Текст книги "The Fall Up"

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And just knowing that we shared something so similar gutted me.

“C’mere,” I said, but I didn’t wait for her to obey. I went to her.

Her arms were tucked between us, but she accepted my embrace, leaning her head into the base of my neck. I backed her toward the bed then turned at the last second and pulled her down on top of me.

“How old were you?” I asked as her stiff body relaxed.

“Eight,” she squeaked.

“That’s a long time ago. Have you ever seen someone…ya know…to talk about it?” I smoothed her curls down and kissed the top of her head.

“Yeah. I did when I was a kid.”

“And recently?” I prompted.

“I don’t really remember her all that well. I mean, I do. But it’s not like she’s haunting me or something. Most of what I remember of her was in the hospital for those three weeks. Then how lonely I felt when she died. She was two years older than me. I wanted to be just like Lizzy when I grew up. Then, one day, I was older than she was. That was really hard.”

I nodded in understanding. It did suck. Anne was three years younger than me. I was older than she’d ever be.

“It’s funny. I don’t remember a ton about Lizzy, but one of my clearest memories of her was the day a celebrity visited the hospital she was at. She was so sick at that point, but the moment he walked in the room, bearing nothing more than a stuffed animal and a T-shirt, she perked up completely. She was laughing and smiling. We thought meeting someone famous was the coolest thing in the entire world. I swear she was a different person for at least a week. It was crazy how something so small meant so much to us back then.”

“Who was the celebrity?” I asked, smoothing a hand down her back in understanding.

“Ric Flair.”

I arched an eyebrow in question. “The wrestler, Ric Flair?”

She nodded with a smile creeping across her lips.

“The Nature Boy, Ric Flair?” I threw in his signature “woo” just so there was no confusion.

She nodded again, her smile stretching wide.

“I honestly have no idea if you’re serious right now.”

She laughed. “I’m completely serious.”

I leaned away to get a full read on her face, still not believing her. “You were a wrestling fan?”

“No! And I think that’s the part that stuck with me. Lizzy didn’t have to know who he was. She just needed to feel special. I worked my ass off to fulfill my dreams of making a living out of music. The split second I got a song on the radio, I started spending my weekends with sick kids. Half of them didn’t even know who I was at first, but they would still smile and laugh as I walked in the room. I saw Lizzy’s face in every single one of them. Once I became more known, the pressure only built. I had to do more. Give more. Be there more.” The words lodged in her throat, and I could feel her heart slamming wildly in her chest.

She was working herself into a panic attack from just talking about it. I couldn’t imagine how she had dealt with it on a daily basis.

“Shhh. Relax.” I squeezed her tight to my chest.

“Goddammit.” She banged her fist against the mattress. “I promised myself I was taking my life back today. And look at me. I can’t even talk about this without losing my shit.”

“Your view on life is seriously warped,” I told her matter-of-factly.

Her whole body flinched, making it clear that those words weren’t the sugarcoating she had been expecting from me. But someone had to tell her.

“You’re not Spiderman.” I smirked.

“And you’re not funny,” she deadpanned.

“Yes, I am. But hear me out. You can’t save everyone. I get it, Levee, because for so fucking long, I felt the same way. Hell, after the way I freaked out when you went missing today, I might still feel that way. But at least I can recognize it. For years, I beat myself up over the fact that I wasn’t there sooner the day my dad killed himself. The guilt ate at me. Until one day, my mom sat me down and explained that I wasn’t Spiderman.” I laughed at the memory. “Keep in mind, I was sixteen when she told me this, not ten. But, God, it was the most freeing thing anyone ever said to me after he died. I was just one person. I couldn’t be everywhere for everyone. Not for Dad. Not even for Anne.”

“Sam, that wasn’t—”

I didn’t give her a chance to tell me what I already knew. “It wasn’t my fault. I know. I just wish I could have done more. It’s the struggle of decent people everywhere. Levee, that’s not a bad feeling to have. It only becomes bad when those wishes consume you and when you get so wrapped up in helping people that you lose sight of the toll it’s taking on you. I could have sat with Anne twenty-four-seven. My mom could have done the same for my dad. You could easily toss your career in the trash and go on a world tour of hospitals everywhere, but how would that affect you? At some point, you have to make your own life a priority. No one else can do that for you. Not a doctor or your family and friends. Hell, not even I can do it. That’s on you, Levee.”

Tears filled her eyes. “That’s not true. You do that for me all the time. I don’t feel so out of control when I’m with you.”

