Текст книги "His Kind of Trouble"
Автор книги: Terri L. Austin
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“No, I’m not. But you are.” He turned his head to look at her. Her hair, so perfect a few minutes ago, had become mussed again. He shifted to the side, propped his weight on one elbow, and stared down at her. “I’ve seen a lot of terrible shit in this world, Monica. Truly heartbreaking stuff that I can’t banish from my head, no matter how many beaches I see or how many ruins I visit. Beauty and ugliness go hand in hand. Pleasure and pain coexist, and it all seems so fucking random. But you…you’ve buried the best part of yourself in this life that you hate, and it’s unnecessary. It guts me.”
“Okay.” She sat up and scooted to the edge of the bed before standing. “We’ve dissected me. Now it’s your turn.” She tugged up her pants, jerked at the zipper, and pulled together the tattered edges of her blouse. “You think if you keep moving, never settling in one place, nothing can hurt you. So you wander around without any purpose, without putting any thought into your life at all. And you throw money at people in order to feel better about it. Except it doesn’t work, Cal. Because you can’t outrun all the shit you feel inside, all the isolation and pain. And by the way, I’m not one of your cars. I don’t need fixing or restoring or whatever the hell you do. I’m not broken. Now get out.”
Chapter 18
How dare he? Monica stood in front of the bathroom mirror, attempting to untangle the knots from her hair. How dare he accuse her of living a lie? She was living like a responsible, rational human being. She had an important job. She had a home, a family. What did Cal have?
He wandered around, looking at the world but never being a part of it. He never talked about friends, he didn’t like to discuss his mom, he hadn’t seen Trevor in years. Cal was a loner. Monica dragged the brush through a snarl near her scalp and flinched.
Why did he care how she lived? Their relationship was all about the sex. In six months, he probably wouldn’t even remember her.
All right, she didn’t believe that, not exactly. After all, Cal remembered everything about their first meeting, down to the color of her dress.
But if she thought for a second he cared about her… Of course he cared about her, in his own way, and she cared about him—they were friends with bennies. It didn’t go any deeper. Nor did it give him the right to come in here and start insulting her, questioning her.
Giving herself one last glance in the mirror, Monica took a deep breath and opened the bathroom door. No sign of Cal. She should be relieved he wasn’t there, forcing her to talk, but the empty room made Monica feel more alone than she had in weeks. With Cal, the piercing isolation left her. But now it flooded back in spades.
Their argument felt final, somehow. Maybe that was for the best. She and Cal wanted different things out of life. Eyes wide open, remember? Yeah, Monica remembered.
She changed clothes before trotting down the steps and grabbing her bags. The house seemed so quiet, the silence hurt her ears. She dug out her keys and hurried to the garage. Monica didn’t have time to examine her life right now, even if she wanted to. She was running almost three hours late.
On the drive, she hit rush hour, and as she sat in traffic, automatically reached for her coffee cup. Shit. She’d left it on the nightstand when she and Cal were in the middle of their knock-down drag-out.
Right before they’d had sex. Angry sex. Monica closed her eyes and remembered the look on his face when he’d told her to say his name. There had been a harsh, cold gleam in his green eyes. His mouth thinned into a firm line, his jaw clamped down tight. He’d been pissed off and commanding. It had turned her on. Cal barking orders with that grumbly voice had made her wet. Of course, when he was playful and gave her a crooked smile—that revved her up too.
It dawned on Monica that she’d just made a car analogy. Terrific.
Forty minutes later, she arrived. Pulling into the parking lot, Monica found a spot in the back row. She hustled into the building and when she stepped into the main office, every head turned in her direction.
“So I’m late one morning.”
They continued to stare.
“Was it my turn for doughnuts or something?” Monica set her computer bag down on Carmen’s desk. “Seriously, what’s going on?” she whispered.
“Where have you been?” Carmen hissed.
Stella burst out of the hallway and rushed toward her. She cast her steely gaze over everyone. “Move on with your lives, people.” As one, the staff turned away, even Carmen.
“The shit’s hit the fan, kid,” Stella said.
“What’s happened?”
Rubbing her forehead, Stella sighed long and deep. “Allie’s waiting in your office. The ballroom flooded last night. We have no venue for the gala.”
Shit. Shit. Shit. Monica hauled ass down the hall and nearly ran into Jules coming out of the break room.
