Текст книги "Tasting Fear"

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He pondered what she said for several moments. Then he walked slowly around her, pried her clasped hands apart, and held them tightly.

“You misunderstood,” he said. “It was just semantics.”

She stared into his eyes, trying to peer inside his brain. “Was it?”

“I would never dream that you were for sale.” His fantasy of the sexy secret affair with the juvenile waitress flashed guiltily through his mind, but the point was moot, because Nell was not that girl.

Nell was infinitely more than that girl. More complicated, more fascinating, more trouble. And she never needed to know about his politically incorrect horn-dog fantasies. He lifted her hands to his lips. “What happened between us can’t be bought,” he said. “For any money.”

She heard the raw, blunt sincerity in his words and blushed. “Thank you for saying that,” she said softly.

He kissed her hands in answer, and couldn’t stop kissing them. Those long, tapered fingers, those pink oval nails. Funny. He’d never noticed a woman’s hands before.

“But I still have to go to work,” she persisted. “Maybe if you could spot me the cab fare this morning, I’ll pay you back from my tips.”

He bit down on his frustration. “I will drive you,” he ground out. “On one condition. You do not leave the restaurant until I come to pick you up and take you to my office. No errands, no breaks, no shopping, no bank machines, no Starbucks coffee, nothing. Is that clear?”

She sighed heavily. He cut her off before she could object again.

“Let me put it this way,” he said. “Do it as a favor to me. Because I care. I’m scared for you. I’ve earned that much.”

“Duncan—”

“Whoops! Sorry. Let me take that back, about earning anything. It’s not about earning. No way. No economic metaphors here. No, sir.”

She tried not to smile. “Don’t make fun of me. This is serious.”

“Christ, yes! That’s what I’ve been trying to tell you!”

“But I have to go to that seisìun at Malloy’s, too. I have a date to meet my sisters later this evening,” she informed him. “I have to go.”

“I’ll take you to that, too. And then I’ll take you home.” He stared keenly into her eyes, and added, deliberately, “My home.”

She cocked her head at him. “Surely you have better things to do than chauffeur me around the city and listen to Irish tunes in a pub.”

“No. Just, you know, making money. But I’ve got enough of that to piss you off already, so I might as well slow down, right?”

Her eyes flashed. “Do not make fun of me.”

“Sorry,” he said meekly. “I would really like to meet your sisters.”

That mollified her. “All right. But that’s a dirty trick, you know.”

He blinked up at her, all innocence. “Trick? What trick?”

“You get me softened up, and go into supercontrol mode.”

He grunted. “Whatever works.”

They stared at each other, and, like always, the oxygen in the air between them began to combust. But she darted back when he reached for her. “Uh-uh! We’re late, remember?”

He headed for the shower, trying to breathe his spring-loaded, rock-hard boner down and concentrate on the task at hand. First, haul out his old SIG Sauer 229 and a full clip of ammo. Root around in his utilities drawers for the shoulder holster. Identify the suits in his closet that were tailored to accommodate it. Then bathe, dress. Pull it together. His heart pounded. His palms were damp.

Only the thought of her in his bed again tonight consoled him.

Chapter

7

Nell listened, guiltily, to the sound of the shower through the bathroom door. Thinking of his amazing, powerful naked body in there under the pounding stream, water and soapsuds cascading over his contoured muscles. So tempted to just peel off her clothes, and—

No. He was never quick. It would be long and wet and steaming and soapy and marvelous, and they would both forget all practical issues such as making money, safeguarding her self-respect, meeting her professional obligations. She was already missing the lunch prep. He’d completely disarmed her. Wrapped her around his little finger.

Or maybe she was wrapped around something more substantial.

She stared at the suit he’d slung upon the bed. She didn’t know much about fashion, having remained deliberately ignorant, but she recognized the cut and fine finishing of costly men’s clothing when she saw it. Thousands of dollars lay there on that rumpled bed, in those smooth, graceful silver gray garments. He looked so good in his clothes.

She went back out into the front room. The roses still lay where she’d forgotten them on the telephone table. They hadn’t been put into water, what with one thing and another, and they were looking shabby.

Which was a shame. She grabbed the flowers, with the half-formed intention of looking for a vase in the kitchen. What a sweet thought, last night, for him to stop and get her roses. Some of the roses disintegrated, bruised petals scattering over the gleaming wood floor. She gathered them up, hesitated for a moment, and pulled a handful of silky petals off the wilting bouquet.

She carried them into his bedroom and slipped some into the pockets of his suit jacket with them.

