Текст книги "Crash & Burn"

Автор книги: Lisa Gardner

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Thomas studies me. He stares and he stares. Then he says the most curious thing. He says: “And then what, Nicky? Vero took the drugs. But what happened next?”

Chapter 38

NO CELL RECEPTION,” Tessa reported, holding her phone closer to the passenger window, as if that might help. “Damn mountains.”

“Do you know where we are?” Wyatt asked her. Because it felt to him like they’d already been driving forever, and Tessa had a point. So far, all he saw was dark, endless mountains.

“No, only where we’ve been.”

“Gotta be getting close.”

“Can I just say one thing? This road alone proves one of our theories. We’ve been driving forever without even a bear for company. If this is truly the location of the infamous dollhouse . . . no way Nicky Frank magically crawled off the grounds and hitched a ride to New Orleans all by her lonesome. She had to have help.”

“Thomas isn’t just her husband; he was her getaway,” Wyatt agreed.

“Interesting basis for a marriage.”

“And yet they’ve lasted twenty-two years.”

“Until the past six months,” Tessa grumbled. “When Nicky decided she wanted the truth about her past and immediately became expendable.”

Wyatt didn’t comment right away. He’d been the first to doubt Thomas. Any man whose wife had mysteriously suffered three accidents. Let alone that Nicky herself had placed him at the scene of the car accident. And yet, the video. Something about the video. The way Nicky still walked right up to him, placed her hand in his own.

Fear and love.

Wyatt was making an investigator’s worst mistake and he knew it: He was contemplating two suspects, Nicky and Thomas Frank, and seeing himself and Tessa.

“Come on,” Tessa prodded him now. “You’re telling me you’re suddenly a fan of Thomas Frank? At the very least, he met his distraught wife Wednesday night, handed her a pair of fake fingerprint gloves, then seat-belted her into her vehicle before pushing it down a ravine. Hardly the actions of an innocent man.”

“Fan would be a big statement. Just gotta say, for the record, the vehicle in question was a new Audi Q5 with airbag this and safety feature that. Hardly a death trap. Plus, he put on her seat belt.”

“Better to cover his tracks, make it look like an accident.”

“Nicky was already drunk. She’d done that on her own. An investigating officer wouldn’t have questioned the lack of seat belt.”

“He’s not an investigating officer.”

“True. It’s just that . . .”

She stared at him. “Spit it out.”

“I don’t know. The cop in me agrees with you. Clearly here’s a man with plenty to hide. And yet, two decades of marriage later . . . You said it yourself. Just because he saved her that night didn’t mean he had to marry her. And even if his job was to somehow keep tabs on her, watch her for Madame Sade. Twenty-two years later, how do you fake that kind of relationship? I don’t know. I watched that video tonight, and . . . There’s something there, some kind of dynamic we don’t understand yet.”

“You’re a romantic,” Tessa informed him.

“I prefer the term open-minded.”

“The picture she drew of him. Thomas was at the dollhouse. The expression she sketched on his face. Thomas was not a happy kid. Meaning he was definitely part of what was going on back then. Nicky starts to remember everything, those memories put him at risk.”

“He would’ve been young himself. Possibly a victim as well.”

“The look in his eyes was hard.”

“I thought he looked determined.”

“Wyatt!”

“Tessa!

“You know I love you, right?” he said abruptly.

In the passenger’s seat, Tessa stilled. He could tell his words had caught her off guard, and yet they hadn’t. Love and fear, he thought again. Except not Nicky and Thomas’s, but their own.

“I’m not good at this,” Tessa murmured.

“Tessa, what’s wrong?”

“Can’t we just . . . solve this case? You like arresting people; I like arresting people. We’ll be fine.”

“Is it Sophie?” he asked steadily. “Because I can be patient, Tessa. I know she hasn’t fully accepted me yet. That’s okay. I’m in this for the long haul.”

She didn’t answer.

Sharp turn in the road. Forcing himself to focus.

“John Stephen Purcell,” she stated abruptly. “Police just located the gun used to kill him. I’m told they recovered a single latent print.”

Wyatt couldn’t help himself; he exhaled sharply. “That’s it? A gun? A recently recovered gun? That’s why you’re so distant?”

