Текст книги "Snow Wolf"

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As the car drove out through the gates and headed east away from the city, Colonel Grenady Kraskin took off his cap and rubbed a hand along his thinning hairline. At sixty-two, he was a veteran and senior KGB officer with over thirty years' experience. Answerable only to Beria and Stalin, he was responsible for special interior operations, which came under the control of 2nd Directorate, based in the seven-story KGB Headquarters in Moscow's Dzerzhinsky Square. In this capacity Krasicin had traveled to East Berlin for his monthly inspection tour of top-secret Soviet research facilities, which he carried out with customary thoroughness.

After a thirty-kilometer drive, the black Zil turned off the main Potsdam highway onto a minor road that finally led past the sleepy German hamlet of Luckenwaide. At the end of a road lined with tall fir trees stood a double gate with a metal barrier. Beyond the barrier lay a tarmac track with barbed-wire runs on either side. Two uniformed guards snapped stiffly to attention as the Zil drew up and an officer came out of a concrete guard hut to check the passenger's identity cards. Moments later the barrier was lifted and the car drove through.

A half kilometer down the barbed-wire run Kraskin saw the mouth of an underground tunnel, like giant concrete jaws erupting from the earth. The car drove down and finally came to a halt.

When Krasicin stepped out he was in a vast bunker that looked like an enormous underground car park. There was a sickly smell of diesel fumes and stale air. Intense neon light blazed overhead and a dozen or more military vehicles were parked on the concourse. Off to the right was an elevator, its metal doors open and waiting.

The officer in charge saluted smartly and led Kraskin across. Both men stepped in. The doors closed and the elevator descended.

The Pan American Airways DC-6, Flight 209 from Paris, was almost empty and the blond-haired man sat in a window seat two rows from the front.

As the aircraft banked to port and came in over Berlin's Wannsee Lake, the man saw the broad ribbon of the Unter Den Linden stretched below him. Here and there the surrounding suburbs were still peppered with old bomb craters, and looking east he saw the still crumbling, gutted buildings in the Russian Zone.

It was ten minutes later when the plane landed in West Berlin's Tempelhof airport. The immigration and customs checks were thorough and there was a military presence everywhere since the Russians had sealed off East Berlin with a ten-yardwide shoot-to-kill strip. But the uniformed West German official did not spot the false American passport and the man passed through without too much delay.

No one seemed to take any notice of the blond man, and moments later he saw the gray Volkswagen parked opposite the civilian car park. An attractive woman in her early thirties sat behind the wheel smoking a cigarette, and he recognized her dark Russian features. She wore a blue scarf around her neck, and when she noticed him she tossed her cigarette out of the window.

He waited a full minute before he crossed to the car and put his case on the back seat, his eyes carefully scanning the Arrivals area before he moved.

He didn't speak as he climbed in beside the woman, and a moment later she pulled out quickly from the curb and drove toward Berlin.

Colonel Grenady Kraskin looked across at the big, slovenly man seated opposite and smiled. They were in Sergei Enger's office on the first of several floors in an underground complex that had once been built by the Germans.

Kraskin smiled. "Well, Sergei, tell me your troubles."

Sergei Enger was a stout, untidy figure of a man with dark, thinning curly hair and a plump stomach. A physics graduate from Moscow University, he was head of research in the Luckenwaide underground complex. Despite his easy-going manner and untidy personal appearance-Enger frequently wore mismatched socks and carried the remains of breakfast or lunch on his tie-the man had a brain as sharp as a scalpel and a talent for organizing others.

Enger smiled back weakly. Troubles he certainly had, but Grenady Kraskia didn't have the look of a man you shared personal problems with.

The colonel's face was sharp and hard and weather-beaten. There were ruts in his leathery skin, deep wrinkles that almost looked like scars, and combined with a chilling smile, they had a frightening effect. And the man's crisply pressed black uniform and immaculately polished boots always intimidated Enger.

Outwardly a reasonable and intelligent man, Kraskin's external mask hid a dark and savage streak. In one winter campaign near Zadonsk on the River Don in the Caucasus during the Bolshevik Revolution, Kraskin's battalion had engaged a detachment of four hundred Whites, wiping them out in three days of savage hand-to-hand fighting. Promising mercy to the survivors and their families who had surrendered, Kraskin instead had them lined up against a wall and shot, showing no mercy to women and children.

