Текст книги "Thizz, A Love Story"

Автор книги: Nicole Loufas

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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, organizations, or persons, whether living or dead is entirely coincidental.

THIZZ, A LOVE STORY

ISBN: 978-0-9964946-0-1

Copyright © 2015 by Nicole Loufas

www.nicoleloufas.com

Cover art by Indie Solutions.

Formatting by Elaine York/Allusion Graphics, LLC/Publishing & Book Formatting

Except for the original material written by the author, all song titles and lyrics contained in this book are the property of the respective songwriters and copyright holders.

All rights reserved. No parts of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without the prior written permission of the author except for the use of brief quotations in book reviews.

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Twelve

Chapter Thirteen

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fifteen

Chapter Sixteen

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter Nineteen

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty-One

Chapter Twenty-Two

Chapter Twenty-Three

Chapter Twenty-Four

Chapter Twenty-Five

Chapter Twenty-Six

Chapter Twenty-Seven

Chapter Twenty-Eight

Chapter Twenty-Nine

Chapter Thirty

Chapter Thirty-One

Chapter Thirty-Two

Chapter Thirty-Three

Chapter Thirty-Four

Chapter Thirty-Five

Chapter Thirty-Six

Chapter Thirty-Seven

Chapter Thirty-Eight

Chapter Thirty-Nine

Chapter Forty

Chapter Forty-One

Nick

Chapter Forty-Two

Chapter Forty-Three

Chapter Forty-Four

Chapter Forty-Five

Chapter Forty-Six

Chapter Forty-Seven

Chapter Forty-Eight

Chapter Forty-Nine

Acknowledgements

About the Author

March 2006 – Eureka, California

I really don’t want to deal with life today. I don’t want to fake smile or do that thing where I sit up really straight and pretend I’m paying attention when I really just want to go back to bed and sleep away the rest of my senior year. There was a time when I could lie in bed until noon without raising concern about my mental well-being. Now sleeping in is a sign. Slouching and scowling are signs. Any time a rainbow isn’t shooting out of my ass—that’s a sign that I’m not ok.

I’ll never be ok.

Of course, I can’t let anyone know that, because then they’d have to care, and it’s easier for everyone, myself included, not to care.

I sit up and grab my mom’s faded gray CAL Berkeley sweatshirt from the end of the bed. She left it here at my aunt Lucy’s a few summers ago. I found it hanging in the hall closet and reclaimed it for myself. I get out of bed and pull it on as I tiptoe across the cold hardwood floor to a pile of clothes in the corner. Lucy converted her attic to a playroom for me when I was six. When I moved in last January, Johnson, Lucy’s boyfriend, swapped the dollhouse and plastic sofa for a bed and desk he bought at IKEA. It took him two days to put it all together. He left the pink fabric Lucy draped from the ceiling; it’s really girly, but it hides the spider webs. The attic looks like a bona fide bedroom now. It’s just not my room. This room will never be my room any more than this house will be my home. Lucy wanted me to move into the room across from hers, but that was my parent’s room whenever we came to visit. It didn’t feel right. Nothing about Eureka feels right.

I look at the calendar on the wall above the desk. Three weeks until acceptance letters are mailed. That letter is the only reason I get out of bed in the morning. Every day is another day closer to knowing my future. I have only one goal—getting into CAL Berkeley. I have the grades and, thanks to my mom, I have tons of extra-curricular activities. She listed me as honorary chairperson on dozens of projects she ran through her charities. I rarely did anything at the events other than show up and eat, but they looked really good on my college application. My parents went to CAL. It was their dream for me to continue the legacy. I plan on making that dream come true, even if they aren’t here to see it.

“Dani, are you up?” Lucy calls from the hall downstairs. That’s my cue to put on a fake smile– one that slides off my face just as quickly as it appears. Nothing I do these days will make it stick. I give myself a few more minutes of real as I pull a pair of cargo pants from the pile on the floor and put them on. I finish getting dressed and avoid the mirror hanging on the back of the door as I open it and head downstairs.

Lucy comes out of her room in green scrubs with a towel wrapped around her head. She’s a registered nurse at St. Joseph’s Hospital. “Morning, Lucy.” I stretch to make it look like I just woke up even though I’ve been awake since dawn. “I thought you had the day off?” I follow her to the bathroom and lean in the doorway as she plucks a couple of wayward hairs from her eyebrows.

