Текст книги "Something About Lorelei"

Автор книги: Sandi Lynn

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Chapter Twenty-Three

Lorelei

Stepping into the Trump Hotel, I took the elevator up to the suite that Jack had reserved. Nerves settled inside me as I opened the door and stepped inside. I felt like a prostitute and I couldn’t believe that I had agreed to this. After I left the office, I phoned my mom to let her know that I would be a little late picking up Hope because I was working on something and I wouldn’t get out on time. Another lie. What was happening to me? It seemed as though lately, everything that came out of my mouth was a lie.

Looking around the suite, I was enthralled by the class and beauty of it. Taking note of the chocolate-covered strawberries sitting on the counter, I picked one up and bit into it with a smile. Walking into the bedroom, I noticed a box that said Victoria’s Secret on it sitting on the bed with a note. I sat down, read the note, and looked at the box. I was too scared to open it. I was afraid to see what was inside. I pulled my phone from my purse and dialed Stella.

“What’s up, chicky?” she answered.

“I don’t have time to explain, so I need you to listen to me. Don’t ask any questions. I’m in a suite that Jack reserved for us at the Trump Hotel. Sitting on the bed next to me is a box from Victoria’s Secret and I’m scared to open it.”

“I’m sorry, but I have to ask. Why are you at the Trump? Are you two having sex again?”

“Yes, and I said no questions. He’s not here yet. He wanted me to come to his place tonight, but I told him I was meeting you. So he booked this room and let me off work two hours early.”

A sudden burst of laughter flowed through the phone. “I’m sorry. That is just awesome. Open the damn box, Lorelei. I’m sure it’s some sexy lingerie he wants you to wear. What a kinky fucker he is.”

“Oh my God. Stop it!”

“Lorelei, open the box and take a pic and send it to me. I want to see what he bought you.”

“Fine. I’m going now. I’ll send you a picture.”

I took in a deep breath as I lifted the lid and unwrapped the pink tissue paper that revealed a sexy nightie. I gulped as I removed it from the box and held it up. Laying it on the bed with the matching panties, I took a picture and sent it to Stella.

“Oh. I love that! He has great taste. Go put it on and feel sexy! Text me later tonight. I want all the juicy details.”

Stepping into the bathroom, I changed out of my business clothes and slipped into the nightie Jack bought. As I stood and stared at myself in the full-length mirror, I ran my hands down my sides. This piece of lingerie, what little there was to it, was beautiful. I especially loved the matching V-string panties. I heard the hotel door open and Jack call my name. My insides twisted and, suddenly, I became very embarrassed. I shouldn’t have been because he had already seen me completely naked.

As I stepped out of the bathroom and turned off the light, Jack walked into the bedroom.

“Wow,” he spoke as his eyes raked over me from head to toe. “You look amazing in that.”

“Thank you. It’s beautiful. You didn’t have to buy it.”

He slowly walked over to me with a smile on his face and placed his hand on my cheek.

“I wanted to see you in lingerie. Damn.” He slowly shook his head. “It was worth the extreme embarrassment of walking into Victoria’s Secret.”

I couldn’t help but laugh. “You had never been in that store before?”

“Never,” he spoke as he took off his suit coat and tie.

All of my embarrassment about wearing the lingerie in front of him melted away when he said that. I was pretty sure I had just fallen a little bit harder for Jack Sutton.

His smile captivated me as his hands cupped my ass tightly. His lips softly brushed against mine and, suddenly, I felt breathless.

“You smell so good,” he whispered as his tongue slid up my neck. “I’ve been dreaming about this since our first night together.”

His hands moved from my behind and swept over my breast. His fingers teased my already hardened nipples with the sheer fabric of the lingerie. The ache between my legs was pulsating with desire as he slowly moved one hand down and rubbed the silk material of the panties against me. Sliding his finger and moving the silk edge to the side, he slowly and gently dipped a finger inside of me while a low moan escaped him.

“You’re so damn wet already. Do I turn you on, Lorelei?” he asked breathlessly.

“Yes.” I tilted my head back as his tongue stroked my throat.