Enger shrugged and toyed with a pencil on the desk. "What makes you think I have troubles, Grenady? The project is going better than I expected."

Kraskin beamed. "Excellent. I'm glad to hear it."

Enger stood up, as if still bothered by something, and crossed to the broad glass window that looked down onto the vast complex below.

The place never ceased to amaze Enger, even after spending two years there. The Nazis had started work on the underground complex ten years before, intending it as a V2 factory, but the Russian advance into eastern Prussia had ended all that. Now it was one of the most secret and advanced research facilities in East Germany, the entire operation sited underground, doing away with the need for camouflage above ground Lebel.

Beyond the office, glass lights blazed overhead. The whole area was swamped in daylight. Metal boilers and air-conditioning conduits ran along the walls for almost half a kilometer. Here and there men sculked about in white coats.

Enger looked down at the amazing scene for several moments before turning back.

"I left the details you requested in the file on the desk, Grenady. I trust they meet with your approval?"

Kraskin picked up the folder. When he had finished scrutinizing the progress sheets inside he turned back to Enger.

"You've done well, Sergei. The German scientists, they seem to be outperforming themselves." Kraskin grinned. "It's amazing what the threat of being sent to a Gulag will do."

He smiled at Enger. "You look like a man who has the weight of the world on his shoulders. If it's not the project, what is it? Come, Sergei, let's hear whatever's on your mind."

Enger hesitated. "But could I be frank, Grenady? Could I really speak freely?"

Kraskin laughed. "If you're asking me are these rooms bugged, the answer is no. I made a point of deeming you a special case."

"I'm indebted, Grenady."

Kraskin waved a hand dismissively and half smiled. "Nonsense, what are friends for? Say what's on your mind."

Enger removed a soiled handkerchief from his pocket and dabbed his brow. "You've no idea what it's like here. The constant hum of the machines, the conditioned air. I don't know bow the Germans stood it. I'm glad my work here is almost at an end."

As he sucked on his cigarette, Kraskin said, "So how much longer before your part of the operation is completed?"

"The way it's going, a lot earlier than we thought. Borosky and the other scientists will be arriving in the next few weeks to link the various projects together."

"So how much longer?" repeated Kraskin.

Enger shrugged. "A month, maybe sooner. Our initial tests have been very promising. And the test site in the Caucasus is nearing completion. I've also read our latest reports of the Americans' progress sent from Moscow. We're going to be ahead of them. Their explosion in the Pacific was small in comparison to the one we intend. Really it was only a triggering device the Americans detonated. I can almost guarantee we'll be the first to explode the actual hydrogen bomb."

"I'm very pleased to hear that, Sergei. I'll make sure to mention your diligence in my report."

Enger paid no heed to Kraskin's statement. His voice suddenly softened and he said, "Do you think there's going to be a war, Grenady?"

Kraskin laughed. Enger looked at him in amazement. "What's so funny?"

"is that what's been bothering you?"

"It had crossed my mind. You have to admit it's being talked about."

Kraskin grinned. "And what makes you think there's going to be a war, my friend?"

"Damn it, Grenady, it doesn't take a genius to figure it out."

Enger nodded back toward the underground bunker. "I've been living down there for the past two years like a mole, not a scientist. Days go by when I don't see sunlight." He hesitated. "The way things are between us and the Americans right now, some kind of conflict looks inevitable. For almost two years now we've been working frantically on our weapons program. And in the past six months since the Americans exploded their first device the funds have suddenly become unlimited. And then there have been the threats. Veiled, but there. To all of us, not just the German scientists. Work harder, much harder, or there will be repercussions. There has to be a reason, Grenady. We're racing against time. Why? Is there something Moscow isn't telling us?"

Kraskin stood up slowly. "There won't be a war if the Americans see sense."

"What does that mean? I'm a scientist, I deal in facts. Give me facts, Grenady."

Kraskin swung around and his words had a savage ring. "The Americans think they own the fucking world. They think they have some God-given right to control this planet, tell everyone how it should be run. Well, we're not going to take that shit from them."

