Текст книги "Dangerously Broken"
Автор книги: Eden Bradley
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When he came up with the catalog in his hand he almost dropped it. Because there in the doorway stood the luscious Summer Grace Rae, looking like some Southern version of nearly-porn. She was wearing a short—very short—blue and white gingham-checked dress with white lace around the edges that fit her body like a second skin. The halter-style top made for some gorgeous cleavage, and he knew right away there was no bra underneath. The dress was short enough that if she bent over a bit he’d know whether or not there were any panties under there. It also bared a nice, long expanse of tanned legs—or as long as they could be on such a petite girl. She looked cute as a button and sexy as hell simultaneously. But he didn’t have time to wonder how she managed to do that before she walked over and sat on his desk, her bottom right on top of the catalog, which made him go instantly hard.
“I brought you some blackberries,” she said, all sweetness with that sultry edge she was known for. She held out a small basket of succulent-looking berries, and he took them, barely able to focus.
“Thanks. That was awfully thoughtful.”
“I’ve been thinking about a few other things,” she said, her tone lowering.
He set the berries aside and scooted his rolling office chair over to trap her with one arm on either side of her delicate and faintly perfumed body—those violets again. Oh yeah, he was definitely going hard.
“I’ve been thinking a few things myself, sugar.”
She laughed, low in her throat. “I bet you have.”
Damn, what this girl—this innocent-faced siren of a woman—did to him.
Get it together.
He cleared his throat. “As much as I’d love to throw you down and fuck you over my desk without even thinking about turning the damn lights off so anyone passing by couldn’t see—and I mean that, Summer Grace—you and I have some talking to do first.”
“I was hoping you’d say that.”
She batted her lashes at him and he nearly lost it, those images he’d just called up threatening to take over his mind. And his hardening cock. He wanted to get her naked and spread her out on his big desk, fuck her right there. Right now.
Damn it. Focus.
“We need to handle negotiations,” he said, calling on his years as a Dominant to get his libido under control. “I imagine you’ve done that at least once with Maîtresse Renee?”
She nodded. “Yes, but Allie was there with me, and I’d had some coaching before.”
That sense of hyper-responsibility kicked in hard. “Do you feel you should have a mentor here to help you negotiate with me? It’s okay to say you do.”
“Not with you, Jamie.”
“Is that just need talking? Have you heard of sub frenzy?” He didn’t want it to be that, but he had to ask.
“Yes, in one of the classes I went to with Allie and Rosie. Do you know Rosie? She did my tattoo.”
“Yeah, I know who Rosie is. She’s Finn’s girl, although I knew her before they met. Real nice woman and talented. Know about her kink, too. Now tell me what you know about sub frenzy, sweetheart.”
Summer Grace nodded. “It’s that hunger for play that drives a new submissive or bottom to do things that are maybe beyond their limits. But, Jamie, I’ve wanted you for an awfully long time. I’m not giving away any womanly secret here—I’ve never hidden that from you, or from anyone. And yes, kink is fairly new to me, at this level, anyway, and I understand my personal desire may intensify the play for me. But I’ve been very clear on what I want for . . . too long. So yes, I know what it is, and while I want . . . it’s not a frenzy. It’s simply what it’s always been when it comes to you, but magnified by the kink factor. Does that make sense?”
Jesus, she was perfect. “It does. Are you ready to begin the negotiations?”
“You’re the boss, Jamie.”
“Not yet, I’m not. Not until we go through this process and you’re still saying yes—if you are. Do you have safewords?”
“I use the most common ones—green if things are good when you check in with me, yellow if I need you to switch toys, to lighten up or if I need a drink of water or something. Red if the scene needs to stop completely. But for the record I am definitely saying yes. It will always be yes with you,” she added quietly, something hard and shining behind her pretty blue eyes.
It will always be yes with you.