“Two nurses called out today. Looks like another round of stomach flu,” she says and unravels her hair from the towel. “I get off at six, then I’m teaching my Friday night Pilates class, so I’ll be home late. There’s some leftover Chinese food in the fridge.” She plugs in the hair dryer and looks at me before switching it on. “Do you have any plans tonight, besides work?” She knows I have no plans, but she asks anyway, hoping one day I’ll have a different answer. She’s consummately optimistic. I guess you have to be in her line of work.

“The Real World is on tonight.” I pick at the chipped paint on the door frame. I hate the look of pity on Lucy’s face. She thinks I miss having a social life, but even back home I preferred being alone. I’ve never been good at making lasting relationships. I had friends, but none that mattered. There isn’t a single person from my old school I want to call or write, or friend on Myspace. Besides, I moved to Eureka to get off the grid. My old life doesn’t exist anymore. I don’t even exist.

I walk into my final class of the day—computer lab—and take my seat in back. I’ve made it through the entire day without speaking to anyone. It’s a game I play with myself. Once I went three days without uttering a single word at school. I don’t know if it’s something to celebrate or if it’s just really fucking pathetic. The bell rings and Mr. Davis closes the door. He walks to the board and writes free time in big chalk letters. He adds three exclamation marks at the end to really drive the message home. Like free time in this class is something special. Building a Myspace is part of the curriculum, which tells you a lot about the seriousness of our seventh period computer class. You have to respect his enthusiasm though.

I log on to my B-minus Myspace page and wait for it to load. I could have bumped my grade up if I added a photo to the background, but I was going for a minimalist approach. Solid black background with white Arial font lettering. Mr. Davis told me he was hoping to see something with more personality. I moved here from San Francisco three months ago. My parents are gone, Lucy is the only family I have left, I have no friends, and I haven’t kissed a boy since sophomore year.

I think I nailed it.

My page loads, and the first thing I notice is the flashing envelope at the bottom of the screen. I click it, and sitting in my inbox are two words: Matt Augustine.

Matt Augustine—the blue-eyed, Axe-body-sprayed boy who sits at the terminal next to mine has sent me a message. Feelings. Lots of feelings that I can’t categorize flood my body. I take a deep breath then exhale like I just took a drag of a cigarette. Lots of words run through my mind. None of them make sense. If I were a comic book, there would be a huge white bubble with gibberish floating over my head because I have no freaking clue what is going on or why Matt Augustine sent me a message. I saw him at lunch; he was sitting in the middle of the quad surrounded by friends or fans. I can’t tell the difference. They never look at me. Nobody does, except for him. Well, that’s the lie I tell myself whenever I see him scan the yard and then smile when his eyes land on me sitting under the redwood tree across the yard. Why would he send me a message, then ditch class? Maybe he ditched class because he sent the message? Quit dreaming, Dani. It’s probably nothing, like one of those chain letters telling me I have to forward to ten people or I’ll never find true love. I hold the mouse over his name, daring myself to click.

I’m scared it won’t be a chain letter.

I’m scared it will be.

There is only one way to find out. I click the mouse and the message opens.

Hey Dani,

Can you meet me in the parking lot after school?

Matt

I read it again—and one more time, hoping the words will scramble into something more informative, like why he’s requested this clandestine rendezvous to the student parking lot. Guys like Matt don’t message girls like me, let alone ask them to meet after school. Matt and I share one class—computer lab. Since we have no homework and the assignments are available on the school intranet, he doesn’t need me to take notes for him. So why does he want to meet me? I’m a filler kid, the ones you know by face, but never remember their names. Matt Augustine is, well, he’s the reason they give out free birth control. Dark brown hair, blue eyes so crisp and clear they make the Caribbean ocean look like a dirty swimming pool. He’s the kind of boy you dream about when you’re ten. The one that rides in on a horse and sweeps you off your feet. The one you love forever. I don’t think I’m capable of that kind of love. I love things—like coffee and the smell of fresh lavender. I’ve never used the L-word in reference to an actual human that wasn’t blood related. Except maybe Johnny Depp. I’m getting ahead of myself. I’m not in love with Matt. I’m not even in like with him. I am intrigued by the possibilities though. Wait, what am I saying? Matt Augustine is the last thing I need in my life. I have three months left in Eureka; I don’t need any distractions, anything to knock me off course. I have a plan. Boys are not part of the plan. Not really. Ok, maybe I will make an exception for the right boy.

