder.

“Looks like you do some serious weight training.”

He squeezes. I shake as I drink my beer gulp it down

“Yeah, a bit.”

“A real muscle boy, ay?” His smile so sly moving so fast like a real man knowing what he wants what i want knowing i’m a gym queen

“Well, you see, I play football and so I need to work out.” show him i’m a man myself but why he wants a fucking queen or does he want a man to fuck and turn into his pussyboy showing he can transform me he is the master

“Football, ay? I guess I didn’t expect that.”

oh he thinks I’m a pussyboy!

“Yeah, those were my friends from my team. Marcus and Bill. We start playing in a league next Saturday. A straight league. We just had our last practice.” gossiping like a little girl trying to make him realize i’m a real man oh that smile he’s checking me all out so sinister like

“So…” he steps closer, “what position do you play? Are you a receiver?”

Receiver?

“You mean on the team?” of course he means on the team setting up a fall ooh my ass hurts he’s going to fuck me i’m the receiver oh he caught my panic moving closer looking down at me that dirty sly smile

“I expect you’re a receiver.”

throw him off “Well, we all play receivers, except for the quarterback and running back, that is. It’s mostly a passing game. Only one rusher is allowed.”

His chest touches mine. Feel his breath.

“I think I’d like to be the rusher. I’d run right into you.”

He laughs. Kind of like a moan. Rubbing against more of my chest such a man wants to fuck me knows i’m his pussyboy a receiver receive his big hard cock should touch him respond but he’s so forward i’m just a whore tramp here goes. I reach my hand out and brush the hairs of his chest.

“I’d have to block you then, to protect me and my team.” what a stupid response.

He backs off. Looks at me. Still playing with me.

“What, you don’t want me in? I thought you would.”

i do i want you in me fucking me hard deep inside my pussy i freak what should i say. I look around the bar. I take a step toward him. I hit against his chest with mine, slamming, macho like. I’m a man.

“My name’s Dave.” dave not david

He chest butts me back.

“Mike. You wanna go? I’m just up the street.”

i’m getting fucked two nights in a row like a real pussyboy my sore ass just foreplay and cumming nothing more. I look around the bar again dont want to be a sight. I swallow the rest of my beer still looking away from him then put the cup down on the counter give him a look and walk out. He follows right behind me shadow dancing on my ass possessing it soon to fuck it making me his complete pussyboy i’d like to smile like a sissy girl and sway my shoulders showing all the world i’ve got a man a real top man who spreads my legs and rams into me all night long

we walk down to my car in the park and we get in and i drive and he’s staring me down all the way to his apartment up the street and he’s looking down at my crotch and seeing the throbbing hard-on i have and embarrassed to show it to him thinking i want to be fucked by him so bad and he’s pointed out he’s the top hasnt he and mom now you be safe down there okay there’s a lot of crazy people down there and dad never a word ever spoken of sex as though it didnt exist for he and mom as though they tried it only twice to conceive brian and i only family at some point you will be your own man of the house and dad that angie would make a fine housewife but you should not even think of marriage until you know you love her so now youre at college make sure you know what you want but always remember god family and team and mike what would he think if he knew i’m from an aggie family rural farmers me the only one to excel in college move to l.a. find some excitement in life exploration but only an insurance agent only creativity is choosing between .68 and .69 to the thousand always choose 69 cuz i suck cock all night long he sees that want to look down but driving must be throbbing he wants to put it in me so bad i want it so bad such a real man like dad and brian and i’m such a sissy boy would he like me more if i wore earrings and spandex or turnoff that i’m such a queen better to be a queen in mans clothing

“So…” His hand slides down on my crotch. Zing! Electricity sparkles up my spine. “What do you like?”

the question i like to get fucked all night long and become your total pussyboy. Instead i just hunch my shoulders, looking kind of uninterested.

“You mean?” I look down at his crotch and up to him of course thats what he means. He smiles at me and nods. “Well, I’m pretty much into anything, I guess.”

He strokes me harder.

“Turn in right there, just past the sign. The real question is, what do you like best?”

i turn the steering wheel hard to concentrate on the maneuver his question i love getting fucked like a nellie queen what do i say wait till i park

I park, put on the brake, and stop the car. I turn and look at him his greedy eyes waiting for the right answer

“Well, guys always want me to fuck them, it seems.”

He gets out of the car and I grab my keys and get out of the car and he walks over to the stairwell. I follow a few steps back watching his beautiful ass tight in those jeans. He can be nothing but a top such a man laughing at my answer thinking i want what all the guys want from me knowing i’m a bottom because i didnt just come right out and say i like to be on top if you don’t say that right away it means you want to be fucked like everyone in l.a. wants to be fuck nellie queens we all are nothing more than pussyboys and the real men get the pick of the crop better to be a pussyboy cuz then don’t have to worry about getting involved with queens

We walk up the stairwell.