I couldn’t fault her there. She did that for me, too. She was just confused on what it was.

“No I don’t.”

“Yes, you do.”

“No. I really don’t.”

“Yes, you really do!” she snapped, starting to get angry.

I couldn’t help but laugh as she narrowed her eyes at me. I rubbed my fingers over the pinched skin between her brows. “You’re going to give yourself wrinkles if you keep doing that. I need you to stay hot so I can show you off to my friends when you finally let me tell them.”

She swatted my hand away. “You can’t tell me how you make me feel. You’re not in my head.”

“I can tell you whatever I want,” I said indignantly.

“No, you can’t.”

“Yes, I can.”

“No. You. Can’t.” She got even more pissed, and I, once again, started laughing.

“I love you.”

Levee sat straight up as if a bolt of lightning had just struck the bed.

Yep. That was my smooth move. I’d just blurted it out while we had been bickering, fully dressed, in a random hotel room in middle of Maine. That was going to be the story we told our kids about—the magical moment you only get once in a lifetime with someone. It was Sam Rivers’s romance at its finest—completely and utterly ridiculous, but also more honest than anything in the world.

“You what?” she half breathed, half accused.

“Designer shoes, I said, ‘I love you.’ I have for a while. Probably from the moment you used your body to shield the wind so I could light my cigarette. Maybe even before that. It was love at first stalk, Levee.”

“Sam…”

“So, yeah, I can tell you whatever I want. And I’m telling you all I do is offer you a distraction from the rest of your crazy life. It’s a really fucking good distraction, and I’m praying that you love the hell out of that distraction and want to keep it forever. But, at the end of the day, you have to be the one who wants to live. All I can do is be at your side while you do it.” I shrugged simply.

Although, as I stared into her brown eyes, there was absolutely nothing simple about it.

I love her. Now, I had to sit and wait to see if she loved me too.

She held my gaze while a combination of emotions passed over her gorgeous face. Her cheeks pinked shyly. Her lips twitched with humor. Her eyes filled with love. But her mouth said, “You’re a dumbass.”

Well, okay, then.

SAM BARKED OUT a laugh as he confidently folded his arms behind his head but eyed me warily. “Excuse me?”

“I said, ‘You are a dumbass,’” I repeated, but a giant smile threatened to swallow my face.

He loved me. He was also a dumbass, hence why I felt the need to inform him of such information. But, really, I was too busy fighting to keep my feet on the ground while my heart was attempting to soar away. He loves me.

A matching grin formed on Sam’s mouth. “Oh really? How’s that?”

“First, I need you to retract your declaration of love.”

He shook his head and curled his lip in disgust. “No way.”

I turned toward him and crisscrossed my legs in front of me. “You have to! I can’t talk about my ex-boyfriends after you tell me you love me! It’s bad form.”

He tipped his head to the side. “Why in the hell would you feel the need to talk about your ex-boyfriends right now?”

“Because it explains why you’re a dumbass,” I announced before bending forward to touch my lips to his. Pulling away just an inch, I whispered, “It’s a really good story, too.”

Sucking in a deep breath, he grabbed the back of my head and kissed me again. Holding me against his lips, he exhaled on a content sigh. “I’m not retracting anything, but if you absolutely must, I give you full permission to talk about your exes.”

“Okay.” I attempted to sit up, but Sam wasn’t having it.

Instead, he grabbed my leg and pulled me to straddle his lap. Then he stripped my shirt over my head in one swift movement, which was quickly followed by his own. I stared at his mouth-watering, ink-covered chest, noticing for the first time that Anne’s name was woven between the random designs. I reached out to trace my fingers over the black ink, but he caught my wrist and lifted my hand to his mouth.

Kissing the back of my hand, he said, “Now, why am I a dumbass?”

“Oh, right. Thomas Reigns, Chris Spears, Davis Long, and Lee Shultz were all distractions.”

“Jesus, did you date anyone who wasn’t in the NFL?”

“Lee plays baseball.” I shrugged.

“Anyone else?”

“Johnny Depp. But he was so weird.”

“And old,” Sam scoffed, clearly not enjoying my parade of exes.

I giggled as he cussed under his breath. “Anyway, what I’m saying is I’ve had a lot of distractions in my life. So I can say without a single doubt that you, Sam Rivers, are not one of them.”

“Levee—” he started, but I silenced him with a kiss.

