Текст книги "What I Thought Was True"

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Chapter Ten

The first thing I see when I get home, sticky with spilled soda and French fry grease, are Nic’s big bare feet sticking over the edge of Myrtle. Vivien is crouched over them in dark purple bikini bottoms and a low-cut black tank.

Good God. It’s four in the afternoon and they’re in our living room. On the couch under the wedding picture of my no-doubt-virginal grandmother. Not exactly the time or place for . . . having a foot fetish? Please tell me my cousin has clothes on. I clear my throat.

Vivie glances up, smiles, completely unembarrassed, then bends back over Nic’s toes.

And blows on them.

“Uh, guys?!” I say. “Maybe you could . . . take it somewhere else. Officially dying here.”

Nic sits up—thank God, dressed. “I’m doing penance,” he explains. “Making up for my sins.”

My glance shoots to the crucifix, my grandmother’s sweet, serious face.

“Uh . . .” I haven’t moved from the doorway. Viv sits back on her heels, squints at Nic’s foot, and then picks up a bottle of—“Oh my God, you guys, really!” I practically shout—clear nail polish and begins applying it to Nic’s other foot.

Nic looks at my face and bursts out laughing. “You look so incredibly freaked out,” he manages, then starts laughing again.

“Nico, hold still!” Vivie slaps at his leg.

“Gwen, Gwen, listen. Viv and I were schlepping a bunch of fish chowder over to the Senior Lunch at St. Anselm’s, and Speed Demon here is doing her thing—”

“I was only going fifty.”

“In a thirty-mile-an-hour zone, Vee.” He nudges his toes lightly into her stomach, turns back to me, more serious now but still smiling. “She’s wigging out because we’re late and she doesn’t want Al to get all over her—but I can hear the chowder sloshing and if my little felon here racks up any more tickets she’ll be answering to the law, never mind Al.”

Viv wrinkles her nose, sticks her tongue out at him. “You totally exaggerate how bad my driving is.”

“Uh, no, I don’t. You’re a maniac. And I like having you in one piece. So she’s barreling along and then we get to this stoplight and the light turns green and the truck in front of us isn’t moving. So Vee leans out the window and says, ‘What are you waiting for, asshole?’ and flips the driver off.”

“God, Viv,” I interrupt. “Don’t do that. We’ve told you like a billion times. You never know when you might run into some psychopath.”

“Exactly. ’Cause this guy gets out of the car and he’s like eight feet tall, three hundred pounds, tattoos, leather vest, chains, and he is effing furious. He comes over to the window and gets in Viv’s face and says, ‘Gonna repeat that?’”

“And I, like, burst into tears,” Viv says. “I’m picturing him killing Nic and then God knows what he’d do to me. My life is flashing before my eyes.”

“So I know I need to talk this guy down because I sure as hell can’t take him down.”

“But it’s the way you did it, Nic. He gets all chummy and buddy-buddy with this jerk.” Viv’s voice deepens. “‘So sorry, man. My honey here is a little touchy today. Normally she’s sweet as pie but she gets kinda high-strung at that time of the month, you know what I’m saying?’ And then this Neanderthal is clapping Nico on the back all-man-to-man and saying yeah, he has a wife and four daughters and he’s thinking of getting an RV that he can park in the driveway because their cycles are all the same and on and on and on—”

I’m laughing now, and so is Nic again. “Well, he did save you,” I point out.

“Yeah, but then they spent ten minutes telling women-are-cray-zee stories, which, I’ll have you know, Nic completely made up. He’s telling the guy that I once threw a pizza at him because he got the wrong toppings. That I threw his ball cap in a wood chipper because I was jealous of the time he was spending watching Sox games.”

“But again, I did save you,” Nic says, reaching for her hand.

“By making me sound like an out-of-control crazy hormonal bitch,” Viv says. “So having to get a pedicure is his penance for being Captain Macho. And so is wearing flip-flops next week so Hooper and Marco and Tony can admire his pretty tootsies.”

“They do look dreamy, Nico,” I say. “And anyway, if she were really mad at you, she would’ve gone for pink.”

Vivie winks at me—and then pulls a bottle of Day-Glo fuchsia polish out of her purse. “That was just the undercoat,” she says.

“Aw.” Nic ruffles her hair. “You’re so cute when you’re all riled up, honeybun.”