I watch the clock above the door click along minute by excruciating minute, debating on how to respond. I could ignore the message altogether, pretend I never saw it. No, I can’t. The words, his words, can’t be unread, unseen. I have enough regret in my life. Wondering why Matt Augustine wants to meet me is not going to be added to the list.

I stare at the clock, read the message, stare at the clock some more. The bell rings and I stand up, lift my backpack from the floor, and point myself in the direction of the parking lot. I’m on auto pilot. I don’t want to think about where I’m going or what I’ll say. I don’t even know what to say. I don’t want to open my mouth at all. I wish I had a mint.

I turn the corner to the hall that leads to the parking lot and I freeze. Through the crowd I see Heather King swaying towards me. Crap. I dip my eyes to the floor and pretend not to notice her even though the smell of her Bath & Body lotion burns my nostrils. You can always smell her a mile away. I step in line with a rather large boy from the football team when suddenly her flip-flopped feet appear in my path. I stop so I don’t bump into her. As small as she is, she takes up all the air and space around her.

“Hello, Danielle.” She addresses me like I’m some commoner that should drop to my knees in her presence.

I look up with the most strained smile I can manage. “Hi, Heather.”

She poses in front of me like someone with a camera is going to jump out of a locker and snap her picture for a magazine. “Got any plans for the weekend?” she asks as she twirls a strand of her new blonde hair around her finger. I have to say the blonde suits her much better than the fiery red she had last week. With her sun-kissed skin and gray eyes, she looks like a poster girl for Abercrombie & Fitch.

“I’m working all weekend.” I grip the strap on my backpack and step around her. “I’m actually going to be late.” I would say have a nice weekend, but Heather is incapable of nice.

“So, I guess you didn’t hear about the big party?” Heather loves to ask me about parties she knows I wasn’t invited to.

I take a few steps back to gain some distance. “No, parties really aren’t my thing.” I stop in front of the girls’ bathroom. I’ve hid in this bathroom more times than I care to remember. Maybe I should wait in here until Heather clears out. I can’t risk her following me outside. There’s no way Heather would sanction someone like me meeting a boy like Matt. I’m sure there’s a high school rule that forbids it, and Heather is just the person to enforce it.

“I guess a high school party would be boring to someone from San Francisco,” she snickers. “I bet you’re more the rave type.” Heather is jealous of the fact that I’m from San Francisco. I don’t understand why it bothers her. I’m stuck here now, just like her. We’re even.

“The only clubs I’ve been to are book clubs,” I tell her. “I really gotta go.” I push open the door to the bathroom and hear her laugh echo down the hall.

The door closes and the lights flicker on. I do a quick check under the stalls—all empty. I lean on the sink and look into the warped mirror. A distorted version of my face stares back at me. My limp brown hair is months overdue for a haircut, but I wouldn’t even know where to start. My mom always took care of stuff like that. Makeup, hair, nail polish, those were mom’s specialty. My mother held a degree in liberal arts, but she never had a real job. I was her job. I was a good little mannequin. I sat still when my hair was being curled. I closed and opened my eyes when prompted during my mother’s many make-up sessions. I never thought to watch or learn. I didn’t think I would have to. Or maybe I just didn’t care. I went along with it because it made her happy. The same way a boy would play catch with his dad in the backyard when he’d rather be inside playing World of Warcraft.

I miss her. I miss her hand on my head when she ran the brush through my hair after a shower. I miss the lingering smell of her perfume after she left the room. I’m lost without her. I don’t even think I’m wearing deodorant today. So, why the hell am I meeting Matt Augustine? I’m not nearly as groomed as I should be. I’m not Heather, not even close, yet a voice in the back of my head is telling me I have to do this. I have three months left in this town. If my mother were here, she’d tell me to make the most of it. Not a day wasted, Dani. Those are the words I hear in my head as I stare at a carbon copy of her eyes in the mirror. I smile, her smile, and lift my backpack from the floor. I think she would approve of Matt. He’s smart and charming and tall and oh-my-God good looking. His smile, holy hell, it lights up the room. Who knows, maybe Matt is the glue I need to make my smile stick.

I open the bathroom door and peek into the hall—it’s clear. I hurry down the hall and shove open the green double doors to the parking lot like a burglar escaping the scene of a crime. I step into the afternoon sun and slide my backpack onto both of my shoulders. I’m two-strapping it and don’t care. I’m totally out of control. I scan the parking lot and find Matt leaning against a shiny black car. He stands a bit straighter when he sees me and runs his hand through his hair. It’s in its usual disheveled mess, but I can see where his hairline naturally parts to the side, giving him sort of a clean-cut look. He’s got on baggy jeans and a black No Fear t-shirt. The sight of him makes me warm and tingly inside, a feeling I missed when he skipped class today.