“From the moment I first met you, you made the world lighter. You didn’t even know you were doing it at first. But just knowing you would be on that bridge every night soothed the madness that was ricocheting around inside my head. You made me laugh, and like Ric Flair”—I paused while he chuckled—“you made me feel special. The relief I felt in your arms made the craziness manageable. You were never a distraction to me, Sam. You were always my reprieve.”

I smiled, hoping to receive one in return, but as he traced a finger down my cleavage, concern covered the strong angles of his face.

“I fucking love that. I really do. But what if, one day, I’m not there for you? I’m worried that you won’t have the right mindset about this. I can’t fix your problems just by making you laugh.”

“Maybe not. But I’ve been thinking a lot over the last few weeks and especially today. I don’t want to learn how to cope with my old life. I want it to change. I dreamed for years about getting to where I am today, but I’ve lost myself in the spotlight. I miss writing songs, Sam. Did you know I only wrote four of the twelve on my last album?”

He shook his head and began sliding his callused hands up and down my sides. Chill bumps pebbled my skin in their wake.

“I swore I’d never be that artist. Writing music was always my passion, long before I ever even dreamed of taking to a stage myself. I started jotting down lyrics right after Lizzy died—I couldn’t even play guitar yet. Maybe that’s who I’m supposed to be, because I’m quickly realizing I might not be cracked up for the fast lane of fame.”

His hands stilled. “Are you saying you want to quit?”

“No! But maybe taking a step back for a little while isn’t a bad idea. I could write some music and remember why I wanted this life to begin with.”

He skeptically arched an eyebrow. “Levee, I think a break is a brilliant idea. But, if I’m being honest, I’m concerned that, if you don’t get some real help, you’ll find yourself spending even more time at hospitals, killing yourself in a different way.”

God, I loved the way he gave it to me straight. Which was exactly why I knew I could handle this transition with him at my side.

“I’ve always gone to the children’s hospitals, Sam. But it wasn’t until recently that it became some sort of addiction. I need someone who can help me keep that in perspective—to tell me when I start getting off-balance. I’m obsessive about stuff. It’s who I am, but I’m not irrational. Henry used to be my voice of reason, but he has his own life now, and it’s dragging us in different directions.”

Bending down, I kissed him. Then I kissed him again. Then I kissed him as if it were the very last time, and as far as I was concerned, it was. Because, on the flipside of that kiss, I wanted something brand new with Sam.

And I wanted to start it right.

“I fell in love with you when I was at rock bottom. But I’ll never be able to look back on those dark days with anything but a smile. I wanted to jump, Sam, but I never once expected the fall to go up.”

“Jesus, Levee.” He pulled me into a hug. He held me painfully tight and rained kisses over my neck and my shoulder. They weren’t sensual the way I knew Sam’s mouth was capable, but I felt every single one of them deep within my soul.

Gradually, his hands drifted to my breasts, but for the first time since we’d met, I was the one who wanted to talk.

“Wait. Listen.” I leaned away but circled my legs around his waist to keep us connected. “I love you.”

His entire face lit as his eyes smiled.

“And I need you to trust me here. I know you’re still worried about me, but I’m not going back to that place.”

His body tightened, and his eyes squinted suspiciously.

“I want to go home with you, Sam. I’ll see a therapist if that’s what it takes to make you feel comfortable, but I want to end every night with you. Your nightly phone calls and silly pictures have helped me more than any doctor ever could. Take me home and let me struggle with you.”

His head lolled back as he stared up at the ceiling. “That’s not fair. You can’t use my words against me.”

“I’m not using them against you.” I grabbed both sides of his face and tipped his lips to mine. “I repurposed them.” I winked.

He chuckled against my mouth. “Fine.”

I smiled huge. “Fine?”

He let out a resigned growl. “Come home with me, Levee.”

“Okay, okay. If you insist,” I teased.

“I officially insist.” He turned, tossing me off his lap and onto the bed.

His hard body followed, covering me completely. Holding his weight on his elbows at my sides, he lowered his mouth to mine in a hypnotizing kiss that sent heat pooling between my legs. I slid a hand down the back of his jeans and used his ass to grind against him.

“Fuck,” he hissed, his dick thickening between us. “I’m also going to insist you start birth control as soon as fucking possible. I’m done with condoms.” He pushed off the bed and, in one fluid movement, popped the button on my jeans open and dragged them off. His pants quickly joined them on the floor.

Lying in front of Sam in nothing but my bra and panties was more exhilarating than any stage I’d ever stepped foot on. His eyes turned dark and warmth washed over me as they swept up my body.

“You’ve gained weight,” he said, removing my panties.

