Текст книги "Summon the Bright Water "

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I think that other guests at Broom Lodge must have been intimidated by the abbess or in a hurry to get away or, like the major, too perplexed by the past in the present and the future in the past. I am not, I know, particularly attractive to women. I have a narrow, thin-lipped, dark face and a lean body hardened by travel in search of evidence which archaeologists are too busy with tombs and temples to discover. I have also a lean mind which fails to notice birthdays, moods, hair and other surface femininities when deeply engaged in what has been called dream statistics: a fair description though intended to hurt. So I was surprised to notice – some things I do notice – that Elsa was unmistakably trying to draw attention to herself and, like an awkward young girl, interrupting conversations.

‘You must come and see the mines,’ she said to me on the third afternoon.

The main collieries of the Forest are abandoned, leaving remarkably little industrial mess behind. The seams were rich and there was no gas but, as the shafts deepened, the costs and difficulties of pumping out the water became prohibitive. The shape of the Forest is an irregular crater, not at all obvious to the eye among sharply contoured wooden hillocks but pulling into itself any stream on its way to the Severn.

Free mines, however, are still worked, and anywhere in a clearing you may come upon a syndicate of two or three exploiting their shallow shaft with pick, shovel and a little tramway to the surface. Dells and hollows which seem a pleasant freak of nature were once mines, some of them worked by Celts and Romans for iron, before it was discovered that the black rock close to the surface would burn.

I had thought it was an abandoned pit which Elsa wanted me to see; but, as we walked along the green bridle path into the heart of the Forest, chatting of nothing and aware of everything, she in that attractive black robe hanging prettily straight from the shoulder and chastely outlining high breasts and long legs, she turned aside several times to show me these hidden depressions where the bracken gave way to wild flowers and coarse grass and glimpses of bare rock. At last she settled down in one of these pastoral hollows, a dancing ground for nymphs.

‘I come here when I am tired of that Broom Lodge,’ she said, patting the slope of grass as an invitation to join her.

I was surprised. I had taken her to be as whole-hearted an enthusiast as her uncle. I remarked cautiously that perhaps it was all a bit too solemn.

‘There hasn’t been an Elsa before and there won’t be an Elsa again,’ she exclaimed.

To this petulance I answered boldly that for her very individual loveliness it could be true.

‘You know perfectly well what I meant!’

‘So do you – what I meant.’

‘Am I “maternal”?’ She put the word in inverted commas.

‘I don’t know. If you don’t feel maternal you play it very well.’

She did. There were of course no servants at Broom Lodge. Everything was done by the colonists themselves according to their abilities; for example, those who could cook took turns at it. But somebody had to keep an eye on the housekeeping and general organisation, and that was Elsa’s job.

‘Of course I do. They all trust me, and Simeon has no time for little things. He has done so much. We were very poor to start with.’ She went on to say that I should not misunderstand her. She loved the commune and believed it was the right way to live.

‘But the religion?’ I suggested.

‘Well, why should I spoil it for them? But my body is not an illusion, damn it!’

Again the touch of little girl. I waited for more.

‘And I’m too tall for them.’

Members of the commune were of average height, but she and her uncle – Elsa nearly six foot and he rather more – seemed to tower over them. That effect was due to their air of kindly authority rather than the slight differences of inches.

With a sudden movement she uncoiled and got up. I did so, too, but less gracefully. When we stood facing each other, her grey eyes were on a level with mine. It was impossible to look over them and I did not want to look away from them. As four eyes so ignored the space between them, there might as well be none. I pulled her to me and kissed her. Her response showed that it was what she expected. She may have persuaded herself that standing up she was less committed.

‘They are all … Oh, for them I might come from another world!’ she exclaimed.

‘Sit down and tell me about it.’

‘I shan’t tell you about it. It’s just that I hate it. I feel they think it’s wrong to touch me.’

Myself, I felt it was a sin not to. Her voice and expression implied that ‘they’ didn’t entirely resist temptation but then snatched hands back from the fire so that affairs tended to be exasperating and awkward. She was now sitting close to me and, her head dreamily tilted back, offered her mouth again. She made no effort to stop that severe robe slipping away and then was tremulous but without protest as kisses wandered far and wide until both of us were overwhelmed by that unforgettable demand which still falls short of love but is far more beautiful than crude passion.