My hands reached for his shirt and began unbuttoning it. Sliding it off his shoulders, my fingers took in every inch of his well-defined muscular arms. While his finger explored me, his other hand untied the bow on my nightie and he bent down to let his tongue explore my naked breasts. Vibrations shot through me as his lips wrapped themselves around my nipple, sucking at first and then gently nipping. When he placed his thumb on my clit and made tiny circles, my legs felt as if they were going to buckle out from under me. The pleasure my body felt was incredible and I never wanted it to end.

“Before I go down and taste that sweet pussy of yours, I need you to come for me,” he spoke as his mouth planted small kisses down my torso. “You’re so close. I can feel it.”

He was right, and a couple of more strokes later, my body gave way to an amazing orgasm. My body began to shake as it ripped through me while his hand held the small of my back.

“That’s what I like.” He smiled as his finger that was inside me swept over my lips.

Picking me up in one swoop and carrying me over to the bed, he lay me down and stood in front of me while he kicked off his shoes and took down his pants, releasing his solid hard cock. I moved back across the bed as he slithered his way between my legs and moved his tongue delicately up my inner thigh. The anticipation was exciting and I wanted nothing more than to feel his mouth on me.

****

Jack

She tasted even better than before and I was more than ready to be inside her and feel the warmth envelope my cock. I was so hard, it almost hurt, and I needed to be inside her. After exploring her pussy with my mouth, I climbed up and hovered over her.

“Your turn.” She smiled.

I looked down at her in surprise. “Are you sure?”

“Yes.” She licked her lips and I almost came.

Standing up in front of the bed, she sat up and wrapped her warm lips around my cock and began sucking up and down my shaft. I threw my head back as my hands fisted her hair. Her rhythmic movement was unbelievable and she had me on the brink of an orgasm.

“Ah, baby. You’re going to make me come. That’s it. Oh God. You feel so good.”

She sped up her movement as her head bobbed up and down effortlessly. She sent me into oblivion as she wrapped her hand around the base of my cock and her sucking motion became flawless. The pressure built and I was there. Pulling me out of her mouth, she stroked me up and down as my come exploded all over her hand. Closing my eyes for a moment, I took in a deep breath.

“Are you okay?” She lightly laughed.

“I’m incredibly wonderful,” I responded as I looked down at her.

I walked to the bathroom and grabbed a towel from the rack. I wrapped it around her hand and kissed her lips as I cleaned her up.

“You have one very talented mouth, Lorelei. My God, that was amazing.”

“So do you, Jack.” She grinned.

I tossed the towel to the side and stood her up while caressing her perfectly round breasts. My cock was once again rising quickly and the need to be inside her grew stronger. Pulling back the sheets, she climbed in on her hands and knees and all I saw was her beautiful ass staring at me. She turned her head and looked back at me as her lips gave way to a small smile. That was the way she wanted it and I was more than happy to accommodate her request. Tearing open the condom wrapper with my teeth, I slipped it over my cock and thrust inside her.

After we finished, we both lay on our sides and stared at each other.

“Do you have any regrets about coming here today?” I asked as I stroked her hair.

“Not at all.” She ran her finger in circles around my chest.

“Good. Because I don’t want you to ever have any regrets. Listen, I know you need to go and meet your friend, so maybe we should have a quick glass of champagne and a couple strawberries first.”

“Okay.”

We climbed out of bed and put on the robes that the Trump so nicely supplied. Walking out into the living room of the suite, I opened the champagne and poured us each a glass. As I handed Lorelei some champagne, she picked up a chocolate-dipped strawberry and brought it up to my lips. It was at that very moment when I took a bite and watched the beautiful smile cross her lips that Lorelei Flynn became more to me than just my personal assistant.

Chapter Twenty-Four

Lorelei

I kissed Jack goodbye and hailed a cab to my mom’s house to pick up Hope. On the way home, we stopped and picked up a carryout of Chinese food to take back with us.

“You seem different, Mommy.” Hope smiled as she bit into her egg roll.

“I do?”

“Yeah. You seem happier.”

Crap. I guess that’s what mind blowing sex will do to you.

“I’ve always been happy, baby.”

“I know. But today, you seem extra happy.”

“That’s because I’m here with you.” I tapped her on the nose.

She giggled. Once we finished dinner, I told Hope to sit on the couch and watch TV while I took a shower. After undressing, I stood and looked at myself in the mirror. Hope was right, I did look extra happy today. I needed to tell Jack about my daughter and tomorrow would be the day I would. He would understand, especially after today. The first time we had sex, something happened between us, but today, it grew stronger and he became more to me than just my boss. I completely fell head over heels for him and now there was no turning back. He made himself a place in my heart and he made me happy.