He was all brusque practicality when he came out of the bedroom, clean-shaven and fragrant. Their cautious truce lasted all the way down to the Sunset Grill, but as she was getting out, he pulled her toward him and gave her a hard, possessive kiss. “One more thing, Nell.”

“It’s always one more thing,” she grumbled. “Enough things.”

“That’s for me to decide,” he said, with his usual breathtaking arrogance. He pulled a cell phone out of his pocket. An extravagant, eight-hundred-dollar one. “Take this. Keep it. No arguments.”

She rolled her eyes. “I was going to buy one today anyhow.”

“You can’t,” he said. “You swore a blood oath that you would not leave the restaurant until I came to get you. Remember?”

A shivery burst of laughter shook her. “A blood oath?”

“Fuck, yes. Take it. Don’t fight me on this. Keep it until I have a chance to take you phone shopping. My number’s programmed in.”

He looked straight into her eyes, his fingers clamped around her wrist, and she realized that she could not win. He simply would not let her go unless she gave in, and for God’s sake, why didn’t she? She was fighting just on principle, just to be contrary. She couldn’t afford this silliness.

She slipped the phone into her purse. “Thank you,” she said.

“Keep it in your apron pocket at the restaurant, while you’re working,” he said. “I’ll be calling, to check on you. And I’m going to give you holy hell if you’re not reachable. Believe it.”

She snorted at him. “I’m shaking in my boots.”

The guy worked fast. Fucking her, already.

John chewed the inside of his own cheek until he tasted blood.

Antonella disappeared into the Sunset Grill, still smiling. Her face rosy red. Probably saddlesore from being fucked all night long. Slut.

Burke’s silver Mercedes pulled out into Eighth Avenue traffic.

It made him angry, and he was already chronically angry, dealing with Haupt night and day. He was starting to consider recreational murder, just to unload, or he was going to start having panic attacks.

Amazing, that the guy was fucking her already. She’d been so celibate all those weeks that John had been watching her. Such a good little girl. Sleeping alone, with her piles of books, like a sexy, succulent little nun. Not anymore. Dirty whore, spoiling it. She would pay for that.

Not that John wasn’t still going to enjoy his own turn when it came, as it inevitably would. But he would have to punish her severely for spreading her legs. Soiling herself with that rich prick. Just like her sister, cheating on him with that randy carpenter. Who was slated to die a slow and ugly death. Just as soon as it was convenient for John.

Maybe Burke would join the carpenter on John’s special short list. He wondered idly if the youngest girl was as much of a slut as her sisters were. Probably more so, with that tattoo, her nose ring, her painted van. What the hell. He’d fuck them all. Punish them all. And punish them, and punish them. Thinking about it made him hard.

But speed dialing Haupt’s number on his cell wilted him fast. He gritted his teeth, resigned to the scolding he was about to receive.

The stinking geezer picked up, with no salutation. He just waited for a report, line open. Telegraphing his disgust with silence.

“She’s back at the restaurant,” John said. “Burke brought her in his own car. Looks like he’s fucking her.”

“And upon what do you base this deduction?”

John’s lip curled at the old fart’s choice of words. “The way he stuck his tongue down her throat was my first clue.”

“Tell me about Burke,” the old guy challenged him.

John rifled through the documents he’d spent a long night collecting. “Bad news,” he admitted. “Ex–undercover field agent from the NSA, turned successful businessman. Designs software for the NSA, the CIA, Homeland Security, and various others. Close connections with various law enforcement agencies. I had difficulty getting info on him. Most of it’s top secret.”

“Ah. You must be happy, John. Now you have a plausible justification for your incompetence, eh?”

John tapped the console of the SUV with his fingernails and considered various tasty options in killing this old shitbird. After he’d gotten paid, of course. In fact, he was starting to consider fucking the old goat out of the entire prize. It was the only thing that could make this constant, grinding humiliation worthwhile.

“It does make things more complicated,” he said carefully.

“Yes, and the idiot carpenter with his violin complicated things for you too, eh? And he was no secret agent. Did Turturro have any luck with the younger sister?”

“No,” he said, after a painful pause. “He combed that crafts fair for hours. Apparently she never showed up.”

“Of course she did not. She is not an idiot, unlike others I could name. Stay on Antonella, John. Do not delegate. Do not lose her again. Your hired muscle so far has not failed to disappoint. Did she take anything with a listening device with her when she went to Burke’s apartment?”

“Just the laptop. It has a short range, however.”

“I’m no longer interested in excuses. Find a place to receive the frequency, no matter where she is. Failure is no longer an option.”