‘That was rape,’ she whispered later, with pretended indignation.

Her face was turned away, but one arm was flung out asking to be adored. Of all the erogenous zones a cool, slender arm is to me the most alluring, for it is so lightly joined to all the rest that it seems to be in control of its own movements and has its own personality. I raped that too – in reality now, for I do not think it had experienced such desire before. Its owner was jealous. This time she was surprised at the response of her body, that illusion, and clung to me as if I were life itself.

‘How old do you think I am?’ she asked.

‘In your twenties somewhere.’

To be honest I would have put her in her early thirties and at the very prime of her authority and beauty.

‘I am twenty-two.’

‘And you are really Simeon’s niece?’

‘Of course I am.’

She told me how it had all started when she had left school and had begun a course of hotel management. Both her parents had died young and she lived with her grandmother, a vaguely kind woman occupied with good works and giving little companionship. In that dull home life the visits of Uncle Simeon had been the only bright spots for her. He was always a mysterious and stimulating character earning his living as a laboratory technician and spending his evenings with what he called the Fellowship. Several times he had taken her with him to their meetings in a barren little hall. Their principles had been easy enough to understand but quite unbelievable for a girl bursting to accept with joy whatever the present life was about to offer. He had given her books to read and she had dutifully read them, though rejecting all the arguments after the first chapter. She avoided telling him so outright, since she was grateful for his interest in her.

Broom Lodge had been left to the Fellowship by one of its corresponding members, a retired clergyman who had lived there for years in an atmosphere of heresy and squalor which bothered nobody but himself. His will proposed that it should be used as a country home for the faithful – a thoroughly impractical legacy since none of them could find the money to repair and maintain the place or to restore some value to the neglected land. Simeon, however, had jumped at the opportunity and with fire and faith had persuaded half a dozen of the Fellowship not to sell it but to try their hands at a working commune where all believers would be welcome. Elsa of course must come along. She finished half her course and joined them.

It was still hell, she said, when she arrived there, and if it had not been that she fell in love with the Forest and was flattered to know herself of real service to these industrious innocents – all of whom were double her age or near it – she would have cleared out. Simeon himself had been tireless, she said. The two local skills by which a little money might be made were mining and salmon fishing. Broom Lodge had no rights to mine, but anyone was free to catch salmon in the estuary away from the bank. The expertise of the few remaining professionals with their lave nets, weirs and stopping boats could never be acquired, so Simeon decided to try the unprecedented technique of skin-diving, one of his many pseudo-scientific accomplishments, half mystical, half very real!

‘In the Severn, my God?’ I exclaimed.

‘Oh, he says it’s quite safe once you know the channels and the tides. He often does it still, but at night.’

‘Has he ever caught anything?’

‘Nothing much. But he once speared a dolphin – the one you saw in his laboratory.’

The change in Broom Lodge was a year old. Along with the builders and the tractors came the workshops and recruiting of more of the faithful. Simeon had had a big win on the football pools and devoted the lot to his commune. The new intake of devout colonists had to be impressed by more than height and competence, and that was why Elsa had invented a uniform for herself, halfway between a parlourmaid and a nun. It seemed so absurd to flaunt colour at them when all they wanted – usually – was a mother figure.

We agreed that no one must suspect our affair. Uncle Simeon, she thought, might be sympathetic but would not approve of so swift an attachment to a stranger. As for the colonists, whatever image they had of her – abbess, housekeeper or serene, maternal beauty – would be severely dented.

Enough of Elsa for the moment – though I can never have enough. We returned in time for the hour of meditation, which out of courtesy to my hosts I attended. For me meditation is more peaceful and productive after half a litre of claret and a square meal, but on this occasion I had plenty to meditate about: whether I could save myself from falling desperately in love with Elsa and how much to believe of the story of the win on the pools. It neatly accounted for the comfort of Broom Lodge, which had puzzled me, as well as for the unproductive farming and the impossibility of any large profits on Marrin’s buying and selling of gold; all the same, he was not the sort of character to study football results and to waste time and money on a weekly gamble. Of course he might have done it once only and produced a winning line by following some incredibly effective cabalistic formula, but a pious and profitable burglary for the sake of the commune was far more likely.

