Текст книги "SpyCorp"

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The DESIRE OBJECT – is an image of a person who is sexually attractive for the Lead Hero. It may represent a personalized object from his or her supposed sexual fantasies.

The DESIRE ACTION – is action desired by the Lead Hero as one of the best possible ways of achieving the pleasure.

The DESIRE PLACE – is a place which is supposed to be one of the best places for reaching the pleasure.

The REALITY RATE / RFR / REALITY-FANTASY ADJUSTMENT LEVEL – is a level defined as the proportion of person’s possible actions in reality in conditions of absolute availability to the person’s actions in fantasy. RFR is defined in the range from zero to one (or in the range from 0% to 100%). That means that if the person’s RFR is zero, he or she would like to do nothing from his or her fantasies despite having such fantasies. And another way he or she would like to do everything from his or her fantasies if his or her rate is defined as 1 (or 100%). Right determination of person’s RFR helps to adjust his or her fantasies to what he or she would like to do in reality.

The POSSIBILITY RATE / PFR / POSSIBILITY-FANTASY ADJUSTMENT LEVEL – is a level defined as the proportion of the volume of what is possible to perform regarding the sources available to the Agency to all the actions desired by the person in his or her fantasies. PFR is defined in the range from zero to one (or in the range from 0% to 100%).

The FULL REALITY RATE / FRFR / PRFR – is a mathematical result gained as multiplication of RFR and PFR or proportion of what is possible and wanted by a person in reality to what is wanted by a person in fantasies. Rate is defined from 0 to 1 (or 0% to 100%).

The COMPENSATION RATE / CR (FRFR) – is an inverse number to FRFR. It determines what actions value should be added to deliver the full pleasure achievement.

The FULL PLEASURE ACHIEVEMENT LEVEL / FPAL – is a mark defined as a level in which the person is satisfied with the actions and elements of the scenario. Each element of the scenario depending on its specifics, a perception of the person and the position in time contributes its marginal value to the pleasure achieving. A scenario is balanced when FPAL is close to 100%.

The PLEASURE – feeling of absolute joy, happiness, and general emotional elevation together with the extensive production of endorphins in an organism.

Nov, 7. Evening. from Dictaphone Record. by Martin

Today we had one more interview with Susan. This one was bigger than the previous. And information appeared to be even more specific than before. The girl told us that they engaged some other person in the act of voyeurism and by this, she explained a connection between two parts of the video I watched before doing an interview. She also told us that all of this was rehearsed. I just unfolded another envelope with more of secret files in it. And there I found a video file that possibly proves this fact. Girls in this video do the same things as in previous one, but it happens in another place, and there is a tall dark-haired woman instead of the woman in the dark. And also they do the same things, repeating acts many times, memorizing. As they do it all, the dark-haired woman, who I suppose is the head girl, about whom Susan told us, directs their actions. At least it looks so. It is hard to say exactly what they do as there is no audio track attached to the footage and you can’t hear what they are talking about. But I think she directs them. She looks to be very sure and a bit bossy with all these motions she makes. She has some manner. She is pointing to something, sometimes. She’s telling them what to do as it looks. I mean she looks like a leader. Also except new video files, I entertained myself with a description of some terms about which Susan told us. These are the terms they use in the Agency in the process of work. That is a particular science slang, I should admit. That was especially funny to learn about these rates – RFR, RFRF and others like these. And also I finally learned what the pleasure is. That is very useful to know. … Absolute joy … emotional elevation … production of endorphins. The government says we need to increase high-tech production in next years and that is one of the priorities for the nation. But it looks like they don’t know anything about the increase of endorphins production. And it isn’t listed among what they think to be the national priorities.