“You don’t understand. John Stephen Purcell, the man who shot Brian, my husband . . .” Her words were weighted with meaning.

“No, no, no,” he interjected hastily, hands flexing on the wheel. “I understand plenty. And we’re not married, so this doesn’t fall under privilege, and there’s definitely no need to say more. God, Tessa. I thought you were breaking up with me.”

Her turn to frown. “It doesn’t bother you? I’m not just talking about what the police might discover; I’m talking about what I once did.”

He didn’t even have to think about it. “No. You saved Sophie. Tessa, I know who you are. It’s why I love you so much.”

She fell silent again. Not ominous this time. More pondering.

He reached over and took her hand. Heard her own heavy exhale.

“Tessa,” he said, keeping his voice light, “you’re not getting rid of me that easily.”

“What if I don’t have a choice? One fingerprint; that’s all it will take.”

“We’ll figure it out. Two smart people with lots of law enforcement and legal connections. You really think we can’t figure this out?”

“I can’t lose Sophie.”

“I know.”

“One thousand ninety-six days. I told myself it should be enough. It isn’t.”

“I know.”

“Plus, you know, the puppy. I haven’t even met the puppy, and I can’t leave the puppy. Our family is changing; that’s what Sophie said. Our family, my family. I can’t give it up, Wyatt. I can’t lose all of you.”

“Then we’ll figure it out. Together. Because that’s what families do. That’s what we do.”

And suddenly, he got it. How far a man might go for the woman he loved. Or what Thomas Frank had being doing that night, at the scene of his wife’s accident, bearing a glove with fake fingerprints.

A desperate husband, taking one last desperate chance . . .

“Stop!” Tessa shouted. She twisted away, pointing at a spot along the darkened road just as their headlights swept by. “That’s our turn. The road to the dollhouse. Wyatt, we’re here!”

Chapter 39

I CAN’T STAND still anymore. Thomas has the light, but I don’t want to see. I walk away from him. My head hurts. My heart hurts. I put my hands over my ears as if that will help, but it’s no use. I can still hear the screams.

She’s here. I feel her. In the wind, in the vines, in the hardness of the granite foundation. And it makes me shiver. Because I could handle the Vero in my head. The girl who came to visit. The skeleton who stayed for tea. But this Vero . . .

This Vero can hurt me.

“The first five years,” Thomas says from his perch on the granite blocks, “Mother kept things simple. We fostered a couple of girls at a time. Always teenagers; they’d stay a year or two, then leave. Aged out, right? But eventually, Mother became greedier. By then, she’d made some other . . . connections, in the industry. Now no more fostering. She simply brought in young working girls. Got them directly from their pimps. Or, as in your case, purchased them from their own families. No witnesses, no fuss. Everyone’s equally guilty, right?

“I think she also started taking requests. Maybe from several of the clients, or just the wealthiest. I’m not sure. But the girls became younger. For example, she brought you in at ten. But that also made things trickier. Younger girls might seem easier to control, but some of the new charges . . . Their backgrounds were more hard-core. They grew up lying, stealing, hitting, punching. I remember my mom slapping one of the new girls. I’d just walked into the room; I was maybe thirteen, fourteen. I stopped in my tracks, shocked. But then the girl, half the size of my mom . . . she slugged my mother back.

“So my mother upped the ante. She drugged them. Claimed they were addicts anyway. She was simply doing them the favor of avoiding the horrors of detox.”

Thomas paused, smiled faintly. “Funny the way you can know things aren’t right, but still not allow yourself to think of them as being wrong. For example, if I acknowledged my mother was criminal to supply drugs to addicts, then I’d have to also know she was sinful to have a ten-year-old girl shut up in the tower bedroom. Or worse, little Vero, only six years old when she walked through our door.

“I couldn’t . . . She was my mom. And I was just a kid. Like the rest of you, I had no place else to go.”

Thomas leaves his granite block. He moves to standing in front of me, trying to get me to look at him. But I can’t. Too many things are exploding in my head, and the memories are both simpler and more horrible than I want them to be.