By the time the party broke up with a monotonous chant my thoughts had switched to salmon fishing, Marrin’s early and wildly imaginative scheme to raise some cash. Since I myself am a competent skin-diver, I was eager to talk to him about the risks of the Severn Sea and the possibilities of underwater exploration.

First I engaged the major in conversation on the founding of the colony, so that there could be no reason to suspect Elsa of giving the story away. He avoided any discussion of the win on the pools, saying that there were many unexpected ways in which the spiritually minded could be rewarded. When I suggested that the acquisition of worldly wealth was usually supposed to distract the Soul from the Way, he did not agree. Poverty was desirable for the monk but not for the monastery. This led quite naturally to the early skin-diving for profit. Later on, the major said, it had become a rite. Marrin’s secret swimming with the fish was symbolic of the unity of life.

Symbolic, hell! A typically woolly explanation! I had little doubt that Marrin would not shrink from fraud in propagating his gospel, but in his beliefs he was sincere. As I lie here in the discomfort and physical content of any primitive pagan, his doctrines seem as absurd as those of the more fantastic Christian sects. Yet one must remember that, to a pious lama, Broom Lodgism might seem more or less acceptable except for its emphasis on service to mankind rather than the perfecting of the soul. But that is irrelevant. The dynamic energy of a religion derives from belief, not what is believed.

The subject came up naturally when I was discussing with Marrin the horseshoe bend of the river and the Severn bore which begins there, racing up ahead of the tide like any ocean wave and leaving a full estuary behind it.

‘I think I am the only person to have explored the bed,’ he said, ‘and at such a depth that I could let the bore pass over me.’

I remarked in all innocence that I wished I could dive with him – but at slack water, thank you very much! He replied at once and cordially that I mustn’t hope to catch salmon. I would do better to come down to the Forest next season and learn to use a lave net, spotting my salmon as it drove upstream and racing along a sandbank to intercept it.

‘They always swim close to the surface,’ he told me. ‘That was where I went wrong. I had a theory that they would swim deeper where they could. So I tried the deep pools where the main channel passes close to the shore. It didn’t work, but it was a great joy to rest on the bottom and watch the fish passing overhead when the water was clear enough to see the streak of silver.’

‘But why do you go out at night?’

He hesitated, his enthusiasm gone. ‘Because I found that at night I could feel as a fish feels. In the light one is only a man swimming. That is your answer!’

We were both silent for a moment; but then, apparently realising that he had been too abrupt, he asked, ‘What has been your experience underwater, Mr Colet?’

My interest had not been in fish, but in the remains of historic ports where little remained to be seen on land – like Tyre, I said, reminding him of the quantity surveyor. Also I had accompanied a small party of pre-historians who maintained that if you wanted to study the palaeolithic you must not be content with cave dwellings by inland streams but must dive for caves now covered by the sea.

I explained that in the last ice age when sea levels were lower than at present, river levels must also have been lower. For example, the mouth of the Severn must have been somewhere down the Bristol Channel between woods and marshes that were now shoals; and the wide valley, where the ebb and flow of the powerful tides now played merry hell with channels and the banks, then contained a clear river of fresh water fed by the glaciers of the Welsh mountains.

‘I have seen no such caves. Where would they be?’

‘Beneath the ledges where Severn cliffs once stood before they were eaten back.’

‘All crumbled away, Mr Colet, crumbled away to mud and sand, Severn has no cliffs underwater.’

‘I think that here and there you might find a clean edge scoured by the tide if you looked at the bottom of the ebb.’

‘Pardon me, Mr Colet, but you are wrong!’ he exclaimed. ‘No sheer cliff exists.’

He reminded me of one of my old tutors who, when contradicted however politely, would lean towards me with chest thrust forward and head back, seeming to take up an S-curve like a snake about to strike. I assumed that Marrin had visualised package tours of pre-historians or geologists come to disturb his communings with the salmon. It was from that point, I am sure, that he began to wish that I had never called in at Broom Lodge with my awkward curiosity. It was not my fault, for he had encouraged me both to ask questions and to answer them. Ancient economies interested him from two different points of view: religious doom-watching and subsistence agriculture.