“I’m on the third floor.”

He tramps up the steps, his boots thudding strongly manly taking me into his lair in total control i’m nothing more than a fuck to him a boy who cant live without a cock like his

He opens his door. I follow him in. As soon as I’m in, he closes it right away, locks it, grabs my shoulder, pulls me into him, and begins frenching me i close my eyes feeling his powerful tongue the strength of his hands on mine i’m melting completely in his control in this total top mans control he knows what i want

He lets go of me and looks again at me with that sly smile

“You never answered my question. So you like it that everyone always wants to get fucked by you?”

i can’t lie to him i’m shaking cant stop shaking i’m his pussyboy he knows it i’m his girlfriend i long to spread my legs have him come inside me his dick his so huge he knows he’s in complete control

“It’s okay, but…you know, sometimes…going the other way…is a…nice…change.”

He moves in on me again, his smile rising

“Well, Dave my boy, get ready for a nice change.”

yes he’s going to fuck me! two nights in a row turning me into a complete pussyboy! He grabs my shirt and pulls it off. and then he will push me down to cock level unbutton his jeans and pull out his cock forcing it deep into my throat making me choke choke on that you sissy queen think of how good its going to be deep up your pussy i’ll fuck you all night long i’ll fuck you so hard that you’ll beg for more my cock is going to become a permanent fixture in your sweet hole i’m going to make you my complete pussyboy you’ll do whatever i say you’re nothing but a pussy to me and i’m going to ram my cock until you realize you have no manliness in you whatsoever just one nellie bottom gym queen circuit pussyboy

He unbuttons his jeans, slides his briefs down, and pulls out a wide, hard stick of a cock. His forefinger at the bottom of the shaft, he flicks it up, beckoning me.

“Come on. Taste it.”

I shake looking down at it then looking up at it he’s got this look of impatient desire waiting for me to go down i cant show i want that i remain standing up looking down at it touch it with my two fingers

“Get down on it.”

He forces me down oh yes forcing me down forcing me to suck it to gag on it making me drop to my knees

“You want it. You know it.”

he knows me knows my desire to suck his cock then be fucked by his cock i can’t hide who i am to this real top man. I look up at him.

“It just seems…” I look up to him melting shaking “well, it just seems fast.”

He forces my head down and sticks his cock out further, ramming it against my cheek.

“Suck it!”

I’m shaking. I part my lips, open my mouth, give him the opportunity. He rams it in.

oh his sweet man cock i cant seem too excited about it no relishing the back and forth slide so he can see i’m really a man usually a top my tongue touches the tip of his cock he pushes in further i have no control he is stronger i lap around the whole shaft like a real girl a pussyboy oh it is so wonderful to taste a man’s cock i am completely his he is so strong so masculine and i’m his nellie bottom he’s driving it in deeper ah the feel in the back of my throat

“ehhhhmmm.” oh too deep cant handle it.

“Yeah, you like to gag on it, don’tcha?”

I look up to his eyes he seems so sinister so masculine so manly i’m shaking i move my head back away from the gag how can i like gagging only queens like to gag i’m a man i’m a jock like my father like my brother the city has made a whoose out of me must get back to who i really a dutch reformed christian aggie farmer son of a vietnam vet former boyfriend of now mrs angela oliphant and how is she doing now what would she think with a mans cock in my mouth she with one child and pregnant with another found the uop aggie man that she wanted does she ever think of me how did she find out that trip i made to san francisco to be told by your own girlfriend that youre gay and her parents knowing my parents i pleaded with her never to say anything even though i never admitted it to her even now what would she think if she saw me now david you have changed so much youre so buff now and the clothes you wear and your voice oh how could anyone not figure out youre gay but no one can i am too much a man except now with this cock down me oh he’s sliding it further again i want it down my throat move my face forward against feeling his balls cupped against my chin i am such a queen of course everyone can see how gay i am i’m just a west hollywood queen though i live in hollywood i should move to west hollywood so everyone knows about me knows i’m a big girlfriend

“Oooh, yeah! Suck that cock!” he speaks so deep, so manly. “Suck it knowing how good it’s going to feel deep in your ass.”