Enger shook his head. "You can't imagine what the next war would be like. These bombs we're working on, they are not like the ones the Americans dropped on Japan. They're much more powerful. Entire cities and their populations can be totally wiped from the map with one explosion. In Nagasaki and Hiroshima people survived some ten kilometers from the epicenter. With a thermonuclear explosion big enough, that isn't even a remote possibility." Enger hesitated. "Besides, I'm not deaf, Grenady, I may be a thousand miles from Moscow but I still hear the rumors."

Kraskin raised his eyes before he drew on his cigarette. "And what rumors are they?"

Enger hesitated. "That we're gearing up for war. That Stalin wants the bomb completed fast, so he can drop it on the Americans before he dies. They say he's taken to walking alone in the Kremlin gardens, talking aloud to himself. That his behavior has become more erratic and unpredictable. They say he trusts no one, not even himself. Doesn't that worry you?"

Kraskin looked sternly at Enger. "And who tells you such things?" Enger said nervously, "They're simply rumors, Grenady. But everybody here speaks of them."

Kraskin's voice had a hint of menace. "I think you'd be wise to ignore such rumors and not doubt Comrade Stalin's mental health too loudly, my friend. There are people in Moscow who might hear and start to doubt yours. Statements like that could have you locked in a rubber room.. Or shoveling salt in a Siberian mine. Or worse."

"Then just answer me this, They say the purges are about to start again. That people are being arrested in huge numbers and shot or sent to the camps. Especially Jews. Is it true?"

Kraskin looked at Enger but left the question unanswered. "You're a Party member and a valuable scientist. You have nothing to fear."

"I'm Jewish, Grenady. It concerns me.". Enger's face darkened. "Something's in the air. I can sense it. Please tell me what's happening." Kraskin said sharply, "I think you're too long down in that bunker of yours talking to rumor-mongers. You'd do better to concentrate on your work. Pay no heed to malicious gossip coming from Moscow."

There was a hard edge of menace in Kraskin's voice, all reasonableness gone. He stubbed out his cigarette and ended the discussion.

"Come, it's getting late, we'd better finish the inspection. I want to be out of this godforsaken place and get back to Berlin."

The blond-haired man stood at the window of the apartment on the Kaiserdamm. It was cold outside, a bitter wind sweeping the street. He heard the rumble of British Army trucks as they passed below the window, but he didn't look down.

He turned as the woman came in. She carried a brownwrapped parcel tied with string and a doctor's black leather bag. She placed them on the table and went to join him at the window.

She looked at him.

He had an air of stillness and of isolation. Alex Stanski was tall, in his middle thirties, and wore a dark double-breasted suit, shirt and tie. His short blond hair was brushed off his forehead and his face was clean-shaven and handsome.

There was a trace of a smile on his lips, as if fixed there permanently. But it was the eyes which she always noticed. Intense pale blue and infinitely dangerous.

"Kraskin should finish the Luckenwalde inspection by midafternoon. After that he's holding a briefing at KGB Headquarters at Karlshorst. At seven-thirty tomorrow morning he's due to meet with the Soviet Zone Commander, so our guess is he'll go to bed early. He never stays in any of the army barracks, but always uses the private apartment at his disposal. It's by the Tierpark. Number twenty-four, a blue door. Kraskin's apartment is on the second floor, number thirteen." The woman half smiled. "Sometimes not such a lucky number. But for you, Alex, I hope so."

Alex Stanski nodded. The faint smile didn't leave his lips. "Tell me about the crossing."

"You'll use one of our tunnels that exits near Friedrichstrasse. A Red Army jeep will be left parked and waiting there." The woman went over the details for several minutes, and when Stanski was satisfied she handed him an envelope. "Those are your papers. You're a Red Army doctor from the Karishorst Military Hospital making a call to one of your military patients. Kraskin is a wily old snake, so be careful. Especially if there's someone else in the apartment."

"Should there be?"

"He likes little boys."

"How little?"

"Ten-year-olds seem to be his preference. He also has a boyfriend. A major at Karlshorst named Pitrov. If he's in the apartment, you know what to do."

Stanski heard the hard edge of bitterness in the woman's voice. She nodded at the brown-wrapped parcel. "Everything you need is in there. Make sure you don't fail, Alex. Because if you do, Kraskin will kill you."

He opened the parcel in the bedroom once she had left.