When the interview was over, I asked Elise whether she would like to stay to see some additional material connected to the facts we investigated. She said she needed to go home. I don’t blame her because we stayed some couple hours after hours. I just asked in case. We agreed with Susan on our next interview. It will take place as soon as tomorrow. She told me that her story was still a long one to tell. I am not surprised about this as I know exactly how many unopened envelopes with other people’s secrets I have. It is a long story to tell. So, I’m glad that the girl is so friendly with us and she is ready to give us as many interviews as we will ask from her. I wonder about her enthusiasm. Does she feel herself a little like in a TV show? Does she feel it can give her the fifteen seconds of fame? There is a very known and battered idea. It says that everyone thinks he has a story worth to write a book about, worth to make a film. And she probably thinks that her story is a special one. More fantastic than the stories of others. Actually, it is possible that the girl is right. No matter whether it is a truth or a tale.

Nov, 8. Susan’s Interview Three. from Dictaphone Record. by Martin and Elise

Martin: After you were allowed to participate as a player – if I call it right – in the Agency’s activities for the first time, how soon it was you returned there?

Susan: That was quite soon, in a couple of days. After that, we were often at the place.

M.: We?

S.: I mean Jane and me.

M.: Oh, yes, of course. Please, continue. You went there a couple of days later and then… did you start to prepare for the next thing? I mean, a next game.

S.: In some way. But actually, no. We were learning. True. It was more about having fun for me. It was like some pretty cool leisure. I was mentally relaxing after a dull work I am doing.

M.: But when your next time came? Was there any next time?

S.: Yes, there was. It was in a little more than a week.

M.: But in this week you visited the Agency’s house several times?

S.: Yes, at least three times. I think.

M.: But what were you doing if you were not preparing for the… next thing?

S.: We prepared for the next thing too. But more it was – I would say… Actually, I was spending my time in a great company. And I’ve learned a lot of useful things there.

M.: Things? Sex things?

S.: Yes, mostly about sex. It changed my understanding of the matter really seriously. Jess read us a couple of interesting lectures, and I learned some practical things too.

M.: You mean it was like some school?

S.: Someway. Kinda. It was the academy to me. I would call it the Academy of the Venus [giggle]. In general, you know, Jess was indeed like some teacher. She told us about the history of eroticism in art… And about human perception of it through the centuries in general. She also told us about concepts of sex in different historical and ethnic cultures and some other very interesting things. Gosh, she is very smart. She is. Yeah.

M.: Can you tell us about the technology used by the Agency? What about all these terms and these rates? I mean, reality-fantasy and others alike. Seems quite weird.

S.: You know?!

M.: Yes, I have a paper, this one. I received it from the same source that told me about you. Don’t ask me who it is, because it is a secret, but I just have this paper, and I was told I had to talk to you.

S.: Oh, really?!

M.: And… what about these terms and rates?

S.: Yes. Jess explained us it all. When I first saw it, I was a bit puzzled. But Jess is one who knows how to explain everything in a few words. Well, reality-fantasy rate and possibility-fantasy rate, that means… that means that we should estimate how much it is possible. What we can afford from person’s wish list. You need to know what the person dreams about. And if we can’t do it all, we should try to compensate it with something. Maybe to do something that has… a value to it. An example can be when a person dreams of making love with elves…

E.: With Elves?

S.: Yeah. But we can’t give it, kinda. But maybe we can arrange that this person will have a sexy adventure featuring someone dressed as elf or we should propose something that will do well to a person who as we know have fantasies about elves. I mean that we kinda know what this person’s fantasies are. We should use it to please a person, adequately estimating our sources, our possibilities. Jess says it is all the same, no matter whether it is industrial production, some services or some filmmaking. It is the same in any production. I mean our unlimited wishes and real possibilities. And stuff.

M.: Oh… Got it.

E.: And you said about art. I mean that you learned there about eroticism in art. What was that you learned? I mean at least can you tell us what authors you had discussed?

S.: Authors? Well. There were guys like… Velasquez, Botticelli, Helmut Newton and also this one – forgot the name – Collier. And there were many others.

M.: So, it was the art you discussed in these lessons? If it is possible to call it lessons, of course.