A chilly, ocean-scented breeze flings discarded papers at my feet as I cross the parking lot. A flutter tickles the inside of my belly at the thought of having a conversation with Matt that doesn’t involve HTML. Suddenly, a car pulls out in front of me. I stop right before a silver Volkswagen takes out my legs. The driver waves to Matt, then yells, “Later, Nick” as he speeds away.

I follow the driver’s gesture to the boy standing beside Matt and find him staring back at me. It isn’t like I’ve never seen him before. I pass him in the hall at least three or four times a day. He’s even been in the café where I work. Small latte—extra foam. This is the first time I’ve seen him look at me. I mean really, consciously look at me.

“Hey Dani,” Matt greets me. “This is Nick Marino.”

I try to say hi, but my throat has seized, so I give a faint smile and wave my hand. Nick smiles and nods back. He’s leaning against the car beside Matt with his hands shoved into the pockets of his blue jeans. His clothes aren’t as baggy as Matt’s, so I can see his body bulging from beneath his white t-shirt. He’s a cross between Leonardo DiCaprio and the dude from John Tucker Must Die. And he’s smiling. At me. And my first thought is—run.

I’m pretty sure I’ve lost the ability to speak as sweat starts to pool at the small of my back. I try to focus on Matt, but my eyes keep wandering to Nick, who is just as quiet as I am. Nick doesn’t seem like the silent type; he always has a crowd of people around him, and his picture is often plastered on the front page of the school newspaper. One week it was about the basketball game he starred in, the following week he was named the most spirited student. I think the editor makes up any reason to print his face on the cover, just so people will read the worthless periodical.

“Earth to Dani?” Matt waves his hand in front of my face. “Do you need a ride home?”

A ride? Home? Eureka isn’t my home. He doesn’t know that. He doesn’t know anything about me. I’m a clean slate. I can be whoever I want to be. I don’t have to be the weird new girl or the stuck-up city bitch. I can be a new and improved version of me.

“Yeah, a ride would be great.” I wipe my sweaty palms down the front of my khaki cargo pants.

Matt steps to the side and opens the door. I climb into the car and marvel at the size of the enormous leather backseat.

“Where do you live?” Matt asks as he closes the passenger door.

Before I have a chance to respond, the driver’s side door opens and Nick slides into the seat in front of me. Holy hell, this is Nick’s car. Nick Marino is the most popular boy at Eureka High School, and I am sitting in his car. He is driving me home. I bite my lower lip and look around to make sure this isn’t a dream. I find that pain keeps things real. It’s one emotion you can’t fake. You can laugh when you’re sad, and cry when you’re happy, but when you hurt, you feel it. You can’t fake the hurt. Matt is turned in his seat with a smile on his face. A smile so bright and friendly that I smile with him. How did I go from hiding in the bathroom from Heather King to sitting in Nick Marino’s car with Matt Augustine smiling at me with his perfect teeth and soulful eyes? This is not my life, but I’ll take it.

Matt clears his throat. “You do know where you live, don’t you?”

I suck at addresses and phone numbers. I know where the house is, but the actual address escapes me. I picture myself writing out Aunt Lucy’s address on the yearly Christmas and birthday cards we used to send her. “Uh, three-three-two-seven Pine.”

“Are you sure about that?” Matt asks, sensing the hesitation in my voice.

I give Matt an exasperated look. “Yeah, I’m sure.” Matt has one of those friendly smiles that make you feel welcome and less like a freak. I love Matt’s smile. Did I just use the L-word?

“I’m not a human GPS. Where is that exactly?” Matt teases.

“Don’t be a dick.” Nick gives Matt a friendly nudge in the shoulder. “I was raised in this shitty town, I’m sure I can find it.”

Matt’s grin fades at Nick’s remark. He turns away from me and looks out the window. I feel bad. Nick thinks Matt’s being mean, but it’s just our thing. Not that we have a thing. I mean, we talk in class about class stuff. Other than the occasional interrogation by Heather, Matt is the only other person I’ve ever had a conversation with. I wouldn’t call him a friend. A few more discussions about music or books, and I might say we know each other. Unlike Nick. He definitely doesn’t know me or anything about me. I sort of want to keep it that way.

