Текст книги "Beneath the Shadows"

Автор книги: Sara Foster

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Grace had expected to spend the whole of New Year’s Eve with only Millie for company, but in the afternoon Emma called around with a request. ‘My sister’s having a church jumble sale tomorrow, and she’s tearing her hair out trying to get enough donations. All the money goes to the homeless. You don’t have anything she can sell, do you?’

‘Are you kidding?’ Grace replied, stepping back so Emma could see the boxes stacked up in the hallway behind her.

They filled Emma’s car with as much as it could hold, and Emma looked longingly at what was left behind.

‘It’s such a shame to leave it, but we’re staying over in Ockton tonight for New Year, and I’m helping her set up the sale first thing. I should have thought about this earlier.’ Her shoulders slumped regretfully.

‘Well, I could bring these to Ockton for you, if you like,’ Grace offered.

‘Oh, don’t you worry,’ Emma said hastily. ‘There’s no need to go to any bother.’

But Grace was thinking of Jonny. She had a burgeoning desire to see the farm at Gilldale for herself, and Ockton was only a few miles further. ‘I’d be happy to,’ she insisted. ‘Just give me directions.’

Emma’s face brightened. ‘Well, that’s ever so kind of you! My sister will be thrilled. If you’ve got a paper and pen handy, I’ll draw you a map.’

As they finished and Grace closed the door, she surveyed the half-empty hallway. This had been a stroke of luck for her as well as for Emma’s sister. Tomorrow this area would be clear again. It was amazing how the knowledge made her mind feel so much lighter.

As she walked into the lounge and looked around, she felt a fresh impetus to clear out as much as she could today. Most of the contents of the china cabinet could go to tomorrow’s sale, not to mention the extra table linen. She grabbed a few empty boxes from the hall and began to pull things out of drawers and pack them up. It was satisfying work, and she was stacking yet another full box in the hallway when she heard someone crunching down the garden path.

She opened the door to see Claire standing there. ‘Ben told me that your guests have gone, so I decided to pop round and see how you are.’

Grace was touched by Claire’s thoughtfulness. ‘Come in. Would you like a hot drink?’

‘A tea would be great, thanks.’

They went through to the lounge. Claire took a seat and began talking to Millie while Grace boiled the kettle.

When their mugs were on the table, Claire asked, ‘So, what are you doing for New Year tonight?’

‘Not a lot,’ Grace admitted. She had been half-hoping that Ben would come and find her to suggest they spent it together. Since he hadn’t, there weren’t many other options.

‘Would you like to come up to the schoolhouse? All my sisters will be there, we usually have a bit of a get-together. It isn’t right to see it in alone …’

Grace wasn’t keen to spend an evening outnumbered by Meredith and her family. However, she realised that it might give her the opportunity to speak to Liza again, and persuade her to talk to the police.

Before she could reply, Claire leaned forward.

‘Actually, I have to confess, I’m hoping that Ben might come too if he knows you’ll be there …’

Grace coughed as a large gulp of hot tea hit her throat unexpectedly fast. ‘What makes you say that?’

‘Well, he seems to think a lot of you. And I’m willing to try anything, to be honest. I am so sick of him skulking up there in that house, and Mum sitting in her castle … and never the twain shall meet. It’s ridiculous, they’re as bad as each other. If I’d known how this was going to pan out I wouldn’t have suggested he came back …’

Grace put down her mug. ‘I don’t know much about it. He’s only said that he had a big falling out with your parents and they’ve been estranged for years.’

‘Well, I bet he didn’t mention how much grief he caused Mum and Dad when he was younger – he was quite the tear-away for a while … Perhaps he was sick of being stuck out here with a load of teenage girls – it can’t have been easy. He crashed Dad’s car into the pub one night after he’d had too much to drink … lost control and it skidded right down the hill.’

‘So is that why he’s still barred?’ Grace asked. ‘I saw him getting thrown out.’

Claire smiled. ‘Len and Joyce think “yance a bad egg, allas a bad egg” – as do most people round here. They probably don’t realise how much time has passed. Once Ben got his reputation it was always going to be difficult for him to shake it off. Moving away was probably his only option – but then he set our house on fire …’

‘What!’

