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Rushed
by Brian Harmon
Copyright 2013 by Brian Harmon
Published by Brian Harmon
Cover Image by Donna Kohls
Cover Design by Brian Harmon
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This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to actual persons, places or events is entirely coincidental.
Also by Brian Harmon:
Rushed: The Unseen
The Box (The Temple of the Blind #1)
Gilbert House (The Temple of the Blind #2)
The Temple of the Blind (The Temple of the Blind #3)
Road Beneath the Wood (The Temple of the Blind #4)
Secret of the Labyrinth (The Temple of the Blind #5)
The Judgment of the Sentinels (The Temple of the Blind #6)
Buried in the Basement: A Gathering of Dark Tales
For more about this author, visit
www.HarmonUniverse.com
Chapter One
Eric Fortrell lived a perfectly unremarkable life until he happened to have a very extraordinary dream. It wasn’t that it was an especially meaningful dream. In fact, he could remember nothing about the dream except that there was something about a bird, and even that vague detail was so far lost to his waking mind that only the word itself remained. “Bird.” It was not any particular kind of bird, no bird of any particular color or size. It was nothing more significant than something about a bird. And yet this dream filled him with such a profound sense of urgency and foreboding that he immediately left his bed, dressed himself and fled his home in the middle of the night. By the time he came to his senses and realized that there was nowhere for him to go, he was already standing in his driveway with the door of his silver PT Cruiser wide open, ready to climb in and drive away.
He was confused, of course, and a little unnerved. After all, he wasn’t exactly known for being impulsive. It wasn’t like him to do anything without a reasonable amount of thought, much less jump up in the middle of the night and go running out to his car, inexplicably convinced that he desperately needed to be somewhere. But more than that, he was embarrassed. He closed the vehicle’s door as quietly as he could and gazed around at the darkened windows of his neighbors’ houses, very nearly convinced that at least one of them must be watching him, wondering where he thought he was going at a quarter past one in the morning, laughing at his ridiculous antics.
He was a reasonable enough man to know that this was utter nonsense. Even if someone was up and wandering around in their unlit home at this hour and just happened to be looking out the window as he hurried out the door, they’d have no reason to suspect that he was behaving strangely. Perhaps he’d lost something, his wallet, maybe, and was checking to see if he’d left it in his vehicle.
Still, he hesitated to lock the car for fear that the brief sounding of the horn would alert every nosy neighbor on the block to his presence and somehow instantly let them know that he was acting as if he’d utterly lost his mind.
He left the PT Cruiser unlocked in the driveway and returned to his house and his bed.
He was not crazy. He did not have a history of insanity in his family. He had no excessive mental or emotional stress in his life. He was also intelligent. He’d earned a Masters Degree in education and literature. With honors. He was a respected high school English teacher and he had never in his life poisoned his mind with drugs. He didn’t even drink that much. Only seldom in his life had he drank enough to qualify him as being drunk, and never so much that he couldn’t remember what he did the next morning.
And yet here he was.
Karen was waiting for him when he returned to bed. She was concerned, of course, and wanted to know what had happened, why he had risen and dressed, where he had gone. He told her the truth. He always told his wife the truth. And of course she laughed at him and told him how silly he was because she was always equally as honest with him and it was, after all, a funny and silly thing that he had done.
But long after Karen had drifted off to sleep again, Eric remained awake, staring up at the ceiling in the faint glow of the street light that filtered through the curtains and the nightlight that shined through the open bathroom door. He kept thinking of the dream he couldn’t remember and the odd compulsion that had driven him out of his bed and into the cool August night.
The following day was no better. He couldn’t stop thinking about the dream (something about a bird…) and that feeling of desperately needing to be somewhere (now). In fact, he still felt this compulsion. It gnawed stubbornly at him. His eyes kept drifting to the windows and doors. His thoughts kept returning to the parked PT Cruiser in the driveway. It was like an itch.
He very much wanted to get in the vehicle and drive down the road. Yet he remained unable to say where it was he wanted so badly to go.
That night, the dream returned. Like the first time, he recalled nothing but a bird (or birds, or something bird-like…he simply couldn’t remember) and like the first time, he awoke utterly convinced that there was somewhere he very much needed to be, that he was, in fact, desperately late.