Our conversation left me with a feeling that Marrin considered the Severn his private property from which trespassers must be warned off. Such jealousy was quite natural; the mystical side of his night dives could be enough to account for it. But the solvency of Broom Lodge continued to puzzle me. Somewhere there was deliberate deception. I had an impression – which I admitted might be due merely to his skeletons of sea creatures – that the thread of gold seemed to run out of the laboratory into the Severn and back again.

At the next chance of a private talk with Elsa I asked if her uncle had made a serious study of alchemy.

‘From books, yes,’ she replied, ‘and I know he used to muck about with experiments in the old days. But of course he didn’t have a proper laboratory of his own till he could afford to build one here.’

To my astonishment, Elsa, who was so scornful of the beliefs of Broom Lodge, had been impressed by the paraphernalia of alchemy and did not rule out the transmutation of metals. She was in good company. Isaac Newton had believed it possible and in later life suffered from fits of insanity, probably due to the ingestion of lead and mercury which he lavished on his experiments.

‘Then you don’t believe the football pools story?’

‘Do you?’

‘Well, it’s possible.’

‘That’s what I feel about the gold.’

I objected that it was not possible. Gold could be made from lead but required immense and uneconomic plant – lasers and cyclotrons and God knows what. It couldn’t be made by a rack of crucibles and a magic circle.

‘But don’t ask him about it,’ she warned me. ‘We talk of it ourselves, but never to him.’

I decided that gold was none of my business; it kept this hospitable colony happy and prosperous, and the profit and loss account was a matter for the Inspector of Inland Revenue, not for me. So my thoughts returned to the trade balance of Roman Britain and its commerce. This, the original object of my wanderings, had rather faded away – not unnaturally, considering the excitement of Elsa and the surprising efficiency of Broom Lodge in spite of being collectively devoted to poppycock.

In case I revived Marrin’s nightmare of pre-historians flipping in and out of his river I tackled him very cautiously. Rome seemed a safe subject, too solid, too eternally present for mysteries, and I knew he was well up to date in the long history of the Forest. So over the evening drinks I ventured to ask him if he had ever spotted any underwater foundations at Woolaston which would help archaeologists to decide whether the Romans had built a commercial wharf or just a breakwater to shelter the naval commander’s galley.

His sane and pleasant side at once appeared, or was allowed to appear. It may be that I have not sufficiently emphasised his personal charm, for it stands to reason that without it he could never have kept his commune together and loyal, religion or no religion.

‘Why don’t we both look?’ he replied. ‘It occurs to me that we are of the same build and I have a spare suit. We’ll dive in daylight, of course, and at slack water. That will be about eight to eight-thirty tomorrow, if it isn’t too early for you.’

It was the fourth morning of my stay. After we had grabbed a light breakfast he unlocked the door of a tiled cubicle which led off the guests’ washroom at the end of the passage. There he kept his diving kit. I was glad to see that his own suit and the spare were of Neoprene, for I was used to the wet suit. He had only surface life-jackets, but as we were unlikely to go deeper than twenty feet or so they were good enough and saved trouble.

He had chosen to go in off the Guscar Rocks which I had never seen. The west bank of the Severn is concealed till you reach it. Rough farm tracks lead down to it from the main road to Wales and either stop at the railway embankment or go under it, always past a notice that bathing is extremely dangerous. Beyond the embankment are the flat and empty meadows, without a living thing but the sheep to take an interest in what you do or how you are equipped, abruptly ending at the immensity of the tideway, itself also empty.

It was near the time of low water, and the Guscar Rocks were jagged islands of weed standing above the last eddies of the ebb. It seemed impossible to get at them, for the shore, beneath a miniature cliff of crumbling red rock, was of mud and shale; but Marrin confidently led the way along the banks of a pill until we could swim on the surface across to the rocks, land on them and jump in from the far side clear of the weed.

The water was warmer than I expected and despite its colour of pale milk chocolate – gold if one wants to be politer to Severn than I feel – visibility was not too bad. All I could discover close under the Woolaston shore was that somebody at some time had built something. Not very satisfactory! A narrow and difficult secondary channel led to the old port at Lydney and may have offered a straight run up-river in Roman times. If it did, the Guscar Rocks sheltered a natural harbour. But only dredging could reveal solid evidence, and I doubt if even that expensive process would have much success against the silt and sand brought down by every relentless tide.