****

Jack

As I was getting ready to leave the hotel, I saw Lorelei’s book lying on the floor next to the chair. It must have fallen out of her bag. I picked it up and sat down on the couch. Opening it, my eyes scanned the designs of various dresses; some casual and some very elegant. I smiled as I flipped through the pages. She was extremely talented and her designs were stunning. It made me wonder why she kept this a secret from me. I closed the book and dialed Tony.

“Are you close? I’m ready to leave.”

“I will be there in about five minutes, Jack.”

“Okay. Thanks, Tony.”

I grabbed my suitcoat and went down to the lobby and checked out. As I stepped out of the hotel, Tony pulled up.

“I need you to drive me to Lorelei’s apartment. She left something behind and she’ll probably want it tonight.”

“Are you sure she’s home?” he asked.

“She said her friend was coming over for dinner tonight, so that would mean she’d be home.”

“Very well, Jack.”

When Tony pulled up to the curb of Lorelei’s apartment building, I looked around the sketchy area. It bothered me that she lived in this part of Harlem. As I walked up the steps to the building, an elderly lady was walking out the door with her walker. I ran and grabbed the door for her and held it open.

“Thank you, young man.” She smiled.

“You’re welcome. Do you know which apartment is Lorelei Flynn’s?”

“Who wants to know?” She glared at me.

“I’m Jack Sutton, her boss over at Sutton Magazine.” I reached in my pocket, pulled out my business card, and handed it to her. “She left her sketchbook behind at the office and I’m bringing it to her.”

She studied my business card and then looked at me. “She’s in apartment 2C. That’s very nice of you to bring that to her. That book is one of her most prized possessions.”

“I know.” I gave her a smile. “Thank you.”

She simply nodded and walked away. I took the elevator up to the second floor and her apartment. Knocking on the door, I heard a voice on the other side.

“Who is it?”

I frowned. It didn’t sound like Lorelei.

“It’s Jack Sutton.”

I could hear the locks unlocking and then the door opened. I stood there in shock as I stared down at a little girl.

“I’m sorry. I must have the wrong apartment. I’m looking for Lorelei Flynn.”

“That’s my mom.” She smiled.

I swallowed hard and suddenly became very heated as I stared at the little girl with long blonde hair and big blue eyes.

“My name is Hope. It’s nice to meet you.” She held out her small hand.

I was confused and I think I was in shock. I lightly shook her hand and she invited me inside.

“You can come in and wait. My mom is in the shower, but she’ll be out soon. Come sit down on the couch. I’m watching one of my favorite movies: Cinderella.”

I was at a loss for words, but I stepped inside the small apartment anyway. Hope ran and plopped herself down on the couch, patting the cushion next to her. I took a seat and looked at her as she stared at me.

“How old are you, Hope?”

“Seven. How old are you?”

“Thirty-two. You shouldn’t be answering the door when you don’t know who is on the other side. That’s very dangerous.”

“I know you. You’re my mom’s boss at work. She says you’re mean.”

I arched my brow at her. “She told you that?”

“Yes.” She giggled.

Suddenly, I heard Lorelei’s voice behind me.

“Who are you talking – Jack?” Her eyes widened as she stood there in her silk robe and dripping wet hair, looking at me.

I stood up from the couch. “This must have fallen out of your bag. I didn’t want you to worry that you’d lost it, so I decided to bring it over.”

“Jack, I can—”

I put my hand up. “Don’t, Lorelei. Please. Just don’t.” I set her sketchbook down on the coffee table and headed towards the door.

“You’re leaving already, Mr. Sutton?” Hope’s small voice spoke to me.

“Yes. I have somewhere I need to be. It was nice to meet you, Hope.” I opened the door and walked out of the apartment, shutting it behind me.

It felt like the wind had been knocked out of me. I climbed into the limo and, instantly, Tony knew something was wrong.

“What’s wrong, Jack? Was she home?”

“Yeah. She was home. She has a kid.”

“What? Lorelei has a child?”

“Yep. Her name is Hope and she’s seven years old.”

“She never mentioned that to you?”

“No. Not one word. This changes everything, Tony. Take me home. I need a drink.”