The new girls were mean and awful and cruel. Before, we had each kept to ourselves. Now I had to watch my back. It wasn’t enough to hate the men. I had to hide my hairbrush, hoard my dresses, watch my stash of sweets.

The girls were older and wiser. Especially compared to Vero and me. Madame Sade ended up pairing us up in a single room.

Otherwise you’ll be eaten alive, she’d informed us coldly. Seriously. Wise up.

I hated Vero. Whatever mean things the other girls did to me, I turned around and did to her. The trickle-down theory of pain. And maybe that did make us a family. A large dysfunctional family where each member competed to dish out the most hurt.

Vero started telling stories. Whispering them under her breath. Secret realms. Magical queen. Kidnapped princess.

At first, I think she was simply comforting herself. But eventually . . .

I made her keep talking. Tell me more about this mother who loved her daughter. Tell me more about this daughter who knows one day she’ll make it home again.

We slowly but surely became allies, as the dollhouse darkened and twisted around us.

“I couldn’t pretend things were normal anymore,” Thomas says now, as if reading my mind. “At a certain point, even I understood most foster families didn’t have kids locked in towers, and normal deliverymen didn’t look so shady, nor lick their lips every time a girl walked into view.

“I confronted my mother. At least, I tried. I said we shouldn’t be a foster family anymore. I was worried about the girls. Couldn’t we just . . . go back to the way things used to be.

“‘What?’ My mother laughed at me. ‘You mean poor?’

“‘If you want to help the girls,’ she told me, ‘then the least you could do is assist with their medicine.’ Which is how at the age of fourteen, I started driving our car into town, meeting with ‘business associates,’ then returning to the home with drugs. I wasn’t even legal to drive. Meaning that of course I was extra careful every inch of the way, terrified that I’d be pulled over by some cop. My mother had no patience for fools, not even her own son.”

I look up at him. “You became a dope dealer. You made all the purchases. You kept us drugged out of our skulls!”

Thomas doesn’t deny it. “Where would I have gone, Nicky? What would I have done if my mother turned me out? Her gift was equal culpability. She turned us all into her partners in crime. Then none of us could escape, because all of us were too terrified of the consequences.”

I want to argue with him. I want to yell and scream because it would be easier to blame him. Maybe once, I even did. But now I have an image in my head. A teenage boy with a mop of brown hair, all arms and legs, striding down the front steps of the house, moving with purpose. At the last moment, turning, looking back. The expression on his face. Frustration and longing and rage. Before turning once more toward the vehicle.

He was a prisoner, too. I remember thinking it then. The irony that he was her son, her actual son, and he was just as much a victim as the rest of us.

Vero once said she felt the sorriest for him. The rest of us didn’t belong here. But Thomas had been right: Where else could he go? Madame Sade was his family. This was his home. How do you escape that?

Vero and I lasted longer than most. But eventually, years and years of hopelessness took their toll. Vero talked about the magical queen less and less. I no longer imagined long, quiet conversations with the boy I’d once watched mow the lawn. We succumbed. Depression. Fear. Anxiety.

Then, when we refused to turn out at night, do as we were told—because what did it matter?—Madame Sade shot us up. First me. Then Vero.

I should’ve protested. I should’ve run, fought, anything. I would’ve liked to have been the girl who at least hit back.

But I didn’t. I stood there. I held out my arm. And when the meth first hit my vein . . . the rush. Suddenly I was alive for the first time in years.

While Madame stood there smiling with the syringe.

She didn’t just victimize us. She taught us to victimize ourselves. Go along to get along. So we did, so we did, so we did.

Until the day I started hoarding my drugs instead.

“I figured out what you were doing,” Thomas says now, with his uncanny ability to read my mind. “It took me a few days to notice it; that your eyes weren’t as glazed over, your expression was more alert, your responses quicker. I kept handing over your supply, and you kept accepting, but clearly . . . I didn’t say a word. If you wanted off, I wasn’t going to rat you out. I admired you, Nicky. You were up to something. And I thought it was about time someone had a plan.”

“I’d had enough,” I say simply. “And I don’t mean of being an addict. I mean of living. My first plan wasn’t to sober up and escape. Once, I’d thought about it. But even sober, walking out the front door . . . I had no hope in the woods; they’re too thick, the terrain too steep. That left the driveway, but she’d simply send you to fetch me.”