We pulled out again on to the rocks, facing the smooth and shining slope of grey mud and the meadows beyond. The green railway embankment, acting as a sea wall, cut us off from the world of the land. Behind us the Severn was still just alive, sucking and swirling as the channel emptied the last of the ebb left behind in the backwaters of the Shepherdine Sands.

The mysterious pattern of the eddies stopped. The Severn was empty and waiting. It was time to swim ashore.

‘The tide is making now,’ Marrin said as we took off masks and aqualungs. ‘We may see the beginning of the bore.’

He had to point it out. There at Woolaston, well before the narrowing of the river, it was more a sudden rise of water level than a wave. Only the surge around the Guscar Rocks revealed the force and speed of the tide which, twenty minutes later up the horseshoe bend with a south-west wind behind it, would have raced on as the wave of the bore, all of five feet high. Meanwhile the Shepherdine Sands, which had seemed a golden playground for children, were rippling water.

When we had crossed the embankment, and our horizon again became the dark tumble of the Forest looking down across the peaceful belt of farm and pasture to its incalculable estuary, I suspected that the face of the Guscar rock from which we had jumped had been the top of a cliff before the rise in water level after the ice age. I should have remembered his resentment of pre-historians and kept speculation to myself.

‘That straight edge could go down below the mud,’ I said, ‘and the chances are that the ice floes undercut it at the bottom – a useful shelter for the hunter when the climate began to warm up. Salmon by the million and the odd mammoth when he was sick of fish. With a couple of skins hanging down from the roof to keep the wind out and a good fire of driftwood, he was quite as comfortable as any Canadian Indian.’

‘You believe that one could still find traces of such shelters?’ Marrin asked.

I replied that nobody would take the trouble to dig down through fathoms of mud just to find a hearth and some worked flints. But wherever there was a clean Severn cliff underwater the skin-diver might well find some evidence that man had lived at the foot of it or under it.

‘I think you were right when you told me that no such cliff remains,’ I added. ‘The only possible site would be the Shoots at the entrance to the Bristol Channel.’

We drove quickly back to Broom Lodge, and after we had warmed up in hot baths he invited me up to his laboratory for a drink. There I was to see another side of him, undoubtedly more genuine than his impostures such as alchemy.

‘You must have been the only person to have explored the bottom of the Severn,’ I said.

‘In our time I may be. But long ago when, as you tell me, the sea was lower and a calm Severn flowed out to it, there could have been another. You have seen the Temple of Nodens?’

I had not, though I knew of the mosaics and the inscriptions.

‘The god of the river and the forest, father of Gwyn ap Nudd, prince of the underworld,’ Marrin said. ‘He was worshipped by Briton and Roman but he was here long before either of them. It might have been he who taught the forest-dwellers how best to fish for salmon and how to find veins of iron and gold under the dead leaves.’

‘And what is he reincarnated as?’ I asked. ‘Harbourmaster at Sharpness Docks?’

‘That is quite possible,’ he answered without at all resenting my levity. ‘Or myself perhaps. Or just a presence of whom I am aware.’

Spirits about. I was surprised, but it was to be expected. Some of the Buddhist sects do not, I believe, exclude the existence of good and evil spirits.

To change the subject, I asked whether he had found his curious turtle in the Severn.

‘In the deep, yes.’

‘You should show it to a zoologist.’

‘Do you know one?’

‘Several. And one of them is an authority on reptiles. I’ll bring him to inspect it.’

It was at that point, I think, that he finally made up his mind.

‘I am going to dive tomorrow night. Why not come with me? I have always wanted a companion.’

‘On another visit I’d like to. But I must leave tomorrow. Nobody knows where I am.’

‘I remember you telling me. But does nobody care, my dear Piers?’ he asked, using my Christian name for the first time. ‘You left no address?’

‘No. Letters can wait.’

‘And where are you going?’

‘I’ll have a look at your Temple of Nodens and then on into Wales.’