Chapter Twenty-Five

Lorelei

I stood there practically shaking.

“Mommy, are you okay?”

“Yes, baby. I’m fine. It’s time for bed. Okay?”

“Okay.”

“Go to your room and I’ll be there in a few minutes to tuck you in.”

As soon as Hope went to her room, I went into the kitchen and poured a glass of wine, downing it within seconds. Taking my phone from the counter, I sent Jack a text message.

“I’m sorry, Jack. Please let me explain.”

“There’s nothing to explain, Lorelei. What happened between us was a mistake and it won’t happen again. I suggest we forget about it and move forward.”

Tears sprang to my eyes as I wiped them dry before going into Hope’s room. After tucking her in and kissing her good night, I poured another glass of wine and took it to my bedroom.

“Please, Jack. Just listen to me.”

“If you’re worried about your job, don’t be. You’re a good personal assistant and I won’t fire you. There’s nothing between us, Lorelei, except a professional working relationship. Have a good night.”

I was broken and the tears began to fall uncontrollably as I lay in bed. I dialed Stella.

“It’s about time you called.”

“Stella,” I cried into the phone.

“Lorelei. Oh my God, what’s wrong?”

“Jack came over tonight unannounced and he met Hope. Now he’s pissed at me and told me that what happened between us was a mistake.”

“What a douchebag. Do you need me to come over?”

“No. Hope is in bed and I’m going to try and get some sleep. How the hell am I supposed to face him tomorrow? Being with him earlier was amazing and we both felt something. I’ve fallen for him, Stella,” I sobbed.

“Sweetie, calm down. Listen, I’m coming over and I don’t want to hear another word about it. I’ll be over in fifteen. Just sit tight.” Click.

I lay in bed, clutching the sheets that covered me. About fifteen minutes had passed and I heard the front door open and Stella walked into the room. She climbed in next to me and wrapped her arms around me.

“Everything’s going to be okay,” she said as she kissed the top of my head.

“I don’t think so. He told me that he wouldn’t fire me because I’m a good assistant but that there’s nothing between us but a professional working relationship.”

“Well, then he’s more of an asshole than we gave him credit for. Lorelei, he’s showing his true colors. You don’t want to be with a man like that. You deserve so much better.”

“But I really like him. My God, I slept with him. The first man in seven years and look what happens. It’s all my fault for not telling him about Hope. I was going to tell him tomorrow. I swear I was,” I sobbed.

“I know. He’s not worth it, Lorelei. Once you calm down, you’ll see that.”

I cried on Stella’s shoulder for the next hour and then I fell asleep.

****

Jack

I barely slept all night. Thoughts of Lorelei plagued my mind. How could she not tell me she had a kid? She had plenty of chances but chose to keep it a secret. Damn her. I climbed out of bed, showered, and headed straight to the office. Pulling out my phone, I sent a text message to Garrett.

“Are you in the office yet?”

“On my way, why?”

“I need to talk to you. Come straight to my office.”

“Sure thing, Jack. I’ll be there soon.”

As I walked by Lorelei’s desk, I shook my head. Maybe I should fire her. I didn’t know if I could stand to even be around her after what she did. Or didn’t do, I should say. Shortly after I sat down, Garrett walked in.

“What’s up?”

“Did you know that Lorelei has a kid?”

He stood there and blankly stared at me. The expression on his face told me he knew.

“FUCK! You did know and you didn’t tell me!”

“Jack, calm down.”

“Don’t you dare tell me to calm down. How the hell could you keep something like that from me?”

“It wasn’t my place to tell you.”

“Did she ask you not to tell me?”

“No. Did she tell you?”

“No. We had a beautiful afternoon at the Trump yesterday and she left her sketchbook at the hotel, so I had Tony take me to her apartment so I could give it to her. That’s when I met Hope.”

“Oh. How did that turn out?”

“How the fuck do you think it turned out?” I threw my pen across my desk. “I was shocked. Do you know how betrayed I feel right now knowing that she lied to me all this time.”

“Did you ever ask her if she had a kid, Jack?”

“No. Why the fuck would I? She’s twenty-five years old. She shouldn’t have kids yet.”

“Did you just hear yourself?” Garrett yelled. “You didn’t ask and she didn’t volunteer. Didn’t you tell her that you hated kids?”

“Maybe.”