I wanted to be annoyed, but two of his fingers filled me, and just as quickly, his thumb found my clit. It had been too long without his touch, and my legs fell open, pleading for more.

“You’ll always be beautiful, Levee. But you were too thin before. This”—he guided a hand over my stomach then up to my breasts—“is perfection.”

Pushing up on my forearms, I caught his mouth before he had a chance to straighten back up. My hand cupped the back of his neck as I held his lips to mine, only releasing when his fingers suddenly twisted inside me.

“Oh, God,” I breathed, falling back against the pillows.

Sam stood at the edge of the bed, watching me lose myself in his skilled hands. I opened my eyes long enough to find him working his thick shaft with his free hand while he stared at where his fingers were pumping inside me. He constantly licked his lips, and pure, unadulterated lust covered his face. As if he felt my gaze, his eyes flashed to mine. Absolute love shined in his golden eyes, rendering me unable to look away.

He’d been wrong. That was perfection.

“I want you inside me,” I breathed.

He didn’t answer me, but his hand disappeared as he began searching the ground for his jeans.

I sat up and took his dick in my hand, stilling him by stroking it from base to tip. “No condom, Sam.”

“We need to be safe—shiiiit.” He groaned when I leaned down and laved my tongue over the metal barbell. He threaded his fingers into my hair as I swirled my tongue around the rim of his head and over the salty bead of pre-cum that had formed at the tip.

Peeking up through my lashes, I repeated, “No condom.”

“We can’t,” he complained, but he did it while giving up on the search for his wallet and prowling after me as I scooted up the bed.

“I’ve been on birth control since I was seventeen,” I said while he silently removed my bra. “I’m clean and I’m assuming you are too. Now, fuck me bare. Please.”

His eyes flared wide, but that was the only warning I received. Kneeling between my legs, he slammed inside me. Sex with Sam was always that way.

Needy.

Fast.

Rough.

Incredible.

But, without a barrier between us and with love radiating from his eyes, it was so much more.

It was the end of uncertainty.

And the beginning of us.

For over an hour, Sam alternated between fast and hard, and slow and steady. Whispered “I love yous” echoed between us as he pushed me to the edge more times than I could count, but each time, just before I was able to step off, he’d shift gears. Finally, with a sheen of sweat covering both of our bodies, Sam planted himself to the hilt and emptied inside me as I came crying his name.

No matter how overwhelming my life was from that point forward, there was no way I’d ever be willing to give up those moments with Sam.

I couldn’t change for him. I understood that.

I was making my life a priority for myself.

But, if I got to live it with him at my side, it was an easy choice to make.

LEVEE AND I decided to leave that next morning to head back to San Francisco, and I was already having doubts about bringing her home. I definitely wanted her with me, but it felt all kinds of wrong to take her away from the help I so desperately wanted—needed—her to receive. But, as we drove to the airport with her smiling and laughing beside me, it was easy to pretend that I could handle it.

Maybe I was Spiderman for Levee.

Or maybe I was just setting myself up for my biggest failure yet.

With the exception of a few people stopping Levee for an autograph or a photo, we made it out of Maine virtually unnoticed. However, that wasn’t at all the case when we landed in California. We had taken the same flight, snuggling in first class like newlyweds, but when our plane had landed, we’d gone our separate ways. Levee wasn’t ready for the media attention yet, and as frustrating as it was, I was willing to do anything to keep her stress level as low as possible. Sucking in a deep breath, I begrudgingly walked past her as a large group of people started snapping pictures and calling her name the moment she exited the security area.

Henry’s head of security, Carter, had arranged for two bodyguards to meet her when we landed. I’d only made it a few yards away before my attention was drawn back to the commotion. Nerves settled in my gut as my feet became rooted to the ground. I had yet to truly experience Levee’s celebrity status up close, but my heart raced as a sea of people swarmed around the woman I was irrevocably in love with. It was an unbelievably miserable thirty seconds before she emerged sandwiched between the two giant men.

With a stoic expression and a pair of shades covering her amazing eyes, she looked more like the woman I’d first met than she had in a long time, but the oddest thing happened. Seeing her like that felt wrong. No matter how nostalgic it made me.

Deep down, she’d always be my Designer Shoes, but now, she was also my Levee—the strong and brave woman I was planning to never let go.

Even in a crowd full of people, her gaze instinctively found mine. Tipping her glasses up, she smiled and winked as they hustled her toward a waiting limo. I shouldn’t have done it, but there wasn’t a chance in hell I could have kept it in. Crossing my arms over my chest, I returned her smile, mouthing, “I love you.”