“Run for your life,” she said. “Allie’s in a rage. On the drive over, she wore this hideous, frightening smile. I nearly shit a brick just sitting next to her.”
“I’ll handle it. Thanks, Jules.”
Stella stayed on her heels. “I’ll interrupt in ten minutes with a cup of coffee. Good luck.”
Monica hadn’t seen Allie in weeks. This was the worst possible circumstance for a reunion. Taking a deep, fortifying breath, she opened the door to find Allie standing in front of the window. “Hey, Al. I just heard the news.” She walked across the room and tossed her purse in the bottom drawer of her desk.
“I tried to call you six times last night. Were you too busy with Cal to answer your phone?” Allie didn’t turn around.
“My phone died, sorry. And my personal life is still off limits. Now give me the details.”
“There’s not much to tell. The ballroom flooded, there’s extensive damage. They don’t have anything else available, and we’re going to have to cancel the gala.” Allie spun around, her eyes accusatory. “If you don’t want to talk about Cal, let’s discuss the foundation, shall we?” She tossed a folder on top of Monica’s desk.
The file she had been compiling on international grants and cost projections for medical equipment. The same file she’d shown Trevor. “Were you rifling through my desk?”
“It belongs to the foundation,” Allie said. So snotty. So superior. Always playing the big sister. Marcia, Marcia, Marcia.
All Monica’s self-recriminations over the past few weeks blew away. This was why she’d been so angry. This right here—Allie’s sanctimonious, I’m-so-fucking-perfect attitude.
Fury, hot and sharp, lanced through her. She ripped open the middle drawer, shoved her hands inside, and started pulling out lip gloss, pencils, paperclips, and dropped them on top of the folder. “Here. Take these too. All of this crap belongs to the foundation.” She found a stray peppermint. “And don’t forget this.” Then Monica grabbed her purse and upended it, dumping everything until the bag was empty. “I have a few tampons, some loose change.” She threw her wallet at Allie, who caught it deftly in her right hand. “Receipts, my credit cards. Hey, how about I cc you on my bank statements?”
Allie tossed the wallet on the desk. “While you’re doing pointless research, we have a gala to cancel. But I’m so happy you were having a great time with Cal last night.”
“You’re right. I shouldn’t have a life. I should be on call 24-7 in case the ballroom floods. I should have anticipated that.”
Allie nodded at the green file, peeking out from under the debris. “What about that? What were you planning on doing with all that third-world grant stuff?”
“Does it matter?” Monica plucked it out and dropped the folder in the trash can. “There.”
“What were you planning on doing with it?” Allie repeated.
“I thought the foundation could start branching out, make a bigger impact, have an international presence.”
“We’re not in this to make a name for ourselves. We’re in this to help people.”
“That equipment and training could help people, Allie. And you still don’t understand—foundation work is a competitive sport. If we don’t start making some big moves, we’ll get left behind.”
Allie’s brows dipped together. “You make fund-raising sound mercenary.”
Monica started cramming stuff back in her purse. “It is. For every dollar we get, some other charity goes hungry. It’s a cutthroat business. Donations have risen by seven percent this year. I worked to make that happen.”
In the last two years under Monica’s leadership, the foundation had grown. She’d added events and luncheons. She’d put together packets and presentations to get larger donors involved. Last year, they’d had their first walk-a-thon, and next year she wanted to add a bike race. It didn’t bring in very much money, but it upped their profile in the community, which was vital for survival.
Allie sat in the guest chair and crossed her legs. “You know how much money it takes for projects like that?”
“Yes,” Monica snapped. “I know exactly how much. I did a shit ton of research on it.”
“That’s not our vision,” Allie said. “We help individuals pay for treatment. That’s our purpose.”
Allie kept using “our” and “we” as if Monica had any say in the matter. She didn’t. Allie might include her in fund-raising minutiae, but Monica had no voice. “Maybe we should change our vision.”
“Monica, you probably don’t remember when Mom needed that experimental treatment—you were too young.”
“I was fifteen, Allie. I remember.”
“Dad went ass deep into debt to pay for it.”
“I know that too.” In fact, the board had hired a marketing team who had come up with brochures and ads that featured Trisha Campbell’s story, distilling their mom’s beautiful life into a thirty-second sound bite—turning her from a wife and mother into nothing more than a statistic. Monica wanted to celebrate her mother’s life, not grieve her death repeatedly. Allie always did this, made it seem like she was the only one who remembered what their mother had gone through. But Monica and Brynn had been there too.