Thomas doesn’t argue. That’s what would’ve happened, and we both know it.

“My first thought wasn’t escape; I was going to OD. Which meant, of course, I needed to build up a certain quantity. Then I’d take it all at once. Vero watched me. She knew what I was doing. Then one day . . .

“She’s the one who told me what to do. And you want to hear something funny?” I smile at Thomas, and even now, all these years later, my eyes well with tears. “My first thought was that she just wanted my stash. She was looking out for herself, manipulating me. Of course, I wouldn’t hear of it. She’d OD on my drugs? Then I’d simply take her place in the body bag. No way!

“But Vero . . . she always had a way with words. An ability to tell a story. ‘Vero wants to fly,’” I murmur. “All those years later. Vero wanted to fly; she knew she was never going home again.

“She hurt, you know. We all hurt. But she really was dying on the inside. She kept at me. Telling me what needed to happen. There is only one way out of the dollhouse.” I look at Thomas. “We’d been there for so long,” I say softly. “The other girls, they passed through. But Vero and me, did you think your mother would, could, ever let us go?”

Thomas doesn’t say a word.

The wind is blowing. Or maybe it’s Vero’s breath, whispering across my cheek. She’s here. I know she is. Because Vero got it only half right. She died; but she still didn’t escape the dollhouse.

“I weaned myself off the drugs. I hoarded the stash. Then, after a particularly bad night . . . Vero took it. I watched her walk over to my mattress, dig into the box spring. I watched her take it all out. I watched her shoot it all up.

“Protest. Intervene. Take it away. Throw it out. So many things I could’ve done. But I didn’t. ‘Vero wants to fly.’ And so I watched her take flight.”

“None of the girls had OD’d before,” Thomas says softly. “Mother didn’t know what to do. She sent me in to check Vero again and again. I remember you sitting curled up in the corner. You’d been crying.”

Young Thomas, the mop-haired boy, bending over Vero’s body, checking her pulse. Young Thomas glancing over at me. Our eyes meeting. And for just one moment, I’m sure he knows what I did. But he never says a word.

He leaves the room. When he returns, a decision has clearly been made. He positions her body carefully on the old blue rug. He rolls it up, slowly, even gently. I have to look away because it hurts too much to stare.

“I’ll take her out later,” he tells me. “After dark. Will you be okay until then?”

I don’t speak, only nod. When I glance up, he’s staring right at me. He knows what I did, I think again. The question is, does he know what I’ll do next?

I wait most of the afternoon. Maybe something will change. Thomas will return early. Madame Sade will demand to see Vero’s body. There are only two other girls in the house; they are both eighteen, older than Vero and me. Maybe they will want to visit. But nothing happens.

All day long, the house is quiet. Just the sound of the rain against the glass.

November, the saddest month of the year.

When the sky starts to darken, I finally move off the floor. I unroll Vero’s body, not as slow, not as gentle. My heart is beating too fast. Her limbs flop and my limbs shake. I don’t think either of us can take it. Finally I have her out of the rug, onto the bed. Swapping out our clothes, pulling up the bedcovers.

Putting Vero to sleep in my bed. And placing myself inside death’s shroud.

It smells of her. Of vanilla lotion and almond soap. Of the smile she used to flash before the days grew too short and the nights too long. Of the stories she used to tell, when she still hoped to see her mother again.

I’d hated her. But then I’d loved her. She became the only family I ever had. The younger sister who was prettier and wiser and funnier, but I forgave her everything because she loved me more than I deserved and we both knew it.

I wonder if she’s already escaped. Up to some bright light in the sky. Or maybe back into her mother’s loving arms.

Then I cry, but I keep it silent because that’s how you learn to cry in a dollhouse; without ever making a sound.

Eventually, footsteps down the hall. The door opening. A long pause.

Thomas, I remember now. Returning to fetch the corpse, to do his mother’s bidding.

I feel myself tense. Force myself to relax. I can’t be afraid, I remind myself. I am already dead.

The sound of footsteps slowly approaching. I can hear his breathing as he leans down.

