Текст книги "Things Liars Hide"

Автор книги: Sara Ney

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And when she does, she’ll like it.

I’ll be the first one to admit I’m actually enjoying myself on this non-date. Of course, I won’t be admitting that to anyone out loud anytime soon. Or in writing.

Well, okay—maybe in writing. After all, I still need a storyline for my second book, and Collin makes the perfect muse for the hero: strong, handsome, charming…

Tenacious. Disarming. Alluring.

I sip this disgusting beer and sigh, watching him retreat to the men’s room, my rapt gaze trailing after and landing on his tight, firm, denim-clad ass. He’s been incredibly attentive, respectful (sort of, for the most part), and funny. Intelligent. Not to mention really, really ridiculously good looking.

Crap.

Now I sound like freaking Derek Zoolander.

And I mentioned he’s funny, right? It’s a pretty lethal combination, and if he weren’t Greyson’s brother… and I hadn’t acted like a complete bitch when we first met, well…

There might be a slight chance I’d date him.

Oh, who am I trying to kid? I’d date the shit out of him in a heartbeat because nice, funny, respectful guys aren’t easy to find. In fact, they’ve become more of an urban legend than a reality.

However, the fact remains: he is Grey’s brother, and for whatever reason, I find the thought of dating him a bit strange. Weird. Creepy, even.

For me, it feels like fishing for a boyfriend in the family pond.

You just don’t do it.

I give myself a pep talk, reminding myself to quit gushing. This thing with Collin Keller is not happening...

I will say this though: he’s going to be hard to resist.

Fortunately, I deal with impossible, sometimes arrogant, men at work on a daily basis, so his persistence should be a piece of cake.

Theoretically.

I’ll just enjoy his company tonight, and in the future we can causally bump into each other at family functions. This attraction thing is no big deal; I can handle it. I am a fortress of feminine willpower. I’ve taken all the feminist classes in college. Women’s Studies. How to be an Independent Woman 101.

I’ll plop Collin deftly into the Friend Zone category, right where he belongs, and that will be that.

It won’t be weird at all.

Yup, that’s what I’ll keep telling myself.

The waiter comes with our food and refills while Collin is in the bathroom, and to busy myself, I prep my burger, adding the garnishes and extra pickles. Dipping the burger in ketchup, I take a huge bite and chew.

It’s so delicious I actually whimper into my next bite.

My thoughts stray to Collin, and I shake my head. Get a grip, Tabitha. He is not the guy for you. If you get close to him, the carefully erected wall you built will come crashing down around you…

I’m so committed to not falling under his spell, I avoid looking directly at him when he re-approaches the booth and drops himself down with a cheeky grin. A grin full of white teeth. I don’t look away quick enough and can’t help but notice one of his bottom teeth is just a tad bit crooked.

Irresistible.

So irresistible that my stomach does that fluttering thing again, followed by my annoying, rapidly beating heart.

Sweaty palms.

A nervous giggle, and I slap a palm over my mouth, horrified. My traitorous body apparently belongs to a hormonal teenage girl.

It has terrible timing.

B lare twisted a lock of her brown hair and regarded Adam from across the booth, her eyes riveted on his full lips and five o’clock shadow. His words sent shivers down her spine every time he opened his mouth to talk—a mouth she wanted all over her body. Of course, she couldn’t admit this out loud—not until she knew how he really felt. He smiled again and laid his palms flat on the table. “Stop teasing me,” Blare said, giving her brunette locks an agitated shake, her silky hair floating around her shoulders in waves. “You’re trying to bait me into an argument, Adam, and it won’t work.”

“Bait you? What the hell does that even mean?” The dawning of realization sets in and Adam laughs, rich and deep and throaty. A laugh that makes Blare want to climb across the table on all fours and straddle his lap. “Ah, a word from one of those slutty romances you’re always reading. I like it.” He winks at her and she drops her head onto the tabletop with a loud thump, letting out a groan. How humiliating. “Oh my god.”

To: [email protected]

From: [email protected]

Subject: Thank you. Again.