Haupt hung up on him. John’s teeth ground until his jaw ached.

He was going to need to kill something soon. And he had a feeling it was going to be that prick who was fucking Antonella. Yes, that would be good. John was still smarting from the man’s brazen challenge.

You’re not getting her. Fuck off and die, shithead. Yeah? His ass.

Burke would die for that. And Antonella would pay, and pay.

It was the strangest sensation. Duncan observed it curiously as he drove to the office, parked, and tipped the astonished garage attendant. Like a helium balloon in his midriff. The buoyancy floated him along. People were giving him strange looks.

He realized that he was grinning like a fucking idiot.

Jesus, it wasn’t totally abnormal to be in a good mood, was it? Then the middle-aged lady behind the coffee counter in the building lobby gave him a strange look when he told her he liked her as a redhead. It was the truth. She’d looked like hell as a blonde.

Strange. Like nobody’d ever seen a guy in a good mood before.

He headed up to the office, whistling. The grizzled divorce attorney in the elevator gave him a dark look. Duncan grinned back. The man harrumphed. Maybe dealing with divorce all day gave a guy gastritis.

He strode into the lobby. Derek was there, briskly collating something, dressed for Saturday in jeans and a T-shirt.

“Good morning, Derek,” he said.

Derek looked at him as if he’d sprouted wings. “Uh, hi, boss.”

“I appreciate you working Saturdays,” Duncan told him.

Derek’s eyes bulged even more than usual. “Uh, it’s no problem.”

Duncan clapped him on the shoulder as he passed Derek’s desk. “You get paid extra for Saturdays, right?”

“I get time and a half for overtime.” Derek’s face was fearful.

“Good. I’ll tack on a bonus. You deserve it. Keep it up, Derek.”

Odd, Duncan mused as he nodded and smiled at the die-hard Saturday-morning types. Derek didn’t blink an eye when Duncan snapped and barked, but a simple compliment scared him to death.

Come to think of it, all his employees were giving him that nervous look. Duncan glanced down to see if his shoes were mismatched, his fly unzipped. Nope. Everything was in order.

He shrugged, inwardly. Fuck it. He was having too much fun floating on his own private helium balloon to worry about it.

The phone began to ring the second he walked into his office. His private line. Nell, maybe, calling to tell him she was in as good a mood as he was. This daydream was quickly deflated by the recollection that she did not possess his private office number. Only his cell.

Answering the phone became suddenly a lot less appealing.

He sighed and grabbed the phone. “Burke here.”

“So, you finally came into the office!” his mother said. “What on earth is going on?” She paused expectantly.

“Nothing,” he said. “Business as usual.”

“Whatever you say. If you don’t tell me, I’ll just have to find out some other way. Have you talked to Elinor?”

Duncan’s good mood began to sink. “I haven’t had time yet.”

“Duncan, it’s so important that she change her mind! She’s determined to rebel. Please, you have to back me up on this—”

“I’ll call her,” he promised. “As soon as you get off the phone.”

He extricated himself from the conversation and punched in Elinor’s number. Her roommate, Mimi, picked up the phone. Loud, incoherent music pulsed in the background. “Who is it?” Mimi shrieked.

“Elinor’s brother. May I speak to her?”

“Elinor’s brother? Like, which one? The bodaciously cute one, or the uptight, stuffed-shirt one?”

“The stuffed-shirt one,” he specified, with weary patience.

“Yo, Ellie!” Mimi screeched. Duncan winced and held the phone away from his ear. “It’s your bro. The stuffed-shirt one.” Mimi listened, and said, “She’s coming. Hang on.” There was a clunk. Duncan leaned back in his chair, started to shrug off his coat, and stopped. The SIG.

Shit. He had to keep it on, sweat and all. He stuck his hand in his pocket and gasped at the soft, silky texture that assaulted his hand.

Petals. He jerked his hand out, startled. Rose petals scattered all over the desk, his chair, his lap, the floor.

He laughed out loud, causing a graphic designer and a junior accountant to peer through his open door, eyes big. They probably thought he was losing it. Maybe he was, he thought, with delirious glee.

“Hello? Hello?”

He yanked his attention back to the telephone. “It’s Duncan.”

“Hi.” Elinor sounded guarded. “Did Mother tell you to call?”

Duncan paused for a second. “Well—”

“Your job is to convince me to change my major back to econ. Consider my retirement plan, split-level suburban home, SUV, and cemetery plot, right? Not! Forget it. I’m going to follow my dreams!”

“I think that’s great,” Duncan said.