“Then why the hell would she tell you about hers? The poor girl was probably scared to death that she was going to get fired.”

“Yeah, well, now that I’m thinking about it, I just might fire her lying ass.”

“For what? Having a kid? You can’t do that, Jack. Not to mention the fact that you fucked her more than once. Do you know the fucking lawsuit she’ll slap on this company if you fire her? The magazine is in trouble as it is. If you fire her, you might as well kiss this company goodbye. I warned you to stay away from her, Jack. I warned you! You made your bed, now you can lie in it.” He pointed at me. “You have no one to blame but yourself.”

“You should have told me, Garrett. You’re my best friend. I wouldn’t have done what I did if I knew she had a kid.”

“Like I said, you have no one to blame but yourself. Now calm down and I’ll talk to you later.” He stormed out of my office.

I ran my hands through my hair and took in a deep breath. I was angry. So angry. But there was another feeling that resided inside me: hurt. Garrett was right; I couldn’t fire Lorelei. Not only would that be bad for the company if she decided to sue me, but she had a kid to support. Things from now on would only consist of a professional relationship.

Chapter Twenty-Six

Lorelei

My eyes were swollen from all the crying I had done last night. I dreaded going into the office and seeing Jack. If I never had to see him again, I’d be happy. What I needed to do was start looking for another job and get the hell out of Sutton Magazine. The line that never should have been crossed was, and now I was paying the price.

“What’s wrong with your eyes, Mommy?” Hope asked as she stepped into my bathroom.

I bent down and kissed her head. “Good morning, baby. Nothing’s wrong. They’re just a little puffy. It must be my allergies.”

“I thought I heard you crying last night.” She pouted.

“You must have been dreaming. I wasn’t crying. I have nothing to cry about. Now go get dressed and ready for school. I’ll go make your breakfast.”

I couldn’t let my daughter see me like this. It had always been just me and her from the start and I wasn’t about to let any man, especially Jack Sutton, destroy me in front of my kid. After getting dressed, I made Hope her breakfast and then dropped her off at latch key. As I was on my way to Starbucks to get the asshole his morning coffee, my phone rang. It was Stella.

“Hello.”

“How are you today?”

“I’m trying to be okay. I need to be for Hope. I can’t let her see me fall apart over a guy.”

“I understand, but don’t force it. If you need time to yourself to think about things or get yourself together, let me know and Sebastian and I will watch Hope for a few days.”

“Thanks, Stella, but I’ll be okay. Hey, listen, I just got to Starbucks. I’ll talk to you later.”

“Okay, sweetie. Call me and make sure you either get him the wrong coffee or spill it on his dumb ass.”

I smiled. “I will.”

I ordered his damn Americano just the way he liked it and headed to the office. My stomach was twisted and I felt sick. The anger and disappointment in his eyes last night were unbearable to see. I saw another side of Jack when we spent time alone together. He was tender and sweet. He only wanted to please me and I let him down.

As I walked down the hallway with his coffee in my hand, I was literally shaking. I prayed he wouldn’t be in his office, but he was. FUCK! I took in a deep breath as I stepped inside and set his coffee on his desk.

“Is it right this time?” he asked in an abrupt tone.

“I didn’t taste it. So hopefully, it is.” I walked out of his office and sat down at my desk.

The launch was in a few days and I needed to finish the dress I was making. I just needed to get through this day. As I was sitting at my desk, the office phone rang.

“Jack Sutton’s office.”

“Lorelei, it’s Garrett. I want you to come down to my office in about thirty minutes. Jack has a meeting to go to, so he won’t know you’re gone.”

“He told you, didn’t he?”

“Yes. Just come down to my office and we’ll talk.”

“Okay.” Click.

Jack stormed out of his office without saying a word to me about his meeting. He always told me where he was going. But not today. I could still see the anger in his eyes and it bothered me. I got up from my desk and went down to Garrett’s office.

“Hey,” I spoke as I poked my head through the door.

“Hey.” He smiled. “Come on in and have a seat.”

I sighed as I sat down across from his desk. Looking down, I played with my hands.

“How are you doing?”

“Not good, Garrett. I feel awful because of how he found out about Hope. I was going to tell him today.”

“Well, I want you to forget about Jack. He can be a real asshole sometimes. He’ll get over this, Lorelei. You just need to move on. Do your job and everything will be fine. He can’t stay mad at you forever.”