She didn’t respond with words, but her cheeks blushed, giving me all the answer I needed.

After pulling a pair of shades from my backpack, I dropped them over my eyes and walked anonymously to my Jeep in long-term parking.

The night before, Levee had spent two hours arguing on the phone with Henry after she’d informed him that she wasn’t going back to the rehab center. He was worried. And I couldn’t say that I didn’t share his fears, but he’d finally relented when Levee had assured us both that she could continue therapy at home. The idea of having her all to myself during her self-imposed break definitely made it easier for me to accept. It also didn’t hurt that, the minute her bag hit the floor in my bedroom, she was on the phone, scheduling doctor appointments for the rest of the month.

I secretly texted Henry to let him know she was following through with her end of the arrangement. And I guessed he was relieved, even though his only reply was to ask for naked pictures. I sent him an image of a tribe of naked men I’d found on National Geographic online. It wasn’t like he’d been specific or anything. He didn’t find it nearly as funny as I did, responding with a picture of a puppy puking. An amazing and unlikely friendship was born out of those first few messages.

Levee had refused to speak to Devon in Maine. He’d called numerous times and had even gone so far as to show up at the hotel we had been staying at attempting to explain. Levee wouldn’t even tell him our room number. She pretended to be mad, but when her eyes watered every time she ended his call, I could tell she was more hurt than anything else. I, on the other hand, was pissed enough for both of us. I figured she’d want to talk to him eventually, and I hoped that I’d have a chance to cool off by then. I couldn’t imagine that a brawl with Devon would end well for me.

We’d barely been back at my house for two hours, but we had already broken my bed in —twice. Levee was still naked and curled into my side when my phone started ringing with an unidentified call. She hadn’t gone back to pick up her belongings from the center, and until her new cell was delivered the following day, she was using mine as her sole source of communication. I didn’t even bother answering before passing it in her direction.

“Hello?” she said, propping it against her ear so she could continue teasing her nails over my stomach.

I was gliding a hand over her ass when she suddenly sat upright.

“Uh, who is this?” Her gaze flipped down at mine accusingly as she said, “That’s funny because I thought I was Sam’s girlfriend.”

I dove for the phone, but Levee jumped out of my reach, sending me crashing off the end of the bed. Only one woman would use a blocked number to call me, knowing good and damn well I wouldn’t pick up if I saw her name pop up on my phone.

Confirming my suspicions, Levee said, “How long have you and Sam been together, Lexi?”

“Levee, give me the phone.” I pushed up to my feet, but she ducked under my arm and headed to my kitchen.

Oh, this is going to be bad.

Lexi was in-fucking-sane, especially if she thought I was seeing someone new. I couldn’t even imagine the amount of bullshit she was firing at Levee.

“What a prick!” Levee yelled from the other room as I hurriedly tugged a pair of boxers on and following her.

Shit shit shit.

“He told me he loved me,” Levee whined as I cautiously made my way towards her.

Fuck my life.

The moment I rounded the corner, I found Levee in my discarded T-shirt that hadn’t even made it to the bedroom when we’d gotten home. She was bent over, searching the refrigerator with the phone stuck to her ear. Placing her hand over the speaker, she whispered, “Do you have any beer?”

My mouth fell open as she casually went back to talking to Lexi, whimpering, “I can’t believe he would do this to me.”

“Ummm…bottom drawer,” I mumbled, dumbstruck.

She tossed me a wink and pulled out two before passing me one. She clinked the neck of her beer against mine and then tipped it to her lips. I watched in a weird combination of astonishment and confusion.

Shit. Maybe Levee is insane too.

Placing my bottle on the counter, I closed the distance and attempted to take the phone from her hand. Levee laughed, backing away.

“Stop,” she mouthed.

“She’s not my girlfriend. I swear—” I explained, but she silenced me with a finger over my lips.

Pulling the phone from her ear, she pressed the speaker button and dropped it on the counter. Lexi was talking a million miles a minutes and using present tense in reference to our relationship.

I opened my mouth to object when Levee covered it with her palm and wrapped her other arm around my waist, sliding it down into the back of my boxers. Raking her teeth over my earlobe, she whispered, “Is she the one your mom called a bitch?”

A relieved breath rushed from my lungs. Levee was, in fact, insane, but at that moment, it was working in my favor. I nodded, and she leaned away long enough to taunt, “Wait, Lexi, was this before or after he got my name tattooed…” She trailed off while inspecting the ink on my torso. Finding an empty space, she finished with, “On his left side.”