Collin, thank you for bringing my book back, and for dinner last night. I’m sorry the check ripped in half when I grabbed it, trying to split the bill with you. If I’d known you had the world’s strongest vise grip, I wouldn’t have bothered. Tabitha

To: [email protected]

From: [email protected]

Subject: You’re welcome. Again.

Tabitha, don’t worry about it. I’m sure the waiter enjoyed taping the whole thing back together after we left. Know what he probably enjoyed even more? Seeing you slap my hand away when I tried helping you out of the booth. The expression on his face was priceless.

CK

To: [email protected]

From: [email protected]

Subject: Helped me out of the booth?

I think you’re remembering it wrong. You weren’t trying to HELP me out of the booth. You were trying to touch my ass—the SAME ass you called BONY only two weeks prior. Now what do you have to say for yourself? Tabitha

To: [email protected]

From: [email protected]

Subject: Your ass?

I’ll admit, I was hasty in my judgment of your ASSets. Your rear is in no way bony. Especially in those black yoga pants you had on last night. I realize it was your attempt to appear dowdy and less attractive, but you failed miserably. Those pants did nothing but showcase your second best feature.

CK

Collin: You’re adorable when you’re nervous.

Tabitha: What are you talking about? When was I nervous?

Collin: I’m thinking about dinner the other night, when I came back from the bathroom. When you tried to mask your laugh. You shouldn’t have covered it up.

Tabitha: I wish you wouldn’t say things like that.

Collin: What things?

Tabitha: Charming things that make me question my resolve.

Collin: You’re thinking way too much. Why can’t you just act like a big girl and do what you want? Or better yet, act like a guy and straight up don’t give a shit.

Tabitha: Because you’re Greyson’s brother.

Collin: What the hell does that have to do with anything? I’m a grown man. I started living for myself years ago.

Tabitha: Do I have to spell it out for you????

Collin: Yes. And while you’re at it, spell out a few naughty words too. I know you know lots of those.

Tabitha:Knock it off. I am not sexting you.

Collin: That’s disappointing. For a sex book author, you’re kind of a prude.

“So you think he’s into you?” my best friend Daphne asks, propping the popcorn bucket on her legs and balancing it when she reaches to grab her soda off the sofa table.

Tonight is movie night at her place, and I grab the remote for the Blu-ray player, pointing it at the big screen hanging on her living room wall. Skillfully, I click through the menu, find Netflix, and choose How I Met Your Mother. (Does anyone besides me still watch this show?)

“Definitely. We literally argued about why it’s a bad idea to date.”

“I don’t understand how the two of you ended up having dinner together in the first place. Didn’t you say you just bumped into him at Target? How’d you end up at Finches Tap? I don’t get it.”

So here’s the thing. I haven’t exactly told any of my friends about the books, either. Especially not Daphne. Don’t get me wrong—I love her to death, and we’ve been friends almost our entire lives, but she wouldn’t be able to keep this secret to save her soul. She’d be way too proud and want to tell the entire world!

Daphne is an incredible, loyal friend—but I know eventually she’d spill the beans, and I need my secret to stay hidden.

I hate the lying, but I do it anyway. “Greyson left a textbook at Collin’s new condo during his housewarming party, and we met so he could give it to me. Cal’s coming home tonight and he’s swinging by my place on his way back.”

Daphne nods, popping a kernel into her mouth.

In front of me, my cell phone—set on vibrate—begins a jaunty little dance across the wooden coffee table, the buzzing sound oddly shrill in my friend’s tiny apartment. The LED lights up.

Collin Keller’s name flashes across the screen.

Holy. Moly.

I stare at it, stunned. Why is he calling me? Why. Is. He. Calling. Me?

Popcorn spills onto the carpet when my best friend dives off the couch like a rocket, snatching my phone. “Shitballs, is that him? He’s calling! No one makes phone calls anymore!” Her hands fly out to stop me from grabbing the phone, but then she tosses it at my chest. I barely catch it, fumbling as Daphne continues shouting at me. “Don’t answer it. Wait, answer it! Hurry!”