“Watch it, or you’ll get a manicure too.”

He leans over and kisses her . . . and kisses her . . . and kisses her. On and on and on. I might as well be in the next county.

Still, it’s good to know that this exists—true love—in my world. And not just in Mom’s books.

* * *

Al Almeida is telling us what he expects of his catering crew tonight in a hushed, urgent tone, shifting his eyes to each of us in turn. The group of us is in a respectful circle outside the turreted canvas tent set up for the rehearsal dinner on Hayden Hill, the highest point of Stony Bay, windblown, exclusive, overlooking the water but from far, far away. We soberly observe him, appropriately dressed in our black-and-white outfits, peasants at the gates of the palace. Al’s intimidating, actually, with beetle-y brows and military-short hair. “All right—listen up.” He checks his watch. One of his watches. He always wears one on each wrist.

“Showtime is in ten minutes. Seven o’clock. We’ve got a ton of littlenecks. Sorta skimpy on the oysters and the jumbo shrimp, but we’ve got extra-large for backup. You”—he points at me, Vivien, Melissa Rodriguez, and Pam D’Ofrio—“keep that raw bar stocked and ready. Empty spaces look cheap, and they don’t want cheap.” He pauses, lowers his voice further, and adds, “The bride’s family’s loaded, groom’s is running on fumes and Mayflower ancestors. Something to prove there.” He glares at Vivien, who has taken Nic’s hand and is absently kissing his palm. “You, young lady—pay attention. This will be up to you when all’s said and done.” Viv drops Nic’s hand and stands at attention, mock-saluting her stepdad. She throws me a quick glance, flipping her braid and nodding down at her left hand, where her middle finger is discreetly extended. Viv gets along with Al, but oh, how she hates his lectures.

“You”—Al points to Nic—“keep the water glasses stocked and the ashtrays empty. Dominic—keep the wineglasses full. Two-thirds. Not completely. Don’t trade places.” He glares at Nic and Dom, who is Pam’s older brother. “You’re twenty-two, Dominic; you’re underage, Nic. We don’t need any legal hassles.”

He turns back to Vivien, Pam, and me. “Keep those apps coming. We want them to fill up on the passed hors d’oeuvres before we bring out the lobster. Got it?”

We nod.

Al jerks his chin in satisfaction. “Go get ’em, team.”

He always adds this at the end, as though he’s suddenly morphed into Coach Reilly.

I’ve helped cater for Almeida’s for years and in all that time, I’ve never seen anybody I knew well at any of their events. Stony Bay is a small town, but the people I know don’t have events catered. Unless you count takeout from Castle’s.

Tonight my luck runs out.

I’ve finished passing out the garlic toast with Boursin and sundried tomatoes—only one lone straggler left—and am going back for another trayful, looking around for Vivien so I can complain about the man who just spent ten minutes staring down my shirt while demolishing the tray, when, for the second time today, I bump right into someone. “Shoot, oops,” the guy says, at the exact moment I say, “Sorry, I wasn’t looking where I was—”

Then I stop dead. Because it’s Alex Robinson, tall, dark, and elegant as he was last summer. Despite how things ended, I get goose bumps. But Alex . . . he’s looking at me with absolutely no acknowledgment on his face, like I’m some random side dish he didn’t order and is wondering how to send back. Is it possible he doesn’t recognize me? How many half-Portuguese girls did he hook up with last summer?

“Oh. Uh. Hi.” Alex wipes at the slosh of ice water I’ve spilled on his blue-and-white striped seersucker jacket. “It’s, uh, Gwen, right?”

That’s a bit much. I debate saying “No, Suzanne.” Instead, I widen my eyes. “Do we know each other?”

Alex blinks at me, a preppie owl. “Er . . .”

I school my face to look patient and baffled.

His eyes dart around, finally settling back on me. He clears his throat. “Look, I know it’s Gwen. Your . . . your mother was cleaning our house today. I thought maybe you’d come along with her.”

I open my eyes still wider. “Really? You missed me? Aw, that’s so sweet! I would have come, honest, but I had to stay home with Alex, Jr. He can walk now, and he’s just getting into everything, the little rascal!” I channel Mom for a look of weary maternal pride.

He pales. “Now . . . wait . . . I—”

I’m enjoying this, because I am a mean and spiteful person. “Were you like that too, Alex? What a chip off the old block our little cutie is.” I let one hand drift to my stomach and smile, Madonna-like.