There was an uncertain pause. Elinor pressed on. “You can’t make me change my mind. I’ve got what it takes to—”

“Of course you do,” he agreed.

There was a confused silence from Elinor. “What?”

“You’ll be great. Go for it. Give it your best shot.”

Elinor was stupefied. “You’re not being sarcastic, are you?”

Duncan sifted petals through his fingers. “Am I such an ogre?”

“I was just wondering if, you know, an alien took over your body.”

“Hah.” He buried his nose in the petals. Like Nell’s skin.

“Mother’s gonna kill you,” Elinor predicted cheerfully.

“No doubt,” he agreed. He said good-bye and hung up, staring at the crimson mass of rose petals. His helium balloon reinflated, floating him up off his chair. He was done being the official wet blanket of the family. He entered the number of the cell he’d given Nell, and fingered a petal while it rang, savoring the agony of anticipation.

“Hello?” came her sweet, musical voice.

“I found the petals,” he announced.

In her pause, he could actually feel her smiling that secret little smile that drove him wild. “And? I hope they didn’t embarrass you.”

“Nothing could embarrass me today.”

There was a shy silence. “Um, Duncan? I’m sort of in the middle of the lunch rush, so could we—”

“Do rose petals go bad, like vegetables, or do they dry out?”

“They dry out,” Nell said. “Do you think I would have filled your pockets with something that turns to slime?”

He ignored that, grinning. “I can’t wait for six o’clock.”

“Me neither,” Nell whispered. “Bye.”

She broke the connection, and Duncan laid down the phone.

He tried to concentrate. He really did. But the urgent, pressing, serious business that grimly occupied him on any other normal day seemed so much less important today. So much less interesting. The only things that engaged him were conversations with Gant and his buddy Braxton, another ex-agent from the old days who had a security outfit. He arranged for Nell’s apartment to be bug swept that day.

He called Nell so often, she started to snap at him and hang up, but always with laughter in her voice. He’d never been the type who had any luck making girls laugh before. He finally understood why guys worked so hard at it. It was irresistible. He would do any crazy thing to get that gurgle of laughter out of her.

Meetings, conference calls. Seconds ticked by, heavily, laboriously. His employees were acting strange. Whispering conversations, cut off when he walked by. Smothered bursts of laughter. Bruce had a shit-eating grin plastered on his face.

At ten to five p.m., he gave in to it. It was an hour early, but he wasn’t getting diddly-shit done here. He might as well go to the Sunset, park his ass, and make damn sure she didn’t leave the place alone.

She was scheduled to work three hours on the game texts with Bruce, from six until nine. Too much, with a long shift of waitressing behind her. She pushed herself too hard. He might insist that she cut out early. They could get dinner before they met her sisters at that pub.

He found a good parking spot not far from the Grill and went in, heart thudding. There she was, swathed in her orange apron, hair twisted up and corkscrewing around her face. She looked tired, harassed.

And freaking drop-dead beautiful.

She glanced over and ran into a table. He was with her in two steps, steadying her tray. She pulled back, spilling half a bowl of French onion soup. “Thanks, I can manage. What are you doing here?”

“It’s a restaurant, right? Don’t I have the right to come in here?”

“Yes, of course. Sorry,” she said, biting her lower lip. “The tables are full. You can wait fifteen minutes, or you can sit at the counter.”

Duncan seated himself at the counter. The place was hopping with late lunchers and early diners. Nell and a redheaded girl were the only waitresses, both running frantically. He watched Nell serve people, gracing them with her luminous smile, carrying trays that looked far too heavy for her. She sneaked an occasional glance at him. Some minutes later she made it back to him with the coffeepot. “Stop staring. It’s making me nervous,” she hissed into his ear, pouring him a cup.

“What’s with you tonight?” he asked. “You’re tense.”

“Oh, nothing. Business as usual. Money problems. Credit card debt. A bugged apartment. Armed kidnappers shoving me into a car. Nights of wild monkey sex with a man who’s practically a stranger to me. Then I get to work and discover that not only does Kendra have one of her weird illnesses, but Lee broke his toe, so we’re short-staffed. And now you’re here, staring at me like I’ve got two heads. Other than that, I’m fine. Let me take your order. Strip steak, I presume.”

“Actually, I ordered out for lunch,” he said.

Her eyebrow lifted. “Then why are you here?”

“I wanted to see you,” he said simply. “I couldn’t wait anymore.”

She swallowed, a blush warming her cheeks. “We have a three-dollar minimum at night.”

“More coffee,” he said. “And bring my usual dessert.”