He did not make it all the way to his car this time. When Karen switched on her bedside lamp, he stood frozen and bewildered, his pants only halfway on, squinting into the blinding glare and trying to remember where it was he thought he was going.
Soon after, he was back in bed, the lights back off. Karen did not laugh at him this night. She did not tell him he was silly. She urged him back into bed and he came willingly, ashamed of the concern he saw in her sleepy face. The desperation he had felt was overpowered by the simple logic that he did not have anywhere to be. He returned to his pillow without a word and she snuggled against him as if determined to anchor him to the bed until morning.
Again, he lay awake, that feeling of being late still stubbornly refusing to release him and let him rest.
The next day was much like the one before it. He remained constantly distracted, his thoughts and eyes inexorably drawn to the parked PT Cruiser and the unknown roads it promised to carry him down.
Each time he forced his eyes away from the windows and doors he caught Karen watching him. She was no fool. No matter how many times he told her he was fine, she knew something was troubling him, and he felt terrible for worrying her. But still he could not shake the urge to get up and go.
The third night inevitably arrived and Eric awoke once more from the same mysterious dream with the same maddening desire to rush out of the house.
This time, he did not bother returning to bed. When Karen came downstairs and switched on the kitchen light at a little before three in the morning, she found him sitting at the table, fully dressed, a steaming cup of coffee in his hands and his car keys sitting in front of him.
For a moment she stood watching him and for that moment he watched her back, admiring her. She was considerably heavier than she had been ten years ago when he married her, but still as lovely as the day they met. In fact, he rather preferred her a little plumper. She’d been too skinny back when they dated, far too preoccupied with her weight. Now that she’d accepted that there was nothing wrong with being larger than a size zero, she’d filled out her figure with magnificently sexy curves. His eyes washed over her bare legs as she stood leaning against the doorjamb, clothed in only her favorite pajama top, her arms crossed over her chest as if chilled.
“You know,” she said finally, “there’s bound to be an easier way to sneak off and see your mistress.”
Eric smiled up at her. “I know. She told me to stop waking her up at two in the morning.”
“No girl’s horny at that hour.”
Still smiling, still admiring her lovely shape, he sipped quietly at his coffee.
“How far did you get this time?”
“Pretty well right here.”
“Same dream?”
“Far as I know. Still can’t remember it.”
She stared at him and said nothing.
He kept smiling. “It’s just a stupid recurring dream.”
She was silent for a moment longer. She would not admit that she was worried about him. That simply wasn’t her way. But he could see it in her eyes. And he didn’t blame her for feeling at least a little concerned. These dreams were troubling. They were interfering with his life. Neither of them had ever dealt with anything like this before.
Finally, she spoke: “What are we going to do?”
“I’m going to go,” Eric replied.
This surprised her. She stood up straight, her pajama shirt falling open a little at the bottom, where she’d left it unbuttoned. There was no force on earth that could stop his eyes from being drawn there. “Go where?”
Eric shrugged. “I’ll just drive. See where it takes me.”
“Okay…but there’s nowhere to go. It’s just a stupid dream. You said so yourself just now.”
“I know. Believe me, I know. But this is the third night in a row I’ve had it and for some reason it’s really getting to me. I’ve been so distracted. I constantly feel like there’s somewhere I need to be.”
“But there’s not. You know that.”
“I do know that,” he assured her. “But apparently some part of my brain doesn’t. That’s why I’m going. I’ll open myself up to it, do what it wants me to do. I’ll just get in the car and drive. After a while, I’ll prove to myself that there really isn’t anywhere for me to go. Then I can come home and finally sleep. I mean, why not? I’m already awake.”
She stared at him, studying him, considering what he’d said. He didn’t know what else to say to her, so he took another sip of his coffee and let his eyes slide down her naked legs while he waited for her to speak.
“I guess that makes sense,” she replied at last.
“I thought so.”
“Show that messed up little brain of yours it doesn’t know what it’s talking about.”
“Put it back in its place, right? That’s what I’m saying.”
She shifted her weight and continued to stare at him. He could almost see the thoughts swirling behind her lovely eyes.
“I’ll be fine,” he assured her. “And I can finally get this weirdness out of my system.”
“But what if it doesn’t work?”
