Текст книги "Beautiful Addictions"
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“Any news on the girl?” Moloney asked. “Do we know if she’s still alive?”
Barry tented his fingers on top of the wood table and squared his large shoulders. Although he wasn’t responsible for the messy situation, he felt obligated to fix it.
“Mort is using his most persuasive techniques to retrieve information.”
Moloney nodded, satisfied for now. Gino Gallo would be able to use any neglected problems against him, so it was imperative that the girl be eliminated. Finally, these aggravations could be put to rest and he could move on with destroying the Italians.
* * *
Josie sat cross-legged on the floor of her apartment among the dust bunnies. Sheets of paper pulled free from their binding lay scattered around her like fallen leaves. She repeated Tristan’s name over and over, as if the sound of it would jar her memory into revealing their past. He knew her. He knew her in her former life, the one that had chewed her up and spit her out. She was conflicted as she recognized both the urge to forget him completely and the one to reacquaint herself with everything he was.
A rhombus of light slanted across her floor from the window, blazing yellow-gold. Dust particles floated in and out of the beam, and when Josie moved, they swirled frantically, like a shaken snow globe. She found herself entranced by them, jealous of their carefree and aimless existence.
Tristan, her mind repeated again. She now had a name to go with the seraph’s face. She smirked, realizing that the things she wanted to do to him were quite devilish. Josie wanted to explore and conquer that man, like no one before him. She wanted to mark his skin and exchange breaths while whispering sexual promises. Before letting the fantasy run freely, she focused her attention back on her sketch.
There was more now, more than a carnal desire for the taste of his flesh. Josie wanted to memorize him, inside and out. She wanted to dissect the memories he possessed and reenact each one to make them concrete. She wanted to give herself over to Tristan and ask him to mold her into something better than she was. But when had she ever gotten what she wanted?
A pounding sounded against her door. She ignored it. Instead, Josie focused on recreating the needle-made art of Tristan’s left shoulder. She glanced at the clear plastic grab bag of pills sitting on her table. They seemed to be calling to her. Eat me. Feel good. Forget everything. She sketched the shapes of Tristan’s tattoo, filling them with gray. What a disservice to the original art, she thought. They should be red and violet and deep-water blue. She hadn’t used color on paper in years. She didn’t even own the tools to do so.
The pummeling sounded again, startling her from her drawing. Josie looked at her rattling door, the secured chain swinging from the force. As much as she loved her isolation, she knew she’d have to answer.
Freeing the chain and twisting two dead bolts, Josie swung the door open to find a smiling Alex, dimples on display. His hulking form dwarfed her as he beamed his most charming smile and waited to be invited in. She moved aside and secured the door behind him.
“You know you don’t have to lock that when I’m here, Jo. I got you.” He winked and flexed his huge arms in her direction.
Josie was not impressed.
Alexander Hernandez was a beast of a man, a giant in reputation and size. He’d been raised in the roughest part of the city, tainted with crime and violence, and he’d never left. This metropolis and its pollutants flowed through his veins, more important to survival than his Hispanic blood. He was a sinner and a mortal, and he knew in the end that meant he’d smolder in the fiery pits of hell. He was okay with that. Acceptance was apparently the key to inner peace.
Alex knew misdeeds and narcotics and only one way of life. He had been in and out of juvenile detention as a teenager, eventually landing in jail for an eight-month stint. There had been no deprogramming and no reform behind those bars. He’d emerged ten times worse than when he’d went in, only his allegiances had changed.
As a young man, he’d held no authority there. However, his loyalty and willingness to do dirty work quickly earned him respect in the ranks. His incarceration was more of a training exercise than a punishment. Lessons that could be taught only by experience were now ingrained. Never trust anyone, never turn your back on the enemy, and never share personal information. One newbie had let his girl’s name slip from his lips in casual conversation in the yard. Six weeks later, she was dead. That’s the thing about jail, your enemies inside were your enemies outside. A security fence and state-mandated freedom changed nothing.
When Josie moved into the dilapidated building, he’d been surprised that she lived alone. He’d tried to hit on her when they passed in the hall, but his efforts always fell short.
“Hey, mamacita. You’re new so I’mma help you out. I’m Alex.”
“Josie.”
“You need anything, come see me.”
“Anything?”
He smiled and grabbed onto the doorframe above his head, flexing his biceps. His eyes shined with victory.
“Anything.”
“Nah. I’m good, thanks,” Josie had replied as she retreated to her apartment.
“I bet you are,” Alex answered.