“It doesn’t matter anyway,” Monica said. “If we have no venue, we have no gala. No gala means we can’t offer more than a handful of grants next year.” Monica began gathering up all the paperclips on her desk.
“We need to get busy,” Allie said. “We have to cancel all the sponsors, the vendors, call all the attendees and the press. This is a disaster.”
What a shitty day—first her nuclear blowout with Cal, and now this. Monica had put too much of herself into this gala—she couldn’t just give up. She dropped the paperclips back on the desk. “You know what? We’re not canceling that gala. Not without trying to find another location. I’ve worked too damn hard to bring in donations. If we don’t pull this off, we’ll be out in the cold.”
When a knock sounded at the door, both Monica and Allie turned toward it. Stella tiptoed into the room, bearing two cups and a carafe of coffee. “Sorry to interrupt. Who needs caffeine?” She set the cups on the desk. Her gaze bounced between Monica and Allie. “So are we canceling?”
“Not yet.” Monica glanced at Allie as she said it.
“I’ve called an emergency board meeting for tomorrow to explain the situation,” Allie said. “Even if we do find an alternative venue, less than two weeks isn’t long enough to replan this event.”
“I disagree. I’m up to the task. Are you?”
“Fine, I’m in, but only if we find a suitable replacement site and the board agrees. But I have to tell you, Mon, I don’t think it’s going to happen. I don’t want you to get your hopes up.”
“Have you talked to the hotel manager?” Monica poured herself a cup of coffee and added sugar. It was a three-pack kind of morning. “Does he have any rooms available?”
Allie shook her head. “No, he’s all booked up. I even had Trevor try and convince him, but it was a no-go.”
Monica turned to Stella. “Tell the staff to stop what they’re doing and call every hotel, every casino. Think outside the box on this one—museums, the Cactus Garden. Try everywhere and anywhere.”
“You got it, honey.” She took the coffeepot and marched out of the office.
Monica dropped her purse on the floor. “Are you going to stay and help, or do you need to get home?”
“I’ll stay. We should divide locations alphabetically. Do we have a white board?”
There weren’t any apologies, no postmortems on their fight. But working together on this gala thing, maybe they could call a truce. At least for now.
Monica took another sip of coffee. It was going to be one long-ass day.
* * *
Cal finally calmed down. It had taken an hour-long drive in the desert to accomplish it, but the anger he’d felt upon leaving Monica’s house dissipated.
She’d said some ugly things to him—mostly true—and kicked his ass to the curb…which he deserved.
Monica claimed he had no purpose in life, that he was running from himself, that he couldn’t confront things head-on. She was partly right.
Cal’s purpose had been cars and motors. Starting from the bottom up, he enjoyed repairing damaged machinery, bringing it back to life. He was good at it, loved it. But it didn’t consume him the way it used to.
And he wasn’t running from himself either, not exactly. He just didn’t feel at home anywhere, a misfit. Might as well have a bit of travel, see new and interesting things. But now, it sounded rather dismal. Lonely.
That bit about confronting things head-on, well, Monica was dead wrong on that score. Cal had confronted her just this morning, face to bloody face, and they’d wound up in a stonking row. Tackling it that way had been a stupid move, admittedly. Direct and honest didn’t work with Monica—she was too wrapped up in her own lies. Not that she’d ever admit it. Predictably, she’d gotten her hackles up. He couldn’t blame her, the way he’d carried on. But seeing Monica in that house, with her paper plates and her bare walls, depressed the hell out of him. No, it enraged him.
At night, he held Monica in his arms—the woman who made him smile and challenged him and asked a million questions about the world. Then every morning that woman disappeared in a puff of smoke, and Miss Prim took her place. And when Monica had become less communicative in the last week, Cal felt as though she were shutting him out.
Something or someone had forced her into the role of a drab moth. She was anything but. Monica Campbell was bright colors and loud music, and yes, she was caring and considerate too, but so terribly unhappy. He didn’t know whether it was because Allie peeked over her shoulder every five minutes or that the foundation reminded Monica of her mother—but he wanted to fix it.