Alex blinks, then shakes his head. “Ha-ha. I’d forgotten your sense of humor. If—er—that had happened, it would have just, uh, been born.” His eyes flick to my cleavage. Two guesses what he does remember. “How, uh, have you been, really?”

I balance the tray on my hip, brush away a strand of hair the light breeze has blown against my lips. “Fine. You?”

“Terrific,” he says. “Great. A good year at Choate. Headed to Princeton in the fall. My dad went there, so that’s . . . all . . . good.” His gaze once again drops to my chest, as though it exerts some sort of magnetic pull.

“Hmm” is the only thing I can think to say.

After Alex ended things last fall, when I imagined seeing him again, I always looked fantastic and he groveled at my feet. I was never wearing my ill-fitting Almeida’s Arrangements T-shirt—complete with mermaid extending a plate of stuffed quahogs—sweating, and with my unruly hair escaping its ponytail. I did not imagine how hard it would be to think of anything to say to him. Maybe I should have remembered how little actual talking we did.

“So.” Alex’s gaze roams down again, then off toward the raw bar. “I just, ah, thought I’d go try the—um—shrimp.”

“Sure,” I respond. “Why not? You’ve already sampled all I’ve got to offer.” This is too much, I know, but as usual, once I start talking, I can’t stop myself. The kiss-off text he sent me still makes me pissed, even nearly a year later.

“Now, look,” Alex says, “I—I—” His eyes dart around the tent again. “I have to . . . I think I hear someone calling me.”

He wheels away from me, walks off—practically sprints.

“That was enlightening,” says a voice in my ear.

I turn and stare into laughing ocean-blue eyes. “Wouldn’t it have been more efficient to castrate him?” Cass continues, filching the last piece of Boursin toast.

“I considered it.” I pick up the butter knife on my tray and wag it at him. “But I didn’t think this was up to the job.”

“Sounds like Alex wasn’t either,” Cass says. “Maybe somebody beat you to the castrating.” Then he reddens, like he just realized we’re talking about Alex’s penis, which I have clearly gotten to know.

When he blushes like that—now it’s spreading from his ears all over his cheekbones—I remember the Cass of that summer on the island. His hair is so many shades of blond now—gold and amber and yellow and dark blond at the roots—but the season he spent on Seashell, he was a towhead with fair, unfreckled skin. It was one of those crazy-weather summers, sheets of rain for days on end, high winds. Instead of the usual activities run by the island “camp counselor” that Seashell used to hire—kayak lessons, bike races, scavenger hunts—they had kids’ movies in the Club House every Saturday night to keep everyone under fifteen busy and distracted. The first time I met Cass, he opened the door for me as we were walking in. Then he turned bright pink.

“His castration would be no loss to anyone, trust me,” I say, and then want to clap my hand over my mouth. Cass may have mentioned Alex’s equipment, but I had to go rate his performance? God. This is not a subject that should be raised between us.

“I know that kid.” Cass squints at Alex’s retreating back. “We were at tennis camp together two years ago. His forehand sucks. Which tells you something right there.”

I burst out laughing, then do clap a hand over my mouth. “So . . . tutoring,” I say, trying to straighten out my face. “How many classes, exactly, did you screw up?”

Okay, that was a bit rude. I’m feeling off balance. Cass smells like lemons—I think he’s wearing aftershave. I’ve never seen him formally dressed. Now he’s wearing a tailored blue blazer, sky-blue shirt that brings out his eyes, yellow tie.

I may have been brainwashed by Grandpa Ben’s old movies, set in eras when the clothes made the man. I’m so used to Nic’s stinky rumpled wife-beaters, Dad’s aged plaid flannels, Hooper’s dubious pattern combos. Dressed-up Cass is like a creature from another planet. One I want to colonize. Oh, God, please stop.

Al Almeida walks by with a platter of lobsters, steam rising, and I finally get a grip.

I shift my eyes back to Cass. “The shellfish here? Taken care of,” I say, just to say something. “No need to ride to the rescue, Jose.”

“You’re welcome for that, by the way, Maria. I’m sure you meant to thank me this afternoon.”

“Can I remind you that I didn’t ask for your help?”

Cass’s teasing smile fades. “I know. I’m . . . ah, I’m asking for yours, though. That tutoring? It’s . . . it’s important. I know it’s probably the last thing you want . . .”