‘Oh, he didn’t mean to. He fell asleep in our old lounge room and left a candle burning. Woke up to find the room ablaze. Mum and Dad were out at the time, but all us girls were home. Ben came flying up the stairs to warn us, but we couldn’t get down past the fire, so we ended up climbing out of Veronica’s window and over the schoolhouse roof. It took the fire engine nearly an hour to get here, and half the house had burned down by the time they got it under control. We were lucky not to lose everything, but Mum and Dad never really forgave him. They pretty much kicked him out – or should I say they made his life hell from then on, until he’d had enough.’

Grace pictured the elegant room at the back of the house. ‘So the huge dining room with the picture window is part of the refurbishment?’

‘Yes.’

‘And how did you keep in touch with Ben, after he left?’

‘He would write to us. Mum and Dad never mentioned him, but we would tell them bits and pieces about what he was doing. The rift appeared to come from both sides, though I thought Mum might back down now Dad has gone. At least it has jolted Ben into making an effort, even if it is too late with Dad. But I don’t know why he’s come all this way and now seems stuck at the last hurdle, even if Mum should be meeting him halfway. Perhaps he’s just too proud to beg …’

‘Well, I hope they can sort it out.’

Claire finished her tea and stood up. ‘So will you come tonight?’

Grace hedged. ‘It’s a really kind offer, but it’s difficult with Millie …’

‘She can sleep in the lounge, if you like – it’s right next door to the dining room, and we have a baby monitor we can put in there as well. That’s what we did when Veronica’s boys were babies.’

Grace couldn’t think of another reason not to go, and so found herself reluctantly acquiescing. ‘Okay, I’ll come. Thanks.’

‘Great.’ Claire began to pull on her gloves. ‘Come around eight.’

They walked to the door. ‘Good luck with Ben,’ Grace said as she showed Claire out.

‘Thanks.’ Claire paused. ‘He’s fond of you – you and Millie. You’re doing him good. When he talks about you, he smiles – and it makes a change. It’s almost like we have the old Ben back.’

And she walked down the path towards the garden gate without waiting for a reply.

Grace stood in front of the schoolhouse, her hands gripping Millie’s pushchair, summoning up the courage to go in. She was missing Adam terribly tonight. Two years ago they had been standing in Times Square together, after Adam whisked her away to New York as a surprise. They had only been married a few months, and were thinking about trying for a baby sometime in the next year – unaware that Millie would be conceived ahead of schedule a month later. As they had held one another close, wrapped within a crowd of thousands all rejoicing, life was crammed with excitement and opportunity.

Last year she had been in her parents’ villa. Her mum had given her two sleeping pills and she had gone to bed at ten.

She peered up at the forbidding house, the only Christmas decoration a prickly wreath of holly on the door. However, despite her hesitation, she had to admit to herself that spending the evening with Meredith’s family was more appealing than sitting in her fusty old cottage on her own, watching TV. And maybe Ben would come too.

Claire greeted her at the door.

‘Did you speak to Ben?’ Grace asked as she manoeuvred Millie’s pushchair inside.

‘Yes. He didn’t agree to show up, but he heard me out and said he’d think about it,’ Claire confided in a whisper. ‘I reminded him that there’s never going to be a perfect time for this. I’ve told Mum he might be coming – she grimaced and has avoided me since, so I’ve no idea what she makes of it. But that’s Mum for you. All my sisters have seen him already, so there won’t be any big reunions. It’s just him and Mum finally being in the same room together. Keep your fingers crossed for us all, won’t you.’

As she led Grace inside, two small boys ran past, the first one trailing a balloon while the smaller one tried gleefully to catch it.

‘Careful!’ Veronica said, appearing in a doorway and glaring at her children. ‘Sorry, guys, they’ve had too much lemonade today. We’re in for a heap of trouble tonight, I think.’

‘Millie’s asleep,’ Grace said, indicating the pushchair, its hood down.

‘Pop her in here then.’ Veronica opened the door to the lounge. ‘The heating’s on, so it’s nice and warm, and I’ve set the monitor up for you.’

Grace peeped inside. The room was softly lit by a small lamp next to the sofa, and she remembered Annabel sitting there, trying to interview Meredith. She looked at the tall witching post next to the fireplace and thought sadly of her sister – how she wished Annabel were here tonight, cracking jokes and being sarcastic.

Grace wheeled Millie’s pushchair over to one corner, checked her daughter was still asleep, then came out and gently closed the door. The dining room door was ajar, light blazing through the gap, and she followed Claire to join the party.