Then she’d accused him of treating her like one of his battered cars. Again, she had a point. When he’d seen her that first day at Trevor’s house, Cal’s only thought had been restoring the bright, bubbly girl he’d kissed five years ago. Now Cal was invested; he’d grown to care about Monica. She wasn’t just a project.
She didn’t owe him any explanations, not really. It was her life to waste, and even so, he wanted to be part of it. Now Cal would be lucky if she ever talked to him again.
He looked down at the gift bag in his hand. She definitely couldn’t talk to him if she didn’t have a phone. So he’d bought her an upgraded one. With a bright pink case.
As he continued stalking to his car, the midmorning sun peeked over his shoulder. When he reached the Mustang, Cal’s own phone vibrated against his hip. Hoping it was Monica, he glanced at the screen with a sigh. “What is it, Paolo?”
“You have not spoken to Pix,” he said.
Monica’s words came back to him. No, Cal wasn’t in a hurry to see Pix—there really wasn’t anything left to say. His mum could live her life, and he’d live his. So this is what you call living, mate? Fighting with the few people you care about? But this wasn’t about Cal and his life, this was about Pixie abandoning Babcock.
“I don’t know what you expect me to do, Paolo. Pixie and I had a row.”
“And?”
He couldn’t do it. Not today. Cal couldn’t stand any more confrontations. He wanted to lose himself in the Mustang’s transmission. Working on cars had always been Cal’s therapy. He needed it today, before the women in his life sent him ’round the bend.
* * *
Monica finished her fourth cup of coffee. While it kept her alert, it didn’t help her nerves. Allie made her batty. She insisted on sharing Monica’s desk, and they’d been calling every suitable spot for hours now, with zero results.
Standing, Monica stretched her arms over her head. “I need a break. Ten minutes.”
Allie crossed off another hotel. “We’re not going to find a place on such short notice. It’s never going to work.”
“I like your optimism.” Monica grabbed her coffee cup and left the office. It had been like that most of the day—Allie complaining, insisting they cancel the gala. It gave Monica a headache.
Stella found her in the break room, a gift bag in her hand. “This just came for you.”
Another gift from Ryan? She hoped to hell not. Monica took the bag and pulled out a bright pink phone and a note.
I’m an asshole.
She smiled at that. This was Cal’s apology.
He’d been way out of line this morning. She’d said some really hurtful things to him too. Monica had been on the defensive. He claimed she was living a lie. Was he wrong? She still couldn’t merge the two separate sides of herself—maybe she never would. But that wasn’t the same as living a lie.
Monica gazed down at the brown pantsuit she’d changed into after he’d left that morning. So maybe she had gone overboard when she’d done a complete one-eighty—she had her reasons. And she probably didn’t need to look like a pilgrim to do her job well. Fair enough.
She couldn’t think about it right now though. She had to figure this gala thing out, ASAP. After refilling her cup, Monica made her way back to her office.
In between listening to Allie making calls, Monica set up her new phone and synced it, discovering she had twenty-three voice-mail messages.
She deleted all six of Allie’s automatically. No need to put herself through that. She deleted Ryan’s messages as well. One from Cal, apologizing, asking if she liked the phone. As arrogant and cocky as he was, he had a side of him that liked to be reassured. It was sweet and unexpected.
Everything about Cal was unexpected. Like this morning. His anger had sprung out of nowhere, but he was furious that she was living in a virtually unfurnished, blank house. He’d said she needed color and pillows and curtains. He was right. She’d been living like a guest in her own house for months, but she didn’t have the energy to do anything about it. She wasn’t even sure she liked that house.
Allie glanced over, her eyes focusing on the gift bag. “Who’s that from?”
“Cal sent it to me.”
Allie’s full lips rolled inward. “So is this serious? This thing with Cal?”
Monica shrugged. “We’re hanging out.” This morning hadn’t been fun. It had been powerful and intense, like a thunderstorm—all sound and fury, leaving a flood of emotional destruction in its wake.
“I wasn’t sure about him at first,” Allie said, “but I like him. He’s sweet with Jules, and he’s been letting the twins help him fix the Mustang. He’s very patient.”
“We’re not serious.” Monica’s stomach clenched. She wished things were different with Cal, but she couldn’t expect him to turn into someone else, someone who stuck around. That wasn’t fair.
“I just worry.”
“You don’t need to, Al. I’m a grown woman.”
“Listen, I know I come off all nosy—”
“And bossy,” Monica added.