I shrug.

“I can pay. I mean, you know that. I flaked out this spring—just wasn’t . . . concentrating. So I basically about flunked out of English lit . . . Spence can screw around and still pull in the grades. He said only a moron could flunk ELA.” Cass shuts his mouth abruptly as if he’s said too much.

I could reassure him. I could tell him it’s no problem. Or that he’s not a moron. Instead I say, “Why do you put up with that guy?”

Cass’s jaw sets, a muscle jumping. “He can be a prick, but he’s a good friend to me.” There’s a note of challenge in his voice, a glove he’s throwing down that I am definitely not picking up. When I say nothing, he adds, “Right. So will you . . . ?” He breaks off, raising his eyebrows.

And now here’s Nic bearing down on us, glaring. “Gwenners, Al’s all over Vee because he says you’re slacking off—the whole ‘how are you going to run the show if you can’t keep your staff in line’ deal. You need to get back to work.”

It’s been a given for a long time that Almeida’s would go to Vivien, since her stepdad has no kids of his own. Still, I hadn’t exactly seen myself as “her staff.” I get a chilling image of what it would be like to still be wearing my quahog shirt at sixty, no longer the equal, nowhere close, of my own best friend.

“My fault,” Cass puts in. “I was keeping her, figuring out a summer schedule. For tutoring.”

“Yeah.” Nic’s tone is sub-zero, a direct contrast to the angry heat that, for some reason, is burning off him. “Wouldn’t want you to let that slide and end up off the team. Not when we’re so close to state, right, Somers?” Then he turns to me, letting Cass stew in the cloud of testosterone he’s emitting. “Vee needs you.”

Cass leans back a little, studies Nic’s face. “How about you? Getting much swim time? Hear you’re working for Seashell Maintenance too. Gonna be able to get your hours in?”

“I’ll manage,” Nic says, still frosty. He’s standing up straighter, as if to emphasize his two-inch height advantage. “Got the ocean right at hand, twenty-four/seven, after all.”

Cass stares out at the distance, his eyes dreamy, as though he can see the water from here. “I was thinking about that. How we should probably do some training over the summer, especially now that they’re not running the swim camp at SB—get some of the guys out, keep the team vibe going, get ourselves some wind and water challenges.”

In the distance, I can see Al waving his hands in despair, jerking his head toward the denuded raw bar.

“We’d better go,” I say, giving Cass a smile so quick it’s more like a grimace.

“Wait.” He touches my shoulder as I turn to go. “Call me. Or you could come to the Field House—to figure out the timing. For tutoring, I mean.”

Nic now has me by the other elbow and is hauling me away. “You are not going to the Field House apartment with that guy,” he hisses, practically shaking me by the arm.

I yank myself free. “What’s with you?” I ask, suddenly worried Nic has been taking steroids or something. “You were the one all hot to have me tutor him!”

“Yeah, well, while you two were in your little football huddle over here, I was pouring water at his family’s table, and some lady was asking Mr. Somers about Cass getting the captain spot on the team this year, saying he was a shoo-in.”

Nic’s face is stormy, almost threatening.

“So what? You’ll get it, Nico. Cool down.”

“No, listen,” Nic continues, flexing his fingers. “Look . . . I feel weird telling you this, but . . . I get to the next table and it’s Spence Channing, buddy-buddy with Alex Robinson. Talking about you. Alex says you were ‘a fun time.’ A fun time? That assclown. Spence just laughs and says you’re a swim team tradition. He’s on my fucking team and he’s disrespecting my cousin. I mean, I’m on the bus, I hear how they talk about girls—all ‘I’d tap that’ and ‘she’s hot, but-her-face’—but this is you, Gwen. Who the hell does he think he is? Who the hell does he think you are?”

I swallow. My face heats, freezes, then gets hot again. Spence knows who I am. Better than I’d like.

“Then I have to refill his goddamn water glass, not punch his face in . . .” Nic’s hand curls into a fist and he glares across the room, then looks back at me. “Aw, cuz. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said anything. I wasn’t thinking, too pissed off, I—”

“No big deal, Nico. I have a ways to go before I become a tradition. Plus, I’m going to have a hard time with Hank Klein, unless he breaks up with Scott Varga. But, you know me, I thrive on a challenge.”