I smack her hand away. “Shh, would you be quiet!” Laughing, I answer the phone.

“Hello?”

I hear heavy breathing, followed by a tentative, “Tabitha? Hi. It’s Collin. Uh, Collin Keller.”

I point to the phone, mouthing, Oh my god! It’s him! to Daphne, who’s now bouncing up and down on the couch like a child, popcorn spilling everywhere. And by everywhere, I mean everywhere—the cushions, the carpet, the table—all littered with fluffy, buttery kernels.

What a flipping mess.

Daphne bounces and looks exactly how I feel—like a teenager, bubbly and giddy and ridiculous.

“I know who this is, you goof.” I smack a palm to my forehead. Goof? Ugh. Unsexiest word ever. Daphne titters and tosses a kernel of popcorn into her open mouth, sitting back on the couch and watching me like a television show.

“I hope I’m not interrupting anything?” Surprisingly, he sounds self-conscious.

I glance down at my gray sweatpants, maroon Ivy sweatshirt, and polka-dot fuzzy socks. “Uh, no. It’s fine. You caught me just as I was about to climb into a bubble bath.”

Daphne raises her eyebrows and snorts. What? I shrug. I’m just giving him a visual of me climbing into the tub. Naked. Everybody knows that’s basic How To Drive a Guy Wild 101: Give him a visual.

“Really?” Is it just my imagination, or did his voice just crack a little?

“Yeah, but don’t worry. I’ll just take the phone in the tub.” Daphne rolls her green eyes towards the ceiling then makes the universal you’re insane gesture with her hands.

“What are you doing the rest of the night?”

“Um, I’ll probably have a glass of wine and sit out on the deck with my laptop.” Now my best friend is shaking her head back and forth at me, clearly disgusted. I’m sorry! I mouth, while pantomiming, I can’t tell him I’m chilling in sweatpants!

She sticks her tongue out, sitting cross-legged on the couch. I find my manners and ask him about himself. “What about you? What are you up to?”

Collin thinks about it for a second, static filling the silence. “Not much. There’s a How I Met Your Mother marathon on that I’ll probably watch.”

I freaking love that show.

“You do?”

Shit, did I say that out loud? “Yes. Love, love, love.”

“Say love one more freaking time,” Daphne whispers. I swat my arm towards her. Shut up, Daph!

“Do you…” Collin clears his throat. “Wanna come over and watch it with me? You can sit on one side of the sofa and I’ll sit on the other. I’ll even let you put your stinky feet on my new coffee table.”

Ugh, he is so sweet. I make an aw face at Daphne.

“I’d love to, but I really need to stay in tonight.” I glance over at my best friend, who’s watching me intently. Lowering my voice, I walk towards the kitchen, away from her intense eavesdropping. Peering over my shoulder, I check to make sure she’s not listening. “Um, remember I told you I started a second book? I should probably get some of that done since I’m on a roll lately.”

“Ah, because I’m your muse.” He says it so confidently, like he knows. Damn him. “Bring your laptop over and I’ll let you follow me around, observing me in my wild habitat.”

I laugh softly, biting my bottom lip to stop the grin spreading across my face. “Collin Keller, you’re becoming a real pain in my backside.”

He hums through the phone. “You’re a breath of fresh air. With a lovely backside.”

I shiver. “Collin, don’t make this hard.”

“Um…” His low hum trails off suggestively. “Too late.”

“Oh my god. No.”

“Come on, Tabitha, admit it—your mind went there, too.”

His voice when he says my name, though… Ugh. I love it. I can’t resist flirting with him just a little, and if this phone had a cord I’d be twirling it around my finger. “Yours went there first. Besides, it’s a hazard of the trade. I can’t help playing out scenes in my head.”

His laughter is filled with humor. “Just admit it; you have a filthy mind.”

“Filthy? That might be a bit of a stretch. I prefer to call it imaginative.”

“That brings me to the actual reason I’m calling. Let me take you and your imagination out on one date.” He’s quiet. “Just one.”