He tried on the uniform and it fitted him well. He felt a shudder go through him as he looked in the mirror. The major's olive-brown wasted uniform with the wide silver shoulderboards and the polished boots gave him a threatening look. The brown leather holster and belt lay still in the wrapper. He took them out and slid out the pistol. It was a Tokarev automatic, 7.62 millimeter, the standard-issue Russian Army officer's sidearm, but the tip of the barrel had been grooved. He screwed on the Carswell silencer, then removed it again. There were two loaded magazines and he took each in turn and pried out the bullets with his thumb.

He checked the action of the magazines and weapon again and again, until he was satisfied neither might jam, then stripped the gun down and cleaned it with an oily rag left in the parcel. When he had finished, he replaced the bullets in the magazines, slammed home a magazine into the butt of the gun, and slipped it into the holster.

He crossed to the bed and unfastened the buckles on his suitcase and removed the knife from the doctor's black bag he took from inside the case. The silver blade gleamed in the light as he unsheathed it. He stood there running his thumb gently along the razor edge for several moments, feeling the sharpness of the cold steel. He replaced the knife in the sheath, slipped it into the doctor's bag, and snapped the metal catch shut.

Before he removed the uniform he took the photograph from his suitcase and slipped it into the tunic pocket. He wrapped the uniform neatly back in the brown paper. He did not dress again but went to lie naked on the bed. The alarm clock on the bedside locker said three o'clock.

He would try and sleep until six and then it would be time to go.

It was almost seven when Kraskin's car pulled up outside the apartment block facing the Tierpark. There was a crack of thunder and it started to rain as Kraskin climbed out. The black Zil pulled away and the colonel went up the stairs to the second floor and inserted the key. When he stepped inside and closed the door he took in the smell immediately.

He had been too long a military man not to recognize the stench of cordite after a weapon had been fired, and at once his suspicions were aroused.

The door to the bedroom was open and Kraskin saw the body of Pitrov, dressed in a blue silk dressing gown, sprawled across the bed. Even from a distance his eyes didn't deceive him. He saw the bullet wound to the head and the dark crimson patch spread on the white cotton sheets.

"Oh my God," Kraskin breathed.

"Strange words for a communist, Colonel Kraskin."

There was a faint click behind him. Kraskin turned at once and saw the man. He was seated in the shadows by the curtained window. His face was barely visible. But there was no mistaking the silenced Tokarev in his hand.

Kraskin made a move for his holstered pistol, managed to get the flap undone, but the man stood up smartly and came out of the shadows. He pointed the Tokarev at Kraskin's head.

"I really wouldn't, comrade. Unless you want to lose an eye. Sit down, at the table. Keep your hands on top."

Kraskin did as he was told. The man stepped toward him.

"Who are you?" Kraskin demanded, his face chalk-white.

"My name is Alex Stanski. I'm here to send you to Hell."

Kraskin's face flushed white. "You'll never get away with this." He nodded toward the bedroom door where the body lay. "And for the crime that's just been committed you'll be hunted down like the vermin that you are."

"You're hardly one to talk about crimes, Kraskin. By the laws of any land you ought to be put down like a mad dog. You were responsible for the shooting of at least fifty schoolchildren during the kulak wars. I believe your specialty was to sexually assault them before you dispatched them with a bullet in the head. When they find Pitrov's body and yours they'll put it down to a lovers' tiff that turned tragically violent. The gun I'm holding is Pitrov's. You killed him and then yourself."

"Yes, very convenient,"said Kraskin dryly. "So who sent you?" He shifted again in his chair, felt the flap of his holster lift against the tablecloth.

"That really doesn't matter. But this does." Stanski removed a photograph from his tunic pocket and tossed it on the table.

"Pick it up."

Kraskin did as he was told.

"Look at the photograph. Do you recognize the girl?"

Kraskin saw a young dark-haired girl standing on a deserted beach. She was smiling for the camera, and held a child in her arms.

"No, why should I?"

"Her name was Ave Perlov. And this is where it gets personal, Comrade Kraskin. You interrogated her in Riga a year ago. If I'm not mistaken, you had quite a time with her before you sent her to the firing squad. Torture is too mild a word. She had to be taken to the wall on a stretcher."

Kraskin smiled. "I remember now. One of the partisan bitches."

"She was only nineteen, you bastard."

Kraskin saw the flash of uncontrolled anger and knew it was time to make his move. As he tossed the photograph away he saw Stanski's eyes flick to it and Kraskin's right hand reached into his holster and the Tokarev came out smartly.