S.: Not only this. We also discussed the types of sexual fantasies. It all was learned by me during the first week. There were other things next week too. And it all was fascinating [giggle]. Fantasies, as Jess told us, are as different and complicated as the people who have them. Every person has some very private set of own fantasies because it is part of her unique individuality. Jess explained to us why it is important to remember about a personal side of the question every time you deal with person’s intimate part of mentality. But no matter, as we should have some practical view about our doings, we should classify people’s fantasies. And then there is still a question of proper choice among classified items when you deal with individual, but not with the mass of people. And also, there are some most common fantasies people enjoy. There are fantasies when one would like to pretend to be a teacher or a student – it is called the school fantasies no matter what kind of school it is, secondary school, college, university or even an imaginary school. If you want an example, it can be a school of sex. Or some kind of the magic academy, it doesn’t matter. There is sports type, and it is when a person would like to have sex with sportsmen or sportswomen or to have it in some athletic or training… way. There are different types of S&M fantasies, of course. And in this case, you should know what a person would like to be – submissive, dominant or both, and what extent. And there are also some physical and emotional aspects of perception. A person may like only some soft spanking or a more hardcore thing. A person may like something hard. Or to be punished more morally than physically. In some cases, a person may even enjoy punishment and humiliation in the presence of someone else. And it is crucial that this third one would be present as it makes humiliation a more real thing. I learned that. It is because, for some people, it is an excellent way to relax and to let another one to do things to her or his body. To receive more pleasure you need to relax as completely as possible and take off your control and your defense. When a person takes off clothes, it is not for sure that the defense is off too. And it also may be a useful thing as some people enjoy to make love with someone whom they feel to be strong and powerful. It is a very animal way. I mean a natural thing. And the other way, a person may like to dominate someone just to feel himself or herself more confident and sure and then more relaxed too. And also, preferences about clothes, costumes may differ. There are many things like this. Many guys like a woman to be dressed in sexy policewoman dress. Others prefer a lot of black latex. S&M is very common type today as I know. In general, Jess said you could make a picture of people’s mass preferences through an understanding of what is typical for porn films today. She said it is even not because porn industry exactly knows what people want. But it is because people’s tastes and demands are defined by porn as they start to watch it in very young years and it affects their secret sexual desires very much. It kinda affects their fantasies.

And one of the most important things I’ve learned about the fantasies is that the person’s reality perception may be different from what he dreams about. Yes… And it’s OK. Some woman may dream about rape, but it doesn’t mean she would really like it in reality. Actually, one can’t really dream about rape, because what one dreams about is a pleasurable and desirable thing. And rape is an unwanted thing. It is some misssterming… It is an issue of terms. Mixture of terms. It is not a rape this woman dreams about, but a specific kind of sexual intercourse. I mean sex in some specific conditions. And it is a wanted one. And there are a lot of such things too. You should adjust the desired to the reality, I mean. And stuff like this.

And also, Jess gave us a separate lecture on the celebrity fantasies. She said it doesn’t matter that the people don’t fantasize about it too much, though they do, of course. And it is not true that they do it very rarely. People don’t fantasize a lot about stars as they feel it is almost impossible to make love to a star, but high status is something that was always of a high sexual attractiveness for any tribe or group of people. She said it is something of nature for people. She explained to us why exactly Freud would agree with her theory, her understanding of it.

M.: And why?

S.: It is because… it is at the core of people’s mentality. It has biological roots. And something. People gathered in tribes like animals gathered in the flocks to have additional opportunities which can be provided by society. And so, someone who is on top of the group is always more desirable. That is why, no matter how much the people have it in mind, they most probably would like it. Stardom is a very sexy thing [giggle]. The problem is that it is not so easy to turn a celebrity fantasy into action.

M.: Well. And that was all that happened that week?

S.: No. I also spent some time in their library on the advice of Jess. They kept there a lot of different sex manuals from ancient ones of China and India to contemporary ones. I read seldom, but I read a couple of books there. Jess told me that the manuals have too many things about anatomy sometimes. And it isn’t about what we dream about, but such things can be useful. It can be useful, I mean if you comprehend it properly. You just should learn not to learn only the technology of it. I mean you should perceive it all rather spontaneously like some kid exploring a new area. It is the best way to do it like a kid. And that was one more new thing to me…

Actually that day I saw a new girl. Her name was Barbara. Barbara was a fantastic beauty. I saw her only couple of times during all those days. She had impressive looks. Heavy breasts and hips that were perfectly rounded. And she seemed quite curvy when her waist was proportionally perfect at the same time. I mean it was quite a slim waist. She was probably a little taller than average woman’s height. She always had some scent of superiority around her. She didn’t talk too much and was mostly introverted. And she wore – as I understood it – luxury clothes only. She was an awesome thing. I felt real envy about her.