He forced himself to focus. “Let’s start with some of the easy stuff—things we’ve addressed casually, or that I saw you do at The Bastille. But I’m not going to assume you will do everything with me you’ve done with someone else. No, don’t say anything—that fact is a given until if and when long experience together proves otherwise. I want you to say yes, no or maybe to each of the kinks or toys or activities I throw out there. If there’s an explanation or some related detail you think I should know, speak up. Honest communication is the key here. It’s the only way we can play and I can keep you safe—physically, mentally, emotionally. If there’s an emotional trigger attached to anything, I need to know about that. Okay? Tell me you understand what I’m asking of you.”
“I understand. Allie and Rosie have had a thorough talking-to with me. More than once before they’d let me play.”
“Good. Now start by telling me about any health issues or physical limitations.”
“I’m healthy top to bottom. And I don’t know of any physical limitations. I know I like pain, especially when it’s mixed with pleasure. I have no idea how far I can go. It’s too new. And I already have a sense that it can be different depending on who I’m playing with—that some of how my body will react is mental connection and chemistry. Is that right?”
“That’s exactly right.” And Lord, the chemistry they had was off the charts. He had a sadistic side, so he’d have to be careful not to overplay her until they found out what she could really take. God, the things he wanted to do to her. “Tell me how you feel about bondage.”
“I’m not into the rope thing in the way Allie is with Mick. I’d rather be cuffed.”
“Chains?” He had to ask about one of his favorite fetishes. His hands balled into fists while he waited for her to answer.
“Oh yes,” she said with a soft catch in her voice, making him remember how hard he was. “I love how heavy-duty they are. There’s something a little dangerous about them, if that makes sense. Exciting. I haven’t tried them yet, but I really like the idea. Can a person be bound in chains? I mean wrapped all around your body like you can with rope?”
He stifled a groan. “Oh yeah. And you have no idea how happy you just made me, sugar.” She smiled, her face lighting up. Lighting him up. Making him hard again. He shifted in his chair before continuing. “What about spanking? Yes or no? Or maybe?”
“A definite yes.”
“How about a paddle? Leather? Wood?”
“Leather, yes. Wood . . . I’m not sure. I’d have to try it.”
“Caning?”
He saw a small shiver go through her. “I’d like to try.”
“But it scares you?” he asked.
She shrugged. “A little, yes.”
He leaned in and said quietly, “You don’t have to play the tough girl with me. This isn’t the time for that. I already know how tough you are, sweetheart. You have nothing to prove with me.”
She looked into his eyes, hers gleaming in the harsh lighting of his office, the pupils enormous. She said in almost a whisper, “Don’t I, Jamie?”
He took her hands in his. “Why do you think that?”
“Because of our history—I don’t want you to change your mind before we play. And maybe because you haven’t even kissed me since I got here.”
His hand went into her hair and he drew her face to his. “That was a huge mistake on my part, sugar girl. You had me distracted—you in your tight little dress and your berries. I won’t make that mistake again. Come here,” he said before pulling her close and pressing his lips to hers.
A small sigh escaped her lips, and he breathed it in as he parted them, exploring, delving with his tongue. And sweet Jesus, her mouth alone, the hunger in her kiss, was enough to nearly bring him to his knees. His cock, his entire body, pulsed with the hard beat of desire. When he pulled back, they were both a little breathless.
“That, my sugar girl, is why I didn’t kiss you right off. I wasn’t sure I could responsibly carry on negotiations after I had your sweet mouth under mine.”
“And now?” she asked. Her cheeks were flushed pink. He ran his thumbs over the baby-soft skin there.
“And now it’s maybe a good thing we at least got started. That we had a chance to set down the ground rules. But I’m going to sit back and take my hands off your lovely body or things are going to get real dirty real fast and we may never get the negotiating part done. Which means none of the kinky stuff for you, young lady.” He grinned, giving her nose a small tap, and was surprised to see her blush.
She was already falling into subspace and he knew it was his own fault. Time to cool down. He pushed his chair back and stood up. “I’m getting a Coke. Want one?”
“Yes, sure.”
He went to the mini-fridge on the other side of the room, grabbed two cans of soda and handed her one, careful not to get close enough to breathe in that violet scent that always made his dick hard.
Down, boy.