Six weeks later, things changed. He’d come straight home after having to teach one of his lackeys a lesson. The man’s blood stained his clothes in a speckled pattern and Alex knew his message had been delivered. A few beers later, he’d come down from his adrenaline high. While he was showering, the power had gone out. It wasn’t five minutes later that Josie came knocking. Her face, while trying to portray sexual prowess, showed nothing but fear.
“I knew you couldn’t resist.”
“Shut up,” she’d demanded before pushing him inside the apartment.
Shrouded in darkness, he took Josie bent over his kitchen table and again in his bed, never questioning her sudden change of heart. He realized later that she’d done it only to have company during the blackest of nights. She was a girl too afraid to admit fear, opting for security in the arms of a stranger.
Since then, he kept an eye on her as best he could. He installed three locks on her door and insisted that she use them. He brought her food a few times a week; otherwise she’d forget to eat. Recognizing her need for companionship and protection, Alex began to take a more platonic interest in Josie. All the other neighbors insisted that she was bizarre, but he knew better. She was defensive and hurting and completely alone. Perhaps Josie could be his one good deed. Not that she could ever redeem him from a lifetime of wrongdoings. Alex was damned regardless.
Before taking a seat, Alex slid the pistol from his waistband and laid it on the table in front of him. He tossed the paper bag to Josie and assumed his usual position on the sofa, relaxed with legs splayed like a sexual lure. His large form took up her entire couch, but she never minded, keeping to her favorite spot on the floor. He brought her food and stayed until she ate. There was little dialogue, sometimes none at all. It wasn’t because she was shy or rude, just uninterested in forced conversation. Though, through all of their time spent together she had told him her story, shared just enough pieces for Alex to fill in the gaps.
“Eat, Josie,” he demanded when she sat staring into the blinding light of the open window.
“I’ll eat if you bring me some more of that coke. The good stuff. Not the crap you sell.”
“I told you I’m not supplying you anymore. Eat. And stop buying this shit.”
He gave her a threatening look that said everything in the arch of his eyebrow and purse of his lips. He held up the bag of pills that were so varied in color and shape they looked like candy. She didn’t answer or acknowledge his request, insisting that she was an adult and could take care of herself. She’d been doing it for so long now.
Josie knew she’d never win this contest of wills. He would stay until she ate, no matter how long that took. She refocused her attention on the paper, shading the petals of each flower just so.
She liked that Alex didn’t feel the need to ask about her well-being. She didn’t want to lie to him, but she knew that if asked, she’d give him what he wanted to hear. She’d tell the lie she’d told a thousand times, “I’m fine.” Alex looked after her; she didn’t understand why. If she had just an ounce of self-preservation, she would thank him.
From what he could gather, Josie’s story sounded like one of the tragic mystery programs Alex’s mother favored on late afternoons. While she drank her Café Bustelo and prepared dinner, she’d watch the tiny black-and-white television mounted to the kitchen counter. Even through the static, she clung desperately to the sordid lives of the unfortunate men and women. Many days, Alex had come home from school to find his mother cursing in Spanish at the blurry picture. At dinner, she would warn him and his brothers about whatever danger had befallen that day’s victims.
“Mrs. Thompson’s cat escaped again. Meowed outside my door for two hours. Fucking beast don’t know what floor he lives on. Pendejo,” Alex grumbled.
“I think she trained him to annoy you,” Josie said, giving a slight laugh.
Alex had come from a large family, but being the youngest of six boys, he’d never had to play caretaker to anyone or anything. No matter all his pleading, he never had a dog or a cat or even a goldfish. His mother would always say there were enough mouths to feed without adding an ungrateful beast to the mix.
He watched as Josie finally lay down her pencil, retrieved the bag of food, and ate quietly. Alex spun his pistol on the tabletop, a habit that helped him focus. He planned his day, making a list of deliveries to schedule and overdue debts to be collected. Today was going to be either a very profitable day or a very messy day. Alex wasn’t sure which one he’d prefer.
“Do you have to do that?” Josie asked, her cheeks swollen with food.
“What?”
Josie pointed to the gun, still spinning after a recent nudge from Alex.
“You know I hate that thing.”
Alex rolled his eyes and slammed his hand down over the rotating pistol, abruptly halting its movement. He picked it up, released the clip, and placed it on the table. He waved his hands over the disassembled firearm, wordlessly asking if she was satisfied.
“Whatever,” she answered before taking another bite.
Tossing the empty weapon from hand to hand, he smiled.
“Where were you on Wednesday?”