Daphne is perched on the edge of the couch, spellbound, mouth agape. I point to the phone, mouthing, He just asked me out! Then I shoo her to be quiet when she loudly hisses, “You freaking better say yes!”

Feigning indifference, I relent. “You know what? Okay. Fine. I give up.”

Collin’s low chuckle on the other end sends another shiver up my spine. “Okay fine? I give up? Calm down, Thompson, or I might think you actually like me.”

“It sounds like you’re pouting. Are you pouting, Collin?”

“No comment.”

Before I can stop myself, I say, “Aw, you’re kind of adorable. Did you know that?”

This cheers him up and I can virtually hear him smiling. “Two dates.”

“Don’t push your luck. Let’s just start with one…”

“Can’t blame a guy for trying.”

Collin: Hey blondie. Write anything good last night?

Tabitha: Actually, yes! A few more chapters in the new book. Plus I’m done editing the proof for On the Brink, book one.

Collin: Be honest. You ARE using me as a muse. For real.

Tabitha: Why would I do a thing like that?

Collin: Because I’m charming and ridiculously good looking. Besides, I noticed you’re not denying it.

Tabitha: LOL knock it off. I can’t get anything done with my phone blowing up every ten seconds.

Collin: Give me one line from your new book and we can both get back to work. Promise.

Tabitha: Fine. Here it is: “The quiet way she spoke was louder than the words she could have shouted.”

Collin : Holy shit, that’s amazing! You’re amazing!

Tabitha: blushes Now go back to work.

Collin: Fine, but I’m going to be thinking of you all day. I hope you’re satisfied.

Tabith a: Alright, well—I guess I’ll see you soon?

Collin : Tomorrow night. Six o’clock?

Tabitha: Yes. 6:00

W hat was so wrong with him knowing? Blare mulled the question over in her mind at least a few dozen times as she sat in her apartment, wondering what it meant for him to know her secret.

It wasn’t like he was going to tell anyone. She liked him—really liked him. Trusted him. Longed for him. Blare finally admitted to herself that it felt good that someone finally knew; the burden of her secret had been lifted off her shoulders, and she didn’t have to keep lying anymore. Well, she did, but not to everyone. Not to him. Blare felt freer than she had in years now that someone else knew. And now he was taking her out. On a date. For Blare, the future seemed infinite…

Deftly, my fingers fly across the keyboard on my laptop, and I hesitate. Should I delete any of those few sentences? Will any of them give me away if someone I know reads it? Oh, who am I trying to kid—the only person reading my work is Collin, and he’s not saying anything to anyone.

Is he?

I scoff at this notion, deeming it absurd. Quickly, I make myself a note in the margin of my book document, hit SAVE, close my laptop, and stand.

Walking to my closet, I throw open the door and brace my hands on both sides of the doorway, wearing only a nude colored bra and matching underwear. I study my selection of clothes before going in, and head right for the dresses.

Pulling out a gorgeous emerald-green wrap dress, I hold it against my body, running a hand down the length of the fabric and deciding it’s the perfect dress for this date.

The color is rich and jewel toned, and sets off the flush of my skin and the blonde of my hair. I’ve never worn it—never had an occasion—so the tags still hang, dangling from the sleeve. I carefully tug them off and toss them in the garbage under my bathroom sink.

And I might be lying to my family and my friends about what I do in my free time after work, but I won’t lie to myself about this date.

I am excited.

No.

No, there has to be a better word for it than that…

Euphoric. Nervous? Elated. My body is positively humming with anticipation.

I flatten one hand on my stomach, putting pressure there to quell the nerves taking root, inhale, steadying my breath, and hang the green dress on a hook by the shower. Deep breath, Tabitha. In through the nose, out through the mouth.

Why am I so nervous? My hands go to my face; my cheeks are burning. Positively on fire.

God, I’m burning up—for him.

I feel like…

I feel like this is the start of something momentous. Like the minute I walk out that door, my life is going to change.

Is that weird? Crazy? Melodramatic much?