“What’s the cross street?” Nick’s hazel eyes smile at mine in the rear view mirror—they are a kaleidoscope of yellow, brown, and green. I look at his reflection, which gives the impression that he’s further away than he is. He’s sitting in front of me. I could reach out and touch him—touch Nick Marino. Freaking insane.

My back breaks out in a full-blown sweat, the kind that leaves marks under your arms. Thankfully I’m wearing a thick hoodie, so any pit stains I may develop are well hidden. “West Harris,” I tell him, then sink into the seat out of his view. I can’t imagine what it’s like to date a guy like Nick. The pressure to look good, speak intelligently, breathe. An hour ago I couldn’t fathom the idea of Matt asking me out, now I’m fantasizing about dating Nick Marino. I need medication.

I look out the window and see Heather King, her mouth agape, as we drive by. My ego fist pumps the air, but my brain is telling me I will pay for this later. Nick joins the line waiting to leave the parking lot and I start to wonder if this is why Matt sent the message. Did he want to offer me a ride home, or was it a set-up so I could meet Nick? My heart sinks at the idea. Nick seems like a nice guy, but we have nothing in common. A rush of disappointment fills me. I really thought Matt might like me. I’m not great at reading people, but I thought we had a connection. I suck at boys, but I know guys don’t set up girls they like with their friends.

Matt turns up the volume on the stereo and Nick swats his hand away. He presses play on the CD and “Lucky Go Leah,” one of my favorite songs of all time, by one of my favorite bands of all time, blasts through the speakers.

“Dude, not this again,” Matt complains.

“My car, my music,” Nick tells him.

Nick likes Audiodub. We actually have something in common. Something that I think is really cool. Who knew a guy like Nick would like an indie band.

Suddenly, Nick’s hazel eyes pop into the rear view mirror and I stop breathing. “Do you have to go home now? Cause we’re going to the Rack Room. You want to come?” Nick looks to Matt for backup. Matt just shrugs and gives me a half-ass smile. I can’t tell if he really wants me to go. I don’t know if I want to go. I have an hour and a half to kill before my shift at the café. I can’t think of a more terrifying way to spend it.

The Rack Room isn’t as dingy as it looks from the outside. There are a dozen pool tables lined up on one side of the building. The other side has a small area with video games and an air hockey table. They’re separated by a seating area in the center of the room next to the bar. It’s only three forty-five and the place is packed. The synthetic melodies of the video games drown out the music playing from the jukebox as the arcade fills with the same kids I just saw at school.

I try not to watch Nick walk over from the bar, but I can’t help sneaking a glance. Everyone in this place is staring in his direction. Some wave while others just gawk. He exudes more confidence than anyone I’ve ever met. When he finally turns towards our table, I pretend to watch a game of pool going on in front of me. Nick sits down with a beer in his hand and sets a soda on the table for me. Matt disappeared to use the bathroom and hasn’t returned, leading me to believe he’s giving Nick and me time alone. “Do you play pool?”

“No, but if you want to play, go ahead.” I take a sip from my soda like I’m totally fine, when I’m totally not. Practically everyone in this place is staring at our table, including three girls in the corner that have been eyeballing me since we got here. I don’t know what I’ve done to offend them, but it looks like I’m about to find out. The trio stand from the stools along the wall. One of them fusses with her boobs before they head to our table.

They walk up behind Nick, and one of them places her hands over his eyes. “Guess who?” She leans downs and kisses his cheek.

Nick pulls her hands away from his eyes with an exasperated look on his face. “What’s up, Katie.” He takes a drink from his beer and leans towards me. “Dani, Katie. Katie, Dani,” he says in that bored way people do when someone they can’t stand is in their presence.

Katie shoots me a dirty look through her overly mascaraed eyes and ignores Nick’s introduction. “So, what’s up tonight? You want to hang out?” She leans into Nick’s side, if he turns his head, her boobs will poke him in the eye.

“We’re busy.” Nick scoots his chair away and smiles at me. His rejection doesn’t faze Katie. She runs her hand over Nick’s head and starts to pull out the chair beside him. Nick stops her. “Matt’s sitting there,” he says as he holds the chair in place, denying her access to join our table.

“So what, are you with her now?” Katie looks at me like I’m gum on the bottom of her shoe. I think I finally get that saying, if looks could kill.

Nick takes a pull on his beer and tilts his head to the side with a coy smile. “No, she’s with Matt.”