Kraskin managed to get off a quick shot and it chipped Stanski's left arm below the elbow.

But it wasn't enough.

Stanski leaned in close and shot him between the eyes.

As the gun exploded, Kraskin was flung back in his chair, the close shot cracking open the back of his skull and tearing out half his brain.

Stanski picked up the photograph from the floor and replaced it in his tunic pocket. He looked down at the neat hole drilled in his uniform sleeve, saw the patch of blood spread. There was no pain, not yet, just a dull ache in his arm. He found a towel in the bathroom and wrapped it around the wound before he pulled on the military overcoat.

When he came back into the room, he opened the doctor's black bag and removed the knife. He knew he had very little time before someone reacted to Kraskin's gunshot, but he worked calmly.

He moved back to Kraskin's body and unbuttoned the man's trousers. He removed the flaccid penis. The knife flashed and the organ was severed in a gorge of blood. The man stuffed the severed lump of flesh deep into Kraskin's gaping mouth. He wiped the blade on Kraskin's tunic and replaced the knife in the doctor's bag.

He could hear the noises in the hallway now, fists starting to pound the door, but already he was moving toward the window and the fire escape.

Helsinki. October 26th That evening two men sat down to a late dinner at Helsinki's Savoy Restaurant, a favorite haunt of embassy staff and foreign diplomats. The tables in the eighth-floor gourmet restaurant overlooking the Esplanadi were spaced generously enough apart for conversations to be conducted in private.

Doug Canning's title at the American Embassy was Political Counselor but his real function was as a CIA senior officer.

Canning had made the initial report on Anna Khorev and the incident at the border crossing to the American Ambassador, and once a joint decision had been made to call in more expert help to interrogate and assess the woman, Jake Massey, a senior Soviet expert and the head of the CIA's Soviet Operations office based in Munich, had been put on a plane for Helsinki that same night. After Massey had delivered his assessment, he got a phone call to join Canning for dinner to discuss the matter.

Doug Canning was a tall, lean Texan with blond thinning hair and tanned good looks. He had Southern charm in abundance and wielded considerable influence with the US Ambassador.

It was the Ambassador who would ultimately decide Anna Khorev's suitability for political asylum. Relations between the Soviets and Americans were at their lowest in years, and those who escaped over the border were often considered more a headache than a help. Massey knew Anna Khorev was a problem the American Embassy would rather not have to deal with and that her worries were far from over.

Canning had ordered a bottle of Bordeaux and the house specialty, Vorschmack, for both of them, and when he had sipped his wine appreciatively he smiled across the table.

"it sounds from the report as though the girl had a pretty rough time. But is she telling you anything we could find useful, Jake?"

Massey had hardly touched his food, and now he shook his head.

"There's nothing much she can tell us. It's been eight years since she was discharged from the Red Army. So any background information in that regard would be pretty much out of date by now."

Canning looked out toward Helsinki's massive illuminated Dome Cathedral in the distance, then back again. "So I guess she's really no use to us?"

Massey knew it was a crucial question but he replied honestly. "I guess not. But there are other circumstances to consider here, Doug."

"Such as?"

"What the girl's been through. She's taken a hell of a beating in the last six months."

"And you think she's telling you the truth?"

"Yes, I do. I think her story's genuine. Whether or not she can help us with intelligence information, on humane grounds alone I think she has a case."

Canning hesitated, then wiped his mouth with his napkin and sat forward. "Jake, let me give it to you straight. Some pretty strong noises are being made at the highest levels. It seems Moscow has got a bee up their ass on this one. Like it's a matter of principle they get her returned. They say she's a common criminal and in order not to further damage the already delicate relationship between our two countries, we ought to send her back over the border." He smiled. "Now you and I know that's a load of reindeer shit but I want you to be aware of the fact that they don't like the idea of us helping the little lady one little bit."

"What about the Finns?"

"They want us to make a quick decision. But if we don't grant her asylum, they sure as hell won't. As it is, the Russian Ambassador's up their ass with a big stick."

After the Finns had endured a savage and humiliating war with Russia thirteen years before, Massey knew they treated their closest neighbor with caution, like a bear they didn't want to rouse to anger. But Finland also took a delight in frustrating Moscow. They had allowed Anna Khorev to be moved to a private hospital rather than keep her in the special prison on Ratakatu Street, headquarters of Finnish counterintelligence. And they had granted her temporary refugee status while the Americans made up their minds.