He sat in his chair once more, careful not to touch her even though his hands itched for the satin of her skin. He flexed his fingers. “Okay. Let’s move on. Do you like some rough body play? Really more manhandling in my case, I guess. Do you know what that is?”
“There seems to be different levels of it from what I’ve learned. But what I think of as manhandling I think I’ll like a lot. You sort of did some of that with me already.”
“And?”
Her tone lowered. “Come on, Jamie. You saw how I responded.”
“Yes, I did, but I need you to tell me.”
“Then you saw how much I liked it. The way you used your body to overpower me. Oh yeah, I am definitely into it.”
Her eyes were glossy with desire, her voice low and sultry. She meant every damn word she said. She wasn’t one of those girls who would say only what they thought he wanted to hear. If Summer Grace said she loved it, then she did. He loved that intensity about her. Her frank sexuality. He’d been an idiot to have held her off all these years—once she was legal, anyway. But what mattered now was that she was sitting there on his desk, all that simmering heat aimed at him. This was one time when he was more than happy to be the target. She’d already hit him dead center.
Do your job.
“Is there anything else you want to try?” he asked, buying himself a moment to get his head back together. “Anything I haven’t brought up?”
“I don’t know. There’s so much variety. It seems endless.”
“That’s true. I think the best way is to start off fairly simply, look around and see what else piques your interest. If you find anything you think you’d like to try, talk to me about it. Your limits can always be renegotiated later.” She nodded. “Okay, hard limits and triggers? Do you understand what that means?”
“Hard limits are things that are just a ‘no’ for me—that aren’t even up for discussion. And triggers are anything that will set off some sort of unpleasant emotional response. Right?”
He nodded.
“Well, my hard limits are the squicky stuff I filled out on my form at The Bastille—the usual stuff, from what I’m told. No scat, animals, blood. No age play. And right now, until I get to know myself better, no electrical play, no whips, no knives, no needles, and I never even thought of this until Allie brought it up, but for God’s sake, no damn clowns!”
He laughed. “Don’t worry, sugar, no clowns for me, either. But let me ask you this: breath play?”
Her breath caught, as if he already had her in his grip. “That takes a lot of trust. But with you? Yes. And Jamie? You can take it a little further than you did at my house.”
He had to suppress a shiver as an image of his hand around her lovely throat crossed his mind. He gave himself an internal shake, cleared his throat. “Anal sex?”
One corner of her mouth lifted in a half-smile. “Yes. Definitely.”
“Are you basing that answer purely on theory?”
“No, I am not,” she answered, her blue eyes twinkling.
“What about mind-fuck?”
Her lips quirked. “Like you can avoid doing that? But, yes. Please. I think it helps me . . . get out of my head. Which is good because to be honest . . . Well, sometimes I sort of think I’m too smart for everyone else. It’s actually comforting to be taken down a few notches. I think too much in general and it’s good to be forced out of that pattern. It also means I’m not . . . responsible for everything.”
He saw her swallow hard. Scooting the chair closer, he tucked a silvery strand of hair behind her ear. He asked gently, “What do you think you’re responsible for, sweetheart?”
She swallowed again, and her glance darted away for a few moments, then back to him before she answered. “For everything. For . . . keeping my family together after Brandon died.”
“Aw, sugar, that was never your job.”
She shook her head, and he saw how hard she was hanging on to that well of emotion. It didn’t matter that the conversation had shifted from kinky sex to something so deep, so profound. No—it did matter, because it was them. And maybe no one else in the world could know the inside of this thing—Brandon’s death and what it had done to the Rae family. He knew it because he’d become their second son before they lost their own. And because he knew what the loss of his brother Ian had done to his own family. It tore a hole that could never be repaired, only patched in some haphazard fashion.
“Summer Grace, look at me, baby.” He took her face between his hands, cradling it in his palms. Her eyes were enormous. “This is me. And I’ve been doing this for a long time. While you’re with me, I promise you can let it go. Turn it all over to me. Into my hands. Do you feel how strong they’ll hold you?”