“Then it doesn’t work. At least I’ll have tried, right? If I’m still having the dreams after this, I’ll call the doctor.”
Karen nodded. She knew there was no reason to be concerned. It was only a dream. It was irrational. So why not embrace the irrational and see what happened? Maybe then he’d at least be able to sleep through the night again.
And even if it didn’t work, he wouldn’t be any worse off for trying.
“I guess gas is cheaper than therapy,” she reasoned.
“Just a little, I think.”
“Just a little.”
Eric took another sip of his coffee and found his eyes drifting to the door again. He felt impatient to go, but he refused to simply rush out the door.
“It’ll be a fun little adventure for you.”
Eric returned his eyes to his wife and smiled again. “I’ll bet it will.”
“No picking up sexy hitchhikers.”
“But those are the best kind.”
“I keep telling you, you don’t know where they’ve been.”
“If my adventure has a serious lack of romance, it’ll be your fault.”
“I’ll just have to live with the consequences. How long will you be gone?”
Eric shrugged. “Long as it takes, I guess.”
She didn’t like this answer. She chewed thoughtfully at her lower lip. He loved it when she did that.
“Probably only a couple hours. I mean, really, where am I going to go? I’ll be fine.”
“Do you have your cell phone?”
Eric pulled the phone from the front pocket of his khaki pants and showed her. He hated cell phones, saw no value in them whatsoever, but she insisted that he carry one in case of emergencies. She was utterly unwavering about it. She’d even wanted to get him a high-dollar one with more functions than his laptop, like the one she carried, but he’d put his foot down. He carried nothing fancier than a cheap, pre-paid model from Wal-Mart. Even so, it had an obnoxious amount of extras built into it that he had no idea how to use. He didn’t even know how to add minutes to the ridiculous thing. Karen took care of that for him.
He returned the annoying device to his pocket, finished his coffee and then stood up and rinsed out his cup in the sink. When he turned back around, Karen was right next to him, slipping her arms around him.
“It’s okay,” he promised her. “I’m just driving around. I can drive at night, you know.”
“I just don’t like being left alone. You know that. You won’t fall asleep, will you?”
“I’ll stay caffeinated,” he promised. “Just go back to sleep. I’ll be home before you know it.”
“I won’t be able to sleep. I never sleep well when you’re not here.”
“Try.”
“You and your convoluted schemes to sneak off with your women.”
“I like to keep it interesting. I’ll tell your sister you said hi.”
She gave his arm a gentle smack. “Pushing it,” she warned him with an amused grin.
Eric smiled and kissed her again. “What’ve you got going on today?”
“Birthday cake for Joss.”
“Oh yeah.”
Karen was a talented baker and a freelance cake decorator. She’d earned an impressive reputation here in her home town and regularly earned fairly decent spending money.
“Toni’s coming by to pick it up this afternoon.” Toni was Karen’s cousin. Joss was Toni’s son, whose first birthday was tomorrow. He was an exceptionally adorable baby.
“That’ll be fun for you.”
“I know. Also, I’ll probably get started on those pies for Lana.” Lana was one of Karen’s oldest friends. They went to grade school together. Lana often organized social events for the church, a responsibility she inherited from her mother when she was diagnosed with cancer several years ago. Karen made various pies, cakes, cookies, whatever recipes she wanted to try out, and Lana regularly earned her new customers.
Eric had tried to talk her into starting her own website, but she wasn’t interested in expanding her hobby into an actual business. She was convinced it would take all the fun out of it.
“Maybe I should just get started now,” she said, glancing at the clock on the stove.
“I think you should at least try and get more sleep. You don’t want to be too exhausted when you’re decorating that cake.”
“I guess so.”
“Go back to bed. I’ll see you in a little while.”
“Okay.”
“Love you.”
“Love you too.”
Eric kissed her one last time and then collected his keys and walked out of the house.
Karen watched him from the doorway as he climbed into the PT Cruiser and backed out of the driveway.
Now he had only to convince himself that this wasn’t completely insane.
He settled back into the seat and again tried to remember the dream. But like always, all that came back to him was the bird. It wasn’t even an image of a bird. It was just the idea of a bird. As if that made any sort of sense.
He drove away with no idea where he was going, confident that he would find nothing waiting for him in the great open world and hoped to soon return home satisfied and back to normal.