Don’t unwrap. Don’t check. And if he does?

I think of the way his eyes met mine just hours before. I think of the way I’ve seen him stare at this house. And I’m not frightened anymore.

As Thomas lifts me up into his arms. As Thomas carries me out of the room, down the stairs, into the hall.

“Wait!” Madame Sade’s imperious voice.

“What, Mother?”

“Surely she’s not still dressed. Clothes are not cheap, you know. Isn’t that a sock I see?”

“You don’t need these clothes.”

“Don’t be ridiculous. Set her down. Losing a girl is bad enough. We might as well keep the clothes.”

“No.”

“What?”

“I’m not setting her down. I’m not stripping off some dead girl’s clothes. You told me to take care of her. That’s what I’m doing. Now, get out of my way or you can dig the grave yourself.”

A long pause. I try not to breathe, not to hear the thunder of my own heart. Because I can feel the tremors in Thomas’s arms. I understand what this conversation is costing him. What it might yet cost me.

Then . . .

Thomas advances forward. Out the front door, down the steps, into the rain, though I don’t feel it right away. I am protected by the rug, lost in a dark world of muffled sound.

He walks forever. At least it feels that way. Wet leaves, tree limbs, smack against my foot, and I realize he has carried me into the woods. Of course, where else to dig the grave?

It comes to me slowly, and with growing horror. If he’s carrying me with both arms, then by definition, he can’t be carrying a shovel. Meaning he’s already been out in the woods. He’s already dug the trench.

Now he’ll drop me straight into it. No more time for me to prepare. No more somedays, maybes, eventually. This is it.

Sure enough.

He stops. His breathing hard and heavy. Then.

I fall down. Down, down, down, into the deep, dark earth.

Do I scream? I can’t scream. I’m already dead, I’m already dead, I’m already dead.

But I am screaming. Deep inside my mind, I’m screaming Vero, Vero, Vero. I’m so sorry, Vero.

The first heavy thump of wet earth. Followed by another, then another.

I close my eyes, even though I can’t see. I fist my hands, even though I can’t move. I am dead, I am dead, I am dead. I am Vero, tucked in the back of the closet, willing myself not be afraid of the dark.

Shovelful after shovelful of earth.

How long does it take to bury a body? I don’t know. I’m too lost in the blackness of my mind. Vero. Vero. Vero.

But the sound stops. The weight of earth settles, remains the same.

Then . . .

I panic. I can’t take it one second more. I wiggle and twist and thrash to and fro. And I scream. Out loud. Full throttle. Long and frantic and high-pitched and wailing.

I was dead, but now I am alive. And my lungs are bursting, crying out frantically for air.

Suddenly, the night sky is above me. I don’t know how I’ve done it, but I’m free. I can feel the rain on my cheeks. I can taste the mud on my lips. I open my mouth and inhale greedily.

Just in time to hear the gasp. As Thomas stumbles back, his hands still clutching the edge of the death-shroud rug.

“You!” he exclaims. “Oh my God! You. I knew it!”

Thomas does not run away.

Instead, he listens to my story. Then he threads his fingers into my own.

And he says, “This is what we’re going to do next.”

*   *   *

“OUCH . . . YIKES, DAMMIT! IS this road over yet?”

Wyatt’s SUV hit another rut; Tessa’s body bounced up, her head banging off the window.

“I don’t think this is a road,” he said. “More like a washed-out drive.”

“Which clearly hasn’t been used in years.”

“Not true. Look at that.” They jounced by another low-hanging tree, its limbs screeching across the vehicle’s roof overhead. “Freshly broken branch.”

“Nicky and Thomas?”

“That would be my first guess.”

“Wyatt, there’s no way another car followed them all the way out here without them noticing. The road is too deserted, this driveway too difficult to find.”

“The second vehicle would have to be right on their tail,” Wyatt agreed.

“In which case, they’d know they had company.”

“Third partner in crime?” Wyatt asked.

Tessa shrugged. “Gotta be someone who already knew how to find this place.”

“So either a third partner in crime, or a less welcoming blast from the past.” He glanced over at her as the vehicle hit another massive rut. “Which’ll make this very interesting, very fast.”