True enough, but the real reason was that I wanted to escape. Broom Lodge, the major, Marrin himself, Elsa, and that silent and ancient forest, so unnecessarily mysterious, were beginning to form a whole which I distrusted. I needed a few days alone in which I might isolate Elsa from the rest and decide whether or not I was making a fool of myself.

‘Then if you are in no hurry, come with me now! The tide will serve tomorrow night and might not on your next visit to us.’

‘But why not daylight?’

‘Oh, you should know that! At night the strangest creatures come out of their holes and swim freely. And with a torch at night one sees colours as never in daylight. The kingdom of Nodens – doesn’t it tempt you?’

It did. I was eager to see the glow of the weed and the silver offish against the red and green marl of the Severn.

‘Good! And may I ask you to tell no one you are going with me? Not even Elsa.’

‘But why not?’

‘They would be jealous and pester me until I started diving classes. You’ll agree that the Severn is no place to learn. And there is another point; as between friends I can admit it to you. If they knew that I allowed you to go with me, they would see my night dives as a mere sport.’

‘Instead of a mystery of mysteries?’

For a moment I thought I had gone too far, but the blaze in his eyes was instantaneously extinguished. He replied quite calmly:

‘To be the leader of a faith one must offer the followers secrets for their imagination as well as truth for their souls.’

Never was there a more curious reason for skin-diving at night, but his frankness was convincing. He himself apparently found a unity with nature in these driftings far below the swimming of the salmon. That in itself was a pleasure not far from spiritual, so in his own eyes he was justified in presenting it as an aspect of religion, perhaps linked in some way to the more dubious alchemy.

I said that I didn’t see how I was to prevent the commune knowing that I had left with him for the river.

‘Oh, that’s easy! Leave in the afternoon to continue your walk as you intended. At ten be on the Box Rock. You can reach it from the road to Awre. We will change there, and it is only a few yards to the ledge above my favourite deep where we will dive.’

‘Where can I warm up and stay the night if I don’t come back to Broom Lodge?’

‘Leave it to me, Piers! I’ll find accommodation for you at one or other of the nearby inns and tell them to expect you late.’

I felt it was absurd not to discuss his invitation with Elsa, and it is likely that I would have done so if ever we had been together long enough for a private conversation. Neither she nor I could risk venturing down the passages and through the main building when a party of the faithful might be meditating with open eyes, others getting up before dawn and saying good-night or good-morning to a prayer-meeting in the hall, or the major working out Arthur’s past or future tactics on the lawn. Bedroom-creeping, however cautious, was out; the movements within Broom Lodge were incalculable.

So Elsa and I were limited to quick kisses in corridors, with no chance to talk seriously about the future. She may have feared it and wished to avoid it. When I left in the afternoon I promised to return as soon as I decently could and meanwhile to send a letter or two to remind her of what I thought of her. She wanted to know where I would stay the night and I told her that I was going to Lydney to look at the Temple of Nodens and did not know where I should fetch up afterwards – both of which were true. She insisted that I should take cider and sandwiches with me so that I could have a meal, without thinking of time and communications, wherever I found something worth detailed investigation.

I set off about four o’clock after telling them all how grateful I was and how interested I had been, and walked through the green forest paths to the remains of the Temple set on its headland, which once must have projected into the Severn. Evidently Nodens had been one of the friendly little gods of the Celts. Marrin’s suggestion that in life he had been a hero from across the seas, bringing agriculture or the working of metals, was a reasonable guess.

Then I took a bus up the river and walked down to the sea wall where the great horseshoe bend begins and the tide, compressed by the narrowing river, explodes into the bore. I reckoned that the wave should be at its best if there was light enough to see it, for it was the night after new moon.

I did not want to call at a pub and start eating and drinking before a dive. Marrin’s deep was unlikely to be more than twenty or thirty feet at low tide, but it was bound to be tricky. However, the hours of waiting did not drag. I sat on the low red cliff above the mud, watching the fearsome ebb racing down to the sea, not even sticking to the main channels of its bed but dancing in whirlpools, dashing up unseen backwaters against the flow and forming dark drifts of silt which compelled me to look up at the sky and see whether they were not the shadows of clouds overhead. But there were no clouds except over the distant Cotswold hills when the red sun went down behind the pinnacles of the Forest, leaving a warm night behind, perfect for diving.