She bit her lip, and there was so much emotion in her big blue eyes it made his chest ache with some sensation he couldn’t quite get a handle on. Just this raging need to protect her. To make her feel safe. If nothing else, he would do that for her. And suddenly, to his surprise, she flung her arms around his neck and buried her head there. As he wrapped her in his arms, drawing her down into his lap, he heard her soft sigh. Of release. Of surrender. And everything in him—the sex and the emotion, the kink and the chemistry, the heat and the history between them, melded into one thing. Into that moment. There was both beauty and terror there. Old grief and new delight. They would explore it all together, and he would keep her safe. He would not let her down.
There was a small roar inside his head. A fierce need in mind and body—for her, to do what he’d just silently vowed. How was it possible that it was all connected? But it was.
“Hey, sugar,” he murmured as he lifted her chin. “Do you know how Goddamn beautiful you are? Do you have any idea how much I’ve needed you all this time? I held back because I thought that was what I had to do. And maybe for a long while it was. But now, well, everything has changed.” He swallowed hard at the desire and the trust in her eyes, the swallow expanding until it was an ache in his chest he couldn’t think about right then. “I need to hear your consent one last time. It’s not like there’s no turning back once I have it—you always have that option. But tell me now what you want, Summer Grace.”
She shook her head. “It’s not what I want, Jamie. It’s what I need. I need to know what it is to turn myself over to you.” She gave one small, slow shake of her head, her silky blonde hair rippling like pale golden silk. “Only you. So yes, you have my consent. You’re gonna have me begging in a few minutes if you don’t take me out of here and . . . Goddamn it, don’t make me beg.”
Her words went through him like fire—scorching hot. He got to his feet. “Don’t move.”
He went to the windows and, one by one, he dropped the blinds.
“Jamie, what—?”
“Shh,” he told her as he turned back to her. “I don’t want you to say a word now, Summer Grace. Not unless I ask you a question or you need to use your safeword.” He crossed the room and came to stand before her. Putting his hands on her waist, he lifted her off the desk. “On your feet now, sugar. I’m going to undress you.”
“Yes, undress me,” she murmured almost as if to herself while her eyes lost focus.
“Not a word, now.”
Her entire posture changed and he recognized the loose set of her shoulders, her mouth, as surrender. He could feel her going deeper by the moment as he reached behind her and unzipped her dress, then untied the halter at the back of her neck. Her breathing slowed, her body stilling. He stepped closer as he slipped the cotton from her shoulders.
“Ah, Christ, if I’d known you were naked underneath this sweet little dress . . .”
His cock pulsed hard. He willed it down. The effort was only partially successful. Taking a step back to look at her as the dress fell to the floor, leaving her in nothing but the pinup girl shoes, he had to draw in a long breath. Her nipples were already hard, pink and succulent. He exhaled as he took her breasts in his palms, and they fit perfectly, the nipples going even harder as she let out a sigh and arched into him.
“Hold still, sweetheart,” he told her. It was no less an order for the pet name. It never was, with him. He preferred to seduce a woman into yielding to his command. Most of the time.
She took in a breath, nodded, bit her lip. He leaned in and nipped at her lower lip because it was too luscious for him to resist. When she started to pull away, he bit harder and she groaned into his mouth. He stood back and focused on her breasts once more, not allowing himself to look at the tempting vee between her thighs yet.
Too much.
He could challenge his control, but he knew his limits. And with Summer Grace those limits were shifting and changing by the moment as lust battled fiercely with his sense of responsibility.
Gathering her flawless, firm breasts in his hands, he ran his thumbs over the nipples, then pinched them.
“Oh!”
“Quiet, Summer Grace,” he ordered, then did it again, making her gasp.
He pinched the undersides of her breasts, then filled his hands and pressed into the pressure points on the sides, watching her breathe through the pain. She instinctively knew how to take it, how to convert the pain to pleasure. He took in a breath, took in her scent of violets and rain and the scent of her desire, like its own perfume on her skin. Too beautiful. When he pinched her nipples again, much harder this time, she gasped, yelped, sucked air in between her clenched teeth as he held the pinch. He went harder and harder, watching her face. A blush rose on her cheeks, on her breasts, and she squirmed a little.