Who cares! I’m twenty-four years old, for crying out loud. Old enough to be facing this date more logically—instead of like a ditzy sixteen-year-old headed out on her first date.

First date.

First kiss.

First… everything.

With Collin Keller, of all people.

After flipping on the light switches surrounding the vanity at the sink, one by one until the whole room is ablaze, I pull out the stool usually kept under the counter, and sit.

Studying myself in the mirror, I debate how to make over my face. Dramatic look or simple? Dewy or matte?

Smoky or—guh! What the hell am I even saying?

Yes, now I do sound crazy!

My blonde hair is up in giant rollers, and I leave them to cool while applying makeup, my nervous hands shaking when I try to brush on my mascara, careful not to clump it up, and I just barely manage not to stab myself in the retinae. Barely.

I brace my hands against the counter, take a few steadying breaths, and stare at my reflection before tackling the mop of thick hair piled on my head.

The rollers come out one at a time, and the blonde waves loosely fall down around my shoulders. I add styling cream to eliminate the flyaways, and set it.

Once that chore is done, I fish around my makeup drawer for the dark plum matte lipstick Greyson gave me for my birthday—she calls it her “lucky gala lipstick”—swipe a few times across my pout, and then give them pucker.

Transformed, I stare.

Give my locks a shake.

Inhale, exhale.

Decision made: I won’t resist him anymore if he wants to keep taking me out. If he wants to email and text and talk on the phone. If he wants to take me to bed. I won’t resist him at all. Doing so would be foolish, and I am no fool. Yes, the lying needs to stop.

I’m going to start by admitting how Collin Keller really makes me feel.

He makes me feel clever and funny.

He makes me feel desirable.

He makes me hopeful.

Ugh. How annoying.

I cannot physically make myself stop staring.

Tabitha is gorgeous.

I give her another sidelong glimpse across my car, my eyes appreciatively scanning her silky legs, demurely crossed at the ankles. The slit in her dress slides open at that exact moment to reveal a sliver of tan thigh.

Focus on the fucking road, Collin, Jesus.

Clearly I’ve completely given up playing it cool.

I’m nervous as hell.

As I white-knuckle the steering wheel, my palms actually begin sweating, not just because Tabitha and she’s stunning, but because of what I have planned. She’s either going to love it or… never want to see me again.

Or slap me across the face, which, to be honest, would be hot as hell.

She’s given me one date. One chance. The last thing I want to do is fuck it up. However, I wanted to pull out all the stops without having to ask my sister for advice, and this was the only way I knew how.

Life imitating art.

Her first book.

The chapter I used as inspiration for tonight’s date burns, imprinted in my brain.

God, those eyes. Those shoulders. That ass. Would she ever get sick of watching it walk away? Not in this lifetime… Rachel tried to hide the smile threatening to escape, raising her Chardonnay and studying it. She swirled it then watched as the clear gold liquid crept down the side of the glass, clinging to life. Rachel lowered it then returned it to the table, and watched as Devon re-approached. The butterflies in her stomach flitted and danced carelessly, unaware of the turmoil they caused. These feelings—they weren’t part of the plan; she wasn’t supposed to fall for him this way… she wasn’t supposed to fall for him at all. The room he’d reserved was intimate, down a narrow hall in the back of the dimly lit Italian restaurant, meant for private parties. Three roses sat in a thin vase in the center of their table: red, yellow, and peach. Roses that Devon had placed there himself. The chardonnay. The way he’d found out and ordered her favorite foods… It was all so perfect. But what did it mean? Rachel was both anxious—and scared—to find out…

I push her written words out of my mind. What’s done is done.

Love it or hate it, there’s no turning back now.

Having reached our destination, I easily find a parking spot, pull in, and shift my black sports car into park. I throw open my door and hop out hurriedly, bending at the waist and sticking my head back inside the car to peer in at her. “Don’t. Move.”

I jog around to the passenger seat and pull the passenger side door open. Tabitha’s long, smooth legs appear first, nude high heels hitting the pavement with a tap. My hand reaches for her, and she grasps it, allowing me to assist her out of the car.