It was the first time she had seen all of Meredith’s daughters together. Veronica was next to Liza on one of the sofas, talking animatedly while pressing her hand against Liza’s protruding belly. Jenny sat opposite, her eyes on her sisters. The husbands were standing by the picture window, its curtains drawn. Dan wore a thick leather jacket, in contrast to Steve’s polo shirt and smart trousers. They looked unlikely friends, and as Grace watched, Dan said something with a chuckle that made Steve look uneasy. In the corner, three young boys were attempting to play Twister. Last of all, Grace spotted Feathery Jack, seated at the table on his own with a sherry glass in his hand.

Claire had gone to find her mother, and Grace looked around wondering who she should talk to. She was already beginning to regret coming, feeling like the spectre in the room that nobody had noticed.

‘Grace?’

She turned to see Meredith, her face stiff with that familiar veneer of politeness.

‘Hello Meredith, thank you for inviting me.’ She handed over a bottle of wine.

‘You’re welcome.’ Meredith took the gift and forced her smile a little wider. ‘There’s food on the side table, please, help yourself.’

Grace went obediently across to the buffet. As she picked up a plate, she surreptitiously looked back to see Meredith surveying the room. Slowly, her children stopped talking.

‘Well, come and eat,’ Meredith said to them, and they began to get up.

‘Ah’ll turn sixty-nine this year,’ a voice piped up behind Grace. She turned to find Feathery Jack hunched in a chair. His eyes were wide, as though he couldn’t quite believe his own words.

Grace wasn’t sure what she should say in reply. He looked far older. Her parents were already in their sixties, but retirement was rejuvenating them – they could easily be mistaken for Jack’s children.

‘Next year, Jack, you’ll be sixty-nine next year. The New Year hasn’t come yet,’ Claire added as she reappeared next to Grace. She didn’t get a response, nor did she seem to expect one.

‘Ah’s last of the old school,’ Jack added gruffly. ‘Rest gone to meet their maker.’

Grace didn’t know what to say to that. Instead, she began to gather food on her plate, then sat down at the large dining table. The others slowly joined her, and Steve took a seat opposite. ‘So, how are you finding living on the moors, Grace?’

‘I like it,’ Grace replied. ‘But I’ve got a lot to do. I wish I had more time to explore the area.’

Dan cut in. ‘No word from that husband of yours, then?’

All other conversation stopped.

‘Dan, leave her be …’ Claire sounded irritated.

‘I was only asking …’

‘Dan was in the police force for a while,’ Liza explained. ‘He had friends working on the investigation …’

Grace could feel her face burning with embarrassment as she met Liza’s eyes. The entreaty in them was clear, and Grace remembered her words as they had talked by the lake. I’m begging you not to get me involved.

Dan glared at his wife. ‘That’s right, Liza. And it’s the strangest case of a missing person that I’ve ever heard of …’

‘That’s as maybe, but I’m sure Grace doesn’t want to talk to us about it,’ Meredith said stonily.

Dan scowled and put his head down.

It seemed Meredith was able to silence her son-in-law easily, even though he was ready to pick a fight with his wife. Grace glanced gratefully at Meredith, but she was concentrating on her meal.

As Grace picked up her knife and fork again, she hoped the conversation was over, but the next voice was female, and obviously directed at her.

‘Don’t you feel scared, living out here alone with your baby? It’s pretty isolated. You must be lonely?’

Grace looked up to see Jenny observing her curiously.

‘Sometimes …’ she admitted. ‘But we’re adjusting …’

‘I don’t think I could live back here now,’ Veronica remarked. ‘No offence,’ she said as Meredith raised her head, ‘I’ve just got too used to having a supermarket on hand 24/7. I don’t know how you did it, Mum – I’m always running in there for something or other.’

‘You just need a better routine,’ Meredith said. ‘You have it too easy nowadays – it makes you lazy.’

‘No it doesn’t,’ Veronica cried. ‘Disorganised, maybe. Lazy, no.’

Meredith smiled thinly and began to help herself to more potato salad.

‘How old is your daughter, Grace?’ Jenny asked.

‘Millie is fifteen months.’ Grace couldn’t help smiling as Millie’s petite little face came into her mind. ‘She’s developing a strong will of her own already – though she hasn’t started walking yet.’ She looked across at Liza. ‘How long till your baby arrives?’

‘Five weeks,’ Liza replied. ‘I can’t believe it.’