"So what do you think's going to happen?"

Canning looked across the table, a concerned look on his face. "We don't need the kind of diplomatic trouble this can bring, Jake. So my guess is that the Ambassador will send her back. And there's something else you ought to know. Helsinki has an agreement with the Russians that allows them to interview any border-crossers convicted of serious crimes. The Soviet Embassy has already made it clear it wants to do that. It gives them a chance to save face and exert a little pressure to try to get the escapee to return with promises of leniency, before they really put on the pressure at embassy Lebel. There's a senior official in town right now who's handling it. Some guy called Romulka, from Moscow."

"KGB?"

Canning grinned. "You can bet your ass on it."

"Damn it, the girl's been through hell and back. She shouldn't have to go through all that."

"Maybe, but it's the law, Jake. You know if I had my way anyone who comes over that border who's a genuine political refugee has got my support. But rightly or wrongly she did commit murder. And that makes it pretty difficult for us to grant her asylum."

"Doug, if we send the girl back the Ambassador will be signing her death warrant. He may as well pull the damned trigger himself."

Canning heard the passion in Massey's reply and raised his eyebrows. "Hey, it sounds as if you've got a strong personal interest in the girl, Jake."

"She's been through a hell of a time. She deserves our help. If we send her back, we're only condoning what the Russians do. We're saying go right ahead, punish her. There's nothing wrong with the camps you run. Nothing wrong with killing or imprisoning millions of people, most of them innocent." Massey shook his head firmly. "Me, I'd have a problem going along with that."

Canning hesitated. "Jake, there's something odd about this whole damned thing I haven't told you about but I think you'd better know because it kind of upsets the equation. Despite the fact that the woman's story didn't change during questioning by the Finns, one of their more experienced SUPO officers who questioned her said in his report he didn't believe her."

"Why not?"

"The area where she claims she was in the penal camp, the Finnish officer knows it pretty well. He used to live there when it used to be part of Karelia before the Russians were ceded the territory after the war. This officer says it's impossible for the woman to have made the journey on foot from the camp. The story she told us may make some kind of sense but he says the terrain she's supposed to have crossed is too hostile and even the length of time she said it took her he claims doesn't ring true. He thinks she was left near the border by the KGB. Left there to get over to our side as she did, for whatever reason they have in mind."

"What else does he say?"

"That the whole thing is an elaborate setup by Moscow."

"I don't believe that."

"Moscow could be fooling us, Jake. They've done it before. And whatever they have in mind for the girl, this whole thing about them wanting her back could be another part of the game to make us believe her story."

"I don't believe that either."

Canning shrugged and wiped his mouth with his napkin. "OK, so what do you suggest?"

"Let me talk with the Ambassador before he makes a final decision. And try to hold off letting this Romulka guy talk to her for as long as you can. I'd like to see her again myself. Not for another interrogation, just a friendly chat."

Canning gestured for the waiter to bring the bill, indicating the meeting was at an end, before he looked back at Massey.

"Any particular reason why you want to talk with her again?"

"After what she's been through, I'd guess she needs to talk with someone."

The private hospital was on the outskirts of Helsinki.

It was a big old place on a hill with high stone walls set on several dozen acres. There was a small forest of silver birch trees and a tiny frozen lake, wooden benches set around the perimeter.

Anna Khorev was given her own private room on the third floor. There was a view of the city and the brightly colored timber houses that dotted Helsinki's shore and islands. A guard sat outside her room day and night.

A table stood in a corner, a blue vase on top filled with winter flowers, and there was a radio on a shelf by the window. On the first day she had twiddled with the plastic dial as it spread across the band of short-wave frequencies, listening to music and voices in a dozen different languages from cities she had only read about: London, Vienna, Rome, Cairo.

That afternoon one of the nurses had helped her bathe and changed her dressing and afterwards had brought her fresh clothes. The wound in her side was now just a dull throb, and later she had walked in the hospital grounds. She avoided talking with the other patients on Massey's instructions, though she desperately wanted to see the world beyond the walls and experience freedom. But it was not to be, and she had to content herself with small triumphs, listening to music and reading the newspapers in English.