“Does that feel good, sugar? Answer me.”
“Yes. Good and . . . it fucking hurts. But yes, so good.”
“Is it making you wet?”
She moaned. “God, yes.”
He spun her around in his arms, grabbing her around the waist with one arm and yanking her in tight, using one of his thighs to force hers apart. “Let’s find out.”
With his free hand he grasped the back of her hair and pulled, bending her over, then he slid his palm down and over the soft flesh of her perfect ass. “Brace yourself on the desk and spread your legs,” he ordered before slipping his hand between her thighs—and found as he smoothed his fingers over her pussy lips that she was soaked.
His cock pulsed, lust singing in his veins. Right now he had a handle on his desire. But fuck, he didn’t know how long he could hold out.
Give her what she needs.
“Spread wider,” he demanded, a bit harsher than he’d meant to.
She did as he asked with only a moment’s hesitation, enough for him to know there was still some struggle going on in her. That was all right. He didn’t mind if she went down with a little fight. It was Summer Grace, after all. He’d have expected nothing less. He leaned in closer, laid his head on hers, listening to her breathe while he rubbed his face against her soft, soft hair. He stayed there for some time, waiting for her to align her breath with his, and after several moments she did. He cinched his arm tightly around her waist, listened as she had to adjust her breathing to the constriction. Waited a few beats, then flexed his arm, pulling her tighter. She adjusted her breathing once more.
“Very good,” he murmured. “Do you know what good girls get, sugar?” he asked. “This.”
He thrust two fingers inside her, and her entire body bowed in his tight grip.
“Ah!”
“Shh, stay very quiet, sweetheart. Hold still for me while I fuck you with my hand. I’m going to fuck you hard. It’s going to hurt. And it’s going to feel so good.”
He began a sharp, deep thrust, his fingers plunging in and out of her. She squirmed in his arms, which he knew she would, her body mindlessly grinding onto his hand, then pulling away as he went deeper.
“Come on, baby. You can take it.”
“Jamie!”
“Shh.”
He shifted his arm and used the heel of his hand to press onto her mound, finding the hard nub of her clit. Her breath hitched, and he felt her insides clench around his probing fingers.
“Ah, ah. Did I say you could come?”
“No,” she answered on a small sob.
“Then take your pleasure from me. Take it and hold it until I ask it of you.”
“I can’t,” she panted. “I can’t.”
“You can. And you will.”
Another small sobbing breath, but when he felt her muscles tense all over, then let go the tiniest bit, he knew she was making an effort to control herself.
“Good girl.”
He began again, fucking her fast and hard, his fingers piercing her over and over while she grew wetter and wetter. He tried to concentrate on doing this for her, to her, ignoring his own body’s response. Soon she was gasping, groaning. He paused long enough to pinch the swollen lips of her sex.
“Ah!”
Then he started again, thrusting in deep strokes. When she went up on her toes he knew she couldn’t hold out any longer. Hell, neither could he.
“Come for me now. Give it to me like a gift, sugar girl.”
Her insides clenched, fluttered, then she bore down hard as she came into his hand.
“Jamie! Oh my God.”
She writhed in his arms as he pumped into her, and her orgasm went on and on. His cock was aching, needing her. But the driving desire to do what she needed was even stronger. And her body would require pleasure before she would be prepared to take much pain.
She wasn’t quite done coming when he slipped his fingers from her and spanked her ass hard, one sharp smack.
“Oh!”
He didn’t give her time to figure out what was happening. Instead he began an even pace, his hand coming down on her beautifully pinking flesh. Not too hard at first—he was gauging what she could handle. But she pressed back into his hand with every strike, making him smile. Oh, she was built for this. How had he never guessed?
How had he kept his hands off her for so many years? The idea was mind-boggling, especially now that she was naked and pliant in his arms and more gorgeous than he’d ever imagined in his wildest dreams—and they’d been pretty damn wild. His cock, his entire body, was hot and throbbing with a desire that could be quenched only through sex. And through kink. He had to have her, his fantasy girl. But first he had to hurt her.