‘It changes your life, that’s for sure.’ Grace tried to catch Veronica’s eye for backup, and Veronica smiled but didn’t seem willing to comment. Grace fell silent again, feeling as though she had hit on an awkward subject.

She was relieved that everyone’s attention moved next to Claire, who was roundly berated for planning yet another trip abroad, with no sense of, in Dan’s words, ‘long-term responsibility’. Grace had always been a little envious of big families, but as she listened she realised that they could be quite claustrophobic too – particularly if everyone decided to gang up on you and tell you how to live your life. Perhaps that’s what had happened to Ben. She looked at the mantelpiece clock. It was after nine and there was no sign of him. It didn’t seem as though he were coming – which meant that she had a long night ahead of her with the rest of his family.

She had just finished eating when the conversation swung her way again. ‘So, Grace, how are you getting on with the cottage?’ It was Steve, Veronica’s husband, who had spoken.

‘Slowly,’ Grace admitted. ‘But hopefully things will speed up a bit, now all the festivities are out of the way.’

‘Meredith told me about her suggestion,’ he continued, and Grace recalled Meredith saying that he was a solicitor. She looked over to see that Meredith had her head tilted to one side as she listened, like a bird suddenly aware of an interesting morsel.

‘When people go missing the spouse can get tied into their property for years, even if it is in joint names,’ Steve continued.

Grace tried to keep her face fixed as she said, ‘Yes, I’m aware of that …’ Her voice was hostile, and she avoided everyone’s gaze.

‘Meredith’s idea might be advantageous for both of you,’ Steve persisted. ‘And I’d be happy to find out what can be done legally. If you rent it to someone you know, you might avoid a few problems – particularly if Adam comes back and isn’t happy with the arrangement.’

‘That’s unlikely to happen now,’ Dan added as he ate, waving his fork in the air. ‘Sorry, Grace, but you don’t often find a missing person after all this time.’

Grace was seething. How dare they casually discuss her decisions, her life, and her husband over dinner like this. She was on the verge of losing her temper, when the conversation moved on as though nothing had happened. Veronica started to reprimand one of their children for running around with their food. Jenny got up and began collecting plates.

Grace met Claire’s eyes and saw her sympathy. Meredith was scrutinising her too, but as soon as Grace noticed, the older woman got to her feet and busied herself helping Jenny with the dishes.

People began to leave the table, and Liza hurried from the room. ‘I’m going to check on Millie,’ Grace announced to no one in particular, and followed. At least if she could press Liza to talk to the police, this night wouldn’t be a total waste of time.

However, by the time she reached the hallway, Liza was nowhere to be seen. Frustrated, Grace headed instead to the lounge and peeked under the pushchair hood, reassured by the sight of Millie’s peaceful face. She sat down, and was considering whether to rejoin the party or sneak back to the cottage, when she realised she could hear talking. It was coming from behind her, beyond a window that looked out over the front of the house. She wanted to move, but the curtains were open, and if she got up she would probably be seen in the lamplight. So she sat there uncomfortably, unable to avoid hearing what was being said.

‘Liza, listen to me,’ came a male voice. ‘You can’t stay with him. He’s an idiot.’

‘What choice have I got? I’m not asking for anything from you, so leave me alone – I can’t do this any more.’

‘We’re not doing anything, I’m just talking to you …’

‘You know exactly what I mean. It should never have happened in the first place. If anyone finds out … If Veronica –’

‘They won’t …’

‘They would suspect right this second if they opened the door. I have to get back.’

‘Liza, wait …’

But then there was the sound of the front door opening and shutting, and footsteps hurrying along the corridor.

Grace sat there, stunned. It was unbelievable. This family became increasingly complicated the more she knew of them. Surely Veronica would have some idea of what was going on right under her nose. She couldn’t live with someone and not know …

Then she realised where her thoughts would lead, and cut them dead.

There had been no sound since she heard the front door, and her anger had faded to resignation. There was little point in sitting here. She would go back to the party and at least try to see in the New Year.

She had another peep at Millie, who was still soundly asleep, then headed back out. She was in the corridor, about to re-enter the dining room, when the front door opened.

Steve looked at her in astonishment, but as he saw the look on her face, his eyes turned guilt-ridden. Grace could only hope that she did a passable job of feigning disinterest before she turned away.

A few people asked after Millie when she returned. They had all moved across to the comfier seating, and as the wine flowed, most of the family gradually forgot Grace was there. At one point her phone beeped in her pocket and, collecting it, she saw she had a text from James.