And the final thing for me that day at the mansion was a visit to a room of Jess again. She said that she would give me… some kind of homework. Time after time. She got out from her chair and stretched out her hand to a shelf behind her where there were a lot of folders. She started to choose one of them moving her palm over them. I don’t know, maybe this one or maybe that. That was the very interesting case indeed. She was saying. Something like this. And then she picked up some folder accidentally, I think, and gave it to me. She told me I should’ve investigated it. She said exactly this word – investigate. She told me I should’ve read and watched what was in there and properly analyzed it on the basis of what I’ve learned in the Agency and then I was supposed to give her my full report and my opinion on it. As I almost physically felt there had to be something very unusual and she said that it wasn’t an urgent matter, I decided that I would probably open that folder sometime later.

Nov, 8. Evening. Private Audio Diary of Elise. by Elise

That was another interview with Susan. And it was kinky. Again. I would say the girl told us about some of her sexual education if in this case, I can call it this. Some people are proud of their university education if they went to something like Yale, Cambridge or Oxford. This time it seems we found a blonde who is proud of something much more specific. Maybe I am just exaggerating it all. Yes, I most probably do. A little. But the girl is really thinking she is telling us a wonderful story. Interesting one. It is an unusual story if only at least half of it is true. Otherwise, it is usual unusual lies. The most interesting – at least to me, because I wouldn’t say for Martin – was that the girl possessed some knowledge about fine art. And it is even more interesting that she possessed this knowledge thanks to this extravagant Agency. Gosh! Before, I knew about Velasquez and that he painted a nude Venus who looks in the mirror and her hip is sexily attacking viewer’s attention, but I didn’t know who Collier is. I didn’t tell it to anybody. I exactly mean those two who were in the studio’s room except me. It’s not a big shame. When I was at home, and when I ate enough, I was still hiding my secret little shame. Just for me, it looks like a shame to know less than some talkative sex-addicted blonde who likes to show off. And then I launched my computer to open Wikipedia to reveal who this Collier was. And John Collier was an outstanding Pre-Raphaelite artist who painted some fine portraits. He actually created pictures featuring nude beauties like Lady Godiva. As I saw the artwork, I was almost astonished. I even have a feeling that I would like to visit Herbert Art gallery where this picture should hang. Just to see it. There is a very fine delicate girl who is nude and sits on a horse. She looks very fragile, and that isn’t how you would imagine the past masters to paint the noblewoman of early middle ages. At least, I finally learned something new about beautiful things with a little help of this blonde girl, despite the fact that most of what she brings to the seashore of my mind is like some garbage that needlessly floated from far away. I will try to think more about the Lady Godiva and Pre-Raphaelites, but not about things I am irritated about. Relax Elise, honey. Wish I have a good night’s sleep.

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Some Notes on Sexual Attractiveness of Tennis Players. from Dictaphone Record. by Martin

It is a lovely, but also specific question – why do tennis players seem to be so incredibly attractive to so many people of the western civilization? In a wide range of sportswomen, tennis players are the patented sexual objects. And magazines like Playboy are fighting to get the famous WTA person to their covers. And they succeed in this complicated matter only in rare cases. A possible reason for this is that the contemporary pro tennis players are so famous and so wealthy that Playboy hardly can add anything of worth to this richness and stardom. To make some real tennis pro pose for a men’s magazine, one should have some great luck with it. It is undoubtedly easier to undress some pro photo model of highest level than some tennis woman of the same ranking. Models accept it as a part of their profession. But why tennis? If I would mentally go through the top beauty list of those who play shielded under the Women Tennis Association, I would not find more of pretty women than there are in other competitions. The fact of course, that there are some impressive items on this list. And maybe I don’t know everybody.