“What?” Lexi screamed.

I attempted to stifle a laugh, only barely keeping it packed down because Levee began dragging openmouthed kisses over my neck.

She paused to say, “Yeah, it’s huge. You definitely would’ve noticed it. I can send you a picture later if you’d like?”

My eyebrows popped up in question before she whispered into my ear, “You can Photoshop that, right?”

I shook my head. Then I shrugged and nodded.

I wouldn’t…but I totally could.

After lifting her to sit on the edge of the counter, I nabbed the phone and handed it to Levee. Whispering, I said, “You are an evil, evil woman. I wasn’t sure I could fall in love with you more. But stop giving her more fuel to be a bitch and hang up.” I gently glided my thumb over her peaked nipple, causing her to gasp.

She smiled, placing a lingering kiss on my lips as she took the phone from my hand and blindly pressed the end button. Locking her legs around my hips, she stated, “You really traded up for me. You know that, right?”

I laughed. “Yeah, I know. Although I figured you’d be serving up my balls as sashimi right about now.”

She laughed. “Why? Because you have a crazy ex?” Wrapping her arms around my neck, she nuzzled her cheek against the scruff on my jaw.

“No, because most women would have bought into all of that shit she was spouting.”

She sighed and leaned away to catch my eye. “I trust you, Sam. And, as hard as it may be, you’re going to have to trust me too.”

I twisted my lips in annoyance. “It’s not hard to trust you.”

“It will be when a magazine publishes pictures of me hugging some guy with the headline that he’s my new boyfriend. You would be amazed at the shit they find to publish about me. Every picture snapped, no matter how innocent, is fair game for them to manipulate.”

“Yeah, I heard you were pregnant with Henry’s love child last month. I’ve been waiting for you to tell me,” I teased, rubbing her stomach.

She slapped my hand away. “One baggy shirt and suddenly I’m knocked up by my best friend.” She groaned and then whined, “It was my favorite shirt, too.”

I chuckled, tucking a curl behind her ear. “I trust you, Levee.”

“That’s easy to say now—”

I cut her off by teetering her on the edge of the counter. “It’s easy to say, period. Give me a little credit here.”

Her shoulders fell as she dropped her forehead head against my chest. “I know. It’s just that I’ve never dated someone who wasn’t in the public eye before. I don’t want to lose you over a tabloid headline you pick up at the grocery store.”

“No, I’m not famous, but I’m not stupid either. Let’s make a deal. You deal with my crazy ex for me, and I’ll deal with the entire fucking world for you.”

Her head popped up with a smile. “Wow! That makes me seem really high maintenance.”

I exaggerated a sigh. “You really are. But I promise you, if the world ever becomes too much and I get jealous over pictures of you dry-humping small-cocked Thomas Reigns”—she laughed, slapping my chest—“I promise I’ll talk to you first, okay?”

Her whole body melted into my arms. “I love you, even when TMZ says otherwise.”

I kissed her neck and teased back, “I love you too, Lexi…I mean, Levee.”

She barked a loud laugh. “Hilarious.”

“I thought so.”

“So, why’d you two lovebirds break up anyway? She seems like such a delightful young lady.” Her voice was thick with sarcasm.

Shrugging, I replied, “She was sleeping with her personal trainer. Showed up two hours late to Anne’s funeral because of it.”

Levee’s eyes flared wide, and her mouth gaped for only a second before she shrieked, “That bitch!”

“She’s nice enough, just—”

“Nice enough?” she asked, incredulously. “I’m gonna put a hit out on her!”

“Okay, hold on there, Tony Soprano. No one’s putting a hit on anyone.” I paused. “Just to be clear, you don’t have those kind of connections, right?”

“No, but I have money! I’m sure I can buy some connections,” she answered in all seriousness.

I fucking love her.

Dipping down, I folded her over my shoulder.

“What kind of person does that? Your sister had just died!” She continued to rant as I carried her back to the bedroom.

“Let it go,” I said, tossing her on the bed.

“I can’t let that go!” she replied, lifting her arms so I could tear the shirt over her head.

“Okay, then don’t. But can you open your legs so I can eat your pussy while you mentally defend my honor?” I smirked, crawling up the bed after her.

“Such a bitch,” she mumbled, dropping her legs open wide.

They were the last audible words I heard from her before my mouth sealed over her clit. A long, garbled moan escaped her throat as her hand snaked into my hair. I’d fucked her twice already, but my cock instantly became hard beneath me.