Looks like our friendship is finished.

She would have been disturbed by it if she didn’t know him so well. He would have had too much to drink for the New Year countdown. Don’t be daft, she quickly replied. But after that she heard nothing more.

When the clock read a quarter to eleven, Claire leaned over and said sadly, ‘I can’t believe Ben isn’t going to come.’

Claire had seemed so hopeful that this evening might be a step forward for them all, and Grace felt sorry for her. ‘I’m sure he has his reasons.’

‘Yes, he’s as stubborn as Mum,’ Claire muttered.

As the year met its final hour, the conversation began to turn maudlin. Veronica had eventually got her boys off to bed and appeared to be determined to make up for the drinking time she’d missed. She was lying on the couch with her head propped against Steve’s thigh when she said, ‘I can’t believe this is the first New Year without Dad.’

‘I know,’ Claire agreed. ‘He did love a good knees-up.’

‘He loved the idea of a party,’ Liza said with a smile, ‘but let’s face it, often by this time he’d be exactly like Jack …’

They all looked across. Feathery Jack was slumped in an armchair, his head lolling forward over his chest as his body rose and fell rhythmically.

‘Not on New Year’s,’ Meredith said. ‘That was different.’

Grace turned with the others towards Meredith, who had hovered between the kitchen and the dining room all night. She had kept on the outskirts of the conversation, and yet the girls hadn’t noticed. They treated this place as though it belonged to them, and their mother like she was part of the furniture. But Grace had the feeling that Meredith was the glue that held them all invisibly together.

Grace felt a rush of sympathy as the older woman stooped to collect some empty glasses. She got up and went across, determined to make an effort.

‘Can I help you with anything?’

Meredith abruptly straightened. It was as though she had been lost in her own world and Grace was interrupting her. Lamplight bounced off her eyes and made them appear moist, but perhaps it was just a trick of light – after she moved, all Grace could see on Meredith’s face was the emotionless expression she was used to.

‘I’m fine, Grace,’ she said, ‘but thank you for asking.’

‘Mum … Grace …’ came Veronica’s voice from across the room. ‘Steve’s going to do first footing. No reason why we can’t keep up Dad’s tradition. Dad always made a big deal about it,’ she explained to Grace. ‘We had to go outside before twelve, and then follow him back in after midnight.’ She glanced at her watch. ‘In fact, we’d better get on with it.’ She got to her feet and whipped a whisky bottle from the table in the corner, then picked a lump of coal out of the fireplace. ‘Mum, what else do we need?’

‘I’ll get the rest,’ Meredith said, and left the room. Veronica surveyed them all sitting there. ‘Come on, everyone.’

‘What’s all this about?’ Grace asked Liza as they began to haul themselves up.

‘First footing is meant to bring luck to the house. A tall dark man has to enter first after New Year, and bring gifts – whisky for good cheer, coal for warmth, bread for food, salt for flavour, and a coin for prosperity. Mum and Dad did it every year.’

As they made their way towards the door, Claire asked, ‘What about Jack?’

‘Leave him,’ Veronica said. ‘He won’t even notice.’

They filed down the corridor towards the front door and Grace followed them. Outside, Veronica gave Steve the whisky bottle and the coal, and Meredith gave him a loaf of bread and a pot of salt. She looked at the others. ‘We still need a coin.’

Dan held out a coin, his stance, hand on hip, clearly indicating his contempt for the proceedings. Steve juggled the other items in his arms to receive it. Then they gathered around, and Claire looked at her watch and counted down the seconds.

‘Three … two … one … Happy New Year, everyone!’

Grace had expected lots of hugging and kissing, as would have happened in her family, but instead, after a few choruses of ‘Happy New Year’, Dan piped up, ‘All right then, back inside – hurry up, Steve, it’s bloody freezing.’

Steve walked towards the front door, twisted the handle and pushed, but nothing happened.

‘It’s locked,’ he said. He put the items in his arms on the ground, and tried it again, first with one hand and then with both, rattling it.

‘Let me see.’ Meredith sounded annoyed. She shook the handle, but it didn’t budge.

Grace began to shiver. Please get the bloody door open, she prayed.

Then she heard a long, piercing scream.

At first she thought it was one of Jack’s screeching owls, but as it came again, she registered the familiar pitch of it.

‘That’s Millie,’ she shouted, charging towards the door. ‘Get the bloody door open NOW!’