“I went to see him,” Josie mumbled.
Alex thought for a second before realizing whom she was referring to.
“You see him all the time, stalker.”
“I’m not a stalker, just an interested observer. Besides, this time he saw me too.”
Alex turned, checking her face for seriousness.
“You talk to him?”
“His name is Tristan. He remembers me.”
“I guess so. Some metiche watching him lose his shit in the alley.”
“No. He remembers me from New Orleans.”
Alex dropped the pistol, letting it clatter to the floor.
“What?”
“Yep,” Josie confirmed.
“You gonna see him again?”
Josie nodded, pushing the last of the noodles into her mouth. She knew she didn’t have a choice.
“Be careful, Jo.”
She nodded again as Alex stood and headed out.
“Lock the door.”
Josie followed his instructions, threw away the empty food carton, and resumed her position on the floor, completely ignoring the plastic bag of pills.
3. Macula
A dark spot or possible irregularity.
When he’d taken this job, Mort figured it would be an easy case. Eight years after her disappearance, there had been a rumor that the boys in New York screwed up and McKenzi Delaune was alive. All he had to do was go there and prove that she wasn’t. Seemed easy enough at the time.
Mort always found himself in these positions. In the business, he was what’s known as a cleaner. He cleaned up other people’s messes. No matter what kind of failed objective or botched operation, Mort always came through. Entering the situation objectively, assessing the missteps, and calculating a solution came naturally to him. Whatever was needed, from the simplest task to the downright heinous, he was the man for the job. He always succeeded and did so with a heartless resolve.
Chasing paper trails, bribing officials, and navigating his way through her disappearance had been a great deal of work. Moloney’s associates in New York had been useless, cowering behind excuses and fading memories. After learning nothing new, he’d dispatched them quickly, moving on to the next clue. Interrogations of federal agents in dark secluded rooms yielded cries of pain and eventually results.
“You’ll tell me what I want to know or you’ll die,” Mort told the agent.
The man struggled against the ropes that bound his wrists, but it was no use.
“I’ll die anyway,” he said.
“Yes. One way you die fast, the other … well, I’ve got days.”
Mort turned and grabbed a hammer from the nearby table. He inspected the metal head and ran his fingers over the clean and shiny surface. He approached the agent and displayed the weapon of choice.
“Where shall we start?”
The agent flinched but did not answer.
“If you don’t tell me what I want to know,” Mort said, circling the agent, “when I’m finished with you, I’ll pay a visit to your little brownstone in Brooklyn Heights.”
The agent’s eyes widened and he struggled against his bonds.
“You stay away from there!”
“Tell me,” Mort answered.
The agent was silent again, his chest heaving with angry breaths.
“The girl wasn’t dead. We knew her father was working with us to nail an organized crime leader in New Orleans. So we faked her death, changed her name, and she was put into witness protection.”
Tears fell from the man’s eyes now. He felt relief and shame for giving up this girl to save his own family.
“The name? And where did she go?” Mort asked.
“I don’t know,” the agent answered. “The file was sealed.”
Mort swung the hammer hard, landing it on the man’s kneecap. His screams of pain echoed through the empty building, startling a group of pigeons that’d been nesting there.
“I know you worked the case.”
“I work a lot of cases. I can’t remember every detail,” the agent screamed.
“Your wife Bonnie sure is a beautiful woman. I bet she’s a fighter. Is she a fighter, Agent Townsend?”
“Josie! Josie Banks is her name! She was placed in state custody in San Diego!”
Mort smiled, pulled his pistol from its holster, and shot the man in the forehead.
He dialed Moloney as he exited the building. The cool night air welcomed him and he grinned victoriously up at the moon.
“What have you found?” Moloney asked.
“She was alive. They changed her name and sent her to California.”
“Interesting.”
“I’ll follow up and get back to you,” Mort promised.
“See that you do.”
* * *
Tristan stood in front of his bathroom mirror, raking his nails over the scruff covering his jaw. He didn’t feel like shaving today. Connie, his cougar of a manager, always said that he looked like a hobo when he didn’t shave, but his tips never proved that. Tristan assumed it was her personal preference and had nothing to do with image. Connie had a way of feigning interest in people’s lives, making them think that she only wanted what was best. All she cared about was the bar’s bottom line. That, and discovering what the young male employees were willing to offer in exchange for a raise.
Once a week she would call Tristan into her office and make him stand at attention while she sat filing her acrylic nails. Today was his day. The leathered skin of her chest was sprinkled with freckles that seemed to cascade into the deep valley created by her silicone breasts. She pressed them together and leaned over her desk.