Chapter Two
At this time of morning, Creek Bend, Wisconsin was peaceful and still. It was difficult to imagine that almost nine thousand people lived in the city when only a handful of vehicles roamed the quiet streets.
Most of the time, Eric liked being out when it was like this, but today there was a peculiar eeriness to the silent city. Something about the empty sidewalks and darkened buildings made him uneasy. It was as if he were walking through a graveyard instead of driving beneath bright streetlamps.
Although he told Karen that he might be gone a couple hours, he’d expected to be home in no more than fifteen or twenty minutes. He thought that he might merely circle the block a few times, or at most make his way across town to the shopping center and turn around. Unable to find whatever his troubled mind was seeking, he assumed he would quickly be resigned to return unfulfilled, though hopefully much less obsessed with traveling. Instead, being behind the wheel felt remarkably right. And soon he found himself driving south on the highway, leaving Creek Bend behind him.
He assumed the feeling would simply dissipate as he drove, that it would fizzle out as mysteriously as it had come to him, and then he’d be able to return to his home and his wife and be done with it. But the urge to drive only grew stronger as he made his way south, passing one town after another, until he came to the interstate. There, he felt compelled to take the onramp and proceed west.
It was about now that he began to wonder what he would do if this strange compulsion to drive overcame him to such a degree that he found himself irresistibly drawn right out of Wisconsin and into Illinois or Iowa or Minnesota. What if the approaching day found him cruising through Missouri or Nebraska or Indiana? What if wherever his subconscious mind was trying to take him wasn’t even in the Midwest? Or what if it didn’t exist at all?
A chill raced through him as he imagined himself helplessly driving on and on and on. He supposed that, eventually, Karen would kill his credit cards and he’d run out of money for gas. But would he then simply get out of the car and walk?
It was an eerie thought, and one he promptly pushed out of his head.
He was not crazy.
It was just a damn dream. That was all.
It was probably something psychological, something that he’d forgotten, perhaps, bubbling up to the surface through vivid dreams that were too complex for him to remember upon waking. The result was an irrational compulsion to seek something that wasn’t really there.
That sounded reasonable. He guessed. He was no psychologist, but it seemed like a fairly sound explanation. It was at least something. It was better than crazy.
One exit sign after another passed by in his headlights as he made his way ever farther from home. Even long after he made up his mind to forget this ridiculous nonsense and turn around, he kept passing perfectly good exits. On and on he drove until, more than three hours after leaving Karen and Creek Bend behind, with the sun peeking over the eastern horizon, he at last switched on his turn signal and drifted into the exit lane.
Yet he still did not turn around. Instead, he cruised on down a little two-lane road that wove through countless acres of cornfields and cow pastures, ever farther from home.
After a while, he turned off this road, onto a narrow strip of blacktop that was far overdue for resurfacing, and drove for several more miles before turning onto yet another two-lane country road.
A loud buzzing rose from his lap as his cell phone began to vibrate enthusiastically in his front-left pocket. He didn’t often get calls on his phone, and as such, the vibration usually surprised him, sometimes provoking him into using some of his favorite expletives. But it did not startle him this time, as he was just thinking that Karen should be calling to find out exactly where the hell he’d gone. Instead, it was the physical act of wrestling the phone from his pocket as the seatbelt fought to hold it in place that made him curse.
Like countless times before, he swore that one of these days he was simply going to throw the stupid thing away.
“You need to wrap up this booty call and get your ass back home,” Karen said when he’d finally freed it from his pocket and pressed it to his ear.
“Sorry. You know how I like to snuggle after.”
“No, you like to snore after.”
“Right. I always get those two mixed up.”
“Where are you?”
“Not sure, to be honest.”
“You’re not sure?”
“I’m not sure,” he said again. “I see cornfields and a lot of cows.”
“Quaint. Did you get lost?”
“Nope. I know the way home.” Or he thought he knew the way home, at least. “I just don’t know where I am, exactly. I’m pretty sure I’m still in Wisconsin.”
“Pretty sure?”
“Yeah. Pretty sure.”
Eric checked his mirrors to be sure he was still alone on the road. He didn’t like using the cell phone any time, but least of all while driving. It pissed him off when he saw other drivers using theirs. But there was no shoulder and he had no intention of parking in somebody’s driveway just to talk to his wife.