The wind throws up a gentle breeze, lifting her hair at the nape of her graceful neck and parting the hem of her dark green dress, à la Marilyn Monroe.

Thank you, wind gods, for that complimentary peep show, although not enough peep to glimpse the goods.

Damn, no such luck.

Tabitha tucks a small purse—handbag, I think girls call it—under the crook of her arm, then runs her hands down her dress, flattening out the wrinkles caused by the wind. She adjusts the sash around her narrow waist, and I notice her flowy dress has a blessedly plunging neckline, exposing an entire eyeful of cleavage that makes my fingers itch.

Of course, I can’t help but admire her amazing tits.

Sorry, I mean breasts. But come on: They. Are. Right. There. The low-cut neckline is an invitation for my eyes to ogle away.

To be completely honest, I’m shocked she’s wearing this dress. This dress means she considers this a real date; this is not a dress you wear when you’re Friend Zoning a guy. It’s a sexy-ass dress you’re able to untie with only a gentle tug to the sash. One you drop to the floor at the end of your date.

The kind of dress you wear when you want him undressing you with his eyes all night.

And tonight, it’s damn good to be Collin Keller.

The fabric is flirty, silky, and light—touchable everywhere. My eyes wander, my hands impatient to shove her back in my car, drive her back to my place, and screw her brains out until she can’t remember a single reason we shouldn’t be here together—and give her a million screaming reasons why we should.

As my eyes rake over her cleavage, again, I wonder if she’s wearing lingerie underneath and what it looks like. My hand settles at the small of her back to guide her towards the restaurant—and hell if it doesn’t graze her ass while I’m checking it out.

Damn fine ass.

Makes me wanna slap it, too.

Mind out of the gutter, Keller.

Inside, we’re greeted by the hostess.

“Hi,” I start, clearing my throat. Here goes nothing. “Party of two for Neumann. That’s N-E-U-M-A-N-N. Not to be confused with New Man.”

Sadly, the hostess’s features remain stoic, not getting my joke and ruining all my fun. Nodding, she motions for us to follow, leading us to the back corner of the restaurant, taking a left to steer us down a hallway. Tabitha glances at me over her shoulder, puzzled, so I feign a shrug, pleading ignorance.

Shit. I hope this wasn’t a mistake.

“Here you go, sir. The private room you requested.” A door opens and the room we enter can only be described as opulent. Lavish. In the center of the secluded dining room, beneath an ornamental crystal chandelier, is a single set table. Draped white linens cover the surface. Candles and a crystal vase of four long-stem roses occupy the center: red, peach, yellow, and lavender. Several steaming plates of Tabitha’s favorite foods have already been served.

The hostess hangs back. “Your sommelier will be back shortly with the Chardonnay.”

Tabitha’s head rears towards me and her smoky eyes widen, appearing a shocking shade of blue. “Collin, what on earth…”

“Now, Rachel, before you say anything, don’t overreact.”

“Why are you calling me Rachel? What… Oh, sweet Jesus.” She looks around, confused. “Did you..? Wait. Is this what I think it is?”

“No?”

Her eyebrows shoot up into her hairline, skepticism written all over her face. I can’t tell if she wants to smack me or not. “Collin Keller, what is going on? Is this the date scene from the paperback proof you stole?” She whispers this last part. “Be honest.”

“Okay, yes. This is what it looks like. Are you mad?”

She gives pause, sets her purse down on the table, and then rewards me with a smile when I pull the chair out for her, a gentlemanly gesture that has her blue eyes softening.

I know I’ve got her.

Score one for Team Collin.

Nervously, she pushes a few strands of hair behind her ear. Sparkling green emeralds shine in her lobes. “I don’t even know how to be furious with you right now. I’m speechless. Later it might be possible that I’ll want to kill you, but right now… I can’t even believe you did this.”

This is the recreation of the first date scene from her very first book.

This is me romancing a girl who’s making it damn near impossible to romance her.

But I’m sure going to fucking try.