“How’s it going, Tristan? You still happy with our arrangement?” Connie asked, her voice raspy with tequila and menthol cigarettes.
Tristan huffed, annoyed at her ability to make every conversation sound like a sexual invitation.
“Yes, ma’am. I love my schedule.”
“Ugh, don’t call me ma’am. You make me out to be some old church lady. I’m not your mother. Am I, sweetheart?”
“No.” Tristan squashed his desire to add “ma’am.” “You certainly are not.”
It was the same song and dance each time and Tristan had mastered the steps. Connie searched for conversation, anything to keep him in her eyesight longer. He felt her try to stay professional, but it never lasted long.
“Is there anything that you need, Tristan? Anything I can give you? To help you better perform your job, of course.”
“I’m capable of stocking the bar, checking IDs, and mixing over twenty-two thousand drink combinations. I think I’ve got a handle on it.”
Privy to her internal battle, Tristan smiled and toyed with her, playing his part. Though deep down he hated the way she regarded him solely as a pretty boy moneymaker.
“So it seems,” she answered and dismissed him. “Make sure to send Lee up here when he gets in.”
With a salute, he left her office feeling relieved and disgusted for playing her game.
Three hours into his shift, Tristan was struggling to remain focused. His eyes darted to that dark corner every few seconds, willing McKenzi to materialize out of thin air. He had no idea what he would say to her, everything in his head sounded childlike and flimsy. All he knew was seeing her had rekindled a fire inside his gut, a fire that he loved.
Last night, his dreams had been awash with the face and voice of twelve-year-old McKenzi Delaune. It all meshed together in a photomontage of sorts. The way his brain filed each image chronologically made it easy to relive his past. Tristan saw her adolescent face smiling down at him while he climbed his way up their tree. He heard her giggle as he chased her around his room with a frog croaking its displeasure. His visions morphed into their first awkward dance in junior high, to the first time he’d seen her in a bikini, and eventually to their first kiss.
He wasn’t sure who she’d become now. Tristan was selfish and didn’t know if he wanted to mar his idealistic memories with this new, darker version of McKenzi. She seemed so severe and troubled, like she’d been through a lifetime of hurt. Something drew him in, like a kamikaze moth to a flame. He had no choice in the matter. Thinking back, he never had.
His eyes checked the corner again. Nothing. He watched as Erin made her way to each table before sauntering up to the bar, smiling widely.
“Thank God!” she said dramatically. “I don’t have to wait on Bundy tonight.” She grabbed four bottled beers and turned to leave again. “She’s all yours.”
Tristan’s brows furrowed. He checked the corner again, still empty. Finally, his eyes slid down the bar and found her there, scribbling. He took a deep breath and stepped over to face her. He did not miss the drawing of his anchor tattoo now decorating the bar’s surface.
“I may have to call the San Diego Graffiti Control Program and report you for that.”
“What’s stopping you?” Josie asked, one eyebrow raised in challenge.
“Well, that particular image,” he said, pointing to the defaced bar, “is directly related to me. I could be implicated. There’s paperwork, a long form that you have to fill out. Then you have to take it downtown to file the complaint, waiting in lines and spending far too much time bathed in fluorescent lighting and breathing government air.”
“Government air?” Josie asked.
“Yes. The exhaled breaths and sighs of people working for an uneducated supervisor whose cousin got him the job. They bring paper bag lunches and drink diluted coffee, both of which fill the air with stink and dissatisfaction. On their lunch breaks, they sit in a room that hasn’t been dusted since the first Bush administration and brag about a home life that is less fulfilling than their monotonous job. All those feelings, words, dust, fumes, and tastes combine into the stench of regret for a life never lived and dreams long forgotten. Government air.”
Josie just stared at him, wondering if she could make sense of this rant. After a few seconds of inner debate, she decided to move on.
“Why don’t you just fill out the form online?”
“I prefer face-to-face interaction.”
“Even in government air?” she asked.
“Even then.”
“Thanks for not reporting me, I guess.”
“No problem. What can I get you, Mac?”
“Mac?”
“That’s what I called you when we were kids,” Tristan said, his eyes shining with memories.
“My name is Josie,” she corrected.
“Okay, Josie,” he said, raising his hands in surrender. “Rum and Coke?”
“Yes.”
Tristan made her drink and set it before her carefully as though it represented more of a peace offering than a simple beverage. He watched as she capped her marker and slid it into a pocket on her bag. She sipped her drink, the stretch of silence between them becoming unbearable.