“But—”
“And condescending.”
Allie narrowed her eyes. “It’s only because I love you and I don’t want to see you get hurt.” She leaned back in her chair. “You have the worst taste in men. Except for Ryan, of course.”
“You couldn’t be more wrong, Al. Ryan was the wrong choice for me. We would have been miserable.” Monica knew it was true, had known it all along, but she’d kept trying to make him fit, like a too-tight designer shoe from the sale rack.
“What was so wrong about him?” Allie tilted her head to one side. “He had his shit together. A job. A life. He wanted to marry you.”
Monica stroked the pink phone with her thumb. “He didn’t mind that I wear gray pantsuits.”
Allie’s frown deepened. “I don’t understand.”
“It doesn’t matter. Come on, let’s get back to work.”
At one thirty, Allie called it quits. She stood and grabbed her purse. “I’m so sorry, Mon, but this is a bust. We did everything we could.”
Monica rose from her desk. “We haven’t exhausted every possibility. We need to look for offbeat places. Can Trevor call in a few favors?”
“I’ll ask, but I think you need to face the fact that it’s over. We’ll try it again next year.”
There had to be one place in Vegas still available. “I’m not giving up.”
Allie walked to the door. “Your time would be better spent figuring out new projections for next year’s goals. There’s going to be a hell of a lot less money to work with.”
After Allie left, Monica snarled at her computer. More projections, more numbers and spreadsheets. It made her head pound that much harder.
She needed to call Cal, thank him for the phone, but she was reluctant to talk to him just yet. Her anger had faded, but she was hurt by his accusations. Monica did the best she could to prove to Allie and the rest of her family that she’d changed. Why was that so hard for him to understand?
As she worked up the courage to call him, her phone buzzed. Ryan again. Grabbing her purse and her new pink phone, she walked to the outer office and stood next to Stella’s desk, waiting as the older woman wrapped up her call.
Stella hung up and shook her head. “I’ve crapped out. Not a place in town that’s available on the date we need. So what’s next?”
“We brainstorm. I need to run an errand, but I’ll be back in an hour. Hold down the fort?”
“You may have to admit defeat on this one, kid.”
“I may. But not yet.”
Monica had a ton of work to do, but she couldn’t put off Ryan any longer. It was time to cut ties, once and for all. She couldn’t accuse Cal of not confronting life head-on and then be afraid to do it herself.
As Monica drove, Cal’s words about hiding kept coming back to her. Hiding what, her racy underwear? That was just something she indulged in. It made her feel good, but it wasn’t an insight into her psyche.
Cal didn’t know her, not really. They’d been hooking up for a few weeks—that didn’t make him an expert on all things Monica. Evan agrees with him. Well, Evan dated bimbos, so he wasn’t the most reliable source of advice.
She pulled her car into Ryan’s driveway and closed her eyes. She hated to go through this again. It had been hard enough the first time, seeing the disappointment and understanding in his eyes. She felt cruel, but she couldn’t let him continue to hope. Rock, meet hard place.
Getting out of the car, Monica walked to the house and rang the bell. She heard uneven thumping on the other side of the door. Ryan’s crutches.
When he saw her, his face lit up in pleasure. “Hey, what are you doing here?” He leaned forward to kiss her, and she swiftly gave him her cheek. He thumped awkwardly backward, allowing her to enter the house.
The place looked as neat and tidy as ever, and his laptop sat open on the coffee table. “Have you been working?”
“Oh, yeah. Quarterly taxes.”
Monica gripped her purse strap. “Where’s your nurse?”
“I sent her home after the first day.”
“Then how have you been getting along?” Now she felt terrible. She should have called more often, made sure he had everything he needed.
“Hey, don’t worry.” His gaze scanned her face. “I’ve been fine. I can manage getting around, and I’ve had my groceries delivered. I’m good.” He grinned, all handsome and perfect and blond.
Hobbling over to the couch, Ryan dropped onto it with a wince. Monica grabbed a pillow and shoved it under his leg. “When was the last time you took a pain pill?”
“I don’t need one.” He grabbed her hand. “I’m fine. Sit down and talk to me.”
“Ryan.”
His grin slowly faded. “You’re not here to check up on me, are you?”
Monica forced herself to meet his eyes. “I’m so sorry.”