“I’m not with Matt,” I say quickly, trying not to choke on my soda. I like Matt, he’s a nice guy, but we’re not together. Not that I don’t want to be with him. I don’t know. Maybe I do. I don’t think Katie really cares about Matt. She isn’t standing here with her boob in Matt’s face.

My internal rambling isn’t helping my case. I look at Nick, then to Katie. “I’m not with anyone,” I tell them both. I don’t know if I can be any clearer. Katie’s death glare subsides slightly.

“That’s good to know,” Nick raises his right eyebrow and my heart does a backflip. Why is he giving her the impression he’s interested in me? Is he trying to get me killed?

Katie shoves the chair against the table and soda splashes out of my glass. “Whatever,” she hisses and stomps away with her friends in tow.

I take a napkin from the dispenser in the center of the table and place it over the puddle of soda. “She seems nice.” I laugh nervously. “Is she an ex-girlfriend or something?”

“I barely know her.” Nick smiles and takes another pull on his beer.

I barely know Nick, and I can tell he’s full of shit. I roll my eyes and look around the room. Everyone looks away. Nick seems like a nice guy, and I bet most people wouldn’t mind the attention, but I can’t take much more of this. Just when I’m about to make an excuse to leave, Matt comes back to the table. He tells Nick that Pete—the bartender who serves minors—is asking for him. Nick leaves and Matt sits down. He looks as uncomfortable as I do. I wonder if he hates the attention too. Or maybe he’s just uncomfortable around me. I don’t think he wanted to bring me here, which sort of hurts. The longer I’m in his presence, the more I realize how wrong I was. Matt definitely doesn’t like me.

I check my watch; I have an hour until my shift. Eureka Coffee is just up the road. If I leave now, I’ll only be thirty minutes early. Any place is better than here.

“Do you have to go?” Matt asks. These are the first words he’s spoken to me since we got here.

“Yeah, I should get to work.” I stand up and see Katie nod to her girls. One of them starts to take off her earrings while the other pulls her hair into a ponytail. I look towards the door where Nick disappeared with Pete. Maybe I should wait for Nick to drive me; it’s probably safer than walking alone.

Matt stands and picks up my backpack. “What do you have in here?”

“Books.” I blush. I like to carry my favorites with me just in case I feel like reading. Maybe I can use my backpack as a weapon if Katie tries something. I hold out my hand to take my bag, but Matt slides it onto his shoulder.

“I’m going to get a workout carrying this thing.” He smiles his sweet, genuine smile.

I get really happy at the idea of Matt walking me to work. Even happier when he touches my shoulder as we walk to the exit. I look back at Katie, who seems to be settling down now that she sees me leaving with Matt. Crisis averted.

Matt and I are halfway to the door when Nick emerges from the backroom. “Hey, where you going?” he calls out and hurries towards us.

Matt keeps walking, but I stop. I don’t want to be rude. “I have to work. Thanks for the ride and the soda.” I smile a fake smile.

“I’ll drive you.” Nick places his hand on the small of my back and guides me out the door. I don’t want it to feel good, but it does. His hand on my back feels so damn good. I look back and see Katie seething. Maybe not that good. I’ve been in one fight in my life. It was in the seventh grade, and it isn’t something I want to repeat.

Matt is standing next to Nick’s car, glaring at us as we step outside. “Dude, you were drinking. You really want to drive?” I appreciate Matt’s concern, but I don’t mind taking the ride. I want to put as much distance between me and Katie as possible.

“I had half a beer,” Nick scoffs. “I’m fine.” He looks at me to make sure I’m ok with accepting a ride from a slightly intoxicated chauffer. I shrug like it’s no big deal. With that body, those muscles, I’m sure he can handle driving after a shot of tequila.

Matt holds out my backpack with a sad smile. He looks disappointed that we won’t get our walk. Part of me is sad too. I like Matt, at least I thought I did. I’m pretty sure Matt set me up with Nick, which is why he left us alone in the bar. If that were true, he wouldn’t be trying to stop me from riding in Nick’s car. I’m almost positive it has nothing to do with Nick’s blood alcohol level. Boys are harder to figure out than the Pythagorean Theorem. I want to walk with Matt; he makes me feel safe, comfortable. I like comfortable. I take my backpack from Matt and turn to Nick, who looks like he just won a bet. Those eyes smiling at me feels like riding a bike with no hands. It’s scary, but I don’t want to grab the handlebars just yet. I want to see what happens next. Nick moves to open the door when his cell phone rings. He takes it out and flips it open.