“It doesn’t matter if he does or not. I want you to know that I’m going to start looking for another job.”

“I don’t want to see you go. Maybe I can transfer you to another department.”

“That would make Jack even madder. It’s best if I leave the company altogether.”

“I understand, but you need to stand up to Jack. He’s not going to fire you. That I can promise. You have leverage with him and you can do some great damage to him and this company if he let you go.”

“Thanks, Garrett, but I don’t want to use anything against him. I’m not that kind of person. I’ll just start looking for another job and, if I find one, I’ll let you know.” I got up from my seat.

“Okay, Lorelei. If that’s what you feel is necessary. Hang in there. He’ll come around eventually.”

I gave Garrett a small smile and went back up to my desk. When I got back, Jack was in his office. Shit. His meeting didn’t last too long.

“Where were you?” he yelled from his desk.

“Bathroom. Is that okay or did you want me to pee all over my desk?” I blurted out.

“Get in my office NOW!” he commanded.

Shit. Shit. Shit. Taking in a deep inhalation, I walked into his office.

“Shut the damn door.”

I shut the door and then turned and looked at his angry face.

“I don’t need your smart-ass mouth. Do you understand me?” He pointed directly at me.

“Yes. I understand.”

“Is Hope the reason why you didn’t go to Paris?”

I needed to sit down because my knees were shaking something terrible.

“Yes. I couldn’t leave her.”

“So you fucking lied to me again?”

“Yes.” I looked down as I crossed my hands.

“So your mother was never sick?”

I shook my head without saying a word.

“You’re quite the little liar, aren’t you?”

Tears started to fill my eyes. Oh hell no, there was no way I was going to let him see me cry.

“I guess I am and I’m sorry, Jack.”

“You’re sorry? Sorry for what? Lying to me? Letting me fuck you and get close to you? What? What are you sorry for, Lorelei?”

Suddenly, rage started to fill my body when he asked me that. A rage I never knew existed until now. My head shot up at him like I was possessed and my eyes stared directly into his.

“I’m sorry that you’re angry and I’m sorry that you can’t understand why I didn’t tell you about Hope. But I was going to tell you today.”

“Of course you were. How convenient now that I already found out. Was your boyfriend who was killed Hope’s father?”

“Yes, and you know what the hardest part of all that was? He didn’t even know I was pregnant. He was on his way over to my house the night I was going to tell him. I made his favorite dinner and I bought a pair of baby booties and set them on his plate at the table. I kept trying to call him because he was taking longer than usual, but all I kept getting was his voicemail. I knew deep down inside something had happened. I got in my car and drove the route from the shop he worked at to my house. That was when I saw the flashing lights of the police cars, fire trucks, and ambulances. As I got closer to the scene, I saw his car.” I wiped a single tear that fell from my eye. “I screamed his name and began to run towards the accident. A cop grabbed me and held me back, telling me that they were trying to get him out of the car. All I wanted to do was go to him, but they wouldn’t let me. That was when I heard the paramedic say he was dead. So there are three things in my life that I’m sorry for. Not getting the chance to tell my boyfriend, whom I loved deeply, that he was going to be a father, for not telling you about Hope from the beginning, and for you never finding out what it’s like to truly love someone. But the one thing I’m NOT sorry for is having her. She is my life and my world and I love her more than life itself. She was a gift from God that got me through his death. She gave me the strength to go on and move on with my life and I would do anything to protect her.” I got up from my seat, leaned over his desk, and pointed my finger at him. “So if you want to hold me having a daughter against me, then go right ahead. I DON’T GIVE A FUCK!” I yelled.

“I’m not holding it against you.” His voice was calm. “I just wish you would have told me from the start. That’s all. I told you before that I hate games and I don’t play them. So, let’s both calm down and just try to move on with our professional relationship.”

“Can you do that, Jack?”

“Yes, Lorelei. I can. We had our words and now we can go about our business.”

“Fine,” I spoke with attitude.

“Okay. You may go back to your desk. Or do you need to leave? Maybe collect yourself or something?”

“No. I’m fine.”

“Okay. You may leave now.”

I walked out of his office and took a seat at my desk. Now that Jack and I had it out, I felt somewhat better, but I was angry at myself for telling him everything I did about the accident.