“So, it’s really over. You and Cal, you’re together?”
Monica’s hand lifted to the top button on her blouse. “It’s… Who knows?”
“I thought if I gave you enough time, you’d miss what we had. That you wouldn’t feel so panicked and get that look in your eyes.”
“What look?” Monica frowned and dropped her hand.
He patted the sofa next to him. “Sit down for a minute.”
Monica hesitated, then sat, perching next to him. “What look?”
“When I’d talk about the future, your eyes would start racing around the room, like you were looking for the nearest exit. I thought you were just wary, but that’s not it, is it?”
Oh God, he’d nailed it. Every time Ryan had talked about moving in together or getting married, Monica wanted to change the subject. Was her reaction specific to Ryan, or did she feel that way about commitment in general? What if Cal started talking about the future?
Stupid question. Cal didn’t make plans. He was a live-in-the-moment kind of guy.
“Did you ever love me?” Ryan asked. He didn’t wait for her to answer before he spoke again. “I thought you just didn’t like to say the words, the same way you never talk about your mother. The same way you never talk about the frustrations with your job or the fact that you’re so hard on yourself.”
All of it was true. Yet Monica talked about those things with Cal. She opened up to him in ways she never had with anyone. Not even Evan. She felt safe with Cal. She could show him all of herself, and he didn’t judge her for it. Except this morning. He’d judged the hell out of her then.
“You’re really good at hiding what’s going on inside of you, Monnie.”
Monica’s pulse beat against her throat. “I don’t hide,” she snapped.
He reached out and rubbed her knee. There was nothing sexual in his touch. “I’m not accusing you of anything. It’s just the way you are. Remember the philharmonic?”
She’d bought Ryan tickets to a performance of Mozart’s most famous symphonies. Agony. Sheer boredom for three endless hours. “It was fun.” Liar. Cal’s accent rang in her ears.
“You hated it. I knew that, but you wanted to make me happy. I thought that was a sign that you loved me.”
Monica began picking the clear polish from her thumbnail. It occurred to her that what she’d done with Ryan was what she’d done with every man in her life. She warped herself into their version of the ideal woman. From her first boyfriend and his love of monster trucks to Ryan’s passion for Mozart. Defective. No, not just defective—seriously, seriously messed up.
“I’m so sorry. I never meant to hurt you, Ryan. I wanted you to be the one.”
“I know.” His smile was tinged with sadness. “You tried really hard. I should have gotten a clue when you bought that house.”
“What do you mean?”
“Monica, four months ago I asked you to marry me. You said you had to think about it, and the next week, you bought a house. Your own house, without even discussing it with me.”
She stood and walked around the room, wrapping her arms around her torso. “My lease was up. I bought it as an investment.”
“Sweetheart, if you can’t be honest with me, at least be honest with yourself.”
She whirled around and flung her arms down. “I’m not lying to myself,” she yelled. “I wish everyone would stop saying that.” She clapped her mouth shut. Oh God. Monica took a gulp of air. “Sorry.”
Ryan gazed at her with a puzzled frown. “That’s the first time I’ve ever heard you raise your voice.”
“Really?” She paced to the door. “Because I yell at Allie all the time.” And Cal. She wasn’t afraid to yell at Cal. She stopped moving and glanced back at him. “I wanted to say yes.”
“It would have been perfect. I’m here. I love you, Mon. We could make this work. Can you say the same about Cal?”
Monica shook her head. “No, I can’t. But I’ve decided I don’t want perfect. It’s too much pressure.” Her entire world turned on its axis. She didn’t want this tidy life with a man who wouldn’t pull her hair during sex or talk to her in a rough, posh voice. That’s not who she was. Never had been.
He leaned his head against the cushions, looking more tired and pale than when she arrived. “If you change your mind—”
“I won’t. I never meant to hurt you.” Monica stumbled out of the house. She felt numb, yet her mind spun in circles.
Sitting in her car, she dialed Evan. Her call went straight to voice mail, and she left him a rambling message that didn’t make much sense.
As she started the car, a terrible dread filled the pit of her stomach. Suddenly, Monica didn’t know who the hell she really was. She wasn’t the girl she used to be—flighty and irresponsible—nor was she the mousy woman she portrayed herself as, the one who worked day and night in order to avoid having a real life. So where did that leave her? Who was she now?
Would the real Monica Campbell please stand up?