She looked disapproving. “You should try something new.” She marched away, chin high.

“So. You’re the one, eh?” a gravelly female voice said.

He looked across the counter, into the clear gray eyes of a strong-jawed, wide-hipped lady of about sixty. “Excuse me?” he said.

The woman smartly dressed a tray of salads and passed it across the counter to the redheaded waitress. The waitress hung over Duncan’s shoulder from behind, popped fragrant strawbery gum in his ear, and studied him as if he were some strange species of mold in a petri dish. “Not bad,” she commented, her voice judicious.

“I’m Norma,” the older woman said, examining him over the lenses of her glasses. “I own this joint. And you’re Strip Steak.”

Being defined and labeled in terms of his lunch choices was a new experience for him. “Duncan Burke, at your service,” he said.

“So you’re the one,” Norma said again, wrapping silverware in napkins and stacking them on a tray with machinelike efficiency.

He sipped his coffee. “What one am I?” he asked guardedly.

“The one who’s taking away my right-hand woman.”

“Sorry, ma’am, but it’s a dog-eat-dog world out there,” he said.

“Don’t I know it,” Norma replied, her gray eyes steely. “In fact, I’d like to take this opportunity to tell you what a prize you’ve got in her.”

Duncan’s coffee cup froze halfway to his mouth.

Norma went on. “I heard about that kerfuffle last night. You, saving her from those guys on the street. That’s good. Bravo. I like it that you can handle yourself in a tight situation. That’s a good quality in a man. Useful. But that’s not enough.”

Duncan blinked. “It’s not?”

“No. Not for Nell. She’s special. Very sensitive, very romantic. She has more to give than you could imagine.”

He started to feel hunted. “How do you know what I can imagine?”

“Any guy who orders the same lunch for six weeks in a row has imagination issues,” Norma informed him, not without sympathy.

The redheaded waitress swooped by and leaned over his shoulder again. “But don’t despair,” she said, popping her gum in his ear again. “You can make up for a lot of that egghead intellectual imagination stuff in bed, if you treat her good. And I mean, like, good, buddy boy.”

“Exactly my point,” Norma agreed. “If you don’t treat her like a goddess, you’ll have me to answer to.”

Duncan forced himself to close his slack, dangling mouth. He coughed to clear his throat. “Just what are you implying, ma’am?”

“That depends on you,” Norma said crisply. “You see, unfortunately, our Nell is an orphan. There aren’t any parents around to judge you and break your balls.” She pointed at her chest. “But here’s me, Strip Steak. Ready and willing to pick up the slack. Worse than the very worst mother-in-law could ever be. Just be aware.”

“There’s me, too. And Monica. And don’t forget her sisters,” the redhead piped in from behind as she swept by. “Mess with Nell, and Nancy and Vivi will rip you open and toss your entrails into the gutter.”

“Ah.” He pondered that memorable image for a moment. “You want me to declare that my intentions are honorable, you mean?”

Norma smiled approvingly. “That sounds like an excellent idea.”

Nell appeared with a plate. “Here’s your dessert. Carla, table five needs a slice of Black Forest and a Key Lime. They’re in a rush, okay?”

Carla gave her gum a final loud pop, and sashayed away, ass twitching back and forth. Nell set down the dessert. It was not apple pie with vanilla ice cream. It was a fluffy confection. Lots of whipped cream.

“I decided you needed a change of pace,” she said, a note of challenge in her voice. “This is a house specialty. Banana cream pie.”

She stared at him, her soft mouth pressed flat. Norma stared, too, from behind the counter, her large, chubby arms crossed across her voluminous bosom. Seconds ticked by.

It irritated him, being jerked around, but this was not about pie. This was some sort of subtle test that he could not afford to fail.

Ah, what the fuck. It was only pie, after all. He forked up a bite.

“It’s good,” he said, automatically. Then he took another bite, and realized that it was true. It really was good. In fact, it was damn good.

Nell’s face relaxed. Norma raised an eyebrow, harrumphed, and stumped away to serve a customer at the other end of the counter.

Nell leaned down. “What did they say?” she hissed in his ear.

Duncan felt an unexpected smile tug at his mouth, swiftly followed by a desire to laugh. “I was just informed that I should declare my intentions. And if I don’t treat you like a goddess, I’ll be sliced wide open, and my steaming viscera tossed out into the street.”

“Oh, my God.” Nell turned a delicate pink. “I’m going to kill them.”

“No need.” Suddenly, with no warning, he was laughing. Out loud. In public. People were looking. He didn’t care.

It felt great.