“Don’t, Gwen,” Nic says quietly. “Not with me.”

I’m silent as we push through the half-plastic, half-cloth curtain that shields the main tent from the makeshift kitchen/prep area.

“About time, Guinevere!” Al says, thrusting another tray of shrimp and cocktail sauce at me. I take it, pull back the curtain and scan the tent, searching for the navy stripes of Alex’s seersucker jacket.

It’s sort of like Where’s Waldo . . . there are a lot of blue-and-white striped jackets. Finally I locate him, still sitting next to Spence. But now he’s talking to some redheaded chick on his left and Spence has on his half-amused, half-bored face. Which is his go-to expression, the world-weary aristocrat. He only looks happy when he’s swimming, training, or hanging out with Cass and the rest of his crew.

He perks up when I appear at his elbow. “Castle! Am I glad to see you. A favor? The bartender’s a little elusive. Snag a bottle of champagne for us here?”

Brushing a piece of his shiny, very straight dark hair out of his eyes, he gives me his practiced slow smile, the trademark once-over. Spence is good-looking, no lie. But there’s something too sharp. Like you could paper-cut yourself on him without him even noticing.

I take a deep breath, tightening my grip on the tray. “Not my job, Channing. I just do the setup and pass the food. Plus, you’re underage.”

“It’s a wedding rehearsal dinner. All rules are suspended. All of them. I just walked by my uncle Red in the backseat of his car with one of the bridesmaids.” He lowers his voice to a loud whisper. “Don’t tell Aunt Claire.”

Since I have no idea who Aunt Claire or Uncle Red are, this is unlikely. But it throws me off for a second before I say, “I’m not here to wait on you. I’m here to tell you you’ve got the wrong word.”

An emotion—in this case, puzzlement—actually crosses his face. “Come again?”

“If I were a swim team ‘tradition,’ Spencer, I would be something that happened repeatedly.”

Another emotion, a brief flash of embarrassment. “I didn’t mean for you to hear about that.”

“Maybe next time you should pay more attention to who’s pouring your ice water. Did you really think Nic wouldn’t pass that one on? He may be your teammate, but he’s my cousin. Blood trumps chlorine.”

Alex has picked up on my raised voice and peeks over, takes in the situation, turns away, clearly distancing himself from any potential “scene.” He hated scenes, probably why he broke up with me by text.

“I think the word you were going for is mascot. You should work on your vocab, or your SATs are going to tank.”

I walk away to the sound of Spence’s startled laughter.

* * *

When Vivie and Nic drop me outside our house, I hold my hand up in farewell, climb two steps, and plunk down wearily on the porch. The back of one of my shoes is jabbing into my heel like a blade saw.

The sky is hazy June-night beautiful, with the moon cutting sharp into the dark, but the stars are nothing but pinpricks. The night breeze is shifting, stirring through the woods, over the water, bringing in the silty, sandy smell of low-tide.

I look down the High Road. The quartz embedded in the tar glitters in the moonlight. Seashell has no streetlamps. This late at night, barely any windows are still lit in the long line of houses along the road. The Field House is five down from ours. I wonder if Cass stayed late at the party. I didn’t see him as we packed up the van to leave. Partly because I tried really hard not to look. Will he spend the night in town in his sailing-ship house, or here on Seashell? I rub my hands up and down my arms, abruptly chilly in the night breeze, and wonder why I’m suddenly thinking about Cass Somers so much. Gah. Part of the whole point of this summer was to forget him.

I let myself in through the rattly porch door with the broken latch—the one Nic keeps saying he’ll fix—and the house is quiet, peaceful, so different from all the sound and drama in the tent.

Mom’s dozed off on the couch, her brow crinkled, still clutching a brightly colored paperback. Leaning over, I pull it out, dog-ear the page she’s on (which I can’t help but notice begins with “Begorrah, ye she-witch, I’ve half a mind to put ye over my knee”), then pull the quilt off the bottom and cover her up. I should wake her, coax her to sleep in her own bed, rather than in the dubious comfort of Myrtle’s exhausted orange plaid arms. But tonight, I want a room with only me and my thoughts.

I can hear the soft rumble of Grandpa Ben’s snores coming from the room he shares with Nic and Emory. I wish I could peel away the whole evening—last night too—like I do my sticky clothes, erase it in the outdoor shower the way I scrub off the smell of smoke and shrimp.