There are other kinds of sports that, as it looks to me, definitely have a higher concentration of beauties, in percentage terms. Of course, my TV sports viewer experience doesn’t make me the leading expert in any sports statistics. But it is also true that like many other people who have some at least limited interest in sporting competitions, I notice pretty girls, their athletic efforts, and their fitting uniforms. And so, my very private opinion is that the tennis isn’t the number one sport by the concentration of beauties. I would prefer to give this position to a free gymnastics. Maybe what makes them less attractive is that they often wear quite similar uniforms and a heavy makeup together with the fact that they don’t win those million prizes as tennis players do. But talking about looks only, that seems to be quite evident to me that the world of free gymnastics is full of small, pretty and plastic young women.

There is also such a kind of sporting activity as figure skating. Probably there are as many beauties as in free gymnastics. And there are still more of pretty girls than in tennis if we talk about percentages and concentrations. These two sports should be very close to the maximum level as I suppose. Can a tennis player go to the site of competition dressed in policewoman costume decorated with a lot of rhinestones? And a figure skater can. In a matter of costumes, figure skating represents the leader of attractiveness. When of course, it is for sure that the tennis uniforms are one of the advantages for the WTA girls. But no matter figure skaters seem to be not less attractive. And again there is maybe a fact of their lower earnings. Actually, in addition to a list of beautiful sports, I would add snowboarding. And when tennis girls are advantageous with their clothes, then snowboarders are not so. They actually wear masks. Their goggles hide half of the face. And their equipment hides entire figure. That is the case when uniforms are not fitting, and you don’t know how good-looking a girl is. But if regarded in a more casual suit, some of the snowboard women are very attractive. And they are indeed very flexible same way as girls in gymnastics and figure skating. I think movements in snowboarding may be very close to those in some dance. Actually, I suppose that it all may be connected to the estrogen levels somehow. What I mean is that the estrogen makes women more good-looking. It makes their features smoother. Sure, coaches don’t select for prettier girls. They need results, but not looks. But some sports require more of flexibility, and others require more of strength. Strength is stimulated by the testosterone that is opposite to the estrogen. And flexibility is another quality that depends on the estrogen. That is why good looks together with a general female attractiveness go well with flexibility. For instance, pro dancers were always attractive in this way. But again, these sports with flexible women are less lucky on the side of incomes if compared to the WTA stars, I would repeat it. But is it only money? When playing tennis like a pro, a woman may earn as much as a man which is a rare, if not a unique case in the world sports. And the popularity of female competition isn’t lower than this of men’s tour.

But still, when we talk about tennis, some things may look as downsides. If we talk about its sexuality. It is considered that the men adore female players to scream that loud. But I would say that not all of the men do. And an example is me. Usually, it isn’t very feminine. I believe it is a rather rude and maybe even a stupid association of this screaming with sounds that a woman releases during sexual intercourse. And in this way that is subconsciously – more correct to say almost subconsciously – linked to the success in the intimate part of life. If a woman screams this way when you do that kind of thing to her, then you are a great lover. That should be a logic. But I still don’t think it is as attractive as it may be rude. I may like a woman to be loud in the process. But I hardly would like her to be that loud. Imagine someone screaming right to your ear a hundred decibels Oh-Yes scream. A result of few such orgasms may be some stage of deafness. You will be lucky to have your ears sound. I believe it is a very fine thing when a woman breathes out. Softly. Or some very delicate whispering sounds of ecstasy. It is only my own taste, but no matter I just can’t get why those loud tennis screams are so great to others. Maybe there is some animal side in it. I mean there someone may see a force of an animal. Human females don’t behave like this at any other place, but tennis court. And sport is something like a very civilized fight of human animals. All that physical tension and toughness. Male and female species are fighting to prove their superiority in rights of prolonging their genetic lines. Would Freud agree with this? Actually, he didn’t know about genetics in a modern way, but he knew the rest of it. And even without knowledge of genetics, an entire thing stays to be the same.