“What happened to you?” he asked, his mouth acting before his brain had worked out a more subtle approach.
“Last night?” she asked.
“No, the summer after we turned fourteen.”
“Oh. Not here,” she pleaded, shaking her head.
“When? Where?” Tristan begged.
“You get off at midnight, right?”
“Yes,” he said.
“Meet me at City Deli.”
Tristan noticed this was not a question. He nodded.
Josie drained her drink in one swallow and left cash on the bar. She slung her bag across her body and exited onto the street, leaving the sole connection to her past behind. She had three hours to kill before meeting him and wondered what kind of trouble she could get into before then.
* * *
Josie stocked up at Trader Joe’s and headed down Sixth Avenue toward the park. The quiet of the street was strange for this time of night. There was a couple out walking their dog, patiently waiting as he sniffed every inch of sidewalk. A block later she spotted two queens in four-inch heels trying to hail a cab. They weren’t having much luck. A group of teenagers flew past, the recognizable sound of their skateboards approaching like a roaring train. They challenged each other to kickflips and ollies before coasting down the hill.
Josie turned into the park, ignoring the sidewalks for the plush feel of grass beneath her feet. The city’s nighttime shine filtered down through the trees, cloaking her in a lacy pattern of light. She loved the smell of the plants. It made her nostalgic for something she couldn’t quite remember.
“Hey, Gavin. What’s up?” Josie called out as she approached the familiar bench. It was the only one in the park with her trademark graffiti.
“Stems! Long time no see. You two-timing me?”
The woman gave Josie a flirty smile, displaying a set of teeth that reminded her of mismatched furniture. Gavin’s expression was easy, but the coldness in her eyes always told her truths. The streets had an artful way of taking life from you when you were busy just trying to survive. The way she leaned back on the bench with her arm resting across the top made her look like a woman who felt at home here. When you didn’t have a physical address to belong to, you could feel at home anywhere.
“Stems?” Josie asked while taking a seat on the opposite end of the bench. “What’s that about?”
“Your legs, baby girl. They go on for days. Your stems,” she answered, shrugging as though it was the most logical explanation in the world.
“Well, I guess that’s better than the last one.”
“What? You didn’t like Perdy?”
Josie made a face, squishing up her features and shaking her head. “No! That sounds like some redneck in overalls who butchers people.”
Gavin laughed, a full belly chuckle that momentarily hid her sharpness and made her appear young again.
“Well, when you put it that way.”
“I got a new piece up downtown. On Fifth. Took me two hours.”
“I’ll have to check it out. I know you got mad skills.”
“You hungry?” Josie asked, holding out a granola bar.
“Thanks,” Gavin said, ripping open the paper and humming in delight at the taste of chocolate.
“Here’s the rest,” Josie said, handing over the four bags filled with food. “You’ll give it to the kids down in the plaza?”
“I always do.”
“Good. Keep what you want, but make sure Sarah gets the gummy worms. She loves those.”
“Yeah.”
“Anything new? Those asshole cops still bothering you?” Josie asked.
“Nah. Shorty was arrested for bathing in the fountain again. Gregory sends his love, as always. Kim and Kim moved down by the 163. And Logan…”
“Out with it, Gavin.”
“Logan’s gone. Haven’t seen him in weeks.”
Josie blew out a breath, frustrated she couldn’t keep up with the kids better. Since her time on the streets, she’d become attached to them. They represented the only family she’d ever known.
“Well, if you see him, let me know. How’s your girl?”
“Who knows, Stems. I heard she’s headed up to L.A. with her new boyfriend.”
“Sorry. I thought you two were going to make it.”
“Sure felt like it. That’s what I get for messing with a bi girl. They never know what the hell they want.” Gavin sighed. “Maybe she didn’t like her nickname.”
“Well, I like Stems,” Josie said. “Maybe I’ll have to give you one too.”
“What’s wrong with Gavin?”
“I’ve never met a chick named Gavin before.”
Gavin closed her eyes and tilted her face away from Josie, her shoulders tense.
“It’s just a way to stay anonymous on the streets, you know? It was my brother’s name,” she admitted.
Josie didn’t press her for more information. She knew what it was like to have a past that you’d rather not relive or retell. Both had been discarded by society. The difference was Josie had felt empowered by the freedom of unregulated days and nights. They had shared a common ground, a common sleeping hole, and a common need to burn their pain away. An easy silence fell between them as they waited for their miracle man, the deliverer of coping aids and pharmaceutical highs.