He’s going to fuck me! but cant too sore two nights in a row will make me a real pussyboy and i’m not i cant allow that i must have some control over who i am cant submit and lead us not into temptation and i, leading angie out of the chapel i don’t think temptation is all that bad it’s actually all i’ve got and angie perhaps if you use a condom and i start on the pill but oh if mom and dad knew i was taking the pill perhaps just a condom and i i don’t know how good i’ll feel with a condom and she what can you compare it to youre as much a virgin as i and i feeling less the man being a virgin as her as though i should lose my virginity before her but in the end neither of us would lose our virginity to each other cant count the time that we tried and i couldnt stay hard her skin so soft no strength no muscle farmgirl body and i once the farmboy body but no more now a supple muscle boy with a mans cock in my mouth he drives it deep in my throat again i gag again but this time i like it my throat opens up and takes it oh yes he’s such a man and i’m his girlfriend look up to him with my adoring eyes his eyes closed his teeth clenched loves to drive his cock into my throat such a man

He backs out and looks down at me.

“Get up.”

I do his will looking into his eyes. He looks down and unbuttons my Levi’s. His hand fumbles into my Calvins. He strokes my dick hard. I sigh like a girl.

“Dave, I’m going to fuck you so hard. Get on my bed.”

He pulls down my jeans, then throws me toward his bedroom. I’m shaking again i’m going to get fucked but i can still back away from this two nights in a row what would dad think to know i’m a pussyboy let alone that i’m gay always knowing i wasnt a man

I walk into the bedroom. I turn around, facing him. He throws me down. My back falls on the mattress. get ready now because i’m going to drive my cock deep into your pussy

“Dave, are you ready for a real man to fuck you? Not all those L.A. queens who always want to get fucked by you, but a real man who’s going to drive it deep into your pussy.”

he said what i wanted him to say! yes a real man! and when i’m done with you you’ll never want to fuck another guy again youll just be a total bottom that needs a cock in your pussy every second of the day

He pulls down my Calvins, then opens the drawer of a chest to the side of the bed, pulling out a condom and some lube.

“Mike, you got to be careful. I…never…really have that done to me very often.”

He smiles sinister like what you say will have any effect on what i want to do with you youre just a pussy whore like all the other pussies in west hollywood he puts on the condom, then begins lubing it up then squirts another batch of lube onto his fingers. He walks to the end of the bed. And then oh yes he is he spreads my legs apart and places his knees between them.

“Don’t you worry, little boy. I’ll be gentle at first and then I’ll be hard, and then in the end you’ll never have to fuck another L.A. queen again because all you’ll be able to think about is how good my cock feels in your pussy.”

oh yes he is such a man and i’m in his total control but i’m shaking i can’t do this it will change me cant be the pussyboy i want to be i’m a man a jock the son of a vietnam vet the son of a dutch reformed christian farmer and dad there will be times in life where you must persevere over temptation and you do so by knowing what is right it always comes down to the three most important things in life god family and team and god sees me sinning to be fucked by a man no thoughts of procreating just dirty sex and family will be appalled would disinherit me and team they think i’m a jock a competitive macho football player and i’m just a sissy boy and oh he’s ready to mount me

“Relax now. Soon you will open up to me. Open up now. You know you want it.”

yes i want it i want him in me i want to be his pussyboy i want him to be in me all the time and in months to come dad will be dead and i will be free and mom will come to visit and she will find me with my arm around mike my man and me being the girl of the pair wearing earrings and a tight spandex shirt and a bracelet and chain around my neck and mike being such the man meeting my mom and saying why dont you girls do some shopping while i work in the garage oh yes he’ll be my mine and he’s coming in! i feel it entering such a man a mans cock in me

“That’s it now, baby. Open up. You know you want this. It’s going deep into your pussy. Tell me how much you want it.”

tell him how much i want it how could i oh its tightening

“Okay, careful now.”

“Hey, loosen up, baby. Tell me how much you want it. Tell me you want me to fuck you.”

such a man tell me your my pussyboy

“Tell me now. Tell me you’re my pussyboy. That’s what you want, isn’t it?”

“Mike, I…uh…”

“I’m going to ram it in hard unless you tell me!”

i’m your pussyboy oh how i’m your pussyboy

“Okay. Okay. I’m…your…pussyboy.” i say it without expression as though i don’t mean it but oh i mean it just give in i have to anyway he’s totally in control this is the real me not the son of a vietnam vet farmer not a member of the l.a. quake i’m a nellie girlfriend

“Oh, yeah baby. You’re feeling good. You’re feeling oooh!” he goes in deep the mans into me i’m feeling all of him a real man and i’m his girlfriend i’m his pussyboy i’m his total bottom i groan he can tell the pleasure of that groan now i can show him because now i am free i am free to be who i am and he is so deep into me i was born to be fucked i was born to be a pussyboy

“Oh baby, your pussy feels so good. What do you like now?”

he knows just what i like

“To be fucked by you.” I say it so strongly showing him what i want. “To have you fuck my pussy all night long.”

That gets him going he drives harder and harder fucking my pussy all night long. oh and now i am free now i am truly free