“You do know you’re acting like a complete nut job, don’t you?”
“Yes I do.”
“You know a lesser woman would be really freaked out by now.”
“I know she would. I’m so lucky.”
“Yes you are.”
“I’m probably just having the world’s weirdest mid-life crisis or something.”
“You’re too young to have a mid-life crisis.”
“Third-life crisis?”
“Besides, aren’t you supposed to buy a motorcycle or an expensive sports car or something? I was looking forward to shopping for the car.”
“We still can. We can both have mid-life crises.”
“Don’t be ridiculous. You know the women in my family stop aging at twenty-nine.”
“Oh yeah. I keep forgetting about that. Funny math in your genes.”
“It’s called ‘aging gracefully.’”
“My mistake.”
“So are you coming home anytime soon?”
“I hope so.”
“When?”
“When I’m done. Just trust me, okay?”
“You know I do.”
“Good.”
“But I warn you, if I have to eat lunch by myself I’m ordering delivery.”
“Knock yourself out.”
“Ooh. Fun.”
“I can’t explain it, but this feels right somehow. I think it may be working.”
“‘Nut job crazy’ is working?”
“I think it is.”
“Cool.”
But if he were to be completely honest, he had no idea if this was really working or not. He’d assumed that he’d find himself with no idea where he wanted to go and therefore the compulsion would fade, but the farther he drove, the more it seemed to pull at him. He was beginning to wonder if there might be some specific place he was being drawn, though he could not fathom why he’d have any kind of subconscious desire to come here. He’d never been in this part of Wisconsin before.
“If nothing else, maybe it’s the road that’s good for me. Maybe I’m just overdue to take a nice long drive to clear my head.”
“If you say so.”
“I do. Did you start the cake?”
“I did. It’s cooling. I’m starting my pies while I wait.”
“What kind?”
“Strawberry.”
“Yum.”
“I miss you.”
“I miss you too.”
“Call me soon?”
“Sure. Love you.”
“Love you too.”
Eric said goodbye and ended the call. Ahead of him, the country road stretched on and on, ever deeper into the open farmlands. Cornfields turned to soybean fields and then back to cornfields again. Cattle herds occasionally shared the fields with horses and sheep and goats. Little patches of forestland cropped up from time to time, along with neatly planted apple orchards and even a Christmas tree farm, all punctuated with various farmhouses and barns and silos.
As the PT Cruiser’s driver’s seat began to grow uncomfortable beneath him and he realized just how far he’d strayed from home, he began to dread the long drive back.
And yet, he continued to pass driveways instead of turning around.
Finally, as he drove over a bridge, he spotted a perfect place to pull over. It was a little graveled drive at the far side of the small river, where fishermen could park and unload their gear.
Eric pulled off the road, but instead of turning around and starting home, he nosed the vehicle into the shade, put it in park and killed the engine.
He opened the door and stepped out into the morning sunshine, stretching his back and legs. The fresh air felt good and he realized that he needed this break.
He closed the door, then quickly opened it again and retrieved the phone that he’d deposited in the cup holder after his conversation with Karen. (He had barely won the battle with the seatbelt to get it out of his pocket; he wasn’t about to try and wrestle with it to put the stupid thing back.)
When she first started making him carry the phone, he had a bad habit of forgetting it. And Karen had a bad habit of getting mad at him when that happened. It wasn’t an ideal situation. It led to more than a few trivial fights. Over time, one of them had to give.
It wasn’t her.
Cell phone properly deposited in his front pocket again, he locked the PT Cruiser’s doors and strolled down to the river’s edge to enjoy a few minutes out from behind the wheel.
Suddenly, and for the first time since waking from the dream that first night, he had no pressing desire to drive. He thought for a moment that he had beaten it, that he had finally driven far enough or long enough to have his fill of traveling.
But now he found himself being drawn along the riverbank and under the bridge.
Within minutes, he was around the bend and the rational part of his mind screamed at him to turn around.
This was far worse than his compulsion to drive. Now he was out in the middle of nowhere, utterly exposed and unprotected from the elements and in danger of becoming hopelessly lost. And yet still he walked.
At least he still had the phone. But how useful would it really be if something happened to him out here? As far as he knew, there was nothing for miles and miles but farmland and forests. How far could he go into this wilderness before he wandered out of the service area altogether?
A path appeared in the trees along the river bank and he found himself drawn there as surely as he’d been drawn to the river from his car. Leaving the water behind him, he made his way up a hill, through some thick brush and onto the neatly mown lawn of a modest, Victorian-style house.
His first thought should have been that this was private property and he had no business being here, that he’d be lucky if the owner didn’t mistake him for a burglar and shoot him dead where he stood. Instead, he was compelled to walk to the back yard. Specifically, he felt drawn for some reason to a large, metal gate in the fence.
He walked up to this gate and rested his hands on the topmost bar. Beyond it, a narrow dirt path, little more than two dry wheel ruts in the tall grass, led away a short distance and then turned and disappeared into a field of tall and healthy corn.
“Ah. You finally showed up.”
Startled, Eric turned to find an elderly woman hanging laundry up to dry just a few yards away. Even with his attention fixed on the gate and the path beyond, he was surprised that he didn’t see her before now. “I’m sorry,” he said.
“No reason to be sorry,” the woman told him. “At least you showed up. Better late than never, right?”
He wasn’t sure how to respond to this. He’d meant that he was sorry to be trespassing on her property, yet this woman acted as if she’d been expecting him. But that wasn’t possible. Even he didn’t know how he came to be here.
“But we did think you’d show up two days ago.”
Two days ago? That would’ve been right after his first dream. “I’m sorry, but show up for what, exactly?”
The old woman turned and looked at him. She was very skinny, with long, silver hair that was neatly tied back, deep creases around her mouth and an ugly blotch beneath her right eye. “You’re going out there, aren’t you?” She gestured at the corn behind the gate.
Eric turned and gazed out into the field for a moment. Somehow, he didn’t like the idea of going out there, but she was right. The same strange compulsion that had lured him into this woman’s back yard was definitely pulling him toward that field. Looking back at the old woman again, he said, “I honestly don’t know what I’m doing here.”
She stood looking back at him for a moment, considering him. Then she went back to her laundry. “Ethan always knew you’d come. Ethan’s my husband, by the way. He always believed.”
“That’s impressive. I didn’t even know I was coming until I got here.”
If the woman heard him, she made no attempt to acknowledge it. “I can’t say for sure that I ever believed it. Not until yesterday. Not until I saw him.”
“Him?”
She didn’t look at him as she hung a man’s work shirt on the line. “The other one,” she replied as if this made any more sense than “him.” “I saw him with my own eyes, walking into the corn there. Scariest damn thing I ever saw. It was like he was only half there…all faded…like somebody standing in a thick fog…except there wasn’t any fog. He just faded into the sunshine. Damn scariest thing…”
This conversation was only getting stranger. Eric turned and looked out at the little road again, wondering what was waiting out there.
When he looked back, the old woman was staring at the work shirt she’d just hung on the line. “Ethan fell the other day. Hurt his back. His hip, too. Doctor thinks he might not be able to walk so good anymore. Probably need a cane. I hate to see that. Once you get as old as us, you have to keep moving. When you stop moving, that’s when you die. That’s what my daddy used to say. He lived to ninety-eight. Made sure he walked at least a mile every day while doing his chores. Went out of his way if he had to. Then he hurt his hip and he couldn’t walk anymore. Pretty soon, just like he always said, he never walked again.”
Cheerful. He’d wager she was a laugh a minute at bingo night.
“You said you were expecting me?” asked Eric, hoping she would give him some sort of answer as to why he was here…or at the very least not tell him how she lost her mother.
“Oh yes. Definitely.” Then she fell silent again as she withdrew a flowered housedress from her basket and hung it on the line.
“Okay.” Apparently that was all he was going to get. Again, he turned and stared off past the gate. It was hard to look at the woman. There was something terribly sad about her.
“I gave him a red ribbon before he went in. That’s good luck. Did you know that?”
“No. I didn’t.”
The old woman finished hanging her clothes and then picked up her empty basket and began walking toward the back door of the Victorian house. Without looking back at him, she said, “You should get going. I haven’t been to the cathedral in a lot of years, but I remember perfectly well that it was a real long walk.”